Poems...

Title: I Don't Believe Poet: Eve

I used to believe there wa so much inside me
That was bursting to come out
To see the world

I used to believe that i could make a difference
To someone
somewhere
sometime

I used to believe that someone would appreciate me
The way I would appreciate her
That what was inside of me would shine
The way others shined on me

I used to think that I could start anew
A clean slate
Wherever I went
Far away where no one knew me and my past

I used to think I could create a new face
And that people could see past it
And look inside my heart my mind

I tried so hard to be someone else
To be the people around me and always failed
But yet being myself will never be enough

I will never shine
Just being me

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Title:Depression Poet:Shannon

When I sit at home
Staring out the pouring rain
Wishing I was in Rome
Enduring all the pain

I feel my heart beat
And I feel myself bleed inside
My tears start flowing
Like a river running

Outside I am a happy child
Because I have on a fake smile
While inside I am cold
And I weep a mile

As I stare out the window
Tears of sorrow ; continue to flow
My heart continues break
As the wooden floor continues to creak

I feel messep up
I am depressed
Everything as i knew
Has vanished like dew

As days pass
My depression ceases
As I know God Almighty
Who brought me out
Will show me
How to live life to the fullest

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Title:Stronger Poet:Loneranger(Tristan)

Round and round
Bouncing up and down
Life's incomplete without rain and storm

Who says life must live to the fullest?
My life goes on even if it's the dullest
No one can ever tells that's senseless

As I flip through the paper
The world is changing like ever
So as the heart of people

My life is in my own hand
It's not simply by a magic wand
Destined and determined by my own strength

Thank those that ditched my effort
As time passes I'm wiser and blessed
Without your doubts my life is empty like desert

You,he,she,they,you all know who you are

I can prove you wrong
As now I'm still standing strong
Humming the glory's song...

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Title:Over Poet:Loneranger(Tristan)

It is over
Whatsoever
Things become clearer

Learn to accept
All the debt
That you made

Don't take for granted
All you wanted
Don't really needed

Take things easy
Or else you'll be sorry
Always there to angry

Friends are like weather
It changes whenever
One after another

Here they come,there they go;
Eternity is a nonsense
Forever is an illusion
Everlasting is a lie.

Whether it's a...joke or whatever,
You'll be end up as fool!!!
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PS : Cherish people beside you before they changed their attitude towards you.Maybe you are right or maybe not but then learn to accept and face it!Time passes they'll know that you still the best!Cheer up! :) u r not alone....heartbreakers!

week~!

Next week is the last week before my first ever semi-formal exam in my A level studies in SYUC.Godness!I'm so nervous though i din show any effort to work harder :p....i'm juz not gud at memorizing those err...y'know like law or econ.My gosh!If u look at the workloads of those law thingy tht require to squeeze into ur little tiny brain.Bet u'll be quite surprise.Every topic is a must for memorizing jobs...neither one can be excluded!Imagine i got around 10 over topics in my pocket!Well...bless me...do nothing but juz bless me tht i can finish inserting all those law principles,cases,acts and codes into my wateva part of my brain...i'm not expect for A or what juz don't let my result look bad tht i can't bear to even take a single look k?Econ?hmm...all i know 'till this moment,it's all bout graphs...vertical/horizontal...relations...costs...demand/supply...wateva i don't give a blardy damn!How i wish there r others subject to take up better than 2 of these in SYUC....GP?er...possibility of failing= 100/100 = 1(absolute failing).I can't write 'beautiful/flowerish' English lar...my grammatical skill sux most da time...i don't think much when writing the 800 words essay juz shoot wateva comes to my mind err..without even bother to pause!If force to think well maybe 800 words in 1 1/2 hrs for me is totally absudity.Betcha know tht too Ms Joy~

Went to Borders twice this week.8 books in my list now.Too bad my wallet and saving acct. recently on 'diet' or well if u call tht kinda rationing or other terms well it's da same~.Means?No money.Grand total for 8 of those books = RM400...but my budget RM200...so cruel hav to cut down half of it to RM200...T_T hope for some sponsorship or subsidies...anyone?pls contact Mr Ng at 012-7XXXXXX or email personally.

Watched 'Exorcism of Emily Rose'...well,i thought it's kinda horror movie but i'm wrong.It's all bout law trial of kinda mysterious and arguable case.A controversial between whether the law should accept facts or religious/hidden powers?2 hrs long of watching,u can say it's ~*yawning* or interesting due to the issues and arguements tht goin on!up 2 u to decide...but for me prob. i'll give it a thumb up.I like it!(although it's revolvong around the ahem *cough* "LAW" but it's quite interesting when u saw sumthin u learned on book actually happened in the movie...)...u'll learn tht things tht other ppl won't cos they don't noe bout law principles and rules.the jury,the trial,the procedure,the evidence,leading question by attorney and many other law terms...(well for tht movie,the jury actually found the defendant guilty but the last decision falls on the judge and the judge acquitted the priest...),i won't say i totally agree with the judge since there r some absurdity elements like hidden powers,monstrous,satanist....which more than juz facts!At least it left some space for me to think deeper and over...nice!

I watched "Harry Potter and The Goblet of Fire" as well on today FINALLY,cos telebooking can't seems to workout for tht movie and crowds are seen in every cinema for HP...ppl around juz mad over it!!!But for those HP fans out there should then knew wat the story earlier cos the book came first.And the movie is also da same CG tht did all of the settings.Nothing surprising for the whole movie...juz feel bad tht Cedric died and Van Dermolf alive...juz wait for the next movie to come out(The Order of Phoenix) correct me if i'm wrong...i'm not a hardcore HP novels fan.

amber chia leh!

Today went to 'Tough' outfit at Times Square and then saw Malaysia's Super Model Amber Chia...beside me!So happy.She is so tall and pretty!She speaks Cantonese!She's sooooo nice and glamour!Can't believe she just stand beside me.And that time the whole shop only got me and her only excluding their staff...2 customers!!!!!Ahhh damn lucky...unfortunately din take picture at all!damn!

Today nearly got my handphone cheated by some conman in KLCC...luckily i'm wiser now and know how to handle after that incident after Form 3!!!hehe!

sien...

Yesterday went to Singapore with Charles and Felicia aka Kengpo...actually the weather wasn't that good and so it's comfortable to bury inside my blanket.But then i'm so wanted badly to go Spore...so it's like no other way gotta woke up damn early to rush to custom to meet them.We reach there at 10 something then went to Ang Mo Kio first cos CY wanna service his MP3 player...and then after that we headed to Orchard Rd. then went to Takashimaya for lunch in Yoshinoya...KP said wanna buy her present then we bought her a pair of Disney's animation character tees from Giordano.phhewww...finally-_-!

Aha!then as usual we sure went to Heeren cos my fav. HMV is there,i'd been wandering aound the Jpop section for about 1 and half hours...haha!Try out few CD there but quite disppointed esp. Zone's and Day After Tomorrow ...not what i'd been expected.So i din buy both.I just bought ...thought of buying the other 10 yrs of singles too but convert to RM it's like not that worth cos here only selling like Rm56...but Sg selling SGD 29 x 2.215(the rate yesterday)...so in conclusion = buy here better...then again went to Action City and sapu many funny decorative things back lah...waste of money heheZ!

Been looking for the only Popular at Orchard Rd but i think it has closed down cos last time it was below the SIngtel's Hello! building but now it is nowhere to be seen!!!....then just went to the nearest Kinokuniya at Takashimaya...omg the book price there damn expensive like hell compare to Msia.for example by Catherine Elliot and Francis Quinn i bought at Sunway bookstore only about Rm68 but Kinokuniya Takashimaya selling for SGD 64.90....x 2.215 and see how much difference.Too much lah.I ended up buying a small little pocket sized book.SO disappointed cos i still thought of buying a few books back included GP book lah!

After Orchard trip we went all the way to East Coast dunno for what lah!Went so far until Downtown East and East Coast only for Cycling along East Coast(CY...ur brilliant suggestion)...i was like bathing in mud after finish cycling cos splashed by muddy water.Plus sweaty and wet(raining~drizzling btw!)...like suffering more!We cycled for about an hour and about few km...then all of us so sluggish and sweaty went to take MRT and slept inside haha!cos gotta from East Coast to City Hall convert to Kranji...whole journey about 45 minutes...imagine how far it is.Nad finally when we reached Kranji took off 170 still thought of can take a forty wink inside the bus but then we met the terrible as usual traffic jam.OHHHHHHHHHH MYYYYYYYYYY GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD...alight the bus at the middle of the road to a deserted Woodland Rd....practically not far from Kranji station walk alllllllllllllll the wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy to Checkpoint(i think about 3-4 km)....dragging our tiredness to the custom...then after passed the custom so lazy to wait for bus again...so decided to (again) walk all the way across couseway to JB City Square...ohhh my god by the time i reached CS i'm melted and soften...haha...no strength at all...then gotta took JB's bus to Century Garden(granpa hse) to meet my parents there........................i hate JB's bus.

fyi : i reached my granpa hse at 10 pm...in total my whole trip was 14 hours!!!!so damn dead meat!but really happy and fun...i wanna go East Coast for cycling again!!!So nice!!! :)

ps. i won't be blogging so often for this month cos my exam falls on the end of this month...gotta buck up to study.So will be coming back frequently on the early of December!!!!Good luck!

hehe...

Yesterday went to NEWAY and WAtch movie...hmm...yeah out of sudden i'm stuck on my voice half way through singing!Dunno y it's like i'm choked for 1/2 an hour...totally can't speak!or maybe bcos i'm using too much of vocal strength?I dunno?

Watched 'Corpse Bride'...well...my comment is don't watch it unless u prepare pillow and blanket for urself inside cinema.Luckily,the entire show eats up only like 1 and 25 minutes(short...)but it is enough to put u to sleep,believe me!It's more like a stage music show than a formal movie style.Nothing impressive and so-so story line.Kids might be enjoying but not for adult(those that would prefer action movie,extreme story line and setting,u may be disappointed!).Well,i really disappointed after the show.It's just another case of wasting of money.

sick...

Songs i'm currently listening to :

1. Do As Infinity - Hiiragi/Buranko
2. Day After Tomorrow - Lost Angel/Neverland
3. Zone - Secret Base ~Kimi ga kureta mono~
4. Orange Range - Hana
5. X Japan - Tears
6. L'arc-en-ciel - Spirit Dream Inside
7. Tomiko Van - Again
8. Ayumi Hamasaki - Heaven/Will
9. Koda Kumi - Cutie Honey
10.Ai Otsuka - Momo no hanabira/Planetarium

Albums that i wanna buy :

1. Zone - Zone E A-side complete singles collection
2. Globe - 10 years of singles collection
3. Globe - Globe2 pop/rock
4. L'arc-en-ciel - Awake
5. Day after tomorrow - Complete Best Singles Collection
6. Do As Infinity - New World (live performance collection) <<<<< the only DAI album i missed out...excluding the latest farewell album 'Do The A-side'(since i got most of the song inside so i won't buy this!)
but so sad they'd gone T_T

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Well, my friend had complained that i'm using to many of vulgarity in my journals and asked me not to mention the name of the particular person involved directly!
I will try to reduce the using of vulgar words in future as i wanna be a more 'cultured' person and i won't point out a person's name directly and 'vulgarize' them.I'm so sorry hereby if i really make people felt uncomfortable after reading my journals.Sorry for a million!I mean nothing,everything juz came out of fun and i don't expect too much.So,don't take it too serious k?I'm just sumtimes too boring got nothing to do!

But this i gotta say that blogging is the only way for me to voice up.But i have a rule for myself which is after i finished a posting i'll just 'let bygones be bygones'(for unhappy incident) and try not to take it to heart.It is very straight forward.Maybe sometimes i won't mention it in front of people but sure i will mention in my blog and then commented on it but that doesn't means that i'm a backstabber or 2 faced.This can be very subjective as if you really understand my purpose of blogging.Expressing innerself...voice out...speak straight....for?...me only!I'm not intend to publicize it for everyone scrutiny.Well most of the time i know those 'regular' visitor are people whom such as XXX(can't mention name here),spammers,'unintended' visitors,few less than 5 of my pals.That's it,I won't promote this blog for the time being as yeah! again i won't repeat my objective and purpose for this blog...scroll back and read thoroughly again if really wanna know!

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