Har...!

Out of the blue...something caught my mind.

C-H-E-M-I-S-T-R-Y

I can't help but to swear out a few words of glory, I used to score A2 for that during SPM but of course given my mediocre standard A2 at that time was pretty good already.However, that doesn't imply anything good for future consumption also.I can't even remember a shit for good!

Not even the basic ones seriously,

Can someone tell me what is,

Empirical Formula
Stoichiometry
Chemical Bonding
Masses
Periodic Table
Transition Elements
Oxidation and Reduction
Acids,Bases,Salts
Organic Chemistry
Electrochemistry
Atomic Structure
Thermochemistry
Chemical Equilibria
Formulae,equations,solutions,calculations sekalian...*.*

I used to love Organic Chemistry during Form 5 a lot partly because I was lucky enough to be bestowed with one of the best Kimia tutors in JB...she motivated the whole class with her easy yet compact teachings!Don't even mention about my school's Kimia teacher back then, like useless only.And so, I don't know how...Calculus shouldn't be a problem anymore but Chem and Physics are a bit out of track, long gone.Guess I need to skip meals for Chem's revision, skip sleeping times for Physics and skip a bit of leisure times for Bio. Bio is not much a problem given that ability of memorising is the core to key of success + tad bit of comprehension la...

Well, have to stem the tide no matter how this time. I won't allow the past history to repeat again today! But I often heard from ppl that Physics is easier than Chem at times...it all depends I think. Physics is more on calculations and deep understanding of physical elements but Chem you have to base a lot on theory and imagination cos you can't see the reactions happen with naked eyes...somehow...depends la!

School's starting soon I'm happy :) but a bit sad :( though.

Have to pump in 5 times more efforts than the others...which apparently will be younger than me in age :s .Afterall, bak kata pepatah "agi idup agi ngelaban"...although SAT is ngegeh banget but in order not to throw 64 USD down the drain, I have to get over it no matter what.

***

Today around 5 in the afternoon I heard police siren around, dad came back and told us there was a murder case happened in our neighbourhood just few houses away from mine there was this family of three where the wive was being strangled to death by wires. And the son was upstair without even noticed that his/her mum was being murdered. No signs of being ransacked or break in by robbers but they suspect,

1)that it must had been done by either robber who accidentally killed the lady and later ran away out of panic without taking anything valuables along.

2)Insider's job which concluded by us after some laymen discussions.The husband(my dad knows him!) did not have alibi. So we suspect he could have be the murderer where he mocked up the whole scene by murdered his wife and went out then came back pretending he did not realise it until he was back...somehow it was weird that the son could not hear anything during the incident...well these all have to leave them to the crime investigation department!CSI~

OMG~I can't stop murmuring OMG! somehow...it just reminded me about how many past incidents of murdering happened in my neighbourhood.Let me list out,

1)I saw a teenage girl being pulled forcefully into a car by 2 paikia looking men right in front my doorstep.However I was too chickened(hey I was only form 3 back then, yea, so what the big deal, I've already said that I'm too chickened and unsure about the situation), so I just stood at a hidden corner looking at them with one eye and later I told this to my dad and I think he did a police report on that...

2)Wife murdered husband case at other residential section of my neighbourhood.

3)Husband murdered wife case at this apartment behind my house.

and some which I forgot already.

And we used to be victim of theft,robbery and fraud(to me they are no difference) in our own neighbourhood. I can't stop numbering them already.

First was a huge ransack when I was still in primary 6, my house was nearly emptied by damn fucking robbers who came and moved everything included soft toys,kitchenwares and so on that can sell a cent or two away in lorry!Everything was lifted and uncovered....and my house was practically empty after that incident and I could hear my own echoes in my house.Our passports and birthcerts and sis's IC were all gone as well...nia seng!

Second, some drug addicts came into the car porch to steal away our shoes and sneakers...this happened twice as the latest one was last year where my beloved Adidas threestripes limited edition sneaker was sacrificed :(

Third, back then when I was form 3, I was waiting for my dad to pick me up at the bus stop. This stupid drug addict looking Ah Beng rode on his fucking shabby motorcycle came and conned away my handphone...I was so angry and threw my Squash Club's report book towards the motor when he happily swifted away.It did not hit him and the book was found badly damaged...

My neighbours next door and behind had gone through a lot of similar incidents...where the prominent one is house break-in theft cases.....and so they formed this Rukun Tetannga(Neighbourhood Community) to hire external security guards for patrolling around the area since apparently we know the ability of our district's polices.And recently,residents based patrol teams were also formed after robbery cases at the shop houses behind us getting frequent.Imagine we need to take up the police's job by our own cos the PDRM is no longer reliable here.Don't even make me go further and mention about this police inspector who came to investigate over the ransacked case asked for Duit Kopi (sort of asking for extortion money) before he went on collectiong the thumbprints everywhere...and in the end no breakthrough also.Corrupted officers!

Out of desperation, some of the areas at my neighbourhood have been fenced up.The so called Gated Guarded Community.But was recently rendered illegal by the municipal council due to a lot of criticisms and conflicts going on around.Unless they request from the authority to acquire permission.

How sad is that :( .Being a homegrown citizen of Johor Bahru, I don't need much of economic development or development towards a big metro like New York or HK, not even hoping for a new Disneyland to be built at our doorsteps...neither will I be pleased by more installations of shopping complex.Just give me a zero crime rate environment will do, if not more.I believe with that we can even attract more foreign developments around...rather than proposing all sorts of white elephant projects ambitiously.

No title la...

Must be some subtle poisons that doing all the shits behind...why can't I just hit the bed and sleep at the time that I normally do?

Bum!

PS:Thinking of going for Eng. crash course to brush up my skill...getting horrendous these days
not like it was very good but kinda rusty to say :(

The purpose of life is a life of purpose

Go ahead and ask me what I've gained so far in my hiatus period between my next study pursue and the previous A-levels, go on ask me la!I can tell you besides unwanted weight that came meddle with the scale and some other side effects developed from those lazy bones of mine.The most apparent one is I've been transformed into a nocturnal animal T^T.Not like I don't feel sleepy at all you see somehow I just don't know where the problem lies.My accomplice,the best companion all time all day no matter you eat shit sleep,it won't ever absent in life,let me introduce you...Mr. Lappy The Laptop!*applaud*

No doubt you are small and puny but I can see a whole new big world inside of you.The monitor of you just like the best window that leads to anywhere in the world conveniently at one click away.

Right,enough said.Because of you I sunk deeper.Because of you my vision deteriorated.Because of you I am fatally stressed out.Because of you I had inharmonious disputes with my family.Because of you my shoulders slouched even more.Because of you I'm constantly walking into sleeping disorder.The 2nd idiot box you are.I'm the idiotic owner who owned this idiotic box.Sounds reasonable right?

Anyhow,procrastinating for so long.Here I am,staring at my OFFICIAL SAT BOOK aimlessly.Flipped through those pages,wow,again,a brand new world that somewhat seems strange to me!How deadly it can be I tell you.First thing,the Critical reading part,if you're lucky enough you get easy vocabs but if you're not,find a nearest wall and bang your head against it to end the misery.That should simply implies,you can't escape from reading a brick/grenade dictionary!Especially when you're someone like me who hardly read,it can be real pain in ass!For once,I thought I'm reading a Yellowpages Directory -_-.Perhaps the latter can be a bit lighter in reading.

And then the writing part,yea,how lucky I am,I'm sitting for the new format of SAT where WRITING is a new addition to the old format.Although it's only 300 words of weightage but the essay title can really push me ahead for a nice mental/nervous breakdown.I'm so happy that I'm gonna write Manglish for my writing part...who cares *roll eyes*.I'm MALAYSIA truly Asian!Asian pride yee-haw~

Ok now you tell me the Mathematics section is damn kacang.Yea,you will be entitled to that ONLY IF you do revision everyday like your good old college days.In my case,I'm pretty much a goner,my hiatus period is blank and debauched(not what you think ok?).Mana ada masa dan tenaga nak menceburi ilmu baru mahupun ada ilmu yang telah dihayati tapi dah lah lama tinggal kaput!Of course after 1 and a half years of torments from Cambridge A-levels (yea it was Cambridge board mind you!),I can't be possible to forgo that mere few months of break...of course gotta let loose and indulge myself la...what else can I do then,study meh?I've had enough and it's coming back again in no time :s

But contrary to that,after a long lost from going for classes and rushing to meet due date for tutorials and so...I'm getting much more eager to venture back into that field again.Haha,at least I can get busy and come to know that I'm not a scum who sit at home doing nothing but idling in front of the laptop doing the same motion for few months...having to think of that it's better to get out from exiling and bury into books.Nostalgia I think haha...but somehow same thing will still happens once get sicked from studying :( .Life is full of paradox!

Oops,drifted away from the Maths debacle already.Yea.So after a good long parting from Vectors in 3 ways,Complex number,Prime number,Polygons,Trigonometry(most evil ones)...now this test can provides me a soft review+revision on the past syllabus I've learnt(ahem,excuse meh but have I ever learnt?).In any case,I just wanna tell you my imaginary peeps that you have to constantly do revision in order to keep your grey matter functioning well when in need.And the deadliest thing is all my A-levels book are stranded in my godpa's house because afterall I thought I won't be using them somehow and to hell I even threw some away or sold to old newspaper collector T^T...as a Chinese proverb saying "书到用时方恨少"(loosely translated : that you come into a crucial situation where the knowledge derived from books is insufficient to help you.)Something like that,correct me if I'm wrong,proverbs are not my forte.

Fortunately,there aren't any Calculus questions.I do like Calculus but time is the factor haha...I need more times to revise if it's ever been asked.Not easy wei.....

Now all I can do is pray hard that they'll ask more questions that involve simple arithmetic calculations hehe...so my score won't be that miserable since I'm most probably will flop the reading part :( Will God bless me?Hm...I think God will given I'm a pious follower of God.

Hope I can get at least 1350 out of 2400 scores in order to ensure serenity over my ears from parents although I'm too early to sit for SAT but just get used to it first...if backfired still can resit haha and the price is only less than half of the IELTS that I used to take.To my glee,it's charging in USD so it all depends on the forex rates.Speculators have already foreseen the high possible of depreciation in USD(towards the Ringgit)sometimes end of this year la...so time to reap a veritable boon!Moreover,I'm gonna give up my IELTS's validity date since I'm not going overseas in any time soon in 1+ years ahead.Even if I do,IELTS will be irrelevant because I'm aiming for ADP instead so TOEFL is more appropriate in that sense.Holyshit,have to sit for a English standard assessment test again T^T...luckily TOEFL is not that costly I heard and most importantly,EASIER...I hope.What else can be harder than Queen's English?

I shall cease myself from writing unwanted journal from now on 'till the very end of my SAT test or perhaps longer 'till everything is settled for my coming intake.

Wish me luck and till then...adios for time being.

PS:Finally got my first reject letter from NTU...30 SGD down the drain.Expected.SMU is another gone case...I'm not keen in any place to get an offer from SMU also.NTU is a bit pity though :/

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LIFE IS JUST SO VULNERABLE

And I won't regret to say this, humans are nothing but a bunch of powerless creatures who are

trying to jumble up nature's course.

But they are fatally shattered by a mere fling of finger from the earth.

Plain sad creature we are...

Deat beat

What could happen when you never sleep for the whole night but was required to go out the next day early morning?

one word, vampirised.

***

I went out at 0715 without asking dad to fetch(yea, you know what happened).Instead I took cab and public bus to checkpoint only to find out that the two who asked me to reach as early as possible were late themselves, celaka!Thought Janet was very punctual and must have reach NYP at sharp 0900.Anyway, she got a divine offer from NYP's Occupational Theraphy, a very high requirement course.Well, having to score 2As,1B and 1C, nothing is a problem to her.Glad she got her ideal course afterall.

Not like what but when looking at ppl around you happily accepted their offers from their ideal Uni/Poly/College with their ideal courses,aside from feeling glad that they have been spared from misfortune,can't say that I careless to bother about my own calamities.So what if I got offers from RMIT,MacQuarie U,UniSA...?Those are not what I wanted,part of it is too costly and part of it is I couldn't help but to only opt for their finance and business courses that I don't really in favour of(although I'm a Alevel art stream holder...).Many a times,I was asked to go with the flow,but what if I refuse and go against it?How much business can do these days,to me it's nothing but all about marketing,management,econs,law,finance and so...that don't even elevate my interest and worse of it,I can't even go into the extent of thinking myself burying in law books again...econs is ok with those graph to instill you into critical thinking,and also marketing,management and all else...they sound dry,dull,boring,conventional and *(insert your own word).I wouldn't even wanna think of venture into these at first place.Well,look at Occupational Theraphy,it sounds so not-dull and eventful,things happen inside must have been interesting enough to my like.lol.If I was ever required to take up business,why bother to apply to so many Uni,I can jolly well ended up in one of the many shophouse-based colleges in downtown somewhere around Jln. Tebrau and Jln. Wong Ah Fook...plenty of them catering suspicious accredited business courses.Not an inside joke that I'm about to make but it's fact...for those who aware.It can be very nice to get stucked in this town for whole life if you are those kinda nostalgic person,to consider myself fortunate enough or not that I've no idea,but I am certainly NOT one of them.I'm claustrophobic,I hate to lock away in a small enclosure.Can u smell the hint?

First few batches of SMU admission interview has already commenced.Least to my surprise,they asked something like"What do you think about the impact to SINGAPORE of the rising of China and India today?",typical current economic issues.I can list out a lot of impacts given that it's only a matter of general knowledge and application of economic theories/policies....can further blabber about if you want like switch away from labour intensive,phase out the cheap labours and resort to high skilled industry to latch on the opportunities that bring about by the open gate of China and India...that's like kill 2 birds in one stone,fiscal/monetary policies and blahs...but if I ever get the chance to participate in the interview,I'll ask them go to hell,cos they can't even manage some trivial documents properly,let's don't even hitch on that titular name of "Management" university!Oh and the interview will be conducted in group...sounds scary cos higher possibility to flop if you chickened out last minute(formal dress code and excessive bravery needed),for those who don't know much about SINGAPORE economic issues,you gotta do last minute studies.What an obsessive-compulsive-disorder's sad case,ain't that sucky?Well,take the plunge and go on answering,you asked for it since it's "SINGAPORE" Management University that you are applying.By all means,expect all of those to happen.

In any case,

after the NYP session(hell that place was jampacked with teensy students...Singaporean*roll eyes*).We headed to a hospital at Ang Mo Kio cos she gotta do med. check up for NYP and then took our lunch at AMK hub...basically we toured the whole AMK la...damn residential place with nothing much interesting.Taxi was the only way we travelled en route cos we had no idea where the bus will be heading lol.

Haha, then we cleanly forgot about BT was waiting for us in Dhoby Ghaut at 1200 as appointed.SHe went all flamed when I sms-ed her and met her...cos I was uplifted by all the foods in AMK hub and just ate crazily cos I was damn famished...never even took my last night's dinner well and same day's breakfast(you, know why la...)*pouts*

I didn't even hit the money changer so through out the trip I was surviving with only 30 SGD :/

In any case, went to SMU again to submit our documents and nearly quarrelled with the admission officer lol.She was being unfriendly I guess given that they are the one who made us suffer from all these detriments at first.

Hell, Singapore was damn hot...not much greenery around I guess especially around the SMU area and Orchard.Siao.

I came back JB, picked up by sis and went home sleep all the way until today for around 17 hours...still feeling kinda drowsy.I crashed my feet with all the walkings,my thumbs are frying now....damn pain....think I'm a bit old for that already :(

PS: Eh,Sanjaya Malakar is not that bad besides his voice is more on the "tender" side,I don't see it as a problem at all lor...afterall he's unique with his own personalities unlike others just like carbon copies of one another.Yes la...sick of power lungs and dunno why this season's male contestants are so a bit of faggoty :p I wish I had Sanjaya's smile...I thought it looks charismatic *slaps* @.@

Singapore Management University had me on!

What on earth is happening there?

I just went to check my application status from SMU website and it written that my supporting documents are not yet received?hello~Hello~HELLO*trails off*...Lao Yeh went all the way across the causeway,crammed how long of MRT to Dhoby Ghaut(u can look for that particular post in my March's archive) and walked,perspired and drenched just to find out where was the fucking admission building in Victoria St.I wish I had GPS with me but NO I DIDN'T!

I thought it was the safest way to send my documents over personally but hell I was wrong,I've made the biggest mistake on earth.The admission office actually OVERLOOKED my documents can you believe it?How far can absurdity goes you tell me la??!I trusted it because it is funded by Singapore govt. but yet the service and efficiency turned out to be as bad as 3rd world's service!I don't wanna take this kinda silly excuse from them anyhow,I'm not afraid of making scene!Shitty wanton ppl.And tht particular day,this particular receptionist lady was still using her MSN for chatting completely igonored our presence.And now,3 of us our documents are in oblivion....screw her man.If they can't even handle this,let alone to send those documents by post la.At first I thought it was only due to the absence of SAT result that puts it for not being received.But later,Steph told me she has already received call up appointment for interviewing from SMU where she doesn't even have SAT as well like us,not even in any place to register yet!
This is crazy definitely!

And the only solution I got from their robotic reply was to boh pien but to resend everything all over again!Fuck them only...think I so free shake leg eh?Detest their way of doing things big time.Disgrace to all the Singapore Universities and MOE.

Strangely,they didn't receive anything but only the fees.Which again implies that they are bloody money driven.So long as they received the money,nothing else much they would care.I know my result is not that good afterall to deserve for their tiny bits of cheap attention but I can't help but to curse them!

JIBAI!

To add salt to wound,I have a very unsupportive daddy.I don't wish to say why but he just doesn't have faith in me.

So this is what I called SNAFU where Situation Normally All Fucked Up!

Saturday

I tell you, never ever go to City Square during the weekend. The crowd is damn dense!With all those ppl coming across the causeway and going downtown, this place is the intersection of both.



I was very reluctant to go out on Saturday cos I don't like to squeeze away with the crowd but since Michell hardly calls and coincidentally I have to collect my watch, and so I went.



And starting from Friday until Sunday, Pikom is having PC fair in CS's concourse.Which again tells us not to go!



Anyhow, I reached there around 11 past a quarter and the crowd was already apparent!While waiting for those ffk kings and queens to arrive.I just loitering around MPH cos that's the quietest place to runaway since JB-ians hardly read :p



Later, Felicia came with a supersized pimple around her chin haha...funny.Then we went to find BL who's working in Nokia and I went to see Cheryll who's also working in Body Shop(yea I got lotsa frens working there currently...nearly 10) to try out some EDTs and being a cheapo of cos must rip some freebies as well but was told off by her lol.



After all the ffk kings queens arrived we then as usualy went into our Neway's cabin.Sing sing sing happy happy happy like mad cow.



After that session, I barged into the PC Fair's crowd to look for external HDD drive. The stupid aisles were standing with lotsa static stopper-by who blocked thee whole lane which made us hard to move forward, stupid. And I bought one 60GB from Navotech for only RM 150 lol.Due to the heavy crowd around, our mood kinda dampened so me and Charles went back earlier.



This eejit salesman from Navotech is damn forgetful, all he cares was only the money not the service at all lor...never told me how to fix the HDD which seems like a maze to me *scratches head*.So only found out later from Kim Keat that the drive requires a good format!Damn tulan...I was never told by the salesman also, yea eventhough they espect us to know cos to them it's general knowledge but this is just a plain stupid excuse of their bad customer service!Thanks KK :)



And Uncle SJ nearly had me jeopardized!He asked me to tear off the sticker behind the hard drive which warranty will be rendered void once I do so!*phew*Uncle ah uncle...thought you're always the agony uncle who knows a lot! No la, not blaming you, just wanna make fun on you at least you know this better than I do. I don't fucking even know shits about "master" and "slave" the only scene that will associate with 2 of those words that I can think of is ahem...well.



So afterall 60GB is not very sufficient to be frank since I will never delete anything after I force-fed the storage lol.So to cultivate a habit, might as well buy smaller storage and start off deleting ribbish!Finally have my own HDD, if not I'm gonna live under Sis's "min sek"!



I'm on a lil' depression currently since all those room I found in Mentari are having flaws. Be it or not a minor or major one but my requirement is rather simple. Just a furnished room with water heater, fridge, washing machine and broadband in the unit. That's a very down to earth demand lah...since college hostels can provide this kinda facilities, why not private homestays? Cos they see only profit returns in their eyes. Fulat! And the rental ideally should be ranging around 300-400 if it's without a/c. Otherwise I can't think of any better reason to make my payments worth unless they furnished it with gold plated and diamonds or any other diamantes mounted furnitures.



For instance, this landlord is pricing his unfurnished single room for 250 per month. With furnitures, it goes up to 480 per months. 230 bucks increment per month. Let's say those ciplak wooden furnitures in that room cost her around 700 altogether. In less than 4 months, she'll be able to earn back her "prime" cost with profit! CCB.



Now still miserable in lodging...might be temporarily homeless for the first week to second if I'm ever there to study. In the mean time, have to look around and hunt for a nest! Sien...hate to imagine that.



Fan ar...!


I bought these 2 IYS series of EDTs from Cheryll thought they smell sooooo nice!Rougeberry is MTV's choice and Aztique is effing fruity can!

Single room wanted around SS15

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Basic requirements :

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2. House is equipped with broadband internet connection,water heater,washing
machine,refrigerator,cooking stove if possible and thereof.

3. Friendly and studious non smoker housemates preferably Chinese.

4. Budget range RM 350-Rm500 (best if inclusive of utility bills)


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PS : this is an urgent unilateral message made to fellow Malaysian public as I need the room before or around early May and I request your good self to consider my offer :)

RSS Feed?!

I can't seem to figure out the problem pertaining to RSS Feed,Atom,and all the blahs thereof...

XML,FTP,HTML codes,I'm flooding with all these matrices inside...sorta becoming like @.@
a very apt emo to describe.

I know there is no point for me in doing so,enabling feed seems rather pointless for my blog given that it is still in "closet" without popularity due to my poor language handling,monotonous writings,explicit contents,excessive profanities,poor layout,annoying scrolling bars.Oh well,by "feed-ing" it ,who knows someday my blog will records a tremendous increase in viewer overnight?By saying "someday" it's very obvious that that was a hypothetical statement which MAY OR NOT happens!I'll just assume that it is gonna hit the chart in no time :p

I think this post is rather a shout out of S.O.S to none(no one's cave) and do I hear echoes?

But still,how am I gonna squeeze out my brain for this knotty RSS Feed galore!Kill me...

Culture shock

Well...this might came a bit late but I just found out that,

盆踊(Bon Odori) = 盂兰节(Hungry Ghost Festival) !!!

Pardon for my ignorance!

Something like a Buddhist celebration dedicated to remembrance of the dead. It is believed that souls of the departed return to the living during the festival.Of course they share a same origin with similar plot behind...

So the question is how come each and every mid-July or mid-August, there will numerous of so called trend-setters and Y-generations settle down in an open field doing all the dances in Yukata(Japanese bath robe), mesmerizing in the ritual of other ethnic, I bet most of them don't even have clues what are all these about!

And do they even acknowledge the existence of this festival in the Chinese counterpart?Yes, we have it on our own but often being neglected by the young ones because Bon Odori seems more appealing which bear the chances of meeting Japanese chicks while for ours just nothing but burning joss sticks,candles and paper dummies offering(which rather global-unfriendly and ridiculous).Hello~if that's what their main purpose, they can jolly well download Japanese porns few clicks away in front their monitors and watch as many as they like while doing their hanky-panky jobs.

Bon Odori is a festival for younger Japanese to remember their own culture even when they're residing at overseas.For none Japanese like us,I won't stop you from going of course but at least you have to know the meaning behind before you make yourself present at the scene...for like let's say you are interested in knowing Japanese culture.However,if you come in without knowing a shit but blindly live up to other ppl's foolishness of following the trend...better still,go fug yourself!

All in all, Japanese Bon Odori and Chinese Hungry Ghost Festival are the same festival celebrate by Buddhists and ain't an ethnic based festival afterall.The only difference are Chinese and Japanese each celebrates it in their own ways which they are more accustomed to for which they are of different ethnic groups with different cultural backgrounds and mores.

Find out more details on :

Wikipedia-Bon Festival

Wikipedia-Hungry Ghost Festival

New books on shelf!

Saw 2 of this under the recommendation section and I just bought it after some instant reading.Supposed to buy Adibah Amin's "As I Was Passing" but it comes in 2 books and I find it rather dull after a few reading from the first book, just not as nice as what I expected it to be but Adibah Amin is a very famous reporter/journalist who wrote numerous columns in NST titled "As I Was Passing"...the books are the compiled version from the collection of her articles.Used to love it but somehow lost touch after some time since parents are inclining toward Star and Sin Chew Daily, lol, and I can't be bothered much so long as I get to read news.I'm such a poor reader I guess.

Anyhow,I won't write reviews on these books...my time is getting limited and I bet my reviews are nowhere on par with professional reviews by other bloggers.Thanks to my poor vocabs and grammar.And yea, I AM SO LAZY!

Take the gloomy

........

Somehow mood fucked up today due to the effing flu and damn mo-fo fickle weather.

My boredom has been slowly transformed into claustrophobia, that I can foresee it :/

Anyways, that could be me being stir-crazy and a lil' bit of paranoid resulting from some long term idleness...don't really feel like talking to anyone not even my close ones. Guess I need time to overcome...

Am very emo and demotivated lah!

And dare you to come fuck with me, I won't bite though but I'll slit my wrist.

Introspecting is needed now...so as to spice 'em up!

Listening : Gravity by Embrace

Report's out!

Dad has just gotten my latest health screening report.

This time quite a number of problems :(

1. LDL too high...resulted from my fav. cheese,choc,fried stuffs and so on.
2. Trace of protein in my urine(proteinuria?)!Die this time seriously,it could be a sign of kidney failure but the pathologist told that it can be traced in urine after excessive consumption of energy.It can be good or bad either.But I think most probably is lack of water,as I hardly consume much water at home due to little perspiration(since my house ain't a sauna).

Although diabetes and high blood pressure (hypertension) are most commonly
associated with proteinuria, other factors can result in temporary proteinuria.
These include:

Dehydration or
heat-related injury
Fever, infection or acute
illness
Emotional stress
Intense
physical activity
Seizures
Extreme cold
Abdominal
surgery
Administration of epinephrine

Since my blood sugar level and blood pressure is nothing but very normal,so I assume the causes can be one of those listed above.Phew...as what the patho. told my dad so.

Another form of this condition, which is considered fairly common in
adolescents, is postural or orthostatic proteinuria. In most cases, protein in
the urine is detected in a routine screening of the child and normally appears
without the presence of other symptoms. In these patients, a significant amount
of protein leaks into the urine when they are upright (orthostatic). The level
of protein in the morning may be normal.
It is believed that standing adds to
the pressure on the kidneys’ filtering agents, which in turn causes more protein
to leak into the urine. Conversely, when lying down, the pressure is relieved
and little or no protein gets through. The concentration of protein in
orthostatic proteinuria is often greater in the afternoon than in the morning.
Most adolescents who have this condition outgrow it.

I wonder am I still come under the adolescent stage?I'm 20...

Anyhow,I'm dying I know...bye all.

Reason of death : Kidney failure

Choi touch wood...from now on yat yat bat pui sui(8 glasses of water per day)!

No eggs,no chocs,no ice cream,no cheese,no butter,no fried,no potatoes,no oyster and oily stuffs!

More cereals,more veges,more whole wheat meals,more work ups!

Less sugar,less salt,less oil!

Last but not least,less "da bao" food!Those foods outside are really evil...aji aji aji!

Blesses~

Make it the doggies way!

Cheryll had recently got herself 2 new puppies from someone who was so generous enough to give away 2 newly born doggies for her collection!




Happy and Mocha(the names tell all)...Mocha is the one with terrier's breed in brown fur and Happy is the one who resembles Beethoven,with St. Bernard's breed.(She claims lah...)Who cares cos they are so fucking adorable,that's it.

Whoa.Ain't it cute!With that lil' tongue sticking out which is the killer pose to melt one's heart *cuddle*.And either way,it is chubby enough to my liking!

@.@ What kinda pose is it?!It's alluring me to hook them away one day...secretly.(It was actually sleeping lah...)

Cheryll is so greedy and mean cos she refused to grant me one of them as she has already got 3 doggies.I told her to let them inter-fuck each other when they grow up but she gave me excuse of both of them are females -_-.I don't mind having a hybrid doggie as long as they are cute and adorable.I'm thinking of buying some rodents to overcome my crave for doggies since rodents are easy to manage and parents are so dogged to turn down my request all the time(pun not intended),since my house don't have sufficient space for them,but my room can spare out some space I guess and everything is complete until I realised that I have slight allergy to fur and hairy stuffs,bummer!Wish I was raised up in a cottage villa on a country farm or something like that.

I'd love to have a pomeranian,chihuahua,golden retriever,maltese,siberian husky,shihtzu...if anyone can hear me out there...

hello~

PS:I really wanna proclaim to a certain someone whom I know for years that SHE should know who I'm referring to...stop all your foolish and naive malicious statements against me ok?I'm telling you those stuffs for your own interests.It doesn't even do me anything good,eejit!Anything please confront me in person instead of doing it the cowardly way.I'm in for ear bashing instead of some badmouthed connotations!And the fact is I'm telling you the truth that you don't even wish to face...but it's ok and up to you to decide,take it or leave it.No harm to me since I won't get t'd off in any case.Please also,I ain't telling ppl that you're a thicko...stop being sensitive and if you don't like some random someone to view your blog why bother to set it up and constantly updating some blahs and tommy-rots to insinuate or better yet loud criticisms against someone.Well anyhow,none of my jurisdiction anyway,can't say I give a shit.

It didn't affect me at all...

tally-hoooo!

:)

And all in all,I'm still craving for a doggie so much.No substitute.

:(

Reprise :

I got an offer from RMIT University but have been hearing all sorts of negative comments on it.Anyways my purpose to IDP was only to try out my luck and immense in the situation of being offered for a place,I have the right to indulge as well ok?Not that I'm qualified for a Ox-bridge's placement also with that kinda confusing result of neither below or above average.Sigh,RMIT is nonetheless another Uni. with city campus,can't I just have a Uni. with profer fence up campus?Although ranking wise it is not that backward but still I'll rather opt for a Uni. with proper compound without ranking than a so called city campus which is nothing more but few classrooms up a building or shophouses.I hope Uni. of Adelaide can give me a reply as soon as possible although I'm not intend to go in the first place.Haha,just wanna prove to daddy that I actually put in my heart on those applications rather than rotting doing nothing with my 20K exchanged paper certs.Still,I'm yearning a place in the northern hemisphere instead of down south.

And OMFG I can't stop tuning into Sarah Brightman's songs now,they're addictive.Her Harem and La Luna are major kick ass ok?!I don't know why I'm so into mysterious genre of late like Silent Hill OST,Hayley Westenra,Secret Garden,Enya and Gregorian...and all other Celtic and new age voices.They are so clean and crisps,heavenly nice.Alrite,I can't find any better descriptive words to describe those voices prabably due to my habit of listening to rock punk goth emo screamo music of all time.Haha.I'm currently flowing between these two very extremes.Before I forget,I do keep up with some canto musics like Hocc(Ho Wan Si),she's currently one of my fav. canto female singer that she totally out-perform Miriam,Sammy,Kelly and all others lah with her uniqueness in rock hardcore genre,that in canto music scene you hardly get this kinda singer as mostly are predominate by pop and some other mainstream musics.Her hoarse and powerful lung in combine with up beat bass guitar drums really a major turn on!Hocc all the way...!

Alrite,finished bitching and ranting.Shall turn in to bed...

All bad things come to an end

1. Topshop Tebrau City called yesterday asking me to collect my F3 card within this week.Muahaha!

2.Swatch called this morning telling me that my FUn Scuba is available to be collected already.Muahaha!

It's all coming back to me now...~

PS: Had a nightmare yesterday which was something to do with SAT,I dreamt that I couldn't finish the teast paper on time and begging the invigilator to spare me few more minutes,and perhaps retake the sameday -_- ... then there was another dream about me being coaxed into a marriage with my late cousin.It's kinda scary and I wonder what does it mean?

31

Thanks to it,I'm not alone every rotting night.I see light in my future.

Behold...my one and only companion:

Cow dung?Nah,fuck you.It's BR vanillachoc marble ice cream.Totally orgasmic..................

............and fattening :( I love you and I hate you.

9:56

What the phuck is this thing called "do not turn off the light before 9:56?"

wasted my time on another pointless Korean horror movie again,pui!

wanted to change my glasses but then couldn't find a suitable one,looking around for those thick black framed but they look funny on me...:(

of cos it has gotta be looking more nerdy la(since my hair is at default level now)...what else -_-

then...

SAT T^T

I'm practically reading dictionary now,trying to materialize what Tony Buzan has taught us in his remarkable Mind Mapping shit...which I can't be bothered less currently.Shit!

666!

Rubbish thoughts

Thought of dieting from today(again I know) but couldn't resist the temptation of Baskin Robbin ice cream,mum's yummy cooking and tit-bits that just filled up the rack yesterday from groceries shopping...so hm yea.Next monday baru start off la...seriously this time.*hope so*

Thought of not talking to sis today but then she bought Baskin Robbin,so you think I can help this and make myself sorry for not answering my crave?No,I am NOT.I just rushed out to the freezer and grabbed a mouthful of vanilla-choc.Innate hunger for food,destined to be chubby for whole life...gawd.

Thought of getting sufficient of sleep and wake up for some SAT studies but in fact I've got enough of sleep and woke up for brunch,then a crazy downpour with thunders shattered my mood,so I thought lying myself flat could help...and so I was drifted to lala-land once again after I woke up for less than 2 hours until late evening.Had dinner,junkies and hogging my lappy till now.

Thought of doing so many things but nothing was done.That's what makes our lives keep on procratinating and preventing us from moving forward.Staying put on the same ground under the same roof,doing the same stuffs all over again ain't gonna put us to 9 miles higher.Contradictions,reluctance,laziness,cross purposes...everything for my life is on null acceleration at this point.Static...rooted.Soon,rusty and die.

Thoughts...glad that I still have thoughts in me given my brain is at low point now.Grey matters are filling to its max now and facing non-consuming status.

I shall reserve them for my future undertakings then...recharging now for future consumption.Eh,do I sound like reading the Econs book?

I'm residing in Nothingville doing nothing.I'm nothing.I wish I'm everything I'm not.And well.....period.

There it goes another rubbish post.

Ps : suddenly something flashed pass my mind, where is my Swatch Fun Scuba that the auntie promised to call me up to collect within this week?It's already Sunday and I don't wish to make another hu-ha like F3 card.