Monday, March 17, 2008

Jia You!

Today, upon my divine checking on the newly drafted final exam timetable, CHM 152 and HIS 251 still clashing and the worse of it is both papers got postponed to 2 days later of the previous drafted date instead of being seperated. Meaning I will be deprived for 2 more extra holidays!

I tell you ICSJ is really good for nothing, the exam office might as well tear down altogether when they are gonna demolish the old block and all the person in charge should just get sacked for good. My lord, now they are asking me to prepare for quarantine on that day instead of revising the timetable -_____- . With all their respects, are they like mad or brain damaged? Hello, History and Chemistry on the same day, I'm not gonna get further quarantined for running amok lor...cos most probably I'll be appeared like living dead.

Heck I'm so lost already, courseworks are fucking up my patience.

p/s : I can't stand myself anymore for writing all these run of the mill anecdotes. I shall revamp my writing habit and polish up my language. I don't mind my language without improvement but I realized that apart from not improving it is facing a downward mobility! I'm no longer like those day where every of my homeworks and tutorials consist only long winded writing and more writings(General Paper, IELTS, Econs and Law). On top of that, people around me hardly speak languages other than English itself, let alone having English speaking campaign or English day that sort of undernourished event. It felt so normal and comfortable those days but it changed drastically ever since I came here. I've heard assorted Chinese dialects being spoken and if you don't speak at least Mandarin or Cantonese, the likelihood of being segregated is on the high end of the scale. We are no longer in a natural state to converse in English. I only hear pseudo-American slang dotting around in campus and class. How pathetic. Why can't they be themselves and must they swim into dominant culture in a land that doesn't dominate by that culture itself? What a shame.

Saturday, March 15, 2008

Birthday

The ex-A-level people that turned up during Dashni's house party (above pic without Emily).

Anyways, Happy Sweet 21st to Dashni!

And that house is equals to half ICSJ's old campus size equipped with private pool and private tennis court...what more to ask?! Golf course or private park?

p/s : I'm so proud of the guy who owned himself 21 A's in SPM, what's next 30 A's? 50 A's? Credits are all due to BN for never fails to bring homemade education achievement to higher level every year. It is no wonder why we are venturing (travelling or whatsoever) the space in no time cos to us nothing is TAK BOLEH! :D *loud applauds* But why you people didn't vote for them?

Friday, March 14, 2008

CoCo ramblings

Colbie Caillat Live in Malaysia at Laundry Bar. It was good. Unplugged was nice, and the band, unlike conventional dingdingdongdonggimmegimmeellaella pop. Turn off was the unexpected downpour, Adam C and Natalie. They irritated me. Hell those sikinnahs got nothing better to do after school. Bitch who refused to help, curse her bf for contracting STD 10 years while still making out with her. Photographers, if you fucking wanna show off your top notch DSLR and fucking block my view please ass off and kiss the ground. I'm there to listen to her performance, and you just wanna capture what is worth instead of the singing, please fuck off. This is a musical performance, not photography event. I just wasn't born with enough middle fingers to deal with it. Nonetheless, CoCo rocks but some of her songs can be very similar in tunes and sleep inducing. Still worth listening and those lyrics can't be more meaningful.

I swear I won't be going to gig as such anymore without necessary needs. Hell packed like highly compressed sardine and we were being treated like bunch of restless and mischievous monkeys only. HELL YA WE PAID OK? And fucking waited for 1 freaking hour or more off the clock when we were not supposed to waste the time (masa itu emas!). My brain was figuratively boiling whilst waiting for those shit RSVP. Punctuality, learn that up! Especially when people were in drench, mood were dampened, and yet you still put your interest in supreme position as if the 1000+ of us were just phantoms for temporary needs? Fuck your PA system they don't mean a shit. What comes to your mind when 1000+ of us from everywhere set afoot on this place for? You demand, we supply. Now let me tell you, throw your PA system into cesspit. You don't even need them without acknowledging our existence.

p/s : For some reasons, Sg. Wang is full of lalas and you think that is the worst? Not until you saw the scene over shopping malls in PJ. Cultures are diversified and subdivided into many subcultures which having too much hypocrisy and grass-are-greener-on-the-other-side effects. Malaysians are turning into identity crisis era although much of us still upholding democracy prima facie. We know what we want but we don't know how far should we go.

19th RS encountered miscarriage cos MCA did not achieve landslide victory this time instead sent packing off their long occupied office! It has already been replaced with visitation and camp but yet to be officially announced la...how unlucky again.

Sekian.

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Phantom

I dreamt of you an hour ago in my sleep.

You were pinching my cheeks and I pinched yours.

Sweet :)

Just a dream.

Saturday, March 08, 2008

Counting mishaps

As being told earlier, March is really a black month.

1. Screwed quizzes, tests and missed class unintentionally. (cliche i know)
2. My membership for certain fashion retail with initial G wasn't being recognised as I wanted to
buy few garments today!
3. Got drunk for nothing and embarrassed myself.
4. Lost some money to a certain someone whom I didn't wish to spend those money on
otherwise.
5. One of my zijiren friends got into a serious accident and warded.
6. One of my high school friends who share the same given name with me got into a fatal accident. Apparently he's a wedding photographer and was lifting 1 wed couple when his car crashed and the couple died and he survived. Suffering from guiltiness and primary nervous breakdown currently.
7. Just realised one of my sometime-close-sometime-distanced friends had secret grudge towards me and backstabbed me in front of my closest friends. But my friends are truthful enough to tell me her act of undermining from within so we all sooo gonna anti her now. Yea very old school indeed but who cares a shit. A loosely mouthed person aka mulut murai. Bah!
8. Uncle passed away. :(

Luckily I won some measly $ upon my first visiting to Genting Casino. I love roulette! I dah legal tender now.

However still, everything turned out to be disastrous in the end. Fuck.

Tuesday, March 04, 2008

Requiem of 20

Dear blog,

I have some contemplation before my adulthood. In the mean time, I have to put matter of my Uncle's death and tests aside to sit in front of my laptop, stare into nothingness, come out with these writings. I feel compelled eventhough I've tried so hard to prevent any kinda depressing materials published but hands outroared mind very often. Anyways, what do you people usually request to receive on your birthday? Perhaps you say, something to inscribe THE day in your mind forever.Still what? I don't even know what I want when asked by parents for this coming 21st's. Well then, I could have just asked for anything but I didn't because whatever that I want on the surface might not reflect the beneath's. So what if I got more moolahs, more gadgets, more foods...it's just something you already having but greed for MORE beyond the threshold and it goes on forever without being contented. Then I told my parents, I want happiness after I couldn't think of any (of cos they thought I was having them on). On top of that, I think I'll want a chance to see into future or a reminder of an imperfect past or the ability to turn back time or the ability to prevent someone from misfortune...I know it's worse than building castle in the air but let's just say I don't want to be shallow and opting for the unconventionals.

Many birthdays I may have counted off, each and every year it comes around quietly. Do these birthdays make me happy? I would have to say "not really". Just turning from 20 to 21, who is going to view that as a great accomplishment? Can you imagine how many people born on the same year leaping across this age at the same time? Of cos, if a doctor tells me "you will not live beyond the age of 21" and later I greet the dawn of my 24th, that is something worth celebrating. Indeed, a great accomplishment. For better or worse, I have never been handed with this kinda situation so my birthdays never makes me unusually happy. We party then we dismiss. That's for all. Hoping next birthday will be merrier. Conventional.

Now did I just give a big slap on someone else's face or do I sound bitter? Not at all. I have been revolving around few tests and assignment due date this week. So expectedly, yea...but belated ones are no harm rather than none I supposed (i am hypocrite at times). It's just any other day with or without cakes and candles. If you like, celebrate everyday like birthday, buy a cake for yourself whenever you feel like. If you feel the need for a commemoration, go get yourself a tattoo then. Seek for parental advice beforehand, if it's too late, tell yourself "it's easier to be forgiven than to ask for permission"(Ramya's cliche lol).

A reminder to all, please cherish your love ones around you when they are still sound and alive. Do your part before it's too late.

Till then.

XoXo,
Tristan

Monday, March 03, 2008

Not a good day

1. Downpoured like mad. Rosh left without me! Thanks Sheryl for being the saviour of the day :)
2. Phone died on me summore. Paid effing RM 150 to repair on the spot, feel like kena conned. Damn Nokia(Authorised service centre tim!) fucking crook.
3. Chem II quizzes gagal keliling pinggang.
4. Chem II test 2 coming.
5. History I midterm test tomorrow. Only one chapter covered.
6. Our beloved Uncle Steven passed away out of a sudden(heart attack) this morning in Guangzhou before he started off his another quest of voluntary lecturing. Unbelieveable as he seemed sound and strong to us during CNY and could fled around Malaysia and Singapore actively during that period of him in South East Asia. I was practically floating and puzzled when mum told me about that. It's the biggest joke ever made for us to accept. It's like the minute before he was still cheering up the atmosphere back home, then the minute later he's already lying there without temperature. How cruel. I'm damn sad now. Totally out of mood. Anyways, sis going to Guangzhou tomorrow together with Aunt and Cousins for his funeral. His ashes will be resting in Singapore instead of the States for eternal peace.

Please rest in peace dear Uncle Steven.
Deepest condolence to Aunt, Terence and Kit Lun.

Another deep sigh to life...

I feel homesicked now.

Sunday, March 02, 2008

I am easy and greasy

Do you know what's the best way to fry your brain up in less than 5 minutes?

Read US History to 1877. (Specifically Mark Carnes' and John Garraty's)

You are worse than a hypocrites if you were to tell me George Washington, John Adam, Alexander Hamilton, James Madison...are "interesting". I swear those security guards at the post can talk better. This is so classic.

Oh well, gonna binge so hard later.

Study is shit.

And you...

STFU alt F4 kthxbai.

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

How?

STACT Club interview session a while ago.

Result yet to be release on 3rd.

Syarat-syarat keahlian seperti berikut :

1. No coloured hair -check-
2. No skimpy outfits (duh!) -check-
3. No earring (wtf!)

The worst thing they haven't pointed out is what they didn't expect I will have at first place judging on my near stoic nerdy face.

My divine symbol of peace!

Time to evangelize myself. Should I?

First of all, how to camouflage them???

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Weary

I'm so tired.

Of human relationship.

Of friendship.

Of academic pressure and the non- of it.

Of the secret grudge between few of my close friends.

Of the mask I have to put on everyday.

Of the me who is not the me at world's stage.

Of the me who can only be me behind the curtain.

Of the neutralised me and the me who longing for all good.

Of everything I want which I don't get.

It's so hard to please everybody these days.

Sunday, February 24, 2008

Ketiadaan

Sepet.

I have a strong grip for it.

Yet I got no courage to say those words out loud.

My dear, there are only three.

Three's and the go.

But...I think it's getting away from me cos somehow it changed.

No longer the quality I yearned for.

Or maybe that's the little part I omitted.

Whatever, I don't like things being so much galvanized by contemporary vanity and philistinism as I turn older.

I shall move on.

Saturday, February 23, 2008

I ought to be happy, therefore I am happy

When I was in the cab just now, this indian driver broke the silence and went, "Are you going for tuition,boy?"

..........

Muahaha. Seriously this is by far one of the most delightful sentence in 2008. I nearly gave the driver 10 more bucks upon hearing this. You know when people of my age approaching adulthood and leaving adolescent but yet still nostalgic about those salad days (and John Locke would have went like "tabula raaaaasaaa!"), you will soon realise la, I'm the prototype of people of my kind. Tell me who doesn't deserve to be young (by heart or whatever) at least once in a lifetime.

And my mum always have something about my look cos she thinks that I look older than my age and sound very "chao lao"(ripe?). Worse to worst, I have more wrinkles after my face got smaller. Why ah?

On an irrelevant note, I was ordering some pretzels from Auntie Anne's a while ago. When I told them the flavour that I wanted. They stared at me in blank. I was like wtf! Cheez, was I not suppose to pronounce "Jalapeno" natively? I told them "ha-laa-pee-nyo" and they would have thought I was uttering Thai or Swahili in this multilingual melting pot of KLCC. So many tourists around and what if they happen to encounter a real Mexican? And I'm still quite surprise to hear people around me Americanize the word "bolognaise", hello it's "boh-loh-nyeh-seh" not "boo-lock-nee-sss". I'm not a pro-American although I'm pursuing their degree, it's just so that Malaysian's is still pretty much left behind or I should say improving. I'm doing for my own interest, who cares about patriotism, can they feed your stomach? Action speaks louder. Please hor, I'm not turning the table ok? I still love Malaysia regardless of what. Digressed.

p/s : Omg I just saw some fireworks coming from Subang's direction when I was typing this post. But no point to have watched alone cos when the fireworks end, I'm carry on with my life as usual. And then, where have all the alarm clocks gone in KL besides Pasar Malam's? I've been hunting for one but to no avail so far, no wonder KL-ians all lack of the beauty of punctuality. I hate using hp as alarm clock. Mafan.

70% Green Tea + 30% Choya = reeeeelaxxxxxxxxxx~

Hira Hira Hira Yura Yura Yura...let the petals of cherry blossom fall!

Thursday, February 21, 2008

Fat free post

Doing a lot of exercises.

Orofacial exercises and respiratory exercises.

Having buffet* is the best way to build up muscles on cheek cos when you eat a lot you can't stop training your jaws.

Singing is the best medicine to train a powerful lung, I can proudly proclaim 100 litres of oxygen per inhale is no longer a myth now.

Now tell me why do I need gym membership for?

I have good cardio stamina, good lung capacity and tight facial skin, what more can I ask?

Now I'm broke after several impulsive exorbitant buffet dinner and gambling which never won.

I'll never play blackjack with those sikaokinna anymore!

*Not applicable to Karaoke chain's buffet cos the food taste like a mixture of animal pisses.

p/s : Malaysian street food always have a place in heart but I miss all the seafood bars, endless fresh catch oysters, escargots, abalones, crabs, prawns, some unidentified clams, free flow of raw salmon and mackerel cutlets *drools*. Being a foodie is seriously sucks BIG TIME.

There is always a time for homemade salad, Tristano Delizioso Insalata on top of having the greatest fear of 6 days classes in a week straight. FUCK M. cos she victimised us by a 9 am class on Saturday, a 3 good hours lesson some more. Promising to finish a whole new chapter on that lesson, how evilish. Anyways, I'm so not coming cos I just wanna sleep. And I think every Saturday will be reserved for REMEDIAL classes from this week onwards. Double fucks!

Kthxbye.

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

Bedtime's thought 2

I've tried to manage.

I've tried to fathom.

But I still find myself clueless in the realm of vanity.

I'm being too overenthusiastic.

Actually the measurement is overly simple to accept.

Cos it's a surface matter and nothing's too deep.

Why the need of better instruments when things are so mundane?

Afterall it's all about single cell affairs.

Simple things make simple, complex things make possible.

I can be different, I can be the same, simple enough?

Monday, February 18, 2008

Bedtime's thought

See sometimes it's very funny,

when you feel the need to drift away for some social comfort,

they point at you and called you a deviant.

Then...

when you are impowered, your life is worthier than gold.

With filthy prestiges and cheap respects.

But,

when you are powerless, you are no where remote from a fallen leaf.

Or outcaste?

We are creating standards that contradict each others in some forms not known to us in the eyes.

Standards are just what people perceive, doesn't come by nature. Not actions but reactions. No right or wrong.

So don't judge me with your shallow standards.

I'm different in my own ways.

So as you.

Sunday, February 17, 2008

A 20 and a 3 and a half quarters

Fortune Cookies




新年要开心,所以我很开心。

Friday, February 15, 2008

The V Chapter

Have been seeing flowers and bears since the 13th roaming the streets.

Can't they just think of any other things better to give aside from cakes, chocs, bears, flowers and cakes and chocs and bears and flowers and...oh well.

If this is gonna carry on for forever, what's the difference between Qing Ming Festival and V day? Every year we visit graveyard and offer flowers as a respect, soon became a symbol. But V day ain't got nothing to do with symbolism IMHO. It's a day of love and caring appreciation. Flower and so are optional. Nothing to symbolize, it's the bonding of love and caring between 2 persons that matter. The efforts run by both...this is a day to show appreciation instead of throw on a flower and get it over. I mean, if it were to happen to me, I will be overjoy to receive flowers and other conventional goods as well but later on I will have to ponder a little bit, what's the practical point? I receive flowers this year and I won't remember what actually happened this year by the next V day hits. I will be sitting around anticipating another bouquet of flowers again, if I doesn't receive any, still I will be sad and I definitely won't feel thankful for last year. It's already being pampered with materialism without meaning.

Last year. This year. Next year. 10 years later. Yesterday. Today. Tomorrow. 10 days later. No matter when, when you're in love with the right person. V day happens everyday. Everyday will be meaningful enough, deeply engraved in mind. Not just yet another day of flowers and chocs.

Flowers will die. Chocolates are diabetic and fattening.

Then again, singleton is bitter.

Thursday, February 14, 2008

Chapter 1.0

Sorry Ed for getting the wrong info. La Q doesn't open on weekdays lol. I'm so gonna miss you after all these. Anyways, I think Ardii is a darn gorgeous creative director. At least he thinks differently than all the conventional people. Like he said, all these peoples are pretentious. Going there is like attending a materialistic fashion party. First they talk about their history of sex then fashion....way too shallow. Malaysian and those, what to do? And I didn't know Willian is a photographer and he owns a studio tim!

Anyways thanks for the companionships these few days. I shall wake up on time to commute to college starting tomorrow. Life has been quite bitchy and tiring after CNY. I need a rehab!

Happy Singletine. And have fun on the 14th.

Adios.

Monday, February 11, 2008

This Year

Hm...

college sucks. Class cancelled here and there, stranded in library for good now. I could have rested for another day.

KMC is comfy, but lifeless and dark as usual. Mosquitoes are visible at high floors still. Big turn off.

My mouth is full of ulcers currently as a result of CNY heaty goodies. Although it was for only a short few days but I never gave up a single second without eating. My fridge is FULL of chocolates now! They are selling darn cheap at their native countries. Esp. the extra dense and sweet Ferrero that keep cajolling my resistant. I ate quite a number of them T.T

Lunar 28th : accompanied Mum to pasar malam for some marketing.
Lunar 29th : went Changi Airport to fetch Sis and Moon.
Lunar 30th : reunion dinner at some restaurant then fetched Terence and Uncle Steven back to Sg.
Lunar 1st : bai nin with paternal grandparents and folks. Lepak, supper and chitchatting with cuzzies and folks until 4 am.
Lunar 2nd : bai nin with maternal grandparents and folks. Uncle's b'day celebration then mahjong mahjong mahjong till midnight :) !
Lunar 3rd : went Sg out of instant fit cos Sue wanna eat McD's red bean pie. Nothing to do in Sg so we went science centre (haha...CNY in science centre!). Right after Sg we drifted to Kota Tinggi for aunt's open house and still mahjong mahjong mahjong till we dropped. I lost 5 bucks only, FORTUNATELY. Late night sing K-ed with cuzzies at TC until 4 in the morning.
Lunar 4th : relatives came bai nin with my parents. Went back KL around past noon and jammed all the way back to Seremban and reached KL at 12 am. I've got no more senses on my buttock after a 10+ hours of car ride. F**k.
Lunar 5th : 1st day commuting to college! All the way here too early and class cancelled pulak.

Going back JB again this week to meet up friends and gamble, so as to send sis and Moon off on 2 consecutive days. Haven't touched poker cards yet this year. But anyone lack of mahjong kaki (preferable) please inform me by all means. Hands are getting itchy, wanna swim.

Rabbit "fan tai sui" this year, so be more alert when placing your bet.

Till then. Yet another report of what I've done where nobody will give damn.

Tuesday, February 05, 2008

Back For Good But Still Hibernating

HELP NIAN NING'S FAMILY, FIGHT WITH THEM :

Pls go to the following address and sign a petition against reckless bus drivers and companies.

BUSCRASHNOMORE.BLOGSPOT.COM

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Although my reaction is tad too slow on this but when I saw this news on newspaper lately it kinda hit me hard that one of the victim, Lee Nian Ning seems familiar but I doubted my perception until I saw one of my friends' blog yesterday about the departure of a bright young medical student in a recent bus crash in Penang.

Apparently, Lee Nian Ning was one of the JPA scholar holders which was doing her AUSMAT (Australian Matriculation) in Sunway University College back then during 2005-2006 when I was doing my A-levels there as well. She was my roommate Victor's friend and all of us were staying in Monash Condo Hostel. I used to see her around the lobby and college very often but I didn't know her though. Anyways, that's not the main point about. The thing is all we want is just a safe ride back home that's it, is it that hard to achieve? I think the government is blind (you may repeat this sentence for infinity times cos you know you are always right on this), so blind to have "overlooked" a serious matter on hands. Instead of spending time cracking brain on neverending racial issues, why not work on things that benefit people at large? There they go, another prospectful life perished in their hands. Happy? She could've been an outstanding doctor and osteologist in a few years time preparing to serve the relevant field in native country but...her life is just too vulnerable for ignorances and blindnesses. Just that it's not fair for her to die at this age in a course that could be avoided easily. Hope she will rest in peace regardless what...

I bet the government is still stoic right now, their previous effort was one-off. When the brouhaha rested, they would back to the same old piece again waiting for the next stimulus. Likewise, the snatch theft's brouhaha, Sharlinie's brouhaha...soon they will fade away and store in an obsolete folder at a negligible corner of a rack in a secluded data storage room, must I spell out the word "limbo" explicitly? Perhaps that's what they've been doing all these years. How "efficient" for them and "lucky" for us to have lived under their "laissez faire" governance. In Malaysia, we just have to pray to live longer without any dependency. Save $ to secure and finance your own life, social security scheme is not to their fundamental goal anymore nowadays.

RIP : IN LOVING MEMORY OF LEE NIAN NING (1987 - 2008)

Monday, January 21, 2008

Incoordination (Finale)

For the first time ever...

I've decided to cease posting for the time being.

What to do,

Life's sucks.

Need more introspections.

Toodle.

*Door shuts*

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*updated 31/1/08*

I'll be moving to Kelana Mahkota tomorrow, I don't know why I chose that place of all the places and abandoned this place apparently wanted to stay in a Condo is just a tiny factor I guess. I hope it's a change for better and not otherwise. Anyways, some acknowledgement to those who lives around me, Sheryl, PK, Nagen and Shun Jie! Hmm, thanks for the companionship all along. Gosh, it sounds that I'm leaving for limbo edi...anyways Subang and Kelana is no where remote in distance. Come visit me if free lah...anytime.

:)

I'm gonna start swimming!

Also, landlords whom I never bothered to know their names, I won't forget what you both vixens did to me! How realistic eh? Beware lor, ppl at ur age is very vulnerable...chant more mantras in future k?

I really hope life will be better off for the change...

Incoordination 2.5

She's ugly but she's pretty.

She's pretty but she's ugly.

.

.

.

.

.

Why are we so blind?

Why the hell do we sugarcoat ugliness?

Why the pseudoprettiness?

Why can't we tell what is real and what is nominal?

The world seriously needs more medications on top of stimulating brouhahas over the emergence of global warming.

To whom should we point our fingers to when apocalypse is on the verge?

No one, we are all well deserved.

We are sick.

Sunday, January 20, 2008

Incoordination 2.0

People construct reality when they found meanings to their behaviour.

I've seen the reality,

Eventually when you seem less important to the other, you know it's time to change and look into yourself.

It's proven that,

I can live without one of the most important things in life which I usually don't at this point.

Can you?

I've foresaw the tragedies ahead,

Have you?

...still I'll never give up the chance of foreseeing triumphs.


I should stop stargazing all the impossibilties and switch my gravity.

Should I?

I'm getting compelled to tell people who I really am and what I want.

Am I?

Think again, now it's not the right time to mess with me.

Anyways, just to let all of you know (eventhough most of you won't be reading this but you know who you are), I heart you because you came into my life. I don't talk to you doesn't mean I've forgot you. Words aren't enough to give justify...


...cos I'm a typical Pisces.

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

Incoordination 1.5

Good news. For those whom I felt they hurt me unintentionally, prolly you don't have to drown yourself in a cesspool full of my poos anymore. You know it's funny how people can muddle over things at the same time pretending nothing had happened but still going on around badmouthing and victimise others? Now I call that the real life Phantom Of The Opera, with all the masquerades on parade. Free show, that's like how wonderfully wonderful albeit I'm not directly involved but at least it gives food for thought, something useful behind the drape to carry back home.

Man, it must have been a deadly dilemma triggering. My disposition fluctuates like never before. Hey, but a key point I found useful is just a mere voicing out wraths stifle beneath, like how you get constantly pestered by constipation and unable to free your poo poo for a week long and the only solution you found out later is probably by gobble up 2 cartons of prune at one go. Voila, everything runs smoothly afterwards top down-ly :p. Can visualise the scenario or not? The key = prune, the solution for the problem in a nutshell la. I guess it's not good to hold back when you need to reprimand or criticise or chew out or swear those 4 letter words. I will personally opt for the last in any case. I know this is cowardly an alternative for those who can't find better words to snap up people's attention but oh well neither do I wanna be called a prude.

To whom it may concern, I'm afraid I'll need to invite you to fuck off and die in your own ways instead of abiding to the "drown yourself in cesspool with 'ma poos". Set your rotting body on fire, extinguish it, repeat x10000. If only I have the courage which I don't, fucker, lucky you. All of you hypocrites will get from me one fine day!

Anonymously, you, You, YOU, landlord 1, landlord 2, LANDLORD KMC, Streamyourfuckingmyx and teleyourmotherhomobrotherkom. Then...

Namely, Mathuri, Jane, Borges.....yea the lecturers that gave endless tests and tutorials like they are so thirst of papers at home with their redundant red ball point which could've been put up for better use, by consuming the latter will transform ink into cold hard cash that they can swallow to fill up their filthy desires, then contract leprosy after that and perish. I've never felt this way before seriously that I will need to curse my current semester's lecturers so bad. College is to pay and answer for all before I wage a vendetta and torn down the overspent new block!

Alright,

I'm spent. Sorry for all the cursings. Sorry to your mother, your father, your mother's father's maid's nephew's roommate's friend's sister, your neighbour's dog and all the babies. I'm so not worth.

Sunday, January 13, 2008

A year of thicks and thins




My Grandpa's (Ah Yeh) 102th birthday!


He is still strong and tough after underwent a year long of thicks and thins!


Seeing him just reminds me of Mahatma Gandhi for some reasons......


Ok, maybe not.

p/s : It's a blessing from god to be able to live up to that old but come to think of it, is it necessary? I'm not insinuating anything against fillial piety or questioning the omnipotence of almighty, mind you. I love my grandpa and my god without a single doubt. Somehow, I will be thankful if I'm bestowed with approx. 60 years of lifespan (beyond that are bonus and further answer to my philanthropism if there's any) cos I just don't like to go through the stage where you have to see everyone grounded before you...one after another. Too painful to overcome. Then again, I'm not taking anything to do with that for granted as well. So I have to plan and learn to die in order to live isn't it? Food for thought :)

Thursday, January 10, 2008

Tokyo Tower


"為了生計,在小吃店工作的老媽,從來不會叫我念書的老媽,不曾對成績單發表什麼意見的老媽,幾乎不會責罵我的老媽,總是幫我買東西,從來不幫自己買的老媽,只有我一個人吃飯,也會做好幾道菜的老媽,為了讓我早上可以吃到好吃的醃醬菜,總是定好鬧鐘半夜起床攪拌米糠的老媽,明明手頭拮据,卻當場付出十幾萬現金買機車給我的老媽,一直到得了胃癌的臨終,還拚命地用快不能動的嘴唇,不放棄地想在最後留一點什麼給我,怕死後還要麻煩別人,預先為了自己的葬禮每月存3000塊錢的老媽……"


This is the most touching novel I read in 2007, the fact that I like Japanese literature from the way they convey and describe puny matters in a very detail form, representing the tiny bits of your feeling. The feeling that you might forsee in you as a result of ignorance. Somehow,they can crack out words to make the entire negligible day in day out scenes seems picturesque...penetrating the deepest corner of your heart. And many people actually cried after reading "Tokyo Tower". Motherly love is the greatest love of all after loving yourself. Thumbs up for Lily Franky (Japanese novelist with a rather westernized pen name). Of course I read the translated version since there's no way I can understand Japanese.

Friday, January 04, 2008

Sighs

Happy Birthday to Tang Zen Hwai...who turns 21 on this coming Sunday!

I am reallyyyyyyy sorry for not being able to make it but oh well, it makes no difference afterall :)

Hope you forever 21 and enjoy your party.

5 Amanah and 5 Bestari rock on!

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Same time wishing Auntie Grace (Charles' mum) a big happy birthday.

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Having CHM 152 lab replacement at 8 am tomorrow, I tell you my wonderful plan on Saturday all ruined at one go...ode to Ms. GEW LAI TI the one whom I "mentioned" earlier. She's so fantastic that her class left only 5 people...yes it's 1-2-3-4-5's five...what a record! And there's no way I can drop it since I got no subject to replace it. Borges' class is miserable too luckily I saw some familiar faces around. I'm thinking of dropping History for Philosophy but what the heck Philo. takes up two 8 freaking am classes per week! Might as well bang my head against the hardcover textbook?

Wednesday, January 02, 2008

No title lah...just feel like typing out things that I got nobody to talk to

Leong got 2 free vouchers to sing in capsule!


We went Singapore for dinner that day -_-, all the way to East Coast just to have dinner with Frog and came back with lotsa 2 dollars odd stuffs from Daiso + Missy Donut! (better than airy Big Apple and J.CO in terms of their doughs but nonetheless I heart all of them except they get very jelak at times xD ). There's another donut chain at Pasir Ris station called Yummy but their donuts tasted as hard/dry as baguette, not worth for ta-pao.

Half dozen for 9 SGD (Missy Donut), seems like I can get a dozen for that price from its rivals in M'sia despite all the hoo-haa queing which is stupid.

p/s : I'm giving all my heart and soul for a real abstinence currently T.T . So don't lure me with good food. But once or twice is acceptable *slaps*. No please k thx cos I seriously need to deposit weights before Chinese New Year in order to binge freely during CNY as USUAL and needless to say, to look good in all attires as well but the problem is the new year between Gregorian calender and lunar calender is soooo close, if I don't watch out, you'll just have to sit and wait for another sumo sized Tristan coming around. Weights gained during semester holiday + Chinese New Year is fatal so gotta work 3x harder intensely lah...haih why some skinny people like Leong, Dominic, Shun Jie, Boon Keat and Kelvin just won't grow fat with bottomless stomach but others like me prone to grow horizontally easily with just one or two...or maybe more heavy meals OCCASIONALLY? So many skinny paper-ish underweight people revolving around me. Unfair. Konnonya, consuming meth, smoking pot and chewing fags can bring down weight (Nah, can't be possible to trade my life away!). Alright, still...damn housemate is cooking some shits that smell freaking nice. I gotta force my appetite to sleep now.

'Till then!

Start of something new

FUCK

Yes I say FUCK k thx.

Tuesday, January 01, 2008

That Year I Killed Few Persons And A Dog

My 2007's grown up book list :

-鲁豫心相约
-鲁豫有约之面孔/伊人篇/人气
-有一天啊,宝宝!
-川行地平线 I/II
-失乐园 I-IV
-向左走,向右走
-布瓜的世界
-履历表
-又寂寞,又美好
-月亮忘记了
-东京铁塔
-方文山的素颜韵脚诗
-生死遗言
-随想
-The Time's Traveller Wife
-I Am Muslim
-Honk! If You're Malaysian
-The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night Time
-For One More Day
-Tuesdays With Morrie
-Malaysian Politicians Say The Darndest Things!
-The Lonely Planet Story
-Macbeth
-Romeo And Juliet
-Hamlet

30 over books in a year compared to Victoria Beckham's, Paris Hilton's...records. At last, I'm not a total brainless himbo...phew! Way to go 2008!

p/s : I deliberately shrunk out and camourflaged the wordings cos I don't want you to see the epitome of a boring nerd's life...*kemaluan*


Sunday, December 23, 2007

Purely impulsive thoughts 1.5 *updated*

Finally,

Happy Winter Solstice
, Merry
Christmas
(to sons and daughters of Christ/Maria/Your parents) and Happy New Year. Yet another year gone by but how far we've come to? Anyways, spent my festive season and last few days in hometown mostly binging on food. Can have like 3 heavy meals + a lot bitings + knickknacks in a day or less...so current weight count is at optimum of 2007's second half. Oh well, me very reluctant to go back KHell. Me miss everyone here and no one there. Me worrying parents and grandpa as well for some reasons. Apart from that, me be starting my new semester on this new year and so many new things la. See, me craving for food now already, exactly 15 minutes after a heavy dinner *burps*.

The consolation before anything is that me will no longer be a loafer anymore! Me gonna pia, cos ai pia jia eh yia.

p/s: Ayu seems to get back on track again. Dearie me, my long lost Ayu is back finally! GUILTY is quite listen-worthy IMHO especially when it comes at the right time to give my sombrous 2007 a big fat happy ending at last. Way to go!
pp/s : So many bad things happened through out 2007, lotsa unwanted fightings and childish conflicts between people around me especially those ever unrest family matters. Being the neutral party among our family, it's inevitable that we suffer the most than those who are not. How sad. That's why, fillial piety and unity are extremely important to hold the pillar of peacefulness in a big family. Well, I'm expecting some "HK jade drama" scenes coming alive in 2008's CNY like never before...just watch and see.

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孩提时总讨厌平凡,
长大后却想成为一个平凡的人。
但连应当实现的事情都变得不再那么理所当然,
就是面对平凡也受挫的时候,
我双手合十,开始领会到祈祷的力量。

当我再也寻找不到心灵寄托的管道时,迷信与否已再也不重要。

矛盾leh...

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

Magical Tristan

My salad days in THOL mugging in booksdoing pointless camwhores pretending I was some kinda nerdy who slogged my life away 24/7 in the library for books. In fact library was equivalent to home, maybe 2nd home. Oh well, that shows how inferior the ICSJ's library, don't even get me started off with anything to do with that.


Anyways,

A donkey year ago busy preparing A2 Tort Law's paper kononnya...I had 123627382443 civil lawsuit cases to insert into pea brain.

That's what I called the real spirit of library dweller. Ken got caught copying homework by Eunique the grandmaster of copying aka photostate machine or xerox in yankee's lingo.

Oh herroeee, ruler never tasted better with my brilliant stunt!

Alright, I got caught up, I should have done something better with the redundant free time I have like...hmm...what about getting a life? If only life can be found in the mailbox or monitor, then do you think I'd still need to stick my butt firmly here to make crappy highlights on those trivial past tensed been-there-done-that events(aka craps) that I braved through meh?

Monday, December 17, 2007

I need thorough massage

Dear Blog,

We went Fuji Ice Palace last Saturday and skated for 4 hours straight, I don't think I can identify where are my legs now. After ice skating, we walked around PS and Orchard until 9 pm-ish only to find out that no seats on MRT all the way back Kranji! So we made ourselves home in MRT, just sat on the aisle, who cares. We were OKU -_-. And we had got no time and no strength for shopping after the skating session. For me, I think I am very bloated now, so I won't buy any garments as a punishment.

Hmm...upon reaching JB at 10 pm-ish, we turned in to supper at Pasarkia for cooling drinks and fried oyster~zomg I'd die for the latter. Too bad it is not featured in The Star Guide to Malaysian Street Food, funny though! Well, I am effing tired now, will sleep for a good 24 hours ahead. Toodles.

XoXo
Tris.

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Me and Net

Oh, obscene!

偶信佛~

Then we saw Shoot 3's (有话就说 3) troop live filming at Jurong East. L to R : 郭亮,梁志强(Jack Neo),许振荣(Dasmond Koh),权怡凤,forgot-name social worker, forgot-name commentator and 黄双喜 the news reader!

Jack Neo scratching his back, Charles took this haha.

Candid shot at Orchard.

I kinda pity this living statue.

Best Oo Jien or Oo Lua or Fried Oyster in JB, some say Singapore.

SAB + EC. This purikura machine can send digital photos somemore! Cheaper than JB ones also.

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Photo quality is bad cos camera photos aren't with me now.

Friday, December 14, 2007

Yakusoku

Hush, baby don’t cry
Just get through this night
Overcome

Don’t think that they’ll change
They push you away
Far from home

Cuz all that you are
Is broken inside
But they’ll never know

Don’t you cry tonight
Rest your weary eyes
Cuz all that you are
Is broken inside
It’s nothing you could change
It’s nothing you could hide

Pink flowers and bows
That’s all you should know
And summer days

Cuz all that you are
Is beautiful child
But they’ll never know

So don’t you cry tonight
Rest your precious eyes
Cuz all that you are
Is beautiful child
It’s nothing they could change
It’s nothing you could hide
It’s nothing you should hide

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That's it I think I should stop day dreaming and swallow back in 'till the end of 2007. I don't anticipate new year ahead, I hate Christmas. Just face it, Santa doesn't even exist. It's such an irony to look at those Christmas tree and mistletoe sitting around at home like aliens. We are not even Christian in the first place. But then again, there are something deeper and more than those reasons that I should explain.

Suddenly it's so cold everywhere.
And I just feel like running into the rain and scream my lung out.

Regrets for this year:
-I tell more lies than ever
-I don't get the trusts I want
-I'm not fully liberated as what I've always thought so (hell ya I'm coming to 21 in 3 months time)
-I don't get parental supports that I thought they would've gave
-I backfired all my practical plans
-Failure to confess
-I couldn't finish reading the books that I've bought through out the year
-I screwed up my exercise and diet plans at one go after all the serious built up months before
-My shortsighted power increasing tremendously and astigmatism would've already revisited
-I'm getting even more berat tulang
-Unable to attend MCR's, Fall Out Boys' and James Morisson's concert

Things gained:
-fats
-dark wrinkles
-zits
-autism
-vampirism
-emoism

Yea.You can say I asked for them.

Period.

Thursday, December 13, 2007

Horror-scope

Kei had just told me that when you find great disparities and inaccuracies between the readings of your horoscope and the "present" you, should refer to the "moon" side of you instead.

@.@

Cos the arrangement of the standard set of horoscopes in sequence is based on where the "sun" located when you were born better known as the Sun Signs. However, if there are anomalies then you should refer to where the "moon" located then. According to my own sense, I think I've gathered some of the both qualities of Pisces and Taurus(the "moon" side of me). That said, I'm still leaning towards Pisces in general. *The qualities in Pisces and Taurus are completely opposite sometimes, so when you find that some of them in "sun" are too exaggerated, fill in the "moon" ones instead but then again, your primary sign is still according to the Sun Sign.* All in all, you are still what you are according to what you are in real life.

"Their psychic and spiritual qualities can lead them into careers in the church or as mediums and mystics....."

Oh, does that implies I'm having some innate potential to become priest, monk, preacher or 问米婆 ala the crook style then? Very de funny lor...

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Just imagine this,

Tris = the medium
Ah Huat = taikor who yearning to get rich overnight(I don't know but Ah Huat seems like a name who often get associated with this kinda metaphysical event.)

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Ah Huat : "Hokkee la, i want to tiok toto, 4D, 1+3D, magnum, chap ji kee, tikam, welfare...okeyy ah?"
Tris : "Sure no problem la, gimme 4 random numbers come..."
Ah Huat : "9413."
Tris : "##%#^&$*(#XxX..." (chanting and murmuring in some Pluto's language or so you may think while tossing holy water.)
Ah Huat : "......"
Tris : "Gao dim, take this amulet, go back burn into ashes and mix water drink, 9413 confirm tiok jackpot tomorrow. Proceed to the counter and pay RM XXXX."
Ah Huat : "But hor taikor, I no so much cash now la, can diskaun ah?"(as he's still penniless b4 his"dream" ever come true.)
Tris : "U know internet ah?"
Ah Huat : "Wah piang of cos la if not ma jin jia offbeat lak seh lo...puak kiu, puak kiao humpalang now all play internet no paperwork liao!" (proudly proclaims)
Tris : "Okok, liddat u go
http://www.kwanyinneo.com/ print the amulet out then burn and mix water drink, pay by master/visa/diner/AE installment all can...we veli high tech oso now."
Ah Huat : "................................................." (tulan -_-)

I think I can make a great fortune out of it. But this concept does sound familiar eh?

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Your ruling planet is Neptune.
Mean Distance from the Sun(AU) 30.109
Sidereal period of orbit(years) 164.79
Equatorial Radius(km) 24764
Polar Radius(km) 24340
Body rotation period(hours) 16.11
Tilt of equator to orbit(degrees) 28.8
Number of observed satellites 8

Now this is getting no fun at all, what's with all the technical jargons there?! Do I see trigonometry next?

Haiz, so much for astrology and numerology...
p/s: my greatest condolence to Dom.

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Kakilang :)


Those memories are meant to be kept.

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Boring Analysis You Don't Wanna See

I am very spiritual and holy these days. Not only going temple, lighting candles, listening to religious songs, playing around with fragrance, I got obsessed to horoscope readings of late and look what I found on other website analysing my sign, Pisces. Well, it's in Chinese though and I don't think I am capable of translating them word by word thoroughly although lack of time is not a story, just bear with me.

The following extracts that are not remote to my real life personalities and encounters. Quite accurate you can say.

Pisces,双鱼座[水系]

-双鱼倾向当个受害者,被利用、被牺牲。有时你很难分辨,他们究竟是笨还是高贵?是圣人,
还是借着让他人对他们心存感激进而操控全局?也许两者皆有吧。
(Pisceses will easily fall prey to others with injurious intentions.)

-双鱼座有时又被称为「自我毁灭的星座」。他们通常具有相当的才能及梦想着自己是最幸运的
人。也正因此,他们的人生常常是失败的。
(Pisceses are better known as the "self-destructive" group because they aim things higher than their capabalities can ever be stretched. The higher they aim, the impact caused to them when they fall is reatively higher)

-对立星座——处女座
(Identical horoscope--Virgo, haha Charles is Virgo, it is no wonder why!)

-最需注意的星座——金牛座、狮子座、射手座、水瓶座
(Horoscopes that need to beware of--Gemini, Leo, Sagittarius, Aquarius. Ask yourself why then.)

-双鱼座位於黄道十二宫的最後一宫,集十一个星座的优点於一身,当然也汇集了十一种缺点,因此其复杂性和人格分裂性在十二星座中也位居第一。此外,双鱼座在所有星座中,也最容易受到外界的影响,他们生性敏感、思想脱俗但不切实际,常有逃避现实的倾向。出生图中其他行星的位置对这种与生俱有的弱点有正面或负面的影响。他们是敏感、仁慈、和善、宽厚、与世无争、温柔、多愁善感的纯情主义者,也是十二星座中最“多情”的一个。
(Pisceses are a group of romanticisms, emotionalisms, samaritans, philanthropists and known as the most helluva "sentimental" among all the horoscopes. Partly yes, but I have to doubt some of them.)

-总之这是一个充满神性、魔性、理解力,观察力强却又忧柔寡断、缺乏自信、神经质的(如果是女人则更是泪水做成的,女人中的女人)、自制力不强、又善变的像谜一般的星座。
(Pisceses are mysterious, wizard, considerate and discerning yet wishy-washy, lack in confidence and psychotic[for women] and fickle minded.)

-双鱼座的星座象徵,正是两只鱼各往相反的方向游,一只向上,一只向下;没有什麽比这幅画面,更能正确形容双鱼座的复杂性格了。
(Pisceses are having complex personality.)

-交上一个「感觉很对」的朋友,会使双鱼座的人感到「吾道不孤」而为之兴奋不已。但这并不能稍减他心中皂孤独感,仍认为人是互不相属的个体。即然孤独感存在,有其不可动摇的位置,久了,也成为一件平常事,没什麽好提的。他不热衷去解除这份孤独感,却不喜欢寂寞,因而常爱赖在一个温暖、愉悦的聚会场合,那的确使他快乐、容光焕发,他会做出让大家更开心一点的事,甚至以已娱人也在所不惜。老朋友爱他,新朋友则被他深深吸引。他不太会做出扫兴的事。当他被扫兴的时候,他不会怪你,仍然独立去完成想做的事。事後你你若问及,他还是会为你描述他的经历,口气淡淡的,但如果你表现得好奇,他可能会再补充说明一番,开始闪现出为你感到遗憾的神情。
(Pisceses get very attached/clicked to someone with similar feeling and sentiment but somehow they still feel lonely deep down and don't give much bothers to it. They don't like loneliness too. One word, PSYCHIC!)

-当一条鱼沈浸在自己的梦想之中,必可见其鳞片上闪耀着美丽的金光,而且鱼的梦,都是相当精致的。一厢情愿,是悲伤的。自我陶醉,是好笑的。自得其乐,则有益於身心,双鱼座很了解这一点。但是他的言行却仍会使人觉得他在一厢情愿或只不过是自我陶醉,这也许是和他专注於梦想又不怕别人嘲笑他梦想得太多有关。他衷心相信有外星人及存在但看不见的精灵。如果他精心挑选了一位算命师,会认真参考算命师为他算出来的一切。更不用说「超能力」和「第六感」对他的重要性了。他似乎常做出非理性的事,非理性得很感性,感性中又有一套他领悟出来的道理要跟你说。千万不要以为双鱼座是会听你布道的那种人。你得用他的规与逻辑来了解他,否则阴错阳差,在所难免。而,每一条鱼的思考方式都各有其独特、难以复制的风格。
(Pisceses often overly engrossed in doing things that seems odd and illogical to others but they may have their set of reasons in doing so which at the end of the day, seems logical .)

-幸运日礼拜五/幸运数字5,8/幸运地点海边或近水的城市)
(lucky day is Friday/lucky numbers are 5 and 8/lucky location are beaches or inshore cities. Ah 5 is so my number cos my surname meaning "5" too in Chinese. Psychic!)

-喜欢一切与水有与关的事游泳、夏天、海边沙滩度假村下雨天, 酒精、白兰地、威士忌鸡尾葡萄酒、Pub、Coffee Shop、义大利式浓缩、美式速食、巴西、蓝山、曼特宁等等咖啡   金鱼缸、海底世界花花草草盆景、水族馆, 眼泪、汗水(运动)喜怒哀乐七情六欲   水彩、颜料、蘸水笔、香水、澡堂、叁温暖温泉、冷泉、泰国浴、刨冰火锅、泡面、...Nearly most of them, so I guess pretty justifiable!
(Basically in love with everything to do with water : swimming, summer, beach, chalet, rainy day, alcohol, brandy, whisky, cocktail, wine,pub, coffee shop, Italian chowder (Pasta e fagioli?), American fastfood, Brazil, Blue Mountain, all sorts of coffees, fish tank, alquarium, flowers, bonzai, tears, sweat, emo, watercolours, palattes, perfumes, shower hall, sauna, steambath, cold spring, shave ice, steamboat, noodles............)

-B型双鱼座的你,可说是感情重于理智的人,对所有周围的事情 都异常敏锐易感,对于别人的心思,即使是再细微之处,也能观察得 入木三分。 你很在乎别人的感情,一些细小的动作,就可让你思索很久。事实上,对方并没有特殊的含义,或许正因如此,你经常觉得容易受伤 害。 还有,你面对一件事时,可能前一刻还因害怕而显得阴沉,后一 刻却又表现出非常豁达的态度,所以,B型双鱼座的人,内心是高深 莫测的。
(Blood type B's Pisceses often being too emotional than reasonable, very sensitive towards things in surrounding in fact care to bit for a single most tiny particle in life. They very care about how people think that's why they get hurt very easily.)

-一般来说,B型双鱼座的你,比较重视精神生活,而不是物质生活的奴隶。
(B typed Pisceses prefer to a meaningful life with more mental intake than indulging in materialistic world and stuffs)

-你对美及艺术有很敏锐的感觉能力及表达能力,但对现实生活却 采取漠视的态度,是追求美与梦想的艺术家。
(Spitualism inside but hardly express them in a high profile manner in real life.)

- 你的兴趣多元化,涉猎面甚广泛,不过由于朝三暮四,喜新厌旧 的个性,使你在学习及兴趣上都无法始终如一。
(Having broad interests but good in none them cos being too fickle and get bored with something easily.)

-但是,你的缺点是无法拒绝别人的请求,有时会因此为自己增添 不少麻烦,宜小心衡量,勿使自己吃亏而不自知。
(Do not know how to turn down others.)

-对于每一回的爱情,你都非常执着,认真,堪称是个为爱情而献 身的热情之人。在恋爱的过程中,你只付出,不求回报,即使对方再任性,无理 ,你还是一本初衷地包容对方,真心对待,而且希望能时时刻刻与他 在一起一刻也不愿分离。
(Too devoted to a relationship, you give too much and more than you take even if your love one ill-treated you but you just believe in "love is blind" so much so that you swallow everything bad as well.)

-此型的你,只要一上街购物,保证你口袋空空地回来,遇到想买的东西,你一定会二话不说地买下来,也不管实不实用,需不需要。
(When the shopaholic in you triggers, you will splurge till you drop. You will buy things you like regardless of the practicality.)

Phew...my translations suck dick but you should roughly get what I mean.

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The bottomline :

Pisces is emotional and easily shattered and influenced by the dispositions of others. They like to dream impractical dreams. They let loose their love like water. Thus, there may be some distortions image of them to people that they are in fact flower hearted and promiscuous. They long for freedom and do things spontaneously, mood dependent. Artistic characters aka 艺术家个性.

Firstly, neither am I fall into the category of promiscuous nor flower hearted. Secondly, I don't dream or harbour dreams, in fact I hate dreams, cos they are illusion when you don't attempt to materialise them. Dreams are for wussers, not me. I am damn down to earth pragmatic can? I extend my capabilities to what I deem adequate to reach not beyond. Unless I work very hard, it's all up to me. I am emotional, YES I AM. Not a big deal too. Those people who seem stoic doesn't mean they are not emotional too, it's just that they are hiding their feelings to the surface. Nothing wrong to be emo. And damn! I am definitely very devoted to someone that I found similar sentiments and feelings, worst of all that can't pull myself out of it when the switch is on. I love to fathom people's mind and interpret them in my own way, thinking otherwise that that person could not have been thinking then get emo at the end of the day. I guess that's the single most apparent weakness in me. Haha?! Not funny.

Oh well, fact or fiction? Depends on how you gonna take it. I am 70% skeptical, 20% full trust, 10% consideration. I don't need psychic readings nor fortune tellings to determine what I will be in future and interrupt my decisions. Be them future well being, dispositions, personalities, relationships and yada yada, they all lie in your own hands. You are the one who determine your own life, not some other external sources to manipulate. And they will NEVER be. Make dream and don't live in it. Otherwise you could have be better off to sleep away, you dream when you sleep you see.

Alright, it's 7 am in the morning. Yet another sleepless night. I'm going out later tim! In midst of vampirising myself now. Gah!

Saturday, December 08, 2007

Gao Dim~

Phewww...gao dim-ed something that has been causing strong gravity force in me. Bwee~so relieved.

I can't find my goggles :(

New life new life!

I just kena praised for gaining weight, super 666! I know I've been binging like mad of the past 1 month and still going. Nothing much can be done also since quantity matters nowadays than quality. Cis.

By the way, I'm still kinda wondering if I'm a full-fledged app. science student, I'm having only 1 pure science subject in my next semester module, CHM 152. Then the rest are electives like Socio, Psycho and US History...zomg...I will seriously die in Prof. William Borges' evil claws. I never liked him since those days in ICM. Damn arrogant can! So what's the big deal of being a white who can't seem to respect local customs? Those days he was badmouthing the rapid development of today's China, saying things like.....

"oh well ppl, this is only an illusion, China is not gonna make it big and don't believe any rumours arising as a result of how slumpy the US economy today, China will not gonna bring down the US, ever...*rattles on*"

Obviously I can't through with his brainless statement at all in my heart, stupid yankee.

Now why am I taking HIST 251 then? :(

I was supposed to take PHI 101 but it clashes with all and the time slots alloted all fall in the morning, pukul lapan pagi tepat. How sad.

Toodle.

P/S : We are going to the vegetarian restaurant owned by 谢韶光 tomorrow...he will be serving there personally for his customers! O.o

Thursday, December 06, 2007

Eyes- Brain+

Kill me seriously this time,

who doesn't know it has been raining like mad,

who doesn't know the weather has been good to snuggle blanket,

who doesn't know we need to sleep when we are tired;

BUT,

my biological clock went completely cuckoo,

my sub-conciousness is high on THC,

my eyes are begging my brain to meet 周公;

I sense unrest mayhem within,

rebelling the wellness and working pattern,

kill me better off than letting me drown in agony,

the pain, the infliction,

that slowly chewing off my patience,

cajoling me to asylum...

Kill me, kill me!

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WHAT THE FUCK! It's 7 in the morning and I'm still wide awake like no one's business. I'm not even going anywhere exciting later(like Australia *winks*) that suffice to the sleeplessness. As you can see(or you don't), my dark wrinkle is deeper than panda's, eyebags are all saggy, eye-full of bloodshots, the best part is zits zits zits......my T-zone! Frying! Zits are everywhere!

Lo and behold.

I'm hereby being certified as ZOMBIE with lotsa lotsa lotsa rare zits and pimples going on loose. I'm not even like this when I have class...holy molly.
Guess I'll need to consume more babies, dogs, cats and your grannies.

Appreciation

Never did I expect my oblivious blog will actually had me 20 cents richer :D


Well, a mere 20 cents is better than nothing -_-. Way to go for 50 bucks!

Hmmm...but still my chatterbox seems like imaginary to people I wonder why.

Yesterday, I received a call from my house phone that, surprisingly,looking for me. Oddly, my friends(except for the few that I'm closely bonded) hardly reach me through fixed line these days as mobile phones are on the reign in fact and more convenient than not. Same thing if you were to ask me to lift a feather pen and start writing letter which later have to take the hassles again to post it via snail mail, I will frown at you and tell you off on the spot. Remember E-mail is only a click away at the monitor in front of you? Best thing is, free! Anyways, I was kinda surprised to receive the call from one of my primary schoolmate which we haven't been seeing each other for 8 years. Not like I'm very close to her back in those days but I was pretty amazed by her effort to reach me haha. Like so 70's. I don't even bother to make phone call to people around me sometimes, let alone calling to engage a lighthearted chatting session cos the point is, for sure that the conversation will go on rocky and awkward if any one of the party doesn't seem enthusiastic enough to chat. I don't like to beat around the bush in a phone call usually, just get straight to the point will do unless I'm exceptionally free or the one calling is someone important to me.

So, we started talking la, as usual the whereabouts, whatabouts, howabouts...yada yada. Ended up I'm the one who talked the most -_-. Cos there were some icy and silent interval as a result of awkwardness between us. I mean come on, I don't even know her by heart, I could only crap on some very puny stuffs and anecdotes which I can't be bothered also. Seriously, I'm not into crapping and shits but yet I don't like awkwardness. I'd rather remain silent in the beginning than leaving the situation runs cold like this second both were still passionately chatting about everything from heaven to hell, next on freezed with long pause and faded in ineptness. Hence, it turns out that I'm passively chatty, if there's such term. Nonetheless, I'm still highly chantable despite the fact that I hardly take initiative to approach. Now you know what to do eh?

Fyi, I lost touch with most of my primary schoolmates and classmates.

PS : I think I'm gonna do something adventurous starting next week, I don't care if I'm alone or what cos nothing's gonna hold me back once I've made up my mind. I HATE uncertainty. Just to assure that my time precious time doesn't go waste that's it. Everything's ready on the go...

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天青色等煙雨 而我在等妳     

炊煙裊裊昇起 隔江千萬里     

在瓶底書漢隸仿前朝的飄逸     

就當我 為遇見妳伏筆          

天青色等煙雨 而我在等妳     

月色被打撈起 暈開了結局     

如傳世的青花瓷自顧自美麗 妳眼帶笑意

方文山《青花瓷》

Tuesday, December 04, 2007

Secret

It's a bit obsolete I know but I just finished watching "Secret" starring Jay Chou, Guey Lun-mei and etc. Frankly speaking, I was so wrong to judge the movie even before watching it. The stupidest thing I've ever done was telling people how stupid to pay to watch this movie directed by a run-of-the-mill amateur director, Mr. Jay Chou in particular. I was so 白目(unenlightened)! All I can say is the setting of the movie is overly beautiful and picturesque. Then the plot is a bit sci-fi-ish and surreal since they can simply wind back time by playing this sheet of music called "Secret" which she found underneath the old school grand piano. Goddess, Yu Hao's and Jay's piano skill are superb! Especially those allegro. Man, I couldn't even play the simplest Turky March in andante decently those days. Not to be left out, the ending is tears inducing (or just me only). The drawbacks are that movie is too compressed whilst ending could have elaborated further instead of muddle over only.

What's the worst? I was soooo emo after the movie. Don't know why -_-
So much so that I need to watch Simpsons and Atashinchi to rejuvenate my fucked up mood.
Ok not funny at all.

A quote from the movie :


~Return lies within hasty
keys~

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乐观 是过眼云烟的幼稚
悲观 却是乌云密布的抗命
我 既不强求乐观 也不纵容悲观
虽然我的心布满创伤
但 我依然相信
伤心最大的建设性 在于明白
明白那一颗永恒不变的心
无论春花,秋月,夏日,冬雪
始终会在老地方守候

20年的距离,
之前,之后,
如果,
我,你,
在原来的或现在的世界里,见面了,
可以打个招呼吗?
在我心里,不变,
在你心里,请给我一个微笑好吗?



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PS: 才发现,眼泪是咸咸的。

Monday, December 03, 2007

3

We are back to 3 again. Charles finally got back and joined us for the holiday rottening goner. Then I went to his house to 串门 and he woke up at 3.30pm zomg -_-. So anyways, after catching up with him for a while, we went to pick up Dato Tan's daughter Frog cos she wanted to eat Nasi Lemak in Senibong but we ended up in Tebrau City instead for no reason except an early dinner at around 6.30 pm. Whatever la, to me it is very extremely early.

So after that, we went to Senai Airport cos Charles didn't know the way to there and he was gonna pick up her family who will be coming back from Macau on the following day. So pandai-pandai as usual I lead the way la, we were on North-South highway heading KL and missed the the first exit to Senai after I overlooked the signboard cos me and Frog were fighting over the egg tarts (haha). Well, it's ok, since there will be another Senai Utara exit which will also be bringing us to the airport en route. Right after the toll plaza, some lorries were blocking our sight and voila, missed the branch exit to airport again then upon this divine mistake, we were forced to go all the way to Gelang Patah and nearly reached 2nd Link liao. Of course I can't even remember how may tolls we had passed by. I think nearly 5 or 6...pwnn!

In short,

Tebrau City -> Senai -> Gelang Patah -> Nusajaya -> Perling -_- a 30 minutes journey turned out to be an hour if not because of the detour. Another wrong turn could also lead us to dead end Pontian.

And after the airport we headed back to downtown via old road. Whole journey, to and fro, burned up few hours. We will all get scolded if we tell people about that.

We were famished in the car for hours after the early dinner, so went for supper at Singgahselalu. Hell lotsa people and of cos, Singaporeans as usual. All I can say is a supper full of meats...we couldn't even finished what we ordered. Not forgetting we met Yien Meei there as well, what a coincidence but she was hanging out with her chi muis.

The night was still young, around 12 am only, so we lepak in Danga Bay again. That was hellish, Danga Bay, nice on its surface, rottening inside. This place is a centre for Mat Rempit rally and gathering. The whole seaside road is full of Rempits. They are beyond brainless which I don't wanna waste my words on them.

Parasited over Charles' place and we didn't sleep at all. So I slept a lot yesterday and in the end I am wide awake now! Thus, this entry.

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Frog posting and me ghosting.

Rumah Mersing wor...

We went for cycling at 2 in the morning. The quad-cycle looks like "tuk tuk" from Thailand.

I like the reflective effect and the backdrop.

Saturday, December 01, 2007

Have a break and...

I'm so bored therefore I am going to tell about what I ate today. I feel compelled to do so out of bluemoon, a thorough review over a piece of Kit Kat which cost me Rm 6.90 from Jusco. Allow me to elaborate further with visual illustration, will you?

*****

Upon looking at the Japanese-y casing, can you already guessed what flavour is it ah?

The content, there arewere only 2 bars in individual packing inside, nabeh!

*Unveils*white chocolate coating wor...

The filling.

*****

Couldn't taste the difference from Kit Kat white chocolate walfer crunch also. A waste of money nia. Oh I suspect 和栗 is only ordinary chestnut with a japanese-y name and chestnut is nearly tasteless in my 20 cents. I never liked chestnut especially those found in rice dumplings. I will either pick them out or nibble a bit and throw them away. I guess that's the Chinese spesies of chestnut. Japanese one is entirely different thing.

I wonder why everything taste so good after being labelled as Japan made,except Nato....yucks how do Japanese manage to swallow down such awful, tasteless, gooey and arsenic oxide-liked health food. A severe torture to tastebud. Smelly beancurd and "cincalok " win my votes anytime.

PS : I should propose to Kit Kat over an authentic local flavour appreciation, namely the Sambal. That will be new to chocholate industry in spite of its uproar and trend in the mooncake industry. :D

...have a Kit Kat!

Slap me.