Orientation Nite pre-post

I'm so smelly now, so I decided to blog.

It's been so long since the last I had the whole Saturday entirely to myself without thinking what to do in advance. Could be post-ON syndrome but I was supposed to sleep at least 8 hours since yesterday night I came back all thanks to my fucking landlord who did some house maintainence job of all day but this Saturday on 10 a.m. to interrupt my eonian sleep 'till I feel like I wanna wake up! I was already like ants on boiling pot when I came back due to the stupid water rationing which will never happens in my lovely hometown EVER in my past 20 years of life. Syabas or PUAS or whatever it is sure got a long way for improvement. Subang itself was worse enough, ample times in a month. Good to know that Kelana is nothing better in that sense now.

Alritey, where was I? Yea, I haven't bathed for 2 days, as yet! Niamah. I came home around 5 freaking a.m. last night and thought of having an imaginary hot bath (bah...my rented place doesn't equip with water heater) then dissolve all the weariness and frustrations into a good slumber party but NO, the fucking nozzle dispersed droplets only instead of a strong downpour! Wah piang jialat. Now I have to tell you why is it THAT jialat instead of "alritey, can't be bothered, just sleep the night over".

And so the story goes...happily (not) done with my STA 219 test although (what's done is done la, the paper fucking screwed me right up) I didn't bother to study the night before as I came home from ON's preparation quite late, decided to wake up to burn midnight oil but dengan izin tuhan I managed to wake up 2 hours after the alarm rang, 2 more hours of god gave sleeping hours, how nice! Went straight to college after that, plowed through the notes 1 hour before the test cos I spent another 1 more hour kapsiao with members at booth. So yea, I'M SO DONE WITH IT and I HATE probability, permutation and combination, you know I tend to have tendency of not getting the right answer upon first solving and I need to refer to an actual answer else I will totally burnt the whole paper, and so it was a test, so no answers provided, thus BURN 'em all!!! T.T

I need to sign in for duty immediately after done with test. Running up and down for the stage set up, equipment settings, PA, brief my helpers and so forth are some of my duty scopes. It was all sunshiny and glaring like never before 'till a sudden storm came washing away all loosely rooted things in sight including our PA + lighting control canopy (finally I know what does lull before the storm implies!) Sainted mother, below the canopy was sets of equipment worth all your mothers' lives! Heck, we risked all our mothers' lives to protect those equipments from thunder/lightning and rain water. The whole canopy practically parachuted from crosswind and we had already tried all our best to keep them under shelter, beefed up the roller (yes, that freaking canopy is portable with 4 rollers that functioned at wrong time). Le Sigh. We then requested to dry up at hostel but I didn't tag along for I still have stuffs to do like execute the back up plan immediately. It was crazy. That was like the 2nd time I encountered such massive storm in Subang, the first was even worse which happened 2 years back when I was in Sunway, I could see rain water splattered on the classroom door with the fact that SyUC has few feet elongated corridor that elevating floors up plus a further extented roof-over-head which able to isolate us afar from rain or tornadoes. Then when the class ended, all I saw was debris.

Anyways, it's kinda pointless to mention all the bitterness now since it's already a yesterday's event. But I can't be happier lor, at least I didn't mess up the whole event despite I didn't get the N77, JW Marriott dining voucher and Air Ticket to KK, yes we had lucky draw as well. I don't think there will be any audience per se given that no attractive lucky draw prizes promised beforehand. People bought tickets for charity? My ass la. All mankinds are greedy. Me = no exception.

Back to the point of the story, I couldn't care less to get changed after being drenched cats and dogs witnessing how by-stander effect was put into effect. Bravo us who braved the storm! Give us a standing ovation please. The I changed into a new club tee eventually but my bottom over garment and under garment proceeded to dry on their own 'till I got home at 5 a.m. I'm sorry if it disgusts you but I swear I was on the verge of killing myself either. A whole day of torturous endurance seriously did no good to me. Again, wouldn't you feel like skipping the need of elevator and dash out of the window (if you're staying in high rise condo like me) right away at the moment when you get only 2 miserable droplets out of the tap knowing that it's already on full blast? Roll yourself into my smelly shoes and think.

Gosh, now that the air in my room keeps permeating some unidentified smell...which I think the source is none other than *points to myself*...vroommmmmm, time to wash out and dwell the toilet for hours.

Adios.

p/s : Billion thanks to all ON commitees! You know who you are. Hope we'll retrieve our 2 MIA walkie talkies by next week or else I'll be nailed nicely. T.T

700th - Curi Ayam

Can you believe this?

ON akan menjadi nyata in 2 more days!

Can't say I'm totally smitten but heck, time really flies huh!

I swear, to organize this event is 100x stressful than having History test in Borges' class.

We just had a partial rehearsal until around 10pm back in college just now.

Expectedly, I will get from them during post mortem. Some seniors and even advisor had already warned. I don't think I will wanna go but I don't wanna be called a chicken either. Haih. But well, the event is yet to happen, I shouldn't felt defeated and all. I need to cope with it during that night cos I'll be HELLISHLY busy like bees on fire. Hopefully I'll get a bunch of efficient helpers. 'Else just die only lar.

Statistics test on this coming Friday (mayhem, clashing with ON). It's a sad case also. Damn excruciating to multitask for weeks already. Don't ask me how much have I studied cos you know the answer will surely be "n" initial. If only time can be purchased at a nearby 7-11 afterall it's a store and more -_-. Hallelujah kthxbai.

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Snippets of College Day at Inti UC

Howdy~there's a rodeo!

I apologize on behalf of our kindergardencollege for putting up an infantile banner that didn't reflect the average age group of college's population. I think they hired some retards to paint it. Le sigh.

Sumo wrestling, pay to wrestle or be wrestled. Good source of emotional outlet if you encounter some cock sucking dickheads in life of late.

Qian Ning and Ah Sim who will be leaving for Montana this fall! I think they burnt that pot of spaghetti after this shot.

Us in really chippy looking bandana. And I've totally no idea why mine looks espcecially like those of China maiden coolie who came mencari rezeki at Malaya during war times ala 河水山. Yea I know my GAP tee has been worn too many times, no $ for retail therapy, obviously.

Spiritually Voided

At times, this club really makes me feel dumb. Imagine your class finished at 12pm and you could've went home or up to another delightful event but NO, you've waited like stone for 5 hours straight only to find out that they DIDN'T really need you afterall. Really hempas tulang tak berbalas jasa mia orang. Now you tell me what's the point of having committee dance? Something's really wrong here that they've totally drifted away from what we are supposed to do. Still remember of organising event? Or you just wanna shake that bon bon? I was wandering around whole day awaiting for order from the certain someone who was supposed to assign task for me but he preferred to dance his acidic ass away and put me on hold. Fine. Insyaallah, then I waited...so in the mean time I did some odd jobs for publicity department. Finally, they came and told me I could go home if I wanted to, I was so mortified that they did not even appreciate a tiny bit of me ritually killing my revision time for donkey stuffs that were, PUNY over them? Can you see my dilemma already? When I don't stayback which I usually don't, they will start bombard me with sarcastic remarks and go around with those conspiracies. So what's the purpose of staying back and not? I'm not gonna be better off in any case. Might as well go home, go gym, talk to walls, eat sands, and spend quality time on my own? The fact is I only live once and there goes few more extra hours in my life. Please don't tell me how important I am to you all when I am not, I may be, virtually. The fact that I am important is that I consume whatever that is leftover and not needed by anybody. Does it sounds familiar? You slimes. I'm really not into those nonsense oomphs and confidence boosting, when I realised that I'm not being fully utilized for any reasons, then I am not, not up to you to tell me how you should use me that you are actually not then demand for whatever dumb made reasons when I can't produce what you expect me to do because that is how I should react. No matter how much catalyst you've dumped into a chemical reaction that is deprived of sufficient amount of reactant, the amount of product yielded is not gonna increase per se. Again, don't remind me how Important I am only when you need my help and push away all the unwanted responsibilities that are too heavy for your brittle shoulder to bear on me. I ain't unsighted, I have eyes remember? Now sorry to say that you really need to kiss my ass for this time.

On a brighter note, my BFF from Arizona buzzed me up a while ago while I was on my way home. At first I was very skeptical when I saw some unknown Johor's cellphone number but upon picking it up I heard a pair of familiar voice in Mandarin from the other end (that she usually don't) but yet I couldn't recognise at all haha, then when that voice turned into English speaking, I WAS TOTALLY OFF MY FEET! It was her! She's back 1 month earlier than the scheduled date but she wants to remain low profile in the mean time and I'm the first one she informed haha. So sweet. Can't wait to go back JB and hang around.

Speaking of going back JB, my time is effing packed now. I'm up for college day's food fair this week, test on next Monday and Friday, ON on next Friday, rehearsal on next week, sponsorship booth set up on next week, Japan GT next Sunday, i-Challenge on next next week, meet up with Stephanie on next next next week for she's going to Oz in few weeks time and lastly, prom night on next next next next week. So I'm occupied for every weekends ahead from now on and can't go back until Inti Ball's over. :(

On an irrelevant note, I wanna congratulate PK for finding her happiness once again, hope you can brave through this 3 months and make full use of it. Go ahead when you've made up your mind and don't hesitate to move on. At least you know he is not that kinda asshole shit eating twat species that you need to hate when it's all over like you-know-who. Mot pour amoureux!

I need to force myself to bed before 12 today for I have college day to attend tomorrow at Nilai! Have to be at ICSJ around 5 am prior to the departure to Inti UC. Tell me that's not too crazy to start off a wonderfully hectic Saturday, will you?

P(Becomes zombie tomorrow) = 0.998
E(X) = 0.998

:D

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A piece of non halal scribble from yours truly.

Can see or not, the picture is pixelated! Something I really don't like about JPEG files. Pfft.

Vintage rarara...

Just when I thought I've hit the bottleneck. Fishie already separuh in limbo (1 roll film only), FZ1 recorded less than 500 shuttles already kumpul habuk and DSLR pun belum rasa hangat sudah berdingin.

Then I see light in me again, although I've been eyeing on L-CA or L-CA+ since forever but some stupid union just decided to jack up the price just like fuel and rice hikes back home for 100%. Yea can you imagine just because of some dumbass Austrians rediscovered the wonder in low quality toy cam and striked a fortune doesn't mean they can single handedly monopolize a range of products lo! L-CA is like sooooo wonderful a camera. But heck the official price is RM 1.2k compared to eBay's 50 USD. In case you don't already know, L-CA is the epitome of lomo cameras, a legendary one originated from St. Petersburg, Russia (formerly USSR). However, after the collapse of USSR or something, they discontinued it until recently they revive the production by adding a "+" called L-CA+ (Lomo-Compact Automat Plus) with the exception that the glass lens are made in China instead of Russia. Oh well, not like I care as long as I have one, whichever will do.

Alright, in order to find a temporary replacement for L-CA, I came across Lomo Smena 8M and FED 5C which I chose the latter for it is a imitation version of some Leica screw mounted camera that supposed to cost like 3000 USD. But with the much (MUCH) more lower price I paid for FED 5C I get to enjoy certain Leica's features (that yet to be discovered). So yea, this USSR made vintage camera has enlightened me and brought me a whole new chapter of fun. Although it's a little bit too chunky and heavy but it feels totally solid in hands like gold bar. No cracky loose cover, everything is well screwed in place with metal plates and steel, can't even find a tiny piece of plastic material. It feels very cold under low temperature just like the then communist governance. To make it sounds more valid, the lens of it (Industrar 61) contains Lanthanide which is a radioactive element but in very negligible amount only. This shows that USSR is indeed a powerful nuclear and radioactive material driven communist just like Democratic People's Republic of Korea today. Anyways, I don't care lah, my next target will surely be L-CA(or +) already lah. Doubtlessly.

School's out. So I went for Photography Club members gathering today instead of Intima Forum which I don't give a single damn with all their respect. There are so many prospectful programmes like workshops, Stylo shooting session, potrait shooting, garden shooting, introduction to Illustrator and yada. But the most excited event is the upcoming Japanese GT racing photo shooting session! Those seniors have got us free tickets to enter Sepang F1 circuit to shoot some serious panning shots! How wonderful is that compared to, you know, working ass off like donkey, showering ownself with condemnations and stresses, confronting misunderstandings, politics and yada. Committee members are helluva friendly summore. PC is to hell much more enjoyable lah! And if we get hired as event photographers, we get paid summore...at least some people will appreciate our skills by monetary value rather than none, zero. Nuff said. I'm gonna Zzz for good already, after all the heels over head streamer paintings. They got so engrossed and rush the hell outta us suddenly, and decided to finish it in like 1 day for 10 over streamers. Of course we were bound to OT lah...what an EVENTFUL commitment and obligation. Cibai.

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Communist camera

Single Worst Day In Life

Berikutlah kisah seorang lelaki yang paling malang di dunia :

Planned to go back home after 12pm class. Got stranded by some stuffs pertaining to you-know-what club. Turned down initially. Compromised after received a fair amount of tunjuk perasaan from certain someone. Granted. I stayed back and did the streamer painting whilst leaving all my stuffs at AUP office. Overly engrossed in painting. Forgot office touch down hour. Office closed. Bags and all trapped inside the office. Apparently no one in the college hold the key at that point of time. Panicked cos housekeys and the just received FED 5C (they couldn't deliver to me in person cos I was having class and when they called I pandai pandai told them wrong number cos the seller gave them my forum ID which I don't even know how to pronounce haha) are all inside. Fucked up everything. Called Kelvin for help. Headed to Susi house for some serious parasiting and sheltering. Susi hadn't reached home yet when I arrived. Went to NZX to wait for her. Had Donuts which was stupid enough for a person who constantly whine for not keeping up with good diet routine. Susi reached. Upon entering her house. Heavy downpour like no tomorrow. Luckily. In the end, Kelvin fetched me home from Susi's. Currently at home typing this entry. Gotta stay back for streamer painting until late evening as well for tomorrow. How about this, cibai kanasai! Ugh, so I practically carry nothing to college tomorrow for my things are already there -_-. Well, you don't have to further emphasize how far my stupidity goes cos I know I'm beyond that for all the valid reasons!

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Could be your lung tissue under light microscope.

Where is da brain?

Do we like...have a quota for stupid remarks to come out every month? I believe it is a yes and indeed exceeded the actual quota already.

First thing I heard was about how alluring the current girl school uniform (the all white translucent baju kurung where non muslims girls wear besides pinafore). It is saying that girls nowadays are inviting for statutory rapes on themselves rather than those stupid men out there who can't control their peverted high sexual drive that should either castrate themselves or masturbate more, am I right? What? No brain is it? This is really like another clever form of gender discrimination. I mean why don't just make up for a tight enforcement like hello, please debate in parliament cos that's what the legislative body's for given that backbenchers are not voiceless minority anymore. Don't just push the blame on victims and, what? Let those monster get scot free or little punishment and give them chances to go on let loose their oversecretion of testosterone? Listen, what bout this, CASTRATION up for good!

And then, few days ago when I read the newspaper, the has-been yesterday superstar Sharon Stone has been making foolish statement on China's earthquake. Apparently this pro-Tibetan concluded that what happened to China is the flow of what goes around and comes around, she believed that China has received its 'karma' due to the fact that how they are not being nice to the Tibet and Dalai Lama *roll eyes to max*. Dumbo. Hollywood is getting like kindergarden fostering adults who think like children or worse. It is no doubt that stupid statement of hers has violated the Dalai Lama's teaching of being big hearted to people no matter how they treated you and so forth. And she later realised her stupidity and berpura-pura act humble there. Seriously, we should put her on social stigma or STONE her to death at least. Fucking inhumance hypocrite. Go eat stones la.

Speaking of stones, it reminds me of rice (dunno y la...). Freaking inflation, price increased 1 fold man, and if you don't already know, those eateries around you had already passed on the burden to consumer because it is necessary, the increment is too massive! Everything also increase but income/allowance remains T.T. And then that barricade of Bandar Mahkota Cheras can officially remove now I think which is very easier for us! Imagine last time when we had to make a super detour to Kampung Batu 11 then Sungai Long a big "U" turn to BMC (6.7km) just to find my cousin sister restaurant from CP, we wanted to siam the toll at Batu 11 boh pien. Now just go straight from CP junction smooth 1.5 km after the removal of barricade, and only then I realized it is so near! Just calculate how much $ and time lost for BMC residents and those around? Grand Saga is really leech, lintah darat.

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Where to find vintage Soviet made 35mm film cameras in Malaysia? It's everywhere on e-Bay but none around the market! I'm looking for either LOMO Smena 8M or FED 5C Industar-61, zomg the latter is like soooooooooooooooooooooooooo retro-ish and doubtlessly takes good pictures. So, where got sell? T.T Found! I'm buying FED 5C from a LYN seller. Smena is overpriced yet toyish but FED 5C is using Zeiss + Leica range finder! Rare and super ohm! :D

Everything and everything

Everything seems so robotic nowadays. It's like I'm living on a pre-set live impoverished with surprises and oomphs. Meetings, gatherings and homeworks and more meetings, more gatherings and more homeworks. Repetitious. Framed. I'm trying to avoid calls but there's no way in heaven or hell I can avoid sms-es unless I swallow my cellphone and end my life together with all the miseries. Sms-es are not asking for date or delightful things to that sort but compel me to accept the unilateral invitation to work like donkey upon opening inbox and accidentally take the killer glimpse at those words. Rejection is impossible. Now that I have to lengthen my blocked list on online messenger tool. And I just got to know that I can't go back home during Father's Day cos need to run some errands for College Day. Sighs. And supposed I need to go to college tomorrow and Sunday but I told them I went back JB. I've already given my 5 days week to them, sacrificed gym and wasted lotsa times. Now I demand for the remaining 2 days on my own. Fair enough. Unless it's extraordinary important or informed beforehand like 3 working days before the due date. I don't like spontaneity in such manner. It sounds very tyrannic and unplanned. Not my forte. And I don't remember when was the last time I came back to my room with left over energy for the day. I've overspent them. Just don't go overboard and cross my line. There's at least 1 or 2 of them from the committees that have the atrocity to step on my head. Whatever they think is right it's right. The only thing they are good at is experience, cos most of them are like me, total rookie and noobie in this club. Other than that, zip up and kiss your own ass goodbye. Well, there are also upsides about this club too but insufficient to amount to highlight of the day. I keep happy things in me and purge grudge into this blog. My blog is dirty, filthy, angsty, dark, pessimistic, negative and everything that is wrong about. I've contributed some pints of pollution to cyberworld, that is something worth to be proud of for nameless people like me who always wanna do big and prove to the world. But when I ponder further, what will I be getting in the end? Will I be better off? Everything's left unknown and indefinite. Sometimes when I'm not so strong, I'd really wish I had done more.

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I believe I've been tagged, not sure. But just assume this is squeezed out of tedium.

Real name: Ng Kok Whei
Nickname: Wei, Kok, 大头兵
Married: Nop
Zodiac Sign: Pisces
Male or Female: Male

High School: SMK Aminuddin Baki JB
College: Inti College Subang Jaya
Short or long hair: Short (always)
Are you a health freak?: By all means but drifted away of late.
Height: 172 cm
Do you have a crush on someone?: It's now or never.
Do you like yourself?: Yes and no.
Piercings: Nop.Thinking of getting one on nape.
Right or lefty: Right handed. Sometimes ambidextrous.

FIRST
First surgery: Never.
First piercing(s): 19
First best friend: Huah Jeng, Huah Shin and Huah Rong (my neighbour's kids)
First award: Singing competition in kindergarden (1st :D )
First sport you joined: Squash (officially)
First pet: Parrot fish and died 2 days after due to electricity black out.
First vacation: Should be either Singapore, KL or Desaru. Childhood amnesia sorry.
First concert: Jimmy Lin (林志颖）Live in Stadium Tertutup Tebrau JB 1993 (a whooping 15 years ago!)
First crush: Some boys or girls during primary school.

CURRENTLY
Eating: Chewing gum. (facial diet kthx)
Drinking: Detox tea.
I’m about to: Do my homeworks.

YOUR FUTURE
Wants kids: Will adopt or maybe don't want at all. I don't like toddlers.
Want to get married: Nop, see first.
Careers in mind: Freelancer or successful Forbes-featured businessman (BIG duh!), no lah, IT HAS GOTTA BE THE ONE AND ONLY HEALTH SCIENTIST.

WHICH ONE IS BETTER
Lips or eyes: Eyes of course, that's the window of soul. Who cares bout lips.
Hugs or kisses: Hugs I guess, and those transition of temperatures are irreplaceable.
Shorter or taller: Make it 176 cm will do.
Romantic or spontaneous: Spontaneously romantic. Too much romanticisms can be corny and impractical. I hate platitudinous people which are often nothing more than hypocrites themselves.
Nice stomach or nice arms: Six packs! Fucking gimme.
Trouble maker or hesitant: Hesitant lor...since I'm indecisive and prefer no brainer.

HAVE YOU EVER
Kissed a stranger: Yea. When I got drunk eons ago.
Drank bubbles: Alcohols yea, name me!
Lost glasses or contacts: Contacts.
Run away from home: Yea. To a nearby KFC and met my parents there ta-paoing KFC for me instead. Aww...cos I told them I felt like eating.
Liked someone younger: Yea. But not anymore.
Liked someone older: Yea.
Broken someone’s heart: Nop. I'm a typical Pisces.
Been arrested: For? Juvenile Delinquent? Got arrested for ponteng sekolah eons ago.
Turned someone down: Of course. We gotta move on somehow.
Cried when someone died: Hell yea, hello me made of flesh installed with this thing called feelings.
Liked a friend: No way. Depends on what kinda friend. Acquantance maybe.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN
Yourself: More yes than no.
Miracles: No. I'm all about pragmatism.
Love at first sight: Hell no.
Heaven: Why not, it's a place to entrust afterlife.
Sex on the first date: Over my dead body.
Angels: No. I think there are all demons in disguise.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY
Is there one person you want to be with right now: Err...make it yes then. Not sure.
Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time: Certainly no and won't. BFFs yes.
Do you believe in God: I believe in Gods. Plural. And deity.

This survey very intimate lor, like matchmaking ad liddat.

Il finito.

Ditto Ditto Ditto

Finally.

I can rest my day away..

Done with my Bio quiz, Politics test and STACT's members gathering.

As usual, got condemned at meeting for no reasons, all the fingers pointing and bureaucracy red tape. At least they all sound plausible. Attendance seems compulsory for upcoming events if no better excuses to absent present (pun not intended). Inti Ball, College Day, Intima Forum, ON...endless meetings...yada-yada. T.T

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At last,

I got the liberty to binge, aside from my usual main dinner course with rice and dishes, I'd gobbled down a regular set of Ayam Goreng McD. Further entitled to a chance of Big Mac chant. That goes without saying. Chanted it right away. Nothing much to hesisate anyways. Gobbled down the Big Mac right after finishing the Ayam Goreng. Uber bloated. Contented. Satisfied. Bubbled. Screw diet. What more can be more enjoyable than eating what you wanna eat without thinking twice, without looking at the nutritional fact. 537 kcal + 420 kcal = 957 kcal. What's with that? Yea right screw it. I binge when I don't feel too good. Why should I care so much about my figure since no one will be looking anyway? And now I'm hungry again.

Actually I fell asleep immediately after the binge. Woke up. Thus this post. The finale of non sensical ditto entry. Next post shall be a happy one. I vow to thee.

Shite. I haven't called for sponsorship yet!!!

Ditto Ditto

Do you have this kinda feeling that,

you've spent a long and weary day doing stuffs not pertaining to you.

Done with the day. Went home. Took off the mask. Looked into the mirror and saw a complete someone else staring back at you in a lifelike manner?

Must've been fretted or what.

Cos the boundary between right and wrong is getting opaque.

Self denial kicked in. Twats and cunts dispersed. Daunting the headlamp of soul. Revealing, devastating...

I shall stop making non sensical overstatement that will leads to emotional led breakdown in future or at least I'm not typing this thing feeling extraordinarily sucky, am I? I can't seem to recognize my acts these days. Excessive tie down is suffocating.

I miss the liberty to switch off my cellphone, my laptop, to sleep without alarm clock, to remain anonymous and the little Nelson, to do things I wanna do alone...

Period.

Ditto

To the jackass in me,

In life, one cannot avoid making bad choices and get picked. Once you've stepped into that outrageous whirl of disaffirmation and find it hard to retreat.

Just tell yourself, it's all deserved.

Padan muka.

C*bai.

From XX

p/s : Diam-diam ubi memang berisi punye.

T4YP

Just got back from TY4P (Theatre for Young People) workshop a while ago at KLPac, because I am young, therefore I am eligible to go. End of story. Laughing is strictly prohibited. Or else you shall rot.

The entire workshop thingy was very short, like about 1+ hours. It's like a musical stage show preview. Anyways, the performance today was at outdoor on the deck. Although not many people were there but the performance was impressive and subtle enough. All the actors and actresses are very professional although they may be nothing more than amateur. The theme was "100-word Project" where the idea is very simple. Each of the actors/actresses had to express their innerself in 100 words (monologue) incorporating the word "Park" in every segment. Not a word more or less. IMHO, I don't think it is as easy as it sounds. Cos not only you need to apply the power of words intensively but imagination plays a crucial part as well as you run on. Oh yea, and they sing too! But unlike Moulin Rouge or Sweeney Todd that sort lah. Nonetheless it's good enough at their standard. KLPac is really a wonderful place to hang out rather than spending time and $ aimlessly at shopping malls, at least it's a place full of inspirations.

Feel free to visit TY4P's blog at
http://t4yp.wordpress.com

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Han Lim and Suzanne are fostering their innate acting potential UNABASHEDLY but very matching kan both? *winks* So close to meruntuhkan akhlak moral already.

Hello? I'm born to act...lalalala.

A little bit of that

Finally Intima week's over! And I was given whole loads of tasks to be completed today. Have to manage the security jobs as well for some odd reasons. Ta-dah you can now call me a multitask android filled with lipids. Nonetheless I still manage to squeeze out some personal time for indulgence at this point of time besides having cleanly forgot about the Statistics quiz today which carries 5 effing %. I'll constantly try to plead for a break even after the outcome next week which, sad to say, nothing upbeat to look forward to lah. 5% is too much for a quiz (woot?). And then, starting next week onward I'll be spanking dead beat like mush.

On a brighter note, the Big Mac chant is my new mantra right now. I can't stop chanting it over and over! 2 all beef patties...%$%^&%$(stml at the time of typing this)...sesame seed bun. Voila! There you go 2 Big Macs down for free that I decided to give them away. 3 cheers for 537 kcal per serving, it is no kidding issue wei! Actually 4 seconds are more than sufficient for a sound person or even if you're Broca's or Wernicke's speech challenged, just go try out yourself I beckon. Also, you may wanna save up your lunch and dinner expenses for better use (why not just admit you cheapskate bastards). McD is helping out. Being a merry-go-happy-sugar-camouflaged-Jack Sparrow-meet-the-gothic-clown-mascot conglomerate. Energy cum fat distribution is their obligation you see more than being charitable. Stickguys and stickgals, good news. Moi? It would be my utmost pleasure to shove a couple of patties up their marketing personnel's arses FFS.

Anyways, anyone's going to the performing art workshop at KLPac this coming Sunday? Seems promising but LAZINESS has got the better of me. Then again, it's free admission. Aren't you tempted already? huh? Huh? HUH? It's F-R-E-E...fuhhhhrrriiiiiieeeeeeee! I'm practically out of time I guess. So, anticipatedly, Saturday is a whole day of house chores (looking at that pile of laundry hill is enough to kill!), lab report, tutorial, assignment, sponsorship hunting, ON's checklists here and there...fuck why am I reminding myself? T.T Late night Friday I wasn't even doing anything productive. Argh!

Alright seriously need an alarmless wake up tomorrow, wanna sleep like there's no tomorrow that I've been long deprived for. Hello Barn. Hello melatonin. Slumber bee. Imaginary Nelson. Lala. Here I come.

Au revoir!

Tristan --

[adjective]: Tastes like fried chicken

'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

...Special Sauce Lettuce

Cheese Pickles Onion...

A little bit of this

This week is Intima week. Have to sell tickets for Orientation Night and also recruit new members. Double jeopardy is the word. Thundery weary now. I just have to spend all my free times and breaks to put up with something that literally kill time innocently. Dunno why la, they just like to call whoever which is free impulsively, catch them, put them in a cage and tell them they are up to something. Then at the end, we spent time waiting like stones only to realise we received no order to perform any tasks AT ALL. We were just put on hold IN CASE they are up to something. Fuckhole ass ripping wusses right? Surely they need to seriously learn about the dearness of OUR time. And we are not back up tyres also. I hate all these senseless obligations. I was given no orders and no details to date on my puddinghead logistic parts. It's as if the post was made out of extrinsic value for it is a MUST HAVE turun temurun but practically for nothing but being stoned. Celaka.

Speaking about Intima week, I joined 3 other clubs and societies with better prospect this semester (finally for 4 semesters of rotting out in this college anonymously) other than STACT club. I honestly can't dissolve in that solvent myself. If only I can resign from ON organizing committee at will...I'm serious. They don't need me afterall and not like I wanted to join this organizing committee in the first place also. It all started from nowhere without notification and next thing I know was my name is already on the list...just like a tattoo~

Oh and Politics class is getting sibeh miserable and sleep inducing. T.T

Also, folks and parents are making me so emo! They are all set for an overseas getaway in group WITHOUT me...666. How can?! Of all the time, why must they chose 3 weeks after my next new semester started? Evil right? Hmphf...how can I not be emo you tell me!

I'm effing grey and sour.

Sien.

Life is dry.

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Intima Week

I Don't Want A Title For This

Alright, just a random thought before I turned in to bed.

I've no idea what makes me into this but I no longer feel the sense of belonging at where I'm stepping on right now. Then it hit me hard with the term, Organic Solidarity (Gesellschaft) that used to describe the urban lifestyle. To briefly elaborate, the term means nothing more than pointing out the nonchalance, coldness, ignorance, robotic and etc. of urban dwellers. Further reveals that, social bonds in urban are based on specialization and interdependence. It may sound foreign to you but like it or not, it's a piece of fact. By specialization, it means each of us needs to magnify the scope of a certain particular field that they are good in in order to benefit society and brings people toward them. For example, when the first time you met a person, you will have asked him question like "what do you do for living?" and slowly finds benefit which you can reap out of the conversation. To simplify the statement, you respect you lecturers simply because they are smarter than you in certain fields and you learn things from them. However, if they are being stripped off from all their knowledge, will you still respect them as you used to be? Eventually, this brings out interdependence where we get along with each other today to depend on them more than we really want to be with them for no reasons at all.

I realise friends that I made after a certain level of my life cannot go far beyond interest group. Like, there's something common and beneficial for us that brings us together. Well, I won't deny that it's the basic function of how a relationship starts nowadays. I mean you won't acquainted a person who pop up and say hi to you and walk off. Perhaps you think he's just being lunatic or what. More often than not, we get along together because we need something from each other instead of we get along together because we want to get along together, no further. I can make a clear example here from what I encountered from my college's club, nice to have a slogan of "Friendship above service..." or some sort of words close to that meaning. The chairman claims that all the members will be treated like one family. We sing club songs, play games, interact and so on but the upon closer observation. I realized it's just like any other social organization around. It's all about interests, be it personal or common ones. Favouritism overrule common goal. Slogan as a new way of spreading propaganda. It's very ironic in a way that I don't even know how to bring into words vividly. You know I just sense that I don't belong to there even I've been there for like 1 semester, that's about 4 months. I feel like a misfit member being stucked at some obligations that I never promised to get involded. I've lost autonomy. I have to put on masks (which explains why I'm often so quiet in class or club cos I hate to do that). I have to listen to "words that are often louder than actions". Sounds familiar eh? Isn't it nicely reflected our in house political scenes? It may not be true and I can be generalizing things but that's not the crucial part cos I think I digress a little. Just my 20 cents.

But I'm glad I still have friends who will just be with me for the sake of drawing our relationship closer or simply they just want to be together for who we are. Not being together for what we are because we need to.

Though, most of us can't be around together all times but deep down we know we won't feel awkward even after years apart. That's the chemical and feel good factors in common.

Goodnight.

Hokkien Jade Drama Coming to Life

Happy Mother's Day to Mummy, all my god mothers and grandmother.

Nothing much special for this year (or every year), I felt like buying the Gintell massage chair for it is buy one free one but too bad I realised my goodwill was dampened by my tight budget! Haha. So despite spending the whole night with my kkl until wee hours, I had to crawl out from the bed around 10 am the next day to send my dad to my grandfather's and headed to 大马 to hunt for some real nice carnations for mummy. I got a really cute one with teddy bear on it! Then rushed to Pelangi to buy detox tea recommended by frog. She said she lost some kgs after consuming it. The myth will be affirmed this week after it washed down my stomach. After settled everything at downtown, I had to go up to TC's Jusco to buy practical present for mummy (shan't disclose hehe). Went home, surprised mummy and that's all, I'm quite bad at this I know. Lol. Later on was the usual eating out and all which happens every year at this time.

Grandma was over at our place together with godparents. With her presence, there will always be dramatic play. This time was not an exception except it was a more serious life and death matter. Here it goes, grandma and godpa had some conflicts and my grandma spanged her head against the wall aka 撞墙 -_- like she did before. How Hokkien-soap-drama-ly dramatic right? She does this kinda thing very often, we all got it from her when we were kiddos (kneeled down before the altar, served tea to apologize...you name it). In any case, the worst part happened while my grandma attempting her head-bang-wall action, my godpa was totally blew out of the water upon seeing that in sight followed by paling in face, rapid heartbeat, panic...and all the pre-symptoms of heart attack which he didn't even know he has. Daddy sent him to Pandan hospital immediately and luckily he was alright after that. Kudos to that stupid hospital actually didn't really perform thorough check out on godpa due to equipment broke down -_-. Apparently, one button of the ECG machine was not functioning, and that was the best excuse they could give at the cost of life of an emergency patient? Yes, exactly, godpa was admitted to emergency department at first cos we thought it was very critical and emergency at that time. Well, I'm pretty sure everyone knows how far the efficiency of public hospital goes for we had no choice but to send him there because it is only less than 3 km away from my house which is the one next to Tebrau City in case you don't know. As well as the one with fungus breeding all over before the official opening ceremony that caused some hoo-haas around, excuse given by the then Semi Value was, "It happens in other countries". End of story. Life is cheap here, Semi Value should've retired 30 years ago to save all the disputes.

We suspect our grandma is not only suffering from senile but paranoic type of schizophrenia. Cos she had records of threatening for suicide, self mutilation and mental delusion. But she seems normal most of the time. Still, I think I need to suggest the folks to bring her for a serious psychotherapy session lest she will fire off another attempt to literally gek sei my godpa,if she's willing to go which I doubt she will cos she's very tik ki (stubborn).

Of late, folks like to tattle about life and death on dinner table (they've been living more than half a decade). Daddy was talking about sudden departure of his football mate back in those days, mummy was talking about the suicide of her client and the sudden departure of Uncle Steven and all those around us. We can't avoid things that we can't predict, can we? According to the same old cliche, live life to fullest each day, materialism can never be associated with happiness no matter how. So what if you got the whole world?

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They're sending clothings to Salvation Army. You wish.

Then she wanna contribute some golds for tropical cyclone's victims in Myanmar.

Eh, I think the detox tea doesn't work on you at all. Maybe you can try eating more "tupai"

From the L word to the F word

The L's,

Lies. Laughs. Loves. Lives. Lesbians. Lame. Lusts. Los Angeles.....

I finished 1 season in a day all thanks to my uber laid back timetable, how marvellous!

It simply just more than homosexuality and all the gay rights movements can tell. Just slightly more than that. Somewhere in between controversial and provocation. Please leave religion out of this for god's sake also (pun not really intended).

I feel so dykey now...

Hello there!

..but oh well, food for thought.

I'm converted.

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The F,

Fuck.

I know, this is another spin off of my enraged grudge against THE college. It comes out like tap water and it's on the loose now, please understand.

Yea la...I know this is just an outlet for my feelings, I'm ranting to noone and I will honestly shut this up once I feel right about it in no time (i think sometime next week things will be fine I hope), if no relapse :p

Read this : Itu blog miliki saya. Clear enough ah?

666! Intro. to US Govt. has got the boringest dullest lecturer ever on the planet. I've found a new place to seriously slumber out. Wtfbbq. Memang jatuh ditimpa tangga. I'm right now in a serious difficult position. I can't possibly drop the damn thing for there are no better substitutions except for English Literature which facing under amount of students right now on the verge of chaplap-ing but hell I don't need that in my major. There's French 101 which I'm begging to join but monstrously CLASHED with Stats (TYPICAL!)...effing chintzy college who can't even well managed its flagship course in the pseudo-honor of some questionable ISO standard. Well, I mean they can't short change us just because they have the crown of it. We need a good lecturer, not some Tom, Dick or Harry who part-timely appointed from admin. department who can't teach a fuck standing there reading slides straight out from power point! In that nut case, the security guards or janitors can perform similar task equally well as well. What makes me more furious, the advisors got the balls to tell me I should accept my fate for my misfortune (those timetable clashes...). Hell that shows how much they think my time's worth, go fuck a chicken la.

I am seriously have to booze up before attending POL101's class, for better, I can pretty sure the whole class won't turn their backs against a round or two of chor dai di during the lesson. I call it class participation. Anyone has 2nd opinion?

Unfortunately afterall I will still have to put up with all of these. Pips, just assume this entry is made invisible ok?

Sighs.

This music video 很美!

Believe Again by Delta Goodrem

Stunning and stupendously beauuutiful!

Words fail me.



p/s : Mind you this is the most expensive music video ever made in Oz. Just look at the backdrop setting and the CG effects then you'll know. On par with LOTR.

Shitnesssssss

This college will never fails to wreck my nerves, EVER!

I went to enroll today and I spent like 2 hours staring at the damn generator doing those timetable matchings just to sort out the perfect timetable. Happy happy clicked "ok"...blimey, Physics class fulled! Peachy, it toppled all my other perfect time slots. And to hell I have to rematch with new subjects again which took me further 1+ hour tim! Fuck. Then in the end only 3 rather than normal 4 subjects mutually exist harmoniously side by side. Ended up taking only 3 subjects due to all the stupid clashes. Now I have to stay on for another semester which is 6 semesters altogether, can be 7 also since I have to postpone my transfer date due to Inti's ever brilliant system. Supposedly Spring 2009 but now delayed to Fall 2009 which constitutes to 2 more semesters but I don't think I will finish all the 2 semesters during that time frame. Prolly just stop before May which is the end of my 6th semester and take a hiatus for preparation/work/spend time with close ones before August. If that's so then I gotta prepare for uni(s) application on next semester or next next semester already and not THIS. Geez so sickening it sure takes a long time for me to enter a proper uni at this age. And does it sounds better than leaving at Spring 2009? Cos at least I get to spend another CNY with friends and family with of cos the bonus of getting ang paos la. But still, wasted hell loads of my time talking to the advisors today, and I have to come up with explanation for the mess but why should I? It's not my fault cos the previous advisor told me not to take 2 sciences (4 cr. hour based) in one semester and not like the timetable then was not clashing also *roll eyes*. Typical ICSJ. Fuck CHM 211 and CHM 212 if not because of them...I think the Dean can just sack all the unproductive staffs like Ms. M, Exam office crew and course advisors for better, I don't see a problem in exercising it for it's a bob's your uncle matter. Then the new building I think is built to burn money into ashes because not only we don't have more flexible timetable but subjects offered seem to shrink as well. What's this? Not enough lecturer then for fuck's sake go hire more, not enough classes is no excuse since the new "grand" block claims to accommodate more students and of cos more classes! Then with all the trumpeted claims, why do we still facing so many time slots clashes? I can't believe I still have to face all this timetable inefficiencies when all there I have to care is my grades/CGPA. Bummer bummer bummer! Real big bummer.

But then this semester is only a 4 days week, meaning I got only 4 lecture days per week! Haha 1st in my life. More time to slackstudy I supposed. I'm taking Introduction to American Government as well. Tell me how the hell I came to the state of fitting POL101(US Government) into my curriculum of..........CLS/MT major?! Bummer!

OMG just kill me.

Desaru Road Trip

Sempena Labour Day off and the lackadaisical day after that, dad and mum took a day off to Desaru of course I gotta tag along for all the reasons. We planned to go for a day trip to Sg. Rengit for seafood but then dad decided to book a resort room impulsively so that we don't need to rush all the way back to JB at night. We stayed at Desaru Damai Beach Resort which was mediocre only but good for short overnight stay. However, looking at those virginal and sandy beach in sight is more than enough to offset the cons. We chilled at the beach, I went to swim at the sea with my dad whilst mum just sat and watch for she is incapable of touching water haha. My fishie was all along with me and I've done with one film in a day! So happy and it was all worthwhile. Btw, the bank didn't reap much of service charge and it's exactly how it'd cost had it been converted to Ringgit. Yay :D

We drove all the way up to Sg. Rengit for seafood dinner after chilling at the resort and all. The meal was darn cheap despite the fact that the place is always infest with Singaporeans. Mum ordered like crazy, I think 7 or 8 dishes for only 3 of us. Still not very full to be honest and we are so gonna get from the further step up of LDL levels which incidentally haunting most of my family members. And then in my utmost humble opinion, Desaru's beaches are 10x better than Bintan's, we used to frequent Desaru like 3-5 times in a year those days but ever since everyone's leaving, so it's getting quiet and lonely nowadays.

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Peace out

Mummy and daddy (forced to take haha)

Me and my symbol of peace

Gemini and colourful canoes
Scratches

Roar...

Sunset and silhouette

Dot-ed the day

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Mbak Jay, tengok lah, this is what a "toy camera" can do. Tell me how you feel about the effect k? To be noted, I DID NOT retouch those photos with Photoshop at all. Feel free to appreciate how pure and fundamental can they be...so aesthetically pleasing .

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Alright, results for this semester are all out, no failing nor extraordinary good grades. My conclusion is I feel lucky to retain my CGPA and move on to my sophomore year which I was deeply in doubt before that haha, every semester is like pain in ass, I was so worried that I might gonna just stuck and ended up in retaking and stuffs...and then let me strongly condemn ICSJ's lecturers, yea now I know you all are nothing but hypocrites, the reason you all gave high courseworks marks is just so that you all can bring us down altogether in one shot during final, and now I know! Ms. Sociology-Lecturer and Mr. History-Lecturer, I won't forget how you all sabotaged me. Kinda disappointed to say actually. Oh well, at least I get to move on still. Nabeh.

Jessica Octaviani II

I was thinking of doing this entry in Bahasa Kekaratan but called it off before I get started cos no one will understand and not even the beloved Jay! Haha. Makan tahu penerjemah then. Alright cut the crap. Me and Jay had our second meet up at Sg yesterday. I promised to see her at 11.30 am SHARP at Heeren for we will have more time to spend for the day but my stupidity has got the better of me. I overslept and by the time I reached Taka. it was already 1 pm-ish and she was bored out from waiting. Ribuan maaf. And then we met up at Kino. and I saw ready sets of Lomo sitting at the Art & Design section's shelf! Tell me how to resist?! I didn't intend to buy actually but still...impulse! I swiped for it and hopefully they can spare me from exorbitbant forex rate dfference, service charge and whatnots. Oh and I got it cheaper cos Jay has the member card which entitled me 10% off the normal price. Ribuan terima kasih ya! There's always a good start to everything haha.

We went cheung k again at Cineleisure, I know it was so pricey for the services we received but did we not enjoy it? haha. And I have to manually buy OCK cos the exorbitant rate we paid didn't include any food at all! So much for Sg's cheung k scene despite the poor operating system and sound system. I'm gonna reinstate that Red Box and Neway still win hands down. We should try the one in Chinatown and Bugis I guess had we not hanging around Orchard. Next time la.

Later on we took bus to Vivocity for dinner, too bad we couldn't go Carnivore cos of the dinner rate is exaggeratedly high. So we settled down at Food Republic which flooded with crowd due to the eve of public holiday (wrong move!). And I wonder why every stalls there seem to plaster with award winning, acclaimed and most sought-after honours, there are not that good as they think they are I guess but well some Singaporeans are shallow so they will go for the famous and long-queued ones. Typical kiasuism la. Nonetheless, the "famous" Hokkien Fried Prawn Mee we had is fantabulous but the rather pricey Lobak I ordered is mediocre only. Street foods, what else to expect? But me likey street foods! And to hell with Anything? and Whatever they are just normal carbonated drinks which trigger curiosity, it shows how brilliant for their plausible marketing strategy. All the sales gimmicks. Wtfbbq.

After the contented dinner, we walked around and Jay "mendorong" me with her evil plan to try out Warm Chocolate Cake at White Dog Cafe but I was skeptical and already kenyang but still there's always a room for temptationexperimentation. Les dessert after heavy meal was welcomed as a rinse of mouth. I pun memang glutton punye. We walked pass the cafe, wondered a while and returned there after the first glance at those cute little cakes sitting in the glassed refrigerator cos we will be more guilty for not stuffing those thick creamy dense chocolate down our stomachs rather than feeling guilty over consuming it against our own dietetic principles. We practically savored each and every bites. Jay was very engrossed in it cos the way she indulged was so unrealistic and romantic to the extent that she had to shut her eyes during those savoring moments. Cute. It is too nice to describe and I don't wish to type those words out either cos at the end of my sentence I will be deadly craving for it again, so that's all for it, go White Dog Cafe at Vivocity and try out yourself. Yea so I got converted.

Got back around 9 something cos she wanted to catch AI 7 which she can't afford to miss due to the appearance of David Cook (duh!). We parted at Outram's station then I went on with my Red Line T^T which took me about 40 minutes to reach Kranji. Because it was fucking public holiday eve and there were some fucking shit eating custom officers who dragged our clearance (courtesy of Mas Selamat that should fuck off and die) plus the ever jamming traffic, I reached home at 1 am! Helluva horrible right?

Still, I was very very very happy nevertheless. I'm turning into bubbles.

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Iya tanter apa yg bisa gw tolong?

p/s : And I must say, Brooke White did not overstay her welcome! She deserves to go this far but what the heck she still got eliminated before Jason Castro.

Blood spilled

STACT's camp was fun. I had fun.

Got bitten by countless leeches during jungle trekking and waterfall trekking (we walked upstream bagai menentang arus which was crazy). Weather was wet.

Got few extra bruises and scars scatter everywhere as a mean to spice up my legs. Good. I can't recognise them anymore as a result.

Solo drop in the middle of jungle at wee hour was sooo sccccca.....dventurous. Not THAT scary but boring whilst lighted bushfirecampfire alone, reminded me of those days in St. John.

Oh well.

It has been sleepless for few days. Conked already.

That should well explained my MIA, AWOL and whatever it is for the past few days, matter fact there won't be any phone signals in the middle of the jungle, so don't ask already! Sorry.

Adios.

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I've no idea why I look so horrifying and old in those photos, maybe cos I'm old myself but I believe I have an ever young and flaming heart can or not...alright I'm 21 and most of them there are 18-20 and some rare 21/22. Not like I care anyways.

Lollipop and Kiwi (the Chinese ochestra enthusiasts)

Onion and Kiwi (muka-muka kepenatan, never slept for 3 days)

Sotong (looks like SHE's Ella...ella eh eh right? 80% similarity I reckon!) and Kiwi

Fan4 Tong3, Kiwi (unpresentable face cos eye bags + dark wrinkles + saggy eyelids visible to max) and Mr. President

and lastly.......................................

Choya's Umeshu! Damn stim I tell you, 2 for 10 bucks under promotion available in Isetan until 7th of May nia! I bought 6 and I need more.

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p/s : Mummy's client which I met few times at the restaurant she owned committed suicide last few days together with her husband, both died in their apartment by inhaling excessive CO (burned charcoal at highly enclosed space). Reason(s) yet to be revealed, there, another sigh to life. I believe to every problem there will be a solution eventually, it's only a matter of time and patience.

An Impulsive Trip

First of all let me introduce you, Tanjung Pinang on Pulau Bintan, the capital city of Riau Islands Province (not to be mistaken as Riau Province cos the former attained seperated municipality out of the latter in year 2000). It is one of the few "highly" developed islands among Riau archipelago after Pulau Batam. Owing to our "ambitious" plan ahead, we felt compelled to go for a softcore backpacking trip to a 3rd world country as a rehearsal. Since it's too late to organise trip to any places that require means of transport moving above sea level (yes, plane!) and we are not golden spoon fed child which on rather tight budget saving, so we ought for the most economical place, transport and accommodation. Bintan is only 20+ KM away from Tanah Merah Ferry Terminal in Singapore and around 40+ KM away (150 minutes ferry ride) from JB's Zon Ferry Terminal. We opted the latter to bypass Islands of Singapore, burned us RM 154 for a round ticket + Malaysia seaport tax surcharge. We decided to give it a go on the same day we made our move, that's why I called it "impulsive". Initially not planning to stay over night cos we just planned to look around for a day trip, and who knows we forgot the difference of timezone (yes, it is GMT +7, 1 hour behind Malaysian's), missed the last ferry back to JB. Stranded in Tanjung Pinang, we got blackmailed by 2 uninvited Indonesian accosters upon reaching the port and we had not even checked in to Indonesia yet! I've no idea where did they pop out from probably they are a syndicate and in collaboration with the immigration department to ambush around the custom area predating for victims. Mother fucker without testicles! (they are guys) I tell you, that place is full of crooks eyeing on our pocket, sad to say, seriously it is not ideal for tourist visit. The town is dirty, full of motorcycles, shabby buildings and able-men wandering around trying to offer tonnes of bogus deals like prostitution, hotel "services", blackmailing, escort services, charter "mobil"...kononnya. Actually what they want is none other than $. I had an unfavorable arguements with 2 of the accosters which took me RM 20 + Rp 10k to shoo them away, fuck! Lots of profanities exchanged and that 2 men spitted at us (not directly la) but their gestures are plain annoying and sickening. Luckily the local Chinese are helpful and friendly enough, they commonly speak Teo Chew, Bahasa Indonesia with Riau Malay's slang and Chinese, fortunately, I'm fluent in Teo Chew and Chinese (kinda) so I'd spoken to few sundry shop owners there regarding those outs and abouts on the island and sadly only to find out it's as little as none, haha. Oh yeah, I was impressed by my bahasa campur as well when talking to the natives, I mixed Malay with Indonesian haha (the local Chinese were impressed as well haha), but we blown our covers the minute we came out with Bahasa Melayu (slang?) which deemed foreign to them, strange. Malay is so formal/simplified but Indonesian is always full of street slang. Ngapain beda? Apa perbezaaannya?

Anyways, we wanted to charter a car to Trikora Beach which is 38 km away but they charged us like 400K Rp approx. RM 200 for less than a day, so we just tick it off for a no. And so, we checked in a Chinese owned hotel in the middle of the town which cost us only 100k Rp a night SPONTANEOUSLY. Haha just wanted a roof over head for a night that's all regardless of what.

It was really horrible, not only that place got no power supply during day time to our horror (except some shops will use generator instead as a compensation), it takes a long time to get power supply at night! I supposed the place where it's nearest to the the power plant will be supplied with electricity first and so on so forth. Tanjung Pinang could be few kilometers away from the plant, therefore, it takes longer time to get supplied. In the meantime, have to put up with it. Terrible right? So much for a capital city of a province. We waited until around 8-9 pm to get full electricity supply at the town (with streetlights and all, thank god most hotels are using generator). In any case, we dined at a Chinese eatery (serves awful but cheap vegetarian dishes) in the dark with only candle lights. -_- So dead. I wonder how people survive their days over here lackadaisically. That place got practically nothing! Not even a souveneir shop in sight. Good thing is, for RM 100 (300k Rp.) can last you more than a day at this town with bribery/blackmail, accomodation, food, knickknacks and even a full body massage. Yea, we went for 1 hour body massage (dapat gratis 15 menit extra and strangely "percuma" in Indonesian meaning "worthless" super -_- right?) at night out of boredom. Roaches and rats were roaming the streets...gross. It's really nothing special to shout about for that town. We did see a couple of white tourists that's all but I think they were heading to the beach and just made a pit stop over Tanjung Pinang.

We departed that Island early in the morning the next day like 7 am Indonesian time. At the Indonesian immigration, again were being coaxed into paying some suspicious boarding pass fees for 50k Rp (do we even need to pay when we exchange our air ticket for boarding pass?), it's so damn annoying, their custom officers all carrying the kabuki/suspicious faces that waiting for you to fall prey. Apparently, they will only ask for bribery from people holding foreign passports but sometimes even the native passport holders mainly Chinese, to them Chinese = rich regarding which places they are from. What the hell, no wonder the corruption rate in that country is one of the highest in the world, if you were to compare Malaysia with them, trust me we are far more better. I couldn't express how much I feel blessed to be born in Malaysia upon reaching JB land, it makes me love my country more. Those who still think that having born in Malaysia is most unfortunate thing in their life should get their arses over Bintan and take a look themselves. I just don't wanna go on and elaborate, you should know how good it is to live in a place like here at the same time taking lots of things for granted. If you think our Royal Malaysia Police is bad enough, wait till you see their Polisi Militer, totally bunch of useless bums. Alright, my critic is only restricted within the boundary of Pulan Bintan, perhaps it will be a totally different scene over Jakarta. I still love you Jessica, no worries haha! But an interesting fact is the media/entertainment industry in Indonesia is 10000x better than Malaysia's, it's always full of eye candies and nice rock ballads!

All in all, a short, intense, adventurous and eyes opening trip. Bagged home with tonnes of anecdotes, experiences and lessons in just 2 days 1 night.

Just a disclaimer, I won't condone to ethnocentrism or racism (I was once apprenticed with both Sociology and Anthropology ok!) but I can't tolerate bribery and corruption to happen especially most who committed them over that place are able-bodied. Unless they're paralysed or OKU then different story lah! BUT NO. The classic emoticon for Pulau Bintan's immigration officers and crooks would be ($_$).

And.

I heart Malaysia! Malaysia still boleh.

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One of the many bustling streets

Antennas

Alley

Jalur merah + putih berkibar di depan of some Istana or Mosque, forgot haha. Was in hurry.

At the monument, forgot the name as well haha. It was 6.30 am (GMT+7) in the morning, eyes were still swollen but we couldn't be happier cos we were heading back to civilization.

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p/s : Btw, I didn't know XiaXue had already blogged about her unpleasant experience in Pulau Bintan, had I know earlier about it I wouldn't even wanna lay my foot on this island I think and I almost booked a hotel room at one of the many beach resorts at Trikora which luckily I didn't, like she said, the photos shown on the brochure all look promising and highly photoshopped to lure your desire. Tanjung Pinang is still not much a tourism spot so things are still mainly charged in Rupiah (except for the lodging where we could choose to pay in SGD alternatively from Rupiah, of cos we gotta spend those Rp. because it's kinda worthless if we were to convert it back to RM afterall) and definitely cheaper if not expensive by all means, I paid only 60k Rp. for the massage which is around 13 SGD only. Finally, somebody share the same sentiment that Bintan is evil, just go Batam for a one day shopping trip will suffice, not worth staying over as we have plenty of sandy beaches back home. Those found on Danga Bay/East Coast Park/Sentosa are highly comparable to those in Bintan/Batam. *roll eyes* But then again, I'd love to go Bali if I have the time cos afterall that's the place to die for, if I'm wrong at this, millions of others will be in denial as well! Bali ftw :D

That 70's meme.

8 things I'm passionate about :

1. Ikea
2. My secret "ambitious" plan.
3. My close ones. (not many, you know who you are)
4. Bookstore
5. Photoshop
6. Tattoos and piercings (I'm getting an oral or nape soon!)
7. Diet (sad case...)
8. Singing (I'm John Legend's friend's roommate's penpal's neighbour's driver's friend's brother's
friend.)

8 things I say too often :

1. Walao eh
2. Niabeh
3. TMD
4. CCB
5. Fuck
6. Fuiyoh
7. Sien
8. Slap you

8 books I've read recently :

1. The Birthday Stories
2. The Kite Runner
3. Tokyo Tower
4. The Acid House
5. The Time Traveller's Wife
6. Men are from mars, Women are from venus
7. The Lonely Planet Story
8. Aiya...I've read more than 8 la...still reading The Kite Runner, I'd spent more time
on Sociology, Psychology, US History texts but I like Socio. text the most.

8 songs I could listen to over and over again :

1. Amy Winehouse - Will You Still Love Me Tomorrow?
2. Bic Runga - Sway
3. John Legend - Coming Home
4. 王菲 - 红豆
5. Bjork - Declare Independence
6. Death Cab For Cutie - I Will Follow You Into The Dark
7. KT Tunstall - Other Side Of The World
8. Miley Cyrus - See You Again (I st-st-stuttered when you...jeez!)

8+1 things I learned last year (non academic) :

1. Kill hypocrites (cliche rite?)
2. Ignorance is bliss
3. Ego is important
4. To hate is harder than to love
5. Deeper (as in not shallow)
6. Silence is golden
7. To give love to someone I loved (not worth and not recipocral)
8. To be mean
9. Honesty is a lonely word

I got none to tag, no one read this blog, none shall comment and not like comments are allowed anyways.

Till then. I'm so sleepy, stupid road block polices.

O.o

Morning.

It's 5 am and I'm still up, walking zombie here sending my morning regards to dear all mugging androids out there who are still refuse (or resist) to/from sleep at the wee.

You must be thinking how diligent I was on making progression for my last minute dired revision. The fact is, progression has been made so far with a good 0.0025% overall coverage following a gradual increasing trend, hello, look at the weather outside, it's so meant for cuddling those fluffy bolster and snuggle in slumber, I super love midnight rain and storm despite having a little emo over exams and foreseeing sleepness nights ahead.

Did I mention that Christopher Columbus is really a blasphemous historical person, it was him, the main culprit, the father of all sinful exploits and fountainhead for all the tedious and wordy chapters in HIS 251!!! Uber blasphemous kan? Without him, we don't even need to suffer through all these shits of burning midnight oil for mugging like a baby eating zombie. Worse thing is I don't understand a shit out of it at all if you were to ask me to explain what I've learnt, nope, I doubt it is sinful for 65% of the class doesn't know what's happening even until the end of semester, it happens all the while. There, reminds me of my PSY exam today, can't be easier to describe, gone case or come back next semester. Nooo.

CHM, yet another foreseeable gone case. Wth with all those compound namings, structures and REACTIONS?! You see, we did most of the quizzes in open book manner, now that the final exam is based solely on immediate situational judgement, in this sense, "open book" is completely beyond reasonable topic. Mahai. I swear I'm gonna study real hard next semester (duh!) but the thing is I don't even know what subjects I will be taking...not many choices around that can arouse my interest except for Philosophy and World Religion or maybe US History II? I don't mention sciences because those are my core subject and I don't enjoy myself reading abstract forms of symbols and numerical combos than reasoning and general knowledge. Sighs. Whatever it is, I think I will enjoy more during my major year + clinical training year. I THINK I will.

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You, I'm totally no way near interested to know how good you lead your life currently or how bad you think your life is. I'm not bound to know them FFS. I have my own life and that's it. It doesn't phase me how you gonna spend your time anyways. Or I shall put it this way, I'll MMOB and you shall MYOB. Come on, I bet you won't want me to be honest, will you?

Adios.

I st-st-stuttered.....

I seriously can't get this shit outta my head, it keeps chanting at me over and over again like super mantra gnawing at all the things I've studied for Sociology albeit not much has been covered so far! Omg it's worse than the bubbly ella ella eh eh eh ehhhhh...

seeSeeSEE!

It's coming again...gosh stop me!

The last time I freaked out
I just kept looking down
I st-st-stuttered when you asked me what I'm thinking about
Felt like I couldn't breathe
You asked what's wrong with me
My best friend Lesley said "Oh she's just being Miley"
The next time we hang out
I will redeem myself
My heart it can rest 'till then
Wow wow I
I can't wait to see you again

-_-

It's addictive (addictive =/= me likey!) and I don't even watch Hannah Montana.

Alrite, back to mugging, 6 more chapters (that's like 300 more pages) to go!

I gotta st-st-study ftw :D

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Horrorcles ~Black Friday~

Know what?

Massive man today!

I slept at 5am after having online discussion with J.Goh (our lawyer).

Thought of waking up at 7 for college.

My alarm (the innocent one with cute melody!) didn't work on me.

I realised only when the sun was up.

Gosh, it was already 8 and my history trial was at 9. Beyond that I might gonna face ceremonious condemnations by groupmates/Borges and a rather usual door lock, Borges is very particular about that especially.

So I rushed my donkey life outta hell, put on my formals and ran like mad to the condo gate to flag down taxi.

Good, I must had been invisible, cos none of the cabbies showed signal to stop! Fuck double fucks triple fucks infinite fucks! It's early in the morning and not even rush hour cos the jam had already cleared.

After several failure attempts with the addition of sending SOS to MK for lift but too bad it's already 8.45 (hello!) MK was in college already, on the verge of giving up, there it was, a quasi-philanthropic cabbie honked me perhaps noticing the dismay written conspicuously on face.

In normal situation, I would just turn down the "goodwill" because there's no free lunch in this world, there's price to pay for everything. Upon expecting some shady deal, there, expected outcome, exorbitant fare tendered targeted at my desperation. Burned 8 more bucks than usual. That's like 120% extra. Dealed since I got no strength for further arguements or negotiations all thanks to my carb. free diet on a day 3. I demanded him to speed since there was no jam at all. I reached SS15 from my place in 8 minutes (reached at 8.58) time! That's exactly 2 minutes away from trial time haha...got off happily and went straight to lecture hallprinting shop to print my Q&A sheets. Bah! I don't know what's wrong with my pendrive and computer cos they just decided to arse around with me. My answers were all gone and nowhere on earth to retrieve! Fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk! How am I supposed to testify on the stage later since I can't do it spontaneously due to the lack of rehearsal! Sometimes I just wonder how bad can my luck goes. Luckily (duh!), J.Goh still kept his unmodified copy of my Q&A, I begged Borges for some extra time to print and rushed back to the hall to edit freehandedly, mental recollection la! I was supposed to be the first who go up but I managed to switch with "Casino owner which I'm having affair with". Luckily (2 x duhs!), I managed to answer accordingly at least without much stutterings and pauses in between despite having to crap a little to the jury out of instant fit (not easy ok!). I hate spontaneity! That's why I kinda screwed up my Impromptu speech during last semester. Oh well, Borges didn't comment much but he grinned a lot perhaps was in good mood, so we were all happy. Jun Yi (opponent counsel) was picking on language aspects instead of my testimonies, I got so annoyed to the point that I had to argue for the betterment of self preservation! He was getting on my nerves, I just fired back furiously cos I was kinda green already haha, and I still don't know why the whole fucking class was so overwhelmed that time. Too aggressive already I guess but it felt so good la after my turn was up. Huge relief! And I got an exclusive apology from Jun Yi later haha but it's only a role-playing mock trial so I told him he owes me nothing, I'm cool, since we both received the fair share of verbal mockery.

All's well that ends well, our counsel or rather our group claimed victory with a shocking 2/3 majority votes from the jury panel. It was so fun and happy to know that verdict, American Government DOES NOT in any ways owe an apology to the American Indians (in the mock trial). They did apologize in real life, haha, whatever! I'm so gonna miss Borges' lesson after all the thicks and thins. Trial was sooo fun. Hopefully, I'll still have the spirit burning by the semester to take US History II, since it's from 1877 to present so I guess (or so I heard) much more easier and relevant. Who knows but definitely I'm up for another trial, trial is part of the courseworks in HIS 251/252 during long semester under Prof. Borges which carries 15% I think. I'm gonna miss Miss Jane too haha...time really flies by like an arrow in the twink of a wink in the blink of an eye and fruit flies like an old banana haha. Today is the last day of lecture classes in semester 3. Next up will be the deadly finals!

Psy - can read.
Soc - can read.
His - can read but will die.
Chm - can't read, so die.

:(

Today, it's as if I just gone for a trip to hell and came back to reality. It feels so nice to be embraced by oxygen, smell of gases, peoples, sounds...etc once again cos the sense of being stimulated by gravity force is very authentic now :D

I'm reliving. I won't die so easily yet.

Horrorcles

Fuhhh...

Miss M rocks my socks man!
Apparently she can't finish teaching like 7 freaking chapters before the final next week.
So we got first hand tips!
She's the best of the best I tell you, supposingly final covers chapter 11-18 but she only managed to touch on a few pints of chapter 12 so far during the last class of the semester and then downplayed all the other chapters on hand, slapped us with excuses that hinting the unimportance of some untaught chapters.
Freaking stim right?
Where to find such lecturer around???
Right here, exclusively brought to you with all hearts, vow to give the best education of all, one and only, ICSJ!
And I see no reasons why you still not tempted to enrol to ICSJ after viewing this post.
And we're supposed to keep our lips sealed, oops.

Then to my horror, I practically had no idea that Sociology exam falls on NEXT Monday!
I thought it should be sometime around next Tuesday cos according to past history, our final papers are usually spread within wide interval of time between each other.
And my luck has got the better of me again!
Not only having 2 papers clashing at the same time, after final appeal, exam office pandai pak pandir decided to allot 2 slots for that particular 2 papers still on the same day but different time.
Good, lepas mulut buaya, now masuk mulut harimau pulak!
How can Chemistry II and US History I co-exist on the same day?
Stupid.
I shall end all these miseries by burning down my story-based textbook, mix water and drink.
Hopefully, George Washington, Thomas Jefferson, Andrew Jackson, Christopher Columbus, King George III-IX...just anyone of them can bless me and possess me in the exam hall. *roll eyes*
Fuck those 16 chapters of whatnots.

Without questions beyond doubts, me gonna lead a drop dead awesome life on the days ahead.

Breakfast, lunch, high tea, dinner, supper = mugging ftw!

Hopefully the efforts given are all recipocral!

Monday thoughts

I used to be afraid of ghosts. Of those things that lurk behind corners and in the dark.


I don't know when I've stopped.


Stopped being afraid of going into the dark. Stopped switching on the lights when I go into a room.


I think it was when I realize I have more reason to be afraid of human. Of the evil that lies in the heart of man. Humans are even scarier.


p/s : Thank Ms. Jane for bestowing a chance of resiting the quiz that I missed last Friday!

:)

Just hung up a call that lasted 4 hours all the way from Arizona.

Damn I'm dehydrated.

Love ya' Cheryll *muacks* can't wait to see you in no time!

Weekend thoughts 2

And Benjanmin says " life is like a game of cards, the hands that dealt you is determinism, the way you play it is free will".

Future will always be there, it's just unevenly distributed. The world is fair and we do enjoy certain degree of free will in hands. When we talk about free will, why should we whine and cry the hell over issues of life? Aren't we all chosen what to do in the first place? Therefore, we should also have the guts to be responsible over the outcome be them good or bad.

Not like someone is pointing a gun over your little brain threatening for point blank forcing you into committing whatever it is. Everything happens for a reason. When the next time you try to seek comfort from someone else over your problems, sit back and think whether you are deserved for that problem itself or not prior to any further.

Forget about the crap of seeking religious shelter also cos according to Karl Max when you have religion, you are emotional imbalanced. If there's no god but your own god, then why we need so many religions for? If your religion is the greatest the almighty the superior then why are you still judgemental? If all that I'm saying are blasphemous and I should go to hell, then you should be more eligible to leave for hell cos you are no god and technically you can't sentence verdict over me. If you simply want me to rattle this on...they are endless.

Digressed. Anyways, there's no problem with other people before you look into yourself to see the core. It's always lies in there, somewhere inside here, H-E-A-R-T. You understand what I mean.

Thus, I deserve my own demise as well.

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History court trial on next week, what should a historian wear? I'm the historian of my council and I've seen other group wearing fancy costumes like french maid gown, slaves dresses, fedora, wigs and came all dressed in full suits! Very kua zhiong lor, at first I thought it was just a normal run of the mine mocked trial, then these people very pandai they went and took hassles to rent fancy gowns, so kiasu! Now the pressure has been put upon our trial next week, the final week of this semester! What should I wear?! How am I gonna withstand another 3 hours of constant stoning without the freedom to drink, to laugh, to move around during the trial process? And lastly, WHERE AM I SUPPOSE TO FIND TIME TO STUDY WHEN EVERYTHING CHUNK IN ON THE FINAL WEEK? Very mind boggling indeed. Haih, this weekend marks another week has gone by dalam sekelip mata, maka, selangkah dekat dengan finals!

@.@

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Then today I was so pandai pak pandir! I thought of submitting my journal before the extra class starts which I did not mean to go at all that obviously was a wrong move! I went to SOLLA and rang the bell, one lecturer came answer and I ask for the availability of Miss M. cos I thought she sure wouldn't be there and I could just put my journal in her pigeon hole. Then to my horror, she was there and readily available! I was like shit, this is no turning back, how am I supposed to explain when she ask me why don't I hand in the journal in class later. My expectation came true, she did ask why! And as a person who sucks in telling lie of cos my statements were rather illogic and handicapped, she knew that I was lying but oh well I can't be bothered right now...I just hope she won't be mm song at me and fail me again in final cos she kept asking me "your date is more important than your study eh...?" with that kinda doubtful expression...I swear it was fucking awkward for me! I wish I can just hide in the pigeon hole for good or minimize myself into something that to the size of dust particle! Diu...sigh I should account for my mishaps! A totally wrongful move! Bad impression means bad grade! She won't even give my any kesian marks now...and I have to hit the gym freaking early and leave before 5pm now lest will bump into her and meet a series of awkwardness lor! Cos she usually will be there at the same gym as me after touch down from work like around 5 something to 6! I'm gonna switch soon...cibai! See how far my luck goes.