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Ms Jane is very weird recently for no reason(reasons that I dunno la)...

I kept on hearing she told Lik Siang's group that "Kok Whei is better..."(in ascending tone, mind you damn annyiong k?) and yesterday she was trying to match-make me up with a mediocre looking Chinese girl in that main group element.And that girl was like blushing cos she just got into relationship with another guy in our class.I dunno what happened to her...seriously.Why can't I just be alone, it's not even a crime to stay as single at my age, I can remain as monomer my whole life if I want...afterall I got nothing to lose,I have my lovely family and friends, for me it's more than enough apparently.

And yay, my semester break is up to 3 weeks I guess!Planning for some trip, Charles suggested Macau, Shen Zhen, HK, Cambodia, Bali, Bangkok, Phuket and Kota Kinabalu but I've had enough of China so guess I should travel within the region...haiz...but I think most of them not having any break overlap with us since by that time most Uni will be having intake...NUS and NTU are August and local Unis should be around that also.Ah bummer!

In conclusion

I shall practise self-appreciation from now on in midst of showering with doubts from all around.

If I ain't myself who else am I gonna be then?

Don't judge me cos u ain't me...

I love myself more than anything more than u can ever imagine...

I don't preach but the greatest love of all is learning to love urself.

I'm still on my way...

Well, it's fatigue and constantly putting myself in tension and unwanted emo-ness state are futile to say the least.

Not anymore.

I love myself...I'll do everything for myself eventhough to die for IT.

Anyway, Cal II test was kinda screwed up but it turned out to be higher than what I've been expected for...still not really through with it yet!

Lab report is getting cumbersome since my lab partner always MIA...haiz.

And I got some comments for my groupmates whilst doing ENL assignment, please be coordinative and cooperative. Divide the works equally at the same time knowing what others are doing as well.Don't push responsibilities to others when u can't do ur job well.And please cut down ur lengthy essay, yes of cos I know ur ability of writing in English is like celestial(lack of better word to describe) but assignemnt is where assignment rules applied.Don't push ur limit too far and leave us with ur donkey works.And u still have the cheek to tell us that how sad that ur beautiful senteces were being striked over under our cruellest judgement of holding down the backspace key...fuck off and burn in hell.For that I have to wake up in fucking 7 am today and do ur summarising jobs while my class was only started at 12 pm...I could have snuggle in my bed comfortably.AND why must I print it for u all at last minute and without being informed that article was needed?U made me rushed my puny life back home by leaving Anthro class earlier and got late for ENL class...and u don't even bother to look at my works.For that passenger, u oso one who has the cheek to sms me early in the morning b4 my alarm rang...good...and u didn't come for ENL class today just hoping us to write down ur divine name on the frontpage to claim some shameless credits...I'll slap u nicely once I see u...perhaps bitchslap will be more appropriate,if not more.

Apparently,I just hate everything...all mankinds are evil and hyprocrites.

What on earth is this...someone please gimme a good hard punch straight in my face!

Sick

Went to orang temuan village today.a downpour was expected.further contributed to my sickness.the batin aka tribeshead was ok but the villagers werent quite frenly and cooperative!we didnt reap much infos from them afterall instead out of nothing kena invited to a interracial marriage ceremony between temuan and chinese sabahan muslim.super weird.forced to interview a pak cik as he was being too kind to us in a way we didnt wish for haha.then stucked at the roadside bus stop nearly an hour whilst waiting for the rain to stop!sneeze...i miss home T.T esp when im sick.i need homemade remedies.

Junkies

Do I look like a modern walked-out-from-some-famous-novel-based-movie goblin that having capability of swallowing 5 in one mouthful?

If not,why did my housemates so scared of bumping into me?While I was at the gate outside yesterday about to walk in to the living room,Icould see that he was watching TV while indulging in his usual stick but the moment I unlocked the lock that he heard me,there he goes,switched off the TV and rushed into his nest for good before I could even take off the lock from the latch...the entire process was conducted in less than 5 seconds.He supersonically flew back his nest before we having any unwanted eye contact.

For this,I should politely excuse myself and give him my both middle fingers and then follows by words of wisdom begin with the big F...who cares like I owe them 10000K or killed their babies.Stuck up face...go burn in hell la...bunch of hypocrites.I detest hypocrites the most,they are the worst creatures ever living on earth after mosquitoes.I should just invent something called "hypocriticides" to eliminate them COMPLETELY!Go burn in hell...

And I really cannot through with few persons in my class...so super childish can!And also hypocrites...I feel like dismissing them with roll eyes motion and present them fingers of glory right in their face,not forgetting some nice swearings begin with F.

PS: Ms Kalai again asked me to go for emcee audition after her failure attempt of persuading me to join debate team...jiak pah boh dai ji jor!

Today was full of anger and frustrations!On top of disheartening...this week gotta do my Anthropology's fieldwork summore.Mind you is an overnight fieldwork with lotsa taboos cos we are "invading" an aboroginis(sakai) village which we may not know what will happen even if we got cast by spell or some voodoo shits.God knows...so spooky.

Mood-o-meter

.....

sad--*----------------------------happy

mode : disheartening...

:(

sucks aye!

Ms Kalai asked me to join English debate team adn I was so taken a back...if not cursing.She was mad I bet cos I can write adequately well but when it comes to speaking,IMPEDIMENT!That's it, kthxbai.

Chem test 1 result was ok...I'm above average or within the range of average in class.Thank god I'm not below that.If not seriously I need a tough shits of wall to bang my head against!Today's quiz was just as fine too,since only few peasy questions on Thermochem...Cal 2 is completely cancelled for this week so I have more buffer time before I get my worst result ever in life...before I die of looking at my Cal 2 test 1's score.

And hereby I declare my blog as my 2nd ego named BARNEY!It's officially a Barney's blog now that I can finally write to...-_-...shall find myself a purple green template.

Futile

ool...went on a roadtrip with Uncle and his monkey roommie Japheth back to his hometown at Karak last week, was quite fun actually since it resembles Kota Tinggi but in a smaller scale. Food was nice(the pig intestine porridge were quite orgasmic cos they fried it!) and reasonable priced but too bad I wasn't in a good appetite of late which I dunno why, I don't think I'm having anyone's babies.LOLx.NOT FUNNY *shrugs*...if only the trip can be longer....

Boredom level at this point reaches the optimum as u can see...dunno why beats me!I'm so fucked up...

And Chemistry lecturer actually knows my name afterall, I got shocked cos usually I'd just stare hard and cold at her when she tells lame jokes.Not bad a lecturer afterall and I got so much attention from her today until she can't stop yelling my name in front the whole class -_-.My lab report for example, she told the whole class as if I did a very awesome greatwork on my experiment 4 report until everyone came asked me about the calculations and conclusions SUPER DASH UNDERSCORE DASH!I just copied them from my back-then Inti Nilai's report...really gek sei!I hate attention...I sound so rebellious right, like I care huhu!

Chem quiz this wed...and calculus 2 classes all cancelled for this week due to unforseen circumstances of Ms Shanta.She failed to send me a notification mail...and everyone else received except me kena ffk."NVM".

This week should be able to lay back a lil' bit despite the fact that I'm having some lame ENL 101 assignment to do...the topic is pain in ass really.Can someone tell me what the fuck is "My Ideal OS?"Credit to my groupmates for coming out with this since they are all taking CSC this sem...nabeh!Luckily my task is kinda light...if not...ish!

ANT 101 fieldworks still clueless now,no one's going to Jabatan Org Asli means no approval means no fieldwork means victory!Hulu Langat is way too near...other groups are going all the way to Cameron Highlands,Taiping and so on so forth but ours...within vicinity...the divine Cheras Kajang district about 30 minutes drive away.Petrol go dutch...no subsidization.Grrrr!Sien...all the kayu groupmates totally potong stim!

And I got a new Chem lab partner today also kayu but she's a girl after all...yeah a SHE.So I'll just not gonna make any fuss out of it.Afterall she's 1000X better than the previous one.

Anyway,I shall count my blessings from now on cos life is getting tougher *pouts*...I AM SO EMO AND MOODY.Nobody knows but god...and my ego BARNEY!

sighs....I miss home.

PS:I think my rush for sticks is pumping up again out of so many calamities,stress and emo...smoking is bad for health haiz!T^T But I'm holding back for this time...hopefully.

Symphony

Symphony of sickness

Be them or not physical or mental ones

Physically tired doesn't mean you can put your mental into hibernation for time being

You gotta fucking move your ass on for good

It's even worse to give up than stemming the tide

Won't be a coward anymore

...

Neither do I feel worse off nor better off

I could be stuck at a static point already

Shall wait for longer perhaps

Cos

Whatever that can't defeat you just makes you stronger

AND STRONGER!

Nostalgic

Going back to the non-existence living hell that I belong(supposed) tomorrow.How fucking great to have a morning trip at 10 am where I can actually just snuggle in my comfy bed at HOME(the next best paradise for a nester like me...).Tell me,how great it is....

Sue can't pick me up cos obviously she has a date to answer whereby I am gonna 1st time in my life alight at Puduraya,that shabby old bus terminal full of roaches and rodents and some other unseen creatures like beggars and scavengers out of nowhere....to take a transit back to Subang that oh-so-cosy-comfy-mummies-crying-babies-fucking drop dead gorgeous shelter of mine.Definitely,none other words can best describe it,simply sucks!

Today was just like food feast.I'd eaten the amount that enough to feed the entire population of Africa(except Egypt and S. Africa la...).Force-dragged along to eat some run of the mill Dim Sums early in the morning where the feeling of awakening was exactly 5 hours later.Then proceeded to Jusco cos sis was buying some stuffs for her trip and guess what,Stefanie Sun was here tonight but I forgot to bring my tics back -_-.

Watched that movie directed by Jack Neo starring Lao Zha Bor...not as funny as what I expected.Kinda lame but meaningful though.Nice try...

And again so many relatives came over today as well...couldn't fall into a good nap.Annoying...a lil' bit.Thank god my lil' nephew saved my day,just how cute a baby can be!*dabbing cheek*

Fine,Chem test and lab on Monday...actually sometimes I feel that why not they just cut my throat ends it instead of this perpetual torturing.Kudos to ADP...an ever wonderfully wonderful degree programme!

Pissed.

Weight Management

Surprisingly,me lost 5kgs in just less than a month.Thx to FF...and pay me for the advert!

But somehow,I think I look haggard and much more lok-yeng now...credit of those fucking stress I must say.

65 will be my normal target where 60 is ultimate target.lolx.Hope my health level can go on par with it.And the fucking calves still look so bulgy and fat!OMG...

nuff of bitching...I guess.

Lotsa relatives came over my hse today...my sleep wan totally kena interrupted off and on.Pek chek.

I'm going under

Haih...came home over the weekend.I mean my home in JB not Subang...I'll never regard that place as home,it's only a temporary shelter over head,to say the most.

Sis flight was postponed to next Tuesday so basically I can't send her all the way to Changi Airport's departure gate.This time around cannot ponteng as well,3 test on consecutive days starting Monday.

For this week,I missed 5 hours of classes.3 hours Cal II and 2 hours Chem.Partly was I couldn't wake up on time(actually if I rushed my life for it...probably still can make it to few classes),the other part was perhaps emo?I dunno.Felt sucks...practically sucks big time.Like I ever care.

I seriously sick of being joker and clown all the times.I hate my loosely expressions that sumtimes irritate ppl or giving them wrong impressions.I can be very quiet when I'm all alone but in any situation that having 2 or more presence of people,I will always try hard to melt the ice when it get tensed up,and it actually happens to me all the times for reasons that yet to be unveiled.So I'll handle all the monkey business...the life like I don't even have my own sentiments.One word : sicked!

I don't mind to be emo or up to even higher level psycho...but pls just allow me to be serious at times.I mean it.Kthx...

Today's Anthro test was quite ok and in fact fun!The essay part is so amusing...we'd been asked to write a self description by hollistic approach.lolx.cute...

And for some fucking babies killing mummies crying reasons,my T zone is badly fried with zits and blackheads.I look fucking hideous now,I swear I am...eventhough it makes no difference without those zits but still...much more hideous can?Satisfied?Seriously like moh peng now,soon to be Mark Lee's face with cellulites texture...goddammit!I musn't be nocturnal from now on,or else your neighbours' dogs die :p

Ps:I met Sheryl in KTM and had a good talk with him.She's such a cutie.
Pps:Cheryll J. best of luck in ur IELTS...7.5 or above is in ur hand for sure!Steph,all the best to ur SAT as well...dun give up!

I WANT A NEW PDA SO BAD!AND THAT FISH EYE LOMO.GIMME PLS!

This is...

...terrible.

Supposed to revise Cal II and Anthro yesterday, sekali Charles rang up saying wanna come over from Damansara -_-...cos Michell and her mama were here too.So went to "Egypt" again!

Took 1st dinner at Halo Cafe...listening to some light hearted but no so nice songs and 2nd round Kim Gary until 12 am!!!

Then again, having urge to sing K...so went Red Box until 3am!Walaoeh -_-!

Skipped 2 hours Chem today cos couldn't wake up...Charles was here sleeping in my room.Funny.

Have to prepare to suffer from the aftermath now...ta!

Physically and mentally sicked

The weather today is so unpredictable,rain were off and on...and I actually woke up in blurry thinking I'm still at JB cos I heard the familiar cooking noises from neighbours...the noises from deep frying,stir fry,wok...so nice to hear that!Like I was at home waiting for dinner to be prepared by mum :D...I think I'm terribly homesicked when staying alone.Claustrophobia doesn't even come close to this.Bah!

I actually took a longest nap today from 4 to 7 30 cos only managed to shut my eyes for 2 hours before the start of my day.I slept at Uncle's place -_-...was helping him to do some stuffs then he sendiri went sleeping until I heard huge snoring sound from them both,Japheth and him...no one was gonna open the door for me.Therefore,I can sue for false imprisonment...hehe!Slept on the floor is not a big deal but the aftermath can be tormenting especialy all the achings.

I practically put on sour face the whole day,freaking tired to say.Like walking vampire,listless...and Calculus II is still so unfamiliar to me.Lab was in a total mess due to the heavy downpour this morning and my kayu lab partner was absent.

Bweee....someone please pull me out of this deep abyss!

I think the nap was kinda useless...I was being asked to go pump muscles into MUSCLES by Uniq after my DINNER!Walaoeh.....can die wei!

PS:Sis sold off her car edi,no more car to drive this time in JB.Left dad's kaputed car...which I don't even have a taf bit interest to lay my hands on!Haizzzzz...sighing out big time.Chem test kena postponed to next week edi...thk god!

PPS:Michell's mama is here again :)

Nothing much

Susan almost got me stranded in MV!

Failed to inform me the changed of location and to give me the benefit of doubt,blame the telco never sent her message to my mailbox.Hats off for u!

Went Pyramid edi only to realise nothing to eat!Then die die wanna go One U of cos the lansi pukimak cabbies charged like overly exorbitant,50 bucks or more is common to One U.No fate with Bakerzin and Shogun this round.Haiz.

Then in the end still went MV...that place is always full of ppl,very sien!So hot summore...anyway we took cab to MV as well lo...nabeh!

Took a few strolls still couldn't decide where to eat,then we went Little Penang...the legendary one ah,don't pray pray!Ate like mad...ordered and ordered.Then after eating went shopping then 2nd round ate again in Secret Recipe for those creamy choc cakes...yucks...traumatized!Bloated like helium balloon now.Dinner is saved lol.

Anyways,thx for ur Korean chocs,CD and Chain...ggomawoyo!

and last but not least SAENG IL JJU KA HAE!You're officially 19 and so sad u hav to spend ur Bday in Msia for 5 consecutive years haha...next I will join u in Korea.Behold!

Ps:Eunique again ffk,hung up our calls!Bloody nocturnal animal!Mr. Samsul I know u were sleeping when I called u the n times.....watch out!


My head big edi now,how am I gonna finish my assignments and revisions by weekend!Jialat.

YAY...getting LOMO next month!I'm gonna hit gym very often now since I got showered with nice words from frens edi...saying I am slimmer is the best word on earth to be heard after striking an anonymous billion of cash :D...

...and so many ppl got sicked of late including me.A bit homesick and some small spot of fucking ulcers coming out due to those keropok lekor at the junction of my neighbourhood!

Get well soon and fight for whatever ahead!

Welcome to SINGAPORE

Yesterday,after gym(my turn to ffk Eunique!) went out with Andrew,Penny and Joshua...all the Monash ones la for our date with Captain Jack Sparrow.

The movie was ok ok only...quite funny yet quite boring and the ending oso boring...lol.

So anyway,today kena ffk back by Mr. Mohammad Samsul Bari!AGAIN!Fucking watch out...MUFY won't be that busy also!

Sien...gonna study Chem,do ENL assignments,study Anthro,study Cal II all crammed in this weekend la.

Alrite,seeing Susan later...till then!

No one should be protected from the effects of his own stupidity

My quiz scored a 1.5 marks grand total of improvement from the previous nullified result...over a scale of 10.

Yea, tell me I should see it as a consolation or sympathy given by lecturer?

Seriously screwed,no kidding man!

Btw,Pentagonal Revisionism view is simply awesome...you guys should find out more :p

Black forces shadowing

Today,somehow was a bit out of luck and indeed misfortunate...very hak zai lah!

At first,I'd slept thru the alarm ringing this morning at nearly got myself late.Later,my first lesson Cal 2,the quiz again screwed up with high possibility of getting an egg again cos I overlook that exercise she gave.Haiz.

After class thought everything back to square ones,who knows this Lee Eunique called me whilse I was about to nap...calling me to go gym at night.Well,being a good guy I am...how can I turn him down eventhough I'm not much into night gym :D.So plenty of SMS-es followed on to disturb my nap...when I woke up from my 3 hours napping.Lazed around doing nothing and decided to call Lee Eunique,that oh so wonderfully wonderful unique guy on demand...thought he would be like very determine on his gym commitment.Bah!That guy super ffk big time,called him 20 mins before supposed appointment,he dare dare sleeping and simply answer me and hung up the phone!............what more can I say.Ppl that truly goes to gym goes at least 3 times a week.Like me!*roll eyes*

So I was all alone again,don't feel like ajak-ing my new housemate cum classmate out cos forced to speak Malay with him which is totally a rust out communication tool since 2 years ago!He can't speak English that good as in really not that good...so what if his dad is some Dato or Nenek!He seems suagu to me,all he can do is say his prayer 5 times a day and continues to hide in his humid room choking on some lame musics(mind you hor he told me he has never been to cinema before *jawdrops*).Hmm...why god always have to assign me to deal with this kinda people which I can't mix along with.So dull...I sacrificed my 1 week FF passport for him and he has no peserverance to a tad bit at all!Wasted...rather give to someone who can appreciate it.It is strange that ppl doesn't seem to like gym around me...I've been offering the passport like generously being a bossy people I am.Still none appreciate it...all the lazy bugs all the sleepy creatures.Like Uncle!

Duh...don't care.

Susan is also another ffk queen...she was booked for the entire week and only managed to dig out a pathetic gap in between for meet up which to say less than 3 hours I think.What a friend....1 week so long only available for few hours.

The highlight event today is.....ta-dah!I nearly died of car accident.I wasn't driving any four wheels moving mechanism but merely walking along the road shoulder at my humble neighbourhood where this Kelisa out of nowhere turned out from a junction and the cheh meh driver overlooked my existence due to the dim lightning plus my black jersey made it worse...so I thought he would avoid a bit cos I'd stood there just to let him get his ass off the junction before I moved on...then he die die never saw me and holla...knocked half of me with speed of 40-50 kmph.Mind you he was accelerating that time cos it was at the T junction turning out the one of the main road.My mind was blank when I saw his car moving towards my direction and the next thing I knew was my legs,hands and elbow are having bruises and scratches with his glory tyre mark embedded at my epidermis...damn!Luckily he is such a nice young Malay guy who can speak English...at last!He made a turn back to check on me,and I told him I was fine as I was in hurry and didn't wish to create scenes...and he kept apologise to me,bowing and shake my hands.And I asked him for his contact IF there's any internal injuries or mentally suffered subsequently as a result of this.This guy somemore asking me to befriend him and wanna treat me a meal.-_-.I was like you should be lucky I didn't lodge a report to any authorities...still he has the good intention to say the least.I'm all time amicable person,so no need arbitration...this shall be put to a rest.Except for the fact that I have to apply anaesthetic,antiseptic cream and bandage those wounds.No big deal actually...but at least I'd tasted the not-so-painful experience of being knock down by a vehicle...just imagine those who being knocked into pulps.Spooky.Thank god I'm survived!

Back to my room after some instant dinner which I got not much appetite when it comes to the food in Asia Cafe...unlike last time.However,still need to eat something to please my stomach.KNOW WHAT...I saw a medium sized around 9 cm length centipede crawling quietly towards underneath my bed!I was like how the fucking-hell-baby-vomits-mother-cries-father-weeps that creepy crawly came in...I hate insects with more than 6 legs which explains why I never watched Spiderman in my life.This hell creature here got at least 30 legs with two exceptionally stray antennas sticking out at an end which dunno it's head or tail...fucking gross lah!Centipede leh...*faints*...I quickly took out my pesticide and sprayed at the fucking thing at a full blast until it ceased to move...then picked it up with newspaper and throw into jamban...flushed and voila.I'm back to one piece.So what's next?Snake?Bring it on...I've seen lotsa insects here already,earthworms,mosquitoes,some unidentified flying ants,centipedes!My life suddenly becoming adventurous.

Goodness gracious my leg is bruising and constantly aching now(I still need to go gym wan ah!),shall I call that guy up to have a good talk over this AGAIN?What is my legal position already...?Gosh I forgot all of law I learnt and I just planned to sold my law texts today...haha!Gonna sue him for negligence perhaps...where he owed me a duty of care!He will have to be charged for at least some good fines or send him behind the bar for few weeks like Paris Hilton.*snorts*

EEeeeeEEeeEEEeeeEEeeeee...SAT's result came out edi!I've got the breakdown with me but not yet getting the final full score which will be knowing on the 2nd of June.Looked at the breakdown although I've no idea how to interpret but then the data won't be any much excellent also judging on the percentages and scores.Will announce all once I get the final score.

Diu everything la...so screwed.

Nothing to get excited about except for that I'm having 2 tests,1 regular quiz,and 1 assignment due next week.So wanna holler!

If u really think it's nothing

After watching this reknowned documentary presented by Al Gore...I think he very much deserve to be the president than some cowboy bumpkin yankee who totally bring the earth to a more devastated state by firing wars wars and wars!Completely overlooked the most important hidden crisis that we're gonna face...

Global warming is not a new issue anymore...politicians will often dismiss the issue by giving excuses that we are still far apart from the worst.And look at the highly industrialized US,how much of greenhouse effect causing elements they are releasing now...probably or certainly the highest among all other countries!Someone should just put a stop to it as soon as possible before hitting another ice age...and paradoxically icebergs are melting at the poles!Heatwaves,storms,acid rains...you name it.And disparity from past till today are huge in terms of global warming,just imagine the concentration of CO2 in our atmosphere is increasing at at least 2 folds every year...and the rate of increasing is beyond what you can think!Sadly to say that people still choose to blindfold themselves with problems that visible to their visions.It's not like not being scientifically proven...this is the time where applied science should be brought about.If not,what's the purpose we study that for,to build ourselves a pathway that constantly leading to apocalypse?Hell no!

***

On the other note, sexism issues are frequently being challenged in Malaysia of late.Some MPs are just there to question the non-existence.How absurd to think of it.I think women are often being belittled and humiliated in our so called civilized country.Look at the Middle East,they are Muslim countries as well,although Muslim countries often having bad record in women's right but look at them,they are splurging hell lot of money earned from their oiling industry on education with the emphasis of bringing down the illiteracy of women in country.Yea I'm talking about the United Arab Emirates who houses Dubai!Contrarily,we are still here making pointless political and kiddo jokes about women and then making big fuss over who's right who's not.I think this is totally trivial and negligible in the sense that somebody just have to shut the fuck up and do their works.Fix the leakage if they should,seal their mouth if they would!No point fighting over puny things that can be solved by just a word of apologise...if they dare,step down and resign like a real MAN like those politicians of Japan!

PS:Tomorrow got quiz on Cal 2...haven't even done with the exercises yet!So tough like shits.
PPS:Chem and Anthro test fall on next Wed and Thurs consecutively!Die!
PPPS:I have a date with Captain Jack Sparrow on coming Friday!!!
PPPPS:Susan's here...!And be going back next Monday -_-
PPPPPS:Cheryl's coming.....whilst I'm away -_-'''
PPPPPPS:Bored to death...tht's it...kthxbye.

burokkku!

Mood is on for blogging...

so decided to open this browser and wanna blog sumthing out of nothing...

and I can't think of what to write!

So might as well end here...

Kthxbye...gonna continue my journey down to the nearest cemetery around the bush.

Rattles

Dead shits~

Lotsa funny damn things happened around of late...ok don't ask what why when how.

It was like 2 hours straight with only 10 minutes of rest in gym yesterday and subsequently I have to say goodbye with my arms,thighs and calves cos they are not mine now...cos I can feel that they are trying so hard to tear apart from my body.I'm having hard times typing this entry as well due to the lack of arm rest.Well,I'm all determined and addicted so I'm just gonna work so hard until I lost like 70....nope 7 kgs within a month or 2 or 3...and so on so forth -_-

I've no idea why all the tests must crammed themselves at once,the fact that I'll be having 2 tests around the end of the month dated 30th and 31st.Rite,2 days only(for the Anthro and Chem...I am so "happy"!)!666!!!Calculus II first quiz I scored a beautiful mark of single digit resembles an oval shape you-know-what.Like I said,it was only the second lesson for me in Cal. II and I was MIA to Cal. I which gone all wasted for week 1...and what do u expect?For the 3rd hours of your maths class and you were required to do some greeks that you never even seen before,screw it!Still I am sad...cos it constitutes to my final GPA :( ... and while succumbing to the result and aftermath,little did I realise that 2nd quiz is knocking too soon on next Thursday,kudos to Calculus with Analytical Geometry 2.Worse to worse,Monday is seriuously very de blue!4 hours Chem with lab and Cal. II...and lab report next week is a bring home one,kinda not easy!Sien.There goes my weekend after finished typing this entry :((

Mum called just now,she said sis will be leaving for Shang Hai 2 weeks later on 1st June!Bwee...I didn't expect it to be that soon.I think I'll have to skip Friday's 1 hour Cal II class if there isn't any announcement for test yet on this day...cos I'll be rushing back JB after my Thursday's classes end at 4pm!Pweeese...no more test or quiz on Friday 1st of June!I'm gonna send my sis off in Changi Airport by all means.

And Charles is not coming up for AUP anymore...at last!Damn ffk ppl!

Alrite,till then...

PS : I really don't believe your words...you-know-who!If it's really so,I hope you can turn back a new leaf...be with who you are supposed to be!No regrets for sure,take my words k?

Rainy days

I'm stealing other people's wireless network in range now...it's illegal and who cares...

Today was like very black zai...the first day hitting off the nearest neighbourhood gym didn't go that smooth sailing,the moment I stepped out the gate...downpours -_-...my sport sneaker get wet.Fuck!

Well,it turned out to be not that bad but it would be nice with a companionship of gym buddies :D.Cos u are prone to the tendencies of mempersiasueykan urself without knowledge of operating the machines and with a partner at least can share the embarrassment.I went into the locker room only to realise that I forgot to ask the receptionist for the key hole that unlock the lock(pun not intended)...even forgot to take towers which I paid additionally 10 bucks each month which to me kinda useless.Anyways,I walked out the locker room and streched myself with the complicated machine at stretching zone,I was so stupid enough to pretend that I actually came regularly and mastered all the machines...it turned out that I just hogged the thing for few seconds in order not to make further embarrassment alone.

And so I headed to the groundfloor and started to whine a bit to myself for my ignorance.I didn't know shits about all the machines in front me!They seems like the dashboard of some spaceships with tonnes of stray buttons,I hate things with more than 3 buttons.So I summoned the floor instructor to help me,and anyhow left the first machine I got my hands on after 1 minutes,boring.Moved on to treadmill!Fucking nice,I did for 15 minutes which was average to beginner like me and the droplets of perspiration flowing down my forehead were nice enough stimulate my adrenaline.In fact 15 minutes was a bit less to my standard *snorts*.

Then I was enlightened by this climbing machines which nearly caused half of my life,my legs were begging to stop after about 10 minutes...I did 15 minutes as well for all the cardio machines :D.And it recorded 50 floors of equivalency O.o which was totally my forte I tell you.I was trained in Sunway Monash Condo,I climbed from 1st floor to the 26th for 3 laps DAILY back in those days...peasy!Somehow today performance wasn't that well...it's been so long since I last did floors climbing.

The muscle enhancing machines are pretty user friendly as well,not like some noob black metalic painted typical machines in the nearest club house at your neighbourhood.Theirs are more compact and won't leave your palms with metallic stinks.The chest pumping one is so addictive...so as the one that resembles the effect of doing sit ups but in a more relaxing way!state-of-the-art user friendly!

I was sorting out the greeks all by myself!Cos instructor(2 free sessions)haven't called me yet...and I can't wait to go down the gym already.I am supposed to be introduced with all the operations and fucntions of the machines...whatever :D

One thing to note that,the weight lifting zone was quite scary,it was full of beefy muscular guys around and they actually holler out loud while lifting.Will it helps anyway in terms of inhaling and exhaling?But just scary,I don't even dare to stay near around there lol...Indian guys with tattoos painted firm muscular body are just so...incredibly HULK...aka traumatizing.My mission is to be slim and slender...muscles are not on the top 3 of concerns.Neither do I love them too since it makes no different that I'm still have stick to L/XL sizes...I'm fucking dying to reduce myself to M/S or at least average/slim body with some firm biceps and triceps...flabby is far too ugly like lao zha bor,butterfly arms :s

So anyways,my day was pretty good today...classes were ok with ENL 101 impromptu presentation I was pushed to speak everything given that I'd already done so much of ideas contributing and writings...they are just too chickened I guess,blame them for being too young to comprehend the cruellest fact about the complicated and rawww world.Anthro was postponed :( gonna arrange for replacement class later then that hiatus I was hiding out in library...and to hell that this library here is just too pathetically small and tiny to amount to anything and on par with THOL...I am just gonna repeat this fact again and again...cos by repeating it it sounds a lot better to me :p!Books needed are all reserved or not on shelf or under redspot(stupid system of limiting the borrowing of certain hot-caked books),renewal online can be done only once is like fucking ridiculous since back in THOL I can renew anytime I want for hogging the book up to a year without being urged to return!I just can't accept it...will be goin back to THOL very often I guess if anyone in Sy or Monash are kindly enough to spare me a vacancy.OMG libary is like the heart of all colleges,I really can't imagine this to happen.

Worse to hell,the Com Lab is really siasueylly small,30 coms in grand total...waiting is needed and take turn to use summore!And slow like tortoise........haiz....I wish it was certified ISO like THOL!What can I expect from a 2 shoplots conjoined building that called itself the ocean of wisdom?

On an irrelevant note,I saw Mark today!OMG...after about half a year more since my A2 times!He's quiet and academically tormented I guess,signs of hormone imbalance are well written on his face out of insufficient sleeping...*swt*...luckily I didn't opt for Sociology if not I will be ended up like him but since his is A-level so I guess should be harder.And yea,had a simple and instant dinner with him for the FIRST time ever.

To all the A-levels candidates sitting for their AS and A2 next week...best of luck!

To all the ADP-ians that awaiting for quizzes,tests,projects,assignments and a lot more ahead...bestest best of luck as well!

Those who screwed their 1st quiz,be afraid,be very afraid...you are not alone!

PS:And I got really fed up with this lab partner of mine,he's like very very maladroit,lumpish,lackadaisical,slow motioned,nerd,weird fella,the fact that he likes to give destructive suggestions and ideas which utterly pointless to our works.I wonder did someone just tied 200kgs of stones on his elbows that caused his laggard acts.I am so unfortunately to be having this kinda of people revolving around me...why can't I just thaw out into the mainstream groups?Beats me...

PPS:Maybe I will have to dismiss those stupid peoples by raising my hand and simply shout out "bah!" nonchalantly like XX perhaps.So ridiculously screwed.

PPPS:Who can find me a half of Thomas Calculus 11th edition textbook from chapter 7 till end?
Laughable right?Puny mortal like you ppl won't know...I'm gonna use it for 3+ months only so not worth buying it.

Kewttttt!

I was practically waiting for this page to load for around 5 minutes in IcSJ's computer lab!Everything is so miniature here and small in portion and size compare to Sunway's THOL!I miss Sunway's library and everything...I regret for gumbling about the speed in Sunway's com lab,the crowd but now I'm so so so so wrong!Here is worse than every other places I've seen...

Finally,assignments,projects,quizzes and tests all came in once...yet I'm so laid back still!Calculus II is like Greek,Chemistry is like Spanish,Anthropology is like some tribal language...all seems unfamiliar to me!credit exemption for Calculus I is utterly useless IMHO!And I joined Cal II after doing for one week of unwanted Cal 1 which gone to waste...and my second lesson for Cal 2 am gonna do(I did today)my first ever quiz in Cal II like during the second day in class...WTF!

Textbooks are hard to get like reaching for moon and stars,all borrowed!ICSJ don't even earn a bookstore of their own like IIUC...WTF again!

And yea,went to KLCC with UNCLE yesterday in deat beat mode,UNCLE was like half dead because he was so much being kissed by the morning bird for morning classes haha...I was damn beat also but well...once in a blue moon not everytime so it was fine!UNCLE is gonna strangle me if he sees this entry haha...who asked you to be so moody!hehe...After came back from KLCC then Michell forced me to go Pyramid with her mama,and they treated me...so nice after parting with Pyramid for almost a decades...nostalgic it seems la...a lot of familiar faces around summore I met Azrul in Subang Parade lol...!

In any case,I've no life here,living alone,everything is monotonic...monotone...monomer...monogamous...monopoly!Hsemates sucks...did I mention that I did not even see them in face yet?Don't even know their fucking looks!

Dono when will Charles be coming up,cos he calls me almost everyday saying if not today then tomorrow and it's about 1 week he keeps repeating the same thing to me...pathetic fella!

Ms. Kang JJ is coming back to M'sia next week!pugorshipo chugesso!

Anyhow,have to wait nearly a month to get my Maxis wireless connection in dispute!Now under beffer period still...till then...toodle!

yippy!

Wee~the shop assistant in KLCC's Tower Record is superrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr duperrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr niceeeeeeeeeee!She gave me a MCR's gigantic poster!It's The Black Parade's edition!

I was just merely asking whether do they sell poster and she asked me what poster I want...and she hit the bull eyes offering me a MCR's poster...which I was about to ask her...!

Must go there to buy CDs next time so that I can beg for more :P

Ps:college was boring...anthropology is so crappy,I'd prefer Psychology to this lor!And for that we need to do a project that requires us to jungle trek into...jungle of course for Orang Asli's settlement!Walao...again...luckily I was not in the orang asli visiting group back in those Moral Studies days or else to think that I'm so free to visit those primitive man and look at their backward lifestyle?Heck,I got better things to do!

My bones are exploding...this blog may be suspended I guess cos I'm moving to ss15 tomorrow and no more internet connection edi~

bah!

New beginning?

I'm moving in to SS15 this coming Friday...found a mediocre room which not too spacious nor too tiny.Located at downstair facing the back lane,expected to be dark at night and...eerie :/ but who cares if the crime rates there is that fantastic as long as it's super wu hua.And no internet connection included though!I'm gonna offline until further notice...when I got connection in my room again.Sucks!I hate old and shabby house -_- well I've chosen that out of desperation since travelling from CP to Subang can be extremely time consuming and tiring.It took 2++ hours without someone drop me at the Serdang KTM...yea that was what happened today cos my class was 12pm and no cars at home...have to berdiri atas kaki sendiri aka berdikari!Public transports all ought to go to hell...screw them!

I think I'm the oldest among all my classmates although I haven't get to know any of them yet but judging from their immature etiquette and acts...I can't help but to sigh for my unfortunate.Obviously those in my class are bunch of rotten brats,talk nonsense and making nuisance.Somemore not very humble also...fucktards!CHM 151 was ok,lecturer is damn young lady and so as ENL 101.hehe.As for MAT 132 and ANT 101(Introduction to Anthropology, cos the class for Psychology has already full :( )...I missed both for their first lesson haha...one was b4 I could get my timetable and ANT 101 was because the lagging in Malaysia Public Transport system,I reached Subang jaya by the time of 1230 where my class for ANT supposed to be 1200...so better never than get late and get scolded!And so,I have 1 and a half hour of buffer time before ENL 101...thus...went to FF Wisma Consplant to enquire their membership,to my glee,the initial payment is damn cheap summore lotsa attractive promotions going on!The consultant is so good enough,she said she will give me a privillage rebate coupon personally which incidentally she has one with her!Yippie!Member fee for May is waived,Admin fee waived,additionall 49 bucks rebated!But too bad the place was a bit small I wonder what will happens during peak hour :/ and boh pien that's the nearest one within vicinity...within walking distance.

~Celebrity fitness looks nice also but they don't give much freebies like FF do.
~Summit's FF is bigger but a bit further and jam jam jam!
~Sunway Pyramid is gonna house in a California Fitness soon after they completed the construction of Pyramid 2 the new wing and saw a lot promoters giving out leaflet around Subang areas with some promising pre-opening benefits if you join but I got no time to seek for consultation from them yet,no doubt their place is biggest in PJ 30 000sq ft!!!Damn huge and spacious with a lot more fitness classes than FF.However,that place is a bit out of vicinity,if they open it last year when I was still in SyUC,I will join without hesitating already!And god knows when the new Cali Fitness will be finished building and opening...it seems that Pyramid 2 is still no way near to complete...lotsa cranes and racks at the site...perhaps they're gonna complete everything before Christmas or so which I don't have that kinda patience to WAIT any longer.I AM GONNA JOIN FF THIS MONTH,yes it's MAY...FINALLY!

Till then...toodle!Won't be back any sooner until I got connection service again!BYE...

LOMO MOFO

In order to keep me motivated for my new promising pursue in tertiary studies, I need a long desired LOMO CAMERA. I'm so dying to get one of it with this panoramic lens which is godsmacked cool! and the same goes to the fisheye lens and holga counterpart. Surely there are a lot of varieties out there...but I heard it through the grapevine that the parts of the camera are extremely fragile due to their plastic made hardware features. Well, can't say I expect that much since the pricing is not too exorbitant, that ranging from 200+ to 400+ I presumed cos I've seen them once in Pyramid and One U at a gift shop. Bweee~so cool! I will appreciate if anyone comes out with a digital version instead of gluing to the old skool film -_- .But well, afterall that's for the goodness of professionalism, you see most of the time typical photographers with attitude will hideaway in a darkroom down at the basement or mezzanine to develop their photos where semi developed photos are taken out from some liquids and hang to dry, can you even start imagine that? It's a way of life of a revolutionist artist...sounds cool and dream on la.

Back to reality, simple enough, I want a lomocam.

PS : Before I could finish this entry, stumbled upon this site...omg sooo temptingly challenged!
http://shop.lomography.com

PPS : This is too much, I swear I'm gonna wage on a Lomorgasms fever and start off collecting
all the lomocams by errr...the time where I'm financially able -_- but one for now is
enough to cure for the temporary craving hehe...wait I do more research on it first.

PPPS : Not sure which of it is more financial haemorrhaging. Either playing with lomocams or
Pro SLR/DSLR cam, but one thing I'm very sure about is playing with DSLR/SLR isn't
gonna keep your pocket tight either or can be worse since the outset's spending of
getting one before you move on is equal to the value of 6-8 lomocams :s Pro/Semi-pro
cam doesn't come cheap these days...it's an expensive past time to say the least and
be prepared to splurge out those moolahs. Haiz!

PPPPS : Think I need to get one lomocam a.s.a.p. before I start begging for a Canon EOS350D
or other further extent of absurdities. Hmm, which one should I get first anyway?
Holga is so punk rock old skool, Fisheye is cool and funky, Panoramic's is so wonderfully
wonderful enough to capture a long stretch of scene! Beats me...

Breakdown and turn around

Will I be granted for any compensation if I was to sue myself for causing myself primary nervous shock?

Causation : Direct

Remoteness of damage : Primary nervous shock la...directly victimised

Damages : Brain damage due to over consumption of grey matter.

Been doing some introspection and recollecting for past few days, I actually very traumatised by my past encounter in that particular college. I hope it was the environment back then who came meddling my mind and NOT my perseverance/ability...somehow I think I should be able to get over it, if not more. I seriously don't wish to deep fry my brain now especially when school's around the corner.

I'm having two majors(have to make up a choice after 3rd sem) in favour which are of course closely related to each other. Well, HOPEFULLY I won't be ended up in some Business,Finance and Law courses this time...I need to stay put in allied health science this time!

NO MATTER HOW!!!

Course A curriculum includes:
G.Physics I & II with lab
G.Chemistry I & II with lab
P.Biology I & II with lab
Calculus I & II
Some other major related courses which are Bio/Chem proximated
Elective courses

Course B curriculum:
G.Physics I &II with lab
College Chemistry with lab
Calculus I & II
Some other major related courses which are Physics promixated
Elective courses

So if I ever chosen to do A...I'll have to pick up full sciences again but if I take B, Physics will be my only gravity(college Chemistry is negligible since it's only entry level). And now my worry is, Physics is always the subject that I dislike the most among all the sciences...although I used to love it during the beginning of form 4 somehow it just fucked up and became pain in ass.

What should I do now?

I need to see the advisor as soon as possible.

PS : I'm gonna simply study my ass of this time from next week onwards. Just don't ask why, where, when, what, how...I won't fucking tell you cos I'm not in any position to do that. Leave me alone in spiritual and academic retreat.

PPS : Mum got me more than 10 contact numbers for room to let in SS15 O.o . I think she got it
from eithere her friends or clients.

PPPS : Don't even bother to ask about my SAT preparation cos I'll just screw it up. Can't be
bothered much since I more important things to get me worried about now. Well maybe,
a mere grand total 9.5% of preparation so far to console my guilt.

PPPPS : Just found out that if I fly directly or earlier to that particular Uni, I won't need to
Calculus I & II O.o...Just a plain simple Probability and Statistics, how nice eh!But the
thing is I can't be able to fly off that early -_-. What a waste...

Nervous-O-Meter

low---------*--high

*clenches fists*

Har...!

Out of the blue...something caught my mind.

C-H-E-M-I-S-T-R-Y

I can't help but to swear out a few words of glory, I used to score A2 for that during SPM but of course given my mediocre standard A2 at that time was pretty good already.However, that doesn't imply anything good for future consumption also.I can't even remember a shit for good!

Not even the basic ones seriously,

Can someone tell me what is,

Empirical Formula
Stoichiometry
Chemical Bonding
Masses
Periodic Table
Transition Elements
Oxidation and Reduction
Acids,Bases,Salts
Organic Chemistry
Electrochemistry
Atomic Structure
Thermochemistry
Chemical Equilibria
Formulae,equations,solutions,calculations sekalian...*.*

I used to love Organic Chemistry during Form 5 a lot partly because I was lucky enough to be bestowed with one of the best Kimia tutors in JB...she motivated the whole class with her easy yet compact teachings!Don't even mention about my school's Kimia teacher back then, like useless only.And so, I don't know how...Calculus shouldn't be a problem anymore but Chem and Physics are a bit out of track, long gone.Guess I need to skip meals for Chem's revision, skip sleeping times for Physics and skip a bit of leisure times for Bio. Bio is not much a problem given that ability of memorising is the core to key of success + tad bit of comprehension la...

Well, have to stem the tide no matter how this time. I won't allow the past history to repeat again today! But I often heard from ppl that Physics is easier than Chem at times...it all depends I think. Physics is more on calculations and deep understanding of physical elements but Chem you have to base a lot on theory and imagination cos you can't see the reactions happen with naked eyes...somehow...depends la!

School's starting soon I'm happy :) but a bit sad :( though.

Have to pump in 5 times more efforts than the others...which apparently will be younger than me in age :s .Afterall, bak kata pepatah "agi idup agi ngelaban"...although SAT is ngegeh banget but in order not to throw 64 USD down the drain, I have to get over it no matter what.

***

Today around 5 in the afternoon I heard police siren around, dad came back and told us there was a murder case happened in our neighbourhood just few houses away from mine there was this family of three where the wive was being strangled to death by wires. And the son was upstair without even noticed that his/her mum was being murdered. No signs of being ransacked or break in by robbers but they suspect,

1)that it must had been done by either robber who accidentally killed the lady and later ran away out of panic without taking anything valuables along.

2)Insider's job which concluded by us after some laymen discussions.The husband(my dad knows him!) did not have alibi. So we suspect he could have be the murderer where he mocked up the whole scene by murdered his wife and went out then came back pretending he did not realise it until he was back...somehow it was weird that the son could not hear anything during the incident...well these all have to leave them to the crime investigation department!CSI~

OMG~I can't stop murmuring OMG! somehow...it just reminded me about how many past incidents of murdering happened in my neighbourhood.Let me list out,

1)I saw a teenage girl being pulled forcefully into a car by 2 paikia looking men right in front my doorstep.However I was too chickened(hey I was only form 3 back then, yea, so what the big deal, I've already said that I'm too chickened and unsure about the situation), so I just stood at a hidden corner looking at them with one eye and later I told this to my dad and I think he did a police report on that...

2)Wife murdered husband case at other residential section of my neighbourhood.

3)Husband murdered wife case at this apartment behind my house.

and some which I forgot already.

And we used to be victim of theft,robbery and fraud(to me they are no difference) in our own neighbourhood. I can't stop numbering them already.

First was a huge ransack when I was still in primary 6, my house was nearly emptied by damn fucking robbers who came and moved everything included soft toys,kitchenwares and so on that can sell a cent or two away in lorry!Everything was lifted and uncovered....and my house was practically empty after that incident and I could hear my own echoes in my house.Our passports and birthcerts and sis's IC were all gone as well...nia seng!

Second, some drug addicts came into the car porch to steal away our shoes and sneakers...this happened twice as the latest one was last year where my beloved Adidas threestripes limited edition sneaker was sacrificed :(

Third, back then when I was form 3, I was waiting for my dad to pick me up at the bus stop. This stupid drug addict looking Ah Beng rode on his fucking shabby motorcycle came and conned away my handphone...I was so angry and threw my Squash Club's report book towards the motor when he happily swifted away.It did not hit him and the book was found badly damaged...

My neighbours next door and behind had gone through a lot of similar incidents...where the prominent one is house break-in theft cases.....and so they formed this Rukun Tetannga(Neighbourhood Community) to hire external security guards for patrolling around the area since apparently we know the ability of our district's polices.And recently,residents based patrol teams were also formed after robbery cases at the shop houses behind us getting frequent.Imagine we need to take up the police's job by our own cos the PDRM is no longer reliable here.Don't even make me go further and mention about this police inspector who came to investigate over the ransacked case asked for Duit Kopi (sort of asking for extortion money) before he went on collectiong the thumbprints everywhere...and in the end no breakthrough also.Corrupted officers!

Out of desperation, some of the areas at my neighbourhood have been fenced up.The so called Gated Guarded Community.But was recently rendered illegal by the municipal council due to a lot of criticisms and conflicts going on around.Unless they request from the authority to acquire permission.

How sad is that :( .Being a homegrown citizen of Johor Bahru, I don't need much of economic development or development towards a big metro like New York or HK, not even hoping for a new Disneyland to be built at our doorsteps...neither will I be pleased by more installations of shopping complex.Just give me a zero crime rate environment will do, if not more.I believe with that we can even attract more foreign developments around...rather than proposing all sorts of white elephant projects ambitiously.

No title la...

Must be some subtle poisons that doing all the shits behind...why can't I just hit the bed and sleep at the time that I normally do?

Bum!

PS:Thinking of going for Eng. crash course to brush up my skill...getting horrendous these days
not like it was very good but kinda rusty to say :(

The purpose of life is a life of purpose

Go ahead and ask me what I've gained so far in my hiatus period between my next study pursue and the previous A-levels, go on ask me la!I can tell you besides unwanted weight that came meddle with the scale and some other side effects developed from those lazy bones of mine.The most apparent one is I've been transformed into a nocturnal animal T^T.Not like I don't feel sleepy at all you see somehow I just don't know where the problem lies.My accomplice,the best companion all time all day no matter you eat shit sleep,it won't ever absent in life,let me introduce you...Mr. Lappy The Laptop!*applaud*

No doubt you are small and puny but I can see a whole new big world inside of you.The monitor of you just like the best window that leads to anywhere in the world conveniently at one click away.

Right,enough said.Because of you I sunk deeper.Because of you my vision deteriorated.Because of you I am fatally stressed out.Because of you I had inharmonious disputes with my family.Because of you my shoulders slouched even more.Because of you I'm constantly walking into sleeping disorder.The 2nd idiot box you are.I'm the idiotic owner who owned this idiotic box.Sounds reasonable right?

Anyhow,procrastinating for so long.Here I am,staring at my OFFICIAL SAT BOOK aimlessly.Flipped through those pages,wow,again,a brand new world that somewhat seems strange to me!How deadly it can be I tell you.First thing,the Critical reading part,if you're lucky enough you get easy vocabs but if you're not,find a nearest wall and bang your head against it to end the misery.That should simply implies,you can't escape from reading a brick/grenade dictionary!Especially when you're someone like me who hardly read,it can be real pain in ass!For once,I thought I'm reading a Yellowpages Directory -_-.Perhaps the latter can be a bit lighter in reading.

And then the writing part,yea,how lucky I am,I'm sitting for the new format of SAT where WRITING is a new addition to the old format.Although it's only 300 words of weightage but the essay title can really push me ahead for a nice mental/nervous breakdown.I'm so happy that I'm gonna write Manglish for my writing part...who cares *roll eyes*.I'm MALAYSIA truly Asian!Asian pride yee-haw~

Ok now you tell me the Mathematics section is damn kacang.Yea,you will be entitled to that ONLY IF you do revision everyday like your good old college days.In my case,I'm pretty much a goner,my hiatus period is blank and debauched(not what you think ok?).Mana ada masa dan tenaga nak menceburi ilmu baru mahupun ada ilmu yang telah dihayati tapi dah lah lama tinggal kaput!Of course after 1 and a half years of torments from Cambridge A-levels (yea it was Cambridge board mind you!),I can't be possible to forgo that mere few months of break...of course gotta let loose and indulge myself la...what else can I do then,study meh?I've had enough and it's coming back again in no time :s

But contrary to that,after a long lost from going for classes and rushing to meet due date for tutorials and so...I'm getting much more eager to venture back into that field again.Haha,at least I can get busy and come to know that I'm not a scum who sit at home doing nothing but idling in front of the laptop doing the same motion for few months...having to think of that it's better to get out from exiling and bury into books.Nostalgia I think haha...but somehow same thing will still happens once get sicked from studying :( .Life is full of paradox!

Oops,drifted away from the Maths debacle already.Yea.So after a good long parting from Vectors in 3 ways,Complex number,Prime number,Polygons,Trigonometry(most evil ones)...now this test can provides me a soft review+revision on the past syllabus I've learnt(ahem,excuse meh but have I ever learnt?).In any case,I just wanna tell you my imaginary peeps that you have to constantly do revision in order to keep your grey matter functioning well when in need.And the deadliest thing is all my A-levels book are stranded in my godpa's house because afterall I thought I won't be using them somehow and to hell I even threw some away or sold to old newspaper collector T^T...as a Chinese proverb saying "书到用时方恨少"(loosely translated : that you come into a crucial situation where the knowledge derived from books is insufficient to help you.)Something like that,correct me if I'm wrong,proverbs are not my forte.

Fortunately,there aren't any Calculus questions.I do like Calculus but time is the factor haha...I need more times to revise if it's ever been asked.Not easy wei.....

Now all I can do is pray hard that they'll ask more questions that involve simple arithmetic calculations hehe...so my score won't be that miserable since I'm most probably will flop the reading part :( Will God bless me?Hm...I think God will given I'm a pious follower of God.

Hope I can get at least 1350 out of 2400 scores in order to ensure serenity over my ears from parents although I'm too early to sit for SAT but just get used to it first...if backfired still can resit haha and the price is only less than half of the IELTS that I used to take.To my glee,it's charging in USD so it all depends on the forex rates.Speculators have already foreseen the high possible of depreciation in USD(towards the Ringgit)sometimes end of this year la...so time to reap a veritable boon!Moreover,I'm gonna give up my IELTS's validity date since I'm not going overseas in any time soon in 1+ years ahead.Even if I do,IELTS will be irrelevant because I'm aiming for ADP instead so TOEFL is more appropriate in that sense.Holyshit,have to sit for a English standard assessment test again T^T...luckily TOEFL is not that costly I heard and most importantly,EASIER...I hope.What else can be harder than Queen's English?

I shall cease myself from writing unwanted journal from now on 'till the very end of my SAT test or perhaps longer 'till everything is settled for my coming intake.

Wish me luck and till then...adios for time being.

PS:Finally got my first reject letter from NTU...30 SGD down the drain.Expected.SMU is another gone case...I'm not keen in any place to get an offer from SMU also.NTU is a bit pity though :/

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LIFE IS JUST SO VULNERABLE

And I won't regret to say this, humans are nothing but a bunch of powerless creatures who are

trying to jumble up nature's course.

But they are fatally shattered by a mere fling of finger from the earth.

Plain sad creature we are...

Deat beat

What could happen when you never sleep for the whole night but was required to go out the next day early morning?

one word, vampirised.

***

I went out at 0715 without asking dad to fetch(yea, you know what happened).Instead I took cab and public bus to checkpoint only to find out that the two who asked me to reach as early as possible were late themselves, celaka!Thought Janet was very punctual and must have reach NYP at sharp 0900.Anyway, she got a divine offer from NYP's Occupational Theraphy, a very high requirement course.Well, having to score 2As,1B and 1C, nothing is a problem to her.Glad she got her ideal course afterall.

Not like what but when looking at ppl around you happily accepted their offers from their ideal Uni/Poly/College with their ideal courses,aside from feeling glad that they have been spared from misfortune,can't say that I careless to bother about my own calamities.So what if I got offers from RMIT,MacQuarie U,UniSA...?Those are not what I wanted,part of it is too costly and part of it is I couldn't help but to only opt for their finance and business courses that I don't really in favour of(although I'm a Alevel art stream holder...).Many a times,I was asked to go with the flow,but what if I refuse and go against it?How much business can do these days,to me it's nothing but all about marketing,management,econs,law,finance and so...that don't even elevate my interest and worse of it,I can't even go into the extent of thinking myself burying in law books again...econs is ok with those graph to instill you into critical thinking,and also marketing,management and all else...they sound dry,dull,boring,conventional and *(insert your own word).I wouldn't even wanna think of venture into these at first place.Well,look at Occupational Theraphy,it sounds so not-dull and eventful,things happen inside must have been interesting enough to my like.lol.If I was ever required to take up business,why bother to apply to so many Uni,I can jolly well ended up in one of the many shophouse-based colleges in downtown somewhere around Jln. Tebrau and Jln. Wong Ah Fook...plenty of them catering suspicious accredited business courses.Not an inside joke that I'm about to make but it's fact...for those who aware.It can be very nice to get stucked in this town for whole life if you are those kinda nostalgic person,to consider myself fortunate enough or not that I've no idea,but I am certainly NOT one of them.I'm claustrophobic,I hate to lock away in a small enclosure.Can u smell the hint?

First few batches of SMU admission interview has already commenced.Least to my surprise,they asked something like"What do you think about the impact to SINGAPORE of the rising of China and India today?",typical current economic issues.I can list out a lot of impacts given that it's only a matter of general knowledge and application of economic theories/policies....can further blabber about if you want like switch away from labour intensive,phase out the cheap labours and resort to high skilled industry to latch on the opportunities that bring about by the open gate of China and India...that's like kill 2 birds in one stone,fiscal/monetary policies and blahs...but if I ever get the chance to participate in the interview,I'll ask them go to hell,cos they can't even manage some trivial documents properly,let's don't even hitch on that titular name of "Management" university!Oh and the interview will be conducted in group...sounds scary cos higher possibility to flop if you chickened out last minute(formal dress code and excessive bravery needed),for those who don't know much about SINGAPORE economic issues,you gotta do last minute studies.What an obsessive-compulsive-disorder's sad case,ain't that sucky?Well,take the plunge and go on answering,you asked for it since it's "SINGAPORE" Management University that you are applying.By all means,expect all of those to happen.

In any case,

after the NYP session(hell that place was jampacked with teensy students...Singaporean*roll eyes*).We headed to a hospital at Ang Mo Kio cos she gotta do med. check up for NYP and then took our lunch at AMK hub...basically we toured the whole AMK la...damn residential place with nothing much interesting.Taxi was the only way we travelled en route cos we had no idea where the bus will be heading lol.

Haha, then we cleanly forgot about BT was waiting for us in Dhoby Ghaut at 1200 as appointed.SHe went all flamed when I sms-ed her and met her...cos I was uplifted by all the foods in AMK hub and just ate crazily cos I was damn famished...never even took my last night's dinner well and same day's breakfast(you, know why la...)*pouts*

I didn't even hit the money changer so through out the trip I was surviving with only 30 SGD :/

In any case, went to SMU again to submit our documents and nearly quarrelled with the admission officer lol.She was being unfriendly I guess given that they are the one who made us suffer from all these detriments at first.

Hell, Singapore was damn hot...not much greenery around I guess especially around the SMU area and Orchard.Siao.

I came back JB, picked up by sis and went home sleep all the way until today for around 17 hours...still feeling kinda drowsy.I crashed my feet with all the walkings,my thumbs are frying now....damn pain....think I'm a bit old for that already :(

PS: Eh,Sanjaya Malakar is not that bad besides his voice is more on the "tender" side,I don't see it as a problem at all lor...afterall he's unique with his own personalities unlike others just like carbon copies of one another.Yes la...sick of power lungs and dunno why this season's male contestants are so a bit of faggoty :p I wish I had Sanjaya's smile...I thought it looks charismatic *slaps* @.@

Singapore Management University had me on!

What on earth is happening there?

I just went to check my application status from SMU website and it written that my supporting documents are not yet received?hello~Hello~HELLO*trails off*...Lao Yeh went all the way across the causeway,crammed how long of MRT to Dhoby Ghaut(u can look for that particular post in my March's archive) and walked,perspired and drenched just to find out where was the fucking admission building in Victoria St.I wish I had GPS with me but NO I DIDN'T!

I thought it was the safest way to send my documents over personally but hell I was wrong,I've made the biggest mistake on earth.The admission office actually OVERLOOKED my documents can you believe it?How far can absurdity goes you tell me la??!I trusted it because it is funded by Singapore govt. but yet the service and efficiency turned out to be as bad as 3rd world's service!I don't wanna take this kinda silly excuse from them anyhow,I'm not afraid of making scene!Shitty wanton ppl.And tht particular day,this particular receptionist lady was still using her MSN for chatting completely igonored our presence.And now,3 of us our documents are in oblivion....screw her man.If they can't even handle this,let alone to send those documents by post la.At first I thought it was only due to the absence of SAT result that puts it for not being received.But later,Steph told me she has already received call up appointment for interviewing from SMU where she doesn't even have SAT as well like us,not even in any place to register yet!
This is crazy definitely!

And the only solution I got from their robotic reply was to boh pien but to resend everything all over again!Fuck them only...think I so free shake leg eh?Detest their way of doing things big time.Disgrace to all the Singapore Universities and MOE.

Strangely,they didn't receive anything but only the fees.Which again implies that they are bloody money driven.So long as they received the money,nothing else much they would care.I know my result is not that good afterall to deserve for their tiny bits of cheap attention but I can't help but to curse them!

JIBAI!

To add salt to wound,I have a very unsupportive daddy.I don't wish to say why but he just doesn't have faith in me.

So this is what I called SNAFU where Situation Normally All Fucked Up!

Saturday

I tell you, never ever go to City Square during the weekend. The crowd is damn dense!With all those ppl coming across the causeway and going downtown, this place is the intersection of both.



I was very reluctant to go out on Saturday cos I don't like to squeeze away with the crowd but since Michell hardly calls and coincidentally I have to collect my watch, and so I went.



And starting from Friday until Sunday, Pikom is having PC fair in CS's concourse.Which again tells us not to go!



Anyhow, I reached there around 11 past a quarter and the crowd was already apparent!While waiting for those ffk kings and queens to arrive.I just loitering around MPH cos that's the quietest place to runaway since JB-ians hardly read :p



Later, Felicia came with a supersized pimple around her chin haha...funny.Then we went to find BL who's working in Nokia and I went to see Cheryll who's also working in Body Shop(yea I got lotsa frens working there currently...nearly 10) to try out some EDTs and being a cheapo of cos must rip some freebies as well but was told off by her lol.



After all the ffk kings queens arrived we then as usualy went into our Neway's cabin.Sing sing sing happy happy happy like mad cow.



After that session, I barged into the PC Fair's crowd to look for external HDD drive. The stupid aisles were standing with lotsa static stopper-by who blocked thee whole lane which made us hard to move forward, stupid. And I bought one 60GB from Navotech for only RM 150 lol.Due to the heavy crowd around, our mood kinda dampened so me and Charles went back earlier.



This eejit salesman from Navotech is damn forgetful, all he cares was only the money not the service at all lor...never told me how to fix the HDD which seems like a maze to me *scratches head*.So only found out later from Kim Keat that the drive requires a good format!Damn tulan...I was never told by the salesman also, yea eventhough they espect us to know cos to them it's general knowledge but this is just a plain stupid excuse of their bad customer service!Thanks KK :)



And Uncle SJ nearly had me jeopardized!He asked me to tear off the sticker behind the hard drive which warranty will be rendered void once I do so!*phew*Uncle ah uncle...thought you're always the agony uncle who knows a lot! No la, not blaming you, just wanna make fun on you at least you know this better than I do. I don't fucking even know shits about "master" and "slave" the only scene that will associate with 2 of those words that I can think of is ahem...well.



So afterall 60GB is not very sufficient to be frank since I will never delete anything after I force-fed the storage lol.So to cultivate a habit, might as well buy smaller storage and start off deleting ribbish!Finally have my own HDD, if not I'm gonna live under Sis's "min sek"!



I'm on a lil' depression currently since all those room I found in Mentari are having flaws. Be it or not a minor or major one but my requirement is rather simple. Just a furnished room with water heater, fridge, washing machine and broadband in the unit. That's a very down to earth demand lah...since college hostels can provide this kinda facilities, why not private homestays? Cos they see only profit returns in their eyes. Fulat! And the rental ideally should be ranging around 300-400 if it's without a/c. Otherwise I can't think of any better reason to make my payments worth unless they furnished it with gold plated and diamonds or any other diamantes mounted furnitures.



For instance, this landlord is pricing his unfurnished single room for 250 per month. With furnitures, it goes up to 480 per months. 230 bucks increment per month. Let's say those ciplak wooden furnitures in that room cost her around 700 altogether. In less than 4 months, she'll be able to earn back her "prime" cost with profit! CCB.



Now still miserable in lodging...might be temporarily homeless for the first week to second if I'm ever there to study. In the mean time, have to look around and hunt for a nest! Sien...hate to imagine that.



Fan ar...!


I bought these 2 IYS series of EDTs from Cheryll thought they smell sooooo nice!Rougeberry is MTV's choice and Aztique is effing fruity can!

Single room wanted around SS15

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2. House is equipped with broadband internet connection,water heater,washing
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4. Budget range RM 350-Rm500 (best if inclusive of utility bills)


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RSS Feed?!

I can't seem to figure out the problem pertaining to RSS Feed,Atom,and all the blahs thereof...

XML,FTP,HTML codes,I'm flooding with all these matrices inside...sorta becoming like @.@
a very apt emo to describe.

I know there is no point for me in doing so,enabling feed seems rather pointless for my blog given that it is still in "closet" without popularity due to my poor language handling,monotonous writings,explicit contents,excessive profanities,poor layout,annoying scrolling bars.Oh well,by "feed-ing" it ,who knows someday my blog will records a tremendous increase in viewer overnight?By saying "someday" it's very obvious that that was a hypothetical statement which MAY OR NOT happens!I'll just assume that it is gonna hit the chart in no time :p

I think this post is rather a shout out of S.O.S to none(no one's cave) and do I hear echoes?

But still,how am I gonna squeeze out my brain for this knotty RSS Feed galore!Kill me...

Culture shock

Well...this might came a bit late but I just found out that,

盆踊(Bon Odori) = 盂兰节(Hungry Ghost Festival) !!!

Pardon for my ignorance!

Something like a Buddhist celebration dedicated to remembrance of the dead. It is believed that souls of the departed return to the living during the festival.Of course they share a same origin with similar plot behind...

So the question is how come each and every mid-July or mid-August, there will numerous of so called trend-setters and Y-generations settle down in an open field doing all the dances in Yukata(Japanese bath robe), mesmerizing in the ritual of other ethnic, I bet most of them don't even have clues what are all these about!

And do they even acknowledge the existence of this festival in the Chinese counterpart?Yes, we have it on our own but often being neglected by the young ones because Bon Odori seems more appealing which bear the chances of meeting Japanese chicks while for ours just nothing but burning joss sticks,candles and paper dummies offering(which rather global-unfriendly and ridiculous).Hello~if that's what their main purpose, they can jolly well download Japanese porns few clicks away in front their monitors and watch as many as they like while doing their hanky-panky jobs.

Bon Odori is a festival for younger Japanese to remember their own culture even when they're residing at overseas.For none Japanese like us,I won't stop you from going of course but at least you have to know the meaning behind before you make yourself present at the scene...for like let's say you are interested in knowing Japanese culture.However,if you come in without knowing a shit but blindly live up to other ppl's foolishness of following the trend...better still,go fug yourself!

All in all, Japanese Bon Odori and Chinese Hungry Ghost Festival are the same festival celebrate by Buddhists and ain't an ethnic based festival afterall.The only difference are Chinese and Japanese each celebrates it in their own ways which they are more accustomed to for which they are of different ethnic groups with different cultural backgrounds and mores.

Find out more details on :

Wikipedia-Bon Festival

Wikipedia-Hungry Ghost Festival

New books on shelf!

Saw 2 of this under the recommendation section and I just bought it after some instant reading.Supposed to buy Adibah Amin's "As I Was Passing" but it comes in 2 books and I find it rather dull after a few reading from the first book, just not as nice as what I expected it to be but Adibah Amin is a very famous reporter/journalist who wrote numerous columns in NST titled "As I Was Passing"...the books are the compiled version from the collection of her articles.Used to love it but somehow lost touch after some time since parents are inclining toward Star and Sin Chew Daily, lol, and I can't be bothered much so long as I get to read news.I'm such a poor reader I guess.

Anyhow,I won't write reviews on these books...my time is getting limited and I bet my reviews are nowhere on par with professional reviews by other bloggers.Thanks to my poor vocabs and grammar.And yea, I AM SO LAZY!

Take the gloomy

........

Somehow mood fucked up today due to the effing flu and damn mo-fo fickle weather.

My boredom has been slowly transformed into claustrophobia, that I can foresee it :/

Anyways, that could be me being stir-crazy and a lil' bit of paranoid resulting from some long term idleness...don't really feel like talking to anyone not even my close ones. Guess I need time to overcome...

Am very emo and demotivated lah!

And dare you to come fuck with me, I won't bite though but I'll slit my wrist.

Introspecting is needed now...so as to spice 'em up!

Listening : Gravity by Embrace

Report's out!

Dad has just gotten my latest health screening report.

This time quite a number of problems :(

1. LDL too high...resulted from my fav. cheese,choc,fried stuffs and so on.
2. Trace of protein in my urine(proteinuria?)!Die this time seriously,it could be a sign of kidney failure but the pathologist told that it can be traced in urine after excessive consumption of energy.It can be good or bad either.But I think most probably is lack of water,as I hardly consume much water at home due to little perspiration(since my house ain't a sauna).

Although diabetes and high blood pressure (hypertension) are most commonly
associated with proteinuria, other factors can result in temporary proteinuria.
These include:

Dehydration or
heat-related injury
Fever, infection or acute
illness
Emotional stress
Intense
physical activity
Seizures
Extreme cold
Abdominal
surgery
Administration of epinephrine

Since my blood sugar level and blood pressure is nothing but very normal,so I assume the causes can be one of those listed above.Phew...as what the patho. told my dad so.

Another form of this condition, which is considered fairly common in
adolescents, is postural or orthostatic proteinuria. In most cases, protein in
the urine is detected in a routine screening of the child and normally appears
without the presence of other symptoms. In these patients, a significant amount
of protein leaks into the urine when they are upright (orthostatic). The level
of protein in the morning may be normal.
It is believed that standing adds to
the pressure on the kidneys’ filtering agents, which in turn causes more protein
to leak into the urine. Conversely, when lying down, the pressure is relieved
and little or no protein gets through. The concentration of protein in
orthostatic proteinuria is often greater in the afternoon than in the morning.
Most adolescents who have this condition outgrow it.

I wonder am I still come under the adolescent stage?I'm 20...

Anyhow,I'm dying I know...bye all.

Reason of death : Kidney failure

Choi touch wood...from now on yat yat bat pui sui(8 glasses of water per day)!

No eggs,no chocs,no ice cream,no cheese,no butter,no fried,no potatoes,no oyster and oily stuffs!

More cereals,more veges,more whole wheat meals,more work ups!

Less sugar,less salt,less oil!

Last but not least,less "da bao" food!Those foods outside are really evil...aji aji aji!

Blesses~

Make it the doggies way!

Cheryll had recently got herself 2 new puppies from someone who was so generous enough to give away 2 newly born doggies for her collection!




Happy and Mocha(the names tell all)...Mocha is the one with terrier's breed in brown fur and Happy is the one who resembles Beethoven,with St. Bernard's breed.(She claims lah...)Who cares cos they are so fucking adorable,that's it.

Whoa.Ain't it cute!With that lil' tongue sticking out which is the killer pose to melt one's heart *cuddle*.And either way,it is chubby enough to my liking!

@.@ What kinda pose is it?!It's alluring me to hook them away one day...secretly.(It was actually sleeping lah...)

Cheryll is so greedy and mean cos she refused to grant me one of them as she has already got 3 doggies.I told her to let them inter-fuck each other when they grow up but she gave me excuse of both of them are females -_-.I don't mind having a hybrid doggie as long as they are cute and adorable.I'm thinking of buying some rodents to overcome my crave for doggies since rodents are easy to manage and parents are so dogged to turn down my request all the time(pun not intended),since my house don't have sufficient space for them,but my room can spare out some space I guess and everything is complete until I realised that I have slight allergy to fur and hairy stuffs,bummer!Wish I was raised up in a cottage villa on a country farm or something like that.

I'd love to have a pomeranian,chihuahua,golden retriever,maltese,siberian husky,shihtzu...if anyone can hear me out there...

hello~

PS:I really wanna proclaim to a certain someone whom I know for years that SHE should know who I'm referring to...stop all your foolish and naive malicious statements against me ok?I'm telling you those stuffs for your own interests.It doesn't even do me anything good,eejit!Anything please confront me in person instead of doing it the cowardly way.I'm in for ear bashing instead of some badmouthed connotations!And the fact is I'm telling you the truth that you don't even wish to face...but it's ok and up to you to decide,take it or leave it.No harm to me since I won't get t'd off in any case.Please also,I ain't telling ppl that you're a thicko...stop being sensitive and if you don't like some random someone to view your blog why bother to set it up and constantly updating some blahs and tommy-rots to insinuate or better yet loud criticisms against someone.Well anyhow,none of my jurisdiction anyway,can't say I give a shit.

It didn't affect me at all...

tally-hoooo!

:)

And all in all,I'm still craving for a doggie so much.No substitute.

:(

Reprise :

I got an offer from RMIT University but have been hearing all sorts of negative comments on it.Anyways my purpose to IDP was only to try out my luck and immense in the situation of being offered for a place,I have the right to indulge as well ok?Not that I'm qualified for a Ox-bridge's placement also with that kinda confusing result of neither below or above average.Sigh,RMIT is nonetheless another Uni. with city campus,can't I just have a Uni. with profer fence up campus?Although ranking wise it is not that backward but still I'll rather opt for a Uni. with proper compound without ranking than a so called city campus which is nothing more but few classrooms up a building or shophouses.I hope Uni. of Adelaide can give me a reply as soon as possible although I'm not intend to go in the first place.Haha,just wanna prove to daddy that I actually put in my heart on those applications rather than rotting doing nothing with my 20K exchanged paper certs.Still,I'm yearning a place in the northern hemisphere instead of down south.

And OMFG I can't stop tuning into Sarah Brightman's songs now,they're addictive.Her Harem and La Luna are major kick ass ok?!I don't know why I'm so into mysterious genre of late like Silent Hill OST,Hayley Westenra,Secret Garden,Enya and Gregorian...and all other Celtic and new age voices.They are so clean and crisps,heavenly nice.Alrite,I can't find any better descriptive words to describe those voices prabably due to my habit of listening to rock punk goth emo screamo music of all time.Haha.I'm currently flowing between these two very extremes.Before I forget,I do keep up with some canto musics like Hocc(Ho Wan Si),she's currently one of my fav. canto female singer that she totally out-perform Miriam,Sammy,Kelly and all others lah with her uniqueness in rock hardcore genre,that in canto music scene you hardly get this kinda singer as mostly are predominate by pop and some other mainstream musics.Her hoarse and powerful lung in combine with up beat bass guitar drums really a major turn on!Hocc all the way...!

Alrite,finished bitching and ranting.Shall turn in to bed...

All bad things come to an end

1. Topshop Tebrau City called yesterday asking me to collect my F3 card within this week.Muahaha!

2.Swatch called this morning telling me that my FUn Scuba is available to be collected already.Muahaha!

It's all coming back to me now...~

PS: Had a nightmare yesterday which was something to do with SAT,I dreamt that I couldn't finish the teast paper on time and begging the invigilator to spare me few more minutes,and perhaps retake the sameday -_- ... then there was another dream about me being coaxed into a marriage with my late cousin.It's kinda scary and I wonder what does it mean?

31

Thanks to it,I'm not alone every rotting night.I see light in my future.

Behold...my one and only companion:

Cow dung?Nah,fuck you.It's BR vanillachoc marble ice cream.Totally orgasmic..................

............and fattening :( I love you and I hate you.

9:56

What the phuck is this thing called "do not turn off the light before 9:56?"

wasted my time on another pointless Korean horror movie again,pui!

wanted to change my glasses but then couldn't find a suitable one,looking around for those thick black framed but they look funny on me...:(

of cos it has gotta be looking more nerdy la(since my hair is at default level now)...what else -_-

then...

SAT T^T

I'm practically reading dictionary now,trying to materialize what Tony Buzan has taught us in his remarkable Mind Mapping shit...which I can't be bothered less currently.Shit!

666!

Rubbish thoughts

Thought of dieting from today(again I know) but couldn't resist the temptation of Baskin Robbin ice cream,mum's yummy cooking and tit-bits that just filled up the rack yesterday from groceries shopping...so hm yea.Next monday baru start off la...seriously this time.*hope so*

Thought of not talking to sis today but then she bought Baskin Robbin,so you think I can help this and make myself sorry for not answering my crave?No,I am NOT.I just rushed out to the freezer and grabbed a mouthful of vanilla-choc.Innate hunger for food,destined to be chubby for whole life...gawd.

Thought of getting sufficient of sleep and wake up for some SAT studies but in fact I've got enough of sleep and woke up for brunch,then a crazy downpour with thunders shattered my mood,so I thought lying myself flat could help...and so I was drifted to lala-land once again after I woke up for less than 2 hours until late evening.Had dinner,junkies and hogging my lappy till now.

Thought of doing so many things but nothing was done.That's what makes our lives keep on procratinating and preventing us from moving forward.Staying put on the same ground under the same roof,doing the same stuffs all over again ain't gonna put us to 9 miles higher.Contradictions,reluctance,laziness,cross purposes...everything for my life is on null acceleration at this point.Static...rooted.Soon,rusty and die.

Thoughts...glad that I still have thoughts in me given my brain is at low point now.Grey matters are filling to its max now and facing non-consuming status.

I shall reserve them for my future undertakings then...recharging now for future consumption.Eh,do I sound like reading the Econs book?

I'm residing in Nothingville doing nothing.I'm nothing.I wish I'm everything I'm not.And well.....period.

There it goes another rubbish post.

Ps : suddenly something flashed pass my mind, where is my Swatch Fun Scuba that the auntie promised to call me up to collect within this week?It's already Sunday and I don't wish to make another hu-ha like F3 card.