The most beautiful place on earth "Inti hostel"...took from CCC 

Merry was playing chess at CCC...she was one of our friends from Indonesia. 

Puke....stop showing this face ok? 

Stupid nerdy effect...dumb...totally stupid! 

If sorry is useful what are the use of police? 

A face that meant for a slap right?What are u proud of?Inti hostel....wuekcs 

Ouch...help....please inti please! 

I'm innocent...nerd....i'm a victim too...spare me! 

Threathen by the god of boredom...'it' wa sent here by Inti! 

really 'lebih' right! 

KLIA so nice at night view! 

Wahaha,know what we are really bore to death ....we go to KLIA at the midnight and lepak until 3:30 am then return to college!crazy right cos we r bunch of sua gu...wanna see aeroplane and take photo...how ridiculous can u imagine the life in inti!!!!we r threaten to death by boringness...and being part of the victim of ICM...and know what we actually squeeze ourselves & in total onto a mini JEEP...which sized like a Kancil...haha!so crazy ....nerd!:p 

~~***Ayu~Rakuen***~~

~~***Ayu~Rakuen***~~

and i will be strong,even if it all goes wrong....

Err............long time never blog liao loh!!!haiz gonna transfer to HELP University College soon....yay!cos i notice that my choice on INTI is totally wrong wrong wrong.....luckily i got a very supportive family that realise my problem and allow me transfer from Inti AUP to HELP A-LEVEL.....i can study Law now...i don't like those science where i'm studying in AUP(majoring Biochemistry)........although if i chose AUP i can go US within 2 yrs of time but i don't care anymore....bcos although study abroad have always been my dream but if i'm blindfold by this desire i will not realise what actually i want...i'm not science material at all...although i'm a science student back to my secondary school but my art result are better than my phy/chem/bio and most my science result not consistent so i really no confident to go into that field!But as always i felt that study in US is a very 'Proud' thing to be ,so i approach my father at last minute cos my friends interfering and ask me go to study american degree transfer programme together and the heard the counsellor said that it is a not bad choice cos faster graduate and ppl study in US are mostly possess creative thinking and bold and good public speaking skill....wow tht was amazing...tht sounds cool right cos commonwealth education is like always memorize and duller in educational system...so without considering i beg my father for it and guess what my dad say 'yes'...at that time i was so happy and can't wait to tell all my friends and my relative in US about i'm going to US yrs later without hesitate(for ur information,i can't study law in US...tht sounds ridiculous right cos US law not applicable in commonwealth country...)so the best field to study in US is science field esp. Biotech/Biochem/Bioinfo/Med.tech.,those subject sounds cool but quite unpopular in Malaysia!and i was thinking since i gotta study this subject in US then i must seek for job there in term to got better paid(times 3.8 wor...)and my intention was i 'm not going to come back Malaysia after i graduate there bcos if i come back here might perish to get a good job...........so i was like having those stupid thinking that i can still send money back to my parents in order to take care them if they refuse to migrate to US with me....Greencard.....foolish thinking right)...bcos i was inspire my cousin as he is doing the same thing as i mention above...and my parents also no comment about it...then i thought i plan a good plan....)................things happen after my semester begins....the syllabus really hard to catch up...and i know my limit as i can't adapt to those syllabus and topic eventhought i try hard.........then i realise that b4 this i was bilndfold by those so called 'perfect plan' of mine and route to the US kingdom without thinking my own potential(i'm not Biochem. material lah!)...cos all da time i felt that study AUP programme is a very proud things.....................wrong wrong wrong........i sick of it now...i hate it now...all my friends with me felt the same as me........then i started to realise that i still have to turn back to what my choice at the most beginning: LEGAL studies.......................then i try whatever way to transfer to Inti A level,so that i can save more $$$....cos i thought my fees paid to AUP can transfer to CALUK but Aup head said 'No'...not refundable eventhought u'll be continue ur studies in Inti but different programme(wat kind of Fk rules is that)...then my f=dad said nvr mind...again head of CALUK said i cannot transfer now cos already week 6...might afraid i can't catch up...haiz i'm so desperate that time and think of after this sem i'll withdraw from inti then rest for 4 month until next year January Taylor's College SAM intake then study SAM for only 1 yr.....but the conflict is that i'm gonna study SAM with junior....what a disgrace right!ppl might felt strange....then i left this problem unsolve cos i think i should worry bout these things after finish this sem............................I see the light...i can see the light now!HELP got July 6 intake and they allow me to enrol after i finish my sem in Inti(august).........but then gotta make more effort to catch up...................until yesterday my parents rang me up and told me that if i really not intend to study American University Programme anymore then stop wasting time in inti waiting the sem past.....ask me to withdraw from inti straight away and wait for HELP A level july intake and seek for new accommodation...........starts all over again and go back to law(my parents keep on saying tht law is useless last time and this cause me to chose AUP of Biochemistry major for so rush on last minute i think few weeks b4 enter Inti,therefore they bear some responsibility...hehe...sounds ridiculous!but true!)....although this time i know that i might not get the chance to go US to study and stay there forever , settle down career and make a family there...........or atleast can study abroad for longer time at overseas)...but twinning also not bad mah!eventhough only 2+1....which is 1 yr in UK but i dunno why i felt more happy with that...so strange...hehe...but i'll request for 1+2 which can stay longer(2 yrs) in the UK..and need not come back here so soon....if able i wish to stay one more add. yr there to obtain Uk bar council exam...so total is =3 yrs....!in the UK!..........................and i can come back here to find a job ,settle my own career path here then repay my parents(so noble rite?) but is word tht from the bottom of my heart...money can't buy everything..even i send money back way from US to take care them but it is the money tht take care them not myself...how can i think of this idea?...i'm the only son.....i need to stay by my parents to take care them in future as both my parents not young anymore!..................when time past rapidly...my parents grow older...i'll starts to worry many things y know?...........all these many idea are cames from my homesickness in inti...then i'll start thinking bout many things when i felt homesick in inti....then i realise all those facts................................so sad so bad....but hope that my latest choice can satisfy both side...which are me and my parents..................GOD BLESS ME!

I can see a rainbow!...but too hazy....so far away

OMfG...all my tests and quizzes was so poor...my adaptation is just too bad!my life in college sucks!everybody sucks...hate it...can't break it...forcce to take it...leave it!
Everyday is not a new day...jz a same old brand new day!dull...bored...static...grey...lazy...misery...haiz!
who to blame?...what to say?...where to let out?...who will listen?...and who will give a hand...i jz dunno what do i live for?what should i live for?is there any light at the end of tunnel?can i hope for a bright future or continue to be a pessimistist?can i see the cup as 'HALF FULL'?
Can i breaK through?can i find a better way?can i depend on my own?millions of question left unsolve...billions of ? floating on my head...can i still believe in me and the world...is there anyway out?..........................can i gone with the wind to somewhere else?please don't misunderstood...i'm not being grey minded...i'm just speak straight...speak wise...speak my mind!tired of it and sick of it...though...still have to go on until i reach the light!live does not end here just like that...my world are still blank...i need to paint it with more colour with my own hand...make it a better place to be...a better life...a better way!fly away...breakway!i spread my wings and learn how to fly...i'll do what it takes 'till i touch the sky...though it is not easy to tell goodbye...make a wish...take a chance...make a change then BREAKAWAY until i see a rainbow ahead!

Life can't be complete without test...out of the blue...

OMG again,this week and the coming week are all about test test test,quiz quiz quiz!how am i gonna survive as i can't even fully adapt to the syllabus...things happen so soon!makes me more miserable than before!
Anyway,inti malaysia life is dull and bored!hope to transfer to icsj campus with more things to indulge..........haiz!a day passed!with so lonely and blank mind.......to be or not to be....i can't decide anymore bcos this is my choice...i can't grumble about or unsatisfied.........this is already happen...no way of turning back!!!!!!!!!

yay!

Hurray,i got my internet connection again........but nowaday online oso nothing to do...game?getting bored of it....other than check mail,blogging......i dun go MSN nowaday....other than tht noth to do online liao!wuahahaa!TODAY IS A LONG LONG DAY......dunno what the CHEM151 lecture talking n teaching so damn sleepy in class....i think my classmate will sure got the same feeling as me!hahaha!chao!

Ice breaking

Today go AUP club meeting and they having the one called 'ice breaking' session which playing with those 'i wanna bomb XXX' which is the person u know his/her name...damn sien but kinda happy too cos know many coursemate.....haha and some senior of AUP...sounds crappy...all very westernize style...sigh!wow yesterday class from 8 am to 6 pm....7 hours with 2 hours of Chem101 lab...doin those lab work damn fun like chasing the time haha!Psy105 at 8 am morning but i slept in class cos too boring and so complicated!I currently join INTI concert band and AUP club....in my course there's ppl tht frenly and ppl tht cold either....but i hate a group of ppl tht love to act n get attention n oso faking themselves n acting socialize...so yaya papaya....one particular girl i hate most is from JB...know what she is my fren's sis...fuk off...damn idiot man she!thinks she very popular!shit lah!
I was assigned into one group which pretty cool with the leader quite socialize and true and oso caring!and we gonna held an activities for each group....wonder what activity will our group organize!nervous!

Miserable continue......

OMG,inti college nilai is damn sien!like hell.....Bandar Baru Nilai is a hell city with no entertainment....not even have a Mcdonald ,KFC,pizza hut,Coffe bean,starbucks....sucks....all malay stalls n pasar malam -_-!!!!!!!!!!how am i going to continue my campus life there....there is so bored until i wanna die n also heat n hot n humid in hostel.....omg.....sooo many china ppl....few japanese....many indo too....sooo many african negro......like study abroad...CHEM 151 lecture damn sien talk until wanna sleep...........yawn...........math 132 teacher taught oso not understand wattttttttttttt.....kau.....Psychology lagi worse...i tot very interesting but turn out to be so boring......n then ENL101 oso not very pleased for me.....i like LAN moral studies the best
-_- tht is something tht makes more sense for me....so sad......bcos the lecture talk very exciting and fun....the others r very stiff just like those teachers in secondary school......hope to adapt to inti's life soon....cos i regretted goin to ICSJ for AUP!
p/s:ppl there oso quite sucks esp. those hostel neighbors n some very yaya n act like western ppl makes me puke n sick feel like punching them hard....grrr.....so action!not like us so humble....:p....we always dont draw lectures attention like those FAKE WESTERN tht uses FAKE SLANG BROKEN SLANG and oso FAKE ATTENTION......sucks n fuk off!wonder y those ppl dun go US straight away or go other college instead coming inti tht has many CHINESE...we speak MANDARIN btw,,,,although the Englisg Speaking CAmpagin is now gong on but somehow i still feel more comfortable to speak in mother tongue cos had been speaking it since the day i born...n felt strange to speak english wif someone whom ju know she/he can really speak mandarin well......so fake n yaya!sucks!
btw,i still love to go US....
~love & peace~good bless me in inti!

miserable life...

my life today is getting miserable after my days in ICM....first it is hot like oven or maybe hell is better to describe!and know what i got fainted yesterday bcos i accidentally banged my right finger on the shop's door and the door for unknown reason crashed and stuck my finger between the door gap....wtf...it was bleeding like hell,ican see the blood dripping down like water and i dunno y i just felt giddy after that and then fainted in front of the shop of CC....everybody inside was like rushing out and stared from the window and it was soooo embarassed i was looking for a hole to crawl in as u can imagine that fainted in front of the crowd in campus......but after that i just treat nothing happen and everything happened as usual!omg omg!i cant believe y'll know as i know it was an old sickness that exist since i was very small whenever i encounter a sudden pain that hurt to nerve and of cos bleeding i will either giddy(face turn pale)....worse to worse...fainted....omg the class and lesson hasn't yet begun and something so bad happened!
neway,the life here is extremely boring...it wasn't tht kind of boredom tht u can imagine but it is those boredom tht out of imagination.....totally bored y'know!as u can see Bandar Baru Nilai is a new n developing town which really bored to stay in!nmo shopping mall not even a single shops around the area therefore need to travel by car!i dun hav those money!!!!!KTM is expensive too and hard to reach...........omg really omg.....hot like hell also and ppl there really weird cos 50% of international students there like from China,Africa,Indo,and funny countries....i was like 'omg....wat the hell is this place' like refugee.........i noiw regretted for not listening to others to choose for urbanised campus in Subang Jaya as many thiongs there are more easily to get and of cos can get in touch with many things outside unlike here is totally out of touch wif the society out there!fu*k!is all tht i can say!