Lunar deep thoughts

The title speaks all,Mooncake Festival is around the corner.Pardon me,I almost forgot how's the moon and the mooncake looks like.Probably becos of the pervasion on untraceable haze in Sunway,obfuscating the outline of the moon.Apparently,this place sucks,that's all I can say.

A message to unknowns and some anonymous lads out there :

I wanna stuff in 3542 pieces of mooncakes into my mouth so bad.The ironic thing is I never even have the chance to taste even a tiny bit of mooncake pastry up until now,few more days before the due date of our Mid-Autumm Festival.Now,I can't be bothered much anymore,eventhough there are only conventional lotus paste or boring redbean flavour without salted egg yolk left redundant on the market,I FUCKING CARE JUST GIMME ONE ENOUGH!It seems quite impossible as I'm already having trouble dealing with my daily meals.I can still remember those day I don't even bother to look at those mooncakes that people gave to us cos,undoubtly,with my intuition,instinct or wateva u called it,those 4 pieces hiding beneath are none other than lotus paste filling with either 1 or 2 yolks,some don't even have...so rigid,o-bit,typical,repellant and grossed out.....However,it's different scenario now.I would love to have it even if it's only lotus paste kosong.DESPERATE OVERDOSE!

Assorted new and innovative flavours are so breathtaking enough to get me into catch-22.We are simply spoilt by all the choices out there.Hell...,Nyonya,Shanghainese,Chocolate,Cheese,Mua Ci,Chicken Floss...are just a minute of them among the far-flung of choices!!!I swear they can be so orgasmic that you might even craving for it during off-festival season.

All but if only I can have one little piece place on my desk the next morning by unknown(that could be the responsibility of the Moon Fairy(嫦娥) as a way of adopting the same method what the Santa usually do)...it's time for REVOLUTION!Just ask yourself why should we let Santa have all the fun and credits? -_-

Anyhow,I dreamt about one of my classmate KISSED me last night.I'm clueless about the indication of that dream but apparently it was yet another spice of life,another way to "indulge" myself...in a healthy way la!I'm so blessed that it was not other girl than her...or else it could just become a nightmare instead!LMAO :) so sweet...O.0

Dun ask me who was it,it was only a dream which beyond my ability to control.And fuck those who think that it was a wet dream.I'm not as horny and desperate as you,asshole!

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PS : Preferably from Yong Sheng,Lavender,Season,Bakers Cottage,Dai Thong,Hoi Ngoi Tin...ghee!!!

Series of breaking down events

Skipping classes...
Swollen eyelids...
Floating legs...
Panda eyes...
Listless expression...
Draggy rhythm...
Sloppy dressed...
Tonnes of books in hand...

If u haven't realise yet,that's the sketching of my life currently.Library is no more a monastry to me,but tomb of wisdom.I'm constantly moving towards the extent of becoming a geek and super duper nerd.

Yesterday,one of this Korean friend of mine was chatting with me and suddenly he popped,"hey,u look GENIUS,aren't u?",then I was like "...-_-!"(momentary abashed to his statement made on me).

I just wanted to figure out what does his term implies?Was he telling me that judging from my look,I should be a scholarly type of person which at the end of the day,I wasn't one of them,becos I told him how I screwed my results?If I'm ever a genius,will I be oh-so-faithfully sticking to this rotten university college of Sunway?I could've already made my sweet way to one of the top university like NUS,Melbourne U,Harvard,Ox-Bridge...and bla bla IF I ever a so called genius.I would say,mind your words and don't judge a book by its cover.Obviously he didn't get what I'm trying to convey.Pathetic gay fellow.

Enough of that,finally,I started off my tort law's revision today and almost decided to call it off the same day.NEGLIGENCE...nono...Law is really pain in the ass.Seriously I never hate a subject so much than this.Last time,History was like killing us but still it was pretty interesting and damn suprisingly/miraculously I got an A notwithstanding.To get A for A2 Law,1st and foremost,you have to have the ability to read up a dictionary(not the electronic one),in like 2 months time and another dictionary for the subsequent 2 months.How am I suppose to do that?I can't even bring myself to finish the a whole set of newspaper...and then celaka my writing speed is as fast as turtle crawling only.Now,tell me how to finish a set of paper which comprises 3 essays anwering,in 1 and a half hour with standard length of 2-3 wordful pages MINIMUM?It's better to ask me to go to hell directly and stop complaining here for the 789207th times.

Some samples of legal terms in tort and contract :

novus actus interveniens,res ipsa loquitur,volenti non fit injuria,restitutio integrum,caveat emptor,promissory estoppel,non est factum,uberrimae fidei...these are not all yet.(Note:those words are Latin terms where they'll lead to a whole lengthy complicated interpretation which can go like chapter-ful)

Not including mountainous of example cases and their facts yet,and you have to memorise one by one CHRONICALLY and ORDERLY!Worse to worse,APPLICATIONS where they'll give u some dumb scenarios and u do the interpretations and elaborations with illustrations of tonnes of cases along.Oie!I'm just a Pre-U student la...why the hell teaching me all those first year syllabus?

With all these are able to deprive my time to prepare for the other 2 miserable subjects.All I know is at this stage I shouldn't have sitting here in front of my lappy complaining every single bit of it and go get a life or study.BUT THIS IS MY OWN SPACE TO VENT ALL MY HARDSHIPS which at end of the day,endurance is the only solution.*sigh*.Again thinking about my pathway after A-Levels is even more depressing and can anytime send me to the Psychiatrist.It seems like there are lotsa obstacles ahead of me from time to time.What to do?I'm still so young(I assume!) and it's not even my turn to worry about all these stuffs as there are lots more of people that having worse situation than me out there.Unbeknown to my parents,how I wish they could just sit down and pay me their attention for a few minutes to listen to my plan.Yet I failed to own their few-minutes worth of time.I got no more time and my varsity life has to start off as fast as it can be.The good old cliche goes like : Failed to plan is plan to fail...

Seriously,my problem is the common problem for most of the the Pre-U students out there.Especially A-levels and STPM.If I have an excellent result,worry is none of my difficulty but with only average result,it's so hard to make my future route more visibly seen.

I've yet to lose the spirit of perseverance but of cos not yet,time will tell.And I'm so tiring now after studying for all day long,and still gotta get back to books after ranting here just becos I wasted some time earlier on.I wanted to go to the Ramadhan Bazaar nearby but as we came out of the library only to realise that it was already dusk(rarely got the chance to come out from the library with bright sunlight these days)...stalls mostly sao tong jor...and then we went Pasar Malam at ss14 again found that food stalls are yet to close with only few pathetic dishes left.Desperately we went further to D'sara uptown,no parking.Plan to go Klang for lala but realised that we are so broke.Finally the most economical way,we just had our dinner(my unofficially buka puasa,yea,I fast!) in ss2,nasi lemak -_-.Reached Condo. with rather loosened bone rack.I'm dead beat!

Burning midnight oil tonight as well...!Needless to say :(

This one to test the ability to view Chinese

大家好，终于可以看中文了！但是我还是会继续blog in broken English...哈哈！万分抱歉-_-

Ok fine,so my blog is able to shown Chinese now,all the while my noobiness told me that it doesn't support Chinese somehow cos of my blogskin codes.So my attempt for today finally washed off my misundertanding and stupidity.

Courtesy of Jason la...( http://www.zhyferox.com )"I lazy to encode it into instant link,so jus copy the link and go urself or find it under my linked blogs session la" -_-...his new revamp blog.Very professional and got some Jpops as well!!!

And so,I really think I should seize the oppurtunity of my break after A2 to start polish my kaputed skills.Damn~

This one about experiencing new technology

I was almost died today out of exhaustion.study Study STUDY!!!What else for this few months?Nothing but the same thing.Bored like shit...been semi-residing in library without a single doubt lor!Sienz -_-

Oh,today something enlightened me halfway through I was doing my long-winding past year paper for Maths.Charles rang me and asked me to try out calling him in video call.And it works for my this kaput rare phone of V802sh!!!And we crazily vid call for lotsa times doing bohliao things,none other than whoring,DASH UNDERSCORE DASH -_-...Fun har...end of the month phone bill is gonna explodes for my overuse of outstation calling...Ling's gonna rip me apart for it!I can't help but be over excited I guess,jakun in another term if u want me to describe.Who cares *roll eyes*

Needless to say much,still on procrastinating.Today I did nothing in library but wasted my time on P3 and S2 which did not gain me any benefits at all.Juz did blindly.I should throw them aside for the time being and concentrate on my resitting Econs and Law...mind you...damn grey matter consuming k?Memorise till u drop!

Not gonna study on Friday though as my usual tradition.For reasons that goodness know,I juz don't feel like doing it only!My eyelids are telling me stop ploughing through any more books,they want animation instead of being stationary.I supposed la...

I'm currently so dead in Pure Maths...Stats is halfway building its gravestone.Law is in the coffin yet to be buried.Econs' waiting to be cremated.Like I said,dark thoughts need satisfaction at times :/

(Evanescence's songs are those that so reflecting my emo now...)

What a commemorative day.VIDEOCALL leh!Been talking about that eversince Form 1 where those days they were still quite remote and mythical to us.Now they're yet another level of reality!hoho...

The one about procrastination again

"P-R-O-C-R-A-S-T-I-N-A-T-I-O-N"

speak of this word...

Before I knew that this word is actually a depreciation mean of term instead of commendation,It seems rather sophisticated and PROFESSIONAL.Once you get hooked up on it,don't ever think of flinging it away,like FOREVER!It's addictive...

This word will usually comes by every now and then during crucial times like EXAM,assignments,revisions,projects and so on.As a matter of fact,this word is so handy to use.One word,says it all!Lazy bum.

So the main causes of it can be over-reproduction of sleepy bugs(spreaded by a bugger that dwells in the same tiny box as me!) and powerless will to study(thx to DC++).Yea,since my 1st paper for A2 is practically 1 month away.Sounds like I'm still having plenty of time to slack to max. or maybe NOT :/

I didn't seize the opportunity to study alone quietly since this is a heavent-sent chance that god gives,I supposed.Without the present of that bugger roommate,my little world is peaceful and serene.I have to doubt the possibility of getting claustrophobia,it's like the room is now a whole new bigger world to me without another creature inside to grasp for oxy.*roll eyes*

And so,all the while books are in front of me,opening at the particular chapter on that particular page and most likely to be left frozen on that page for few days O.o...while my concentration is nowhere too far from the books beside me,right,the lappy beside the pile of books(juz becos it is livelier and attractive!).How can I miss out all the nice shows and songs on DC++?My iTunes is jampacked with over 2000 songs now.A new record,it comprises Jpop,Kpop,Cpop,English,New Age,Jazz,Bossanova,Classical,you name it lah!It's my effort to achieve that rather than doing nothing but staring at the books which I totally don't get a single word even if I read 10 000 times over and over again.Yea,I'm talking about you,LAW!Chaohai!

It's been 2 days that I remain in this state.Couch potato.Oh yea,how can I forget about lotsa tit-bits that accompanying me all along?

Anyone out there,feel free to bitch slap me whenever you see me while telling me 1 month away of A2 mock is not something divine.It is when all the stresses,phobias,dark wrinkles,saggy eye bags,hallucinations start to develop until you gone berserk and insame in the end.Cheryll which staying one block away is currently complaining about she's been hearing something "paranormal" since yesterday's midnight.A pair of male voice whispering her name next to her ear.So damn spooky and creepy,I just told her don't be too streesed out afterall,it's only imagination or illusion which will be fine later on.But deep in my heart,I was deeply worrying about.I might sound loud most the time but when I'm alone,I'm nothing but a rat's pluck...amitabha...and I ate beef today which I'm not suppose to eat due to my religion,in my room!!!Sins OH MII GAWDD.Please take it as I'd eaten meatball only can?It's really out of no choice...I'm sure GOD will understand.

Tomorrow onward,I shall proclaim loudly that I WANNA FREAKING STUDY AND DO PAST YEARS REVISION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!NO MORE SLACKING PLS...

PS:I got an appointment with SSD tomorrow regarding my career option,so they gonna give me some counselling sessions or psychological tests or whatsoever lah in order to make my future pathway more visible,I HOPE :/

Hearing impairment free!

Wow...

I went back to Dr. Tan today cos my ear blocking problem still exists after taking the remedies prescribed by him 2 days ago.He checked and told me the wax has already cleared by still don't have any idea how come I still having impaired hearing.FINALLY,he willing to refer me to ENT specialist Dr.Siow.

Phew,went there waited for almost an hour,and the consultation took about 15 minutes only where he used advanced equipments like vacuum to suck out my accumulated wax and the clogged part then tested my pressure tolerant by using some kinda pressure measuring machine.And voila!I'm back to normal hearing again after he did cleaning in my right ear...and he told me my ear canals are exceptionally smaller than normal ppl do,that's why I'm expose to the high risk of getting this stupid sai blocking -_-,and must come back to him after 3 weeks to do further obcervation(during A2 exam time leh!) and advised me to come for ear cleaning once in a while to prevent such thing to happen again...wah lan!That painful process really will cause phobia,like thousands of needles poking the ear canal.But after that,woohoo...hearing is damn clear and crisp!~.~

Mooncake festival is coming,but I bet won't be gettting any chances to celebrate and eat mooncakes cos it's around A2 exam and parents not around me also.Haiz.Looking at how roundish the full moon is...reminds me that all of us are looking at the same moon in the sky,so near yet so far.WHY?Huhu T^T

Reminisce back to those days where all of us will gathered at grandpa's place to celebrate whilst eating mooncake,mingling and not to be excluded,play lanterns!!!I miss that soooooooo much...since all of us has already grown up and eventually only the veterans will practice that but younger generation nowadays hardly even remember this meaningful day.Eventhough CNY nowadays are less merrier than before,for unknown reason.Maybe that's becos we are no more kiddo.How sad...

Argh...Dr. Siow summore told me that my ear drum is having some slight infections which I still have to continue putting drops...annoying and a bit painful.Anyways,I'm so glad that I can hear clearly again like what others do,for that alone,I'm more than satisfied at least.Thanks doctors and my world is full of hopes again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PS : A2 :/ + A2 mock result :/

Sick edi la!

I dono why am I so suay this month

1) Ear kena blocked by anonymous shits(wax) for almost a week

2)On and off flu,as if ear blocked still not serious enough,now nose!

3)Today,for no reason banged my toe and one of the nail got lifted,of cos bleeding lah(in fact the blood was dripping all over)!I very afraid like last time have to pluck the whole nail out,worst of all,3 anaestatic injections on this poor little tiny toe!lo meng~

4)Finally I had the time to wake up at yet another blurry morning to go for prepaid to line changing application at Molek,went all the way there,guess what?While waited halfway,blacked out!Damn tulan,no electricity means no computer processing lor...wasted my precious sleeping time!

All this still belum kira how bad is my A2 mock result,crammed my leg while jogging,kena ham zhu sao(ass molesting) at Sentral...stupid ppl so blind until he didn't even noe how to grab the right person(I dono who also).Go grab girl lah...not me!I'm not handsome(if u r homo),yet so fat.What do u want?Ma de!One fine day I split on ur face then u noe!*blood boils*

Suay kao lao nua!

And I say,pls dun use cotton bud anymore people...

Finally,I got my "wound" sealed this morning.No it hasn't cure yet,he told me fastest can be in 2 days time and worse to worse whooping 2-3 weeks.*censored*

Having this great endurance of bearing half-deaf is certainly not a nice experince to have.To add on,it's purely annoying where one of your ear is like completely "vacuum-ed" out to a state that all the nice tunes go in and tranform to those kinda irritating buzzing which bound to be in high frequency whice obviously I got no solution to kill it off,neither being able to tolerate it any longer.The worst part is they difference in the both-sides' pressure causes nauseatingness,to visualize it,it's like some 50kgs of sandbag pounding onto your skull perpetually which certainly not gonna stop unless you doze off -_-.So damn fucking sien ok!

Then,to my surprise,Dr. Tan(mum's friend) spent the whole morning lecturing me about those shits that don't ever use a headphone,earphone,in-earbud earphone,handphone's earpiece and even attempt to stop me from going to places which play loud and brassy musics like karaoke,cinemas and clubs!Woah,might as well go on and tell me to stay at home do housework,do knitting,listen to freaking boring classical music while having some nice aristocratical and classy English tea?The society has changed nowadays la...those maybe applicable la...in like 100 years ago?

So,I didn't see an ENT specialist afterall due to the unnecessariness(got such word ah?) claimed by this doctor of mine which is a outpatient kinda doctor(but he went on proving his further abilities without ours questioning -_-,so outspoken or maybe talkative it seems).And he told me if he ever refers my case to an ENT specialist,it will only creates jokes in their so called medical field or industry or peers(what??).If I know what's my problem earlier then I wouldn't have to come back JB all the way skipping all my precious classes edi la...and to be more sarcastic,that's why doctors exist!

Before I forgot,finally the doctor found out what's my problem edi!It's neither serious nor chronic disease afterall.But shame to say that,the reason of that can be quite stupid and little did I know that THE FREAKING OILY EARWAX CAN BE STUCKED INSIDE EAR CANAL DUE TO THAT STUPID COTTON BUD.And all the while I was fine with using cotton bud mah,goodness knows when it will get stucked like this time?Stupid oily hee sai!Doctor summore told me they are all clogged there in extraordinary BLACK colour which indirectly indicates that I'm having bad personal hygiene concern.Walao.If you can tell me other good ways to suck those hee sai out then I don't mind but no point telling me cotton bud is useless and harmful right?Afterall they aren't any better substitutions than this,at least so far that I know traditionally there's another kinda "golden" stick which curved into a spoon shape at the tip(smaller than cotton bud in size) which serves as a "spoon" to korek(scrape) out,but then,risky cos it can hurt the ear canal.Then hor,ma no other solution lo???I hate putting the drops edi,fucking difficult and disgustingly oily.

Fortunately,I saw this advertisement of a new kinda earwax-sucking machine(a bit similar to the look of the audioscope) on Channel U by Guardian.Let's pray they sell it here as well.Or else,the most ma si don't dig lor,let the cave jampacked with goldmines is not so a bad idea afterall right?Machaohai damn disgusting now and I'm started to hate myself a lil' bit for this unhygieness,fuck,that's not the point...yea I'm a very healthconcious punye person,or better to say clean!Unhygiene is not in my dictionary I beg my own pardon in this case with clear conscience.

I feel so embarrassing and goosebumpy by how the way he described those sai in my ear.My pride,my dignity!Awwwwwww...whatever la.Not y fault anyway and I shouldn't explain to that precise since I blog for none :p

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After that rushed like hell to Pelangi Redbox again,this time ar,the cheh meh waiter asked me a silly question which I still can't figure out what give him that penny of thought to think that I look like a hairstylist from E.Vogue leh?Yea,I know my hair colour(s) look(s) so attractive and vibrant(cheh!) but then it's totally out of statement for him to be so busybody enough to shoot this kinda silly question at his customer out of nothing.Celaka betul!

Then,waited for those bummers for 1 hours whilst sang all alone during that interval.I'm sing-able afterall and I prefer singing alone so that I can concentrate on my own voice and realise my WEAKNESS without their extra unwanted desibel add-on,haha,evil I am!No lar...I'm cool with it since I can do one man show in my own lil' dreamy world of own concert while imagining me to be a ROCKSTAR(Supernova rox~).Bah!Great fantasy,FAT HOPE dude!

Bummers came in super late lor,then Michell left so damn early left 4 of us.BT is certainly unhappy over matter of "treating old pals"...3 of us argued all the way with her until almost turn our faces.Later,we off to CS again to lepak...haha...went to arcade to play that drums game which was fucking nice and then paid for Charles present edi lor,pokkai edi lor.Summore went to Wong Kok again to stuff ourselves crazily with BREADS(hey,read the recent news on breads lar...T^T).Then only to realise that there's a newly opened KIM GARY hiding away at the very ulu basement floor.Diu.Should've go there earlier if we find out early.Sick of WK.....and people don't ever try out their exclusive fondue which priced Rm9.90,not nice at all,just like having some bananas,harden bread to dip with very kao milo only.Sucks.I have the photo of it but then stupid blogger stil having same old photos uploading problem,that's why seldom wanna post photos these days.Diu!

I'm so glad that I made a trip to Yong Sheng's mooncakes selling store to see Jenny and thanks for her generosity that she kindly encourages us to come back for work at YS for their CNY extravaganza,mission of selling and promoting assorted significant YS produced cookies,damn fucking famous and nice I tell you...the nyonya kuih carpet damn unique!SO as the new cheesiful"huang jing man man"...Cheeseball in English term.But loosely translate is "full of gold".Love the name and of cos most importantly,the pay is nice as well haha,I earned like 2k in a month by doing that job last year despite of its side effects like leg aching,HK leg,weight gaining...lol...don't care lah!

And then yea,just now the doctor also said that don't eat too much unhealthy foods lor...and blabbered that jogging is useless to keep in pink health cos it can only helps to burn fat(that's exactly what I want -_-).Then suggested the best way is to go gym,woah,mum again started to blame me for not going to FF earlier and force me to go next year...ain't that irritating since I'm staying in KL alone without own transport,how am I suppose to travel to FitnessFirst that usually located at non-LRT station's areas or outskirt all by myself?Sien -_-

PS:SOmeone pls bitch slap me and remind me A2 is in 1 month time.I fucking no mood for that.

Back again -_-

Here I am,once again,not being torn into pieces(almost)

but...

I am stepping on JB's land once again in less than a week of my time spent in Sunway since last Sunday.

Amazing huh?!

Fuck,I'm back for med. consultation,u think fun ar?

Stupid ear...nabehchaohai

Blocked

My nose is officially blocked as well due to the cold I caught this afternoon.No progression for my ear so far.Mum called just now asking me to make a trip back JB this Thursday to seek for native ENT specialist instead to one man show here in PJ.Cos I need to take the hassle to make lotsa appointment with doctor if I wanna go to either SJMC,SyMC or Assunta,furthermore,the price is bound to exorbitance I supposed.Next Monday is Awal Ramadan(the beginning of fasting season for Muslims),so,there should be a public holiday for that which build up a good reason for me to go back this week.

Current mood : Sick and depressing

Ranting only

Oh what a perfect time to blog,4:15 am,I was alone in my room.Miraculously,I'm not feeling beat at all since afternoon.Too much of potential energy I supposed.Who cares!My ear still stucking for reason that yet to be dianogsed.So sad.I should be able to hear everything at this point of time until I realise how important every single decible meant so much for me.I love music just like my overflow passion towards food that subsequently shaped me today.If I can ever get through this,I shall cherish my hearing from that on,all the time before I can lose it once again.

Mum's advice few hours later still echoing,it goes like "u must take care of ur ear ah,sleep earlier and dun sit in front of the computer too long..."

Oh shit,it alarmed me with a small tiny piece of note floating in my mind that maybe I should sleep earlier today.Somehow get hooked on all the websites I'm browsing and browsed.Till late,this hour,I'm still like an ape that full of vitality,physically exhausted but mentally isn't.Caffein overdosed?Maybe due that cuppa teaccino I sipped then.FUCK!I missed my parents and friends in JB,I got a sudden urge to record down all my parents' "do's and don't's"...and listen to them over and over again until I get fed up of it.WHY?

Yea,please be reminded that when the result reached at the mail box which is approx. 380KM away from me,plenty of do's and don't's will be there waiting...that's the part that I feel so bad,I didn't study much for A2 mock.Have been partying and clubbing too much it seems.I shouldn't have wasted their hard-earned money on these.Shame on me.Guiltiness is inevitable.

Mum rang again just now asking me to go seek for an ENT specialist on my own.Reluctantly,I agreed but still...lotsa entangle thoughts.Just feel like asking them to come up right away and bring me personally.Manja huh?Fuck off,what's wrong for being manja at my very last teen-age of 19?Me and my parents are bonded so close and abstract that you can't even see it.Can you?C'mon tell me whatever covalen bond,chemical bond,James Bond for all you can,BUT menage bond is too complex that you can't easily visualise in forms of connectible alphabets.

Screwed up seriously,I don't even know who to resort to at this point.Which medical centre should I go?SJMC,SyMC,KJMC,UH,ENT clinic,Pantai...???Only then I realise how dependant I am all the while and well-protected whilst having a so warm shelter to stem the tide.What have I contibuted so far in return for all the deeds they'd given to me.Shamefacedly,I can only whisper none or hardly few which are too remote.

I'm still too naive enough to comprehend the real meaning of life anyway.Yet I always convince myself that I should seek for deeper,think deeper.I'm not a shallow person anyhow.I'm not easily fulfilled.Sometimes,I may seem to be accepting everything without spouting any refusals,innocently or blindly follow what others expect me to do albeit I've been pushing myself so hard to move forward.At least,it gives me lotsa cereberation and gret matters that I'm seriously lacking of.I'm constantly leaping one step ahead to successful ending point.I learn everything out of nothing,something and everything.I'm not the one that you should belittle...cos deep in,you are shallow enough to be a judgemental person that I shouls have in the other way round put my eyes downward on you(which obviously so far below me can ever imagine).

Alright,over-ranted it seems.I should get onto my nest and drift away to dreamland now.

Bye to none.

What went wrong,!$^%$@%!&!???

It's soooo sooooooo soooooooo not my err...what should I say,not my month perhaps.Lotsa unpredictable yet unwanted frivolous things happen on me of late.I can even list them out cos every each of them is really giving me pain in ass,like real pain :

~gaining weight

~broke(thx to all the past accumulated BBQ party,dinner at Palmville,shisha,clubbing...time to repay all!)

~my right ear is blocked(I suspect it is "Otitis Media" or "Glue ear"...go find Wiki. urself what do they mean k?).Dun even dare to think of it to the extent of brain tumor,adrenoid or watsoever horrible sounded disease!

~my hair colours got messed up badly and been receiving lotsa -ve feedbacks on it!

~side effects of ear block,like,dizziness,unbalancing of walking,slow in response others conversation,worst of all it's nauseous...walao...feel like an pregnant old man now.WoOt?

~screwed up my A2 mock result,CDE,with this I can tell myself and so convinced that I should become a street sweeper or garbage collector in future.Bad result means bad future...

~my old Adidas sneaker,that one with shiny blue stripes has been stolen yesterday by some filthy cheapskate ransacked bugger that came into my house's car porch!Diu nia seng...

MOOD-O-METER

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Hitting beyond the min. acceptance level liao la...so dead!

And worse to add that,I'm semi-handicapped now due to my partially hearing disability.

I'm gonna seek for an ENT specialist in no time,if not...argh...nothing bad will happens!What am I thinking?It's only temporary symptoms,with my great endurance...hoho! -_- --- T^T

Anyways,I'm feeling damn fucked up now once I think of my ear and my result.No matter how much fun that has given to me now is still insufficient to compensate.I've yet to lose appetite once I think about my result and my sickness,think about the consequences,badly screwed up by parents,guiltiness and at last to the extreme of becoming deaf!It's purely annoying and irritate me to the max.How would I got a "D" for Maths. when I'm attending Maths. tuition for more than 2 months already,it's not cheap afterall,now it all went down to the drain I got none.

Feel like wanna burst out in tears now but still I have to swallow in cos afterall it's not even over yet.I have a months left to do last striving...no more clubbing,no more movies,no more lepaking,no more slacking only STUDYING!

I'm still feeling very grieve over what has happened to me.Those foolish and unlucky happenstances!FUCK OFF!ARGHHHHHHHHHH............^@&*!@^!(*@^)!@!*(^!()*@^!)&@^!@!(*@^!(*@&!^@*!(&^@&*!^@!(*&^@(&*!^&!

Suay kao beh jiang nang!Kia kia tapi pun si ah neh pun tua...li bai jia lat lor...tiok si!Pai mia *sigh* (translate urself la)

Great day out with old pals

Finally,after a whole week long of hibernating at home(can't really drive,raining,lazy,hangover for nothing,onlining,houseworks...),I was able to go beyond my front door to catch some fresh JB's air!Although it was raining cats and dogs early in the morning,damn!

And so again suffered from hangover for nothing this morning probably due to lack of sleep accumulated past few days(busy onlining :p).Fortunately enough,Charles buzzed me early in the morning asking for a change of today's supposed plan that was a change fron Neway CS to Redbox Pelangi!So yea,got up and as usual mess around with my frizzy,hard,highly damaged and fly away's hair for very long.Took bath and dad rang me to go to bank for a settlement of my nearly-dormented BCBB account.Off I go,and only to realise that damn shitty me forgot to bring the old-skool bank account book(hey sir,2006 already ya,E-Banking is what we're talking rite now!).Uh huh,I know but that bank is meant for some long term saving afterall,If I apply an ATM card for that for sure it will not get dormented but another side of it,zero amount left.Oh,so I forgot and no choice but to make a next trip there in few months time.

Dad was so kesian-ed that I was late for my appointment with my great old pals at Redbox Pelangi and to add oil,it was raining albeit it was nothing compare to his hectic working routine but he still as usual fetched me to downtown.Luckily it wasn't jam at all to my surprise and I reached Pelangi on time.Booked a room on ths spot...initially I thought Charles was gonna book it since he was so affirmed that Redbox is the final choice,damn!And they rushed all the way here after finishing their SPM trial,not to forget,they drenched themselves,lol,pai seh lah!

Me,Charles and BT were in one room while BL,Jslyn,Michell,Janet and etc were in another room.Then after,we lepak-ed a bit in Pelangi and set off to CS with cab(no one's driving today...).Again,it was quite a waste of time in CS as we went on our own seperate way,as usual me,BT and Charles got nothing to do but went yum cha at Wong Kok -_- .Waited those chics for quite some times then me,Bt,Charles,Jslyn,BL and Michell took bus to Permas to Michell's house but dropped by at Jusco to buy some changing clothes cos they planned to swim!WoOt!Later,crammed at Michell dad's car to her house which is adjacent to Jusco only.Swim in the drizzling drops summore,how am I suppose to get sick like this?Thank got I didn't,touch wood!

After that swimming session we went back to her place to clean up and had dinner.Michell got a very humorous mum which quite rare to be seen,she's open,witty and most of all,hot!Sexy mama...haha!Just slacked around in her house ranting and played chor dai di only to realise it has already 11pm.We then left while dad was waiting for me at the McD before the junction outside.Thanks Michell and all of the EC gang!I'm so gotta miss all of u...

PS:Sorry to what happened to ur poor SHARP GX27 that went toyed.Take my condolence.

PPS:I wish I can join them for F6 in the first place instead of insisting to do A-levels here.There are so groupy,fun and well-bonded,even better than those old high skool days.At least I don't see much fake elements inside than what I found in the new place right here far away from my origin.Friendship forever.

PPPS:Janet Pua,u betta watch out!!!lol...as well as so long din see Yee Fei,C.Jian,Jin Kai and so on...ever since the day I finished my last paper of SPM(Bio),they were then went disappeared before me until now.So sorry that I couldn't make it to most of the hs gathering last time.

Crushed it into millions of split-end

Paradoxically,I went back again to request for darkening of my hair base colour.It's now in kinda dark brown instead of the previously beige(bright).I'm quite satisfy but I got that kinda sense of being cheated.Strange -_-'''

I'm not so beng-ish now,and all I can say is my hair colour is quite unique like one of those hair styling academic school's trainee(cheh!).Creative hightlighting is wat I'm talking about here...bah!

Proclaimation : I'm not lala/himbo/beng

Today I was highly anticipating for that appointment I've made with the saloon cos I was gonna put on new vibrant colour(cheh!) and trim a lil' bit.Yay(initial mood state).So I was there with the stylist trying to look out for the best hair colour that I've wanted in that lil' booklet...*everything was fine at this state*...subsequently he put on the colours for me and duh!I was fucking shock by the new blending of colour,I thought I was gonna have some kinda dirty highlight colour which looks like err...maybe Maksim Mrvica or watsoeva and who noes I got off the saloon looking like freaking Ah Beng ala pirated DVD vendors?!!! *OHHHHHHH MAIIIII GAWDDDDDD*...it lookED like this

WoOT???Ain't it looks like those come out from Thai Club or neighbourhood-based pub ala uncle-ish style???Sums up in one word "Beng"ah!Obviously it has been overhighlighted on that particular part which makes me looks exceptionally "Beng"...The more I looked into the mirror the more I get depressed...*kek sim*.So,after few hours it looks like

Tadah!!!I went back to them and got it darkened to grey shade,although it's not the ideal colours I've always wanted but so long it doesn't resembles DVD vendors,I feel much more better off,and so...

If anyone happens to see me with my new hair colour,please spare me some thoughts and accumulate some good deeds by not saying I'm looking beng-ish/lala/himbo or watsoeva lingos that come in the same line.Bet you dun wish to look forward to any of my obnoxiousness that specially "served" in return of ur malicious slandering.It's a sensitive issue from now on...

PS: I've always wanted to try out bold designs and colours,this could be one of the chapter among all the colours and styles that I've tried so far.From the earlier part of full-hair straightening to partially straightening to "tailing" to green highlighted until the latest combination of 4 colours(yea,I ended having 4 colours above me,so?)...I hate to attract queer look from others in this case,fuck all the decent-minded Malaysians.I dunno,that's me,perhaps the next minute I would've gotten my hair back to charcoal-ly black with some conspicuous green/blue/purple highlighted?Oh yea,I've planned my next colour,it should be purple or blue highlights with black base :p .....stay tune!

What a "fun-dying-and-some-cuts" ABOVE experience(little pun intended :p),it's fun messing with the palette!

Enhance or retouch?

I'm so tempted to do another tattoo after I'd seen what HC did on her hip(of cos I won't do on hip lar...I mean on other part),with colour and custom design all for a very reasonable price than mine.Ish >_< !

Planning to do a small and tiny one,if I happen to do one soon either that will be around my current tattoo's area for retouching or other places for a completely new one like on hand,leg or bicep?!

The design should be that of,
~gothic symbol with colours enrichment
~some very oriental and traditional element's graphic with colours
~some words with very nice fond and colours(my name or some nice phrases written in latin,spanish,french,yiddish...wateva classy language it can be)

To sum up it must consists of,
~colours
~custom design
~not too big,tiny and small approx. 3.5cm x 3.5cm or less will do!

Shop location : 1U or Ikano
Recommended by : Crystal(HC)

This sudden urge comes by all have to do with her or perhaps my already-exists inner crave for it.Pls take it as a compliment can,HC?

:)...I've gone crazy bout this lately,but I'll only smack on one after my very last A2 paper on 22nd of Nov,not so in the mood currently since I'm still haven't get over myself from the perpetual exam's stress immersion ever since the last mock.Still so dead...wateva la...long live tattoo art!!!-_-

I ate lotsa ashes and sniffed lotsa Carbon Mono.

Fucking shitty today...

I specially woke up a bit earlier and took cab all the way to Puduraya only to realise that no bus ticket for my desired timing!Diu!Must wait until 5pm...now what?I'm practically stranded in KL for 2+ hours doing nothing and I went to Times Square's Borders(for what?)...cos there's the only place I can spend more than an hour swimming in the sea of wisdom!

Anyway Starbucks was full of anonymous people so I just randomly picked a place and sat down to chill in my frap. and some books about Judaism(woohoo~).B4 I realised,it's already 4 sumthing and so have to rush back to Puduraya.I thought I could set off at 5pm sharp who noes damn driver was waiting for no one for almost 45 minutes and left us waited for nothing...walao!And I paid more expensive ticket only to realise that that was a 48 seaters!!!Damn my big ass where can tahan such narrow sit???Normally Konsortium's seat is good and comfy enough like Economy class flight...this time was like yucky public bus converted in express bus,diu lei lou mou la!Stupid Causeway Link...they dun seem to be any better in their service although all their busses look friendly with a dumb smiley face and yellow theme colour.It resembles some shits smack onto banana only!Fuck off!

JB so nice,I gotta do lotsa stuffs as well!Clean up my own room,buy speaker,hairdo appointment,meet friends,family outing,homecooked food...b4 I get my ass back to Sunway Condo!!!

Illusions never change into something new

My mood has been fluctuating recently and the worst thing is I'm getting very emo nowadays(no,I'm a guy not having pms can?).That's not what I usually reflects myself.I'm always that happy go lucky and clown but sometimes it's hard to conceal what's your heart hiding beneath.Not to say that I'm a hyprocrite or what as hypocrites are the worst creature to live on earth,and do they even deserve to live here?I'm not any almighty to judge what's right or wrong here somehow I feel annoyed.Needless to explain much as I'm writing this to none,least of all about what I write here in my emo. disposing ground!

The thing is like you can't actually find a friend that can really get so close to you at this stage,that's my personal thought though.I realise that all my so called "friends" at this stage are those who will only resort to you when there's problem but in fact you are nothing more than a transparent to them at the end of the day,get me?

Likewise,when having fun,party or clubbing they will definitely invite you but no further.It's like fun together but when it comes to the real thing of what it's all about,forget it,you might as well as just forget about heading to them at all in the first place.So disheartened to say that but it's true,at least from what I've experienced so far.Love,sex,party,alcohol are those important elements that you must possess(the ability) in order to get closer to them.

I especially dislike devious people which they will try to use all kinds of fabrication just to camouflage their fickleness and tactical mind.On the surface,you may be happy to crap along or partying life along with them but actually in their unpredictable thinking,they are building firm and strong precaution against you.I can't help but to stifle some laughs.Hey,I fucking care what you think,if you think I'm a hypocrite or what then you are the biggest hypocrite I've ever seen,so fuck off!

I'm getting so pissed with people around me.Indeed,they are getting unpredictable and tactic-ful in order to get some kinda attentions or what which i don't fucking give damn.

I despise people who is lame fake ass,over-crappy,unorganise,emotional,moody,fickle-minded,promiscuous,dirty(not tht literally term),self-satisfied and proud over some inferior stuffs,no life,lad,spoilt brat,unable to identify what they really want and the list is not exhaustive...

That the one I prefer here is a trust-worthy,truthful and straightforward.As long as you don't try to play trick with me.

PS:Just to tell "someone" that if what I said it's a truth and a normal matter to everyone.Please don't go on telling others that I'm a big mouth or a hypocrite.Cos you are the one not me.I'm just stating the out the fact that the whole world has already knows about it.In fact,it's inevitable to prevent myself from telling others "accidentally" as this is really so obvious that even a retarded brain-damaged person can identify what's happening.And please I did not tell "her" deliberately,it was her that asking me about that then I just expressed what I know,somehow you should be glad I did not twist the fact.From now on,stop hiding your hypocrisy and that cloak-and-dagger piece of mind.

I'm getting irritated and annoyed these days.I wish I could finish this a.s.a.p. so that I can switch to a brand new environment that willing to accept me.

I assume what's happening now is only an illusion to me.FAKE.

No inspiration is source of inspiration

Today!...Yea it's today!!!No other days than today...!Palmville resurrection!!!Supposed BBQ party on last week has postponed to TODAY!

Guess something mischievous and crazy gotta happen in no time and Eunique text-ed and said that "prepare swimsuit,towel and changing clothes..."

The interpretation of his text must be of something very freaky and we bbq-ees gotta suffer from their evil tricks and voluntarily fall into their irrecoverable trap so much so that to put you into catch-22 situation!Force you to get drunk and then the next things will be camera lens and voice recorders lay before you,what a rag to be chewed later in college among the classes.I was once suffered after Thai Club...until now the side effect is still expanding exponentially!Lesson learnt at least,not to get drunk in front of your friends eventhough it's a happy occasion that they force you to give your best shots!
*roll eyes*

Haha...no la.Happy happy mah rite?Screw you,my right eardrum is suffering from some pressure difference-related problems which I dono how to explain in medical terms.Gotta go for medical check up as well this trip back to JB.So dead of exam as well as health...hope that there will be trade off after working so hard for exams.Or else life can be very meaningless lor...

And also,stop placing that little "turtle" in front of your MSN personal message.I know it's in green(my fav. colour) but damn irritating ok?Those ppl just dunno wat else to do beside doin that to commemorate the death of Steve Irwine(hope I spelled it rite).As long as u got the heart and sincerity,it doesn't matter how many turtles you put,it won't bring him back to life anyhow or let his soul in peace to get affected.And then the ironic thing is why put turtle instead of stingray or crocodile?But anyway,I can't help but to laugh out a little when I heard how he died.What a sad way to die can?Stung by the harmless stingray?The only thing can relates to stingray is sambal sauce and some banana leaves I think *yummilicious-ness*...and hell he's a crocodile hunter,in my opinion(cheh!) the best way is to let him dies in the mouth of his fellow crocodiles and alligators.Died under stingray is not actually an honorable thing to talk about.Really very peculiar lor,and maybe it's fated or sumthing.R.I.P.

Yea!Got a week off next week but I'll be in JB by then...miss JB and frens!

Deadliest finale

Woohoo~finally finished with my mock with lotsa screwed up papers.As expected,today's papers were screwed as usual especially the so called "easiest" Statistics 2 paper where I didn't study a shit but then still able to drop my ink on the answer sheet.Indeed,I was so disheartened by one of the mistake which is that I forgot to place a little "X" in front of the formula that applied thus error doesn't carry forward for your information.Once wrong,all wrong.There goes 9 freaking marks.The other one that I completely screwed up is Linear Comb.'s question which I forgot to revise O.o wOot! lol...

Econs was pretty screwed as well,1 data response question and follows on with 4 freaking essays due in 2 hrs and 15 mins. time.After finished my writing,my hand was obviously didn't belongs to mine anymore,just so pain...what an agony~

Whatever,finally it is over and A2 is awaiting ahead.ONce again buck up!

Eye lids damn heavy now as a result of sleepless for more than 24 hrs...dead beat!

Welcome to the panda family

Ahhhhhhhhhhhh!Just finished my tort law paper and it's worse than what I've encounter in P3.I can't really imagine that I actually crapped 2 problem questions!At first for nothing,I wrote 2 pages pointlessly full of err...craps instead of point.And the last one even worse,manage to fill up one page only(the deadliest part was no example of cases stated in my essay...got one la but then I got the intuition that definitely not the case that they wanted).Sei lor...gai lor...!

Can only able to score the 1st part essay question only despite I still don't have much confident in that also...tort was just so dead to me!Now my hope is all on contract!Like I said earlier,gotta forgo tort this time.

Tomorrow is the last day of my mock exam,but I'm having the toughest Econs 4 paper and the all-or-nothing Statistics 2 which both I haven't got the chance to lay my finger on yet!Econs 4 is definitely gonna gone with P3 and tort law...flunk at its worst *.*

Look at me,I can't even recognise myself in the mirror,all I could see is a big fat panda paranormally full of zits on its face which are the result of burning midnite oil on few consecutive days.Life's getting tougher and without this life's incomplete...I suppose so cos I'm not gonna give up easily and grumble about the hardship of living.I'm too young to talk about that...

My final aim for mock result will be,

Law : B
Econs : B
Maths : between C and B (high C or low B...)

If those are my actualy result then the total average of my complete A-Levels result will be all scored above credit (C)...which at least can fit into most of the university requirement and also ADP's credit exemption!Don't wish to go lower than that...or else I'll just bang my head against the toilet bowl and end the misery!Or follow my heart tells(or it could be fantasy only),go on to Switzerland or France to pursue a hotel management degree or learn to do french pastries and proceed on opening a patisserie of my own in future.Invent my own special dessert,be a 5 stars hotel pastry chef!!!Drean on~what an ambition!Sometimes I really admire those people that studying fashion design,graphic design and all other creativity-wise courses cos it's obviously what they're interested in unlike us academically-wise,don't come and tell me you like Econs,Law,Bio,Chem or bla bla very as you can't even apply it to real life.What you're learning is fucking shallow enough to hardly cover all your naivete only...just that you are trying to tell people that you may become a future successful person.So what does it implies?Elitist's thinking?Pui!Just go fuck yourself...cos you don't explore your interest but instead it's they that manipulate your ego.

Think deeper and you'll find your own sweet way~

People that couldn't think but rashly makes conclusion are merely a stickman or crab(aka brainless like my roommate).

PS:I'm so fed up with my roommate these days and ceased to talk to him nowadays due to his fuck up attitude.ONe fine day I shall destroy his speaker that constantly disturbing me whenever I wanna do revision on studies.That's why I finally realise that those who don't eat pork are fact torpid.That's their innate common cultural characteristic.It's meant to be there.How sad...

Snippets

Law paper 3 (contract) was quite ok despite there's one question that I nonchalantly crapped for 2 pages.That one pertaining to "Consideration"which I left out during my revision,DAMN!

And then the one about "Mistake" on contract was like just sufficient to feed only where answers are mostly vague and ambiguous as my thought was not very in well organised manner.So I just barely recalled what I know about that topic questioned.To take note that,this question came out exactly like the class test Mr. Raj gave us.100% of similarity,although he didn't tell us that was actually the mock question but then thanks to him I didn't give damn to that particular question and missed out one of the most important case again which I missed earlier...a major case under that branch "Shogun Finance's case".That I still remember that he told me to write about this case whenever encounter similar question,take my advice,pay heed to what your lecturer said cos they mean it!

Now,I'm having Law paper 4 (tort) for tomorrow and coincidentally it is MORNING paper.I'm so doom in tort all the while cos the textbook is like totally written in Greek(figuratively)...can't understand a shit also.

Feel like just concentrating on Statistics 2 and Econs 4...forgo tort!

One step closer to...grave

This is the first in my life as well(yea,I noe I got lotsa "1st" time :p)

I didn't even bother to study for my exam,my notion is that "mock only mah!"
Really,this time A2 we got really insufficient of time for preparation.The last week b4 mock we just finished Statistics' syllabus and Econs still left stranded in middle of nowhere.Confusing is what stirring beneath us.Before we even allow to sum up,tidy and organise all our knowledge,gallow is what we've seen in the next second in just a flicker of time.Yea,gallow in this context is obviously pointing at the exam hall.What else?I didn't sleep for the whole day since yesterday just to plow through chapters of Econs,although I gave up and resort to direct MCQ's papers memorising instead of mastering all of the theories and applications.Just memorise the past year MCQs hoping it all will come out but we saw none.SCREW IT!

Pure Maths. 3 is even funny in my very case.I took a forty wink of 2 hours until 6.30 am and bathe after that only to realise that it's already 7.30 am.Without wasting my time,I took out all my inorganise notes to flip through(I juz started and my P3 paper is 9 am!!!).In the end,I left out few easier topics which I can't be bothered much might be able to score if god bestow more time in a day for me.Complex number looks very easy,vector seems so basic and shallow only,partial fraction may look simple,trigo. questions not to complex afterall...but I guess these were illusion on the surface it seems.Partly(majority) is due to the lack of preparation of mine(totally left out complex no.,vector and numerical solution topics until 3 seconds b4 I enter the exam hall then only I realised,too bad too late T^T ).

Then later after Econs 3,went out for lunch with Dom,Eunique and Susan at IOI Puchong until 4 pm...walaoeh...thought of sleeping at first after my paper one cos it ended quite early but then juz bcos my stupid greediness that craving for food...tagged along to a few hours of joyride that diminished already-insufficient revision times(nop,I'm not blaming u all for the inducement,jus grieving over it and fell hard on the ground of guiltiness).

Pardon me LORD.

Speak of LORD,I'm having law papers on 2 consecutive days.Paper 3(contract) and Paper 4(tort) which I dun give a damn haven't open the textbook yet until now,let alone the chances of covering any of a single topic.So dead currently yet still so laid back and slacky!Damn...fuck wei!How ah???I'm so full now and again feel drowsy edi ~.~

I guess only overdose of caffein can keep me awake,thx for being my companion all along.If I ever success in future,Nescafe 3 in 1 sure the one who claims all the credits.The rests like Mr. Muruku Ikan,Ms. Cadbury,Mdm. Gardinier(correct spelling?-_-),M & M...and other unindentified local made candies.Sorry for the unmentionableness but you all really contribute a lot and most to my figure(physical and numerical) which I don't really look forward to.I wanna shed away all of you!!!

My gravity should be on my Law now,ciaoz -_-

Palmville ~crazy house party~

Courtesy of Eunique,Susan.DOminic,Dashni and Me(-_-)

Gin + Vodka + Beers + Cigarettes + Sakae + Homemade Cocktail + Korean Seaweed Rolls(Kim Bi) + Gyoza(aka dumpling) + great frens = crazy house party

Cheryll,Terence,Danial,Istiaque were there to join the so called crowd where we roared,yelled,toasted,drunked(not me this time),stripped,SM-ed???

haha...3 drunkards that gone berserk proclaim that they weren't...poor me gotta tortured by them *sobs*

Anyway,pleasure torturing was nice sometimes...(distinguished from Sadomasochism that has already came to ur mind b4 I finished my line!)

*smirk*

Have more fun la,Monday everyone shall die proudly and with dignity!We are all ready to flunk A2 mock!

Monday 1st paper is P3(toughest for me) and then Econs 3(stupid extra-tough MCQs that caused my AS econs got C only!)

Bring it on la~!

Palmville Resort Condominium for 49th Merdeka Day

I really feel very reluctant to announce this but then I have to say that this mock is no more a matter of A or not A but rather fail or pass only.How sad right?Firstly,we don't have proper study break unlike AS times to let us tidy and sum up our own revision instead of forcing ourselves to get up from the bed to college with heavy eyelids,meanwhile,doze off without giving damn to any of the lessons or so called revision given by lecturer voluntarily.If ever given a choice I rather reject this offer by studying on my own self in the library.Bah!Those lecturers just don't know what we want.Especially Mr. Raj.Still need to sit for test tomorrow!One word,"wah lao eh salute to him"! ---___---'''

This time I have really 0% confident.It's not what but then I feel extremely empty and unfamiliar to most of the topics taught so far.Even up until this level.It's like so disastrous and disheartened.Huhu...T^T Sorry daddy and mummy but I promise this won't be happened when it comes to the real A2.

Yesterday was Merdeka Day,everyone was like couldn't sit still but have to rush to all the pubs,clubs,countdown parades and so on to dip themselves into the fondue of patriotism spirit.But come to think of it,how shallow are all these people and particularly some ministers who criticised the unresponsive Merdeka mood of non-bumiputras who living in urban area.(*non-bumiputra in this context is actually referring to our own race which always get criticise on this kinda insignificant and bummer issue).Do you think just by echoing your campaign of patriotism we don't have any other practical ways but to desperately hitch up the Jalur Gemilang everywhere?Hey,Mat Rempit gang do hang up lotsa flags around their little and tiny "locomotive" which at the end of the day raging around creating unwanted havocs,snatch handbags,disturbing other road users,now we shall generously and officially call them a bunch of nationalist.Rage the city man!Our ministers will be more than appreciate to see people all gear up in national flags rather than thank those who giving off efforts and hardships behind the scene exclusively PRACTICAL in reality.Can we boost GDP growth by displaying national flags?Are we one step closer to a crime-less society with lotsa national flags around?Obviously,you and me have a definite answer in mind which we don't feel like dampen off their spirit but just swallow it and bear with it.One day,they'll realise their naivete and how social- misfit their passed thinking was...anyhow,fuck off and that's it.

Yea,back to the intended topic.Chef Dom(he wants us to call him that,forcefully) apparently has proven his marvellous culinary to us on Merdeka eve by cooking us a scrumptious 2 course dinner mainly bolognaise pasta and some not-se-well dressing unindentified potatoes snack which neither look like wedges nor fries.Somehow,they were yummilicious and overserved in portion until we have to pour them away(god bless us and purify our sins).Things that could not be less are alcohol,it goes without saying.Although we had only Korean Soju(courtesy of Susan),special brew and heineken.Coke as well la...and toasted all the way to Merdeka countdown.So we were supposed to visit some clubs again but then realised the situation out there wasn't that good especially road jam and so on,Dom was the first who ffk-ed us and then Vinodh and Samsul ditched us left me and Eunique in despair.

Finally,Cheryll was our saviour cos we didn't wanna go back at that hour,man,the night is still so young.We went to some awful mamak place in Lagoon Perdana then headed to cyber cafe for more excitement since our pleasure of clubbing had been spoilt.We signed in at around 2:30 am and signed off at around 5:30 am for only 8 bucks was like fucking cheap.I played O2 jam,CS and Need For Speed cos I don't like DOTA.I slept at Eunique's place again at 7 am and woke up at 11 am all thanks to Chef Dom!Damn...cos he wanted us to once again try out his culinary skill and this time is from breakfast right up to err...high tea?Campbell soup with french bread then later on omelette with hams,sausages and tomatoes.High tea we had honey baked chicken drumsticks,fried onion rings(where me and Susan risked our lives just to get the flour and so on) and deep fried pork ribs(-_-?).It seems like we had only all the greasy and oily foods.It's like been preparing for the whole day just to cook all these,haha.Nevertheless,we cleaned up the place together was like damn fun.Took some pictures but lazy to upload :p

Came back to condo at around 7 pm slept until 9:30 pm only.I was feeling a bit hungry only then to realise that today is public holiday,poolside cafe and people store weren't open at all *sobz* .Luckily I got cup noodles and apples.Don't feel like eating outside anyway,partly I'm lazy,and partly I wanna study tonight!DAMN~~~

Procratination is the thief of time.

I guess tomorrow we will be having a pre-Mock BBQ party at Palmville again.Where we need to prepare lotsa ingredients.So,as expected,0 time to study.

Here,look at me,I'm all-ready to flunk my mock,so guilty T^T

I'm drunk...(I think?)

Don't ask me what happen that day on Friday night!

I don't know whether I'm drunk or not but then please don't disclose those dirty secrets that came out from my dirty mouth...

Vinodh,Eunique,Susan,Dominic and Samsul!

Pledge your trust to me or else you all shall die horribly!

Photos are extremely prohibited as well!

"I'm not me that day..."

Whoever that wanna break the rules,"I know you hate me..."

hehe...momentous day in Thai Club although a bit too late and too less of time.

I was with Eunique yesterday watching EPL until almost dozed my ass off due to the poor performance of Arsenal...*yawn*

Ehe!This weekend guess what?I didnt study a shit at all!Congrats me for breaking my personal lifetime achieving record!

Woohoo~

*Pom-pon-ing and throws confettis along with drum rolls and trumpets playing victory songs*

Fucked up night!

I was sinisterly told by Eunique(I juz simply assume that la...) that we were supposed to go for shisha again last nite and unbeknownst to it,it turned out to be clubbing in total spontaneous mood(on Tuesday!Siao!).

I wasn't even prepare also as I'm wearing a washed out bermuda,tacky tee and casual flip flop...ONLY!But nonetheless,I managed to go in La Flam at Pyramid only lar....luckily not Q-bar!If not the bouncer might just throw me out,so fucking embarrassing to say!I break the record?!I didn't throw myself into dance pool also afterall cos I jus dun wan ppl to have queer look over my improper attire,damn lak seh!

But later we went for shisha though,and tried out the not-so-nice lemon flavour without mint!Yucky to say...taste like dish washer more!

Went back condo without having caught by the guard this time although I didn't obey to the curfew regulated but damn I fucking care cos I paid and they dun have right over my personal life and privacy,somerimes,not even my own parents are able to do that.*phew*

A season to .....

Problems and vexation...

I'm sitting alone couting down the days left to mock...apparently 13 more days only!

Progression on Law-(0%)
Progression on Econs(4 papers!)-(0%)
Progression on Pure Maths-(0%)
Progression in Statistics-(2%)

What am I suppose to do now?So laid back it seems!

A lotsa things happen around recently :(

But no doubt,mock and A2/AS are what most the thing that I'm worrying about.

Somebody please slap me hard at this point of time.What am I doing?Procrastinating?!

Supposed to finish off my Stats. homework yesterday but ended up hooking on shisha(so nice,mint + 2 apples flavour).I'd overlooked the curfew and stayed over in Eunique's place,crammed on a tiny bed...dozed off at 5 am I think.

Couldn't sleep,too tension and too much caffein (2 cigarettes,2 cuppa overdose coffees,shisha)...eyelids refused to reunite until the morning.

So dead like vampire today in class...brain saturated...saggy eyelids...heavy bones...jellied-legs!

Am I look like a person which soon going to sit for a life-n-death exam?Is it proper and adequate for me to potray a potential 'good grades' exam candidate in this way?

Fucked ans screwed everything up...

I'm gonna seriously work my ass off this time,dun ever come near to me until Nov. ends.

Rants Rants Rants!

Besides tiring,finally I got something to spice up my boring life recently *sad*

I've been hibernating in library to get bombarded by fountain of wisdoms(cave of nerds) for the past few days,damn tiring after all day long in library and come back still gotta face my inconsiderate roomie and his f up frens.I give up cos afterall I left around 3 months here!

And juz now that Andrew still called me and asked me to 1U eat Shogun Jap. buffet(a bit tempted-__-)but...wahlao...damn pokkai now...last few day went to eat BBQ plaza already cost me a bomb edi and after I got this phone then lagi no need to say...

I trade in my D500 for this Japanese flip phone by Sharp(802sh an old model but still very new to the market here which is impossible to find one here at any retail shops),it costs me for RM 650 only!D500 trade off for RM400 and I topped up RM 250 only but this is the 2nd hand package which only comes with a crude charger which u can find at Low Yat for only less than 20 bucks.It has some minor scratches but I don't care,all I care is the Video Call feature!And Maxis don't even support its firmware for MMS/GPRS currently which if I want then I need to flash it to Japan version with Kanji bilingual!!!But another 100 bucks....rather spare it for MMC/SD card in that case -_-...a lot of firmware problem exists also,bugs and some software defects *sobz*...SMS don't even have timestamp and date stamp,no MP3 ringtone,battery stamina sucks to max.(not even lasts for a day!),no handsfreeand mmc/sd card provided,Bluetooth incompatible with my lappie,1.1v only!!!Those are the defects so far la...but overall very nice..beggar can't be chooser afterall!The screen is like plasma screen man,damn fucking crystal clear and nice and detail and shining and wateva lah....!ONE thing,it is very UNIQUE and so JAPANESE!!!I'm so feel like i'm a ano-ne now!!!Japan,ichiban -_-...

And so,juz now while I was outside library chatting with Steph and Min Li while waiting for the rain to stop.3 random Korean tourists that came visit our college approached us and of cos we got to mingle along...so fun!The are all Uni. stidents in Seoul and they asked a lot details from us about Msia.Of cos la merdeka is coming,I have to show my patriotism and also be a good ambassador mah!Of cos the most important thing is not to make myself disgrace lah...who cares since they're so lovely and frenly(like 10 times better than those in our college,native Korean indeed friendlier I think...not that snobbish!).I then crapped a lot of stupid things to them like Korean Dramas,Korean Songs,Korean lingos,Korean foods,Korean soccer players...yada yada la...I wonder whether they got sicked by all my frivolous rants or not,huhu!cos they're so much older than us like 20++ edi.And their English commanding skill is really challenging for us to get to know what they're trying to convey.Anyhow,what a nice "random" faith for us.Susan is an exception cos she's NORTH Korean kkk!*smirks*

Clockwise from left : Park Won Woo,Kim In Sun,Kim Jin Ae,Me and Steph.

*did I mentioned that my phone got lousy camera capture quality althought the screen damn brilliant?got sien-ed by this again...but luckily my L1 can take fairly well quality(thx to Carl Zeiss!)

P/S:Finally I finished watching 1 litre of tears(a true life story about a girl that had this Spinal degeneration disease that is incurable,how she fights against all odds and persists her will,it's originated from a popular written book but translated into drama staring Erika Sawajiri*vy cute and pretty actress staring in Shinobi as well!*...).It has 10-11 episodes only and really every single episode will trigger ur perception and tears,like damn touching only!She died at the end though,sad.Oh,and the OST is very nice especiall Only Human by K,Konayuki/3gatsu9ka by Remioromen...they really sing with complete emotional and u can feel the sadness in it~Pray for the late Aya-chan~

Now I'm on the old "Kim Sam Soon" series which completely diff. atmos. from the one above,damn hilarious and amusing!

Cheers~

I can't believe this...

While I'm still enjoying all the delirious moment that I have before me...

A2 mock has already made itself visible in our little brain to the extent that it is only about 2 freaking weeks away!

How am I suppose to sit for the mock exam since I dun remember a single shit of what I've learnt in my mind,up 'till now!Especially Law,Econs,Statistics and some beginning topics of A2 pure maths,practically all lah!How ah!Law I'm so dead this time...resitting for Econs summore...gonna die further!Differential equation and integration/differentiation II...my current emo can clearly expressly by (T^T) ,none others!

Cham lor...

How?

2 weeks are extremely insufficient,not even have the time to do passed year papers,let alone REVISION!

This time all I can say is I'm dead,really dead!Probably u can't even find my corpse lying somewhere cos I've drowned myself in the sea of wisdom @.@

SyUC A-Levels Ball 2006 ~ever after~ @ Eastin Hotel

Us and Mrs. Hor(the director of A-levels),do I look like her?-_-

This is the first and the last that I can upload here,the rest all thanks to blogger and hostel's marvellous network that I couldn't be able to upload more than freaking 1!Luckily I smelled fishy so I chose the most classic,representative and significant one to upload at foremost (ceh...!)

Crash Boom Bang!

...I think I've been living with some primitive barbarians which totally dunno a shit about the ethical of using the DOOR!YOU!I'm mentioning about YOU here,yea,my fellow INDONESIAN housemates!Although you are from Indonesia which apparently a country which is more laggard and less civilise than us.But I believe since you can make your own sweet way to this place,I bet you should have certain amount of "conciousness" and "rationality" in the way that door is meant to close slowly but not bang as if it is made from mega-durable material k?

I damn tulan lor...sleep shiok shiok then you suddenly bang it until I got shocked and awaked from my sweet dream(which I assume that I dreamt of something nice but I forgot la!Dun ask...!).DOn't think that this whole unit is occupy by you few Indo. malaos only then you can overlook the existence of other housemates,talk loud loud in your own native language like no one busniness.Talk is ok don't yell like malao!That's what I couldn't figure out all the while why the hell that all the Indonesians(including gals) like to talk like Tarzan/Jane and the way they present their speeches are like firing off some high capability machine guns SIMULTANEOULY to its max. power...brabrapraprakrakragrogrogrocrapcrap*twists tongue motion*
...hell!Lower down your pitch and volume won't cause you even a single drop of blood also.Girls please behave lah...all dressed up,nice face,nice body once open the mouth...O~M~G~...all the guys within radius 5 km have to be evacuated.Just pull us off from the beautiful imagination of...........get to know you lah!

I used to misunderstand Korean as the rudest spoken language(in the sense of speech ,tone,and accent,strangely for unknown reason,they sound like profanities and "flowerish language")...means like scolding ppl lah!But now,Bahasa Indonesia is worse in my opinion!No offence here lah!Just my 20 cents,anyway,obviously I know you all are not scolding us and using any profanities.If I'm in your shoes,you could've tell me that Mandarin,dialects and Malay all sound like profanities and rude(accent).Anyway,mutuality and racial integration are what I've been upholding all the while but not globalization that manner.

So I'm pointing my finger towards a narrower circle of community which is just among my inconsiderate housemates.Please behave yourself and respect others regardless of their races and clans!

And one thing you all really make my blood boils beyond the boiling point.*diuniasengknnccbchauhai*

80 bucks went down the drain

All of us have been anticipated and eager about going to this "prom" ball eversince dunno when...

So yesterday after I took my slack from dry cleaning,I tagged along Steph's car to Kei's house in S16 which is adjacent to Eastin in S17 to do preparation.You noe la girls,spent like more than 2 hours to do make up,tidy up their dress,hairdo,accessories,rantings...so we reached there quite on time only to realise that the event almost started off where the V.I.P. had seated.So we didn't manage to take much photo outside at the lobby afterall.

We went in the ballroom has already full of crowd...all the Jan'05,March'05,July'05,Jan'06,March'06,July'06...*phew*...GUys dressed almost as the same since we don't have much enhancement or room to groom on our attire but girls are sort of easier to dress up themselves differently.SOme dressed vy simple but nice,some elegant but not too over,some too over but nice,some too over and not nice.Wonder how much they 'd spent on all these.Seems like Dashni is not the only one who will willing to fork a 2.5k for a gown.Maybe we were way too tacky too attend this kinda event.I don't really like it anyway.

Ok,now,the performances were pretty sucks besides we can be able to hear Ms Hor's suara yg "merdu",some F4 lecturers humming oldies which didn't make it,Mr Leonard Guitar solo,student bands(Lina was performing but so-so only).All in all,I felt so lame to watch those performances la...really couldn't appreciate their hardwork(did they even put in any effort to perform,all I saw were like performances which don't require much skill afterall).The presentation of July'05 student also couldn't pass thru the audition barrier.Celaka!

Talk about the most important thing for me,none other than food.It sucks again.We ate things which like those you can seen in Chinese wedding banquet.Typical Chinese food.Assorted snacks cold platter,Shark fins soup(yucks),Chicken,Sweet sour fish?!!,brocollis with some "min gan" and "fu pei"(tofu skin made),Fried Rice,Dessert...all taste like "da pai dong" lah!What can we expect as we paid 80 bucks to dine in Eastin.Fine dining?My ass lah!

I didn't eat much after the first 3 dishes as all of us were extremely busied with photo taking like mad...cos we rarely dressed up in so formal afterall.

Then after all the food had served.Some MDJ(members of SUkhi) blasted upbeat music to turn the place into clubbing dance floor,damn funny,I think Sukhi who was the one who jumped in the pool to heat the crowd.Then the scheduled ballroom dancing was forced to cancel due to the overwhelming crowd of club dance.Haha!But then clubbing without alcohol???!!!

And so we again continued our photo taking session outside the lobby and mingle for a while while waiting for the real clubbing next at the supposed Rush which is few steps away from us.But then Sukhi came out with a bad idea to go Bangsar(Castle) again which totally put us off cos he feels the cover charge plus open bottles charge too high but we don't mind afterall since Rush was not so crowded at that time and we were in a "high" mood to go there b4 all our mood faded out on the way to Bangsar cos some of them may be tired due to the inconvenience of their attire.Anyway,Sukhi and Co. are like grumbling all the way and condemning Rush,so we just had to compromise and made our way to Bangsar while waiting for his car to be fixed(jump start -_-) waited for hell long and we headed Bangsar only to find that Castle was packed...We were damn beat and potong steam edi,so just called it off(no more clubbing) and went back ss15 Gazebo to eat since we didn't eat much during the entire ball.Not to be left out,we smoked Sisha as well(damn fucking nicer than cigaretta and harmless to ur lung),got all sorta flavours!!!

I went back quite early like 2 something cos damn dead beat edi lah!No mood to do any further activities but usually I'm quite a nightingale except for today,maybe it was bcos of my lack of sleep from past few days.

Haiz,what a day!

Mood had swung from extremely high to the ground level all becos I'm tired and clubbing session cancelled out of lotsa uncompromisings.

PS:I took lotsa photos which lazy to upload.tee hee.Cos hostel network is lagged lah and stupid blogger's persisting photo uploading problems.

So dead but hoping everthing is fine

Law class is practically 3-man-stands now,Econs we are fortunately enough to remain in 7.So dead huh?!

For god's sake,the classes today went quite well especially law.We were all extraordinarily paying full attention where we usually don't.High concentration level,high absorption level.It changes to the atmosphere that we don't usually dip into.*sneers*

Anyhow,I tagged along with Steph. to Pyramid(again!).She wants to look for accessories that matched along her tube-gown.And so,we went round and round,one after another but only came to realise that they all look so "lala-ish" and cheapo.WoOt O.o.Indeed.Pyramid sucks nowadays maybe becos we've getting bored of it.Stuffs are all aunty-liked,lala-liked,cheapskate and not up to the quality...at least qualitywise,it has to be able to satisfy people like us which going for cheap stuffs but yet demand for high quality.Am I too sarcastic over that?I don't think so cos afterall Pyramid is meant to serve all the Arabs and Egyptians.Architecturally,the building tells all.

Basically,we lepak and do-nothing.What else could happen when a girl shopping?COsmetics,ornaments,bags,skincares,shoes,clothings...the list goes on.Sien.SORRY YA Steph!Tomorrow 1U k?I gotta buy something for the ball(again,I noe!) and also some odd stuffs which are inconvenient to disclose here :p

I came back at around 6.30 and immediately dragged my exhausted body to the stairs and what else?RUn and climb again as usual,it's a routine almost T^T which I feel like giving up but yet I can't.Sucks da big time!

Whatever,lotsa assignments and revisions are gesturing at me calling "come here come here".Feel like lighting the fire and put them in the flame,turn into ashes forever...along with my difficulties and vexations!Can ur head la...wake up!A2 T^T

Slog life away at studies is currently prior to everything else,I supposed so rite?

PS:Oh yea,I'm having very fitful sleep eversince I got my AS result.I dreamt of Soma last nite,it was like hell seriously but unfortunately I can't recall back any.Spooky enough huh?!What else can be worse than having your lecturer appeared before your sweet dream?I woke up in total mood breakdown I guess.Too much tension edi I think.RELAX la...*inhales-exhales 10000 times soothingly*

The Vicissitudes of Life(Single room wanted in Palmville Resort Condominium Bandar Sunway)

Ever since after the release of AS result,the whole A-Levels have never been in a good mood and atmosphere where no doubt those that got outstanding result are on their way celebrating for the victory and prepare for the next up challenge,A2.Well,there's always two sides to a coin,those that didn't do quite well in AS are now on massive struggling whether to resit,defer or change course,worse to worse,drop it and end the misery.For me I was told not to resit my Econs as my lecturer said might as well spend the effort on A2,it might just stand a chance to be able to push my grade up to B or even A if I work extremely hard(yea,like I said,till ass off!).To play safe,I think resit is better solution for me afterall they'll take into account on the best grade,no harm trying,just need to pay 250 bucks for one paper. T^T

Maths,Ms Wong seems like having no faith in me on A2 and she challenged me that if I ever got an A in A2,she's gonna treat me a meal.I'LL TAKE YOUR WORDS!!!Challenge is accepted.

Our currently small and tiny A1 class (consists only 9 persons) is gonna shrink once again ever since Faiz left,Riasat left.Now,Dominic,Sukhi,Samsul are on their way to defer to January '06 intake.Meanwhile,Isti has already left our July'05 intake to July'06's!So fast!

Argh!!!I wish all of us can get the grade we long for so that we can still all remain in this crazy and crappy July'05 A1 class.Apparently,only Steph,Kei,Susan,Me and Vinodh are confirm to remain.The rest are instable or made up their mind.Law class is gonna shrunk to 3 persons only.While Accounting left 4 and Econs left 5.How pathetic and sad rite?We got only 3 months ++ left to the end of this course and yet came this storm,swept us apart.*clinch fists*

Well the remain ones are none any better,Steph is upsetting about her parents decision to ask her to take ACCA where her own decision is to pursue a proper degree in twinning course or a local oversea's Uni. like Monash due to her "B" grade in Accounting.Kei cried in class today over her result and multitude of pressures suppress on her since the "iron lady" Ms Wong kept on telling her to defer where she doesn't even need to do that given her above average past performance,this AS in my 20 cents is just an once-and-for-all result for her.Me too I think T^T.Susan is worse,she moved out from hostel to stay over her friends place in Ridzuan temporarily and her friends gonna end the tenant contract with the landlord at the end of Oct.Initially,she thought she can stay there for a while while waiting for the completion of Dominic's new Condo in Jln. Ipoh on next month but now Dominic's deferring,of cos their timetable are not gonna fit to each other.Thus,inconvenient to rely on him anymore.Furthermore,she got scolded by parents this afternoon and cried as well.Homeless,bad result,tension,stress...poor thing!I wish I could help but all I can do is very little as I can try to look up a place for her in Palmville as she wanted for...or the most console her(practical action speaks louder than all the crappy consoling).Anyone,in SUNWAY UNIVERSITY COLLEGE OR MONASH UNIVERSITY,if you happen to see this post(I know the chances are extremely small since this blog does not even publicize).But then,since Rosyied can stumbled upon this blog to drop me a CHANCE to find Eunique a room previously,I hope the same will goes to Susan.

Kang Ju Jin,Susan(Korean female) currently looking for an ideal place to stay in Palmville Resort Condominium :

~Single room (preferrably not master bedroom)

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To those that leaving July'05 A1 to other intakes.Wish you all the best and study harder to achieve a good grade in order not to defer any further.The most important thing is not to forget the time we'd spent in class together through out this one year and a few months.Although it's short but hope the spirit will gonna keep on burning ceaselessly.May all the good elements be with you all,as well as us.

The greatest thing we'll gonna lose is the lameness,laid-backness,madness,crappiness,laughter we used to have with all of your presence in the class.Now the class seems to be extremely dull and quiet with less or maybe no more KECERIAAN.

Wish they can stay and remain until the end of this year where we can just finish up this super hard A-Levels altogether in a short.Leave without being nostalgic perhaps?

Bah!

It's so not my DAY(the judgement day for all the A-Levels candidates)

Finally and finally and finally...it came...with a disappointed outcome!

What can I expect more?Did I tried my best?Am I not born with it?What's my potential?

Yea...yea...lotsa questions but for god's sake,the answers are left unknown.My little notion of it is,I think I haven't try my very best yet so far.It's not that I don't want but I don't know how.You can say that I missed track on my life or maybe I'm hypocrite all the while pretending that I'm actually a studious person but in fact I'm not.It sucks when I'm being called NERD where I'm in fact NOT!So what if I look like one of them...?

Again,no means no and I don't wish to explain any further.Cos my terrible result tells it all!

Previously on mock ,

Economics : 70(B)
Law : 70(B)
Maths : 56(either C or D which I forgot all thx to Pure Maths part)

My actual AS ,

Economics : C (why?!!!)
Law : A
Maths : B

Aha!ABC what a descending grade...

OK,now I don't know whether I should classify it as an improvement or deterioration because it seems rather obscure to any evaluation as there's improvement as well as deterioration at the same time going simultaneously.

ANyway,C for Econs is really spirit dampening and potong steam!I expected to do better but with this grade I'm really fell hard which I'm most probably will gonna resit in no time to secure an "B" or above's grade.

For Maths,I really don't know because "B" seems like I'm still having some sesame chance to climb back on "A" in A2.But I know myself that I won't go any higher providing that P3/S2 are fucking hard which they can only pull my grade downward instead.So,I'm hoping I can do harder in A2 Maths so that overall can still maintain at the satisfactory grade,"B" or at least a credit will do.

Law,*sigh*this is the subject that I don't wish to get any better because I'm really afraid that my parents will like to ask me to pursue law degree in future which I'd gave up this hope long time ago ever since I've taken law in my Pre-U.It's damn hard to score,moreover,you are require to study like an ox(that's what the name of some FAMOUS university came from).Cambridge is just like a bridge across the hell...a Uni. for nerdy and those scholarly person definitely not me.And I'm still not that financially capable of gaining an entry into those.So this pseudo-grade of law won't makes me feel better off anyway.I rather get dinstinction in Econs or Maths...since I always feel that Maths and Econs are more useful/practical in their own way(they secure you a better and wider prospect).At least it's a more technical way than theoretical approach which you need to work very hard to apply those complicated theories and precedents.

Now,I'm so guilty that my parents didn't even condemn me up until now(after I told them my result).I feel worse.My mind is in total mess.A lot of my classmates are same as me and some even worse.Some of them we predicted will get all A's but then the result came out is of a difference of heaven and hell which I don't even know why!They don't deserve that bad.And some are like failed for their subjects and currently in total depressing mood.They brought Black Label and drank on the spot right after they knew their results.2 of them badly drunk and threw out cos they drunk themselves.Again,I feel sad.Today morning it rained and afternoon till now is permeating with very strong haze which really reflects our current mood.Classes were to call off due to the down mood of students.I think the conclusion I get is,we should work HARDER till our ass off to excel.Afterall,what else can we do except for that?If study is so easy then we won't need to be having such a hard time over it.IMAGINE,good thing does not comes easily!

Talk of the haze problem,it's getting worse here in Subang for unknown reason.PJ area is fine.Maybe it's worsen by the mining area construction sites around here which trigger lotsa dusts and smoke.Klang Valley is really a haze-trapped area unlike JB,we have at least sea breeze to sweep off dirty air.Argh!I don't think I can go down for jogging to day cos it will only shorten my life if I ever do that.Just think of it,we are forced to use polluted water and breathe in polluted air in Bdr. Sunway especially hostel.The water in JB is tonnnnnes more cleaner than here although JB is also a high population area like here.I can feel it with my hair and skin.The difference of using the water here and JB on hair is,it will causes lotsa damaged and dehydrated hair using the Sunway's water but JB one will moisturize your hair and you can even feel that your hair is full of volume and shiny unlike the dullness here...sucks the big time!

Bad result.Bad water.Bad air.Please tell me is there anything worthwhile for me to further my studies right at this place again?I'm afraid that I will just die here...

Whatever,no mood to blog any further now.I shall again cut down my time on doing all this pointless blogging to study,at least for the remaining few months ahead I shall be doing this.Whatever other than studies just leave it after A-Levels...have to be seriously buck-up this time!

Ganbatte..........................................very very ganbatte kudasai!!!!!AKIRAMENAIDE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

There's still hope if I work harder and harder and harder...

It's not the end~

*GOD BLESS ME FROM ANY BAD ELEMENTS*

I got Green!

I'm in JB now and going back tomorrow T^T...

I went to Redbox with Charles & BT immediately after I arrived,yea,we went for the BUFFET dinner!Celaka...u noe I stuffed myself how many plates of foods?I dun even have time to sing although the foods were not that nice but,dunno,I'm allured by the aroma and the colours reflected by those foods...shiny and juicy...succulent!*slurps* after a whole week of no meat and only organic supplements...T^T...next week I'll eat ONLY organic supplement and yogurt for the remaining 4 days!!!Cos I'm actually quite pleased that I lost 5 kgs in this week alone!!!How nice huh...!Dun wish to waste my effort oso...!Thanks...to my persistent will.I'm doing uZAP craizily now hoping to lose another 5 kgs overnight,possible?BELIEVE ME OK,those who are in doubt!

Anyway,I went to saloon today and dyed my hair...it's actually highlighted...in err....initially was planning to bleach and make it blondish but then I was amaxed that he can actually "enLIGHTEN" it in GREEN which don't even need to bleach(hair damaging!),so I made up my mind and decided to give it a try since I always assume tht green is the colour tht can bring me luck!Whoa...stunning and soooo ala visual rocks!But a bit over "(la)yeng" edi...-_-...I think.Somewhat,the colour resembles "lao tseh sai"(green and watery excrement) since I didn't cover up the faded "lala-ish" blonde layer with black at first.And then JEssica said it looks like algae!Potong steam punye org.Dun care la!

AS result---tomoro!!!prayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy...fcuk!!!!!!!!!!!It's already there,can't even change it rite?

PS:sis called back and told that 2 of her colleagues drowned by the sea but luckily saved by 6 caucasians which happened to sunbathe on the shores...both of them are now warded,and then,grandpa fell down and got injured on his legs and head again(2nd time for this year)imagine he's already in his 100's!omg esp now is the crucial Hungry Ghost Festival months...which especially lasts for 2 months this year(perhaps a leap year for HGF)*spooky*...mum is busying with offerings as well (x 2 this year)..."poh bi" everything runs smoothly la!Dun go out at nite,not even clubbing,who noes...

Shitty face + shitty hair colour of mine,do I lost weight?

I dyed mostly on the bottom rear part where my "tail" lies.But stupid Blogger is suffering from some "photo uploading" down problem for ages.So,only managed to upload the front part whoring.DASH UNDERSCORE DASH!

Retail Therapy(again...)

I went for slow walk in MV today all alone -_- ,so I take it as a form of diet la!I walked 4 hours non stop but still very energetic...dunno y and I dun feel like eating also!Aneroxia???Yes please...and stop at the rite time when I am around 60-70 kgs -_-

So by now,I realise that shopping alone can be very fun and nice.You dun have to worry about others thought,you dun have to accompany others to the shops that u dun like,you dun have to wait here and there,toilet...rest...while everything is under ur control...your own pace!Isn't it nice?

Oh yea,I saw one of the Malaysian Project Superstar(a reality show adopted from Sg shown on 8TV earlier) which is Xie4 Chen2 Wei3...that guy which also co-host one of the food hunting prog. "Ho Chak(delicious ala Hokkien)" with another girl in 8TV as well currently.Can recall?Anyway,he wore a thick black frame spec and leaning against the grip bar in front of MJ...then while I took a "non-secret" peep at him to double check his identity...he suddenly turned around and facing me and when he saw that I was looking at him he quickly turned backward facing me again as if scared I eat him or wat...c'mon lah...u think I wat?Fucking free issit like those idol-worshipping mui mui ah?Fuck off lah...u r not famous oso and ur hosting skill is as bad as my standard 1 classmates doing public speaking.Hell!Even I saw Amber Chia standing bside me at the cashier counter last time at TOUGH Times Sq. I also acted nonchalantly la...dun even wanna take photo wif her...jus stare at her high rise figure and admiring her...she smiled at me though *awwwwwww* bluek!

So now,tell me who r u to me and to all the national tv viewers?As trivial as particle of sands!U r lucky that someone gave u the chance to host that pointless and useless tv prog....I rather watch Tamil series than wasting time watching u.Nice foods will all turn bad as long as u describe them...I started to lose appetite once I see u,let alone the food!Pui!

Anyway,I spent like crazy just now in MV.I went to Topman(didnt buy any cos sick of it la...),FCUK(bought a super cheap basic tee for only 49.50),Izzue.com(bought a super cheap double layers tee for only 39.50),Esprit(bought a vintage button shirt that I've been eyeing for quite long 119.50),ZARA(bought a very nice worn-and-torn denim jeans for 129.90 only!),Guess(not impressive also,stingy discount nia!),3.6(didnt buy any cos sick of it as well)...lol!Like this can spent me 4 hours...time flies~

I went at 6 and came back at 10.30-_-with the feeling that my body is not belongs to mine anymore...legs turned jelly!FUlly exhausted...

Pocket dah berlubang now...gotta wait for August allowance edi!Not gonna shop anymore la...(I think la!)...gonna be thrifty and save money from now on until the end of my pre-U studies,keep for next year or end of this year Xmas sale -__-...no la...seriously this time.I went for 3 retail therapies edi so far,scared edi!Spent almost 1K on clothes O.o

I still kinda remember that my AS result gonna be out next monday(the unofficial release)...but I started to feel numb about it.Afterall whatever has done,has done!No point crying over spilt milk(I hope my milk is still all remaining in the cup)...anyway who doesn't want gooooood result?If it comes in handy,then what's the point of study so hard since everything is in the distance of a stone throw away...get a life.Look into the future and stop looking backward!

GET A LIFE~~~!

Yayay,goin back JB tmr!!!But coming back on Sunday perhaps with bad mood I think cos still I gotta face the reality the next day...Gah!Fucking care!

PS:FHM 100 hottest females beach party is gonna held in Sunway Lagoon!Surf Beach gala!11th of August and entry tic. only 10 bucks...but too bad lor...I got A-levels ball on the same day...celaka!If Jessica Alba coming,I fucking care the ball also...

Diet?!

Man,I went to the newly opened Jack's Place in Pyramid juz now.Well,u dun expect me to order dressing salad,caesar salad,organic salad in that kinda meat-based bistro.Of cos,I ordered their specialty,freaking GRILL COMBO with bacon,steak,chicken and freaking mashed potato with lotsa sour cream T^T...I wanna diet,pls dun allure me with nice foods anymore I beg you all.Anyway,I think that was my idea to eat at Jack's Place *pinches myself*...as Andrew is regular to that place and Angel(Pei Sun's hsemate) dun even noe about Jack's Place...lol...Oh yea,there are lotsa changes in Pyramid now,Chicken Buffet has shifted to lower ground and replaced by "Enter The Dragon"(the famous Xiao Long Bao u can found in One U next to err...sumwhere Chillis issit?called la1 mian4 xiao3 long2 bao1...),yay!And also a new barbeque restaurant beside Bread Story...!!!Fish & CO. chaplap edi,haha!Hope there will be Mdm Kwan and Bakerzin soon.TGI FRIDAY...!*drools*

Anyway,I'm feeling damn fucking sinful now for stuffing myself with meat during my crucial diet period.I'm a temp. vegetarian at this point of time,I supposed -_-.Nvm lah!I shall run few more rounds next time.Still got one week more to go by the way.I THINK I can la...( should be rite? ).

I can feel the difference of having meats and vegs down my stomach.Now my stomach kinda bloated and uncomfortable.However,if it's vegs. stomach will most prob. sunk in and growls non stop like thunder or butterflies flying inside.Celaka.I burp a lot now...and the gas taste like err...combination of the stupid sour cream + potatoes + meat...stinks,unlike vegs. I burp out air that smells like hmm...breezy wide field and garden with pleasant scent of flowers like those of lavender,camomile,vanilla...nice burp -_-

Hell!

I'm going back JB this weekend to get sumthing for the ball and meet my friends.Otherwise I got no time.How sad!So next week is the very extremely ultimately crucial part of my diet proceeding.The key point!I won't allow it to go down the drain at the end of the day...persistent and will always with me!*hush*

Hungry?

f*off can?

I DUN FUCKING GIVE DAMN ANYMORE!

FUCK OFF U PPL!

PUCK OFF 4 MORE DAYS TO AS RESULT!

FUCK OFF ALEVELS BALL!

FUCK OFF YOU HYPOCRITES!

FUCK OFF ASSIGNMENTS AND TEST!

FUCK OFF DIET!

FUCK OFF LAW AND P.MATHS!

FUCK OFF A2!

FUCK OFF HOSTEL MANAGEMENT!

FUCK OFF....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*Oops*

PS:It's purely on the ground of venting some angers.No intention to trigger any provocation.