Prom night sucks, college sucks

Hi.

Today I am gonna present you my usual screw-the-test rant (point of anger 1). So I screwed BIO test 2, this time is literally screwed because 1 1/2 hours were seriously not enough to flip through the pages of questions. My lecturer damn pandai one, she curi all the questions, copy-paste from OCR Cambridge Examination board aka A-levels, tadah, what a way for patchwork plagiarizm. I don't see a reason why rules only apply to students most of the time and lecturers can just get away scot free. Anything, whatever. The crucial thing is she shrunk our test time from 2 hours to 1 1/2 hours. This is unfair and to make thing sounds worse, she had the guts to come in late for class some more! What the fuck. As a result, I was unable to finish a subquestion that cost 6 marks. Fuck the what. And various other questions that muddled over as time was tickling fast, apparently her watch seems to run faster than anyone else on this planet *roll eyes*. Luckily it is only a 15% out of total assessment. But still, I'm not that kinda person who will leave blank in questions eventhough I know shits about them. That sounds like a total loser who don't give in their best to at least pen down nonsense, yes I'm talking about the effort to write at least something out of nothing so that you'll know the probability of getting zero won't be one at the end of the day. This is not even all or nothing, odd marks do help sometimes in upgrading dreadful marginal grade. Pfffftt. Naff said. I'm still left with final exam to hope for. Not the end yet. Anyways, most gruesome one is ahead on this Friday, Stats test 2, lotsa things to recall from A2 Statistics which sad to say, my short term memory has had them all. Damn, why didn't anyone tell me that knowledge is cytocidic?

Point of anger 2 : I know next semester is gonna be short semester but why can't they just offer BIO 122 for fuck's sake? I see CHM 152, PHY 212 but none for BIO 122. College has never ever hit the wrong spot of frustration, now I'll waste away my 2nd short semester doing trashy humaninites/fine arts/social sciences instead of anything else that is productive like BIO 122 or Orgo. You might be asking why didn't I consult and whine before advisors or programme director as we had already like paid them to make use of their services, that is one hell thing to say, I've talked to them all and the most they could do was asking me to terima hakikat or take a 3 months semester break altogether until January. Go kiss my foot la! I'll prolly bite the dust and take Orgo at the States knowing that my college does not put their greatest interest on students but hard cash. Had I know that the rival college with initial "T" butt on us will get me there faster, I won't be wasting anymore of my limited salad days away over here doing things like Politics, History, Anthropology, etc. Well, oh well...too late for anything. 1 more year to hold up.

Point of anger 3 : Jason smudged cream on one of my turgid purulent zit wounds that resulted from burning midnight oil and that bugger blossomed into bigger colonial now! I can't squeeze it anymore as it is out of pus. Ew. I dislike playing with birthday cake especially the idea of smacking cream right into people face. As you know, cream = oil and they can clog up pores. But thou shalt be pardoned afterall it's your day, welcome to club 21.

**********Me and PK

Me and Qian Ning

Me and Si Xuan

Me and my boss

Table 13, I don't like this number.

Candid shot. I got accused of "pok mong" by Michelle when I accidentally tripped and my hand collide with her pelvic arch in this very photo above. Bummer.

Group shot. Our grandmaster of the play, Yat Lei got buried behind.

The venue of the ball was same as SyUC's A-levels ball I attended last time which is famous for their Yang Chow Fried Rice. Other than that, the food was pretty mediocre only la or below average. Very normal banquet dishes. Nothing to shout about. After the ball ended around 11.30 am-ish, my boss chio us to Genting, and so we went and reached there around 3 am-ish to relish the breeze. Lepak a bit then went back at 6 am-ish. Reach home at 8 am-ish! Whole night...if only my passion for revision can be that persistent also :s

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Do you have the slightest idea of who is this person?

Tee hee...

It's the protoype of my "daugther" crossbreed between the "best" traits of me and Avril Lavigne unabashedly!!! I don'tknow but I think it's beyond perfection :p

I'm gonna name her Liz Lyndon Lavigne II.

No condom no sex

Bagged home 4 complimentary condoms today courtesy of Durex and Mass Comm. Society. But then, the educational talk was kinda bored with statistics after statistics except for that part where she taught us how to wear a male condom and female condom in the right way. And I don't understand what was there to giggle when they were nothing funny to even begin with, budak kecik, obviously they need more lessons, I mean LIFE lessons. Does it ring a bell?

All in all, they are all cumbersome procedures, IMHO, just save all the hassles. Practice abstinence, don't have sex. It's so sick to see how many babies have became statistics. Thanks to their sainted devil-may-care parents who cared so much for dumping them at some filthy places be them alive or not to further decomposed into soil nutrient for those who can't withstand and in the end their presence will be statistically acknowledged. So you will be wondering, that's all for it?

NO.

To think everything coming along in future will outbid the humiliation they would have gotten otherwise. Well I say, they have been greatly humiliated the moment they have sex unprepared cos they just sinfully drown out by temporary highs. Hello, what happened to responsibility and love we've been fussing about? Do you think a person who dumped their flesh and blood deserve for reciprocal love or unconditional love from society? Shouldn't we just fire a murder charge against these people and send them up gallow for good cos they are more often than not, truly aware of their mens rea? If they can take up the pleasure why can't they face the consequence as well? Wusses! Let's just say, what about perform orally or self-stimulate if anyone of you are just so not ready to take up the burden yet?

Now, a round of applause will be appreciated. Kthx.

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Lubricated condoms and the @-@

This is not a chemitry lab report kthx

I'm obsessed with sugar cos sweet things basically jolly up fucked mood.

And the best thing is it's relatively cheap and aphrodisiac, diabetic, anti-depressant...

Aside from risking my life from diabetes, obesity, hyperactive, hypertonic, hypertension,hyperbola and whatever, you know I can't be bothered when it comes to things that to be tucked into, swallow, digest, excrete, repeat the cycle either until you died, having constipation or whatnot.

Ok ok...the point is, I tried to do caramel apple ice cream few days ago without correct ingredients but at least those that I had were not remotely far. Such as,

1. brown sugar instead of white sugar ,man, white sugar is super diabetic if you didn't already know.

2. creamer instead of whipping cream

3. fuji apples, don't use royal gala cos you will most likely ended up eating apple crumble or mashed apple which taste like teflon

4. cinnamon

5. dry gin

6. perseverance, perpetually burning passion and a functioning non stick pan to prevent your wok or lousy pan got sugarcoated like kena galvanized

So it's very simple and easy in fact like how we fry scramble eggs or cook that bowl of to-die-for Indo-mee *yums*. Anyways,

1. Pour approx. 100g of sugar into a dry non stick pan.

2. Agitate those sugars if you are impatient breed like me who refuse to stone there whilst waiting for them to melt and incinerate into caramel.

3. Once sugar melted and caramelized, immediately add creamer/whipping cream into caramel and stir as vigorous as you can, so to say, get rid of your flabby arms.

4. Whilst stirring the mixture, add in slices of apples into the pan and fry them slowly until you think it's close to burning.

5. You are more than allowed to add cinnamon and alcohol additionally, but advice is not to add dry gin (my 2nd attempt failed and the caramel apple tasted like 20% ethanol in chemistry lab!), you've been warned. It depends on your personal preference, rum, orange liquor, kahlua, bailey OR wine are most welcomed to spike 'em up.

6. Let them simmer for about 1 minute and voila, MUST eat with vanilla flavour ice cream in order to retain its authenticity.


Feedback : Mine tasted like McD's apple pie filling but not up to patisserie's standard yet. So I guess it's not so screwed la and CONFIRM edible.

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Close up. Eh don't lick your screen ok?

Chef's note : TRY AT YOUR OWN RISK.

UPDATE : Suzanne commented that the caramel apple looks like a pile of *something*. I'm hurt :(

The Day

Fucking landlord was trying to wake me up from slumber on a wonderful Saturday again. Tell me that bugger's not retarded or what to knock my door at 9 freaking a.m. YES A.M., ANTE MERIDIEM! So I decided to ignore and zonked out into lalaland again. All was great until the second time he came knocking again at 11 a.m. and this time I opened the door showing him my pasty and tulan face in order to tunjuk perasaan. So he felt something wrong with my manifesto and pleased me back to sleep. Asshole. I'm not interested in house meeting unless food is provided or what but no. Maybe I'll consider if it's after 12, ANTE MERIDIEM. Told you I'm nocturnal.

I swear if he ever fuck me up from my sleep again in future, I'll hang him upside down with his head in toilet bowl whilst flushing all our excretions into his oesophagus. Mercilessly, thank you.

Good, so I couldn't resume my sleep after that, mood was fucked up. So I prepared myself to meet up with my BFF, Stephanie for she'll be leaving for Oz in 2 weeks time :(((

I was supposed to meet her in Inti-UC at 2-3pm but my luck had got the better of me since I opted out college bus due to the incapability of waking up at 6 in the morning cos remember my initial plan was to work for i-challenge which I didn't in the end. Boarded the wrong bus (kudos to this company called Airport Liner which I don't know shit about) and voila, took a detour to KLIA and LCCT. Sainted! I swear I got the urge to kill myself on the bus when I saw lotsa hangars and runways appeared around me. Cos it was obviously so wrong for there won't be such buildings being erected from Nilai, the nearest municipal from Nilai is Sepang. Bordering side by side under different constituencies and states! So dumbfucked. It took me a good extra 2 hours. 2. Two. Dua. Er. Ni to reach Inti-UC! There's no way I could recognise all the roads in spiral to KLIA and LCCT cos I hardly go there FFS. The last time I went there was last year for DJ Tiesto rave party at F1 circuit. Cos KLIA is really built pointless for JB-ians, we prioritise Changi International Airport in any case due to the proximity. 1 hour vs. 4 hours journey away. You do the calculations la.

ANYWAYS. I reached Inti-UC eventually around 2 hours after our appointed time and managed to catch up with Steph. for 1 hour plus cos she looked weary after her sleepless day the day before and her final paper. Gossiped a little bit then bade her goodbye with hugs. Can't believe everyone's leaving and time really flies. Everything seems like yesterday where we used to hang out 24/7 kapsiao-ing in THOL, One U, house partying, clubbing and shopping together-gether every week. Le sigh. Whatever it is, take care and bon voyage darling!

Dom. just had his MRI scanning a while ago, we are all so worry about the outcome. Hopefully it's nothing pertaining to brain, spine, ortho-insert jargon* and neuro-insert jargon*. He was so rummy cos he called me to announce that he's dying. I was completely startled. Didn't know to laugh or to send him my deepest condolence (which is kinda inappropriate haha) but nonetheless I laughed all the way still and poked the fun outta him to cheer him up. So later he came and look for me with DD tagging along. So qiut! But then I spotted some rashes blossom on my chin this morning which I credit to what DD did to me last night from all his lickings!

And I'm going back home next week!!! So ridicuously happy can!!! It's been few months I never went back already. Thanks to the cropped out of ON and all. Gonna catch up with my kkl and bff Cheryll so badly. Then at the same time need to discuss some university matters with the parents as well. I've narrowed down my university choices to two which they are not only possible for my result and ability to gain admission but they are prestigious yet affordable too! Both are in the same state under same governing body. So by the end of this semester my study plan will be smooth sailing and more distinct. What a great relief since I don't need fucking physics in my curriculum. I never was a physics kinda person cos they are rigid, stiff, cold, hard, emotionless and stoic compared to Chemistry and Biology which are more fun. No offence to physics enthusiasts but I kinda think that engineering and IT major students are boring since they deal with lifeless things like machines and computers. Or at least not my forte la...ok? In case some of you already start cursing me behind for leaving this stereotyping remark.

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Steph. and me at Ruums circa 2006. I know what you gonna comment on my look so STFU.

i-Nnovation

Can your lighter play music?

Can your sharpener play music?

Can your bottle play music?

Well mine CAN cos i have i-Lighter, i-Sharpener and i-Bottle

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i-Phone!

i've got everything that you don't have, therefore i am happy!

Sorry but it's homemade cos you gotta pay more for state-of-the-art's.

Stolen MCH!

My pair of sport sneaker which I worn for too much got stolen this morning/yesterday night! Although I got it from someone else that I didn't pay for it but it's still a rare version of Nike Shox! (estimated "loss" = around RM 350-400)

:(((

So much for staying in a guarded condominium hor.

Is it another sign of driving me out of this place?

Actually it's partly my landlord's fault also if you were in my shoes (pun not intended) but he just told me to take it as a NOT COSTLY lesson in rather nonchalant tone. Well I say.......





















FUCK HIM MCH!

(MCH = ma chau hai)

p/s : time to shop for a new pair of serious sport sneaker that doesn't smell like rotten fish :)))

Orientation Nite post-post

I think these are the most I can post as of now because if I post too much photos of myself my committee members will surely sound me for makan ular (which I didn't). Haha. See the connection or not?!

Kennard's band performance which I think he overly engrossed in his own playing. Blink 182 and heavy dose of pop rock simply not my forte.

We got Inti guards to protect us leh, and spot Juliet's double chins at the corner or not?

The crowd, quite a lot of people came considering the fact that the entire student population of ICSJ is only 2K plus. A world No. 1 champion Yo-Yo player from Japan was swinging her Yo-Yo at the runway on above pic.

Yan Ming's band performance. Ma ma dei only but Samuel's drumming skill is really second to none. Spot me and my miserable look at far right corner behind the board? Haha. I'm one of the men behind the success story of ON. Low profile is the way don't you agree?

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Actually, I'm not really present in most of the photos taken that night (except for those taken accidentally, hogging actions and group photos) simply because I was extremely busy with my stuffs. Never eaten for whole day and never sat down for one whole day lo. Have to bear with the aftermath of afternoon incidence summore, remember my previous post about the unexpected storm that swept away everything?

Le sigh. A memorable night without photos to commemorate is just like body without soul, banana without skin :((

Honestly, I've noticed that I've written a lot of insensible remarks along the way of organizing this event. I swear I was so close to giving up but nonetheless I stemmed the tide. The moral of the story is jangan mudah putus asa! But being whiny a bit no harm right? You know my character la...

How MYOB people communicate these days

Yellow circle = Landlord's

Green circle = housemate's

Red circle = moi

This is how busy people communicate nowadays. Skipping the need of chancing into each other'spoker faces. The whiteboard has legitimately became a medium of forum. Anyways, what happened is, I have this couple housemates who apparently think that me and another male housemate violated the proper toilet manners in the sense that we did not take good care of the common toilet hygiene which eventually emitted displeasing smell. So she (her partner is English illiterate) decided to put down some remarks on the notice board. Well, normally I would just ignore because ignorance is bliss afterall and I'm pretty confident that I've always come in clean hands. But this time around, I felt that I should rebuke to obtain greater self-preservation.

She complains that we treated them like maids as if we do not even bother to take care of the cleanliness of the place like they do, AT ALL. Sainted cow, like they are the God of Cleanliness who don't use the toilet at all. Blame us for the smell? What? To think that their shits smell like strawberries is it? And ours smell like.....yea shit. Ma De. You just read through those words in green circle and you'll get what I mean. Then, I reverted in that stick-on note in 3 topic sentences (duh!) for there are no more spaces to write on that board, in a rather diplomatic and polite way like how I usually do (yea right).

Point no. 1 - "By doing some simple house chores don't make you sound like maid."
Point no. 2 - "Each of us do our parts to uphold cleanliness in our house. We need to put up with unpleasant things as well but more often than not, we try to close-one-eye for we are peace loving people."
Point no. 3 - "What makes you think that we've been treated you as maid since we don't pay you for that? As a matter of fact, we are merely carrying out our responsibilities as a responsible and sensitive tenants by keeping the place clean."

I posted the note quite late so I bet those persons in matter had already long gone in slumber but my landlord actually saw them. So he replied (in yellow circle) with some witty solutions,

1. We can pay other housemates to clean the toilet at discretion if we agree upon that.
2. Those who can't tolerate can rent his master bedroom that came attached with a bathroom itself.
3. Accept that renting with sharing bathroom is not bad actually as bathrooms don't smell like flowers because shit goes there but it shouldn't smell like shits. (Haha)

And he is ready to call for a tenants-landlord meeting soon to further discuss the matter. In fact, I'm crossing my fingers anticipating it. Can't wait to see how will this conference turn out to be like. Prolly an ultimate showdown for all of us? Who cares. I still love where I'm staying now. They can jolly well move their arses out for all I care if they felt vexed. Seriously, what makes them think I should be friendly?

So many cb people recently.

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*Update*

"boys must point their genitals at the bowl accurately whenever they intend to relieve themselves but girls can spill their pee everywhere because girl pee smell like lavender..." (Ely, 2008)

(This quote can only be understood after my clever embellishment cos her Engrand is too powderful.)

My solution for this whole toilet brouhaha is shown on the below photo.

Lo and behold...

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Now the toilet will smell like flowers as their wish. Everyone will be happy like bubbles. And no need to remind me of how awesome I am (cos I know I am) to sacrifice personal belonging(s) for common use not like those cb selfish species. See, I'm not even close to hostile yet, I can still be friendly.

So please STFU kthxbai.

Orientation Nite pre-post

I'm so smelly now, so I decided to blog.

It's been so long since the last I had the whole Saturday entirely to myself without thinking what to do in advance. Could be post-ON syndrome but I was supposed to sleep at least 8 hours since yesterday night I came back all thanks to my fucking landlord who did some house maintainence job of all day but this Saturday on 10 a.m. to interrupt my eonian sleep 'till I feel like I wanna wake up! I was already like ants on boiling pot when I came back due to the stupid water rationing which will never happens in my lovely hometown EVER in my past 20 years of life. Syabas or PUAS or whatever it is sure got a long way for improvement. Subang itself was worse enough, ample times in a month. Good to know that Kelana is nothing better in that sense now.

Alritey, where was I? Yea, I haven't bathed for 2 days, as yet! Niamah. I came home around 5 freaking a.m. last night and thought of having an imaginary hot bath (bah...my rented place doesn't equip with water heater) then dissolve all the weariness and frustrations into a good slumber party but NO, the fucking nozzle dispersed droplets only instead of a strong downpour! Wah piang jialat. Now I have to tell you why is it THAT jialat instead of "alritey, can't be bothered, just sleep the night over".

And so the story goes...happily (not) done with my STA 219 test although (what's done is done la, the paper fucking screwed me right up) I didn't bother to study the night before as I came home from ON's preparation quite late, decided to wake up to burn midnight oil but dengan izin tuhan I managed to wake up 2 hours after the alarm rang, 2 more hours of god gave sleeping hours, how nice! Went straight to college after that, plowed through the notes 1 hour before the test cos I spent another 1 more hour kapsiao with members at booth. So yea, I'M SO DONE WITH IT and I HATE probability, permutation and combination, you know I tend to have tendency of not getting the right answer upon first solving and I need to refer to an actual answer else I will totally burnt the whole paper, and so it was a test, so no answers provided, thus BURN 'em all!!! T.T

I need to sign in for duty immediately after done with test. Running up and down for the stage set up, equipment settings, PA, brief my helpers and so forth are some of my duty scopes. It was all sunshiny and glaring like never before 'till a sudden storm came washing away all loosely rooted things in sight including our PA + lighting control canopy (finally I know what does lull before the storm implies!) Sainted mother, below the canopy was sets of equipment worth all your mothers' lives! Heck, we risked all our mothers' lives to protect those equipments from thunder/lightning and rain water. The whole canopy practically parachuted from crosswind and we had already tried all our best to keep them under shelter, beefed up the roller (yes, that freaking canopy is portable with 4 rollers that functioned at wrong time). Le Sigh. We then requested to dry up at hostel but I didn't tag along for I still have stuffs to do like execute the back up plan immediately. It was crazy. That was like the 2nd time I encountered such massive storm in Subang, the first was even worse which happened 2 years back when I was in Sunway, I could see rain water splattered on the classroom door with the fact that SyUC has few feet elongated corridor that elevating floors up plus a further extented roof-over-head which able to isolate us afar from rain or tornadoes. Then when the class ended, all I saw was debris.

Anyways, it's kinda pointless to mention all the bitterness now since it's already a yesterday's event. But I can't be happier lor, at least I didn't mess up the whole event despite I didn't get the N77, JW Marriott dining voucher and Air Ticket to KK, yes we had lucky draw as well. I don't think there will be any audience per se given that no attractive lucky draw prizes promised beforehand. People bought tickets for charity? My ass la. All mankinds are greedy. Me = no exception.

Back to the point of the story, I couldn't care less to get changed after being drenched cats and dogs witnessing how by-stander effect was put into effect. Bravo us who braved the storm! Give us a standing ovation please. The I changed into a new club tee eventually but my bottom over garment and under garment proceeded to dry on their own 'till I got home at 5 a.m. I'm sorry if it disgusts you but I swear I was on the verge of killing myself either. A whole day of torturous endurance seriously did no good to me. Again, wouldn't you feel like skipping the need of elevator and dash out of the window (if you're staying in high rise condo like me) right away at the moment when you get only 2 miserable droplets out of the tap knowing that it's already on full blast? Roll yourself into my smelly shoes and think.

Gosh, now that the air in my room keeps permeating some unidentified smell...which I think the source is none other than *points to myself*...vroommmmmm, time to wash out and dwell the toilet for hours.

Adios.

p/s : Billion thanks to all ON commitees! You know who you are. Hope we'll retrieve our 2 MIA walkie talkies by next week or else I'll be nailed nicely. T.T

700th - Curi Ayam

Can you believe this?

ON akan menjadi nyata in 2 more days!

Can't say I'm totally smitten but heck, time really flies huh!

I swear, to organize this event is 100x stressful than having History test in Borges' class.

We just had a partial rehearsal until around 10pm back in college just now.

Expectedly, I will get from them during post mortem. Some seniors and even advisor had already warned. I don't think I will wanna go but I don't wanna be called a chicken either. Haih. But well, the event is yet to happen, I shouldn't felt defeated and all. I need to cope with it during that night cos I'll be HELLISHLY busy like bees on fire. Hopefully I'll get a bunch of efficient helpers. 'Else just die only lar.

Statistics test on this coming Friday (mayhem, clashing with ON). It's a sad case also. Damn excruciating to multitask for weeks already. Don't ask me how much have I studied cos you know the answer will surely be "n" initial. If only time can be purchased at a nearby 7-11 afterall it's a store and more -_-. Hallelujah kthxbai.

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Snippets of College Day at Inti UC

Howdy~there's a rodeo!

I apologize on behalf of our kindergardencollege for putting up an infantile banner that didn't reflect the average age group of college's population. I think they hired some retards to paint it. Le sigh.

Sumo wrestling, pay to wrestle or be wrestled. Good source of emotional outlet if you encounter some cock sucking dickheads in life of late.

Qian Ning and Ah Sim who will be leaving for Montana this fall! I think they burnt that pot of spaghetti after this shot.

Us in really chippy looking bandana. And I've totally no idea why mine looks espcecially like those of China maiden coolie who came mencari rezeki at Malaya during war times ala 河水山. Yea I know my GAP tee has been worn too many times, no $ for retail therapy, obviously.

Spiritually Voided

At times, this club really makes me feel dumb. Imagine your class finished at 12pm and you could've went home or up to another delightful event but NO, you've waited like stone for 5 hours straight only to find out that they DIDN'T really need you afterall. Really hempas tulang tak berbalas jasa mia orang. Now you tell me what's the point of having committee dance? Something's really wrong here that they've totally drifted away from what we are supposed to do. Still remember of organising event? Or you just wanna shake that bon bon? I was wandering around whole day awaiting for order from the certain someone who was supposed to assign task for me but he preferred to dance his acidic ass away and put me on hold. Fine. Insyaallah, then I waited...so in the mean time I did some odd jobs for publicity department. Finally, they came and told me I could go home if I wanted to, I was so mortified that they did not even appreciate a tiny bit of me ritually killing my revision time for donkey stuffs that were, PUNY over them? Can you see my dilemma already? When I don't stayback which I usually don't, they will start bombard me with sarcastic remarks and go around with those conspiracies. So what's the purpose of staying back and not? I'm not gonna be better off in any case. Might as well go home, go gym, talk to walls, eat sands, and spend quality time on my own? The fact is I only live once and there goes few more extra hours in my life. Please don't tell me how important I am to you all when I am not, I may be, virtually. The fact that I am important is that I consume whatever that is leftover and not needed by anybody. Does it sounds familiar? You slimes. I'm really not into those nonsense oomphs and confidence boosting, when I realised that I'm not being fully utilized for any reasons, then I am not, not up to you to tell me how you should use me that you are actually not then demand for whatever dumb made reasons when I can't produce what you expect me to do because that is how I should react. No matter how much catalyst you've dumped into a chemical reaction that is deprived of sufficient amount of reactant, the amount of product yielded is not gonna increase per se. Again, don't remind me how Important I am only when you need my help and push away all the unwanted responsibilities that are too heavy for your brittle shoulder to bear on me. I ain't unsighted, I have eyes remember? Now sorry to say that you really need to kiss my ass for this time.

On a brighter note, my BFF from Arizona buzzed me up a while ago while I was on my way home. At first I was very skeptical when I saw some unknown Johor's cellphone number but upon picking it up I heard a pair of familiar voice in Mandarin from the other end (that she usually don't) but yet I couldn't recognise at all haha, then when that voice turned into English speaking, I WAS TOTALLY OFF MY FEET! It was her! She's back 1 month earlier than the scheduled date but she wants to remain low profile in the mean time and I'm the first one she informed haha. So sweet. Can't wait to go back JB and hang around.

Speaking of going back JB, my time is effing packed now. I'm up for college day's food fair this week, test on next Monday and Friday, ON on next Friday, rehearsal on next week, sponsorship booth set up on next week, Japan GT next Sunday, i-Challenge on next next week, meet up with Stephanie on next next next week for she's going to Oz in few weeks time and lastly, prom night on next next next next week. So I'm occupied for every weekends ahead from now on and can't go back until Inti Ball's over. :(

On an irrelevant note, I wanna congratulate PK for finding her happiness once again, hope you can brave through this 3 months and make full use of it. Go ahead when you've made up your mind and don't hesitate to move on. At least you know he is not that kinda asshole shit eating twat species that you need to hate when it's all over like you-know-who. Mot pour amoureux!

I need to force myself to bed before 12 today for I have college day to attend tomorrow at Nilai! Have to be at ICSJ around 5 am prior to the departure to Inti UC. Tell me that's not too crazy to start off a wonderfully hectic Saturday, will you?

P(Becomes zombie tomorrow) = 0.998
E(X) = 0.998

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A piece of non halal scribble from yours truly.

Can see or not, the picture is pixelated! Something I really don't like about JPEG files. Pfft.

Vintage rarara...

Just when I thought I've hit the bottleneck. Fishie already separuh in limbo (1 roll film only), FZ1 recorded less than 500 shuttles already kumpul habuk and DSLR pun belum rasa hangat sudah berdingin.

Then I see light in me again, although I've been eyeing on L-CA or L-CA+ since forever but some stupid union just decided to jack up the price just like fuel and rice hikes back home for 100%. Yea can you imagine just because of some dumbass Austrians rediscovered the wonder in low quality toy cam and striked a fortune doesn't mean they can single handedly monopolize a range of products lo! L-CA is like sooooo wonderful a camera. But heck the official price is RM 1.2k compared to eBay's 50 USD. In case you don't already know, L-CA is the epitome of lomo cameras, a legendary one originated from St. Petersburg, Russia (formerly USSR). However, after the collapse of USSR or something, they discontinued it until recently they revive the production by adding a "+" called L-CA+ (Lomo-Compact Automat Plus) with the exception that the glass lens are made in China instead of Russia. Oh well, not like I care as long as I have one, whichever will do.

Alright, in order to find a temporary replacement for L-CA, I came across Lomo Smena 8M and FED 5C which I chose the latter for it is a imitation version of some Leica screw mounted camera that supposed to cost like 3000 USD. But with the much (MUCH) more lower price I paid for FED 5C I get to enjoy certain Leica's features (that yet to be discovered). So yea, this USSR made vintage camera has enlightened me and brought me a whole new chapter of fun. Although it's a little bit too chunky and heavy but it feels totally solid in hands like gold bar. No cracky loose cover, everything is well screwed in place with metal plates and steel, can't even find a tiny piece of plastic material. It feels very cold under low temperature just like the then communist governance. To make it sounds more valid, the lens of it (Industrar 61) contains Lanthanide which is a radioactive element but in very negligible amount only. This shows that USSR is indeed a powerful nuclear and radioactive material driven communist just like Democratic People's Republic of Korea today. Anyways, I don't care lah, my next target will surely be L-CA(or +) already lah. Doubtlessly.

School's out. So I went for Photography Club members gathering today instead of Intima Forum which I don't give a single damn with all their respect. There are so many prospectful programmes like workshops, Stylo shooting session, potrait shooting, garden shooting, introduction to Illustrator and yada. But the most excited event is the upcoming Japanese GT racing photo shooting session! Those seniors have got us free tickets to enter Sepang F1 circuit to shoot some serious panning shots! How wonderful is that compared to, you know, working ass off like donkey, showering ownself with condemnations and stresses, confronting misunderstandings, politics and yada. Committee members are helluva friendly summore. PC is to hell much more enjoyable lah! And if we get hired as event photographers, we get paid summore...at least some people will appreciate our skills by monetary value rather than none, zero. Nuff said. I'm gonna Zzz for good already, after all the heels over head streamer paintings. They got so engrossed and rush the hell outta us suddenly, and decided to finish it in like 1 day for 10 over streamers. Of course we were bound to OT lah...what an EVENTFUL commitment and obligation. Cibai.

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Communist camera

Single Worst Day In Life

Berikutlah kisah seorang lelaki yang paling malang di dunia :

Planned to go back home after 12pm class. Got stranded by some stuffs pertaining to you-know-what club. Turned down initially. Compromised after received a fair amount of tunjuk perasaan from certain someone. Granted. I stayed back and did the streamer painting whilst leaving all my stuffs at AUP office. Overly engrossed in painting. Forgot office touch down hour. Office closed. Bags and all trapped inside the office. Apparently no one in the college hold the key at that point of time. Panicked cos housekeys and the just received FED 5C (they couldn't deliver to me in person cos I was having class and when they called I pandai pandai told them wrong number cos the seller gave them my forum ID which I don't even know how to pronounce haha) are all inside. Fucked up everything. Called Kelvin for help. Headed to Susi house for some serious parasiting and sheltering. Susi hadn't reached home yet when I arrived. Went to NZX to wait for her. Had Donuts which was stupid enough for a person who constantly whine for not keeping up with good diet routine. Susi reached. Upon entering her house. Heavy downpour like no tomorrow. Luckily. In the end, Kelvin fetched me home from Susi's. Currently at home typing this entry. Gotta stay back for streamer painting until late evening as well for tomorrow. How about this, cibai kanasai! Ugh, so I practically carry nothing to college tomorrow for my things are already there -_-. Well, you don't have to further emphasize how far my stupidity goes cos I know I'm beyond that for all the valid reasons!

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Could be your lung tissue under light microscope.

Where is da brain?

Do we like...have a quota for stupid remarks to come out every month? I believe it is a yes and indeed exceeded the actual quota already.

First thing I heard was about how alluring the current girl school uniform (the all white translucent baju kurung where non muslims girls wear besides pinafore). It is saying that girls nowadays are inviting for statutory rapes on themselves rather than those stupid men out there who can't control their peverted high sexual drive that should either castrate themselves or masturbate more, am I right? What? No brain is it? This is really like another clever form of gender discrimination. I mean why don't just make up for a tight enforcement like hello, please debate in parliament cos that's what the legislative body's for given that backbenchers are not voiceless minority anymore. Don't just push the blame on victims and, what? Let those monster get scot free or little punishment and give them chances to go on let loose their oversecretion of testosterone? Listen, what bout this, CASTRATION up for good!

And then, few days ago when I read the newspaper, the has-been yesterday superstar Sharon Stone has been making foolish statement on China's earthquake. Apparently this pro-Tibetan concluded that what happened to China is the flow of what goes around and comes around, she believed that China has received its 'karma' due to the fact that how they are not being nice to the Tibet and Dalai Lama *roll eyes to max*. Dumbo. Hollywood is getting like kindergarden fostering adults who think like children or worse. It is no doubt that stupid statement of hers has violated the Dalai Lama's teaching of being big hearted to people no matter how they treated you and so forth. And she later realised her stupidity and berpura-pura act humble there. Seriously, we should put her on social stigma or STONE her to death at least. Fucking inhumance hypocrite. Go eat stones la.

Speaking of stones, it reminds me of rice (dunno y la...). Freaking inflation, price increased 1 fold man, and if you don't already know, those eateries around you had already passed on the burden to consumer because it is necessary, the increment is too massive! Everything also increase but income/allowance remains T.T. And then that barricade of Bandar Mahkota Cheras can officially remove now I think which is very easier for us! Imagine last time when we had to make a super detour to Kampung Batu 11 then Sungai Long a big "U" turn to BMC (6.7km) just to find my cousin sister restaurant from CP, we wanted to siam the toll at Batu 11 boh pien. Now just go straight from CP junction smooth 1.5 km after the removal of barricade, and only then I realized it is so near! Just calculate how much $ and time lost for BMC residents and those around? Grand Saga is really leech, lintah darat.

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Where to find vintage Soviet made 35mm film cameras in Malaysia? It's everywhere on e-Bay but none around the market! I'm looking for either LOMO Smena 8M or FED 5C Industar-61, zomg the latter is like soooooooooooooooooooooooooo retro-ish and doubtlessly takes good pictures. So, where got sell? T.T Found! I'm buying FED 5C from a LYN seller. Smena is overpriced yet toyish but FED 5C is using Zeiss + Leica range finder! Rare and super ohm! :D

Everything and everything

Everything seems so robotic nowadays. It's like I'm living on a pre-set live impoverished with surprises and oomphs. Meetings, gatherings and homeworks and more meetings, more gatherings and more homeworks. Repetitious. Framed. I'm trying to avoid calls but there's no way in heaven or hell I can avoid sms-es unless I swallow my cellphone and end my life together with all the miseries. Sms-es are not asking for date or delightful things to that sort but compel me to accept the unilateral invitation to work like donkey upon opening inbox and accidentally take the killer glimpse at those words. Rejection is impossible. Now that I have to lengthen my blocked list on online messenger tool. And I just got to know that I can't go back home during Father's Day cos need to run some errands for College Day. Sighs. And supposed I need to go to college tomorrow and Sunday but I told them I went back JB. I've already given my 5 days week to them, sacrificed gym and wasted lotsa times. Now I demand for the remaining 2 days on my own. Fair enough. Unless it's extraordinary important or informed beforehand like 3 working days before the due date. I don't like spontaneity in such manner. It sounds very tyrannic and unplanned. Not my forte. And I don't remember when was the last time I came back to my room with left over energy for the day. I've overspent them. Just don't go overboard and cross my line. There's at least 1 or 2 of them from the committees that have the atrocity to step on my head. Whatever they think is right it's right. The only thing they are good at is experience, cos most of them are like me, total rookie and noobie in this club. Other than that, zip up and kiss your own ass goodbye. Well, there are also upsides about this club too but insufficient to amount to highlight of the day. I keep happy things in me and purge grudge into this blog. My blog is dirty, filthy, angsty, dark, pessimistic, negative and everything that is wrong about. I've contributed some pints of pollution to cyberworld, that is something worth to be proud of for nameless people like me who always wanna do big and prove to the world. But when I ponder further, what will I be getting in the end? Will I be better off? Everything's left unknown and indefinite. Sometimes when I'm not so strong, I'd really wish I had done more.

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I believe I've been tagged, not sure. But just assume this is squeezed out of tedium.

Real name: Ng Kok Whei
Nickname: Wei, Kok, 大头兵
Married: Nop
Zodiac Sign: Pisces
Male or Female: Male

High School: SMK Aminuddin Baki JB
College: Inti College Subang Jaya
Short or long hair: Short (always)
Are you a health freak?: By all means but drifted away of late.
Height: 172 cm
Do you have a crush on someone?: It's now or never.
Do you like yourself?: Yes and no.
Piercings: Nop.Thinking of getting one on nape.
Right or lefty: Right handed. Sometimes ambidextrous.

FIRST
First surgery: Never.
First piercing(s): 19
First best friend: Huah Jeng, Huah Shin and Huah Rong (my neighbour's kids)
First award: Singing competition in kindergarden (1st :D )
First sport you joined: Squash (officially)
First pet: Parrot fish and died 2 days after due to electricity black out.
First vacation: Should be either Singapore, KL or Desaru. Childhood amnesia sorry.
First concert: Jimmy Lin (林志颖）Live in Stadium Tertutup Tebrau JB 1993 (a whooping 15 years ago!)
First crush: Some boys or girls during primary school.

CURRENTLY
Eating: Chewing gum. (facial diet kthx)
Drinking: Detox tea.
I’m about to: Do my homeworks.

YOUR FUTURE
Wants kids: Will adopt or maybe don't want at all. I don't like toddlers.
Want to get married: Nop, see first.
Careers in mind: Freelancer or successful Forbes-featured businessman (BIG duh!), no lah, IT HAS GOTTA BE THE ONE AND ONLY HEALTH SCIENTIST.

WHICH ONE IS BETTER
Lips or eyes: Eyes of course, that's the window of soul. Who cares bout lips.
Hugs or kisses: Hugs I guess, and those transition of temperatures are irreplaceable.
Shorter or taller: Make it 176 cm will do.
Romantic or spontaneous: Spontaneously romantic. Too much romanticisms can be corny and impractical. I hate platitudinous people which are often nothing more than hypocrites themselves.
Nice stomach or nice arms: Six packs! Fucking gimme.
Trouble maker or hesitant: Hesitant lor...since I'm indecisive and prefer no brainer.

HAVE YOU EVER
Kissed a stranger: Yea. When I got drunk eons ago.
Drank bubbles: Alcohols yea, name me!
Lost glasses or contacts: Contacts.
Run away from home: Yea. To a nearby KFC and met my parents there ta-paoing KFC for me instead. Aww...cos I told them I felt like eating.
Liked someone younger: Yea. But not anymore.
Liked someone older: Yea.
Broken someone’s heart: Nop. I'm a typical Pisces.
Been arrested: For? Juvenile Delinquent? Got arrested for ponteng sekolah eons ago.
Turned someone down: Of course. We gotta move on somehow.
Cried when someone died: Hell yea, hello me made of flesh installed with this thing called feelings.
Liked a friend: No way. Depends on what kinda friend. Acquantance maybe.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN
Yourself: More yes than no.
Miracles: No. I'm all about pragmatism.
Love at first sight: Hell no.
Heaven: Why not, it's a place to entrust afterlife.
Sex on the first date: Over my dead body.
Angels: No. I think there are all demons in disguise.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY
Is there one person you want to be with right now: Err...make it yes then. Not sure.
Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time: Certainly no and won't. BFFs yes.
Do you believe in God: I believe in Gods. Plural. And deity.

This survey very intimate lor, like matchmaking ad liddat.

Il finito.

Ditto Ditto Ditto

Finally.

I can rest my day away..

Done with my Bio quiz, Politics test and STACT's members gathering.

As usual, got condemned at meeting for no reasons, all the fingers pointing and bureaucracy red tape. At least they all sound plausible. Attendance seems compulsory for upcoming events if no better excuses to absent present (pun not intended). Inti Ball, College Day, Intima Forum, ON...endless meetings...yada-yada. T.T

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At last,

I got the liberty to binge, aside from my usual main dinner course with rice and dishes, I'd gobbled down a regular set of Ayam Goreng McD. Further entitled to a chance of Big Mac chant. That goes without saying. Chanted it right away. Nothing much to hesisate anyways. Gobbled down the Big Mac right after finishing the Ayam Goreng. Uber bloated. Contented. Satisfied. Bubbled. Screw diet. What more can be more enjoyable than eating what you wanna eat without thinking twice, without looking at the nutritional fact. 537 kcal + 420 kcal = 957 kcal. What's with that? Yea right screw it. I binge when I don't feel too good. Why should I care so much about my figure since no one will be looking anyway? And now I'm hungry again.

Actually I fell asleep immediately after the binge. Woke up. Thus this post. The finale of non sensical ditto entry. Next post shall be a happy one. I vow to thee.

Shite. I haven't called for sponsorship yet!!!

Ditto Ditto

Do you have this kinda feeling that,

you've spent a long and weary day doing stuffs not pertaining to you.

Done with the day. Went home. Took off the mask. Looked into the mirror and saw a complete someone else staring back at you in a lifelike manner?

Must've been fretted or what.

Cos the boundary between right and wrong is getting opaque.

Self denial kicked in. Twats and cunts dispersed. Daunting the headlamp of soul. Revealing, devastating...

I shall stop making non sensical overstatement that will leads to emotional led breakdown in future or at least I'm not typing this thing feeling extraordinarily sucky, am I? I can't seem to recognize my acts these days. Excessive tie down is suffocating.

I miss the liberty to switch off my cellphone, my laptop, to sleep without alarm clock, to remain anonymous and the little Nelson, to do things I wanna do alone...

Period.

Ditto

To the jackass in me,

In life, one cannot avoid making bad choices and get picked. Once you've stepped into that outrageous whirl of disaffirmation and find it hard to retreat.

Just tell yourself, it's all deserved.

Padan muka.

C*bai.

From XX

p/s : Diam-diam ubi memang berisi punye.

T4YP

Just got back from TY4P (Theatre for Young People) workshop a while ago at KLPac, because I am young, therefore I am eligible to go. End of story. Laughing is strictly prohibited. Or else you shall rot.

The entire workshop thingy was very short, like about 1+ hours. It's like a musical stage show preview. Anyways, the performance today was at outdoor on the deck. Although not many people were there but the performance was impressive and subtle enough. All the actors and actresses are very professional although they may be nothing more than amateur. The theme was "100-word Project" where the idea is very simple. Each of the actors/actresses had to express their innerself in 100 words (monologue) incorporating the word "Park" in every segment. Not a word more or less. IMHO, I don't think it is as easy as it sounds. Cos not only you need to apply the power of words intensively but imagination plays a crucial part as well as you run on. Oh yea, and they sing too! But unlike Moulin Rouge or Sweeney Todd that sort lah. Nonetheless it's good enough at their standard. KLPac is really a wonderful place to hang out rather than spending time and $ aimlessly at shopping malls, at least it's a place full of inspirations.

Feel free to visit TY4P's blog at
http://t4yp.wordpress.com

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Han Lim and Suzanne are fostering their innate acting potential UNABASHEDLY but very matching kan both? *winks* So close to meruntuhkan akhlak moral already.

Hello? I'm born to act...lalalala.

A little bit of that

Finally Intima week's over! And I was given whole loads of tasks to be completed today. Have to manage the security jobs as well for some odd reasons. Ta-dah you can now call me a multitask android filled with lipids. Nonetheless I still manage to squeeze out some personal time for indulgence at this point of time besides having cleanly forgot about the Statistics quiz today which carries 5 effing %. I'll constantly try to plead for a break even after the outcome next week which, sad to say, nothing upbeat to look forward to lah. 5% is too much for a quiz (woot?). And then, starting next week onward I'll be spanking dead beat like mush.

On a brighter note, the Big Mac chant is my new mantra right now. I can't stop chanting it over and over! 2 all beef patties...%$%^&%$(stml at the time of typing this)...sesame seed bun. Voila! There you go 2 Big Macs down for free that I decided to give them away. 3 cheers for 537 kcal per serving, it is no kidding issue wei! Actually 4 seconds are more than sufficient for a sound person or even if you're Broca's or Wernicke's speech challenged, just go try out yourself I beckon. Also, you may wanna save up your lunch and dinner expenses for better use (why not just admit you cheapskate bastards). McD is helping out. Being a merry-go-happy-sugar-camouflaged-Jack Sparrow-meet-the-gothic-clown-mascot conglomerate. Energy cum fat distribution is their obligation you see more than being charitable. Stickguys and stickgals, good news. Moi? It would be my utmost pleasure to shove a couple of patties up their marketing personnel's arses FFS.

Anyways, anyone's going to the performing art workshop at KLPac this coming Sunday? Seems promising but LAZINESS has got the better of me. Then again, it's free admission. Aren't you tempted already? huh? Huh? HUH? It's F-R-E-E...fuhhhhrrriiiiiieeeeeeee! I'm practically out of time I guess. So, anticipatedly, Saturday is a whole day of house chores (looking at that pile of laundry hill is enough to kill!), lab report, tutorial, assignment, sponsorship hunting, ON's checklists here and there...fuck why am I reminding myself? T.T Late night Friday I wasn't even doing anything productive. Argh!

Alright seriously need an alarmless wake up tomorrow, wanna sleep like there's no tomorrow that I've been long deprived for. Hello Barn. Hello melatonin. Slumber bee. Imaginary Nelson. Lala. Here I come.

Au revoir!

Tristan --

[adjective]: Tastes like fried chicken

'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

...Special Sauce Lettuce

Cheese Pickles Onion...

A little bit of this

This week is Intima week. Have to sell tickets for Orientation Night and also recruit new members. Double jeopardy is the word. Thundery weary now. I just have to spend all my free times and breaks to put up with something that literally kill time innocently. Dunno why la, they just like to call whoever which is free impulsively, catch them, put them in a cage and tell them they are up to something. Then at the end, we spent time waiting like stones only to realise we received no order to perform any tasks AT ALL. We were just put on hold IN CASE they are up to something. Fuckhole ass ripping wusses right? Surely they need to seriously learn about the dearness of OUR time. And we are not back up tyres also. I hate all these senseless obligations. I was given no orders and no details to date on my puddinghead logistic parts. It's as if the post was made out of extrinsic value for it is a MUST HAVE turun temurun but practically for nothing but being stoned. Celaka.

Speaking about Intima week, I joined 3 other clubs and societies with better prospect this semester (finally for 4 semesters of rotting out in this college anonymously) other than STACT club. I honestly can't dissolve in that solvent myself. If only I can resign from ON organizing committee at will...I'm serious. They don't need me afterall and not like I wanted to join this organizing committee in the first place also. It all started from nowhere without notification and next thing I know was my name is already on the list...just like a tattoo~

Oh and Politics class is getting sibeh miserable and sleep inducing. T.T

Also, folks and parents are making me so emo! They are all set for an overseas getaway in group WITHOUT me...666. How can?! Of all the time, why must they chose 3 weeks after my next new semester started? Evil right? Hmphf...how can I not be emo you tell me!

I'm effing grey and sour.

Sien.

Life is dry.

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Intima Week

I Don't Want A Title For This

Alright, just a random thought before I turned in to bed.

I've no idea what makes me into this but I no longer feel the sense of belonging at where I'm stepping on right now. Then it hit me hard with the term, Organic Solidarity (Gesellschaft) that used to describe the urban lifestyle. To briefly elaborate, the term means nothing more than pointing out the nonchalance, coldness, ignorance, robotic and etc. of urban dwellers. Further reveals that, social bonds in urban are based on specialization and interdependence. It may sound foreign to you but like it or not, it's a piece of fact. By specialization, it means each of us needs to magnify the scope of a certain particular field that they are good in in order to benefit society and brings people toward them. For example, when the first time you met a person, you will have asked him question like "what do you do for living?" and slowly finds benefit which you can reap out of the conversation. To simplify the statement, you respect you lecturers simply because they are smarter than you in certain fields and you learn things from them. However, if they are being stripped off from all their knowledge, will you still respect them as you used to be? Eventually, this brings out interdependence where we get along with each other today to depend on them more than we really want to be with them for no reasons at all.

I realise friends that I made after a certain level of my life cannot go far beyond interest group. Like, there's something common and beneficial for us that brings us together. Well, I won't deny that it's the basic function of how a relationship starts nowadays. I mean you won't acquainted a person who pop up and say hi to you and walk off. Perhaps you think he's just being lunatic or what. More often than not, we get along together because we need something from each other instead of we get along together because we want to get along together, no further. I can make a clear example here from what I encountered from my college's club, nice to have a slogan of "Friendship above service..." or some sort of words close to that meaning. The chairman claims that all the members will be treated like one family. We sing club songs, play games, interact and so on but the upon closer observation. I realized it's just like any other social organization around. It's all about interests, be it personal or common ones. Favouritism overrule common goal. Slogan as a new way of spreading propaganda. It's very ironic in a way that I don't even know how to bring into words vividly. You know I just sense that I don't belong to there even I've been there for like 1 semester, that's about 4 months. I feel like a misfit member being stucked at some obligations that I never promised to get involded. I've lost autonomy. I have to put on masks (which explains why I'm often so quiet in class or club cos I hate to do that). I have to listen to "words that are often louder than actions". Sounds familiar eh? Isn't it nicely reflected our in house political scenes? It may not be true and I can be generalizing things but that's not the crucial part cos I think I digress a little. Just my 20 cents.

But I'm glad I still have friends who will just be with me for the sake of drawing our relationship closer or simply they just want to be together for who we are. Not being together for what we are because we need to.

Though, most of us can't be around together all times but deep down we know we won't feel awkward even after years apart. That's the chemical and feel good factors in common.

Goodnight.

Hokkien Jade Drama Coming to Life

Happy Mother's Day to Mummy, all my god mothers and grandmother.

Nothing much special for this year (or every year), I felt like buying the Gintell massage chair for it is buy one free one but too bad I realised my goodwill was dampened by my tight budget! Haha. So despite spending the whole night with my kkl until wee hours, I had to crawl out from the bed around 10 am the next day to send my dad to my grandfather's and headed to 大马 to hunt for some real nice carnations for mummy. I got a really cute one with teddy bear on it! Then rushed to Pelangi to buy detox tea recommended by frog. She said she lost some kgs after consuming it. The myth will be affirmed this week after it washed down my stomach. After settled everything at downtown, I had to go up to TC's Jusco to buy practical present for mummy (shan't disclose hehe). Went home, surprised mummy and that's all, I'm quite bad at this I know. Lol. Later on was the usual eating out and all which happens every year at this time.

Grandma was over at our place together with godparents. With her presence, there will always be dramatic play. This time was not an exception except it was a more serious life and death matter. Here it goes, grandma and godpa had some conflicts and my grandma spanged her head against the wall aka 撞墙 -_- like she did before. How Hokkien-soap-drama-ly dramatic right? She does this kinda thing very often, we all got it from her when we were kiddos (kneeled down before the altar, served tea to apologize...you name it). In any case, the worst part happened while my grandma attempting her head-bang-wall action, my godpa was totally blew out of the water upon seeing that in sight followed by paling in face, rapid heartbeat, panic...and all the pre-symptoms of heart attack which he didn't even know he has. Daddy sent him to Pandan hospital immediately and luckily he was alright after that. Kudos to that stupid hospital actually didn't really perform thorough check out on godpa due to equipment broke down -_-. Apparently, one button of the ECG machine was not functioning, and that was the best excuse they could give at the cost of life of an emergency patient? Yes, exactly, godpa was admitted to emergency department at first cos we thought it was very critical and emergency at that time. Well, I'm pretty sure everyone knows how far the efficiency of public hospital goes for we had no choice but to send him there because it is only less than 3 km away from my house which is the one next to Tebrau City in case you don't know. As well as the one with fungus breeding all over before the official opening ceremony that caused some hoo-haas around, excuse given by the then Semi Value was, "It happens in other countries". End of story. Life is cheap here, Semi Value should've retired 30 years ago to save all the disputes.

We suspect our grandma is not only suffering from senile but paranoic type of schizophrenia. Cos she had records of threatening for suicide, self mutilation and mental delusion. But she seems normal most of the time. Still, I think I need to suggest the folks to bring her for a serious psychotherapy session lest she will fire off another attempt to literally gek sei my godpa,if she's willing to go which I doubt she will cos she's very tik ki (stubborn).

Of late, folks like to tattle about life and death on dinner table (they've been living more than half a decade). Daddy was talking about sudden departure of his football mate back in those days, mummy was talking about the suicide of her client and the sudden departure of Uncle Steven and all those around us. We can't avoid things that we can't predict, can we? According to the same old cliche, live life to fullest each day, materialism can never be associated with happiness no matter how. So what if you got the whole world?

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They're sending clothings to Salvation Army. You wish.

Then she wanna contribute some golds for tropical cyclone's victims in Myanmar.

Eh, I think the detox tea doesn't work on you at all. Maybe you can try eating more "tupai"

From the L word to the F word

The L's,

Lies. Laughs. Loves. Lives. Lesbians. Lame. Lusts. Los Angeles.....

I finished 1 season in a day all thanks to my uber laid back timetable, how marvellous!

It simply just more than homosexuality and all the gay rights movements can tell. Just slightly more than that. Somewhere in between controversial and provocation. Please leave religion out of this for god's sake also (pun not really intended).

I feel so dykey now...

Hello there!

..but oh well, food for thought.

I'm converted.

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The F,

Fuck.

I know, this is another spin off of my enraged grudge against THE college. It comes out like tap water and it's on the loose now, please understand.

Yea la...I know this is just an outlet for my feelings, I'm ranting to noone and I will honestly shut this up once I feel right about it in no time (i think sometime next week things will be fine I hope), if no relapse :p

Read this : Itu blog miliki saya. Clear enough ah?

666! Intro. to US Govt. has got the boringest dullest lecturer ever on the planet. I've found a new place to seriously slumber out. Wtfbbq. Memang jatuh ditimpa tangga. I'm right now in a serious difficult position. I can't possibly drop the damn thing for there are no better substitutions except for English Literature which facing under amount of students right now on the verge of chaplap-ing but hell I don't need that in my major. There's French 101 which I'm begging to join but monstrously CLASHED with Stats (TYPICAL!)...effing chintzy college who can't even well managed its flagship course in the pseudo-honor of some questionable ISO standard. Well, I mean they can't short change us just because they have the crown of it. We need a good lecturer, not some Tom, Dick or Harry who part-timely appointed from admin. department who can't teach a fuck standing there reading slides straight out from power point! In that nut case, the security guards or janitors can perform similar task equally well as well. What makes me more furious, the advisors got the balls to tell me I should accept my fate for my misfortune (those timetable clashes...). Hell that shows how much they think my time's worth, go fuck a chicken la.

I am seriously have to booze up before attending POL101's class, for better, I can pretty sure the whole class won't turn their backs against a round or two of chor dai di during the lesson. I call it class participation. Anyone has 2nd opinion?

Unfortunately afterall I will still have to put up with all of these. Pips, just assume this entry is made invisible ok?

Sighs.

This music video 很美!

Believe Again by Delta Goodrem

Stunning and stupendously beauuutiful!

Words fail me.



p/s : Mind you this is the most expensive music video ever made in Oz. Just look at the backdrop setting and the CG effects then you'll know. On par with LOTR.

Shitnesssssss

This college will never fails to wreck my nerves, EVER!

I went to enroll today and I spent like 2 hours staring at the damn generator doing those timetable matchings just to sort out the perfect timetable. Happy happy clicked "ok"...blimey, Physics class fulled! Peachy, it toppled all my other perfect time slots. And to hell I have to rematch with new subjects again which took me further 1+ hour tim! Fuck. Then in the end only 3 rather than normal 4 subjects mutually exist harmoniously side by side. Ended up taking only 3 subjects due to all the stupid clashes. Now I have to stay on for another semester which is 6 semesters altogether, can be 7 also since I have to postpone my transfer date due to Inti's ever brilliant system. Supposedly Spring 2009 but now delayed to Fall 2009 which constitutes to 2 more semesters but I don't think I will finish all the 2 semesters during that time frame. Prolly just stop before May which is the end of my 6th semester and take a hiatus for preparation/work/spend time with close ones before August. If that's so then I gotta prepare for uni(s) application on next semester or next next semester already and not THIS. Geez so sickening it sure takes a long time for me to enter a proper uni at this age. And does it sounds better than leaving at Spring 2009? Cos at least I get to spend another CNY with friends and family with of cos the bonus of getting ang paos la. But still, wasted hell loads of my time talking to the advisors today, and I have to come up with explanation for the mess but why should I? It's not my fault cos the previous advisor told me not to take 2 sciences (4 cr. hour based) in one semester and not like the timetable then was not clashing also *roll eyes*. Typical ICSJ. Fuck CHM 211 and CHM 212 if not because of them...I think the Dean can just sack all the unproductive staffs like Ms. M, Exam office crew and course advisors for better, I don't see a problem in exercising it for it's a bob's your uncle matter. Then the new building I think is built to burn money into ashes because not only we don't have more flexible timetable but subjects offered seem to shrink as well. What's this? Not enough lecturer then for fuck's sake go hire more, not enough classes is no excuse since the new "grand" block claims to accommodate more students and of cos more classes! Then with all the trumpeted claims, why do we still facing so many time slots clashes? I can't believe I still have to face all this timetable inefficiencies when all there I have to care is my grades/CGPA. Bummer bummer bummer! Real big bummer.

But then this semester is only a 4 days week, meaning I got only 4 lecture days per week! Haha 1st in my life. More time to slackstudy I supposed. I'm taking Introduction to American Government as well. Tell me how the hell I came to the state of fitting POL101(US Government) into my curriculum of..........CLS/MT major?! Bummer!

OMG just kill me.

Desaru Road Trip

Sempena Labour Day off and the lackadaisical day after that, dad and mum took a day off to Desaru of course I gotta tag along for all the reasons. We planned to go for a day trip to Sg. Rengit for seafood but then dad decided to book a resort room impulsively so that we don't need to rush all the way back to JB at night. We stayed at Desaru Damai Beach Resort which was mediocre only but good for short overnight stay. However, looking at those virginal and sandy beach in sight is more than enough to offset the cons. We chilled at the beach, I went to swim at the sea with my dad whilst mum just sat and watch for she is incapable of touching water haha. My fishie was all along with me and I've done with one film in a day! So happy and it was all worthwhile. Btw, the bank didn't reap much of service charge and it's exactly how it'd cost had it been converted to Ringgit. Yay :D

We drove all the way up to Sg. Rengit for seafood dinner after chilling at the resort and all. The meal was darn cheap despite the fact that the place is always infest with Singaporeans. Mum ordered like crazy, I think 7 or 8 dishes for only 3 of us. Still not very full to be honest and we are so gonna get from the further step up of LDL levels which incidentally haunting most of my family members. And then in my utmost humble opinion, Desaru's beaches are 10x better than Bintan's, we used to frequent Desaru like 3-5 times in a year those days but ever since everyone's leaving, so it's getting quiet and lonely nowadays.

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Peace out

Mummy and daddy (forced to take haha)

Me and my symbol of peace

Gemini and colourful canoes
Scratches

Roar...

Sunset and silhouette

Dot-ed the day

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Mbak Jay, tengok lah, this is what a "toy camera" can do. Tell me how you feel about the effect k? To be noted, I DID NOT retouch those photos with Photoshop at all. Feel free to appreciate how pure and fundamental can they be...so aesthetically pleasing .

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Alright, results for this semester are all out, no failing nor extraordinary good grades. My conclusion is I feel lucky to retain my CGPA and move on to my sophomore year which I was deeply in doubt before that haha, every semester is like pain in ass, I was so worried that I might gonna just stuck and ended up in retaking and stuffs...and then let me strongly condemn ICSJ's lecturers, yea now I know you all are nothing but hypocrites, the reason you all gave high courseworks marks is just so that you all can bring us down altogether in one shot during final, and now I know! Ms. Sociology-Lecturer and Mr. History-Lecturer, I won't forget how you all sabotaged me. Kinda disappointed to say actually. Oh well, at least I get to move on still. Nabeh.

Jessica Octaviani II

I was thinking of doing this entry in Bahasa Kekaratan but called it off before I get started cos no one will understand and not even the beloved Jay! Haha. Makan tahu penerjemah then. Alright cut the crap. Me and Jay had our second meet up at Sg yesterday. I promised to see her at 11.30 am SHARP at Heeren for we will have more time to spend for the day but my stupidity has got the better of me. I overslept and by the time I reached Taka. it was already 1 pm-ish and she was bored out from waiting. Ribuan maaf. And then we met up at Kino. and I saw ready sets of Lomo sitting at the Art & Design section's shelf! Tell me how to resist?! I didn't intend to buy actually but still...impulse! I swiped for it and hopefully they can spare me from exorbitbant forex rate dfference, service charge and whatnots. Oh and I got it cheaper cos Jay has the member card which entitled me 10% off the normal price. Ribuan terima kasih ya! There's always a good start to everything haha.

We went cheung k again at Cineleisure, I know it was so pricey for the services we received but did we not enjoy it? haha. And I have to manually buy OCK cos the exorbitant rate we paid didn't include any food at all! So much for Sg's cheung k scene despite the poor operating system and sound system. I'm gonna reinstate that Red Box and Neway still win hands down. We should try the one in Chinatown and Bugis I guess had we not hanging around Orchard. Next time la.

Later on we took bus to Vivocity for dinner, too bad we couldn't go Carnivore cos of the dinner rate is exaggeratedly high. So we settled down at Food Republic which flooded with crowd due to the eve of public holiday (wrong move!). And I wonder why every stalls there seem to plaster with award winning, acclaimed and most sought-after honours, there are not that good as they think they are I guess but well some Singaporeans are shallow so they will go for the famous and long-queued ones. Typical kiasuism la. Nonetheless, the "famous" Hokkien Fried Prawn Mee we had is fantabulous but the rather pricey Lobak I ordered is mediocre only. Street foods, what else to expect? But me likey street foods! And to hell with Anything? and Whatever they are just normal carbonated drinks which trigger curiosity, it shows how brilliant for their plausible marketing strategy. All the sales gimmicks. Wtfbbq.

After the contented dinner, we walked around and Jay "mendorong" me with her evil plan to try out Warm Chocolate Cake at White Dog Cafe but I was skeptical and already kenyang but still there's always a room for temptationexperimentation. Les dessert after heavy meal was welcomed as a rinse of mouth. I pun memang glutton punye. We walked pass the cafe, wondered a while and returned there after the first glance at those cute little cakes sitting in the glassed refrigerator cos we will be more guilty for not stuffing those thick creamy dense chocolate down our stomachs rather than feeling guilty over consuming it against our own dietetic principles. We practically savored each and every bites. Jay was very engrossed in it cos the way she indulged was so unrealistic and romantic to the extent that she had to shut her eyes during those savoring moments. Cute. It is too nice to describe and I don't wish to type those words out either cos at the end of my sentence I will be deadly craving for it again, so that's all for it, go White Dog Cafe at Vivocity and try out yourself. Yea so I got converted.

Got back around 9 something cos she wanted to catch AI 7 which she can't afford to miss due to the appearance of David Cook (duh!). We parted at Outram's station then I went on with my Red Line T^T which took me about 40 minutes to reach Kranji. Because it was fucking public holiday eve and there were some fucking shit eating custom officers who dragged our clearance (courtesy of Mas Selamat that should fuck off and die) plus the ever jamming traffic, I reached home at 1 am! Helluva horrible right?

Still, I was very very very happy nevertheless. I'm turning into bubbles.

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Iya tanter apa yg bisa gw tolong?

p/s : And I must say, Brooke White did not overstay her welcome! She deserves to go this far but what the heck she still got eliminated before Jason Castro.