Saturday, January 27, 2007

Hiatus

ANNOUNCEMENT :



Tristan hasn't dead yet cos he's under the perpetual torture of his part time working confectionery company in one of the JB busiest shopping mall...




and unfortunately,his supervisor is a pure bitch...very pure indeed,he never fails to get scolded almost every single day every single minute and second over puisne stuffs.But he won't cry in his lonely heart thinking(plagiarism not intended) during the night cos it's gonna lasts for only a couple of weeks.




no matter how bitchy she is...he doesn't give a damn single fuck but possible fuck her back(hell not)...cos he doesn't have addiction to typical aging woman like her.He's wayyyyy more classy in preference at least.




13 hours of working per day,with less than 2 hours of break time in between isn't gonna tear him apart because he gives priority to $ than his life can sacrifice.Pathetic...




and so he swears,he'll never ever work for this company for a 3rd time and thereof (this is da 2nd time,wtf) in his life anymore.Thus,he must buck up a lot more on his study to prevent himself from falling into the state of doing that kinda labour cheating and exploiting confectionery business.It's worse than hell...




cos he sacrificed clubbing session in MoS,Zouk and Dragonfly with friends from outstation just to work over the busy weekend(not even for once in a while,sorry Steph. and Eunique I'm dying to go if only not bcos of this...),oh hell,not even a single day break for him through out the entire prolonged 1 month as well.And he spends more of his time in working place than on his bed...his supervisor will hit him up anytime on phone even 12 am late in the night just to bitch him off with some matters that seems can be settled the next day in her own interest...he's nearly 20,but is treated like slave over his working hour.

He got no new year clothings to wear...cos he got no time to shop,no more Topshop loyalty card and all he gonna face is assorted rubbish like cookies every single seconds which more a feeling of puke can describe.New Year is sucks for him apparently!


Tristan,really must study harder so that you won't ended up doing something like that anymore...hope your next stable job is where you're the one who ordering others,but,I'm pretty sure he'll treat all his colleagues and workers nice at least,unlike THEM.




He's not dead yet,just a hiatus of him before going for the next round of studies...




He's gonna come back very often soon after he refilled his piggy...


In the mean time,he needs loads more rest and...off!

Friday, January 19, 2007

This one is totally disheartening...

lYea,so afterall my result is bad...as bad as what you expect,

SAD?hmm...not anymore,it's pointless struggle.ACCEPTED fate?Not really oso,I'm still gonna fight for what I wanna do in future,this piece of paper won't be able to imply or conclude anything of mine cos it's only some inks printed on a piece of shit that made from trees.My live is more valuable than that can be able to determine...it's my life,I paint it myself without the need of papers and inks...I paint with feelings and thoughts that are so abstract yet practical.You amoeba won't understand it...

My AS - ABC + IELTS Band 7.0
My A2 - BCD
Overall - BCD (amazingly degraded by one grade)

My A is gone T^T...I won't tell which subject that achieved these grades,you make the guessing yourself!

...so I'm unabashed and not ashame to show off my "gemilang" result here,yea yea,you mushroom heads laugh for all you want,I don't care...I have a life unlike you!

screw it...effing sucky now!Might bite...cos I've already made my position clear that no D shall be obtained in any one of the subjects and yet I still got a effing D for the effing fickle ECONOMICS(this I have to reveal cos I've retake the AS part and thought I will do better but still my effort spent on retaking it is now down under the drain)...rather spend my time on solving krypton,sudoku,kakuro and watever than squeezing my brain juice on Economic graphs,plain sad subject!

I'm quitting my job in YS cos I think it's the time to reconsider what I really want in future, perhaps a post mortem on myself and mental recollection...and most important of all,settle with my applications(I doubt it will be in smooth-sailing...) and decision!

gahness*...I AM NOT UPSET,AM I?

Yea,to those that have seen this post,don't try to buzz me ok?Whatever your starting point is good or bad,I'll just have to be mean and ignorant to you.Sorry to say that.I don't need your consoles and cheerings cos it only makes you think that I did bad and in fact I don't feel that way you feel,don't get misunderstood,I'm sad of my Econs only,mushrooms!Don't pretend that you know me in fact you are not ok?

bahness*

I've hearing a lot of negative and positive feedbacks...of cos friends around me has been giving me support and we share our feelings and hardships.That's ok...but those who wanna compete and have a good laugh on it,sorry hope you burn in hell and won't get your reincarnation! roll eyes*

Yea,mum sighed a bit but dad still silent...godpa and godma told me it's ok as long as I passed all and encouraged me to go on.Those are the saints and the saviours in my life,ever and all the while.However,I can't deny that there is also bad mouth among those I love.Yea,my finger is pointing towards you...yes it's you my Aunt's husband(aka Uncle).Initially,I was very upset about my result(he fetched me to college) and you've been blabbering on your own beside my ear endlessly about those been-there-done-there thingy about how expert you are when it comes to navigating around KL and PJ roads(and wtf you still asked me about the directions?just to show how clever you are,not!).As if not enough,least to my surprise,he started on with his mantra on how should I be considerate for my dad that I shouldn't go Sunway in the first place and opt for STPM instead so that I can save that amount for Uni.Of cos,I can't shoot him back as he's gonna fetch me back JB on Sunday...I just nodded and gave him some "indicative" smiles so that he can shut the fuck up,but unfortunately,he didn't...and went on telling me how he dislikes commercialised colleges and what a leecher they are...and all his personal pet theories which for me,beyond absurdity!C'mon I didn't even wanna bring out the biggest downside of you and still hoping you'd respect me a lil' bit at least for good.What a jerk!

I never ever regret of taking A-levels in my life,although I didn't do big thing out of it but at least I get to experience a multi-diversity college life with bunch of good friends from all over the world.I get to use English which I never speak in JB.I get to experience campus life earlier than others.I'm more exposed.I met alot of ppl.I'm more independent.I can handle my own life(of cos with financial support from the other side).Those are what I call the most important elements when facing varsity life aside from getting AAA in exam...in fact i'm out from them now at least.To my glee is that,i spent a lot of time in library than my room,THOL is fantastic.I miss those days we spent in library,going clubbing,chatting in friends' rooms,hogging friends beds,swimming,Pyramid-ing(a legendary shopping mall for us),Palmville!,rushing assignments(law),moving houses,badminton,Bak Kut Teh,Orange,Pink,Blue,Medan,poolside,RSB,Jaafar,live football matchescall for McD delivery,study until midnight,preparing for Presentations...and whole loads to list!

I will never get these if I still stay put in tiny JB and lead the same kinda life as in Sec. school.It's not that I did verrrry bad,at least my AS part was pretty well.I got merit award for AS Law still!And thx to Mr. Raj a great lecturer(but not in teaching la!)...Ms Wong(for doubting us)...Mr. Soma(for....hmm...making me hate Econs.)...Ms Joy(who doubted me in GP class)...Mr Leonard(for being a clown in IELTS lessons).Thk all of u!I can still remember how shy and pathetic I was during the 1st sem,I'm the least active one during orientation and hardly talk to my classmates...lol.And now,lesson learnt,I will not be that afraid of meeting new friends anymore,and I've get used to rushing assignments due date,burning midnite oil,presentations...I

And,Brit. system is better than our own native system to be honest.For sciences,maybe Brit. pattern is tad too easy comparing to STPM but for Arts...wayyyyyyy harder than you think and not easy to get an "A" given that 95% of the assessment is based on essay writing.I know sciences have that as well but not as many as Arts.Cos Arts are abstract and they rarely have a definite and objective answer to them.

Get what I mean,Uncle!If I ever go to English College(the Form 6 school tht I suppose to go),I'll never get good lecturers like them(mentioned above) as govt. institutions are still lacking of good lecturers and in fact when it becomes the pain in ass for MOE...how can we expect our student to be productive when they can't even overcome the what most basic problem of themselves.It's a matter of scarcity.The "human development engineers" are getting extremely low pay,in return,they are not motivated and it then brings on a bad circulation in education system...the by products(students) will still be only a bunch of study machine even if they get the most A's.

So,get over it!

ps: I was awakened by a pair of familiar voice this morning again talking about me wasted my parents' money in A-levels to the other relatives outside...I know I should follow what my cousin doing in the first place,yea, one of my close cousin is waiting for his STPM result as well.Don't make comparison if you are not in my shoes.I'm different...and I can't be bothered much anymore.It's your mouth,talk for all the cocks you want.At the end of the day,you'll realise you were talking nonsense afterall. roll eyes*

This one about a sleepless nite b4 getting result...

Apparently.....

The only reason why I'm here is...I couldn't sleep,not that I'm not sleepy or sleeping disorder but I can't help but foresee my result slip once I closed my eyes.Now the scary part is I couldn't really see those grades I got...very unpredictable especially for Economics.Well others are nothing better,I shall cut the craps and complaints that I've been blabbering about ever since I've finished my last A2 paper.

They told me not to worry,whatever is done cannot be undone,take it easy,que sera sera but I say,SHUT UP,you ain't me and you don't even know how tension I am.I like to study,I like exams but I hate to get the results(partly also bcos I didn't put in allmy effort this time...padan muka la!).Feelings are all mixed up...terrible horrible incorrigible vegetable!I am that kinda ppl that mm gin gun choi mm lao ngan loi ,means never sheds tears until I see coffin!Lesson learnt now!

What if I get DDD,CDD,CCD,CCE...and so on until U(unidentified aka fei lou)? = sei lou yat tiu

What if I get AAA,AAB,ABB,ABC,,BBB? = fiesta la bamba!(TGIF,Hyatt humpalang...all on me!)

What if CCC,BCC,BCC,ACC? = contradiction

Many circumstances and many possibilities,not even Statistics can be able to solve!It reminds me I did sucky in Stats 2 paper...like real sucks!Ahhhhh...I've regretted my GOD!Pls grant me a "nice and presentable" cert....tht'll be more than satisfaction.

Pai lor....in less than 10 hours time it'll be released!

This time I got less confident than AS...and AS already sucks,let alone..........*trembles*

I've prayed a lot during HK trip I hope it will be answered.I've been to Lantau Island Buddha Statue,Repulse Bay Temple...pls!

I'm sai lang this time...all out!What more should I ask for?Except for bad grades...T^T I rather work myself to death or even if I'm able to survive from it,I'll rather be no difference from donkey...

Everything anything whatever...I need good grades only,is it too much that I'm asking for?

I don't wanna sleep cos I don't want tomorrow to come so fast...I'm all chickened out!

Thursday, January 18, 2007

Someone sent me this..

“轻轻的我走了,正如我轻轻的来,
  我轻轻的招手,作别西天的云彩。
  那河畔的金柳,是夕阳中的新娘,
  波光里的艳影,在我心头荡漾。
  软泥上的青荇,油油的在水底招摇,
  在康河的柔波里,我甘心做一条水草。
  那树荫下的一潭,不是清泉,是天上的虹,
  揉碎在浮藻间,沉淀着彩虹似的梦。
  寻梦?撑一支长篙,向青草更青处漫溯,
  满载一船星辉,在星辉斑斓里放歌,
  但我不能放歌,悄悄是别离的笙箫,
  夏虫也为我沉默,沉默是今晚的康桥。
  悄悄的我走了,正如我悄悄的来,
  我挥一挥衣袖,不带走一片云彩。”

徐志摩


Although I can't really comprehend the meaning but the sentences are so beautiful,I can see the poet's loneliness within and hidden/mixed feelings...and he has no other alternative way to make himself feels better...I hope this is the main point.

I'm not that philosophic though but no harm reading since it's a good material.

!

Fuck the result

Fuck the job

Fuck stresses

Fuck the fat

Fuck everything...

From today on I shall uphold a vulgarities-free blogosphere perhaps,PERHAPS only!

Wat the Fuuuuu.........funny thing to say!

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

god damn!I am so happy that I'm dying away!

1. Shit loads of work in that stupid confec. company called Y.S.(u do the guessing la!),stand all day long but none a of single passerby bothers to take a look at our cookies cos they seem as dry as how they look.And to hell is that we are bound to lotsa puny rules and regulation laid down by company such as the the sentence "...try our cookies" is highly prohibited for some unknown reason that only they'll know.As if not bad enough,I'm gonna take charge of cashier when I'm on duty in CS.Hellishly no!!!!!My kaki and tangan are not that fast enough to handle those transactions esp. operating the cashier machine...I will make up a long queue for sure in front of the booth due to my retardent in typing the numerical keys!And I'm gonna give the wrong change to customers and I'm gonna mess everything up...hey...our daily sales are RM 10k of matter,I can't fool around with that.Tiok see!




2.Fucktard,I did not aware that my online result can be printed out by the college,so it means I


can get my "gemilang" result earlier than I thought!Wah happy...!I think DDC will be my A2


result and CCD will be for the overall grades.Again,very happy!




3.That one of my male colleague is giving some lame excuses for not coming to work that I have to standby for him tomorrow!I've already thought of not coming and arranged my mood but suddenly he told me he couldn't make it for tomorrow.I'm his reliever now...asshole!Carrefour stall is fucking dead and businessless...boring!




Fuck la...enough of unfortunate events again...I'm not able to shop for CNY clothings!Ah Zai's restaurant is having vacancies now,Leong is working there already on 5 bucks per hour as waiter and some other odd jobs la.Mum asked me to go over and help out.It may be a better pay than YS but they're in KL.zsssssssssssssssssssssssssss...I dun feel like working there since I'll be spending most of my time there after I furthered my studies.Aiks...bad!







Aleisha(not sure of the spelling),my temporary teammate.She's a nice teammate of mine!She camwhored with my phone.

Ish...I look fucking pale and haggard inside...face bloated(munching sushi la)...half closed eye lids...partly bcos of the low resolution of camera and some are constituted by my own habit of sleeping late and lack of sleep then!And look at that funny Mandarin collar of our uniform...so orientally effeminized :s...thx to YS.

Saturday, January 13, 2007

Hair extension(before and after)

It began like this...thin straightened fringe





Then...during the process,they used the longest ever bunch of hair to make me look like some kinda ancient Chinese swordsman,




And then,upon requested,I chopped off more than half of the actual length and it turned out like this,Japanese cosplay artist wannabe...




But then,later after a few round of washing and blowing,the so called "real" hair deteriorated due to the lack of protein and other nutrients directly irrigate to the real "fake hair"...and once they are heated,they'll crimp and split thx to the vaporization of the protein and ions(no more looking straight and healthy now and there's no way u can do treatment to improve cos they are dead hairs)...they become hideous later like this,




Fucking hideous and "la yeng" rite?!Rainie Yang Chen Ling alike of fringe,gosh,I don't wanna become like those lala mui with flat fringe and constantly acting cute in front of the purikura machine...*gasp*

And so after a few times of self trimming and "adjusting"...got rid of some split ends and wavy parts...





Now(13/1/07),it looks like this...but not that emo enough to my standard though :(

gah!

...and now thx to them I'm gonna spend more time than before to style 'em up *faint*,afterall they're not my inborn hairs that they always get off disoriented no matter how many times I iron them,fuck,more hassles now!Luckily my fringe looks so bushy now unlike last time,a Baldy I was!-_-

There's no way I can remove them now or else I'll lose a lot of hairs...cos they'll come off with the real hair of mine if u forcefully remove them without professional removal by hair stylist(that of cos u gotta pay 'em...)


Friday, January 12, 2007

The new year trip 2006-2007

Allow me to make a summarising for my 2007 new year trip as simple as possible here cos I'm really lazy to post all my reflections,feedbacks and some other lengthy rambings here that written to none in fact...so to get things short,the trip lasted for almost 2 weeks(passed by Macau,stayed in ShenZhen for 2 days and the rest in Hong Kong).



Macau - the place was nice and surrounded by sea,lotsa suspension bridge which I dunno why but I suspect Chinese govt. is fucking rich now to build one after another and another and so on...Macau International Airport is so tiny just like the one in Senai -_- and Changi Budget Terminal is so frugal and stingy...tiny and looks like Giant Hypermart -_-"



Shen Zhen - 26 years old city with 5x more buildings than Kuala Lumpur,shame on us boleh-land.Chinese govt. hired Singaporean to do town planning in SZ and there are like infinity of buildings over there,very exaggerating but true.Roads are as straight as u can ever imagine,like a whole stretch of ruler to infinity end,boring.Drivers there are rude,horns are flying everywhere eventhough midnight.Vendors(Dong Men Market) there are like those in Petaling St.I did some fucking cheap hair extension there for only 100 RMB(50 Ringgit only) which surprisingly turned out to be not too bad.Foods there sucks big time,smelled and tasted like shit and drainage water...to hell was that ppl there enjoy the foods a lot*spooky*.We were brought to some typical tourist spots like Window of the world,Cultural Village cum miniature world with some performances presented jampacked with lotsa tourists,not to forget places like Jewellery factory,Chinese Herbs Factory...that hoping us to fall prey on their fraudulent tactics so that we would spend our money to buy their mega thrifty pruducts(they gave discount generously like 70% if u ever ask them for it,and of cos u GOTTA ask them...they are cunning and they'll spurt lotsa reasons to get ur pocket burns out for their fake products,eventhough they seem professional and well dressed in uniform trading in a proper sales premise.)



Kowloon(HK) - took KCR line(commuter) from Shen Zhen custom across New Territory to Kowloon(30 minutes journey) where our hotel was located right in the middle of Mong Kok business district,yea,the infamous Women Street was nearby only within walking distance.Things are cheap and of cos with the condition of good in bargaining.I'm sucks in it so I din buy much from there.Vendors are rude just like those in Petaling Street but still u can see lotsa caucasions and tourists scattering everywhere there.The best is to bargain in Cantonese or else u'll get slaughtered gao gao.Tsim Sha Tsui was nice with the promising view of HK Island skyscraper at the harbour area,u'll get LV,Prada,Armani,Gucci over there where there's no way I can afford.So,boring!Starwalk was nice and the view is magnificient cos it was facing right in front of the significant HK island city and sumwhere nearby Peninsula Hotel.



Hong Kong(The Island) - View was nice at Victoria Peak...amazing and it was very cold over there.In fact coldest ever in HK which claimed by some meteorologist(10c to 12c),for me it was ok only.Went to Causeway Bay(Tong Lo Wan) for several times to shop,got really headache and suffocated by the amount of ppl there...many is too little to describe,I shall use much instead.Tried out the native Red Box Plus over there courtesy of Christine(Charles aunt. a capable woman of PCCW).Bought a lot of odd stuffs in fact -_- and ate a lot.Extended for few more days to stay in Christine place in Kennedy Town(Western part of HK island adjacent to Central-Zhong Wan and Hong Kong University) a classy area with lotsa high rise buildings and of cos the price of real properties there are 3 folds of M'sian market price starting from million for everything...Bukit Tunku,Damansara Height,Mont Kiara,Hartamas area...are nothing compare to those in HK.Houses are tiny but costly...but the view from Christine place was nicest cos it was facing the sea...public transport is nothing to complain about,best of all even better than Singapore I think,of cos they charged more...count ourselves lucky to stay in M'sia where train ticket from 2 ends are so fucking cheap...but then gotta trade off with good services since we're all in favour of cheap things instead of good services,don't complain too much will do with the price we're paying and other ppl paying.Tram is only 2 HKD and service is good as well...the longest time I'd ever waited in HK for a public transport was 1 minute.Learn it up RapidKL,TransitLink,Maju,KTM...*roll eyes*



Lantau Island(HK) - Went to visit the huge Buddha statue right on top of the peak of some mountain range(Dai Fat San) that required us to take cable car then climbed up hundreds of stairs just to reach the "foot" of the buddha statue... did some holy deeds such as ate vegetarian food,donation for sure since we are devoted Buddhists.Later on,off we went to Disneyland which left us in disappointment cos it turned out to be boring and dull.No exotic and challenging rides like those in DisneyWorld Florida and Tokyo Disneyland...all we could see is kiddo rides like Merry Go Round,Flying Jumbo,Tea Cups,Locomotive Train,some lame rafts and slow sampans...-_-...295 HKD weiiii!Wasted just lidat...could've buy a lot of winter clothings.The castle is the shortest ever among all the Disneylands,parade was pretty short like 30 minutes only...souveneir shops are the most in Disneyland HK...fucking Disney corp. that earning so much from us...without fulfilling our childhood dream to the fullest,in fact,it makes me feel like Disneyland HK is more of a place for selling souveneirs than bringing us fun.Genting Highland can anytime beat 'em down in term of fun.It sucks and I left so early that I didn't even bother to wait for the closing ceromony which comprising some fireworks...who noes whether they're gonna charge us for "viewing" or not.Disney theme MTR train was nice and cute and comfy!But not the theme park.Don't go to HK Disneyland ppl out there or else u'll regret for whole life,it won't answer ur anticipation and dreams...pay more and opt for other Disneylands.It's a shame I skipped Ocean Park for Disneyland,Ocean Park is much more bigger and nicer but the tic. costs only 100++ ,a lot cheaper than stupid Disneyland.I felt so lame when I left the Disneyland gantry...in fact started to question myself what the fuck I'm doing and paying this for?



*overall the entire China trip was nice(inclusive of HK and Macau),but ppl there are less polite than our local ppl...so don't ever say that Malaysians are rude if u haven't seen the rudest.I wonder how come a highly civilise city will nurture so many of uncivilise ppl...the China Public Securities(Gong An) are so unhelpful to our problems such as asking road direction,there were either getting wrong direction from them,getting a total cold shoulder from them(i'm gonna whack this particular one if I ever seen him around),or they will just tell u they dunno or shrug(mahai,can't u just ask ur comrades or wat instead of shrugging),food in HK is nice but not in Shen Zhen.HK sp. administrative govt. is very considerate cos they're enforcing "no smoking"policy into their law that ppl are only allow to smoke in limited places in HK...almost everywhere banned smoking and also u can see hand sanitizer dispensers anywhere in shopping complexes,hotels,MTR stations,restaurants,private residential premises...to overcome birdflu,SARS,influenza and other respiratory disease tht can spread easily among ppl esp. given the crowd in HK is never ceased from dusk till dawn.Thumbs up for their public health awareness...


PS:I've missed out on so many nice places like Ocean Park,Snoopy's world,Mid-level escalator walkway(passed by few times but din manage to go,it's da longest escalator walkway in the world I think),The wishing tree in Lamma Island,Wong Dai Sin Temples(although it was only 2 MTR stations away from my hotel,damn!)...some other nice places recommended by the HK tourism board.

pps:Oh yea,there was some strange things happened on the 1st day I checked into Newton Hotel Kowloon.Bcos of some "special" incidents that made us worried for the whole night for the safety of Michell and Chanel...so we didn't actually sleep well in Shen Zhen the night before.Thus,we compensated in our HK's hotel since we arrived there too early like 11 am sumthing only...and while sleeping I could hear someone pressing the doorbell massively and it happened constantly that it was so annoying...and I opened the door few times only to realise there was none,and the corridor was fucking spooky can!It was so deserted and eerie that I was goosebumped.Then later on I found out from Chanel which claimed to have this sixth sense that this floor of the hotel is not very "clean"...argh...*faint*!No wonder they don't even dare to answer the door even when we rang it.Luckily I'm a holy man...paranormal creatures will just fuck off from me and leave me alone!But after that day everything was fine and normal,weird.I still believe they were someone "real" pressed the doorbell,that could be a prank since our room is facing directly at the elevator,so I suspect he/she could've escaped easily from us after playing those pranks!Fuck!




The castle tells everything,yea,it's da Disneyland in dispute -_-"


Look at the stairs to the peak of the Buddha statue...damn a lot...and I saw there's lotsa elderly managed to climb up without external aids,and nope I didn't see any ambulance around as well.

The Repulse Bay(Tsin Sui Wan),a fishing village,with Charles,Michell and Chanel(Michell's mama)

Breathtaking view of the HK and Kowloon skyscrapers from Victoria Peak


At Victoria Harbour and the Starwalk in Tsim Sha Tsui.

The Cultural Village in Shen Zhen,the posers and nose digging seems vy fun for them.

The mock up Eiffel Tower at Window of the world,I wish I was in Paris...argh my Euro Trip seems bubbled to me now since I'm freaking broke edi...



In a taxi,on top of one of the many suspension bridges in Macau,that was the reknowned Macau Tower with casino inside.Taxi ride was fucking expensive in Macau especially(HK is nothing better oso)!

*I got dear lotsa photos but too lazy to post la!Used up all 5 memory sticks we have lol...2x128mb,1x256mb,1x32mb,1x16mb.....still not really sufficient for our 2 weeks trip to be honest including all the camwhoring ones.*ooops*