This one is totally disheartening...

lYea,so afterall my result is bad...as bad as what you expect,

SAD?hmm...not anymore,it's pointless struggle.ACCEPTED fate?Not really oso,I'm still gonna fight for what I wanna do in future,this piece of paper won't be able to imply or conclude anything of mine cos it's only some inks printed on a piece of shit that made from trees.My live is more valuable than that can be able to determine...it's my life,I paint it myself without the need of papers and inks...I paint with feelings and thoughts that are so abstract yet practical.You amoeba won't understand it...

My AS - ABC + IELTS Band 7.0
My A2 - BCD
Overall - BCD (amazingly degraded by one grade)

My A is gone T^T...I won't tell which subject that achieved these grades,you make the guessing yourself!

...so I'm unabashed and not ashame to show off my "gemilang" result here,yea yea,you mushroom heads laugh for all you want,I don't care...I have a life unlike you!

screw it...effing sucky now!Might bite...cos I've already made my position clear that no D shall be obtained in any one of the subjects and yet I still got a effing D for the effing fickle ECONOMICS(this I have to reveal cos I've retake the AS part and thought I will do better but still my effort spent on retaking it is now down under the drain)...rather spend my time on solving krypton,sudoku,kakuro and watever than squeezing my brain juice on Economic graphs,plain sad subject!

I'm quitting my job in YS cos I think it's the time to reconsider what I really want in future, perhaps a post mortem on myself and mental recollection...and most important of all,settle with my applications(I doubt it will be in smooth-sailing...) and decision!

gahness*...I AM NOT UPSET,AM I?

Yea,to those that have seen this post,don't try to buzz me ok?Whatever your starting point is good or bad,I'll just have to be mean and ignorant to you.Sorry to say that.I don't need your consoles and cheerings cos it only makes you think that I did bad and in fact I don't feel that way you feel,don't get misunderstood,I'm sad of my Econs only,mushrooms!Don't pretend that you know me in fact you are not ok?

bahness*

I've hearing a lot of negative and positive feedbacks...of cos friends around me has been giving me support and we share our feelings and hardships.That's ok...but those who wanna compete and have a good laugh on it,sorry hope you burn in hell and won't get your reincarnation! roll eyes*

Yea,mum sighed a bit but dad still silent...godpa and godma told me it's ok as long as I passed all and encouraged me to go on.Those are the saints and the saviours in my life,ever and all the while.However,I can't deny that there is also bad mouth among those I love.Yea,my finger is pointing towards you...yes it's you my Aunt's husband(aka Uncle).Initially,I was very upset about my result(he fetched me to college) and you've been blabbering on your own beside my ear endlessly about those been-there-done-there thingy about how expert you are when it comes to navigating around KL and PJ roads(and wtf you still asked me about the directions?just to show how clever you are,not!).As if not enough,least to my surprise,he started on with his mantra on how should I be considerate for my dad that I shouldn't go Sunway in the first place and opt for STPM instead so that I can save that amount for Uni.Of cos,I can't shoot him back as he's gonna fetch me back JB on Sunday...I just nodded and gave him some "indicative" smiles so that he can shut the fuck up,but unfortunately,he didn't...and went on telling me how he dislikes commercialised colleges and what a leecher they are...and all his personal pet theories which for me,beyond absurdity!C'mon I didn't even wanna bring out the biggest downside of you and still hoping you'd respect me a lil' bit at least for good.What a jerk!

I never ever regret of taking A-levels in my life,although I didn't do big thing out of it but at least I get to experience a multi-diversity college life with bunch of good friends from all over the world.I get to use English which I never speak in JB.I get to experience campus life earlier than others.I'm more exposed.I met alot of ppl.I'm more independent.I can handle my own life(of cos with financial support from the other side).Those are what I call the most important elements when facing varsity life aside from getting AAA in exam...in fact i'm out from them now at least.To my glee is that,i spent a lot of time in library than my room,THOL is fantastic.I miss those days we spent in library,going clubbing,chatting in friends' rooms,hogging friends beds,swimming,Pyramid-ing(a legendary shopping mall for us),Palmville!,rushing assignments(law),moving houses,badminton,Bak Kut Teh,Orange,Pink,Blue,Medan,poolside,RSB,Jaafar,live football matchescall for McD delivery,study until midnight,preparing for Presentations...and whole loads to list!

I will never get these if I still stay put in tiny JB and lead the same kinda life as in Sec. school.It's not that I did verrrry bad,at least my AS part was pretty well.I got merit award for AS Law still!And thx to Mr. Raj a great lecturer(but not in teaching la!)...Ms Wong(for doubting us)...Mr. Soma(for....hmm...making me hate Econs.)...Ms Joy(who doubted me in GP class)...Mr Leonard(for being a clown in IELTS lessons).Thk all of u!I can still remember how shy and pathetic I was during the 1st sem,I'm the least active one during orientation and hardly talk to my classmates...lol.And now,lesson learnt,I will not be that afraid of meeting new friends anymore,and I've get used to rushing assignments due date,burning midnite oil,presentations...I

And,Brit. system is better than our own native system to be honest.For sciences,maybe Brit. pattern is tad too easy comparing to STPM but for Arts...wayyyyyyy harder than you think and not easy to get an "A" given that 95% of the assessment is based on essay writing.I know sciences have that as well but not as many as Arts.Cos Arts are abstract and they rarely have a definite and objective answer to them.

Get what I mean,Uncle!If I ever go to English College(the Form 6 school tht I suppose to go),I'll never get good lecturers like them(mentioned above) as govt. institutions are still lacking of good lecturers and in fact when it becomes the pain in ass for MOE...how can we expect our student to be productive when they can't even overcome the what most basic problem of themselves.It's a matter of scarcity.The "human development engineers" are getting extremely low pay,in return,they are not motivated and it then brings on a bad circulation in education system...the by products(students) will still be only a bunch of study machine even if they get the most A's.

So,get over it!

ps: I was awakened by a pair of familiar voice this morning again talking about me wasted my parents' money in A-levels to the other relatives outside...I know I should follow what my cousin doing in the first place,yea, one of my close cousin is waiting for his STPM result as well.Don't make comparison if you are not in my shoes.I'm different...and I can't be bothered much anymore.It's your mouth,talk for all the cocks you want.At the end of the day,you'll realise you were talking nonsense afterall. roll eyes*