Bon Vogaye

I'm flying off in less than 12 hrs from now...

Wish me yat lou sun fong,jit lou sun huang,safe trip,selamat jalan!

:D

Come back have to get result,broke,work,decide on future undertakings...yada yada!

T-T

Absurdities happen all the time

Today I woke up and realised that I wasn't able to open hell lotsa webpages.Not even Yahoo,my homepage.And to hell,MSN was crashed.Blogger was all fucked up.Let alone Friendster.

Then I was like bah!Screw them and continue on solving my New Straits Time Puzzle Mania entries which I doubt I'll be finishing them on time albeit due on 3rd Jan. for this 2nd round.All I can tell u is,it's never easy to win any prizes from a post!Why the fuck is that,2nd round of Puzzlemania is tad harder than the 1st...and furthermore,me is getting lazy and immensing in the mood of going on vacation on weekend.

Ke mana I nak cari mood untuk selesaikan semua Puzzles yg membingungkan kepalaku?!

Whatever,I'm gonna try to solve it by today for my very last try so that I can post out on Friday since after that follows 3 days of public holiday...and I won't be around as well.Argh...gonna consume lotsa grey matters during the holidays!

And also,you people tell me why the hell can earthquake affected our connection speed one la!And to hell is that the earthquake occured was like thousand miles away from our homeland.Official statement is that the earthquake triggered the under sea optic cables or whatever blah blah...wow...all thanks to the active movements of the tectonic plates of the "pacific ring of fire",had it not been for the incident of earthquake,I wouldn't even know the possibilities of this kinda absudity can be that high.Man,this is the 21st century already la...no more primitive thinking.*sigh*.All the great deeds of human being...floods!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I fucking wish can stop raining soon!

Irrelevant ps:Nabeh...before I forget everything,gotta call up Topshop Megamall to urge them for the replacement of my loyalty card which promised to reach in a month time.Up 'till yesterday is exactly a month up and I've still not yet receive my replacement card!Diu...not even a call from them.So what if I requested to pick up my card outside KL,that I'm bound for waiting then?Imma gonna shop very soon,so I can't wait to get back my card.Don't understand what's the problem with my card as it seems fine to me but to them it was damaged.cheh meh staffs!

OMG...I can't sleep!

What type of music are you?

Rock on, dude! You are Punk music!
Take this quiz!

Yea right...so fuck off.

Went for job interview today after Charles told me last minute about YS having interview at Giant Plentong...and luckily Jenny still able to recognise us that we didn't require to further our interview session but just submit the form.

This year will gonna work in either Holiday Plaza,Plaza Pelangi or CS.But then the obstacles are HK trip and the release of A2 result...dunno...take leave?-_-

They no longer having sales target to determine ur pay increment anymore for this year but rather draw from overall sales,something like commission la.Dunno whether it's a good sign or not.

Aftermath

Supposed to go Kota Tinggi today to visit some flood affected relatives but too bad the only road leading to Kota Tinggi was under constructions to fix the mudslide spots.And we were there halfway after Ulu Tiram but too bad they changed the road to single lane and the jam was unable to move...and seeing that it was gonna rain again,we took U-turn back instead -_-

But on the way to KT...we could see lotsa mudslide spots.And potholes filled with muddy water.And cars on tow out of soaking in water...

Heard that there's a few crocodiles escaped as well in KT...:s

Hope everyone is fine and all the victims are safe...thank those NGOs and all other private sectors and even Red Cross Society from Singapore who assist in helping the victims due to the incapability of our very own state government in handling this matter...*sigh*

Merry Merry Xmas and Happy New Year!

SO this is Xmas...

and Merry CHRISTMAS TO ALL!!!!!!!!!

Where's my presents!Mana...?

I'm so disappointed cos santa didn't visit me this year anyhow like before...so ppl don't ever believe the existence of santa cos afterall it is bullshit...or to blindfold all the children out there like how we used to encounter last time.I still remember my mum bought me a Xmas socks when I was very young and in the middle of the night she came and stuffed a present inside for my sis and I but of cos I knew that was her...cos I DUN BELIEVE IN SANTA.

I don't even celebrate Xmas as I'm not even a Christian,just to steep into the atmosphere and enjoy the decorations and carols!And this year Xmas eve was given to my cousin sister cos she organised a mini BBQ party for my family and her family...and that's it for this year.No present at all but then the time spent together with family is more important and meaningful than others.

So I didn't go Orchard Rd this year like last other years...cos Charles wasn't here and BL was working...miss the lights though!

And I gotta start packing my stuffs cos ME GOIN TO HONG KONG this SUNDAY!yay...I never join parents for Genting trip bcos of this...they are goin there 4 days 3 nites is like,hell!!!What can I do there for so many days...1/2 a day is more than sufficient for me in Genting(the last place to travel in my list...).

So this year Xmas,I've picked few nice songs to recommend :

Mariah Carey - All I Want For Xmas Is You (all time fav.)
Sarah Mclachlan - Happy Xmas(war is over)
Corrinne May - Joy to The World,Hark the Herald Angel Sings,Angels We Have Heard On High

and those other angel voices like Josh Groban,Il Divo,Hayley Westenra,Corrinne Bailey Rae,Emi Fujita,Sarah Brightman,Andrea Bocelli,Charlotte Church,Michael Buble,Jamie Cullum...are so suitable to be listened at this very season!I got so addicted!

Best Xmas movie :

Love Actually

ps: I wanna learn ballroom dance sooooooo bad especially,Jive,Quick steps,Waltz,Tango...after I watched Take the lead,Shall we dance? and Step up...I have the sudden urge to learn dancing -_-

Do I really have to look like them?!

Whoever that are so convinced that they "really" look like those people in the photos displayed by this fictitious software and started putting glitters on themselves...go bang urself against the wall for good.

I'm all in...

Triple postings~some silly arguments~

I just hung up my conversation with one of my net friend in a rather unhappy and jumpy chat-o-sphere.

I mentioned to him that I could've use "tongue piercing" by all means as a dietetic restraint.Cos obviously after you get that little fleshy made up by cells and veins punched,infection is inevitable.And so...the adversarial chatting started and gone worse until I told him I had my ear lob and cartilage pierced as well,not to be left out,my tribal tattoo sitting tight on my ankle.Whoa,he then rebutted my statements massively as if I've committed some punishable crimes like that which should've send to the gallow to be presecuted immediately.All sorts of "do's and don'ts" and the atrocity to spout flowerish nonsenses which carry heavy religious remarks.I had to really beg his pardon and further begging to differ...am I compel to accept all his rubbish talkings and absurdities?!Well,he seems smart becos he used spiritual attack like "it's self-hypnotizing","dare to be different","trend","following my frens"...yada yada of sarcastic implications.The smart me of cos smelled rats and so stopped him from preaching after all he ain't a pastor or what and to me pastors are crappy.He's involving in some kinda 9th class Buddhist teaching clan called "Soka Gakkai" originated from Japan,and to hell he still dares to tell me that this mysterious clan is a NGO.Ok!Now,pardon my ignorance but I really never heard of this organisation before.I'm a pious Buddhist and all I know is we should respect our god and the same time not to harm the others...I burn incense,jossticks and I don't offer meat to my god on the altar...that's all I know!And those mantras that I'm familiar with(or as far as me and ppl around me concern) are all written in Pali instead of Japanese.Don't tell me how great is the founder's(Prof. Imeda XXX sumthing la,a Japanese) philosophic quotes(I suspect they are propagandas) cos I won't appreciate them,I rather listen to a monk than him(a person that I never heard of and doesn't exists in my life).CRAPS!

I try to absorb the virtues and moral values that teach us to be good to society.As long as I come in clear conscience and I don't do harm,then what's the big deal of having piercings?Ok,well you may tell me one of the teaching goes..."do not harm ur body bcos they are sacred"...*roll eyes* C'mon then tell me what do you mean by "sacred" in this 21st century where we see things in a down-to-earth way rather than abstraction.Tell your founder to get a life and face the reality then.Some values are meant to be inherited but some are don't.It's not even the matter of what "god says..." but rather what "the situation tells..." or maybe what I feel right that is none of your concern cos it doesn't affect you in any way also.

He was telling me that I'm lying to myself and I'm doing that to commemorate my naivety and childishness.Excuse moi!A caveman like you don't even know understand the "sacred" of symbolism and freedom.It's a symbol that can carries anything that we like and it's our liberty to do that...I have all the rights to mention HUMAN RIGHTS here cos I feel that you were trying to intrigue my personal interest and trying to tell me what I did was wrong where there's over a billion of ppl doing exactly the something as me without being enforced by any statutes in the world so far?!You can anything bring your religious craps and statements to the Human Rights Commision...I sure layan to the max and see either facts or religious is gonna win over this lawsuit.Hey,my lecturer once told me that I'm not corrupting public moral as well.So what's your 20 cents on religious and moral issues?Wanna debate,I'm all out?Moral is something really "sacred" that can be explained in scientific way as why should we adopt those moral values and why should it be integrated into our elementary education.But religious is not compulsory except for Muslims in M'sia.The imams are urging their ppl to modernise Islam to be more civilised and yet a small clan like yours unable to?Well,I thought Japanese is a highly modernised and diversified society?And just can't believe that the existent of such person's teaching can still be echoed by so many foolish ppl like you out of Japan(ok I apologise to the founder if that person I was talking to misapprehend the intentions and teaching values but yet still going around preaching everyone with mixture of his personal reflection,twisted the facts...deeply apologise to whoever the founder is,now isn't he the one who commited the biggest sins of innuendo and confusing others?Shall we send him for prosecution?Perhaps in a primitive way like stoned-to-death,seal his mouth...castration?! )

C'mon man,face the facts.You don't know anything.And you don't even know what I'm thinking and how can you dare enough to say that I'm self hypnotizing,lying to myself and naive?

Afterall,everyone lies to themselves in different ways(whoever doesn't lie to themselves I call them the biggest hypocrites).Those that you mentioned could be one small portion of them but definitely not me,I will never ever opt this way to lie to myself.Wait a minute,does that even means that the clothes and pants that I'm on my putting on is also a way of self-lying?Cos they do enhance your very appearance as well.Aha,I almost forgot that you are a jungle dweller which inhabit with our dearie national treasure called sakai(primitive man) where they where nothing to cover their private parts which to me...it's more of corrupting public moral if I wanna to pick something to fire on.....but luckily they do cover them now with at least some cloths nowadays.Thank them for inspiring our fellow designers,so that we can enjoy the "benefits" of a G-String and T-Back that has brought to us.

A few holes and some paintings on my body do not change my inner values and my character,the only changes is appearance which can be very deceiveful if you didn't already realised about it cos you are practically lying to yourself as well by judging a book by its cover!

And next time if you try me again and cause commotion...I dare you...I'm gonna fuck you off and applaud your masterpiece to the public(If I'm made capable of doing that,why not?!)

...sign off!

Double posting~Xmas wishlist~

All I want for this Xmas is :

~EXCELLENT result!
~Found a high pay part time job
~Money drop from sky
~Slimmer
~Done with my Uni. application and decided with an ideal course
~Stop raining so frequently
~World peace(conventional :p)
~Safe and healthy
~Wish Santa can visit me and grant me another inexhaustible wishlist(that not mere wishlist that simple but a list that can be materialized!)

Gah!

Flood!

Wah...Kota Tinggi road mudslid and collapsed...!

And tht's the only major road linked to KT and now ppl from JB and outside KT can't access to KT...the same goes to those staying in KT where they are trapped inside and practically waiting to be evacuated.

-_- wonder what are those Bombas doing?!...heard that there are still victims trap sumwhere in the midst of flood which overlooked by "cheh meh" Bombas...!

Well,hope it won't be ended up as a second Katrina.Or else people will gonna boo~ the state government down in no time once they get fed-up of it.

Abacadabra...stop that Mother Nature!

OMFG

It's raining cats and dogs now for almost 3 days UNCEASINGLY!

Nabeh!The tiny domestic road in front my house also can jam because of stupid flash flood?!The whole JB was like under chaos...cannot even go out!

Summore keep on running nose.....sien!I hope the barometer in HK now is on the higher side.Please don't rain in HK until I came back!

And stop raining here as well...annoying!

Must be tropical cyclone that transformed and reduced from "Durian"...diu...no mood!

And look!Now the sun is shining and glaring like mad.....just wait till the next second for those clouds to mask over it and the pressure will rise again!*clinch fists*

Ouch and ....err....yea...ouch!Case analysis...

Ouchy senario 1 :

I was chatting with Mark(one of my net frens) and to hell he just underwent the 1st stage of dental bracing!2 freaking molar teeth have to be removed and that hasn't done yet,next monday 2 more have to be extracted.Fucking agonize man...the way he described to me and his current feelings.Dying to eat but unable to chew to his max. enjoyment,so all he can eat is only liquidized foods like porridge,oats(yucks) and etc. at this very moment until the braces are fixed on and lying idly without causing pain to his gums and teeth.Ok,so this entire process will be lasted for at least a couple of months!Hell.It will then burns out 5k from your pocket.The intrinsic and extrinsic price for it...for sake to beautify the ugly duckling!But I WANT...my fucking ragged and uneven teeth needs remedy this time,I especially hate it when foods get stucked easily in between the gaps!But still I do like the fact that I have 4 nice and big canine teeth somewhat resemble vampire!Eeek.....!

Just imagine when they inject anaesthetic into your vulnerable and sensitive gums is able to tick me off.OUCH!According to him when the anaesthetic goes off,the recovered pain + the bleed is damn irritating and hardly bearable...mind you it's able to cause you a serious mental breakdown summore.And to hell again,he needs to put on the braces for the next 2 years time.Niamah!2 yearss!!!Extreme make over indeed...with heavy price.

Updated:
Outcome=Daddy said too costly and asked me to go for government hospital instead which takes only 500 bucks but the trade off is shortest period of waiting time can be at least a YEAR!So may have to wait long long for your turn...by that time,man,I'll be either studying or already fled to elsewhere not here anymore :(

Conclusion=After I graduated and get my own job,earn my own money and spend it with my own money,bummer -_-.

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Ouchy senario 2 :

Again out of sudden,the urge to get myself the long-wanted TONGUE PIERCE...*sighs* here the obstacle is my family but I was thinking just to reduce the frequency of opening my mouth and showing my tongue before them will do but that's very hard to control anyhow cos it's againt nature course haha...you can always do that subconciously or even unconciously when you don't even aware of it.However I think it can still works to some extent if I dare to take the risk of piercing it......I knoe it's pain but what I fear the most is the pain I have to suffer from being condemn by parents!

...it's better to ask for forgiveness than permission as how the cliche goes....so....what should I do now?Follow it or against it?!Eeek......!

Updated:
Outcome=Well...what more can I say?It's a firm reject by conservative Mummy and Sis.Dad didn't know though cos I still don't feel like dying yet...Mum threatened if I ever do tongue pierce,she will cut off my allowance financing,no room for negotiation for all the requests I want in future,worse come to worse if I did secretly and she found out,she might just stop financing my tertiary studies and urge me to get a job.Indeed,an expected outcome...can lead to family tragic perhaps :(...haiz...let's see then!

Conclusion=Postponed for no time limit ahead...until new piece of mind is found and time is ripe.Could be 2-3 years time...longer period away from home...no doubt I'll still do but it's just a matter of time and permission where the latter can be ripped off easily(yea,I'm bad and rebellious :p).Well,I don't see there's any problem why people should associate tattooing and piercing with religious,moral,ethical issues,and way off the wall.Bummer...see how then -_- the most resume my previous long gone 2nd tattoo plan lo---more expensive sial!666!

A great site about ppl experiencing various piercing's encounters : http://www.bmezine.com well the ppl there really enlightened me and gave me courages to go ahead and pierce it.Cos according to them the process of needling and penetrating itself do not hurt as much as what the aftermath does.....heard that swelling,pus,scabs,dryness,irritants,difficulties in eating,lymph,lisps are inevitable but only eligible for the first few weeks up to a month or a couple depending on the rate of your body healness...yea...it's just like ear piercing rite?!Cos tongue is muscle,there goes the same as your ear lobes but well cartilage is different though cos it involves the softbones and lotsa veins and nerves unlike tongue I supposed.Correct me if I'm wrong....*sobs*

Weekend!

Woke up pretty late today feeling somewhat moody...

Didn't even have the appetite to eat...so I just had a few more extra papadam to bury my stomach.

Later on,tagged along with sis and mum to Z studio for hair scalp treatment + hair spa!!!My head is so light now and the poles are all so relieve...clean...refresh!haha

Dinner was nice since we had Korean food at Jang Won in Stulang...an authentic Korean owned restaurant.Stuffed up really full,I had a bowl of Bibimpap + Sweet potatoes' vermicelli + assorted side dishes + a bowl of extra rice along with "Sang Mut Tang"(seafood steamboat I think,damn spicy can!).FUCKIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIINGly full,and damn supposed to diet(again -_-).And I'm munching on papadams and breads now again since the Korean foods weren't that filling afterall...soupy and full of vegs.

Rubbish

Went to Zon today to pay up and discuss about the itinerary.Suddenly feel so heartache cos I just dried up both my saving and spending account in a day or practically a trip.Yea,I'm extremely poorer than u think.Paid 1.5k(partial) for the deposits and stuffs,visas' fees are waived,and got a pretty useless travel bag(as usual),or should I say vanity case?Cos it can't even fit in few more extra garments...what to do...on tight budget so have to opt for 9th class service like this.And to hell I'm still overbudget!See...told u I'm fucking poor!

So we will fly off from Changi Airport on 31st Dec. and will be arriving Macao in approx. 3 hours time.Then right after that have to take ferry to Shen Zhen and stay there for 2 Days cos HK's hotels all nabeh kena fully booked or crammed at the moment so have to wait for few more days in Shen Zhen.Well,we can jolly well go shop for mega thrifty mass produced goods in China though,boh pien like I said BUDGET(well it's restricted to moi only!).After Shen Zhen will be HK,and we still thinking to go or not to go Disney cos I'm not really interested in those kiddo mascots but since it's famous so...we'll decide later la...freaking 250 bucks per entry 666!The trip lasts for 7 days 6 nights I think,flying with Tiger Air(a lowcost budget air managed by Singaporean...what to do,no money!and to hell their fares are increasing daily when approaching New Year and Xmas...super peak!).Yesterday was still 364 SGD and today 20 bucks increment,diu!50 more bucks we can take off by Singapore Airline lo.Stupid festive season haha.So anyways,I'm going with Charles,Michell and her mum at this point,there will be changes though,depends.

So please PM me if any of u are so kind enough that want to subsidise me k? :p

ps: I saw few amusing entertainment news that really makes me laugh till drop.1st is the one of canto-pop singer Yumiko with her pants fell off during an acrobatic performance,omg,if I were her I'll just jolly well quit myself from the field forever.And then Elva Hsiao's upcoming album after long awaited titled "1087" kena transliterated into "依琳白痴"........*speechless*what da fuck those ppl got nothing else better to do lidat rite,deliberately playing prank and raised sensitive issue to trigger 2 mando-pop so called superstars or better still,Dancing Queen!Will they be enemy then,we shall see...haha if Jolin is so stupid enough to take it serious cos Elva's explanation is that "1087" stands for the days she waited for this upcoming album to be released.-_-.Well...

Dying inside...

I need a job I need a job I need a job cos I need $ I need $ I need more $!!!

I get so fed up of late...especially hate it when what I opted to do didn't get any support from parents instead criticisims.It's crappy,just need more of understanding.What I've been wanted to do are not high off the hog nor extravagant like their piece of thoughts but for me I feel they are rather realistic and practically like other commoners will do.But to them,those are full of unbearable descriptions that you will never wanna hear any...kinda dampening!Shitty.

I'm nearly 20 ok?Still expecting me to be that lil' kiddo demanding for lollipops/toys/gizmos???I want knowledge...something abstract beyond my(and ur) imagination,beyond what we can learn from textbooks.No longer wanna be a"frog underneath the well"...I have wings but I use them on the right time.Hope they can ever understand that.

I have my own ideal plan and I hope no one is there to shatter or trigger it down.

It's only through that that I'll grow to become a official "adult" provided I'm gonna be 20 soon!I really wish they don't put their personal yardstick upon me which can be totally inaccurate and out of standard,at the same time hope they can respect my decisions and don't put them in disdain.

And so...I'm getting fucking emo lately for reasons above!My patience is running out,so as my positive mood....so melancholic!

PS: my Clark Hatch gym subscription cancelled cos I still thought of working is more important for me at this moment haha...summore if I go gym have to shallow out my pocket again which already burnt...guess I'll have to wait until I found my new course and get membership from FF in the end in KL.Not JB :( cos Clark Hatch is not cheap and not many facilities here in JB compare to the one in KL and PJ!I wanna go to FF The Curve!!!I want Body Jam GroupX from FF!!!

The loud grudge within

I just can't stand those xenophiles that having overdosed affection for caucasians or get so obsessed over them.They are superior and in the other way they look down on their own cultures and people.What's that?Go burn in hell please...it's so making me sick!

I'm not being xenophobic anyway...but at least I am told to remember my own root all the while.

*frowns and roll eyes*

Irrigation 1

Yea...it's been long since the last time I logged in and updated.Not that I'm busying with anything right now on hands but I got really thirst out of inspiration and the momentum to blog on.*sigh*.Come to think of it,it's been almost 2 years that I've been blogging constantly no matter what happens and whatever obstacles that blocking my way.After all the ups and downs,I'm still standing strong blogging my way here...wonder why.On the contrary side,I blogged the most during exams but least blogged when I have fruitful of time.Argh...cos there's really none a single fucking interesting event happened so far during my entire free time you see!You could probably tell me that DOHA 2006 is interesting enough but fuck off cos Malaysia got only 3 golds in pocket so far.Such a shameful outcome how am I suppose to blog?Oh maybe I should be grateful at this point that our national bowling team and that of 2 badminton player that has finally bring us glory that we should shout out loud "boleh!".Well,none of my business also although I'm dwelling on this so called boleh-land.I'm kind of pragmatic,their glories are none of my concern.Do I get 200k if anyone of them get gold medal?No!

Enough of rambings...

Ok,I'm feeling damn emo after I got my not-so-emo hair cut.Wonder why?I think I've been hibernate a lot at home which makes me completely forgot there's a nicer and better place beyond the main door called "outside".The main reason of this is I'm damn freaking broke ok?POVERTY!I'm trading off this on-purpose's poverty with my coming trip to HK.If I can really make it to the trip,my savings will fall exponentially to "nil" or worse come to worse negative index...debts!haha...nevertheless I'm still gonna struggle a way out cos I so wanted to go beyond boleh-land this season.Although I won't be able to see snow but somehow,a different atmosphere do help.So it implies that a high remuneration part time job is on demand once I got back from HK,if and ever no matter what.So dead.Just fuck it!

But deep down there's a hidden feeling of wanting the trip to be cancelled as I don't make effort to push myself but same time I don't counteract against it.Just let it be...que sera sera.Come what come may,I'll just take it calmly.haha.Shhh.....

Megasale is around the curve...so tempting T^T.Forget about it this time.I'm so agonized...Had it not been the worthiness of going HK,I'll just raid all the retailers here at once!

So boring anyhow at this moment,hope Mr. Santa Claus will come visit me.Pls I don't have chimney but you can come in from either the dormer,main door or back door anyhow cos I have lotsa wishes to be fulfilled!I need santa to deliver me an excellent result for A2 first of all and secondly lemme get at least one of the prizes in New Straits Times Puzzlemania contest!Talking about NST Puzzlemania,I just realised I'm lacking one of the 2nd Dec. copy after the completion of 9 copies(10 in total).What a waste of time!Fortunately,the closing date is 20th of this month and there's another 3 more rounds to go until February!hohohoho...Santa *wink wink rub hands*

Anyways,I'm just here to irrigate my own blog in order to prevent it from rotting away in dismay(rhyme is not intended).

What I've been doing....

Practically none ever since the day I came back to JB land!Damn...feel such a waste to live life like that.Im'ma go gym soon!Swimming lesson soon!

I'm still downloading Step Up...damn!Can't wait to watch it...the OST are heavenly fabulous!Nicey!

Suddenly this A2 result thingy came into mind...wonder what kinda result will I get...bet it's not so a nice and flying colours result since I hardly put in any effort.

Duh!