Forgotten

And I realised there are a list of things I've already forgotten for good in this fruitless 2007,

- how to communicate effectively
- how to sleep effectively
- how to play squash
- how to swim (!)
- how to carry out plans
- how to play bamboo flute
- how to play electone keyboard
- how to sing with full emotions
- how to travel by public in my hometown
- how to open my eyes when I need to
- how to use Skype
- how to smile
- how to search for inspiration
- how to keep in touch with people
- how to draw
- how to bottle up dispositions (good/bad)
- how to fiddle around with Photoshop CS 3
- how to write a few or more Chinese characters
- how to write hangul
- how to do elementary maths and calculus
- AS/A2 Law & Economics
- to read books I've bought prior to this holiday
- to materialise my 2007 resolutions before the end of it in a month time
- to do exercise, keep fit and stay healthy
- to buy a new watch
- where is my home?
- what is the purpose to sleep?
- myself
- what should I write next.........

Laters.

The Bottle Ups and The Brouhahas

Boozed 3/4 bottle of hard liquor.
Cracked up in hallucination.
Went paralytic, not very.
Fired off MSN harassment attempts.
Apologies.
Collapsed.
Zonked out.
Threw out in dormancy.(I didn't aware...woOt!)
Hang over. (present tense pls.)

Rang up exam office.
Fledging :)
I hope god isn't pulling my leg.
3.0 for this semester IF I'm not mistaken.
Yay!
Still, no mercy for Ms Shanta. Hmpf!

Zillion congrats, gong xi, omedetou, ju ka hae...to Mr. *AppleNate*
For making into the 1st round.
Best believe you won't make it if I didn't back off last minute. Duh!
Right, I'm kidding only.
巨星 or 明星.
Pick whichever good to hear.

Adios.

Ode to my homeland

Woke up and overheard some conversation going on between mummy and some random fellas. I was worried cos I thought my mum gone mad and decided to talk to herself instead but later only to realise that how serious the matter was!

Nope, it has nothing to do with my mum's mental well being cos she was talking to our neighbours + engaging phone call with daddy the whole morning. The thing is, apparently there were 3 Indians eyeing my house and about to pry our roof top as well as the backdoor ( atleast I thought so). Fortunately neighbours were alerted then informed my mum and then they called Rakan Cop. Nonetheless, it was all too late to do anything since they had already got away long before the cops reached. Luckily still, we had the Rukun Tetangga around but nothing much could be done too. They are just watchdog without teeth since they don't even have legitimate jurisdiction over the neighbourhood nor proper relationship with government officers.

Blimey, I was still zonked in my slumberland while everything was happening until it was over. Haha. I wasn't too shock about it la, since we have been living in this kinda dire strait for over a decade already. That was the fourth time my house got burglarised (or nearly had) that I can still recall the aftermath of the worst one ever happened, my dad invited fengshui master, consulted bomoh and some gurus of metaphysics hoping we won't fall prey again but god knows why they all backfired *chuckles*. Not that I live in a whooping 3 storeys bungalow with in-house private swimming pool few streets across. Anyways, here's another toast to our ever mesra/cepat/betul cops and the blooming of crime rates!

What else can we the innocent hoi pollois do about it then?

The answer is nothing yet, get over it and pray hard you won't be the next.

PS : Those fan cheongs are beyond stupidity cos they have only sesame sized brains, tell me who would ever invade a private residential early morning in a work-free weekend? (if there's any) Siao one.

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Have been laughing like mad on Goong (yea I know I should've done it long ago) and crying like watertap on Ghost Whisperer. Not only paranoid but I think I'm getting dotty and cuckoo soon. -_- Especially the Ghost Whisperer, it's not just horror (which it doesn't) but full of touching and tears inducing plot. Dunno la, I am so gonna buy season 3. Bye.

一种米 养 百种人

I just spoken to Meei Meei not long ago. Apparently she has been suffering from depression for her past and present college life. You know, it's like to the extent that she even comes with the notion of committing suicide. Well, as I've been-there-done-there, it just slit my tissues so hard that, yea, this is the world full of people with various faces be it for not single or multiple faces on a body. It's just like what the cast sang in The Phantom Of The Opera and the line goes like..."masquerade, paper faces on parade!"So yea, her story is revolving in friendship and apparently she feels that she has been exploited and used by her college friends for doing most of the assignments and courseworks without receiving credits that she supposed to have otherwise. They took her for granted without appreciating her efforts. To my surprise, I had similar encounter too during my past semesters which constituted to much of my depression those days. What I'd like to say is.....depression is too much to compensate for the encounter which in the other way, not worth to shed a single tears over them. We are born with different dispositions and raised in different environment. Sometimes they might feel that they are right in their point of view because they have been taught that way. Similarly, you can make firm your stand too in your own view, nobody's wrong just so we need to know how to accept the others at the same time when we insist on ours.

Most of the time we thought what we are doing might be right could be turned out wrong as well, perhaps against the "normal" course. Life is all about toleration and adaptation. Tolerate the good and the bad, learn to adapt to them knowing that those are inevitable. We have seen hypocrites all around us, in fact there's no truth in this world. We lie, we make-believe, we dwell in people's shadow, we potray what we are not, we pretend, we show off to impress, we go against our will, we live up to others' expectation and forgo ours...to be worse, we have to go on about infringing people's rights, badmouthing, jealousy, backstabbing and went all devastated. Seriously, although everyone has their right to do things within their boundaries sometimes there are just people who'd cross the line. In this case, I'm not gonna talk about Ryler v Fletcher anyhow. Duh! That's obsolete. Those who attempt to go beyond their business, they are just plain faggots! Losers who don't have the guts to do the right thing. I swear if I was 2 years younger than now I would have swear out loud in their faces but the thing is I ain't teenager anymore with the fact that I'm well-educated (kononnya). We deal in the way people of our age does.

In a broad sense, hypocrites is not just about an ancient philosopher. But it has been given an adj. characteristic to describe someone who OFTEN veil themselves up as what they are not for sakes of impressing others or to achieve certain who-the-hell-will-know motives. That is the lowest class of all creatures on earth after the roaches. However, in my view, "hypocrite" means more than that. People who doesn't appreciate, people who take things for granted, people who loves to impress people with what they are not, people who thinks they are always the right one, people who being discreetly high profile, people who failed to comprehend the genuine meaning of "friendship", people who never learn their mistakes..................the list goes on unexhausting.

Now do you realise there are plenty of mixed personalities beneath that flimsy masked layer of epidermis? That's why you can't doubt the ability of rice in Eastern society cos afterall 一种米养百种人(literally means one kind of rice is able to foster umpteen of different personalities).

I hope I don't sound like confucious or preacher here but actually I don't always practice what I preach, you know why?

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When you are confronting a hypocrite yourself, do you think patience and mercy are ever needed, just do what the hypocrite did to you cos you don't have to put yourself in his/her stinky shoes. An eye for an eye!

Sekian.

Letih banget!

Went on a date with my long lost friend in Sg.

Reached there around 11 am for that's the earliest time I could but she still half way going on her exam paper. In the meantime, I pun pergi explored the Esplanade. Took train to City Hall walked hell long to Marina Bay. Dare not jay walk cos police were everywhere roaming due to the ASEAN summit. Later kena fined SGD 50 on the spot mati pulak. Then rushed back to Orchard Rd to meet up Jessica but coincidentally we bumped into each other on the train. Apparently she sms-ed me before that asking my whereabouts and I told her I was on train heading Orchard but too bad the train arrived and landed her at my platform. I was no where on train or near Orchard yet when I sms-ed her anyways.lol. So as her wish, we sing-K again in Cineleisure for 4 hours. KBox seriously sucks, not going again( I think...). Malaysia has better karaoke chain in terms of service. RedBox and Neway definitely win hands down. Even the HK's RedBox Plus doesn't come close to Malaysia's. Anyways, dinner was in this famous eatery hiding away in Lucky Plaza, an Indonesian restaurant mainly selling Nasi Ayam Penyet ( crushed chicken cutlet with rice). Didn't expect to be so crowded and a lot rich Indonesians were dining there as well. The Penyet tasted rather er...normal haha...my taste bud is very picky one la. And sorry for the Sayur Asam, can't say that I enjoyed that bowl of sour sweet tasted soup with a lot of inedible plants inside.haha. Balik custom that time my legs already turned jelly. Hell tiring.

Did some light retail therapy as well, bought a tee from NUM and Pull & Bear cos kinda cheap despite having sales. AND I WAS EXPECTING ENORMOUS SALES GOING ON BUT NONE OF THE RETAILERS ARE PUTTING UP THE PRICE MARK DOWN SIGNS! Damn, ain't X'mas approaching already?

Probably be going Sg again tomorrow with the parents, but I doubt I won't in the meantime haha.

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Weather was gloomy, it was "kebelet" but refused to rain...luckily!

The Esplanade on Bay

The newly launched Singapore Flyer

Marina Bay and spot the Merlion statue?

X'mas tree in front of The Paragon

Aquarium at Atria's basement walkway

de-gloomi-fied

GOD

I HOPE EVERYTHING WILL BE FINE ON ME.

I HOPE I DID NOT OFFEND ANY PEOPLE, IF EVER, I DESERVE FOR ALL PUNISHMENTS.

TWAS GOD WHO SAVES ME FROM ALL THE WRECKS.

I'M BLESSED.

BUT OH WELL, WHO AM I TO DECIDE HERE.

SOMEHOW I DO SEE THE WEAK GLARE OF LIGHT SHINING UPON.

PEACE BE UPON GOD AND ME.

Back when

Once upon a time.....

Bored met Lost virtually. Lost was depressed. Bored was skeptical. Lost talked to Bored. Lost bugged Bored. Bored didn't get bored. Lost talked Bored out of whole universe. Bored listened. Bored happy and not bored anymore. But Bored still remained skeptical. Bored were no longer skeptical finally. Bored met Lost. Bored felt awkward but happy. Bored befriended Lost. Bored helped Lost. Lost wasn't pleasant and satisfy. Bored got tired and jaded. Bored never gave up. Bored still all happy with Lost deep down no matter how. Eventually Bored got bored with insensate Lost through out all attempts. Bored resort to coldness and nonchalance. Bored turned passive. Bored couldn't be bothered much on the surface. Lost knew nothing about the change supposedly. Bored totally gave up and turn its back on Lost. They became stranger to each other again and led their own lives.

Now, who says to every fairy tales there must be a ..."therefore, they live happily ever after?"

Cartoon

Watch this, damn hilarious! I mean, how often in your life you get to encounter cartoon dubbed in TAMIL!!!!!

It's damn fluent can? I mean not "fluent" but I just can't find any other better word to descbile la...they speak damn fast without pausing to catch new breath. LOL.

I real-time recorded from Vasantham Central...

PS : I'm not being racist ok? I just admire the words per minute the dubber can blabber. No offence.

Good, very good *smiles politely*

Just watched the news from Channel U...

Glad to find out that Isotretinoin USP 20mg that I've been swallowing for the past 3 months is actually a silent killer.

It kills 15 in UK and 200 in The States. How sweet eh? No it doesn't biologically kill someone with its hazardous substances but by time releasing. Day by day reducing (or increading) the releasing of certain hormones, which *takes deep breath*, bring a person down to the valley until that person lost faith in life and then felo-de-se. Bob's your uncle, end of story!

I must mention that it will eventually leads to DEPRESSION. Guess that should well explained some rare "pms" courses I've been experiencing from then 'till now. I'm just missing out from the last extreme step only. DEATH.

Well oh well...fact or fiction? Beats me.

Dermatologist claimed that this drug has been manufacturing for 50 years without problems AT ALL. Proven by FDA summore. Then again, how far can it be true? Should I trust in their verdict just because they are SPECIALISTS?

I will still continue taking it regardless of what consequences la, depression is there all the while even without the trick of drugs. No difference for me anyhow. And my damn fucking face is oiling once I stopped consuming for few days, luckily I'm still having 1 more box on reservation. Who cares.

PS : A backpacking trip is on anticipation. Hope to materialize it while I still have time to do it. Time to put
my dust covered knapsack in use!
PPS : My aunt gave me a handphone! Stainless steel made and very durable , forgot the model, it's from Nokia.

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Dunno why is it so dark. Dusk with dim natural light + artificial light. See the contrast?

Sumber Inspirasi

Berikutnya sumber-sumber inspirasi ku semasa musim merajuk dan "jutek" yang tak terhingga. Dah lah mengalami gangguan emosi sejak beberapa hari dahulu. Tak yah tanya apa sebabnya, orang-orang berkenaan patutlah mengerti. Ku nih memang tak suka orang bercekak pinggang dan bermulut murai. Apa yg ku catatkan di sini bukan utk jadikan buah mulut ke benda-benda yg mudah buat salah faham eh! Ini perkara penting yg ku rasa wajib dijelaskan sebelum ku menimpa nasib malang lagi yg tidak ketahui ku!

Harap-harap dan moga-moga pihak-pihak tertentu yg membaca blog ku ni dapat menghayati apa yg ku ingin pesankan dan jgn tumbuhkan niat yg tak baik selepas membaca ok? Terima Kasih atas kerjasama anda.

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Gambar-gambar benda yg jadikan sumber inspirasi ku selama cuti setakat ini.


Koleksi lengkap "The Lost Paradise I-V" penulisan bergambar Jimmy.

Koleksi yg tidak tentu kelengkapannya penerbitan Phoenix Satelite TV ( ditulis oleh Chen LuYu dan rakan-rakan)

PS : Gosh, where have all the main medium language skills I learned in past 5 years of high school life gone?

Pretentious

It's very obvious, like VERY obvious that I'm not quite in the mood of late. They realised, but pretend to be normal. The frustrations beneath got to be more apparent. They won't ever sense if I don't go overboard. I guess I'm just another step closer to breakdown. It's so sick to think of what's happening around can be so disheartening. I don't care even if I'm forlorn but don't shit on my head for god's sake. Respect my worth and leave me alone is better than constantly knocking my door to inspect my disposition towards them. Sad to say, I can't guarantee it will be better off. I'm chilling and freezing...the world is so cold and frigid. I feel like moving to the sun, sun salutation may cure me perhaps but inside still bleeding. Tissue won't be able to fix it anyhow. I can't help but feeling damn valley sad when I came to the notion that even the ones who are close to my daily can be that pretentious also. Why must they pretend when they can see it? It's way too conspicuous for their naked eyes to SEE. I don't want them to pretend. I really not born in favour of siding hypocrisy. I can seriously tear off the mask of a hypocrite if I want. That's what I hate the most. I think no one will like it either. And now look, I'm so ordinary just like any other people out there. I'm not made of steel, I ain't a transformer.

To certain someone with initial T or F. I hope you cease reading my blog and thinking otherwise you thought I may be thinking. You can't fathom my mind, not even myself able to do that. But now, I would like to dedicate this paragraph specially for you, a message to my old pal before I turn green :

First of all, if you think those stuffs immobilized you. Buy a bigger table or throw away that pile of stuffs altogether for all I care.

Secondly, I don't know what is your problem but I got no problem at my end at all. I've been thinking of how to get those stuffs from you. If you think it's really inconvenient, pass those stuffs to our friend with initial M, I will TT the $ that I SUPPOSED to give you in exchange of those stuffs. No worry. I know it's not the $ that matters but you see the problem is I'm way more pragmatic than you think. So you can jolly well take it and kiss yourself goodbye.

Thirdly, no point telling people how well grown you are now. No more childishness and stupidity? A verbal statement ever valid and suffice to amount to a justifiable personality? You can't be kidding your life out of me. Knowing full well that you won't go any far, oh well, you think by treating me that way is gonna shatter me or what? I've seen worse my girl, been there done there, this is not even the lowest extreme of my life yet. So now tell me do you really a big girl already? I'm afraid that I'm gonna beg to differ unless you can prove to me you can get over this in a sensible and wise manner.

In any case, hereby wishing you a very happy birthday in advance in case I forgot or you might have thought that I deliberately forget...you can be very superstitious.

I really hope we can turn back time and hang out like last time. We are besties and buddies aren't we?

Should really get yourself a piece of mind before you fire off anymore statement to me ok?

PS : Alright, I've got a lot of entangled thoughts and personal problems awaiting to be resolved. This is only part of the division, if you think this is gonna bring me down drop me dead, you're so wrong. Like I said, my endurance level is sky high. But I can't succumb to it when all bad things usher in at once. By "ALL" I mean really a lot, not just a puny matter as stated above. Tristan Ng is not that weak afterall. I can't even remember when was the last time I wept, it should be years ago pertaining to the lost of a close one, my godsister.

Identity Crisis

It just hit me hard that how cruel the world actually is...

There has been a subtle change on people around me. I realized I'm getting more cold shoulders. In fact, I might have done something wrong which I have no idea about but I do not recall any except for my ignorance and nonchalance (and some unintentional faux pas sometimes...).

I know I may not be that kind of people who likes to take the initiative to start off conversation nor attempt hard to keep in touch with people but that does not directly frame my personality as what you think. In fact, I am much more in favour of reality side. That is why being a pragmatic person I am, to engage in a face to face conversation comes before phone conversation and online chatting. But then again, there will gonna be a lot of considerations if I was to choose the first one.

Another realization is, when people finally come to an end that they are not able to reap or derive any benefit they want from you anymore, they change. So sad but true, nothing can be preserved from that onwards.

I don't know if it's just part of the adulthood or my maturity outgrew my childishness but I am thankful although I hate to admit the fact that how cruel the world can be. Somehow, the line is clearer now. My stand is more apparent.

To me, at this point of my life, I dare to say that I have lost faith in humans connection albeit just a little but I can't suppress the disappointment that I'm confronting with currently. In my selfish opinion, all mankinds are equally the same : mundane, malevolent, green eyed.......the list goes on. If god ever gives me a chance to reincarnate as a human in my next life, I am seriously considering of turning down the offer. The world doesn't lack of human but humanity, the quality of being a human. How ironic it is. If you're trying to change the world, why not change yourself instead, that saves a lot of works I'd say. Humans are not sacred and not god sent, it is the things that we do which determine the degree of sanctity.

I kinda like this saying that...

When we pray for being loved, do you think god is just gonna give us the love itself? When we pray for peacefulness from god, do you think there will be such thing as "peacefulness" that gonna fall from the sky right into our hands? It is when you really been through a lot of thicks and thins that you found what god has to give from within. If not, you wouldn't cherish.

Blame no one if your wishes are not being answered.

So stop mesmerizing yourself in the virtual world. It's time to come back to reality and face it.

On an irrelevant note, I'm starting to get emo again over a lot of stuffs. It's like I'm really sick of everything around me. I really need to talk to someone whom I can trust a lot. One of these days maybe I'll knock the door of psychologist when every attempts of overcoming went completely futile.

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随想~

一般性的快乐往往可以言传。

真正深刻的快乐，没有可能使得他人意会。

快乐和悲伤都是寂寞。

所以说，快乐是不堪闻问的东西，

如果不相信，请问自己三遍。。。。。

我快乐吗？

PS : 假装快乐的人，永远都最不快乐。

Home-o-phobia

K I'm home, the home in Johor Bahru. The home where I'll be equally facing the walls like the one in Subang Jaya. Anyways, they are just concretes and I can't be expecting anything out of it.

My past few days just spent in Godparents house with my own parents. I did not answer any call nor online though, part of me just wanna spend time with family, part of me was I dunno, apparently friends mean nothing much in my life. How sad huh? In any case, I've already used to my kinda life, glad to say, I'm stemming the tide and growing stronger, hope so. And I just realised, parents were not actually there for me when I needed them, yes, they did come due to some softcore house moving but that only applicable for 2 hours. The rest of the days, they were expecting me to cabbage. See, I'm not really looking forward to this kinda long winded holiday. It won't be any productive in my hands. Well, maybe it might be well spent for few days but BEAR IN MIND, this freaking holiday lasts for 2 months.

I have not been talking to my parents for 2 days, it's like some kinda silent confrontation. At first I thought of staying back in KL for another 2 days cos friends were asking to run a fair and I'll be earning like 100-150 per day, why not? But then just like I said, they went MIA after I replied them, perhaps they just don't need anymore candidates. To my dismay, I came back, and so here I am crawling on my OWN bed with dusts covering all over me. Rottening.

I hate pointless hiatus. It makes me feel useless, dumb and vegetative. Like duh! My life ain't gonna be better off if I choose to stay put.

Well, I think I'm gonna sit back and rehab at home for few days and then hang out with some old friends around here and Singapore. It's been half a year since I last visited Singapore, for SAT 1 test la...-_-

My point is changing my living habit is essential. People has been pinpointing my look of late. They just thought that I look older with WRINKLES! Seriously, my conciousness was all fucked up upon hearing their comments. Top it off, even my mum noticed that. I just told them I had my forehead back-lifted cos apparently that was the masterpiece of THE stylist from Raymond Choon, not my freaking metabolism. My first plan is to cultivate a good sleeping habit, no more hogging my laptop and doing blank talk on MSN(will dependent la...). I know MSN has been bothering me a lot. I will try to cut down my sign in rate, or better yet, cease to sign in altogether. Since there is no more gym in the mean time, I'll have to jog around the neighbourhood but apparently to jog around in my neighbourhood at daybreak is like slamming your head against the wall. Wayyyyyy too dangerous, oh yea, my godparents house nearly got burglarised yesterday. I was awakened by papa's yelling around 4 am and we all rushed to the front gate to see what happened but the burglar had already escaped into darkness. That bugger just managed to hop over the fence to car porch and attempting to do his foul job (HE is a Chinese!) but kena hushed off by our nervous shock, so his plan was backfired. See, the crime rates nowadays are marvellous. As far as I know, Subang Jaya is still a lot safer. Now, I have lotsa worries whenever I go for jogging in JB, there are tonnes of precedents already, snatch thefting, kidnapping...yada yada. Sighs........hell I can't be bothered already, I AM JUST GONNA BLOAT MYSELF UP during the holiday T^T

Tell me if there will be any good thing usher in this holiday which I think there won't be any.

I have lotsa sins to repent I guess.

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Soon (the one in the 1st pic) asked me the other day : " Why you have 3 cookies and I have 2 only?"

Me : "Cos I am Cookie Monster...!"

He uttered : "But this is not your house how can you eat so much...!"

Me : ".........."

Now, that's what I called Kids Say The Darndest Things.

PS : Nah, I didn't strangle him because of that kiddo statement...

PPS : Should I be more aggresive and proactive in terms of I-KNOW-WHAT? But better if I keep with THAT in distance, since THAT-THING wanna be mean and fickle, I shall reveal you my claws and fangs once again. Seriously I'm tired of this virtual connection. Sad thing is you've done nothing to fetch it into reality. If you think the former is great, kick yourself and tell yourself in a cheerful manner with Barney's tone "I suck". I dunno la, since you've already enthroned with my shit-list status, I shan't bother much. Bye.

The Day I Eagerly Tested My New Camera

The People

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The Night Scenes

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The Architectures

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The Playground

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The Flowers

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All shots were taken at ISO 100 + a host of automatic settings only. Nothing much special to capture around KLCC park, it's so miserable to say. The 12x zoom is super powerful but some highlight area may be overexposed. Noises are not really visible under ISO 100. Phew! Edge to edge sharpness is there thanks to the high quality Leica lens. Apparently I thought by putting a "The" in front every nouns will make them sound classy. Thus, I start every category of my photos with a "The". Inspired by "The" Gardens, "The" Weld, "The" Curve, "The" Street, "The" Mall and et cetera. Ain't they classy too? Needless to say those are upmarket shopping malls around Klang Valley.

*click on photo to see the original resolution without cropping

*photos are all unphotoshopped

Weeeeee.......

I received my camera from Penang this morning around 9 something AM! God damn it, it was like the superest fastest delivery ever in less than a day! But oh well can't compare to international courier bcos the latter takes time like the US priority mail that I encountered during my last eBay's deal. But come to think of it, US priority mail is not a courier service I think. It's like normal airmail but definitely ample times expensive than our national postal service and it ships in normal interval nia. Anyways, this seller who dealt with me on lowyat.net is very trustworthy la, not like what I expected in previous entry. Go find him on LYN if you want good camera deals, his id is "vladimir".

And now I'm so redundant on camera edi, I have 3 personal cameras, 1 pointless self taking camera I bought from HK but hardly used and my cameras on phones. BUT ALL OF THEM CAN'T AMOUNT TO A FULL FLEDGED DSLR AFTERALL :( Never mind, I should be contented for what I'm having.

After my extensive research on the laman web, I found few condominiums which famous for renting like Dataran Prima, Bayu Puteri, Kelana D'Putera, Shang Villa, Kelana Mahkota, Kelana Puteri and Crimson Condo, not sure if they are complete or just a partial list around Kelana Jaya. The problem is I'm from Johor Bahru, you know the crime-prone city with only 5 policemen on duty daily, how am I suppose to know the exact location without a map? Gah!

Sick fuck, I'm soooooooooo lazy! And I'm soooooooo gonna miss out the gig by Click 5ive in Hard Rock Cafe tonight or I should say, I've already missed it since no one's going with me, if only Cheryll is here! Furthermore, this is deadly, definitely fated I tell you, I'm really on the verge of absenting from My Chemical Romance Live In Stadium Merdeka Concert! Hai lat edi, super hai lat! Again if only Cheryll is here, not sure if Danny's going or not but even he does I probably won't tag along with him. Cheryl (this Cheryl shall be distinguished from that Cheryll, JB's Cheryll is the one with double "L"s) still not sure of going cos she's in Kuantan and currently suffering from slight papa kedana. As for me, the date kinda close to my trip, be it Macau or Jakarta one and me already hutang keliling pinggang + papa kedana also, arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh fuck I dunno! I'll be so shameful to let it go slip since I'm quite a fans of MCR for years *covers face*. I shall remove my poster of them from the wall if I ever missed it which pretty much possible. Arghhhhhhhhhhhh! I don't wanna think about it. I can catch them in Sg. if I missed M'sia stop. I think I shall find more acquaintances who love MCR, CLICK 5IVE and all other bands. Anyone out there share the same sentiment please contact me T^T. I sound like a loser.


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ta-dah! the thing in wonder...with super humongous diameter of lens or maybe just the barrel, tarak tau.

What I've Been Doing So Far

As per the title, nothing much practically.

I went out with rabbit yesterday after coming back from KL, and we went KL again. Rabbit wanna hunt for food recommended by " 1 day 5 meals". So we toured around KL town. It was a pain in ass to drive around KL downtown. Jams are like mushrooms, if not, bumper to bumper. That geographically challenged fella actually had the guts to call me out to KL downtown. So it turned out that I had to lead the way. Oh, we went Chow Kit, Lorong Haji Taib 5 for Pan Mee. Rabbit said it is darn famous can die but to me, ma ma dei only, nothing to go oohahhs about. In my 20 cents, JB serves better Mi Hun Kuih. Kudos to our Soon Lee Mi Hun Kuih :D ! Traffic and weather were horrible in KL. It was so much like an expatriate city with multitudes of 3rd world country foreigners wandering around. Since my godfather used to stay around that area years ago, so I kinda familiar with that place. For once, it brings back a lot of my childhood memories. Yaohan, Amusement Park, PWTC, Puteri Pan Pacific Hotel, Kenny Hills, Bukit Tunku and all. Ah Gu and Ah Kim used to sell Char Kuay Teow around the alley those days and it was so famous that NHK Japan filming troop had to come and take their shoots. No kidding wei!

Anyways, by the time we finished our Pan Mee, the day still pretty young. So we went to One U, wanted to eat Carl Jr. burger but upon reaching before the counter, we found that it was not that impressive and appealing either. Business was horrible and laggy which was a huge contrast to the one in VivoCity Singapore. And so, we just gao dim ourselves in Sushigroove, again, the food was average only. Then, we were so bored to an extent that we actually had to compromise for movie watching in the end. Watched "30 days of night" by Josh Harnett. Movie was superb, based on novel but Josh Harnett died in the end was unexpected. It was a blend of thriller, horror and helluva love story plot. And I must mention those unknown hideous creatures in the movie, they are like bloody vampire with 10000000 times uglier looking. So much so that it caused phobia to me. Omg, those fangs, hollow slit eyes (yes, slit eyes!) and mindless screeching just driving me ugrhhh! I swore a few words through out the movie screening and those who sat around me was giving me that kinda "wtf" look haha, and I laughed like mad when I was supposed to get shocked outta my life. That's sorta my "weakpoint" whenever I hit cinema for horror movie. I just can't stand those pointlessness. I can be very random at times.

Allow me to mention that I bumped into Marion Counter and her bf I think in One U! She's darn pretty but a bit chubby in real person than on screen. Then, I saw this dirty stuff too that not really worth mentioning, Daniel Lee (M'sian Idol 1 winner), ptui! Been seeing him around for zillion times edi, he's so ordinary looking and in fact I kinda think that he looks like a TB. Fugly.

I just bought one old school looking Panasonic Lumix prosumer camera on LYN. Since this fella that supposed to sell me his Fujifilm S6500fd ffk-ed me *bloodboils*, so it left me with no choice but to carry out my plan B. I'm not very impressed with the performance of Lumix but since they trumpeted Leica DC so might as well give it a try since it is cheaper as well given that the camera itself is an older model. I paid that seller through Banking-In and he promised to courier me the next day which is tomorrow by Citylink, which he claims to be fast and efficient. Omg, I won't dare to think of any dodgy consequences that can happen...such as..........I've fallen into the beautiful trap of a century conman! *Touches wood*

Today's BodyJam class was the most crappy ever. Hell, whole class was filled with aunties, I wonder where had those regular guys gone. Ayzie was really lame, she played crappy music and forced me to dance to crappy dance step. It was soooooo embarrassing. I left halfway through cos I couldn't stand it anymore. Mood was ruined. Cis!

If I'm really getting my camera by tomorrow then I shall make a photography trip to the city. KLCC, Masjid India, Merdeka Square and those to be more precise.

PS : I think I need a single room in Dataran Prima condo or Bayu Puteri apartment in Kelana Jaya...but it's so hard to hunt for one online. Sienness.

So I Think You Can Dance

Oh I went to "lala" land Sg Wang yesterday and to my glee, I saw performance by 4 finalists of So You Think You Can Dance season 1, American version mind you! Damn super duper cun!

Anyways, pics of Eye on Malaysia though they are very much conventional but who give a shit...

Too spontaneous already so were not equipped with a full fledged camera -_-

Aftermath

Upon the completion of finals, I can finally destress kao kao!

Lazy to type that much here afterall no one will be reading,

so...

After Cal. II paper which pretty much fucked up, I was not in the mood actually but somehow, that's life and it is predestined, the only problem is to accept and get over it. So my mood fluctuated to the vertical extreme again with that Ah Q's notion.

For once or twice, I thought I might be someone lack of the nourishment of books. Thus, I went Kinokuniya to menaiktarafkan myself with fragrance of books. I can't believe I actually spent that A LOT on books alone in a month. With that i can buy 5-6 Thomas' Calculus textbooks already :D...and I'm actually overly obsessed with Chinese books thesedays rather than many of the English books back then. I'll only read English books if it's a political, sociological or literature one. Otherwise, it's too intellectual-ish to my apprehension. Oh, I've bought another book by Chen Ru Yu (Phoenix Satellite TV news reader cum TV host cum journalist on the block). Love her to bits. Anyways, I've tried Vienna bagels which I can pretty proclaim that it tasted the same as ordinary pretzels than it is not! Holyfuck.

And just yesterday I went for a haircut finally at The Gardens, this hair stylist who handled my hair actually spoke with me in British accent which I wonder why but I was more than happy to listen to Brittish accent! If only he could speak in Scottish accent or Queen's English, fulamak, I'll burn 3 incenses on the spot for apprenticeship liao! The first question he ever asked me was, "do you want something funky?" Then I told him, of cos la BUT funky yet low profile, I'm not that kinda extroverted and flamboyant person in person. So yea. He actually didn't get my point and gave me a very funky but not so low profile pattern. haiz but It was great cos inclusive of one hairspa session altogether with quite reasonable price. I was asked to dye my hair for more colour in depth but that really goes beyond absurdity already cos the price shoots up to almost 300 with my pendek mia hair. Really exorbitant. All in all, it's a pleasant experience la since it's a topnotch and upmarket salon, but i just don't like more than 2 people to attend me during the process of having the haircut. I bet their business on that day wasn't that good so they are kinda free. Oh yea, there were few reporters on spot too and they took my photos while I'm having my hair washed. But they definitely won't gonna publish it in any case cos I'm sooo underdressed.

Then I rushed the hell outta my life back to Subang after my hairdo cos Sue was waiting for me in Subang Parade! It was Leong's birthday which I shamefully forgot! So we went back and had dinner, picked up Leong in Setapak and off to KL. Supposedly, we were gonna hit Sg Wang to buy Jay Chou's new album (pre-released) but backfired cos traffic jam and couldn't make it on time. And it so happened that we passed by Lake Garden. So spontaneous, we climbed to the EYE ON MALAYSIA. We thought it was gonna be romantic, but kena potong stimmed when we actually gonna shared one gondola with strangers. It costs freaking 15 bucks per head...for 5 rotations. Wtf, 3 bucks for one round! the panoramic nightview wasn't come close to take our breath away. One side was KLCC view but the other side was totally in full contrast, dimmed residential area with boring streetlights. Right after that we went to find papa in one of the Hotel nearby lol.

Today is gonna be full of programmes too :)

Parents will be up next week Deepavali! :D

OVER!

Proudly proclaim, my 2nd sem has finally over! Although the worst part has yet to come, which is the fearful part of getting sucky result. It's pretty much expected but I hope it won't go beyond absurdity! Calculus test today was terrible, 3 hours with 10 questions still got not enough of time. It seems like endless...the questions are a lot tougher than what we usually find in the textbook, during those quizzes and tests. I wonder why did they save the "best" for the last. I don't know, I am sssssoooooo over it and totally jaded and numbed. Can't be bothered so long as I can just pass it and the story ends. I don't demand for much after the final paper, my spirit is badly dampened edi. I'm not gonna venture any further in Calculus anymore. Hey, my uni doesn't even require me to take Calculus, let alone Calculus II. I was supposed to take only Statistics and College Algebra for my major. Now it has pulled down my overall GPA, see?! Happy? And I'm on the verge of changing major again. If entry requirement for NMI (Nuclear Medicine Technology) is too high I'll opt for RRT (Respiratory Care) instead. So I can transfer earlier for the latter cos the major year starts at Junior and Senior year! Nuclear will only starts at Senior Year actually, kinda annoying and I'm really in doubt of their accreditation standard lor given that it is such a sophisticated and technical major. No hesitation or doubt, 2.5 GPA in maximum for this sem only, for THE MOST, fine go laugh!!! All shall thanks to the Calculus With Analytical Geometry II. Man, I'm really traumatized by the paper just now, freaking 3 hours butt sticking of torturing on questions that you couldn't answer even if you scratch your scalp out. If someone ever tells me to take anymore Calculus III IV V or or whatever hingga ketakterhinggaan level affixed...I'll just bite my tongue to end my life. As easy as it can be.

Sad to say, lotsa plans ahead on this holiday but not enjoyable ones to say the least. Have to hunt for house again, have to forgo gymming session for time being, have to parasite at home, have to worry about the releasing of result approx. 2 weeks later, have to worry this and worry that. Mood also don't have. Sighs. 2 months are just wayyyyyyyyyy too much for a holiday isn't it? I prefer to be as busy as a beeeeeeeeeeeeeee but I'm still too slothful enough to be busy. My body is contradicting my motivation!


sora by Yoko Kanno, veeeeeeeeeeeeeeery nice