Monday, January 21, 2008

Incoordination (Finale)

For the first time ever...

I've decided to cease posting for the time being.

What to do,

Life's sucks.

Need more introspections.

Toodle.

*Door shuts*

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*updated 31/1/08*

I'll be moving to Kelana Mahkota tomorrow, I don't know why I chose that place of all the places and abandoned this place apparently wanted to stay in a Condo is just a tiny factor I guess. I hope it's a change for better and not otherwise. Anyways, some acknowledgement to those who lives around me, Sheryl, PK, Nagen and Shun Jie! Hmm, thanks for the companionship all along. Gosh, it sounds that I'm leaving for limbo edi...anyways Subang and Kelana is no where remote in distance. Come visit me if free lah...anytime.

:)

I'm gonna start swimming!

Also, landlords whom I never bothered to know their names, I won't forget what you both vixens did to me! How realistic eh? Beware lor, ppl at ur age is very vulnerable...chant more mantras in future k?

I really hope life will be better off for the change...

Incoordination 2.5

She's ugly but she's pretty.

She's pretty but she's ugly.

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Why are we so blind?

Why the hell do we sugarcoat ugliness?

Why the pseudoprettiness?

Why can't we tell what is real and what is nominal?

The world seriously needs more medications on top of stimulating brouhahas over the emergence of global warming.

To whom should we point our fingers to when apocalypse is on the verge?

No one, we are all well deserved.

We are sick.

Sunday, January 20, 2008

Incoordination 2.0

People construct reality when they found meanings to their behaviour.

I've seen the reality,

Eventually when you seem less important to the other, you know it's time to change and look into yourself.

It's proven that,

I can live without one of the most important things in life which I usually don't at this point.

Can you?

I've foresaw the tragedies ahead,

Have you?

...still I'll never give up the chance of foreseeing triumphs.


I should stop stargazing all the impossibilties and switch my gravity.

Should I?

I'm getting compelled to tell people who I really am and what I want.

Am I?

Think again, now it's not the right time to mess with me.

Anyways, just to let all of you know (eventhough most of you won't be reading this but you know who you are), I heart you because you came into my life. I don't talk to you doesn't mean I've forgot you. Words aren't enough to give justify...


...cos I'm a typical Pisces.

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

Incoordination 1.5

Good news. For those whom I felt they hurt me unintentionally, prolly you don't have to drown yourself in a cesspool full of my poos anymore. You know it's funny how people can muddle over things at the same time pretending nothing had happened but still going on around badmouthing and victimise others? Now I call that the real life Phantom Of The Opera, with all the masquerades on parade. Free show, that's like how wonderfully wonderful albeit I'm not directly involved but at least it gives food for thought, something useful behind the drape to carry back home.

Man, it must have been a deadly dilemma triggering. My disposition fluctuates like never before. Hey, but a key point I found useful is just a mere voicing out wraths stifle beneath, like how you get constantly pestered by constipation and unable to free your poo poo for a week long and the only solution you found out later is probably by gobble up 2 cartons of prune at one go. Voila, everything runs smoothly afterwards top down-ly :p. Can visualise the scenario or not? The key = prune, the solution for the problem in a nutshell la. I guess it's not good to hold back when you need to reprimand or criticise or chew out or swear those 4 letter words. I will personally opt for the last in any case. I know this is cowardly an alternative for those who can't find better words to snap up people's attention but oh well neither do I wanna be called a prude.

To whom it may concern, I'm afraid I'll need to invite you to fuck off and die in your own ways instead of abiding to the "drown yourself in cesspool with 'ma poos". Set your rotting body on fire, extinguish it, repeat x10000. If only I have the courage which I don't, fucker, lucky you. All of you hypocrites will get from me one fine day!

Anonymously, you, You, YOU, landlord 1, landlord 2, LANDLORD KMC, Streamyourfuckingmyx and teleyourmotherhomobrotherkom. Then...

Namely, Mathuri, Jane, Borges.....yea the lecturers that gave endless tests and tutorials like they are so thirst of papers at home with their redundant red ball point which could've been put up for better use, by consuming the latter will transform ink into cold hard cash that they can swallow to fill up their filthy desires, then contract leprosy after that and perish. I've never felt this way before seriously that I will need to curse my current semester's lecturers so bad. College is to pay and answer for all before I wage a vendetta and torn down the overspent new block!

Alright,

I'm spent. Sorry for all the cursings. Sorry to your mother, your father, your mother's father's maid's nephew's roommate's friend's sister, your neighbour's dog and all the babies. I'm so not worth.

Sunday, January 13, 2008

A year of thicks and thins




My Grandpa's (Ah Yeh) 102th birthday!


He is still strong and tough after underwent a year long of thicks and thins!


Seeing him just reminds me of Mahatma Gandhi for some reasons......


Ok, maybe not.

p/s : It's a blessing from god to be able to live up to that old but come to think of it, is it necessary? I'm not insinuating anything against fillial piety or questioning the omnipotence of almighty, mind you. I love my grandpa and my god without a single doubt. Somehow, I will be thankful if I'm bestowed with approx. 60 years of lifespan (beyond that are bonus and further answer to my philanthropism if there's any) cos I just don't like to go through the stage where you have to see everyone grounded before you...one after another. Too painful to overcome. Then again, I'm not taking anything to do with that for granted as well. So I have to plan and learn to die in order to live isn't it? Food for thought :)

Thursday, January 10, 2008

Tokyo Tower


"為了生計,在小吃店工作的老媽,從來不會叫我念書的老媽,不曾對成績單發表什麼意見的老媽,幾乎不會責罵我的老媽,總是幫我買東西,從來不幫自己買的老媽,只有我一個人吃飯,也會做好幾道菜的老媽,為了讓我早上可以吃到好吃的醃醬菜,總是定好鬧鐘半夜起床攪拌米糠的老媽,明明手頭拮据,卻當場付出十幾萬現金買機車給我的老媽,一直到得了胃癌的臨終,還拚命地用快不能動的嘴唇,不放棄地想在最後留一點什麼給我,怕死後還要麻煩別人,預先為了自己的葬禮每月存3000塊錢的老媽……"


This is the most touching novel I read in 2007, the fact that I like Japanese literature from the way they convey and describe puny matters in a very detail form, representing the tiny bits of your feeling. The feeling that you might forsee in you as a result of ignorance. Somehow,they can crack out words to make the entire negligible day in day out scenes seems picturesque...penetrating the deepest corner of your heart. And many people actually cried after reading "Tokyo Tower". Motherly love is the greatest love of all after loving yourself. Thumbs up for Lily Franky (Japanese novelist with a rather westernized pen name). Of course I read the translated version since there's no way I can understand Japanese.

Friday, January 04, 2008

Sighs

Happy Birthday to Tang Zen Hwai...who turns 21 on this coming Sunday!

I am reallyyyyyyy sorry for not being able to make it but oh well, it makes no difference afterall :)

Hope you forever 21 and enjoy your party.

5 Amanah and 5 Bestari rock on!

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Same time wishing Auntie Grace (Charles' mum) a big happy birthday.

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Having CHM 152 lab replacement at 8 am tomorrow, I tell you my wonderful plan on Saturday all ruined at one go...ode to Ms. GEW LAI TI the one whom I "mentioned" earlier. She's so fantastic that her class left only 5 people...yes it's 1-2-3-4-5's five...what a record! And there's no way I can drop it since I got no subject to replace it. Borges' class is miserable too luckily I saw some familiar faces around. I'm thinking of dropping History for Philosophy but what the heck Philo. takes up two 8 freaking am classes per week! Might as well bang my head against the hardcover textbook?

Wednesday, January 02, 2008

No title lah...just feel like typing out things that I got nobody to talk to

Leong got 2 free vouchers to sing in capsule!


We went Singapore for dinner that day -_-, all the way to East Coast just to have dinner with Frog and came back with lotsa 2 dollars odd stuffs from Daiso + Missy Donut! (better than airy Big Apple and J.CO in terms of their doughs but nonetheless I heart all of them except they get very jelak at times xD ). There's another donut chain at Pasir Ris station called Yummy but their donuts tasted as hard/dry as baguette, not worth for ta-pao.

Half dozen for 9 SGD (Missy Donut), seems like I can get a dozen for that price from its rivals in M'sia despite all the hoo-haa queing which is stupid.

p/s : I'm giving all my heart and soul for a real abstinence currently T.T . So don't lure me with good food. But once or twice is acceptable *slaps*. No please k thx cos I seriously need to deposit weights before Chinese New Year in order to binge freely during CNY as USUAL and needless to say, to look good in all attires as well but the problem is the new year between Gregorian calender and lunar calender is soooo close, if I don't watch out, you'll just have to sit and wait for another sumo sized Tristan coming around. Weights gained during semester holiday + Chinese New Year is fatal so gotta work 3x harder intensely lah...haih why some skinny people like Leong, Dominic, Shun Jie, Boon Keat and Kelvin just won't grow fat with bottomless stomach but others like me prone to grow horizontally easily with just one or two...or maybe more heavy meals OCCASIONALLY? So many skinny paper-ish underweight people revolving around me. Unfair. Konnonya, consuming meth, smoking pot and chewing fags can bring down weight (Nah, can't be possible to trade my life away!). Alright, still...damn housemate is cooking some shits that smell freaking nice. I gotta force my appetite to sleep now.

'Till then!

Start of something new

FUCK

Yes I say FUCK k thx.

Tuesday, January 01, 2008

That Year I Killed Few Persons And A Dog

My 2007's grown up book list :

-鲁豫心相约
-鲁豫有约之面孔/伊人篇/人气
-有一天啊,宝宝!
-川行地平线 I/II
-失乐园 I-IV
-向左走,向右走
-布瓜的世界
-履历表
-又寂寞,又美好
-月亮忘记了
-东京铁塔
-方文山的素颜韵脚诗
-生死遗言
-随想
-The Time's Traveller Wife
-I Am Muslim
-Honk! If You're Malaysian
-The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night Time
-For One More Day
-Tuesdays With Morrie
-Malaysian Politicians Say The Darndest Things!
-The Lonely Planet Story
-Macbeth
-Romeo And Juliet
-Hamlet

30 over books in a year compared to Victoria Beckham's, Paris Hilton's...records. At last, I'm not a total brainless himbo...phew! Way to go 2008!

p/s : I deliberately shrunk out and camourflaged the wordings cos I don't want you to see the epitome of a boring nerd's life...*kemaluan*