Everything and everything

Everything seems so robotic nowadays. It's like I'm living on a pre-set live impoverished with surprises and oomphs. Meetings, gatherings and homeworks and more meetings, more gatherings and more homeworks. Repetitious. Framed. I'm trying to avoid calls but there's no way in heaven or hell I can avoid sms-es unless I swallow my cellphone and end my life together with all the miseries. Sms-es are not asking for date or delightful things to that sort but compel me to accept the unilateral invitation to work like donkey upon opening inbox and accidentally take the killer glimpse at those words. Rejection is impossible. Now that I have to lengthen my blocked list on online messenger tool. And I just got to know that I can't go back home during Father's Day cos need to run some errands for College Day. Sighs. And supposed I need to go to college tomorrow and Sunday but I told them I went back JB. I've already given my 5 days week to them, sacrificed gym and wasted lotsa times. Now I demand for the remaining 2 days on my own. Fair enough. Unless it's extraordinary important or informed beforehand like 3 working days before the due date. I don't like spontaneity in such manner. It sounds very tyrannic and unplanned. Not my forte. And I don't remember when was the last time I came back to my room with left over energy for the day. I've overspent them. Just don't go overboard and cross my line. There's at least 1 or 2 of them from the committees that have the atrocity to step on my head. Whatever they think is right it's right. The only thing they are good at is experience, cos most of them are like me, total rookie and noobie in this club. Other than that, zip up and kiss your own ass goodbye. Well, there are also upsides about this club too but insufficient to amount to highlight of the day. I keep happy things in me and purge grudge into this blog. My blog is dirty, filthy, angsty, dark, pessimistic, negative and everything that is wrong about. I've contributed some pints of pollution to cyberworld, that is something worth to be proud of for nameless people like me who always wanna do big and prove to the world. But when I ponder further, what will I be getting in the end? Will I be better off? Everything's left unknown and indefinite. Sometimes when I'm not so strong, I'd really wish I had done more.

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I believe I've been tagged, not sure. But just assume this is squeezed out of tedium.

Real name: Ng Kok Whei
Nickname: Wei, Kok, 大头兵
Married: Nop
Zodiac Sign: Pisces
Male or Female: Male

High School: SMK Aminuddin Baki JB
College: Inti College Subang Jaya
Short or long hair: Short (always)
Are you a health freak?: By all means but drifted away of late.
Height: 172 cm
Do you have a crush on someone?: It's now or never.
Do you like yourself?: Yes and no.
Piercings: Nop.Thinking of getting one on nape.
Right or lefty: Right handed. Sometimes ambidextrous.

FIRST
First surgery: Never.
First piercing(s): 19
First best friend: Huah Jeng, Huah Shin and Huah Rong (my neighbour's kids)
First award: Singing competition in kindergarden (1st :D )
First sport you joined: Squash (officially)
First pet: Parrot fish and died 2 days after due to electricity black out.
First vacation: Should be either Singapore, KL or Desaru. Childhood amnesia sorry.
First concert: Jimmy Lin (林志颖）Live in Stadium Tertutup Tebrau JB 1993 (a whooping 15 years ago!)
First crush: Some boys or girls during primary school.

CURRENTLY
Eating: Chewing gum. (facial diet kthx)
Drinking: Detox tea.
I’m about to: Do my homeworks.

YOUR FUTURE
Wants kids: Will adopt or maybe don't want at all. I don't like toddlers.
Want to get married: Nop, see first.
Careers in mind: Freelancer or successful Forbes-featured businessman (BIG duh!), no lah, IT HAS GOTTA BE THE ONE AND ONLY HEALTH SCIENTIST.

WHICH ONE IS BETTER
Lips or eyes: Eyes of course, that's the window of soul. Who cares bout lips.
Hugs or kisses: Hugs I guess, and those transition of temperatures are irreplaceable.
Shorter or taller: Make it 176 cm will do.
Romantic or spontaneous: Spontaneously romantic. Too much romanticisms can be corny and impractical. I hate platitudinous people which are often nothing more than hypocrites themselves.
Nice stomach or nice arms: Six packs! Fucking gimme.
Trouble maker or hesitant: Hesitant lor...since I'm indecisive and prefer no brainer.

HAVE YOU EVER
Kissed a stranger: Yea. When I got drunk eons ago.
Drank bubbles: Alcohols yea, name me!
Lost glasses or contacts: Contacts.
Run away from home: Yea. To a nearby KFC and met my parents there ta-paoing KFC for me instead. Aww...cos I told them I felt like eating.
Liked someone younger: Yea. But not anymore.
Liked someone older: Yea.
Broken someone’s heart: Nop. I'm a typical Pisces.
Been arrested: For? Juvenile Delinquent? Got arrested for ponteng sekolah eons ago.
Turned someone down: Of course. We gotta move on somehow.
Cried when someone died: Hell yea, hello me made of flesh installed with this thing called feelings.
Liked a friend: No way. Depends on what kinda friend. Acquantance maybe.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN
Yourself: More yes than no.
Miracles: No. I'm all about pragmatism.
Love at first sight: Hell no.
Heaven: Why not, it's a place to entrust afterlife.
Sex on the first date: Over my dead body.
Angels: No. I think there are all demons in disguise.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY
Is there one person you want to be with right now: Err...make it yes then. Not sure.
Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time: Certainly no and won't. BFFs yes.
Do you believe in God: I believe in Gods. Plural. And deity.

This survey very intimate lor, like matchmaking ad liddat.

Il finito.

Ditto Ditto Ditto

Finally.

I can rest my day away..

Done with my Bio quiz, Politics test and STACT's members gathering.

As usual, got condemned at meeting for no reasons, all the fingers pointing and bureaucracy red tape. At least they all sound plausible. Attendance seems compulsory for upcoming events if no better excuses to absent present (pun not intended). Inti Ball, College Day, Intima Forum, ON...endless meetings...yada-yada. T.T

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At last,

I got the liberty to binge, aside from my usual main dinner course with rice and dishes, I'd gobbled down a regular set of Ayam Goreng McD. Further entitled to a chance of Big Mac chant. That goes without saying. Chanted it right away. Nothing much to hesisate anyways. Gobbled down the Big Mac right after finishing the Ayam Goreng. Uber bloated. Contented. Satisfied. Bubbled. Screw diet. What more can be more enjoyable than eating what you wanna eat without thinking twice, without looking at the nutritional fact. 537 kcal + 420 kcal = 957 kcal. What's with that? Yea right screw it. I binge when I don't feel too good. Why should I care so much about my figure since no one will be looking anyway? And now I'm hungry again.

Actually I fell asleep immediately after the binge. Woke up. Thus this post. The finale of non sensical ditto entry. Next post shall be a happy one. I vow to thee.

Shite. I haven't called for sponsorship yet!!!

Ditto Ditto

Do you have this kinda feeling that,

you've spent a long and weary day doing stuffs not pertaining to you.

Done with the day. Went home. Took off the mask. Looked into the mirror and saw a complete someone else staring back at you in a lifelike manner?

Must've been fretted or what.

Cos the boundary between right and wrong is getting opaque.

Self denial kicked in. Twats and cunts dispersed. Daunting the headlamp of soul. Revealing, devastating...

I shall stop making non sensical overstatement that will leads to emotional led breakdown in future or at least I'm not typing this thing feeling extraordinarily sucky, am I? I can't seem to recognize my acts these days. Excessive tie down is suffocating.

I miss the liberty to switch off my cellphone, my laptop, to sleep without alarm clock, to remain anonymous and the little Nelson, to do things I wanna do alone...

Period.

Ditto

To the jackass in me,

In life, one cannot avoid making bad choices and get picked. Once you've stepped into that outrageous whirl of disaffirmation and find it hard to retreat.

Just tell yourself, it's all deserved.

Padan muka.

C*bai.

From XX

p/s : Diam-diam ubi memang berisi punye.

T4YP

Just got back from TY4P (Theatre for Young People) workshop a while ago at KLPac, because I am young, therefore I am eligible to go. End of story. Laughing is strictly prohibited. Or else you shall rot.

The entire workshop thingy was very short, like about 1+ hours. It's like a musical stage show preview. Anyways, the performance today was at outdoor on the deck. Although not many people were there but the performance was impressive and subtle enough. All the actors and actresses are very professional although they may be nothing more than amateur. The theme was "100-word Project" where the idea is very simple. Each of the actors/actresses had to express their innerself in 100 words (monologue) incorporating the word "Park" in every segment. Not a word more or less. IMHO, I don't think it is as easy as it sounds. Cos not only you need to apply the power of words intensively but imagination plays a crucial part as well as you run on. Oh yea, and they sing too! But unlike Moulin Rouge or Sweeney Todd that sort lah. Nonetheless it's good enough at their standard. KLPac is really a wonderful place to hang out rather than spending time and $ aimlessly at shopping malls, at least it's a place full of inspirations.

Feel free to visit TY4P's blog at
http://t4yp.wordpress.com

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Han Lim and Suzanne are fostering their innate acting potential UNABASHEDLY but very matching kan both? *winks* So close to meruntuhkan akhlak moral already.

Hello? I'm born to act...lalalala.

A little bit of that

Finally Intima week's over! And I was given whole loads of tasks to be completed today. Have to manage the security jobs as well for some odd reasons. Ta-dah you can now call me a multitask android filled with lipids. Nonetheless I still manage to squeeze out some personal time for indulgence at this point of time besides having cleanly forgot about the Statistics quiz today which carries 5 effing %. I'll constantly try to plead for a break even after the outcome next week which, sad to say, nothing upbeat to look forward to lah. 5% is too much for a quiz (woot?). And then, starting next week onward I'll be spanking dead beat like mush.

On a brighter note, the Big Mac chant is my new mantra right now. I can't stop chanting it over and over! 2 all beef patties...%$%^&%$(stml at the time of typing this)...sesame seed bun. Voila! There you go 2 Big Macs down for free that I decided to give them away. 3 cheers for 537 kcal per serving, it is no kidding issue wei! Actually 4 seconds are more than sufficient for a sound person or even if you're Broca's or Wernicke's speech challenged, just go try out yourself I beckon. Also, you may wanna save up your lunch and dinner expenses for better use (why not just admit you cheapskate bastards). McD is helping out. Being a merry-go-happy-sugar-camouflaged-Jack Sparrow-meet-the-gothic-clown-mascot conglomerate. Energy cum fat distribution is their obligation you see more than being charitable. Stickguys and stickgals, good news. Moi? It would be my utmost pleasure to shove a couple of patties up their marketing personnel's arses FFS.

Anyways, anyone's going to the performing art workshop at KLPac this coming Sunday? Seems promising but LAZINESS has got the better of me. Then again, it's free admission. Aren't you tempted already? huh? Huh? HUH? It's F-R-E-E...fuhhhhrrriiiiiieeeeeeee! I'm practically out of time I guess. So, anticipatedly, Saturday is a whole day of house chores (looking at that pile of laundry hill is enough to kill!), lab report, tutorial, assignment, sponsorship hunting, ON's checklists here and there...fuck why am I reminding myself? T.T Late night Friday I wasn't even doing anything productive. Argh!

Alright seriously need an alarmless wake up tomorrow, wanna sleep like there's no tomorrow that I've been long deprived for. Hello Barn. Hello melatonin. Slumber bee. Imaginary Nelson. Lala. Here I come.

Au revoir!

Tristan --

[adjective]: Tastes like fried chicken

'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

...Special Sauce Lettuce

Cheese Pickles Onion...

A little bit of this

This week is Intima week. Have to sell tickets for Orientation Night and also recruit new members. Double jeopardy is the word. Thundery weary now. I just have to spend all my free times and breaks to put up with something that literally kill time innocently. Dunno why la, they just like to call whoever which is free impulsively, catch them, put them in a cage and tell them they are up to something. Then at the end, we spent time waiting like stones only to realise we received no order to perform any tasks AT ALL. We were just put on hold IN CASE they are up to something. Fuckhole ass ripping wusses right? Surely they need to seriously learn about the dearness of OUR time. And we are not back up tyres also. I hate all these senseless obligations. I was given no orders and no details to date on my puddinghead logistic parts. It's as if the post was made out of extrinsic value for it is a MUST HAVE turun temurun but practically for nothing but being stoned. Celaka.

Speaking about Intima week, I joined 3 other clubs and societies with better prospect this semester (finally for 4 semesters of rotting out in this college anonymously) other than STACT club. I honestly can't dissolve in that solvent myself. If only I can resign from ON organizing committee at will...I'm serious. They don't need me afterall and not like I wanted to join this organizing committee in the first place also. It all started from nowhere without notification and next thing I know was my name is already on the list...just like a tattoo~

Oh and Politics class is getting sibeh miserable and sleep inducing. T.T

Also, folks and parents are making me so emo! They are all set for an overseas getaway in group WITHOUT me...666. How can?! Of all the time, why must they chose 3 weeks after my next new semester started? Evil right? Hmphf...how can I not be emo you tell me!

I'm effing grey and sour.

Sien.

Life is dry.

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Intima Week

I Don't Want A Title For This

Alright, just a random thought before I turned in to bed.

I've no idea what makes me into this but I no longer feel the sense of belonging at where I'm stepping on right now. Then it hit me hard with the term, Organic Solidarity (Gesellschaft) that used to describe the urban lifestyle. To briefly elaborate, the term means nothing more than pointing out the nonchalance, coldness, ignorance, robotic and etc. of urban dwellers. Further reveals that, social bonds in urban are based on specialization and interdependence. It may sound foreign to you but like it or not, it's a piece of fact. By specialization, it means each of us needs to magnify the scope of a certain particular field that they are good in in order to benefit society and brings people toward them. For example, when the first time you met a person, you will have asked him question like "what do you do for living?" and slowly finds benefit which you can reap out of the conversation. To simplify the statement, you respect you lecturers simply because they are smarter than you in certain fields and you learn things from them. However, if they are being stripped off from all their knowledge, will you still respect them as you used to be? Eventually, this brings out interdependence where we get along with each other today to depend on them more than we really want to be with them for no reasons at all.

I realise friends that I made after a certain level of my life cannot go far beyond interest group. Like, there's something common and beneficial for us that brings us together. Well, I won't deny that it's the basic function of how a relationship starts nowadays. I mean you won't acquainted a person who pop up and say hi to you and walk off. Perhaps you think he's just being lunatic or what. More often than not, we get along together because we need something from each other instead of we get along together because we want to get along together, no further. I can make a clear example here from what I encountered from my college's club, nice to have a slogan of "Friendship above service..." or some sort of words close to that meaning. The chairman claims that all the members will be treated like one family. We sing club songs, play games, interact and so on but the upon closer observation. I realized it's just like any other social organization around. It's all about interests, be it personal or common ones. Favouritism overrule common goal. Slogan as a new way of spreading propaganda. It's very ironic in a way that I don't even know how to bring into words vividly. You know I just sense that I don't belong to there even I've been there for like 1 semester, that's about 4 months. I feel like a misfit member being stucked at some obligations that I never promised to get involded. I've lost autonomy. I have to put on masks (which explains why I'm often so quiet in class or club cos I hate to do that). I have to listen to "words that are often louder than actions". Sounds familiar eh? Isn't it nicely reflected our in house political scenes? It may not be true and I can be generalizing things but that's not the crucial part cos I think I digress a little. Just my 20 cents.

But I'm glad I still have friends who will just be with me for the sake of drawing our relationship closer or simply they just want to be together for who we are. Not being together for what we are because we need to.

Though, most of us can't be around together all times but deep down we know we won't feel awkward even after years apart. That's the chemical and feel good factors in common.

Goodnight.

Hokkien Jade Drama Coming to Life

Happy Mother's Day to Mummy, all my god mothers and grandmother.

Nothing much special for this year (or every year), I felt like buying the Gintell massage chair for it is buy one free one but too bad I realised my goodwill was dampened by my tight budget! Haha. So despite spending the whole night with my kkl until wee hours, I had to crawl out from the bed around 10 am the next day to send my dad to my grandfather's and headed to 大马 to hunt for some real nice carnations for mummy. I got a really cute one with teddy bear on it! Then rushed to Pelangi to buy detox tea recommended by frog. She said she lost some kgs after consuming it. The myth will be affirmed this week after it washed down my stomach. After settled everything at downtown, I had to go up to TC's Jusco to buy practical present for mummy (shan't disclose hehe). Went home, surprised mummy and that's all, I'm quite bad at this I know. Lol. Later on was the usual eating out and all which happens every year at this time.

Grandma was over at our place together with godparents. With her presence, there will always be dramatic play. This time was not an exception except it was a more serious life and death matter. Here it goes, grandma and godpa had some conflicts and my grandma spanged her head against the wall aka 撞墙 -_- like she did before. How Hokkien-soap-drama-ly dramatic right? She does this kinda thing very often, we all got it from her when we were kiddos (kneeled down before the altar, served tea to apologize...you name it). In any case, the worst part happened while my grandma attempting her head-bang-wall action, my godpa was totally blew out of the water upon seeing that in sight followed by paling in face, rapid heartbeat, panic...and all the pre-symptoms of heart attack which he didn't even know he has. Daddy sent him to Pandan hospital immediately and luckily he was alright after that. Kudos to that stupid hospital actually didn't really perform thorough check out on godpa due to equipment broke down -_-. Apparently, one button of the ECG machine was not functioning, and that was the best excuse they could give at the cost of life of an emergency patient? Yes, exactly, godpa was admitted to emergency department at first cos we thought it was very critical and emergency at that time. Well, I'm pretty sure everyone knows how far the efficiency of public hospital goes for we had no choice but to send him there because it is only less than 3 km away from my house which is the one next to Tebrau City in case you don't know. As well as the one with fungus breeding all over before the official opening ceremony that caused some hoo-haas around, excuse given by the then Semi Value was, "It happens in other countries". End of story. Life is cheap here, Semi Value should've retired 30 years ago to save all the disputes.

We suspect our grandma is not only suffering from senile but paranoic type of schizophrenia. Cos she had records of threatening for suicide, self mutilation and mental delusion. But she seems normal most of the time. Still, I think I need to suggest the folks to bring her for a serious psychotherapy session lest she will fire off another attempt to literally gek sei my godpa,if she's willing to go which I doubt she will cos she's very tik ki (stubborn).

Of late, folks like to tattle about life and death on dinner table (they've been living more than half a decade). Daddy was talking about sudden departure of his football mate back in those days, mummy was talking about the suicide of her client and the sudden departure of Uncle Steven and all those around us. We can't avoid things that we can't predict, can we? According to the same old cliche, live life to fullest each day, materialism can never be associated with happiness no matter how. So what if you got the whole world?

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They're sending clothings to Salvation Army. You wish.

Then she wanna contribute some golds for tropical cyclone's victims in Myanmar.

Eh, I think the detox tea doesn't work on you at all. Maybe you can try eating more "tupai"

From the L word to the F word

The L's,

Lies. Laughs. Loves. Lives. Lesbians. Lame. Lusts. Los Angeles.....

I finished 1 season in a day all thanks to my uber laid back timetable, how marvellous!

It simply just more than homosexuality and all the gay rights movements can tell. Just slightly more than that. Somewhere in between controversial and provocation. Please leave religion out of this for god's sake also (pun not really intended).

I feel so dykey now...

Hello there!

..but oh well, food for thought.

I'm converted.

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The F,

Fuck.

I know, this is another spin off of my enraged grudge against THE college. It comes out like tap water and it's on the loose now, please understand.

Yea la...I know this is just an outlet for my feelings, I'm ranting to noone and I will honestly shut this up once I feel right about it in no time (i think sometime next week things will be fine I hope), if no relapse :p

Read this : Itu blog miliki saya. Clear enough ah?

666! Intro. to US Govt. has got the boringest dullest lecturer ever on the planet. I've found a new place to seriously slumber out. Wtfbbq. Memang jatuh ditimpa tangga. I'm right now in a serious difficult position. I can't possibly drop the damn thing for there are no better substitutions except for English Literature which facing under amount of students right now on the verge of chaplap-ing but hell I don't need that in my major. There's French 101 which I'm begging to join but monstrously CLASHED with Stats (TYPICAL!)...effing chintzy college who can't even well managed its flagship course in the pseudo-honor of some questionable ISO standard. Well, I mean they can't short change us just because they have the crown of it. We need a good lecturer, not some Tom, Dick or Harry who part-timely appointed from admin. department who can't teach a fuck standing there reading slides straight out from power point! In that nut case, the security guards or janitors can perform similar task equally well as well. What makes me more furious, the advisors got the balls to tell me I should accept my fate for my misfortune (those timetable clashes...). Hell that shows how much they think my time's worth, go fuck a chicken la.

I am seriously have to booze up before attending POL101's class, for better, I can pretty sure the whole class won't turn their backs against a round or two of chor dai di during the lesson. I call it class participation. Anyone has 2nd opinion?

Unfortunately afterall I will still have to put up with all of these. Pips, just assume this entry is made invisible ok?

Sighs.

This music video 很美!

Believe Again by Delta Goodrem

Stunning and stupendously beauuutiful!

Words fail me.



p/s : Mind you this is the most expensive music video ever made in Oz. Just look at the backdrop setting and the CG effects then you'll know. On par with LOTR.

Shitnesssssss

This college will never fails to wreck my nerves, EVER!

I went to enroll today and I spent like 2 hours staring at the damn generator doing those timetable matchings just to sort out the perfect timetable. Happy happy clicked "ok"...blimey, Physics class fulled! Peachy, it toppled all my other perfect time slots. And to hell I have to rematch with new subjects again which took me further 1+ hour tim! Fuck. Then in the end only 3 rather than normal 4 subjects mutually exist harmoniously side by side. Ended up taking only 3 subjects due to all the stupid clashes. Now I have to stay on for another semester which is 6 semesters altogether, can be 7 also since I have to postpone my transfer date due to Inti's ever brilliant system. Supposedly Spring 2009 but now delayed to Fall 2009 which constitutes to 2 more semesters but I don't think I will finish all the 2 semesters during that time frame. Prolly just stop before May which is the end of my 6th semester and take a hiatus for preparation/work/spend time with close ones before August. If that's so then I gotta prepare for uni(s) application on next semester or next next semester already and not THIS. Geez so sickening it sure takes a long time for me to enter a proper uni at this age. And does it sounds better than leaving at Spring 2009? Cos at least I get to spend another CNY with friends and family with of cos the bonus of getting ang paos la. But still, wasted hell loads of my time talking to the advisors today, and I have to come up with explanation for the mess but why should I? It's not my fault cos the previous advisor told me not to take 2 sciences (4 cr. hour based) in one semester and not like the timetable then was not clashing also *roll eyes*. Typical ICSJ. Fuck CHM 211 and CHM 212 if not because of them...I think the Dean can just sack all the unproductive staffs like Ms. M, Exam office crew and course advisors for better, I don't see a problem in exercising it for it's a bob's your uncle matter. Then the new building I think is built to burn money into ashes because not only we don't have more flexible timetable but subjects offered seem to shrink as well. What's this? Not enough lecturer then for fuck's sake go hire more, not enough classes is no excuse since the new "grand" block claims to accommodate more students and of cos more classes! Then with all the trumpeted claims, why do we still facing so many time slots clashes? I can't believe I still have to face all this timetable inefficiencies when all there I have to care is my grades/CGPA. Bummer bummer bummer! Real big bummer.

But then this semester is only a 4 days week, meaning I got only 4 lecture days per week! Haha 1st in my life. More time to slackstudy I supposed. I'm taking Introduction to American Government as well. Tell me how the hell I came to the state of fitting POL101(US Government) into my curriculum of..........CLS/MT major?! Bummer!

OMG just kill me.

Desaru Road Trip

Sempena Labour Day off and the lackadaisical day after that, dad and mum took a day off to Desaru of course I gotta tag along for all the reasons. We planned to go for a day trip to Sg. Rengit for seafood but then dad decided to book a resort room impulsively so that we don't need to rush all the way back to JB at night. We stayed at Desaru Damai Beach Resort which was mediocre only but good for short overnight stay. However, looking at those virginal and sandy beach in sight is more than enough to offset the cons. We chilled at the beach, I went to swim at the sea with my dad whilst mum just sat and watch for she is incapable of touching water haha. My fishie was all along with me and I've done with one film in a day! So happy and it was all worthwhile. Btw, the bank didn't reap much of service charge and it's exactly how it'd cost had it been converted to Ringgit. Yay :D

We drove all the way up to Sg. Rengit for seafood dinner after chilling at the resort and all. The meal was darn cheap despite the fact that the place is always infest with Singaporeans. Mum ordered like crazy, I think 7 or 8 dishes for only 3 of us. Still not very full to be honest and we are so gonna get from the further step up of LDL levels which incidentally haunting most of my family members. And then in my utmost humble opinion, Desaru's beaches are 10x better than Bintan's, we used to frequent Desaru like 3-5 times in a year those days but ever since everyone's leaving, so it's getting quiet and lonely nowadays.

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Peace out

Mummy and daddy (forced to take haha)

Me and my symbol of peace

Gemini and colourful canoes
Scratches

Roar...

Sunset and silhouette

Dot-ed the day

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Mbak Jay, tengok lah, this is what a "toy camera" can do. Tell me how you feel about the effect k? To be noted, I DID NOT retouch those photos with Photoshop at all. Feel free to appreciate how pure and fundamental can they be...so aesthetically pleasing .

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Alright, results for this semester are all out, no failing nor extraordinary good grades. My conclusion is I feel lucky to retain my CGPA and move on to my sophomore year which I was deeply in doubt before that haha, every semester is like pain in ass, I was so worried that I might gonna just stuck and ended up in retaking and stuffs...and then let me strongly condemn ICSJ's lecturers, yea now I know you all are nothing but hypocrites, the reason you all gave high courseworks marks is just so that you all can bring us down altogether in one shot during final, and now I know! Ms. Sociology-Lecturer and Mr. History-Lecturer, I won't forget how you all sabotaged me. Kinda disappointed to say actually. Oh well, at least I get to move on still. Nabeh.

Jessica Octaviani II

I was thinking of doing this entry in Bahasa Kekaratan but called it off before I get started cos no one will understand and not even the beloved Jay! Haha. Makan tahu penerjemah then. Alright cut the crap. Me and Jay had our second meet up at Sg yesterday. I promised to see her at 11.30 am SHARP at Heeren for we will have more time to spend for the day but my stupidity has got the better of me. I overslept and by the time I reached Taka. it was already 1 pm-ish and she was bored out from waiting. Ribuan maaf. And then we met up at Kino. and I saw ready sets of Lomo sitting at the Art & Design section's shelf! Tell me how to resist?! I didn't intend to buy actually but still...impulse! I swiped for it and hopefully they can spare me from exorbitbant forex rate dfference, service charge and whatnots. Oh and I got it cheaper cos Jay has the member card which entitled me 10% off the normal price. Ribuan terima kasih ya! There's always a good start to everything haha.

We went cheung k again at Cineleisure, I know it was so pricey for the services we received but did we not enjoy it? haha. And I have to manually buy OCK cos the exorbitant rate we paid didn't include any food at all! So much for Sg's cheung k scene despite the poor operating system and sound system. I'm gonna reinstate that Red Box and Neway still win hands down. We should try the one in Chinatown and Bugis I guess had we not hanging around Orchard. Next time la.

Later on we took bus to Vivocity for dinner, too bad we couldn't go Carnivore cos of the dinner rate is exaggeratedly high. So we settled down at Food Republic which flooded with crowd due to the eve of public holiday (wrong move!). And I wonder why every stalls there seem to plaster with award winning, acclaimed and most sought-after honours, there are not that good as they think they are I guess but well some Singaporeans are shallow so they will go for the famous and long-queued ones. Typical kiasuism la. Nonetheless, the "famous" Hokkien Fried Prawn Mee we had is fantabulous but the rather pricey Lobak I ordered is mediocre only. Street foods, what else to expect? But me likey street foods! And to hell with Anything? and Whatever they are just normal carbonated drinks which trigger curiosity, it shows how brilliant for their plausible marketing strategy. All the sales gimmicks. Wtfbbq.

After the contented dinner, we walked around and Jay "mendorong" me with her evil plan to try out Warm Chocolate Cake at White Dog Cafe but I was skeptical and already kenyang but still there's always a room for temptationexperimentation. Les dessert after heavy meal was welcomed as a rinse of mouth. I pun memang glutton punye. We walked pass the cafe, wondered a while and returned there after the first glance at those cute little cakes sitting in the glassed refrigerator cos we will be more guilty for not stuffing those thick creamy dense chocolate down our stomachs rather than feeling guilty over consuming it against our own dietetic principles. We practically savored each and every bites. Jay was very engrossed in it cos the way she indulged was so unrealistic and romantic to the extent that she had to shut her eyes during those savoring moments. Cute. It is too nice to describe and I don't wish to type those words out either cos at the end of my sentence I will be deadly craving for it again, so that's all for it, go White Dog Cafe at Vivocity and try out yourself. Yea so I got converted.

Got back around 9 something cos she wanted to catch AI 7 which she can't afford to miss due to the appearance of David Cook (duh!). We parted at Outram's station then I went on with my Red Line T^T which took me about 40 minutes to reach Kranji. Because it was fucking public holiday eve and there were some fucking shit eating custom officers who dragged our clearance (courtesy of Mas Selamat that should fuck off and die) plus the ever jamming traffic, I reached home at 1 am! Helluva horrible right?

Still, I was very very very happy nevertheless. I'm turning into bubbles.

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Iya tanter apa yg bisa gw tolong?

p/s : And I must say, Brooke White did not overstay her welcome! She deserves to go this far but what the heck she still got eliminated before Jason Castro.