nada sousou

Nada sousou ~english version~ by Hayley Westenra. Kinda nice but why is it got echoes behind her voice?! Couldn't find the audio file around the net though. Anyone has it please send me k? And alson, where to find eng/chi subtitbles files for Japanase movie around? It's kinda ruining my pleasure knowing that what I've been downloading all the while are mostly of incomplete stuffs! How am I suppose to watch with Japanese subtitles? Imagine how intelligent are those people out there who created Jap subtitles instead of Eng/Chinese. Totally deserve all my cursings to burn in hell! Bummer...

Sekai no chushin de ai wo sakebu (phew what lengthy title!) is nice! Kinda reminds me of 1 rittaru namida (1 litre of tears) where the girl somehow being diagnosed with some sickness and slumped off eventually...and wee wang wang wee wang wang lotsa crying scenes going on. I can still remember how this movie blasted the cinema back then, everyone was practically saying how sad it is...and my Bangla friend namely Isti watched it as well, haha! Oops.

Nada sousou is equally nice as well with more dialogues than the one above and tears inducing! I can't believe Tsumabuki Satoshi died in the end! And it ended up that it is not so a love story as what I expected earlier. How should I categorize it hmmm...folk perhaps on a higher side of heart-touching scale. Okinawa~nii nii

Nana 2 is a bit boring and linear. Watched it last week and the new Hachi Nana which was not the previous one anymore looks sucky apparently. I can't stand stoic acting! I wonder why they changed the cast...Ren is switched as well but this one looks better haha. Overall the story is nice but the ending is tad too rushing and simple like the director only came to realise they got not enough budget at the end of the shooting so just clutter up the remaining. What the.....oh and Hachi got pregnant! *swoons*

I know I'm so overdue with all these movies! To give you the benefit of doubt, procrastination is my nature...for sakes of STUDYING!

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Work (check)

1st semester result (check)

2nd semester registration (check)

Download Japanese movies (check)

Rehab ( )

I'm emo :( ....yea I am still AM!

Fuck stress

My new form 4 co-worker really driving me to grave, almost died...just don't ask why.

Luckily, Michell, Chanel and Max came over and saved my day :) we went supper at Century Garden!

Gotta Off. Otherwise there will be a zombie selling mooncakes at Carrefour JB later.

Retro

While I was munching on my edamame just now, I couldn't help but frowned like there was a serious cramping on my facial movement. Nono, don't get me wrong, it's not the taste of edamame changed. Although it has been sitted inside the freezer for months but they still taste nice like just freshly plucked from one of the many farms in Japan. However, I did it naturally like being widely possessed by involuntary muscles. Then I was told that it takes more muscles to frown than to smile. If that's so, why didn't I smile?

I don't know why but I hardly smile these days as was noticed by one of my old co-worker today. She was saying that I've changed a bit, like more melancholic than the cheerful happy go lucky half-a-year-ago me. Monkey business is totally my business. Reborn living clown is what potraying childish side of me, which glad to say that, more prominent, back then.

Things have been drastically changed in less than half a year span, like whenever I look back, things always seem to be better, life was less complicated, better memories, mood cheerier, easily contented...just like grass is always greener on the other side, and if those are true, I must be falling into a cesspool of declining self worth. So deep into an abyss, lost my way home. I deserve for my own demise I guess.

So many times, trying to raise both the ends of my lips, but well they still can't succumb to the gravity force. Been exerted a lot of efforts to hitch on the utmost smiling but no longer as genuine as before. When you were a child, all you need is very little to make you smile...why then my face is now sour and bitter?

Where has it gone?

Gone with my lifeless fed-up soul and never be back again?

God, please put a smile on my face again if you could hear me.

Wednesday insomnia

I can't really sleep and the clock is tickling near 2 am now. Have to crawl up early for worms, yea you wish, for WORK! That's a common symptom when I start working for the first few days. Reluctance. Co-workers are cordial, in fact overpowering beyond acceptance. They can just keep mouthing uncontrollably next to my ears without looking at my expression, I was practically rolling my eyes and pinching my palm beneath hoping them to stop whilst holding back my fists as well. At this point, you would think that I'm being hostile or what but I bet you will think otherwise when you are in my shoes. I've no clue about why youngster (below 20) these days are repleted with excessive frivolous ambitions, perhaps due to my premature full-fledged grown-up personality that leads me to this thought. Well, being a jovial gentleman I am, my ears are compelled to stuff in those words pretending that I was actually pretty admire their spirits. Dude, it's good to harbour dreams but please do make effort to materialise it otherwise you are just a doormat or weakling. I especially hate it when they kept telling me how well the sales in TC, fuck you, CS is topping the list in any case for years and yours truly senior here has been working in CS stall for 2 years and who are you to rant about what's happening in TC, look at me, been-there-done-there! Can't blame them cos they probably didn't bring along their eyeballs or lack of iris. I really couldn't care less...afterall kids say the darnest things when they are still clean palettes :)

Spending a few days at home doesn't make any difference from isolating myself in Subang Jaya. Home is figuratively getting far apart from what I've been wishing for, a shelter for my hopeless soul but nowadays, home to me is just yet another stopping-by. No longer having cryptical meaning. Simple as it is, 4 pieces of concretes with roof overhead, an insensate construction. Can't get any simpler.....how sad. Don't be amiss la, I'm not emo-ing here but I have been stifling to much of frustrations so ought to be released once in a while lest I'll turn into another breakdown. And yesh, I have haywire mentality, sad aye? Unless anyone out there can bear their ears for me to pour out, I bet there are any...like none haha.

Having thinking of so many also reminds me of how silly I was to fall for a person who will never ever fancy me...haha. I know I'm stoic la but still I'm made of flesh and bones. If you were to ask me do I still having the same feeling towards the person I crushed on. I won't gonna elaborate much as it's complicated and probably blasphemous. Just hope that my silent affection will be acknowledged one day and I don't know when will it be but...just watch as the days go by. Used to be very fragile in emotional management when the crush was at its optimum but you see, since it's only an one way admiration relationship, I shall hold back a bit and stop going beyond stupidity. Hope that person will realise eventually even after the feeling has gone...I don't mind anyway. I'm chickened.

....seriously. I have no one. No one can be trusted better say. I'm misanthropic. Blame me for all you want. I don't care. That's how I feel. Period.

Jijik!

I'm semi-officially start working today in TC. Crowd was ok, not too densed compared to CS. Heck, my uniform is in navy blue + pink like who the hell will wanna wear this piece of shit? It's too embarrassing to wear it even as pyjamas. And we are forced to BUY them, screw it.

Anyways, me gonna work for 9 days only in grand total. Hell short ya! Tomorrow I'm going Carrefour and day after at Lien Hoe. Oh don't even bother to remind me about doing sales report (T.T), malapetaka!

Touched down at 7pm so I just loitered around the bookstore wanted to buy "吉米" series but then thought of baru first day kerja nia, if spent on few books surely few hundreds will terus burned. So I'll buy them later in order to buy at ease...hehe. Since those books are so pictorial, I'm very sure I can finish all of them in less than a day or two -_-. Reading is fun but not very cost efficient ehehe!

Speaking of mooncakes, my company has invented most (if not all) of the disgusting mooncakes in market.

A short brief...

珠圆玉润 - (red bean paste + omochi with red bean paste filling)
绝代双娇 - (white lotus paste + green tea omochi with green tea filling + carotene filled plain
omochi)
五仁玉月 - ( 5 types of grain blended together, walnut + almond + X + Y + Z + malt sugar,
potong stim betul)
娘惹叁曼 - (simple filling, lotus paste + sambal, one word DISGUSTING)
心太软 - (stupid name, lotus paste + cranberries (wtf!) + jelly + lychee omochi with red dates
filling, tutti frutti flavors but still not my cuppa tea)
好预兆 - (another stupid name, yam paste + pandan omochi with strawberry jam filling + jelly,
equally jijik as any other)

.....of the few notorious ones.

After some of my simple introductions, do you still feel like tasting any one of them? Pictures will be up later, maybe. My feeling is too apathetic towoards mooncakes instead of bearing on the great interest that nurtured from new year cookies.

I know it's creative but just too complicated for the flavouring.....I will anytime prefer the the most conventional one, lotus paste with few egg yolks. Gosh those mooncakes just driving me crazy, worse than new year cookies. I don't even have the kick to eat them, lest my taste buds will gonna fucked up and die on me.

Anyone interested in buying pls buzz me up as soon as possible, got discount!!! But by all means, take my advice....eat at your own risk and of course all of them are edible.

Pek Chek

And yea...so holiday was WELL SPENT for the first few days.

Buttock rooted at my chair in front of my desk, am I seeing fungus?

Visited my paralysed grandpa for almost everyday, and I went pasar malam today!!!!Gosh, it's been years I never stepped into a night market around that area. With only 20 bucks, I fully utilised all the Economic theories I've learned finally -_-

I came back without anymore spaces to hang plastic bags around my fingers! 1 buck of balance somemore, heck I'm so efficiently auntie-ish! Squeezed my way to berebut with folks for the freshly fried "goreng chempedak"... *.....*

Talking about Ah Soh, Jenny called me and asked me to start working tomorrow :( happy or sad? Beats me...

PS : Sorry ah BL and KP, I know you all have been telling me about the gathering on Friday since ages ago but if I can't take leave out of the puny less-than-2-weeks job also boh pien...plenty of time ahead afterall. Pai seh! M2M will be around with Xiao Yee anyways, so more merrier I supposed. Come Tebrau City find me la...

Loveholic

Don't ask me why, just watch it and cry your heart out. An exceptionally sad MV after Na Neun Yo Jja Im Ni Da (Because I'm A Girl) by Kiss. Another old song as well but too popular to make me from stop remembering it.

Ladies and gentlemen, Sky by 러브홀릭(leo-beu-hol-lik)

Holiday mood = no mood

Mum was not in today, and food storage at home has been miserably down or I better say non-existence since don't know when. I was trying to korek some dehydrated foods and to my glee, found few packets of hapless instant noodles and spaghettis without paste -_-. Thought of eating homecook food so much (yea yea * roll eyes*) before the break indeed that was the homecook food that granted, cooking by myself at home aka "homecook" food.Ironic! Ok la, Mum is not in for the weekend cos she has to take care of my grandfather. Dad is terribly sucks in cooking and he has to deal with some household stuffs for forever, akhirnya I got neglected. Get over and deal with it!

I was damn pissed with my dad sometimes, he will ask me to drive him but must give me endless piece of mind since the moment I fastened my seatbelt until I pull off the handbreak. Like digitally recorded mantra, keeps nagging 'till infinity's infinity. The fact is I have my way of driving as long as it is safe. Why bother to care so much of tiny details? I will horn when I wanna horn, flash the headlight when I wanna flash, signal when I wanna signal, change lane when I wanna change, take over when I wanna take over...just let me drive peacefully la. Walao eh! 2 years already...That's why I don't feel like driving most of the time cos he will sure have to "accompany" along and make things worse by giving more confusions to the extent of endangering our lives! I'm being serious ok...and for some fucking reasons, JB is filled with so many motorcycles. Jor tau jor mei and kakacaucau! I'm so gonna bang them down and roll over their lil' brain into pulps with my tyre sometimes. Alright, I'm sick. Blame it on the weatherman.

Practically flu-ing for after so many months. I'm so happy that I'm at home finally :D

Working on Monday, yay! My docket is occupied.

Flat

Went to register for next semester's subjects just now and out of expectation they aren't any 3 subjects combo available! Voila, which means it's nearly impossible to maximise 9 credit hours in short semester -_-. And so, I've chosen 7 credit hours instead, which amount to 2 subjects only. Calculus II (T.T) and Essential of Public Speaking. One heavy and one light...neautralised :D hopefully.

Just cheung k-ed with a bunch of HELP-ians...-_-...I had already went cheung k twice in less than a week time. Sien.

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像猪一样肥，烦恼吗？

像猪一样笨，可怜吗？

像猪一样懒，有罪吗？

像猪一样脏，丢脸吗？

我是一只猪耶，想干嘛！就干嘛！

为什么人们不愿承认的事就通通赖给猪？

猪也会伤心的。

你们别再侮辱猪了，有种就别吃猪的肉！

Debauched

Shhh...I'm having Way Loon staying over and he's asleep cos having Calculus 1 test later haha. Can't really hit the keys with strength now -_-

Anyways, yesterday was too sinful! Since I screwed my Chemistry final, so I could't stop my tempting for food. Those are not mutually exclusive in my case, mind you! So I had eaten around half the universe, if not whole. Awful Sakae Sushi (absolute disappointment on the Sukiyaki), Big Apple donuts which tasted better this time, fried salted-egg crabs...and continue the fun at Max's home :)...we drank and bottom-up like mad. 1 big-sized bottle of carlsberg, 1 bottle of red wine, 1 bottle of chardonnay and Jack Daniel! Man, I luv JD since forever, walloped the whole bottle! And we both ended up in drunken state. Max was terribly drunk and keep banging head against the wall...like how melodramatic a typical drunkard can be. Me? Duh! What else after scolded few foul words and off to sleep. Couldn't be bothered much also or I should say how I LOVE my life currently, RIGHT? We both having some sorta entangled problems, mentally. Suffered from some hangover later but it was alright for me as I'm more alcohol tolerant than Max. That fella passed out and ko-ed completely on top of being not sober at all. Horrible...and we deliberately went all the way to Ikea just to buy wine glasses -_-! Like hell wine can knock off conciousness instantly with a better wine glass...haha. Too bad we all are prone to insane fits and cling to fine dining at the same time. *winks*

Die also must die nicely, I should say.

And today, I'm having pork phobia for the first time in my life. That fella called 2 pots of bak kut teh with braised pork + multiple layers of fat. I swear those porks are the thickest ever you can get in bak kut teh's market, siao one. Like gonna feed some terrestial flesh eating carnivores. Damn filling. Nvm, tong sui was followed up after that lolx. Darn FATTENING in spite of my absenteeism in gym for the past few days. *swoons*

At least, I'm feeling better now and deeeeeeeeeeestressed. *smiles devilishly*

till then.

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Orgasmic la, yea la...

I conquered 'em all

Indolence kills :(

It's always sad to know that you didn't do your best when you have plenty of time for that. Looking through the exam questions and eveything seems familiar. However, that's all about it and the next thing came to you is emotional shattering, scalp scratching, pencil fiddling, all but none is to lay down your pen on the answer sheet. Sometimes, we just have to blame on our overcomplacency when we foresee something ahead. Between angel and devil ego, we tend to listen to the former when we are prone to laziness and procrastination. And yes, procrastination is seriously a pain in the ass. It kinda reminds me of what my friend wrote on her blog, epiphany/wahyu/takdir or layman term of fate and destiny you may call it. But heck, how can anyone attribute this act of procrastination to the deities? We are supposed to be blamed for our own doings right? Anyhow, I came to know that I have not been working my ass off on studies on this very first semester of mine in my very age! Books are all out of my topics for the past few months until the last day before exam...as usual. Epitome of a slothful college student.

And who am I to whine here since I was the one who didn't try off my best? I deserve all the bad grades for this semester. I swear I can even fail my Chemistry paper today which I think it's stringing between the failing and passing border already. If only I can secure a mark of 16 out of 40 ( like less than half only!) and I'm able to pass with credit la...otherwise really have to slap my ownself endlessly till awakening. Still,the Chem paper today was kinda hard and I don't even have a 100% definite answer for all the questions. Just hoping that I can shamelessly collect some working marks. Hope it isn't that difficult to materialise it. How sad! 16 marks may seem peasy to others but not for me who had never touched Chemistry for more than 3 years already...

Brain's dying

Not the actual PV, but I love Kuraki Mai...too bad she's kind of a goner now. Those days she was the only rival to Hikki and Ayu was not even that famous. Let alone Koda Kumi and Nakashima Mika, they didn't even exist. Anyway, Kuraki Mai is the first ever J-pop female artist that I got hooked on, been listening to her song since Form 1, nearly a grand total of 8 years! Over these years, her image still remains, not much of make over even her hair still looks the same as 8 years ago. Super low profile aye!

This one is Time After Time~hana mau machide~ which released like few years back already. It sounds airy and acoustic mid-tempo.

Nostalgic

Was browsing through some old photos, old comments and old message history...everything seems so fine back then. I was practically smiling from my heart while reminiscing to those has-been's. Too bad things changed and cannot be reverted.

Food for thought, am I better off than the retrospect self? Of course I'm asking myself, not you!

The difference might be subtle but clearly there ARE changes somewhere beneath which I can't even tell. I'm starting to drift away from conciousness. I'm getting less familiar to myself, every movement of mine is getting unpredictable to the complicated self these days. Oh well. I hope it has nothing to do with identity crisis. Best believe that I'm still wide awake to be able to put trust on myself, can I? Maybe I should hesitate...like I don't really trust myself nowadays. Whatever that I told myself not to do, I'd surely ended up doing it and the vice-versa.

See! That's how I'm contradicting my innerself, the ego.

In any case, still cracking my tiny lil' brain on Chemistry paper. It's a mind-boggling challenge. Shall call it a day and continue tomorrow.....brain just begging me to stop, it's already saturated. Even coffee doesn't suffice to keep my perseverance running.

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memories

Oldest photo (the one and only I have) of me so far in my lappy. I hate to take photos back then which totally unlike the poser-dom and camwhoring addicted moi now, told you people will change from time to time. And I thought taking photos were blasphemous act...haha how naive! Anyhow, I wasn't an Interact Club member, it's because I had to do some Pendidikan Moral project thus tagged along IC members to an Orphanage home. This is the group photo taken after we completed our quest of the day. Spot the chubby me who nearly got squeezed out from the lens? I was once told that I've occupied too much pixels in it :( to hell with those meanies.....

Dolce Vita?

What more can I ask for in extreme wee hour of Sunday?

Life can't be any better than staying up alone at the isolated 2.50 am whilst indulging in a slice of sinful Chocolate Indulgence and a rather mundane cup of instant coffee which in my humble opinion, taste equally nice as any other coffees serve in overpricing coffee franchise outlets.

Simplicity of enjoyment, little things that spice up my life in this very time, an instant indulgence that follows on by dreamless slumber. Blunder? To hell with it.

Off stress, off emotive, off the worldly wisdom, off the robotic routine, off the unreachable affection, off the sightlessness, off the books...away from eveything but the ego. That's what I called life. Simple as it seems.

Heighten up with the rare bossa-nova, jazz soul and contemporary genre. Sipping the cup of cheap instant coffee with tatty mug. Savouring every mouthful of dense chocolate mousse. It's satiable for the day to come.

Anyhow, it's called the capable of living my own life euphorically like hell you don't need any other to make you feel better. I'm more or less an autonomous one like how I do not potray.

Bless my soul with tranquility and serenity, take my life away to eternal rest if you were to take them away from me.

Whining and being emotional nowadays are too remote and insufficient an outlet of feelings. Am I moving towards a next good level or reverting back to the worse self? Beats me, seriously, my brain is made paralysed in form of stone now. Of 30 words that I go through, 25 of them will slip away. Could be short term memory but I beg to differ, compulsive-oppressive-optional memory lost would be more appropriate to term my disposition. Bah!

ps : and yea, I was supposed to congrat Mark who scored straight As in his recent A-levels
result. All the best in England.*throws confettis silently at a corner with jealousy*


pps : kinda screwed Anthropology, didn't know what I'm writing also. Lack of sleep is evil! My
another hope for A- confirmed went bubblish again. If only I can work harder which I think
I didn't...no point crying over spilled milk now.

Parting shoot:

This is so not my life and not the place I should belong...sometimes, things can be

made better if you share your indulgence and enjoyment with another person

who appreciate. Even if you are only able to taste half a slice of the cake but the happiness gained is more than enough to offset the trivial half-sliced that you won't get to eat. Eat more for yourself and slump off faster, why not make someone to die off with you willingly? Sounds

sicked but true when you finally apprehended the cruelty of blindness in affection. Deep but meaningless.

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Some parts are missing. Anyone has second opinion? I know I'm suck in pointless line-sketching but do you think I give damn?


Layering of whipped cream and pastries to perfection

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ppps : if you're so convinced that I'm being emo and hiding away at some corner or in my blanket weeping at this point, then you're so wrong. Quit thinking otherwise. Chocolate Indulgence may taste nice but it can also be too filling and overpowering that leads to feeling of disgorgement at the moment you swallow in the last one piece forcefully. The thirst of water afterthat and the remorseful feeling of boosting up weight, sugar level and etc. are just so unloved. That it all left nothing but some stray sticky dirty chocolate and cream smudged all over, yet to be either discarded, cleaned or replaced. Possibly, try a new flavour that is not so sickening next time :)

Life is so simple as it is.

Steamboat love

Wah...this was the worst buffet steamboat I've ever tasted! Restoran Talipon at Kelana Jaya (right opposite Kelana Jaya LRT station). Variety wise, other than the mediocre sized prawns served, others are just plain miserable. Even the desserts are far apart beyond comparison and remote to those in Dataran Mentari. Man, if not because of the grilling thingy! In my humble opinion, JB serves the best buffet steamboat in Malaysia lo! Even the worst one in JB can anytime beat the best one in KL...

Anyways, I spent too much time in gym so was kinda late and they had to wait for me as a result while Charles was left stranded at Kelana Jaya LRT for almost 1 hour due to my fault...he was damn pissed. Mm hou yee see ah...didn't expect Max to come that early today. 5 of us went including Xiao Yee.

After that mediocre dinner, dropped Charles at LRT and we headed to Xiao Yee place at SS15 Pangsapuri and chit-chatted there, well, more of gossiping la...then switched place to their friend, Dennis' place to continue the gossiping. Later, again switched place to poolside...until around 1.30 am! My Anthropology revision terus gone down the drain...

Man, there are so many things happen among those designer students la...endless stories. And I love their courseworks, IF I'm given the talent in drawing. Unfortunately, I'm not.

Contemporary arts are so fabulous! Esp pop art, patch works, line sketching, gothic...ahhh the list goes on....

I so wanna take Art Appreciation next semester la but too bad, the time slot not very flexible and clashes with almost all other subjects *sighs*

Smug

Sometimes, it's better to keep those fantasies in your pocket. Once they got exposed to living daylight, the lose of intensity will slowly steer them to an undesirable ending that you don't wish to see. Eventually, faded and vanished into thin air...

Sekian.

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Dedication

She is leaving on a jet plane to another side of the globe by today, another hemisphere on opposite side to be more precise, Tempe, Arizona. We, from don't know each other to hi-bye coursemate to enemy(my bad) to acquaintance to bestie (more than friend but less than lover that kind)...haha, hope you won't feel disturbed by this post, Cheryll.

Anyway, this entry is specially dedicated to you!

Don't forget about our Euro trip, summer trip in the States and etc!

See you next next summer, hopefully! Man, that's gonna be a long time.....

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Bon Voyage and take care of yourself over there k? *zillion of hugs and kisses*

Damn, I'm so gonna miss you.

PS : My face looks like elephant from every angle inside...so huge :(

Anomalies

It's funny when I think of it everytime...

I'm extremely bad in judgement sometimes especially towards others that I always thought I'm very good at it. In fact, that could be the silliest joke of the century I proclaim.

The thing is, people that I'm hating or used to hate are often the one who care most about me and get alerted when I'm emo. Oh well, my extent of caring is not too large in degree, just words of console will do by any means. Ain't that hard afterall I supposed.

And I dare to say, I used to hate Cheryll back in those days before we turned bestie. Even the girl whom I used to hate in my class currently approached me after she saw my emo personal message on MSN...she left me soooo speechless and least expected about it.

On a contrary note, people whom I care a lot and love to bit are less sensitive to my emotional swinging. Like how funny right? Maybe I've been thinking and expecting too much from them which I shouldn't be in the first place. Or maybe they are just not the ones that I should give my love and caring to or I've been hiding too much of my feelings to them? Someday they might just throw me a words or two and get me afflicted which in fact further established my statement above...who knows?

Perhaps they are too complicated beyond comprehension or I'm just way too naive to comprehend the meaning of life and relationship...

Mum just called anyways, Grandpa nearly passed away today in specialist centre (he was badly struggling in the ward and almost let out his last breath) but thank god he was saved for the time being. This time, doctor suspect it is cancer of the colon or stomach (probability of 20% upon initial diagnosis) . Bad things are ushering him to the worst situation at once especially this few months. My cousin sister was passed away during my AS final back in last year...I hope my final is not a bad omen to amount to anything bad :( . I'm such a jinx...

I think a lot of my relatives are coming back from overseas soon and my sister as well. God bless him and save him from the bads.

.......after all these, I'm just a smile-coated lifeless soul, if not more. Don't expect me to play around much this season.



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"Lim-kay" (Teo-Chew pronunciation)

I rather wear wig

yea...

Yun Nam haircare is definitely a good tricho. expert around for quite sometime and their best 101 marketing strategies is no doubt running to the max.

In fact, they will feed a cow until it is full before they slaughtered it. So, I was fully indulged with their services for a measly Rm 22 INITIALLY. And after gotten all those freebies, screening and services. They started to show their fangs by introducing me with further package which totally cost a bomb, if not nuclear bomb. Fuck wei, RM 6580 for 30 hair treatments O.o . Then I told them I'd consider (actually I was thinking of how to get myself off that ridiculous place). Upon hearing my gentle rejection, their face changed like some sorta Chinese masking opera show. And then, I was brought to see the manager to hear those preaches and blahs...somemore entitled to their GENEROUS 10% discount with my student status. Nearly forced to make deposit on their haircare products...pui luckily I didn't pull out my card to them for shitty hire purchase! Tell you, I won't fork a single cent also...gimme the fucking testers and lemme off! I rather gone bald or wear wig for the time being I guess :( .They are really like syndicate. Despise their customer service attitude. If I'm given with those $ someday, I'll rather visit other branches.

Nabeh!

Yerrr

Shah Alam for shisha on Friday and from that on stranded in Kepong until now :(

Disastrous!

Never even study a single bit on this weekend...

4 more days to Anthropology's final.

God Bless.

Mary Elizabeth Frye wrote...

Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there, I do not sleep.
I am in a thousand winds that blow,
I am the softly falling snow.
I am the gentle showers of rain,
I am the fields of ripening grain.
I am in the morning hush,
I am in the graceful rush
Of beautiful birds in circling flight,
I am the starshine of the night.
I am in the flowers that bloom,
I am in a quiet room.
I am in the birds that sing,
I am in each lovely thing.

Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there. I do not die.

In love with this poem(widely used as funeral lament today)...and it features in Final Fantasy game as well if I'm not mistaken. The musical version is way melancholic and I personally like the Libera's cover. Like momentary of grievance and sorrow flashing before my eyes whenever the song plays. Requiem's what i'm humming, soon to bury my heart and let it rest below the land.

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Boulevard of broken dreams

Sien

Finally completed Anthropology presentation and it didn't turn out that well as what I expected. Our scores for fieldwork project is not among the top 2 highest in class. :(

English test result is out, I did some really careless and avoidable mistakes. My thesis statement doesn't match with my topic sentences and concluding statement because I failed to make correction on the TS and CS after I made amendment on one of my topic sentences. And there it goes, 1% compensated which is so dumb to say. -_-

To get at least an A-, 32% out of 40% is needed for my final! WTF...not until miracle happens I guess. Hope Ms Kalai can open her buddha's hands and round up my currently accumulated marks to the nearest round number, kekeke...to increase my possibilities of getting A- , oh well, peace.

I fucking don't believe I met Mr. LEE GUO WEI in SS15. I was totally startled and jaw dropped when I saw him around this area. Anyways, he's my secondary classmate and we used to join venture in St John Ambulance's marching team, organising camping and so on. Little did I expect that I will literally bump into him at this kinda occasion. He's working as one of the WWF(World Wildlife Fund) fundraising team members to inducepersuade random people to subscribe to their credit card based auto debit donating scheme. Man, asking for donation still need to specify so much, in my humble opinion, donate by real CASH is the most practical way of all. Am I right?

Duh whatever...

Of papa kedana, narcissism and vanity

I'm practically on the verge of bankruptcy now as a result of over-indulged in retail theraphy for the past few weeks. Damn told you I hate megasales! Ah screw it, it's only like once in a bluemoon and why am I start bitching here? I bought more than 10 tees and shirts, 2 shorts and some odd stuffs which cost around I-Do-Not-Wish-To-Know. Cos my old garments are totally oversized, i'm discarding all the XLs currently and welcoming the Ms and Ls :)

And I suspect a lot of my jeans have already oversized also since my waist was like 36-38 half a year ago. Now? It's confidential still but of course it has to be anytime slimmersmaller than that*floats into air*. The remaining pain in ass are the ass (pun intended) , protruding tummy, monsterous dumpy calves and freaking men's boobs! Saggy as they may look but effing hard to get rid to the firm end. Guess I really need to do freeweight in time to come which I not very keen on currently.

Man, have I told you all that those medicines prescribed by the dermatologist simply kick ass! Like some sorta wizard drugs that yield apparent result in less than a day. Whatever dead sea mask, skin lifting, antiaging, antioily skin care products that you have now, chuck them aside. Resort to a proper specialist is the bestest way. I no longer having stray, oily and gross pimples and acnes bugging out my face anymore. It's only the 3rd day of medication. I'm gonna pray and worship dermatologist from this entry on. However, there IS a trade off to every good thing. I'm suffering from dry scalp now and dry scalp means DANDRUFFS. Fucking say bye bye to my black tees for the time being.

Not forgetting, Yun Nam Haircare called! I have an appointment with them this Friday. I'm entitled to 1 thoroughly scalp screening, 2 hair treatment sessions and 1 set of haircare kit. With all these for a measly RM 22 nia! Super wu hua! But the drawback is, I have the omen that they are going to preach me further for signing up their exorbitant monthly package eventhough the result is significant and extremely effective. Come on, do you expect an uptight budget bound college student like me to fork out a few grands monthly just to have few more strands of hair rooted? Not until I found a proper job after graduated. Nah, screw them, I am just gonna carry a mere RM 22 in my wallet and see what can they do to me. CUSTOMER IS ALWAYS RIGHT. Learn this line! *roll eyes*

I tell you this is all karma, it goes around and comes around. The more I'm telling myself to tighten up my wallet, the more inducements of flowing out are gonna cast upon my moolahs! It's psychic and crazy. So I'm not gonna make any rubbish statement of saving money anymore even if I do, oh well. Let's make it this way perhaps, I AM GONNA BE SPENDTHRIFT!!!!! -_-

So it was a damn contented meal I had just now, Summer BBQ steamboat at Dataran Mentari, we're gonna try out all the steamboat eateries in KL soon! Followed on with shisha, man, what a nice day to start off my SAVING plan. Fortunately my date with Ian tomorrow has cancelled, if not the rate of flowing out will just increase by 3 folds :/

PS : lapsed into the last week before my first final paper (10th of August NEXT Friday, ANT 101), this weekend is nothing but study and isolating away in room only. Miss Lim is so goddess cos she reduced the exam topics from 18 to 9 topics only! Wish Miss Jane can do the same to Chemistry as well, 17 topics wei! T.T

I feel so linear and boring towards the days ahead until the 18th. Freaking predictable...robotic.

*****

Da medications...

Caught u! For licking your monitor (Strawberry Sorbet)

Love is in the air :p