Self-centered is a felony

Just came back from dinner with Mr. A and KC.

Mr. A told me that his relationship with his gf is very rocky at this stage.

There of cos,being a full time pengecoh,I allow myself to not to question further until I touched on sensitive issue,lol,u noe la...ahem!!!Warn u,it's highly confidential...not gonna reveal a single bit here or else I'll be chopped into pieces tomorrow!

Ok the thing is,Mr. A know Mrs. B for only 4 month but the actual relationship started off during the 2nd month.

All this while,I've been hearing how fragile their relationship is ever since the first day I knew that they are together.But as u know,love is blind,as far as the eyes can see only.They've been mesmerising each other with sparks for past few months.

However,Mr. A will sometimes pour his heart to me and tell me inside out how he feels about Mrs. B.In my 20 cents,I feel that Mrs. B is somewhat immature to handle their relationship yet(it's the first encounter for both of them though).I met her few times and she's behaving very weird as in the way she behaves and talks but afterall I dunno her much,it's none of my business afterall.

Then,just now,Mr. A told me Mrs. B is very dumb,stupid and blur.He's been repeating all these words so many times as if they'll sound better after perpetually of repeating.He told me all the foolishness she committed all this while(he actually told me all these b4 last time...but c'mon I'm a good listener afterall!).Ok,and so,I analyse his problem and conclude briefly here.

1)Mrs. B is immature,and so as Mr. A too.I dun blame them cos it's their first time.

2)Mr. A has been quite possessive to Mrs. B all the while as what Mrs. B feels.

3)Mrs. B is playful,she wants a relatioship but she do nothing to hold on their relationship so far.Most da time,Mr. A has to take the initial to approach Mrs. B.Can u believe a couple in love,and the girl's side don't even bother to contact or throw a SMS to the guy?What's tht guy then,bootie call?When she's with her frens she won't care a shit for Mr. A but when sounded by Mr. A,the only thing she knows is apologies but she didn't takes the lesson at all.The way Mr. A said was like he really hopes to change her(IMO:love her is not to change her but adapt to her if she willing to do so as well to certain extent).But her character has been like this all the while and I'm afraid it's only asking a tiger to be herbivore.It's already embedded to her personality long time ago or that could be her basic instinct.Who knows?Only time will tell...

It's like :

Mrs. A just came to KL to study early this year and I deduce that she's being eager to have a relationship over here(she's from Kuantan fyi.) with the motives of seeking for shelter and for the sake of prestige among his fellow frens.It all seems to be unnatural at the first place from what I've seen.

And so,Mrs. B will go out have lotsa fun with her own frens until she sicked of them.She'll fling herself back to Mr. A,vice-versa.

That's wat I think and I told Mr. A about that,but still in order not to be mean,I told him to give Mrs. B a chance until the end of the month when he'll be moving out from KL temporary.If she still not attempt to cherish this relationship,then there's nothing much Mr. A can do also,just let it go instead in order to curtail the harship and pain derive from this relationship.

But actually my ego said,"Well,u should juz give her a slap and call it an end right now!"

Of cos the angelical side of me had stopped me.I'm not that mean and daring lah!Afterall,none of my business also and then I haven't even started a relationship on my own so far.Thus,ineligible to give any constructive feedback.Still,I try my best to help them using the thing called "common sense" and "logic".Bah!

Now,I shall watch I see what's happen next.It may be easy to say that "there's still plenty of good girls/boys outside,u r not short of her/him"...but when things really happen on me,I might not think the way I think as a bystander anymore.It's hard to know cos a person's feeling is immeasurable and hard to speculate.Unless,u r beast.

In short,I think It's only their first love,so they shouldn't be too rash about everything.It's within expectation.You'll only realise when u experience through it.Give both of urself some times then.I'm sure both of them will learn more after another few attempts of failure on relationship.

That's y the first cut is always the deepest,u can either choose to endure the pain or find ways to heal it.It is through the healing that u know how u should handle and prevent relevant "mishap" to be happened again.

~cheers~

We shall go for a few shots after my AS and ur A2 bro...!Next week k?lol :)

Disneyland

I really can't imagine when the time that JB is having its own Disneyland...*imganining Mickey and Minnie wearing Baju Melayu and Baju Kebaya,Cheong Sam and Samfu,Sari and wateva...nice!Mickey's wearing songkok will look very new to everyone haha! :p no offence!)

Then all our Malay artists will started composing songs for the launching of it like the one in HK....the songs will go like "Oh,Mickey,itu tikus yang comel dan terkenal,membawa keriangan kpd kita...yada yada..."*so wanna cachinate...*
It's kinda crappy and surreal to think of it though...(I was rendered speechless by this news cos how on earth u expect me to believe,until I saw the news on Star.)

It's always like something big plan on Johor's land but in the end will be no avail...

Been hearing all kinds of rumours that there will be an internationally standard of large scale theme park going to be built somewhere in Sri Alam for over the past few years but until now the land is still left to be dilapidated!sigh...tht's the typical management style tht we can always expect from the Johor state govt.Waterfront City(abandoned) is an infamous sad case in this context...it's a shame also since it's facing right in front of our neighbour country just across a strait!What else can we expect?More efficiency and productivity?I'd say,give them 100 years or more should be adequate...unless they reform the management team or else,corruption is always there and we won't be able to improve and have any major development in our state!

But it's better than nothing,tht unofficially proposed Disneyland project is gonna be built in Nusajaya if it ever comes true.Nusajaya is an infant city which no longer after,all the state government admin. department will be moving over to there from JB.It's a duplication of the case of Putrajaya,the new federal territory.It's quite strategic since it's build along the coastline of Johor strait...border upon Singapore too as usual.So if Disney land is to be built,I'm sure it'll affect their tourism industry!Esp. the new controversial casino that still building right now!I'm sure Disney land is a more pleasant choice than a casino since their casino is bound to so many rules and regulations compare to the one in Genting...have to pay to enter,Genting is FREE!!!Wuahaha...can't wait for that day to come...M I C K E Y M O U S E!Somehow I prefer Donald Duck -_-...since young.

That piece of new was published at The Stars online portal yesterday but I couldn't find the link now,thus,go and search urself for that!

Friday is my last paper,can't be happier than that!

But I think I've been on procrastination for few days edi ever since I came back from PD :p doom....!

Dono lah!Life's goes on...

Oh yeah,Chobits is getting boring and crappy after the 10th episodes,should cease to watch it further I think!DH...I'm still working hard to finish all the season 2,I'm a total nighthawk now -_-...gonna start watching Lost season 1 and 2 real soon after I resume my class cos JB cannot connect to DC++ .I noe it's a bit outdated for not watching a single episode of Lost until now.But believe me,I'm gonna do so hard to finish 2 seasons in 2-3 days!Wuahahaha!

"Goong" I kinda stop watching it also,cos can't seem to download any further episodes so far.I desperately need subtitle also!I'm focusing solely on DH only recently...diu!

~cheers~

Holiday coming!

Summer!Natsu!

ALl I Have To Do Is Dream...

Wow,miraculously,I had dreams for 2 consecutive days already!

Yesterday's one was kinda unorganised and peculiar.

I dreamt I was in the library,but the library wasn't that one in our college,for hell I dun even know which library is it that I was "in".

There,I saw Stephanie,Terence,Khim May,Doreen,some THOL librarians and many other random peoples around which look familiar to me(I'd met them b4 long time ago but I dun even know them personally...some are from my tuition classes,some are from my working places and some are my primary schoolmates,some are even my collegemates which I don't really aquaintance with them deep).

Then,I sat down at a corner and suddenly heard someone beside me blasting with the radio that I assume he brought it into the library and the song he was playing was Jay Chou's song but I dunno the title for it.Of cos,he is not suppose to blast the volume in library,therefore,I tried to warn him and attempted to turn down the volume for him.I hit the wrong button instead,then he finally realised and tried to lower the vomume himself but the radio seems to be out of control and keep on increase the volume instead of the other way round.Thus,formed a havoc in the library and the librarian came,then the problem solved after that but I dunno how they solved it.

After for a while,again,I chose another quiet corner and settle down in front of a big table with Steph.,Terence,Khim May,Darrel(a vy not familiar fren...-_-) and an anonymous stranger(a girl).I sat beside the girl and facing Darrel.I took out my law books and then afterward I heard Terence asking me to go to Sg. Wang tonight by cab,K.May and Steph. are coming along also.I hesitated and told him I might not make it cos I'll be having an appointment with my housemate(cos he's gonna leave the college after A-Levels...yea...it's Andrew that I'm mentioning).But then,out of sudden,Steph. decides to go KLCC instead then I told her unless she comes and fetch us or else I won't go...then the matter rest here and no further -_-

The next thing I knew is,Terence,K.May and Steph. were no longer sitting with me,left Darrel and the girl.Darrel was holding a cigarette in his mouth where he's not suppose to do so in the library.But I didn't talk to him and the girl through out the entire dream.

Subsequently,the library's going to call it a day and I saw all the staffs talking to each other in Hokkien and other dialects which I couldn't remember much.

The dream went off like this and I was awakened by my roommie's voice cos he was doing monologue rehearsing on his presentation today.It annoyed me but since he had informed to me last night,I shall accept it as an once-and-for-all's situation.

Nightmare...

So I had a bad dream last night...

I didn't suffer from any hangover cos I didn't take any buzz.

I'm not even that tension,since I watched so many episodes of "Goong","Love Hina" and "D.Housewives" last night.

The dream continued even right after I woke up from the 1st part of that dream.

I conclude that dream was horrible and it didn't involve any chasing by ghosts or monsters scenario and then fall down from the cliff.

Neither any spirit appears before my dream and constantly harm me within.

Nothing could be more disorientated than this dream.

I wish I can interpret it and unlock the mysterious indication inside.

Maybe I should read "Dream Interpretation" by Sigmund Freud.I wish I read those but I didn't...

Why of all the dreams came this dream?

I need to unbreak the "code" and "sign" inside!Maybe Dan Brown can lend me a hand?!

Well,I couldn't recall much of it though,it goes like...

1st part :

For unknown reason,I'm diagnosed with some incurable sickness or disease...

And the doctor told my parents that they should immediately send me for cremation to prevent the spreading of that disease,but I don't see any unhealthiness in me.

I'm so upset and confuse but I didn't question about the doubt either and prepare to accept my faith.

There it comes the day that I'm waiting to be cremated,before me there was a guy in my age group being cremated.And right after him is my turn.For god's sake I didn't weep a single drop of tears,it was strange.But I can feel the reluctancy of going to leave all my beloved esp. my parents.

The strange thing going on is my parents didn't weep either.And I was holding a very firm belief that the life after death is going to be better and I'll reincarnate soon.With these beliefs that keep me going on and surmise that I'll get to reunion with my family real soon after that.

What a foolishness...

The 2nd part :

After I awakened to realise that it's only a dream.I'm so relief and continued my sleep again.

There again,my unrest mischievous braincells started to make fun on me...

This time,before I knew it I'm already told to stand by in front of the cremator,it's more of a kind of gallow it seems.

I was told to lie myself inside the casket and awaiting for my turn.

"They"(I dunno who...) seal the casket.My vision was blacked out that time and the next thing appeared before me was strong flames and the heat...

After that,I think my spirit and soul has already departed from my body.My emotion and perception are attaching my soul.From there,I can clearly see that my blood and flesh perpetually changed into ashes and a kind of strangely clear liquid form with some precipitants.It seems so disgusting...those precipitants look like the by-product of liposuction surgery(maybe it's the sign that asking me to shed off my excessive fat?).For hell reason that I know...

Finally,I woke up only to realise that there's few drop of tears hanging around my eye bags and some fell on the cheek.It's so real and authentic...I proceeded to weep a few more drops after that due to the fake "genuineness" of that dream.I mean I dreamt a dream that's beyond horripilation and horrible.It's like ferociously torn me apart,into freaking numerous of pieces!It shattered me somehow.But after about an hour later,everything back to normal again.

I really wish I could interpret this dream.

But I heard there's a saying that if u dreamt about coffin mean a sign of wealth and u died in ur dream indicates prosperity in you.As for the combination of all above,there might be a different interpretation that I really have no idea.

This could be the most terrific dream I dreamt so far during this year.I never had a dream for about 2 months before this...

So when will I have sweet dream then?

It feels and sounds more pleasant than having a nightmare.Although the nightmare may be able to interpret as a good indication in real life.Somehow,it still FREAKS me out!

Man...!

Fugly

10 reasons I should stay away from the stereotype :

1. It's generalising.
2. It's utterly pointless.
3. It mean no difference from being a copy cat.
4. It's a big turn off where u can find someone similar like u in the street
eventhough given the probability is 1 in a million.
5. It indicates u r lack of creativity and innovative.
6. It doesn't potray ur personality and characteristic from beneath u.
7. It stopped u from any revolutionary changing and sustain u in a small little
world.
8. It makes ur life miserable and addictive where u blindly follow the trend of
what other people do.
9. It keeps u isolated from the others but u'll most probably feel that people
that do not stand in ur circle are those do not have sensitivity of what's
happening around in ur own tad pet theory.
10. It'll transform into double standard sometimes and formed 2 pronged
common yardsticks to judge a person.

For examples of stereotype person :

1. Soccer maniac
2.DOTA/CS/PS2 and whatever contemporary games addicts
3.Braniac that think they are a bunch of elite
4.Typical guy that so into automotive stuffs
5.Girls that love pink
6.Guys that smoke
7.Party queen/king
.................................there's so many more in each different fields!

Although,I have to confess that I do commit to some of them in the list above but I have to emphasize that it's mere ocasionally and mood dependent.I won't allow myself to be perversely addicted to something with the exceptions that I know what I'm doing and I won't pawn my precious time off for that.For instance,those people willing to sacrifice their sleep to watch dramas,soccer matches,games are really a big no-no cos what will u get in the end?Nothing but saggy eye lids painted with black rings.U spent the whole night to watch a soccer match just to know either win or lose?If ur favourite team lost,u'll "lost" along too,your soul.It's not enough to compensate for what u do for the rest of the time.But please make it as a distinction from being a nighthawk cos afterall not every nighthawk stay up late due to all these courses.

In short,this kinda people is annoying and irritating.Although it's not my business but they are affecting the others by using their own peculiar standard to measure a person.If the others are not on the same boat,queerness is what they'll give to others.For me,these kinda queasy people is what I feel to be treated the other way round.Afterall,"it's not that I'm different,but u all r the same"!I like this quote cos it's an inversion from certain angle and it re-defines those that seems remote back to the nearness that they suppose to be,and bring those that still foolishly down to their own ground!

Cheer up for those that constantly bump into this kinda person!U should feel lucky to be the "oddball".Nothing wrong and no use to make urself wearing the same shoes as them too :p

Nothing really matter...

Had been away for 4 days...

On a getaway and unofficial vacation...

To Port Dickson(PD)...

Just went there out of coincidence cos a distant relative of mine hold a wedding banquet at a small Town adjacent to PD town.It's quite kampung anyway...yea,the way the people behave there are somewhat distinct from us.I mean the way they speak,the way they dress,the way they behave,their habits...totally different and I can't even tolerate some of them but I dun think it sounds good to mock people here,haha!

Anyway the banquet is so-so,typical Chinese wedding ceromony with lots of yum-seng(bottoms up),Uncle-ish karaoke,and so on...and the dishes served were also nothing but the conventional type...I hate shark fins...they kill sharks!

Ok well,due to my relative's kampung house can't be able to accommodate so many of us,so,we stayed overnight at some reknowned resort hotel in PD for not longer than 24 hrs -_- but still I managed to go down to the beach to take a stroll and captured some scenic views and of course as usual,the cam-whoring!Due to the shortage of time spent,the "unofficial" trip was not too contented and there's still a piece of shade remaining in my mind...my freaking AS exams hasn't over yet ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Econs(last paper) on this coming freaky Friday!!!!!Therefore,I dare not even let go all my passion for the sun & beach :p !Save it after exams...That's the reason I named it as an unofficial trip instead.Lazy to post photo due to the laggy connection.

As long there's clean beach and mild sunlight.I'm statisfy with it...although I wanna get tanned but what to do,I'm naturally born with the lack of pigmentation which more or less look like an albino all the time.Just wanna look more healthy on my complexion that's all.

Sun & Beach rocks!

ps: Juz knew tht they gonna change Redang trip to PD!I was like OMG...not PD again!!!!!Y budget? PD beach is not so nice compare to those off shores'!They dun hav crystal clear water to allow for diving and snorkelling.They dun hav fine sandy beach...their sands are like cement and block!They dun even hav corals...!I dun wanna see vessels passing by when relaxing on beach!I dun wanna see oils and dirts floating.I dun wanna see grossy foam and bottles lying on the dinine beach!I want a less developed and inhabitated natural "virgin" beach and sea!!!

Only manage to upload 2 of this(it took 15 minutes)...stupid connection...all the Digicam's one kenot upload,here's those taken by the low res. handphone's camera:

There's a artificial lagoon behind me which kinda pointless.Therefore,pointless pose of mine -_- dun wanna be like typical tourist look ma!Pity the coconut tree though.

Looking for the coastline of Sumatra but overshadowed by the effing fog(waiting for the 2nd tsunami outbreak).Notice that there isn't any sand right?Yea,cos all of those with the sandy beach are to be held up in my memory stick and the laggy connection won't allow big-sized files uploading...fuck!These are all pointless photo and poseur-ish!pui!

I saw so many crabs and also the very cute hermit crabs!But to sustain the environment's ecosystem,being an environment concerning person all the while.I have the responsibility to protect all of them...although they may look cute and curious for u but if all of u take them home just to satisfy ur temporary curiosity and excitement...then those things won't be able to appear before our next generation!And others may not be able to enjoy a glance on all these marine creatures...therefore when I saw my little nieces trying to smuggle them back,I stopped them and taught them not to do so :p and they actually think that I'm scolding them.....no doubt they cried but it's for their own good also!haha...

Hanabi...

I couldn't believe my own eyes when the clock hit around 11 sumthing...

*drum rolls*

I witnessed the longest ever fireworks in my life right in front of me which less than 500m of distance!

Wow,it was terrific and the fireworks source were from Sunway Lagoon which just right in front of my window view(yea,I luv my room for having a 90 deg. bend window glasses which allow me to take a scenic view of the entire Sunway Lagoon,Sunway Hotel,Sunway Pyramid,Sunway Medical Centre,Partial view of Extreme Park,KLCC,KL Tower,PJ TM tower,LDP....and many many.Particularly the lagoon!I was so lucky to see those significant fireworks where they even managed to shatter the glasses of the window,the strong scent of fume after the fireworks and the thick fog formed after the fireworks.Wow,that could be the best moment for all Sunway Monash Condo. Hostel's hostelites which reside in rooms that facing the lagoon!It's so big...the scale and the blooming masterpiece and the fire went off like waterfalls and all you could imagine of!Brilliant.....it's so real and I was totally stunned cos I got the best view of it from my room alone!Nice...

Therefore I wanna declare yesterday as the most memorable day in my life so far in 2006.Nothing can compare!Those that we play during CNY are just one out of 1000000000 of it.Insignificant to scrape the view of the night scene but yet attracted unwanted police on patrol -_-...

This is so official and celebrated!Joy to the world...*throw confettis and sounds of glory/cheering*

Stamped:

24th May 2006

~witnessed a splendid fireworks that lasted for around 20 minutes consecutively which were approx. 100-200 shots of fireworks plus the branches right IN FRONT of my room here B3A-02/1 which is less than 500m of pellucid view!~

Hooray once again!
So touching...
Best hanabi I ever had in my life...
Summer rocks!
Holiday rocks!
Exams sucks!
Life's full of hope!
The world is so beautiful if you widen your scope!

~Peace good nite~

Ps:I'd embrace tht precious moment by taking down some video snippets which last 5 minutes!But unfortunately I din take any still photo so unable to upload it.....I prefer "motion"approach in this context rather than the stiffly still images.Motion speaks all!I can post up the panoramic view from my room's window next time but don't see any need for it now and I'm lazy + hostel's laggard internet connection that subsequently causes the delay in loading/uploading contents!

Bad Bad Bad

Man,this is the most depressing thing that could ever happen on me.

Guess what?

Law paper 1 was fucking easy!All the question came out b4...

And this is nothing to be happy of...cos I'm overjoyed and failed to manage my time evenly!

It's jus too much things and points to write there.I spent alost 45 minutes on the 1st question where I only suppose to spend about 30 min. on each question(sickish 1 and a half hour for 3 essays averagely 2 pages full per essays...fuck!).Well,I'm not surprise though cos tht's "me" style where I will spent excessive of time on each and every single question in order not to left out any useful points.Yea,tht's my motto,to maximise the marks as many as possible...but then I rarely practice on those question with time restriction(mostly taking my own sweet time to do...).So partially contributed to the state I am today...T.T...should I long for an "A" summore?Cos I couldn't finish the last question as usual.The band marks will be very low usually for my 3rd question...it goes like 1st:3 pages,2nd:2 pages,3rd:1 and a half pages...it goes descending as so for the marks that will probably obtain!I felt like shit jus now and doom...when I come to think of I'm so short of thime for the last question.It's not that I dono what to write but if the invigilator would be so kind to spare me another 5 min. I can done that with 3 pages completely full of the relevant points...fuck holy cow!I wanna write more but no time....!They collected the paper 1 minute earlier....how can...do u know how much I can write within 1 minute?????Fuck you!Now,the hope for getting an A for Law has been very obscure....what a big disgrace!

As for Statistics...I'm not very sure but those answers are mostly link to each other which simply means u must obtain the answer in a) in order to proceed to do b)...if a wrong...it'll implicate the whole question which averagely carrying 10 marks each on Stats paper!Fuck!Currently,I got a very silly mistake made on question 6) last two Qs.Where I inversed the whole variable used where supposingly A should be written in column B and the other way round.I'm so dumb stupid foolish...how can I????!!!!It's the frequency table!!!!Fucking do-able!Now 7 marks gone from that and the only thing to hope for is to get some "kesian" marks and some substitution/correct formula used marks...those insignificant marks!Fuck there goes my A again!!!Time to say goodbye to distinction!The freaking thing is that I couldn't even do the 1st question properly...omg...same case duplicated from P1's incident...man!Spirits are totally dampened...luckily the following questions still consider do-able...but not equiv. as score-able here-_-!Arghhh..........how come like this.........y should they give me marks that so close to A(prediction) but not A?I mean cmon,if u wanna spare me marks pls....let me get A's...or else just give me lower Bs will be better off....at least further from the A standard!It feels better...not too "kek sim" afterall rite....?

Now...my last papers to come are the Econs papers (1 & 2) on next Friday.Have to wait 8 freaking days...but of cos more time to study now...gonna push push tush and pia harder for A in Econs!!!No matter how!!!I jus dun fucking care!I'm crazily obsessed over getting A's.........fyi....I'm a typical kiasu A-levels by-product!

And furthermore,I hope I can do better and harder in A2 sem to amend the losses I gain in AS.Although A2 is way more difficult to score but who cares,no more clubbing,no more movies,no more slacking,no more procrasticnating for next sem.The thing tht I allow to do for next sem is to study study and just study until my ass off to get an average marks of "70+(A)"inclusive AS+A2 results in total then average....AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!I've gone berserk!!!!!!!!

Fucking u better give me an AS+A2=140/2=70(A!)....that's the divine formula/equation that I'm talking about when I finish all my A-levels exams (AS and A2).....it's not just AS did very good but A2 sucks badly....or the other way round also...if that's so,it makes no fucking difference.I want the total marks for AS+A2 to be 70 and above after divide by 2...fyi...the weightage for both AS and A2 is equal (50%-50%).Let's say if I got 70 for AS then 70 for A2 then the total will be 140 and average it by dividing it with 2 will get 70%....tada!!!...The A's standard for A-freaking-levels!70 enuff for me....I'm not tht greedy though!Deal?70 for AS/A2....-_-it's already at the borderline lah for 70%.Huhu...T.T......sobz sobz!

Bless me!

Mum asked me to pray hard for A's by now.Dun hope but pray...how pathetic it is...OMFG!

Gotta off to sleep edi,KO edi this few days after persistently studying for so many freaking days but turned out to be not very happy...kinda waste...hope when I wake up everything will be new and of cos brand new feeling to face the challenges ahead!

Ush!ZZzzzzz -_-

Tainted badly...

I'm so fed up,screwed up,fucked up,tensed up...

So in a bad mood now!

Don't ever dare to try me or else you'll taste the blood...

Sick of living in this dirty filthy vanity world!

It's meaningless and pointless...

Hatred and anger no where to vent!

Chance-less to confide yet hard to conceal...

Gradually pushing me to the extreme.

But I still believe there's still a single hope in life.

Nothing is impossible and impossible is nothing though.

Watch out behind you!

The silent predator has come into reviviscence.

Eternal Flame

Ok,

The dread has "flamed" itself again whenever I saw my parents.Well,they are here over the weekend so probably I gotta procrastinate my revision again.

I'm so traumatised whenever i see their face cos it's for sure I'll wanna tell them what I'm gonna study after A-Levels.But then the common downside for A-Levels students is lack of idea for what they wanna pursue in future.If you ask anyone from A-Levels they'll probably answer you things like "see first!","depend on my result!","dunno!",not sure","medicine!" but those wanted to do med. know shits about med.In contrast,ADP students are very future-concerning type and they plan ahead,me "was" one of them!If you ask an ADP student what they wanna study in future,before you can ever further your questioning,he/she will cuts in and started to talk to you like machine gun about what they want in future and what is that about,yada yada!Now,that's the difference of Commonwealth(General Certificate of Education) standard and North American(Credit system) standard.That's why I was wondering sometimes that how could this A-Levels examination survive itself from then 'till now with it's rigid and stiff assessment and teaching?It's totally problematic and wrong.Whereby,I was once in ADP and I know how flexible they are and students are taught to be outspoken,we even require to take up the Public Speaking Skill subject.Furthermore,they'll never fail to give us counselling on our future prospect once a while and every end of semester(after we gotten the result).They'll counsel us on the uni. that compatible with our requirement,make sure you can maximise your credits that going to be transferred and advise you on the course that you chose.This is something that won't ever happen under Brit. edu. system.What they will do is just force you to study and get all A's in order to apply to Oxbridge,no further.This is why I can't sort out that why do people keep on criticizing ADP as a low standard/low class program compare to other pre-U or matriculations.Don't belittle it cos you ain't taking it nor took it before.

Cut the craps.

I'm deciding some other programs to study now after my pre-U studies,here's few of my latest decision(it's still not certain yet):

~Economics and Finance(super normal non-breakthrough subject)
~Economics(a extremely normal non-breakthrough subject)
~Econometrics(to make myself crazy about interpreting complicated graphs)
~Real Estate Management(to be a valuer...)
~Financial Risk Management(similar to ACSC below)
~Actuarial Science(time to polish and strengthen my maths and econs I think)
~BioInformatics (amphibian!fusion of science and statistics)
~Psychology(it's hard to make a huge way from it but I like it though)
~Environmental Management-Toxicology/Waste Management(it's interesting!although I dun wish to waste most of my Arts subjects)
~Statistics(rocks although I'm not really excel in it :P)

Countries that I'm in favour of to further my studies:

~Canada(ADP)
~US(ADP)
~UK(not until I take Law)
~Australia(Business programs perhaps,twinning only)

Local don't have much choices though,sad to say that!

What I want is a profession which can really materialize my skills and do practical works rather than just keep on doing the samething again and again which bound to be lack of challenges.I prefer case study subject where I can analyse on case by case basis(despite Law).It has to be something to do with our society,real life and environment.Most of all,it serves all mankind.No doubt $alary is a very important factor too!I dun like things like require study,study but study.Again,I prefer problem solving more than anything.

I need feedbacks and comments from everyone if possible!Please dun be stingy on your opinion k?

Vacation Therapy!!!

Since dunno when all of us has been discussing about organising trips of getaway during the sem. break.Currently,I have 2 trips in my hand :

1)The still-proposing Pulau Redang trip with my college mates.
2)Genting trip with my JB old pals.(not again,omg,I'm sick of Genting...I like beach and sun!)

But no doubt the purpose that I'm carrying with is to enjoy quality time with my friends.Of course a fascinating destination is somewhat important to but in this case,they're placed behind the 1st priority.

Actually I do not organise any of that trip but I have to thank them for the harship that they're having to pay.Especially dealing with the travel agency,transportation,co-ordinating,set of date,publicity and not forgetting the cost that gonna blow off their phone bill.Once again,thanks you all for the of the arranging trips.

Pulau Redang:
~Isti!You are the one who came out with this idea better get this done or else you gonna suffer on next sem.
~Kei,please push Isti on that and advises him k?
~Steph.Nah!Remember what you told me today?I know you have a friend catering for tourism services back in Penang.Perhaps,it can be easier to travel from Penang afterall due to the adjacency from Terengganu following the newly completion of the East-West Highway which I believe to be stone-threw away from any places in Penang.Don't forget you are from the Prai k?It's off-island and lying on the peninsular part.No doubt it would be nearer to the E-W Highway rite?If Isti failed to organise,you must take over his place for the sake of all of us *cross fingers with twinkling eyes*

Genting:
~Charles,I know you almost done your part and looks like I'm "forced" to go or else the trip will seems going to be miscarriage.Well,with my absence will be well connected and contributed to the absence of another person.Thus,I don't wanna implicate all of you all due to my "undue" influence in this case huh?!
~Felicia,make sure you won't let the history repeat itself again or else I won't be as lenient as last time.I'm gonna blow your cover off this time and give you a blast.Don't bee foolish or else I'm gonna sound you badly again this time and please don't be the black sheep all the time and overcome your childishness please!Stop being so demanding anymore.
~Bock,I won't reject your proposal to Air Papan cos I luv sun and beach afterall more than anything.If given any chances,I rather choose to go to the shore!!!Club Med!!!Bali!!!Langkawi!!!Redang!!!And the extreme,cruise trip on the CARRIBEAN SEA!!!Woohoo...*raise eyebrows and winks*...fat hope it seems-_-
~Janet,I got nothing much to demand from you though.Just bring along yourself and have fun with us.Perhaps Bible might do well?LOL...no lah!...Just be supportive in whatever Charles is doing for the trip.

On top of that,I think I better get readay for what I'm gonna do during my upcoming sem. break.Or better yet,I'm gonna do up a memorandum that listed all the things I'm gonna do beside sleeping and doing nothing but idly facing the computer and idiot box.For sure I'm gonna cheung-K for perhaps twice in a week?My cheung-K kaki's,take note of it if you see this post.Continue on my diet plan is a must during break although I'll usually gain weight when go back to my home sweet home(just how awful and terrible of the food here you can ever imagine of!).Mum's cook the best of all but have to ration my food consumption though (T.T).Well,I'm still thinking of doing a personal project of my own during this sem. break but couldn't think of any so far.Any suggestion out there,guys?It'll be much appreciated.

Return to the present,my mind is all about studying now and to do well in my remaining AS papers.Nothing else can fill in my brain at this stage other than that.Now my only motivation would be the excitement I can derive after my AS exams,yay,summer vacation getaway,here I come!

Oh yea,there's a pleasant and dramatical change that I'm so looking forward to my coming much anticipated Graduation Day(previously known as premature Graduation Day and not pms please!).I just receive the news from my law lecturer that I'll be going to receive a honourary merit award for my law result!I mean wth,this kinda result deserve for an award?I strongly doubt their standard cos people that know me for sure they'll know the subject that I dislike most at this point.Yea,yours truly subject is what I'm referring.Coincidentally and paradoxically,I get myself a compliment from it.Bummer!Now,I'm so confusing edi cos if I tell my parents they for sure will persuade me on continuing my then-ambition to be a lawyer!Fuck I hate law no matter how,it's an undeniable fact k?And then so confuse of what to wear during the ceromony now!Would it be embarassing to go on the stage twice?Omg I'm gonna blush soon... *faint*

I screwed my flute practising too cos too long didn't practice due to my packed timetable...

I'm gonna watch the most anticipative movie of the year after the "Memoirs of A Geisha",the "Da Vincci Code" this Friday at Summit -_-...suppose to be Digi Imax Theatre but fully booked,too bad,common phenomenon for popular movie.Sien!

Well,still,

AS exams arghh...

Next sem(final sem,determinative sem.),A2 syllabus,gonna be very tough this time.But the light is,I probably will join FF next sem if I get my parents consent!!!(yeah,I mentioned on previous post that they actually forced me to do so-_-...I got no transport to travel to SUMMIT everyday or maybe frequently although it's vy near but sorry still beyond the walking distance that I can accept :p)

ME..?Yea,that's me!

Some updates on my exams so far...

Law Paper 1 is quite easy and I'm very satisfy with it so far.

Pure Maths 1 is the thing I won't get any satisfation but still the thing that makes me upset is although the question came out today can consider quite average and normal or easy as usual(unlike Oct/Nov 2005 tht difficult),cos we'd already prepared for the worst but then luckily still quite do-able I'd say.Just that the 1st question I already stucked and I got the wrong answer.3 marks gone to the thin air.I's so pissed that whenever I thought it was easy(sure I won't be that lucky all the while though).And then after the exams during our discussion among friends(as usual lah!)...we often compare our answer and the problem is my anwer always different from what they had.What I mean "they" is like I'm the one and only odd that having different answer and have to suffer as being a minority.And they'll started to be very determined on their answer and directly doubt my answer as their 2nd reference.WTF rite?But in this case today,I got a strong intuition that although my working for those question is alrite so far(at least I did not applied the wrong formulae watsoever!) but then the answer I got is most probably wrongin my opinion(it's not like i'm totally lose faith on myself it's just that I think that's what I am,I'm not talented in it nor badly sucks in it either)...nah!U see those that doubt my answer is those scholarly bright student.As for me,I'm an average student with very inconsistent result.Sometimes good but sometimes bad too.

So in short,I won't say that I screw up my maths(yea,I'm not tht kinda person tht having supersonic brain processing power,in the case of doing maths,I need atleast 3 hours to ponder and think on every single question if u allow me so...I can assure to u that I'll get a distinction for it.Time is a very importnt factor for me.Therefore,I think my main problem is due to the time given is insufficient for me to complete those 11 questions in 1 and a 3 quarters hours.Again,if sufficient time is given to me,I'll reassure tht I can get an A.This is how I usually do and get for my tutorials and past year papers.Cos i'm able to sit down free and easy to complete my work without any restriction and pressure given.Therefore,I'll say I'm not meant for exams.However,one thing we can't deny is,society still using the examination system to evaluate and judge a person for what he/she has inside him/her.I'm so sick with it now...

But hopefully,I can do better this time in AS compare to the totally screwed Mock exams.At least,I nearly complete all the 11 questions on time.Just that the 1st question has already dampened my spirit to go further.Nonetheless,I still managed to complete it with flaws though.Question 10 is the only question that I almost blank out cos when I started to look back on that question,the time's up.And after tha then I realised how do-able is that question.Cos it's only about diffrentiating the equation and find the constant and min/max points.But before that I was like,wtf was it,and it seems so complicated for the graph on its appearance for me.Thus,I skipped it and do the others but when the time I realised it's already too late.So basically that question is in total mess and like a pile of shit I'm doing.In addition,without any answer came out after a long working step.Fortunately,it's still not totally blank,cos maybe I can be able to derive at least 1 or 2 marks from those randomly working steps.Hentam aje lah!Who knows rite?Better than none,1 mark here worth a gold mountain for me!!!I'm just so a typical A-Levels student which are stereotypically known as nerd,result-oriented and then boring.Cos that's wat I am in order to reach out for my BIG DREAM!

~this time I have to work real hard on my coming papers in order to amend the mistakes I'd made~

For Maths,it's still not the end of the world yet cos there's still Statistic paper 1 to go on next week.And if I can't get the result I want.I probably will resit it with A2 by end of the year.Cos if AS did badly,I can't think of doing better in A2 cos A2 is far more difficult than AS.So usually,we will only think of excel and do better in AS.We don't ever dare to think of doing good in A2 cos if AS cannot make it,it's most likely that A2 will be worse off...So no matter how,I must get the grade I want for AS in order to amend what I think I'll probably score in A2.If AS i did well but A2 sucks badly,I still won't feel worse off cos they'll take the average of 50:50 from it(divide 2 times 100) to get the total average.So AS is in case of u do badly in A2...tht's the concept among the A-L'ians!-_-

For Law,I won't be overjoyed at this moment cos the coming Law paper 1 is tougher and as usualwe are not given sufficient time to complete 3 essays(averagely 2 pages per essays but we are only given 1 and a half hours!!!)

FOr Econs,it falls on the last week of my exam. timetable.Therefore,I still can buck up for that.But nonetheless,I'm not looking forward to it especially Paper 2's essays question and paper 1's MCQ...don't ever underestimate A-Levels Econs. MCQ...it's far more tougher than u think it is.

~GOD BLESS ME~

Run!Escape!Avoid!

Snow Patrol - Run


I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all i've done.

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Anywhere from here

Light up, Light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder, louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
It makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbyes
I nearly do.

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder, louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

Slower, slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess.

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

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I just can't stop repeating this song above on my speaker.I'm too obsess to this song currently and it really strikes my perceptual for some of the lyric's lines.It's just so sad and unacceptable to fall apart sometimes.But come to think of it,it might not be as bad as you can think.Seperation may be the hardest and final resorting way to solve a problem it seems and so it hurts both.However,it is the most direct and straightforward way to prevent from further bruising and hurting on each other.You might as well as end at this point than having more suffering in future.If you think it won't bloom,there's no point keep on cultivate on it and realise the waste of your effort too late.

Well,come back to the meaning of the lyric,my interpretation is that a guy that having sense that he's going to be seperated from a girl that fails to express herself eventhough their freedom is at stake.The guy is so depress over this and feels like running away either alone or along with the girl to somewhere where they can be able to enjoy more liberty.And if not,the guy will choose to leave unilaterally but sworn to stay by her side eventhough he is physically absent beside her.It's kind of a typical lovey-dovey lyric but the point lies in the melody and composing of that song really materialize every meaning in it.The lyric has yet again alive!

"Puppy love is dessert and bound to be greasy overtime and tend to be sicked of it too fast;True love is the main dish where it serves with true anticipated purpose and often unforgettable after the meal"

Well,In my 20 cents,I feel that true love is really hard to achieve in this world and rarely happens.If it ever had,won't be lasting for too long.Because humans are fond of new things according to the nature principle.Once they get sick of somethings,although the love is still there but it's left to be defiled,it's just a matter of time only.Where the love exhausted,there,left only the spiritless shell that spell out how glamour WAS the true love USED to be THEN in contrast of what is it now!Sometimes,we just have to learn to let it go without nostalgia because the world changes uncertainty as to the feeling of the mankind.It's made of flesh and blood with emotions and perceptions implanted.When it comes to the time you have to let go,don't be hesitate,just tell yourself to relinquish it.You should feel better off because the next best thing will be coming on your way soon...
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My Pure Maths. 1 exam is just 10 hours away and I bet you'll ask what the hell am I still doing here where I'm suppose to snuggle myself in my blanket and go on to build my dream castle.Aha,I'm kinda suffering from pre-Exams phobia.Well,besides feeling tensioned,I feel like walking around and making myself at awakening state.Maybe partly due to my over-actived brain cells or maybe the effect of caffein since yesterday morning.Bah,I just don't care a damn shit about that.Exams sucks as well as study!This is what I hate about the British education system so far.Exams sovereignty!No motivation at all for students and practical works seems to be deteriorated on its amount each year in Cambridge A-Levels.We hardly having any project or assignment.What we have to do is just study and do tutorials to call it a day.We have been taught to be result oriented and grades/marks will definitely going to determine what you are in future in this case.Lower grades/marks most probably potraying the obscurity of future prospect,worse to worse,left abandoned and defined as a bunch of fruitless.It's so sad that our colourful life is only worth a single piece of paper called the certificate.Without that we are undefined and be prepared for all sorts of reprimand that going to evaluate and assess your past performance nakedly.On top of that,I don't believe the thing as persistently working hard,you may find the light.If that so,why the needs for lecturer then if everyone cease to find a lecturer instead they deliriously carrying this stupid concept and believe to work on their on pointlessly.In my opinion,I think success has to depend on the tendencies and potentials lying beneath an individual too.If none of anyone there to exploit and discover the tendencies of someone,that someone in particular might just bring along their potentials and tendencies that they strongly believed to have into their tomb someday.What a waste and pathetic presumption to be made here huh?Well,we have to accept that these all are none other than the facts,no further.And sometimes those that having "stand-out" result in his/her little community circle tend to be overestimate themselves as they are blindfold by their own foolishness and short-sighted view.The world is beyond their imagination where there could be any other possibilities occur in front of them but the sad thing is they are all monocular vision-ed.Those narrow minded are them,those imature are them,yet,they crown themselves as elite and live in their own little limited space which full of foolishness.I so wanna laugh at these kind of people sometimes.They are very well-deserved for that!

Mother

I'm so tension now,

Just hereby to wish those that sitting for the effing AS/A2 exams this week a very good luck and all the best including me!

Happy Mothers Day to all the mothers out there!

I luv u mummy*lotsa kisses*
(I miss home so much!)

Eventhough words can't express my deeply gratitude for my mum,so I shan't write too much here!Practical actions matter most.

OH MY GOD...I can't believe my 1st paper gonna come in less than 24 hours...!Freaking tension now.

What if I did bad?

Gosh,I couldn't even bring myself to think of all those worst case scenarios,it's just so horrible to think.I rather study and study to numb myself up!

God bless~

Chances are given by heaven...

"I'll never give any chances to anyone from now on..."

Quoted from my classmate,

I asked him why and what makes him said so?

He then reply nonchalantly,"because even if you give chance to people and expect them to change after that,they'll cleanly forget about it after 10 minutes and remain as baddy or whatsoever you don't wish them to..."

I pondered and thought so that this statement might be very subjective and explicit but it happens all the time rite?

The factors that bring to my mind are,

1. Human are forgetful.
2.We tend to say or promise something that we are not certain of when we
urgently need help.
3.We never ever cherish anything that comes in handy.
4.Believe me,we often get distracted without our noticing.
5.Things can come very spontaneously,unless you are familiar in handling it or
else you'll be dragged away.
6.*fill in yourself please?*

Well,just assume that you are a samaritan that bestowing good deeds will be better off in this case.I mean,why not?Unless that person is just so superior for you and you can't live without him/her.Otherwise,just don't give a damn!Life goes on!What for being so sensitive and at the end of the day only to realise that you are actually putting yourself in a very bad situation.It's all up to you,if you think you should do,go ahead I'll say.However,just ignore it and let it go for your own sake.You not gonna lose a single cent from it.Come on,he/she does not deserves your concern at all.

I bet you should have any other better things to do.Find some ways to enlighten you and save your days.Don't sunk yourself too deep into the well that you don't even know its depth.As my old cliche,find yourself a lifetime target and go for it without single doubt.Ignore all the side-branches that come before you.As long as your will is strong and you know what you are doing.Voila,the target will be achieved by you in real soon!Those targets that I'm referring are things like "ambition","how to be succesful","how to live life to fullest","how to grab hold on your happiness" and stuffs like that.BIG DREAMS is what I mean.Your future is in your own hand anyway.Whatever you do now,bear in mind,will lay down a pavement towards your future goal(s)...Try to weigh what's important to you and what's not.

Life is sacred and you clinch it yourself.

Beautifully Disintegrated

Recently got totally no exams mood at all although it's only few days away.Dunno y or maybe bcos I'd exhausted them during mock times?Ah,beat me lah!For hell reason I'd know like this...Life goes on...the most I'll just "pia" myself to death for the days to come before exam lor!Just how much I'll lose from it huh?The most just flunk the paper...nothing could be worse than that right?On top of that,maybe a passing grade will do?Man,I'm so not gonna believe this...procrastinating!Law is really a subject from hell...I rather stare at a lifeless stone than ploughing thru the legal text book.Just so big turn off for me...I'm by no means sure that this is the right subject I've taken so far!Rather be a victim of Accounting or Further Maths instead...at least can fail with honor.Does it makes sense?Alright,my head is spinning now...*&(&(^#%$^...damn!

Just realised that it's been quite long since the last time I posted any photos.Anyhow,some pics to spice up my boring blog here...


Just another random capture of Bangsar's night scene.Was hoping to get some random sportscars captured under my lens but then turned out to be a shabby lao pok car instead.Yea,a old 80's Honda Civic that patched itself to look like Trueno...yucky man! The very clean-and-artistic-it-seems' junction at Bangsar.That was Terence back that spoilt the effect...damn!

Duh..."fish-eye" overview of the infamous terbengkalai-ed monorail station in college!!!Peace sign on the inoperative monorail station.Was standing on the track back to then.
Was Ms. Wong holding a pail or sumthing?It's actually due to the poor camera quality effect that contributed to this.She was holding a sheet of note I think.lol

Cam whore time!Well,look at the background,it's da ocean of wisdom aka library.So,can guess just how boring to be in the library all day long?

Beat beat beat~!

OH MY GAWDDDDDDD!!!

I almost gave up my diet plan for now...

I ate like machine today!

I woke up at 12 sumthing then Dominic asked to go eat at Paramount.And so couldn't reject the temptation,tagged along.Ate Jawa Mee and almost gobbled up 5 popiahs thanks to Dom. as well.I ordered like 2 popiahs then Dom. pandai-pandai ordered another 3 for us then ended up stuffing yet still gotta da bao away!Man,feel so sinful and guilty after every meal from now...gotta force-vomit myself,bulemia?!!!Can it works anyway?

Then da bao edi no one wanna keep it then all threw to my room and luckily it went rotten and have to throw away!God saved me from that...

After finished studies at library around 10 then kena cajoled to eat supper again,OH MY GAWWWWD!SS2 again,I ate roti telur and ice blended at mamak!!!!!I should specially thank Steph. and Terence for that,u both deserve my credits!Fuck...

Then,someone suggested for joyriding and we juz went all the way to OU then The Curve,Ikea,Ikano.Again,someone came out wif the idea that we should went further to Bangsar...wtf...all the way to Mont Kiara,Hartamas,almost reached downtown then turned back Bangsar and then after that missing in direction then went all the way to MidValley,Sentral,Old Klang road,PJ old town.....there we go,Federal Highway and finally came back to SUnway at 1 sumthing feeling vy guilty again.While gaining weight and feeling upset over failed diet plan for the day,at the same time,procrastinated my revision again and sacrificed my precious sleeping time!Arghhh....my effort has to be paid off somehow due to the stupid times that I spent in library so far...u better gove me atleast 2 A's!

GOod nite!!!

Bad Day

"When it comes to the topic about our country's education system,disappointment is the only words I can conclude..."


Basically,this country has divided the primary school system into mainly 3 mediums,Malay-the sekolah kebangsaan(SK) formerly sekolah rendah kebangsaan,Chinese,Tamil and others-sekolah jenis kebangsaan(SJK) formerly known as sekolah rendah jenis kebangsaan.Thus,all the typical and wise Chinese parents will try their very best to gain an entry for their children to enter the Chinese medium primary school in the light of hoping to give their children the best educaction of all.But the thing is "we have over-sufficient of bowl but it's not enough to accommodate all the rice we have" situation where the number of people designated to this is practically not enough.Yes,I'm talking about the fact that we have only maybe 1 or none Chinese medium primary school in our small community but then the irony is,there are maybe 2 or 3 SK in a community with Chinese majority.This is the thing that happens on me in real life.So,must we be satisfied or thank the government for granting us a stingy amount of one SJK in approx. radius of 100km or maybe more than that?As a true Malaysian,we all know that what's good and what's not as we are not a bunch of dumbass or puppet that constantly manipulate on the state's discretion.Paradoxically and historically,we are and will always be.Trade unions and political parties have tried all their best all the time to request for SJK but then when it reaches to the relevant minister,he/she will simply flick his/her finger and shoo it off,and there goes he/she will continuing boosting the manifesto as how they gonna do to improve our education system,how they wanna let all the citizen to receive good education,how they'll expect the average standard of the performance of the students to increase due to the brilliant reform that made by them and so on.In the end,we shall see the jokes.On the other hand,it's very pitiful for those parents that couldn't find a place for their children to settle down.If they are well off,that won't be any problem as money oriented Private based Schools and International Schools are always gesturing with warm welcome to them.The problem is those family that hardly get their two ends meet will have to seek for alternative way or maybe send their children to a SJK that situated in a further neighbourhood,worse to worse,they'll just have to accept the faith and send them to the neighbourhood's SK which will eventually lead them to misery.On the other senario,people in JB having another better option which is to send their children across the causeway to let their children immerse in one of the world best education system.Ironically,both countries are sitting side by side and used to be as one yet after separation,formed two pronged scenes.Sometimes ago,we used to adopt English medium education due to the influence from British colonial times but in order to show how great and influential of our national language,they abolished it and started off using Malay as medium since then only came to realise that somehow it has flaws anyway and can't be competitive internaltionally somehow.Therefore,dramatically they reformed it within a short period of time and switch back to the English medium based system retrospectively.If only we could just stick to that we would have be having an education system which is in equivalent standard as our southern neigbouring country.While credit is where credit due,indeed,the politicians have make a greatest joke on their citizens.Have we ever noticed that we have been toying all the while and ended up in confusing and obsolescence?Certainly we do but our voices are just so trivial that can be easily bypassed by the ruling party.

For unknown reason,we used to have this "remove" form in every government funded secondary schools that specially and particularly made for those that couldn't get satisfactory result on their Bahasa Melayu and all other subjects or Bahasa Melayu alone.With this,the vast majority ethnic that flooded the remove form's classes were the Chinese and some Indians.While for Malays,they can be automatically graded up to the mainstream,FORM 1.Chinese and Indians all thrown behind then.For now,we are/were unanimously forced to learn things in Malay eventhough for the sciences.And now it has been changed to English but only applicable to science subject.And still,they are tought in broken English because the teachers that teaching all still the same as they are taught in Malay during their time in teacher's college.This is what we called "changing the soup without changing the remedy" where after a big detour will still comes back to the same end.Again,we have so many "used to have" such as the PTS which enable the students that pass the test to leap over from Std. 3 to Std. 5.Somehow,it's not appropriate for an early stage of education to have short cut route.Thus,abolished.Now,rumour has said that PMR,UPSR...are going to be abolished soon as the government wants to adopt British kind of education system(like the one Singapore is having now).As the government has been encouraging the development of science and technology all these years.Students mostly put science stream on the greatest and top priority where if you are from science stream,you are something but if you are not,you are nothing.Multitudes of students are bildfolded and chose science stream only to realise that it's not suitable for them but who to blame?Under our education system,science students are the top students and they'll have it all but the arts and commerce one will left in rotten or theoratically they shall be the hopeless bunch.Eventually,science stream students will look down on the arts stream's and form their own elite's communities to get isolated from other streams students.Now,we are having imbalance of students in different streams.It will leads to a big problem in future.Apart from that,our education system only teaches us to learn from the books but not encouraging real life experiencing at all.In fact,those straight A's students for me are just a bunch of people who can read and memorise diligently but practically they are nothing.For some strange reasons,students that make it to the straight A's,medicine is the only course they'll going to pursue further in future.Why?I don't know "because they say that it can earns more money than the others"...that will be the common phrases that those straight A's candidates will tell u "privately" of course not to the media,of course they will tell the media how they like to study medicine,how they have been inspired,how they feel like they wanted to help the others and yada yada...all craps but their main objective is $.Cut the craps and face the truth!I hate to admit that,as a truly citizen that born in Malaysia and grew up locally.We are treated differently.Our higher institution and public universities are no longer meant for us but predominated but single ethnic.However,we are out of that ethnic and we all know that we can't get any shelter under the public uni. anymore unless we strive hard to get all A's.As for those who can't get I'm sorry either you are granted with an entry but without being able to choose your own course that you interested or none of them that you are actually being left oblivion.You decide yourself anyway.But look,our fellow "bumiputra" friends can easily enter to public uni. without any barrier and still get to choose their favourite courses.The left over will be taken by us.Can our education still be trusted under these circumstances?It could downright destroy the spirit and potential of young Malaysians. How do you expect someone to excel in something that they have no interest in? How do you expect someone who has no formative skills in something to succeed in it? How do you expect a bunch of misplaced students to lead this country in the future?

Well,for those that can afford,they'll be sent to private institution or just wave goodbye to Malaysia and won't ever think of coming back.For me,I'll prefer the latter.I'll will be rather nonchalantly and standoffish of me to say that you're better off to get yourself into the private institution doing what you really want than wasting your time in public uni.You can't force yourself afterall because this is concerning your future.

By all odds,being a by-product of Malaysian education system,I've learnt a lesson from it which I will use up all my strength and energy to work my ass off in order not to let my children follow the same way as I did.I want to give them the best that Malaysia couldn't give me.I have to safeguard their journey and optimism as mine has been torn apart long time ago.

In nutshell,we shall see what's gonna happen in future and how our education gonna encounter the next innovation trend.Somehow,all I know is Malaysian education system can't be able to foster or nurture any brilliant student unless they are gifted and born to be a talented student.Otherwise,they're just a buch of study machine that control over by the desparing and misgoverned education system.

Procrastination

Again feeling laid back after coming back from library so decided to mess up my blog although I've promised that I won't be onlining for the following days but then I feel that I derive a break from my entire hard day.So there's nothing to study for 7-8 hours and online for 3 hours rite? *giggles*

Feeling very dead beat thru out the whole day due to persistently rotting away in the library...now library really sucks...it's not like a library with ISO 9002 cert. at all as all the Sunway Monash students should be knowing very well how "tranquil" the library is most the time.Apparently,it seems more like a busy stock market where ppl juz chatting away in the library with their thunderous voice otherwise talk on phone and blah blah...I'm so fed up with it!But no doubt the collection of books,AV and all sorts of info-medias can say to be up to the standard(well at least it gives them bonus mark besides the downside and save their ISO certified reputation!)...and another thing,it is frigging cold inside the library.Was trembling and shivering without extra garments!Dear Mr and Mrs Librarian or other admin. personnels please liste to my shout out and do something on it lah!

I got a strong intuition that I'll be continued on procrastinating my works but then it's alrite since it's not much to study for Law Paper 2 and Pure Maths. 1 afterall.However,the thing is my brain is like saturated and reached the maximum density where nothing else can squeeze into it...so I was wondering if that's so,how about my law?I need nothing but memorising on this subject(yea,law is nothing but memorising stiffly and the more ability for u to memorise,the more chances to score higher marks,tht's the typical criterion to study law...nothing else could matter!)...so I have to fork out more time to sleep and refresh my brain in order to produce more of grey matter!!!Recharge,recharge,recharge!!!

And then,another depressing thing is my diet plan again failed today as I din obey to my "1 day 2 meals" basis all thanks to Dominic...

It's ok the most I'll be remained in chubby,corpulent and flabiness forever looking like the Michelin(tyre's brand) mascot!Wut!!!!Looks so like a pile of shit or maybe marshmellows or cottons sounds better.Yucks,damn engrossing!I just wanna have myself an average-sized body that I never ever gotten in my life and possible change the exterior that I'm presenting now...it'll be even better to change the "internal" that I'm potraying right now huh!!!Excel and get succeeded in my studies is what most the essential thing that always on my life achievement list.Life is meaningless without goal and target.SO plan urs now ,strive hard and slog ur life away eventhough so that u can really taste the vicissitudes of life and find the real meaning of it...we live for once only afterall!

Hehe!

Will hunt here again...if I got excess of time! :p

If I haven't notice,next week will be the one and only last week before I sit for my AS 1st paper!
Gotta be in big big trouble this time cos I totally lack of this thing called confidence in all my subjects.Time is elapsing so fast until so barely able to catch a breathe of relaxation.
And so,I played badminton yesterday which I'd missed for half a year since last year.Was playing very hard only to realise that my skill has deteriorated for hell fucking reason that I know.As usual my joints,muscles and the entirely hidden parts are aching like hell until I coudn't even wake up on time this morning.Have to admit that I'm aging now and it's even worse that I can hardly walk and sit straight cos every posture seems uncomfortable to me other than lying flat.Therefore,took nap again(-_-) and procrastinated all the studies that I'm suppose to do today.
So long my revision is in lax,I'll never ever gotta finish off all the chapters before the 16th of May.That will be the freaking Law paper.
The only thing I wish now is to gain the persistent will to keep me going on until the 2nd of June.Or else I'll be finished off the AS exam with deep remorse and be a bad candidate-to-be thereby counting down the days where I'll be collecting my shamefully "pass-only" result!Tht's why I hate to attend the boh-liao lamey premature Graduation Day given the fact that I still got 1 more freaking sem(A2) to go...what for graduate?Cutting cost so that the A-Levels board don't have to waste so much money on each and every intake's students?Why not the board organises a studioussex party instead since A-levels are ever renowned with plentiful of study freaks and nerds?Fuck off...Means I gotta come all the way back to college amid of my holiday break to attend this effing bewildered "graduation" ceremony which specially meant for all of us that still don't know wtf is happening!grrrrhhhh.... *clinch fists*

Now,I have to think what "formal" attire to put on for the coming event.Damn I hate to wear formal wears like leather shoes,long sleeved shirt and then tie.It's like an Oh-My-Gawdd combination for me.Cos I can't believe that I seriously gotta put on these uncle-ish wearing together with my childish look.It's a no-no and so wrong on me!I'll be much more appreciated if only they allow me to wear on a mascot instead...maybe the KFC chicky mascot or those charaters from the Sesame Street....haha....I think Barney might suits me the best right? -_- at least I won't feel worse off with my face in disguise.

Cut the craps,gotta be SEEEEEEEEEEEEEEriuosly study now!And next week I won't be onlining.If got probably at night or when I'm free but that's almost impossible at the coming "red-alert" week.So see ya after my AS...chaoZ!

Mishap!

Went for my 2nd flute class lesson today and everything went pretty smooth as today I did finished the target I set to revise...until some flaws that really spoilt my day and left me in guiltiness!

"...was coming back from SS15 after dinner and went to library to catch up another few chapters before the library call it a day.Then,when the time's-up bell rand,we then headed back and I managed to tag along with Stephanie cos she'll be driving pass the Monash Condo side gate.Therefore,my laziness alter ego has played its part of stopping me from taking a sweet walk from college back to hostel.It is all due to the over-stuffing of "Dinner Plate" that contributes to part of my indolence too(damn it).Moving on,when her car about to reach Lagoonview's gate and just at the moment the car stucked in the traffic-light's queue.In consideration of dear Stephanie's hardship of dropping me off at Monash Condo side gate,I pretentiously decided to let her drop me in the mid. of car queing instead(it's in the middle of the road and kinda adjacent to the road shoulder from our position).And so,I've make a divine estimation that there aren't any cars and motorbikes around and assume that the traffic condition there was quite innocuous all the while...there goes...I opened the door and out of sudden realised that there's a guy in black on a motorbike rode pass and by the time I came into sense,the car door has knocked the poor motorbike rider off the bike and he fell hard along with his motor to the road.Part of his motor were damaged as a result from this.I was astounded and without hesitating,I approached him and flooded him with words of apologetic,of cos have to offer him any compensation or at least offer him external-use medicines since my room is few stones throw away(although kinda broke and on saving budget thru out this month).Somehow,all I could see is his panicky expression and he won't even bother to give me any well-I'm fine-I'm-OK to ease my anxiety over him.But fortunately while he was busying scrutinizing his motorbike and some minor injuries on his hand,he did nod his head along with hushed voice of "I'm fine!" + can-you-leave-me-alone-and-fuck-off-I-dun-wanna-see-you-again look.Luckily,he's Chinese(our college student) and not too aggresive(can't recall his look somehow) .If it's those kinda Ah Beng/Mat Rempit gang,I'll be ended up in the nearest Sunway Medical Centre at this time.Once again,to make sure that guy is alrite,I asked him again whether I can offer any aids for him and I mean it cos I'm the one who in wrong at the first place.Anyhow,he just shook me off with frowny but hidden-anger expression(he juz dun wanna make a "fuss" over this...maybe he knew that I can't help either?!).Whatsoever.Since my few attempts failed,and judging that he still in good condition juz that his shabby motor has already suffer from damages over this.I just went back to my room straight away before more people can be able to realise this.Gosh,if any of my hostel mates saw this and broadcast it to the whole college.SyUC won't be a nice place for me to stay on any longer then,lol!Luckily,at that moment only few cars witnessed this(I assume is those nite class students which the possibility will bump into them in day time at college will be only 0.00001) cos it's quite late and dark already!Phew...The next thing came into my mind was Stephanie's little MyVi,there are few minor scratches embedded into the car door's edge and since Steph. has been very concerned about this kinda issue all the time,thereby,I feel so extremely sorry and guilty for her as well as the anonymous motor rider...Miane/Gomenasai Stephanie!!!If you need compensation juz tell me anytime directly...it's all my fault that leads to this stage....!"

PS : There's a sudden rush of guiltiness on me again constantly...I feel really sorry...Steph.!Issit alrite for me to sing Madonna's SORRY to express my deepest remorseful?!haha... :P

PPS:It's a sad thing that my dieting plan hasn't turn out to be very successful lately due to my incontinence.But they I did cut down my daily meals to 2 ONLY!!!From what I used to have,probably,3 minors + 2 majors + supper unevenly...!It's damn torturing for all I can say!Now that Ern Hao has passed away,and my parents started to having this kinda phobia that if I'm not gonna watch my diet,I'll be following my godsis' footstep soon!How exaggerated it is rite?It's like 2 independent case which unrelated at all...hmm...and the thing is they keep on pestering me to go for gym(yea FF!),so repugnant huh!Last time I voluntarily requested to join but was rejected and yet now they keep forcing me to join instead.Well,I'll be joing later only if there're having some sort of cut-price promotion again such as free registration.

No one special...

Got really exhausted on my inspiration and feeling to blog...

As time goes by,it's becoming worse!!!

Well,just make this post to ensure my blog is well-updated :p

Nothing interesting happens recently,it's all about study and hiding in a little corner of library...nerd away into books!Esp Econs...the killer subject with cobweb-shaped-barely-understandable-watsoever graphs and datas!See?! *frown*...anything else better to enlighten me?

M:I:III shown on today but faith is not on my side afterall since we've already made agreement of not to go for movie for unlimited period until the end of AS exams.Gosh!Why MI3 came at this very time!And also The Da Vincci Code too came at the wrong time!Have to catch up with the DVD later....!

To those that happen to read this post,stop cajoling me to commit in similar kinda activities!!!I'm kinda amid of abstinence now can? *

AS here I come...T.T...you'll be defeated by my MARVELLOUS results somehow!Buahahahah!!!!!

Now,i'm heading to the library(monastery) without failing on daily basis hope to achieve to the level of nirvana somehow!!!Here I come...

Oh yea did any one told you all that I'm a total procrastinator?

Buahaha,watcha expect for?

*cue music of war plus some drum rolls*

Tada!For this time I swear,Law paper 2 falls on 16th May which is practically 13 days away only!What a judgement day to come!God bless my through thick and thin...oh yea the most important will be the 17th paper of Pure Math 1,if I ever got bad grade (below B and distinction)...someone can just hand me a sharp and instantly effective dagger/razor/sharp-blade knife in order to let me end my life as soon as possible yet at the same time retain my charming look.Jump off from high storeys may died hideously and all the brain pulps will splash to everywhere...so gross! *like-I-care-! expression*

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p/s: ppl out there stop making fool on urself anticipating the 01 02 03 04 05 06
Although it might seems to be a vy special day and sort of thousand-years-for-once but don'tcha have other things better to do than making fun of numerical to save ur day only to know that it'll only occurs in an interval of " 1 second "...wtf tight?I'm so enraged when I saw the media keep on publishing things related to this...it's only a trivial matter afterall.On the other hand,I can celebrate each days if I'm feel happy to do so right?Since everyday occurs only once-in-a-lifetime...!I guess I have to celebrate for today too cos this is da ONE AND ONLY "03-05-2006"...does it makes sense too?It's reciprocal mah afterall?! *roll eyes then snorts*

Ok a bit siao siao today maybe due to severely over-studied disease...chaoZ!