This one about experiencing new technology

I was almost died today out of exhaustion.study Study STUDY!!!What else for this few months?Nothing but the same thing.Bored like shit...been semi-residing in library without a single doubt lor!Sienz -_-

Oh,today something enlightened me halfway through I was doing my long-winding past year paper for Maths.Charles rang me and asked me to try out calling him in video call.And it works for my this kaput rare phone of V802sh!!!And we crazily vid call for lotsa times doing bohliao things,none other than whoring,DASH UNDERSCORE DASH -_-...Fun har...end of the month phone bill is gonna explodes for my overuse of outstation calling...Ling's gonna rip me apart for it!I can't help but be over excited I guess,jakun in another term if u want me to describe.Who cares *roll eyes*

Needless to say much,still on procrastinating.Today I did nothing in library but wasted my time on P3 and S2 which did not gain me any benefits at all.Juz did blindly.I should throw them aside for the time being and concentrate on my resitting Econs and Law...mind you...damn grey matter consuming k?Memorise till u drop!

Not gonna study on Friday though as my usual tradition.For reasons that goodness know,I juz don't feel like doing it only!My eyelids are telling me stop ploughing through any more books,they want animation instead of being stationary.I supposed la...

I'm currently so dead in Pure Maths...Stats is halfway building its gravestone.Law is in the coffin yet to be buried.Econs' waiting to be cremated.Like I said,dark thoughts need satisfaction at times :/

(Evanescence's songs are those that so reflecting my emo now...)

What a commemorative day.VIDEOCALL leh!Been talking about that eversince Form 1 where those days they were still quite remote and mythical to us.Now they're yet another level of reality!hoho...

The one about procrastination again

"P-R-O-C-R-A-S-T-I-N-A-T-I-O-N"

speak of this word...

Before I knew that this word is actually a depreciation mean of term instead of commendation,It seems rather sophisticated and PROFESSIONAL.Once you get hooked up on it,don't ever think of flinging it away,like FOREVER!It's addictive...

This word will usually comes by every now and then during crucial times like EXAM,assignments,revisions,projects and so on.As a matter of fact,this word is so handy to use.One word,says it all!Lazy bum.

So the main causes of it can be over-reproduction of sleepy bugs(spreaded by a bugger that dwells in the same tiny box as me!) and powerless will to study(thx to DC++).Yea,since my 1st paper for A2 is practically 1 month away.Sounds like I'm still having plenty of time to slack to max. or maybe NOT :/

I didn't seize the opportunity to study alone quietly since this is a heavent-sent chance that god gives,I supposed.Without the present of that bugger roommate,my little world is peaceful and serene.I have to doubt the possibility of getting claustrophobia,it's like the room is now a whole new bigger world to me without another creature inside to grasp for oxy.*roll eyes*

And so,all the while books are in front of me,opening at the particular chapter on that particular page and most likely to be left frozen on that page for few days O.o...while my concentration is nowhere too far from the books beside me,right,the lappy beside the pile of books(juz becos it is livelier and attractive!).How can I miss out all the nice shows and songs on DC++?My iTunes is jampacked with over 2000 songs now.A new record,it comprises Jpop,Kpop,Cpop,English,New Age,Jazz,Bossanova,Classical,you name it lah!It's my effort to achieve that rather than doing nothing but staring at the books which I totally don't get a single word even if I read 10 000 times over and over again.Yea,I'm talking about you,LAW!Chaohai!

It's been 2 days that I remain in this state.Couch potato.Oh yea,how can I forget about lotsa tit-bits that accompanying me all along?

Anyone out there,feel free to bitch slap me whenever you see me while telling me 1 month away of A2 mock is not something divine.It is when all the stresses,phobias,dark wrinkles,saggy eye bags,hallucinations start to develop until you gone berserk and insame in the end.Cheryll which staying one block away is currently complaining about she's been hearing something "paranormal" since yesterday's midnight.A pair of male voice whispering her name next to her ear.So damn spooky and creepy,I just told her don't be too streesed out afterall,it's only imagination or illusion which will be fine later on.But deep in my heart,I was deeply worrying about.I might sound loud most the time but when I'm alone,I'm nothing but a rat's pluck...amitabha...and I ate beef today which I'm not suppose to eat due to my religion,in my room!!!Sins OH MII GAWDD.Please take it as I'd eaten meatball only can?It's really out of no choice...I'm sure GOD will understand.

Tomorrow onward,I shall proclaim loudly that I WANNA FREAKING STUDY AND DO PAST YEARS REVISION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!NO MORE SLACKING PLS...

PS:I got an appointment with SSD tomorrow regarding my career option,so they gonna give me some counselling sessions or psychological tests or whatsoever lah in order to make my future pathway more visible,I HOPE :/

Hearing impairment free!

Wow...

I went back to Dr. Tan today cos my ear blocking problem still exists after taking the remedies prescribed by him 2 days ago.He checked and told me the wax has already cleared by still don't have any idea how come I still having impaired hearing.FINALLY,he willing to refer me to ENT specialist Dr.Siow.

Phew,went there waited for almost an hour,and the consultation took about 15 minutes only where he used advanced equipments like vacuum to suck out my accumulated wax and the clogged part then tested my pressure tolerant by using some kinda pressure measuring machine.And voila!I'm back to normal hearing again after he did cleaning in my right ear...and he told me my ear canals are exceptionally smaller than normal ppl do,that's why I'm expose to the high risk of getting this stupid sai blocking -_-,and must come back to him after 3 weeks to do further obcervation(during A2 exam time leh!) and advised me to come for ear cleaning once in a while to prevent such thing to happen again...wah lan!That painful process really will cause phobia,like thousands of needles poking the ear canal.But after that,woohoo...hearing is damn clear and crisp!~.~

Mooncake festival is coming,but I bet won't be gettting any chances to celebrate and eat mooncakes cos it's around A2 exam and parents not around me also.Haiz.Looking at how roundish the full moon is...reminds me that all of us are looking at the same moon in the sky,so near yet so far.WHY?Huhu T^T

Reminisce back to those days where all of us will gathered at grandpa's place to celebrate whilst eating mooncake,mingling and not to be excluded,play lanterns!!!I miss that soooooooo much...since all of us has already grown up and eventually only the veterans will practice that but younger generation nowadays hardly even remember this meaningful day.Eventhough CNY nowadays are less merrier than before,for unknown reason.Maybe that's becos we are no more kiddo.How sad...

Argh...Dr. Siow summore told me that my ear drum is having some slight infections which I still have to continue putting drops...annoying and a bit painful.Anyways,I'm so glad that I can hear clearly again like what others do,for that alone,I'm more than satisfied at least.Thanks doctors and my world is full of hopes again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PS : A2 :/ + A2 mock result :/

Sick edi la!

I dono why am I so suay this month

1) Ear kena blocked by anonymous shits(wax) for almost a week

2)On and off flu,as if ear blocked still not serious enough,now nose!

3)Today,for no reason banged my toe and one of the nail got lifted,of cos bleeding lah(in fact the blood was dripping all over)!I very afraid like last time have to pluck the whole nail out,worst of all,3 anaestatic injections on this poor little tiny toe!lo meng~

4)Finally I had the time to wake up at yet another blurry morning to go for prepaid to line changing application at Molek,went all the way there,guess what?While waited halfway,blacked out!Damn tulan,no electricity means no computer processing lor...wasted my precious sleeping time!

All this still belum kira how bad is my A2 mock result,crammed my leg while jogging,kena ham zhu sao(ass molesting) at Sentral...stupid ppl so blind until he didn't even noe how to grab the right person(I dono who also).Go grab girl lah...not me!I'm not handsome(if u r homo),yet so fat.What do u want?Ma de!One fine day I split on ur face then u noe!*blood boils*

Suay kao lao nua!

And I say,pls dun use cotton bud anymore people...

Finally,I got my "wound" sealed this morning.No it hasn't cure yet,he told me fastest can be in 2 days time and worse to worse whooping 2-3 weeks.*censored*

Having this great endurance of bearing half-deaf is certainly not a nice experince to have.To add on,it's purely annoying where one of your ear is like completely "vacuum-ed" out to a state that all the nice tunes go in and tranform to those kinda irritating buzzing which bound to be in high frequency whice obviously I got no solution to kill it off,neither being able to tolerate it any longer.The worst part is they difference in the both-sides' pressure causes nauseatingness,to visualize it,it's like some 50kgs of sandbag pounding onto your skull perpetually which certainly not gonna stop unless you doze off -_-.So damn fucking sien ok!

Then,to my surprise,Dr. Tan(mum's friend) spent the whole morning lecturing me about those shits that don't ever use a headphone,earphone,in-earbud earphone,handphone's earpiece and even attempt to stop me from going to places which play loud and brassy musics like karaoke,cinemas and clubs!Woah,might as well go on and tell me to stay at home do housework,do knitting,listen to freaking boring classical music while having some nice aristocratical and classy English tea?The society has changed nowadays la...those maybe applicable la...in like 100 years ago?

So,I didn't see an ENT specialist afterall due to the unnecessariness(got such word ah?) claimed by this doctor of mine which is a outpatient kinda doctor(but he went on proving his further abilities without ours questioning -_-,so outspoken or maybe talkative it seems).And he told me if he ever refers my case to an ENT specialist,it will only creates jokes in their so called medical field or industry or peers(what??).If I know what's my problem earlier then I wouldn't have to come back JB all the way skipping all my precious classes edi la...and to be more sarcastic,that's why doctors exist!

Before I forgot,finally the doctor found out what's my problem edi!It's neither serious nor chronic disease afterall.But shame to say that,the reason of that can be quite stupid and little did I know that THE FREAKING OILY EARWAX CAN BE STUCKED INSIDE EAR CANAL DUE TO THAT STUPID COTTON BUD.And all the while I was fine with using cotton bud mah,goodness knows when it will get stucked like this time?Stupid oily hee sai!Doctor summore told me they are all clogged there in extraordinary BLACK colour which indirectly indicates that I'm having bad personal hygiene concern.Walao.If you can tell me other good ways to suck those hee sai out then I don't mind but no point telling me cotton bud is useless and harmful right?Afterall they aren't any better substitutions than this,at least so far that I know traditionally there's another kinda "golden" stick which curved into a spoon shape at the tip(smaller than cotton bud in size) which serves as a "spoon" to korek(scrape) out,but then,risky cos it can hurt the ear canal.Then hor,ma no other solution lo???I hate putting the drops edi,fucking difficult and disgustingly oily.

Fortunately,I saw this advertisement of a new kinda earwax-sucking machine(a bit similar to the look of the audioscope) on Channel U by Guardian.Let's pray they sell it here as well.Or else,the most ma si don't dig lor,let the cave jampacked with goldmines is not so a bad idea afterall right?Machaohai damn disgusting now and I'm started to hate myself a lil' bit for this unhygieness,fuck,that's not the point...yea I'm a very healthconcious punye person,or better to say clean!Unhygiene is not in my dictionary I beg my own pardon in this case with clear conscience.

I feel so embarrassing and goosebumpy by how the way he described those sai in my ear.My pride,my dignity!Awwwwwww...whatever la.Not y fault anyway and I shouldn't explain to that precise since I blog for none :p

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After that rushed like hell to Pelangi Redbox again,this time ar,the cheh meh waiter asked me a silly question which I still can't figure out what give him that penny of thought to think that I look like a hairstylist from E.Vogue leh?Yea,I know my hair colour(s) look(s) so attractive and vibrant(cheh!) but then it's totally out of statement for him to be so busybody enough to shoot this kinda silly question at his customer out of nothing.Celaka betul!

Then,waited for those bummers for 1 hours whilst sang all alone during that interval.I'm sing-able afterall and I prefer singing alone so that I can concentrate on my own voice and realise my WEAKNESS without their extra unwanted desibel add-on,haha,evil I am!No lar...I'm cool with it since I can do one man show in my own lil' dreamy world of own concert while imagining me to be a ROCKSTAR(Supernova rox~).Bah!Great fantasy,FAT HOPE dude!

Bummers came in super late lor,then Michell left so damn early left 4 of us.BT is certainly unhappy over matter of "treating old pals"...3 of us argued all the way with her until almost turn our faces.Later,we off to CS again to lepak...haha...went to arcade to play that drums game which was fucking nice and then paid for Charles present edi lor,pokkai edi lor.Summore went to Wong Kok again to stuff ourselves crazily with BREADS(hey,read the recent news on breads lar...T^T).Then only to realise that there's a newly opened KIM GARY hiding away at the very ulu basement floor.Diu.Should've go there earlier if we find out early.Sick of WK.....and people don't ever try out their exclusive fondue which priced Rm9.90,not nice at all,just like having some bananas,harden bread to dip with very kao milo only.Sucks.I have the photo of it but then stupid blogger stil having same old photos uploading problem,that's why seldom wanna post photos these days.Diu!

I'm so glad that I made a trip to Yong Sheng's mooncakes selling store to see Jenny and thanks for her generosity that she kindly encourages us to come back for work at YS for their CNY extravaganza,mission of selling and promoting assorted significant YS produced cookies,damn fucking famous and nice I tell you...the nyonya kuih carpet damn unique!SO as the new cheesiful"huang jing man man"...Cheeseball in English term.But loosely translate is "full of gold".Love the name and of cos most importantly,the pay is nice as well haha,I earned like 2k in a month by doing that job last year despite of its side effects like leg aching,HK leg,weight gaining...lol...don't care lah!

And then yea,just now the doctor also said that don't eat too much unhealthy foods lor...and blabbered that jogging is useless to keep in pink health cos it can only helps to burn fat(that's exactly what I want -_-).Then suggested the best way is to go gym,woah,mum again started to blame me for not going to FF earlier and force me to go next year...ain't that irritating since I'm staying in KL alone without own transport,how am I suppose to travel to FitnessFirst that usually located at non-LRT station's areas or outskirt all by myself?Sien -_-

PS:SOmeone pls bitch slap me and remind me A2 is in 1 month time.I fucking no mood for that.

Back again -_-

Here I am,once again,not being torn into pieces(almost)

but...

I am stepping on JB's land once again in less than a week of my time spent in Sunway since last Sunday.

Amazing huh?!

Fuck,I'm back for med. consultation,u think fun ar?

Stupid ear...nabehchaohai

Blocked

My nose is officially blocked as well due to the cold I caught this afternoon.No progression for my ear so far.Mum called just now asking me to make a trip back JB this Thursday to seek for native ENT specialist instead to one man show here in PJ.Cos I need to take the hassle to make lotsa appointment with doctor if I wanna go to either SJMC,SyMC or Assunta,furthermore,the price is bound to exorbitance I supposed.Next Monday is Awal Ramadan(the beginning of fasting season for Muslims),so,there should be a public holiday for that which build up a good reason for me to go back this week.

Current mood : Sick and depressing

Ranting only

Oh what a perfect time to blog,4:15 am,I was alone in my room.Miraculously,I'm not feeling beat at all since afternoon.Too much of potential energy I supposed.Who cares!My ear still stucking for reason that yet to be dianogsed.So sad.I should be able to hear everything at this point of time until I realise how important every single decible meant so much for me.I love music just like my overflow passion towards food that subsequently shaped me today.If I can ever get through this,I shall cherish my hearing from that on,all the time before I can lose it once again.

Mum's advice few hours later still echoing,it goes like "u must take care of ur ear ah,sleep earlier and dun sit in front of the computer too long..."

Oh shit,it alarmed me with a small tiny piece of note floating in my mind that maybe I should sleep earlier today.Somehow get hooked on all the websites I'm browsing and browsed.Till late,this hour,I'm still like an ape that full of vitality,physically exhausted but mentally isn't.Caffein overdosed?Maybe due that cuppa teaccino I sipped then.FUCK!I missed my parents and friends in JB,I got a sudden urge to record down all my parents' "do's and don't's"...and listen to them over and over again until I get fed up of it.WHY?

Yea,please be reminded that when the result reached at the mail box which is approx. 380KM away from me,plenty of do's and don't's will be there waiting...that's the part that I feel so bad,I didn't study much for A2 mock.Have been partying and clubbing too much it seems.I shouldn't have wasted their hard-earned money on these.Shame on me.Guiltiness is inevitable.

Mum rang again just now asking me to go seek for an ENT specialist on my own.Reluctantly,I agreed but still...lotsa entangle thoughts.Just feel like asking them to come up right away and bring me personally.Manja huh?Fuck off,what's wrong for being manja at my very last teen-age of 19?Me and my parents are bonded so close and abstract that you can't even see it.Can you?C'mon tell me whatever covalen bond,chemical bond,James Bond for all you can,BUT menage bond is too complex that you can't easily visualise in forms of connectible alphabets.

Screwed up seriously,I don't even know who to resort to at this point.Which medical centre should I go?SJMC,SyMC,KJMC,UH,ENT clinic,Pantai...???Only then I realise how dependant I am all the while and well-protected whilst having a so warm shelter to stem the tide.What have I contibuted so far in return for all the deeds they'd given to me.Shamefacedly,I can only whisper none or hardly few which are too remote.

I'm still too naive enough to comprehend the real meaning of life anyway.Yet I always convince myself that I should seek for deeper,think deeper.I'm not a shallow person anyhow.I'm not easily fulfilled.Sometimes,I may seem to be accepting everything without spouting any refusals,innocently or blindly follow what others expect me to do albeit I've been pushing myself so hard to move forward.At least,it gives me lotsa cereberation and gret matters that I'm seriously lacking of.I'm constantly leaping one step ahead to successful ending point.I learn everything out of nothing,something and everything.I'm not the one that you should belittle...cos deep in,you are shallow enough to be a judgemental person that I shouls have in the other way round put my eyes downward on you(which obviously so far below me can ever imagine).

Alright,over-ranted it seems.I should get onto my nest and drift away to dreamland now.

Bye to none.

What went wrong,!$^%$@%!&!???

It's soooo sooooooo soooooooo not my err...what should I say,not my month perhaps.Lotsa unpredictable yet unwanted frivolous things happen on me of late.I can even list them out cos every each of them is really giving me pain in ass,like real pain :

~gaining weight

~broke(thx to all the past accumulated BBQ party,dinner at Palmville,shisha,clubbing...time to repay all!)

~my right ear is blocked(I suspect it is "Otitis Media" or "Glue ear"...go find Wiki. urself what do they mean k?).Dun even dare to think of it to the extent of brain tumor,adrenoid or watsoever horrible sounded disease!

~my hair colours got messed up badly and been receiving lotsa -ve feedbacks on it!

~side effects of ear block,like,dizziness,unbalancing of walking,slow in response others conversation,worst of all it's nauseous...walao...feel like an pregnant old man now.WoOt?

~screwed up my A2 mock result,CDE,with this I can tell myself and so convinced that I should become a street sweeper or garbage collector in future.Bad result means bad future...

~my old Adidas sneaker,that one with shiny blue stripes has been stolen yesterday by some filthy cheapskate ransacked bugger that came into my house's car porch!Diu nia seng...

MOOD-O-METER

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Hitting beyond the min. acceptance level liao la...so dead!

And worse to add that,I'm semi-handicapped now due to my partially hearing disability.

I'm gonna seek for an ENT specialist in no time,if not...argh...nothing bad will happens!What am I thinking?It's only temporary symptoms,with my great endurance...hoho! -_- --- T^T

Anyways,I'm feeling damn fucked up now once I think of my ear and my result.No matter how much fun that has given to me now is still insufficient to compensate.I've yet to lose appetite once I think about my result and my sickness,think about the consequences,badly screwed up by parents,guiltiness and at last to the extreme of becoming deaf!It's purely annoying and irritate me to the max.How would I got a "D" for Maths. when I'm attending Maths. tuition for more than 2 months already,it's not cheap afterall,now it all went down to the drain I got none.

Feel like wanna burst out in tears now but still I have to swallow in cos afterall it's not even over yet.I have a months left to do last striving...no more clubbing,no more movies,no more lepaking,no more slacking only STUDYING!

I'm still feeling very grieve over what has happened to me.Those foolish and unlucky happenstances!FUCK OFF!ARGHHHHHHHHHH............^@&*!@^!(*@^)!@!*(^!()*@^!)&@^!@!(*@^!(*@&!^@*!(&^@&*!^@!(*&^@(&*!^&!

Suay kao beh jiang nang!Kia kia tapi pun si ah neh pun tua...li bai jia lat lor...tiok si!Pai mia *sigh* (translate urself la)

Great day out with old pals

Finally,after a whole week long of hibernating at home(can't really drive,raining,lazy,hangover for nothing,onlining,houseworks...),I was able to go beyond my front door to catch some fresh JB's air!Although it was raining cats and dogs early in the morning,damn!

And so again suffered from hangover for nothing this morning probably due to lack of sleep accumulated past few days(busy onlining :p).Fortunately enough,Charles buzzed me early in the morning asking for a change of today's supposed plan that was a change fron Neway CS to Redbox Pelangi!So yea,got up and as usual mess around with my frizzy,hard,highly damaged and fly away's hair for very long.Took bath and dad rang me to go to bank for a settlement of my nearly-dormented BCBB account.Off I go,and only to realise that damn shitty me forgot to bring the old-skool bank account book(hey sir,2006 already ya,E-Banking is what we're talking rite now!).Uh huh,I know but that bank is meant for some long term saving afterall,If I apply an ATM card for that for sure it will not get dormented but another side of it,zero amount left.Oh,so I forgot and no choice but to make a next trip there in few months time.

Dad was so kesian-ed that I was late for my appointment with my great old pals at Redbox Pelangi and to add oil,it was raining albeit it was nothing compare to his hectic working routine but he still as usual fetched me to downtown.Luckily it wasn't jam at all to my surprise and I reached Pelangi on time.Booked a room on ths spot...initially I thought Charles was gonna book it since he was so affirmed that Redbox is the final choice,damn!And they rushed all the way here after finishing their SPM trial,not to forget,they drenched themselves,lol,pai seh lah!

Me,Charles and BT were in one room while BL,Jslyn,Michell,Janet and etc were in another room.Then after,we lepak-ed a bit in Pelangi and set off to CS with cab(no one's driving today...).Again,it was quite a waste of time in CS as we went on our own seperate way,as usual me,BT and Charles got nothing to do but went yum cha at Wong Kok -_- .Waited those chics for quite some times then me,Bt,Charles,Jslyn,BL and Michell took bus to Permas to Michell's house but dropped by at Jusco to buy some changing clothes cos they planned to swim!WoOt!Later,crammed at Michell dad's car to her house which is adjacent to Jusco only.Swim in the drizzling drops summore,how am I suppose to get sick like this?Thank got I didn't,touch wood!

After that swimming session we went back to her place to clean up and had dinner.Michell got a very humorous mum which quite rare to be seen,she's open,witty and most of all,hot!Sexy mama...haha!Just slacked around in her house ranting and played chor dai di only to realise it has already 11pm.We then left while dad was waiting for me at the McD before the junction outside.Thanks Michell and all of the EC gang!I'm so gotta miss all of u...

PS:Sorry to what happened to ur poor SHARP GX27 that went toyed.Take my condolence.

PPS:I wish I can join them for F6 in the first place instead of insisting to do A-levels here.There are so groupy,fun and well-bonded,even better than those old high skool days.At least I don't see much fake elements inside than what I found in the new place right here far away from my origin.Friendship forever.

PPPS:Janet Pua,u betta watch out!!!lol...as well as so long din see Yee Fei,C.Jian,Jin Kai and so on...ever since the day I finished my last paper of SPM(Bio),they were then went disappeared before me until now.So sorry that I couldn't make it to most of the hs gathering last time.

Crushed it into millions of split-end

Paradoxically,I went back again to request for darkening of my hair base colour.It's now in kinda dark brown instead of the previously beige(bright).I'm quite satisfy but I got that kinda sense of being cheated.Strange -_-'''

I'm not so beng-ish now,and all I can say is my hair colour is quite unique like one of those hair styling academic school's trainee(cheh!).Creative hightlighting is wat I'm talking about here...bah!

Proclaimation : I'm not lala/himbo/beng

Today I was highly anticipating for that appointment I've made with the saloon cos I was gonna put on new vibrant colour(cheh!) and trim a lil' bit.Yay(initial mood state).So I was there with the stylist trying to look out for the best hair colour that I've wanted in that lil' booklet...*everything was fine at this state*...subsequently he put on the colours for me and duh!I was fucking shock by the new blending of colour,I thought I was gonna have some kinda dirty highlight colour which looks like err...maybe Maksim Mrvica or watsoeva and who noes I got off the saloon looking like freaking Ah Beng ala pirated DVD vendors?!!! *OHHHHHHH MAIIIII GAWDDDDDD*...it lookED like this

WoOT???Ain't it looks like those come out from Thai Club or neighbourhood-based pub ala uncle-ish style???Sums up in one word "Beng"ah!Obviously it has been overhighlighted on that particular part which makes me looks exceptionally "Beng"...The more I looked into the mirror the more I get depressed...*kek sim*.So,after few hours it looks like

Tadah!!!I went back to them and got it darkened to grey shade,although it's not the ideal colours I've always wanted but so long it doesn't resembles DVD vendors,I feel much more better off,and so...

If anyone happens to see me with my new hair colour,please spare me some thoughts and accumulate some good deeds by not saying I'm looking beng-ish/lala/himbo or watsoeva lingos that come in the same line.Bet you dun wish to look forward to any of my obnoxiousness that specially "served" in return of ur malicious slandering.It's a sensitive issue from now on...

PS: I've always wanted to try out bold designs and colours,this could be one of the chapter among all the colours and styles that I've tried so far.From the earlier part of full-hair straightening to partially straightening to "tailing" to green highlighted until the latest combination of 4 colours(yea,I ended having 4 colours above me,so?)...I hate to attract queer look from others in this case,fuck all the decent-minded Malaysians.I dunno,that's me,perhaps the next minute I would've gotten my hair back to charcoal-ly black with some conspicuous green/blue/purple highlighted?Oh yea,I've planned my next colour,it should be purple or blue highlights with black base :p .....stay tune!

What a "fun-dying-and-some-cuts" ABOVE experience(little pun intended :p),it's fun messing with the palette!

Enhance or retouch?

I'm so tempted to do another tattoo after I'd seen what HC did on her hip(of cos I won't do on hip lar...I mean on other part),with colour and custom design all for a very reasonable price than mine.Ish >_< !

Planning to do a small and tiny one,if I happen to do one soon either that will be around my current tattoo's area for retouching or other places for a completely new one like on hand,leg or bicep?!

The design should be that of,
~gothic symbol with colours enrichment
~some very oriental and traditional element's graphic with colours
~some words with very nice fond and colours(my name or some nice phrases written in latin,spanish,french,yiddish...wateva classy language it can be)

To sum up it must consists of,
~colours
~custom design
~not too big,tiny and small approx. 3.5cm x 3.5cm or less will do!

Shop location : 1U or Ikano
Recommended by : Crystal(HC)

This sudden urge comes by all have to do with her or perhaps my already-exists inner crave for it.Pls take it as a compliment can,HC?

:)...I've gone crazy bout this lately,but I'll only smack on one after my very last A2 paper on 22nd of Nov,not so in the mood currently since I'm still haven't get over myself from the perpetual exam's stress immersion ever since the last mock.Still so dead...wateva la...long live tattoo art!!!-_-

I ate lotsa ashes and sniffed lotsa Carbon Mono.

Fucking shitty today...

I specially woke up a bit earlier and took cab all the way to Puduraya only to realise that no bus ticket for my desired timing!Diu!Must wait until 5pm...now what?I'm practically stranded in KL for 2+ hours doing nothing and I went to Times Square's Borders(for what?)...cos there's the only place I can spend more than an hour swimming in the sea of wisdom!

Anyway Starbucks was full of anonymous people so I just randomly picked a place and sat down to chill in my frap. and some books about Judaism(woohoo~).B4 I realised,it's already 4 sumthing and so have to rush back to Puduraya.I thought I could set off at 5pm sharp who noes damn driver was waiting for no one for almost 45 minutes and left us waited for nothing...walao!And I paid more expensive ticket only to realise that that was a 48 seaters!!!Damn my big ass where can tahan such narrow sit???Normally Konsortium's seat is good and comfy enough like Economy class flight...this time was like yucky public bus converted in express bus,diu lei lou mou la!Stupid Causeway Link...they dun seem to be any better in their service although all their busses look friendly with a dumb smiley face and yellow theme colour.It resembles some shits smack onto banana only!Fuck off!

JB so nice,I gotta do lotsa stuffs as well!Clean up my own room,buy speaker,hairdo appointment,meet friends,family outing,homecooked food...b4 I get my ass back to Sunway Condo!!!

Illusions never change into something new

My mood has been fluctuating recently and the worst thing is I'm getting very emo nowadays(no,I'm a guy not having pms can?).That's not what I usually reflects myself.I'm always that happy go lucky and clown but sometimes it's hard to conceal what's your heart hiding beneath.Not to say that I'm a hyprocrite or what as hypocrites are the worst creature to live on earth,and do they even deserve to live here?I'm not any almighty to judge what's right or wrong here somehow I feel annoyed.Needless to explain much as I'm writing this to none,least of all about what I write here in my emo. disposing ground!

The thing is like you can't actually find a friend that can really get so close to you at this stage,that's my personal thought though.I realise that all my so called "friends" at this stage are those who will only resort to you when there's problem but in fact you are nothing more than a transparent to them at the end of the day,get me?

Likewise,when having fun,party or clubbing they will definitely invite you but no further.It's like fun together but when it comes to the real thing of what it's all about,forget it,you might as well as just forget about heading to them at all in the first place.So disheartened to say that but it's true,at least from what I've experienced so far.Love,sex,party,alcohol are those important elements that you must possess(the ability) in order to get closer to them.

I especially dislike devious people which they will try to use all kinds of fabrication just to camouflage their fickleness and tactical mind.On the surface,you may be happy to crap along or partying life along with them but actually in their unpredictable thinking,they are building firm and strong precaution against you.I can't help but to stifle some laughs.Hey,I fucking care what you think,if you think I'm a hypocrite or what then you are the biggest hypocrite I've ever seen,so fuck off!

I'm getting so pissed with people around me.Indeed,they are getting unpredictable and tactic-ful in order to get some kinda attentions or what which i don't fucking give damn.

I despise people who is lame fake ass,over-crappy,unorganise,emotional,moody,fickle-minded,promiscuous,dirty(not tht literally term),self-satisfied and proud over some inferior stuffs,no life,lad,spoilt brat,unable to identify what they really want and the list is not exhaustive...

That the one I prefer here is a trust-worthy,truthful and straightforward.As long as you don't try to play trick with me.

PS:Just to tell "someone" that if what I said it's a truth and a normal matter to everyone.Please don't go on telling others that I'm a big mouth or a hypocrite.Cos you are the one not me.I'm just stating the out the fact that the whole world has already knows about it.In fact,it's inevitable to prevent myself from telling others "accidentally" as this is really so obvious that even a retarded brain-damaged person can identify what's happening.And please I did not tell "her" deliberately,it was her that asking me about that then I just expressed what I know,somehow you should be glad I did not twist the fact.From now on,stop hiding your hypocrisy and that cloak-and-dagger piece of mind.

I'm getting irritated and annoyed these days.I wish I could finish this a.s.a.p. so that I can switch to a brand new environment that willing to accept me.

I assume what's happening now is only an illusion to me.FAKE.

No inspiration is source of inspiration

Today!...Yea it's today!!!No other days than today...!Palmville resurrection!!!Supposed BBQ party on last week has postponed to TODAY!

Guess something mischievous and crazy gotta happen in no time and Eunique text-ed and said that "prepare swimsuit,towel and changing clothes..."

The interpretation of his text must be of something very freaky and we bbq-ees gotta suffer from their evil tricks and voluntarily fall into their irrecoverable trap so much so that to put you into catch-22 situation!Force you to get drunk and then the next things will be camera lens and voice recorders lay before you,what a rag to be chewed later in college among the classes.I was once suffered after Thai Club...until now the side effect is still expanding exponentially!Lesson learnt at least,not to get drunk in front of your friends eventhough it's a happy occasion that they force you to give your best shots!
*roll eyes*

Haha...no la.Happy happy mah rite?Screw you,my right eardrum is suffering from some pressure difference-related problems which I dono how to explain in medical terms.Gotta go for medical check up as well this trip back to JB.So dead of exam as well as health...hope that there will be trade off after working so hard for exams.Or else life can be very meaningless lor...

And also,stop placing that little "turtle" in front of your MSN personal message.I know it's in green(my fav. colour) but damn irritating ok?Those ppl just dunno wat else to do beside doin that to commemorate the death of Steve Irwine(hope I spelled it rite).As long as u got the heart and sincerity,it doesn't matter how many turtles you put,it won't bring him back to life anyhow or let his soul in peace to get affected.And then the ironic thing is why put turtle instead of stingray or crocodile?But anyway,I can't help but to laugh out a little when I heard how he died.What a sad way to die can?Stung by the harmless stingray?The only thing can relates to stingray is sambal sauce and some banana leaves I think *yummilicious-ness*...and hell he's a crocodile hunter,in my opinion(cheh!) the best way is to let him dies in the mouth of his fellow crocodiles and alligators.Died under stingray is not actually an honorable thing to talk about.Really very peculiar lor,and maybe it's fated or sumthing.R.I.P.

Yea!Got a week off next week but I'll be in JB by then...miss JB and frens!

Deadliest finale

Woohoo~finally finished with my mock with lotsa screwed up papers.As expected,today's papers were screwed as usual especially the so called "easiest" Statistics 2 paper where I didn't study a shit but then still able to drop my ink on the answer sheet.Indeed,I was so disheartened by one of the mistake which is that I forgot to place a little "X" in front of the formula that applied thus error doesn't carry forward for your information.Once wrong,all wrong.There goes 9 freaking marks.The other one that I completely screwed up is Linear Comb.'s question which I forgot to revise O.o wOot! lol...

Econs was pretty screwed as well,1 data response question and follows on with 4 freaking essays due in 2 hrs and 15 mins. time.After finished my writing,my hand was obviously didn't belongs to mine anymore,just so pain...what an agony~

Whatever,finally it is over and A2 is awaiting ahead.ONce again buck up!

Eye lids damn heavy now as a result of sleepless for more than 24 hrs...dead beat!

Welcome to the panda family

Ahhhhhhhhhhhh!Just finished my tort law paper and it's worse than what I've encounter in P3.I can't really imagine that I actually crapped 2 problem questions!At first for nothing,I wrote 2 pages pointlessly full of err...craps instead of point.And the last one even worse,manage to fill up one page only(the deadliest part was no example of cases stated in my essay...got one la but then I got the intuition that definitely not the case that they wanted).Sei lor...gai lor...!

Can only able to score the 1st part essay question only despite I still don't have much confident in that also...tort was just so dead to me!Now my hope is all on contract!Like I said earlier,gotta forgo tort this time.

Tomorrow is the last day of my mock exam,but I'm having the toughest Econs 4 paper and the all-or-nothing Statistics 2 which both I haven't got the chance to lay my finger on yet!Econs 4 is definitely gonna gone with P3 and tort law...flunk at its worst *.*

Look at me,I can't even recognise myself in the mirror,all I could see is a big fat panda paranormally full of zits on its face which are the result of burning midnite oil on few consecutive days.Life's getting tougher and without this life's incomplete...I suppose so cos I'm not gonna give up easily and grumble about the hardship of living.I'm too young to talk about that...

My final aim for mock result will be,

Law : B
Econs : B
Maths : between C and B (high C or low B...)

If those are my actualy result then the total average of my complete A-Levels result will be all scored above credit (C)...which at least can fit into most of the university requirement and also ADP's credit exemption!Don't wish to go lower than that...or else I'll just bang my head against the toilet bowl and end the misery!Or follow my heart tells(or it could be fantasy only),go on to Switzerland or France to pursue a hotel management degree or learn to do french pastries and proceed on opening a patisserie of my own in future.Invent my own special dessert,be a 5 stars hotel pastry chef!!!Drean on~what an ambition!Sometimes I really admire those people that studying fashion design,graphic design and all other creativity-wise courses cos it's obviously what they're interested in unlike us academically-wise,don't come and tell me you like Econs,Law,Bio,Chem or bla bla very as you can't even apply it to real life.What you're learning is fucking shallow enough to hardly cover all your naivete only...just that you are trying to tell people that you may become a future successful person.So what does it implies?Elitist's thinking?Pui!Just go fuck yourself...cos you don't explore your interest but instead it's they that manipulate your ego.

Think deeper and you'll find your own sweet way~

People that couldn't think but rashly makes conclusion are merely a stickman or crab(aka brainless like my roommate).

PS:I'm so fed up with my roommate these days and ceased to talk to him nowadays due to his fuck up attitude.ONe fine day I shall destroy his speaker that constantly disturbing me whenever I wanna do revision on studies.That's why I finally realise that those who don't eat pork are fact torpid.That's their innate common cultural characteristic.It's meant to be there.How sad...

Snippets

Law paper 3 (contract) was quite ok despite there's one question that I nonchalantly crapped for 2 pages.That one pertaining to "Consideration"which I left out during my revision,DAMN!

And then the one about "Mistake" on contract was like just sufficient to feed only where answers are mostly vague and ambiguous as my thought was not very in well organised manner.So I just barely recalled what I know about that topic questioned.To take note that,this question came out exactly like the class test Mr. Raj gave us.100% of similarity,although he didn't tell us that was actually the mock question but then thanks to him I didn't give damn to that particular question and missed out one of the most important case again which I missed earlier...a major case under that branch "Shogun Finance's case".That I still remember that he told me to write about this case whenever encounter similar question,take my advice,pay heed to what your lecturer said cos they mean it!

Now,I'm having Law paper 4 (tort) for tomorrow and coincidentally it is MORNING paper.I'm so doom in tort all the while cos the textbook is like totally written in Greek(figuratively)...can't understand a shit also.

Feel like just concentrating on Statistics 2 and Econs 4...forgo tort!

One step closer to...grave

This is the first in my life as well(yea,I noe I got lotsa "1st" time :p)

I didn't even bother to study for my exam,my notion is that "mock only mah!"
Really,this time A2 we got really insufficient of time for preparation.The last week b4 mock we just finished Statistics' syllabus and Econs still left stranded in middle of nowhere.Confusing is what stirring beneath us.Before we even allow to sum up,tidy and organise all our knowledge,gallow is what we've seen in the next second in just a flicker of time.Yea,gallow in this context is obviously pointing at the exam hall.What else?I didn't sleep for the whole day since yesterday just to plow through chapters of Econs,although I gave up and resort to direct MCQ's papers memorising instead of mastering all of the theories and applications.Just memorise the past year MCQs hoping it all will come out but we saw none.SCREW IT!

Pure Maths. 3 is even funny in my very case.I took a forty wink of 2 hours until 6.30 am and bathe after that only to realise that it's already 7.30 am.Without wasting my time,I took out all my inorganise notes to flip through(I juz started and my P3 paper is 9 am!!!).In the end,I left out few easier topics which I can't be bothered much might be able to score if god bestow more time in a day for me.Complex number looks very easy,vector seems so basic and shallow only,partial fraction may look simple,trigo. questions not to complex afterall...but I guess these were illusion on the surface it seems.Partly(majority) is due to the lack of preparation of mine(totally left out complex no.,vector and numerical solution topics until 3 seconds b4 I enter the exam hall then only I realised,too bad too late T^T ).

Then later after Econs 3,went out for lunch with Dom,Eunique and Susan at IOI Puchong until 4 pm...walaoeh...thought of sleeping at first after my paper one cos it ended quite early but then juz bcos my stupid greediness that craving for food...tagged along to a few hours of joyride that diminished already-insufficient revision times(nop,I'm not blaming u all for the inducement,jus grieving over it and fell hard on the ground of guiltiness).

Pardon me LORD.

Speak of LORD,I'm having law papers on 2 consecutive days.Paper 3(contract) and Paper 4(tort) which I dun give a damn haven't open the textbook yet until now,let alone the chances of covering any of a single topic.So dead currently yet still so laid back and slacky!Damn...fuck wei!How ah???I'm so full now and again feel drowsy edi ~.~

I guess only overdose of caffein can keep me awake,thx for being my companion all along.If I ever success in future,Nescafe 3 in 1 sure the one who claims all the credits.The rests like Mr. Muruku Ikan,Ms. Cadbury,Mdm. Gardinier(correct spelling?-_-),M & M...and other unindentified local made candies.Sorry for the unmentionableness but you all really contribute a lot and most to my figure(physical and numerical) which I don't really look forward to.I wanna shed away all of you!!!

My gravity should be on my Law now,ciaoz -_-

Palmville ~crazy house party~

Courtesy of Eunique,Susan.DOminic,Dashni and Me(-_-)

Gin + Vodka + Beers + Cigarettes + Sakae + Homemade Cocktail + Korean Seaweed Rolls(Kim Bi) + Gyoza(aka dumpling) + great frens = crazy house party

Cheryll,Terence,Danial,Istiaque were there to join the so called crowd where we roared,yelled,toasted,drunked(not me this time),stripped,SM-ed???

haha...3 drunkards that gone berserk proclaim that they weren't...poor me gotta tortured by them *sobs*

Anyway,pleasure torturing was nice sometimes...(distinguished from Sadomasochism that has already came to ur mind b4 I finished my line!)

*smirk*

Have more fun la,Monday everyone shall die proudly and with dignity!We are all ready to flunk A2 mock!

Monday 1st paper is P3(toughest for me) and then Econs 3(stupid extra-tough MCQs that caused my AS econs got C only!)

Bring it on la~!