Random wtfs

Party hopping for $ = doormat, tailgate, laughing stock and conformation for lousy people(so sad to see our country's administration being manipulated by some past-prime politicians, three cheers for dirty politics)

Cibai Students For A Free Tibet (SFT without the prefix C of cos) = biggest hypocrite on earth, it's neither pro-Tibet nor pro-Chinese, it's pro-Brainless(don't understand what will Westerners gain from a truly independent Tibet, more like distraction than solution).

Got an Ipanema flip flop for only $9.90 at IMM and it doesn't feel much different from Havaianas though, which the latter cost me around $50, yea unfortunately! And bought lotsa cheap stuffs from Daiso, man, this place is totally heaven on earth tailored for cheapskate like me who goes around nipping 平.靓.正 deals unabashedly. $2 STORE WIDE, who can resist?

College rang just now, have to move my ass back for enrolment otherwise pay for late enrolment penalty; FF sms-ed just now for my outstanding payment this month. Suddenly I need to rush back tomorrow instead of Sunday T.T

Gotta face all the hypocrites again.

Fuck this stupid world. Kthx.

Hanamizuki

Hitoto Yo + Hideaki Tokunaga (original version)

Hayley Westenra (cover version)

1 word,

SPECTACULAR!

Of buaya and the Buaya...

I was being wakened from sleep this morning to hunt for seafood and visit relative at Johor Lama with the parents. Yes, visited that uncle who owns the croc. farm and that place has now turned into a tourist spot!

Luckily there weren't much Singaporeans around today, malls were calm, traffic was tame or at least better than Merdeka Eve which was a total disaster. Me and my kkls went to Danga Bay completely forgotten about the eve of Merdeka and got stucked in Jam for 1 hour along the coast together with rowdy crowd of Mat Rempits after chancing on the escort team of Tengku Mahkota Johor (TMJ) and Raja Muda Johor (RMJ) 10 minutes before that. It was a stalemate of good 1.5 hours on that very road that usually takes us only 10 minutes or so to reach the other end. The only common thing about the aforementioned people is they think the road belongs to their grandfathers. Hereby, a toast to our 51 years of nationhood, it seems that our fellow politicians' bellies are getting prominent these days whilst necessitating us with expenditure cutting suggestions that look like some real good deals we've been missing for long.

Nonetheless, we still love the tanah where we tumpah our darah.

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This bugger is damn cute (note : when it's still small and harmless). My face is weird I know.

和風

喜月堂 has got the best packing among all the confectioneries! The casing and the paper bag come in a set which matched perfectly like a gift. For only 1 piece, you are entitled to get the Japanesey packing without paying extra!

Seriously who cares about the content and the taste of the mooncake. I didn't even know which flavour I was paying for.

And they have many more exotic Japanesey packings for 2 pieces, 4 pieces and so forth. Now, fuck curry and yoghurt mooncake for all I care (inside joke kthx).

Heh!

Paid my due, like FINALLY in donkey ass manner. Anyways, survived from slavery. I mean it cos for weeks of slogging off like android which involved mugging for finals and working CEASELESSLY. I haven't really been enjoying the sacred holiday bestowed. It's like a piece of missing puzzle in life.

Whatever. I'll be having extended holiday on my own given the insignificance of subjects offering on next semester. What have spray painting, pointilism, tracing and yada got to do with science lab? Hello, do you think I care shit about musical genre some artsy fartsy musicians invented during Middle Ages, Renaissance, Romanticism and whatnots. I think seeing how Jolin fucked up her face with a blizzard of rashes while doing acrobatic dance is even more interesting.

And also...

Thank god, my semester 4 result has finally rebounded my CGPA although it's still kinda low but at least I'm now qualified for SBU admission requirement IF they really answer to their promised cut off CGPA without obscure adjustment, affirmative action, quotas or some shits.

Wanna catch some real serious rest now. Period.

Siap Siap Sui!

Yes, 4th semester has finally became yesterday. No more boring Politics lectures, no more early morning Irene's lectures, no more dreadful Statistics lectures...! No strings attached for 2 weeks at least but then gotta work still T.T

My last paper touched down at 7pm and I went AC to watch Badminton semifinal with the unusual crowd gathered around bersorak-sorai and giving ovations. I wonder since when did we become so supportive towards national sport players? I think we can buy up Phelps to achieve a record breaking of 11 golds in history instead of paying huge stipends or rewards to some unworthy one-time-goner duo (you know who)! Looking from a long term view I mean. Way to go Lee Chong Wei! But then he's gonna get from Lin Dan eventually during final...what an interesting showdown! Hopefully he can scrap Lin Dan down from world No. 1's throne. Anyways, we went Japanese buffet after the last paper which again, violated my principles of dieting. Sad case. I'm getting worse nowadays, everything I see = food, Sleep = food, dream = food, study = food...

I'm having a problem now...what subject should I take for next semester? I've already fulfilled all my Uni's (SBU) prerequisite requirements except for Biology II. Whatever I take on next semester will just be a waste of time and money but I don't wanna do interval break either! How ah? The Uni application deadline for spring intake is Oct 2nd, meaning, around 1 month from now and I haven't taken TOEFL yet. Sighs. But then if result is good for this semester I might seriously consider to transfer on spring instead of fall. My friends are all leaving this fall and next spring :( I don't wanna be stagnant lo. But then I don't think I can make it for spring 2009 like I said. Mafan. I think I should take a 8 months break to intern and then travel that's it. Otherwise taking 1 subject on each of the following semesters will not do much good on my transcript either.

And the thing is I don't really feel like working on this Monday anymore but I've already promised T.T cos I could have gone to Penang/Pangkor with friends by now. Really 为五斗米折腰. If only I'm a golden spoon-fed...which obviously I'm not.

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Quoted : All men struggling to remain distinguishable in their own ways, but their efforts are insipid and often overlook the similar core shared among each other as hypocrisy is the ruler of them all. They sell their souls and live in shells that rot in time.

Machiam kena kantoi pulak

So, was supposed to eat light for the day due to my bad eating habit of late which unfortunately involves lotsa junk food, fast food and whatever that is expensive when you look back after 20 years from now, in the sense that it costs bombs on medical expenses (yea, clogged vessels, hypertension, high LDL, protein urea, etc.) or a LIFE. I've almost discarded my healthy eating habit ever since lapsed into final week + exam week to take chances. My energy bars became pencuci mulut instead of substitution for meal and muesli left completely untouched after unsealed for the very first time (seriously I don't understand how could Germans and Swisses put those sand tasting cereals in mouth in whole of history). Now they should've tasted our chee yok fun, curry mee, lobak, lo pak gou, wet popiah, tong sui, sundae chocolate......and these are what I had for my dinner yesterday approximately 5 hours ago fyi. I've been eating 2 bowls of chee yok fun and 2 plates of lobak so far in this week, and it's only Wednesday now :D Tell me how can I not be happy leh?

Anyways, just now when I was crossing the road in front of Ikea around 2:30 am, driver of this car (Subaru Impreza who thinks it's very yeng but it's not) wound down his window and yelled "hello" at me in mockery tone. I got so irritated to max (apart from Bio notes I was reading that wrecked my nerves earlier on) and threw back a wtf-ish gesture, then this guy (Malay) at the backseat yelled back "berlagak eh, kau ni bodoh!" and sped off.

*deep inhale with long pause*

Now I'll like to pray to god that they will crash their car within this 2 days (shower with police summons and not able to claim insurance) and have their neck sprained in brutal manner (physically impair-worthy). A compulsory brain screening session is a must for them also since they might not have their brains intact or wait, do they even have brains to begin with? Put them in mental asylum for years altogether will serve them best and helps eliminate sampah masyarakat (does not automatically implied all mentally incompetents are sampah masyarakat, please get this right!). The lesson is don't fuck with a person who's having his finals, EVER.

Insyaallah, I think I should wake up early for some serious morning jogging session tomorrow, HOPEFULLY. Kononnya, badan sihat maka otak cergas. I need to stuff in 2 textbooks worth of knowledge into my pea brain for this coming Friday. So much for Biology and Politics! Wth. Don't even get me started on Stats paper, it went disastrous, all credit shall be given to the dreadful Probability's part.

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Just realized, for this year, I'm a 2-faced baddy who constantly attempt to undermine people's friendship. I hope it's not because of me for I'm a peace loving people after all. Should get all my priorities right from now on. There are certainly things that don't matter in life anymore or simply don't worth all the endeavours. Who's important and who's not, why bother? Not like it will be heard, appreciated or anything.

Apparently, when the table is turned, there's no use in pointing fingers. What's done is done, if it's proven fragile, I don't see fit to it that it's worth picking back all the pieces again if they're no longer having sentimental value. Might as well go on let them rot in oblivion.

Ilham tak sampai

I don't wanna say this but my face is exploded with purulent zits overnight because I simply burned too much midnight oil. The one whole night was out for only 1 chapter and some odd questions that's it, how pathetic. Freaking 7 am now, and still can't kiss my bed for all the caffeine kicked in 6 hours ago. Damn, I didn't know I'm so intolerant.

Had my meeting for STACT's mainboard committee today. The rather extraordinary happy atmosphere burst forth into awkwardness and tense when both the opinionate advisor and senior made sound. It's like we were in midst of planning for some holiday fun as allowed according to agenda and these party pooper came in out of no where to pour a pail of chilly water + a big tight slap in our faces.

Let me tell you why I joined this club from the first day, my initial purpose was to take part in rural service before it kicked the freaking bucket. Yea listen RURAL SERVICE, R-U-R-A-.......read Rural Service, the 19th's. In the name of God, our dearie BN lost extensively in the latest Pilihanraya which was well...UNFORTUNATELY. It goes without saying that MCA which incidentally is the sole organizer for this very event, was badly hammered so they temporarily canceled the event and the possibility of having similar events in future. Plan called off and we were in some awkward position stringing in between STACT origin and Rural Service origin. So without giving much thought to it, we swore in for club membership. It's fine with me, I had lotsa fun in organizing events and all. Give in my effort, if not all to accomplish each and every divine missions.

And there...today, our advisor and one of the seniors which I can't care less to remember him verbally pwn us. Hello? It was so obvious that they were trying to insinuate us in the most polite manner to ensure their hypocrisy is well hidden behind those beautiful masks they exhibited. I've no idea to whether their points made sense or not but they sure dampened our enthusiasm towards this club. He expressed how disappointed of him for our batch of committees performed the worst and had we under his militant administration then, he would without questions beyond doubts filtered most of us out of his committee and further infuriated us by equating us to rubbish or some shits. Hey, what a SMART metaphor you had used. That fits perfectly "well" into our personal worth indeed if it's what you think but DON'T pass judgment on someone whom you hardly know and please see things in two ways I beg your freaking pardon. What you see is just tip of the iceberg about us cos wtf we don't even know you well although you had already exclaimed like fretting we didn't know you actually earn 10 grands a month of salary from an atas unachievable Corporate Manager position at the enviable age of 26. Well, I won't say that wouldn't bother me as looking at your everything just unable to relate to earning high salary, you look more like blue collar slave. Now we see hopes cos for average people like us we will be earning no where less than 10 grands when we graduated. Thanks for enlighten us with the fact that people like you can still earn that kinda money. Since when salary aspect in Malaysia is getting so sky high? Maybe I should burn all my books and see the world. So go on and brag about how fat your wallet is whilst giving all the credit to STACT club for nurturing those perpetual burning spirit in you at whatever industry you venture. I bet you are one of the busiest people around cos after all you earn 10 grands a month, definitely not some puny businesses, so why not you just leave us all alone and STFU? Stop condemning the chairperson also for incompetence, respect every single individual has their own managing style. You might be that sort of war-ridden type that emphasized on discipline but read this---HAS BEEN, darling. I got nothing much major to complain about my current "boss". He's approachable, amiable, and charismatic that all of us like to commit our effort with. We will be more than happy to work for him than asshole dictator like you so fuck you.

Dear advisor, if you are so keen on polishing us which we can't thank you more since you personally claimed to have all the interest in us rather than your rice bowl. Face it! You are just not, what if some other colleges offer you an increment of 50% from your current salary? Will you hop over or insist on staying on the same boat with us still? You should be able to comprehend what reality tells more than us can do so fuck you also.

Not like I'm fishing for compliments but most of our activities are done promptly and not forgetting, successfully even though it's not perfect but please accept nothing is perfect in this world. Praise us generously when we do well too, not just magnify our mistakes over and over again. We consciously aware of what we are doing so far. Have fun if we want to, be serious if we need to, we are amphibians who know where to go. And also I won't take your words like CGPA 3.80 is good for nothing, first class honour degree is merely for ornamentation purposes and whatnots that practical industrial performance is most important so we should just give all hearts on organizing club events as it resembles the operation of real life corporates. Those are just independent rare cases and your incredible assumptions. In real life, nothing beats a CGPA of 3.80 and above, first class honour etc cos that's how pragmatic bosses are gonna judge your worth at first sight before he/she digs anything further. It's self worth that makes people respect us. Status is equally essential as ability today. Can you foresee Bill Gate as a multi-billionaire when he failed to present a nice degree holding last time? He's just an one in a million case. If everyone was to be like him, do you think the world will evolve? Read again, R-E-A-L-I-T-Y. STACT club is not our everything. I don't wanna screw my exams and tell people I will definitely earn a fortune in future like Bill Gate or Michael Dell when in fact I got nothing to begin with at this ground.

p/s : It doesn't automatically deduced that a charity based club shouldn't be having fun by ourselves all the time. If we're not happy, how can you expect us to spread happiness to others? Another thing, I don't mind to withdraw my membership as well.

Disturbia

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better get back to my books before I got brushed off.

Dosa

I gulped down 1 whole LARGE hawaiian chicken pizza in blink of an eye.

I thought I couldn't finish and able to leave some for tomorrow.

12 freaking inches people!

Seriously.....

what's the point of living now?

Fuck Pizza Hut Delivery.

***** Dr. Borges after History's trial which reminds me of walking calories -_-

Blahs to infinity...

I've finally got something from Megasale.

MPH is having a storewide 10% discount for ALL their books! DIGI users are entitled to 20%!

Yea, I got another Haruki Murakami's instead that cost me about RM 32 after 20% off from RM 39.90, pretty amazing isn't it? Can't wait to finish it!

And so I never got myself any garments, I was like dying to buy those skinny jeans but heh, those who know me in person will definitely got impressed by my well defined thighs and calves (alright eventhough you people didn't comment straight to my face but I can tell from your subtle mind, grr...) . Moses! They are HUGE and thunderous ok? Anyways, I shall just stick to conventional boot or straight until I found out the best solution to slash my bottom half vertically. Cos skinny's will render my bottom half bak zhang :(

Speaking of which, I've frozen my FF account from this month onward simply because of time constraint. Finals and all. By right I should watch my diet from now on but chao Datuk was in gleeful mood just now so he decided to treat few of us to bak kut teh! Don't know what wind blowing eh? Anyways, that's blasphemous from dietetical perspectives T.T

I got quite a few PT job calls last few days, first was some marketing survey interview at some advertising film, then later MO was looking for some helpers to set up PA + assorted odd jobs and Photography club was seeking for photographers for new block's launching ceremony (like hello, I don't even know where the hell I keep my DSLR, perhaps on its way to limbo after months of waiting for duty call wtf). Zapped the rest I opted for the first simply because it takes only less than 2 hours to be 100 bucks richer. What I did there was drooling over dozens of free pizzas and isotonic drink, yes they force fed us but I was able to abstain all of those calories bomb after the sinful BKT lunch a while ago. In any case, we were being asked on few questions in group pertaining to things like our daily modus operandi, rate of activeness and stuffs which I didn't pay much attention as I was effing sleepy. Stoned my way out and got paid for 100 bucks summore haha. Well had they changed their medium of language to Mandarin ,Malay or English, I would by all means from head to toe blabber like talking machine cos I'm Canto-handicapped despite all the efforts that my Grandpa and relatives trying to convert me all these years. Whatever la.

Anyone applying for internship next semester? They don't seem to dig for AUP students lor...sad case. I need to build up a beautiful CV from now on with not just some odd jobs of selling retail stuffs. I need apprenticeship in some medical labs, corporates etc. But why are they only up for business students? I swear in utmost seriousness, wages are NOT important but at least be humane a bit la, a grand or so will be nice *hypocritical chuckles*

Alrite alrite, gotta get back to my Stats. tutorials now which I haven't been doing ever since the first lesson.

Jualan Megasale Yg Melampaukan

As per the title saying,

I "tried" to relive my passion for retail therapy after for about 7 months and it failed miserably. Why ah? I don't seem to get turned on by any of the fashionable garments in sight. Or is it mainly because I'm targeting the sales items only? As you all know la, no free lunch in the world, cheap is not always on par with best. Thus, explained why all the garments I eyed are trashy. You know they gave me the feeling that they are being mass produced by factories in Guangzhou (yes China!) and look mega thrifty. Can someone tell me why do people still selling cargoes, jeans with patches here-and-there, stripe tees with glistening rubber stamps, checker shirts that resemble napery, leggings wtf and assorted street wears ala lala style which in trend all day all night long ever since the invention of time wtf.

I personally like to patronize pasar malam, flee market and bazaar simply because I'm a giga broke cheapskate who can't afford/bear to buy overpriced designer labels who's also by any chance, like to BARGAIN (= si lai). Seriously lor, there will be thrill of excitement whenever I know that I'm paying only 10% of what people paying in FULL retail price. Correct wad, they are all came out from the same factory with different labels only. Why pay more and get all gaga over that piece of approx. 3cm x 3cm label tag stitched to some hidden corner of your garments? I sound very sour grape right? Cos "Tristan" and "fashion" although somewhat rhymed remotely but they sound more like oxymorons that's it don't ask further.

I'm sure that one day if I'm financially entitled to couture, it will definitely open up a whole new chapter of choices in wardrobe but today, it is NOT. So I'm basically financially dependent in the lowest rank of purchasing power group that ethically/economically shouldn't possess any form of disposable incomes. So I must squeeze that 1 cent and break it down to smallest atoms out of different use. Yea, it's THAT stingy ok?

Anyways, I was with CJ the whole day doing retail-therapy-turned-window-shopping later on joined by Bagus. We browsed around and shook our heads for gazillion times at those disastrous fabrics on sale. Come on la, if wanna give sales please include your utmost sincerity, don't give me bull crap tip of iceberg's 10%, 20% and 30%. Why not 90% I dare you?! Secondly, don't display things that look as if they are heading to recycling factory or waste yard next, no one's gonna buy that even if you hang them on until it decomposed. Thirdly, don't bring pasar malam quality goods and sell it in some upmarket shopping malls then charge a fortune for them, Malaysians are generally if not all, have the slightest common sense at least.

After about 6 hours of aimless browsing, eyes rolling, blood spilling, price comparing and profanities exchanging. We came out with NOTHING at all except for stiffer calves. There goes the 6 hours of my life being wasted. I have all the more reasons not to exercise any retail therapy in the mean time. Pretty traumatized, dumbfucked and rather a waste of time.

Well, it could be a completely different story if someone was to buy me out for an ultimate splurge in Champs Elysées. What more to complain there?

Earnestly

I get a little ill sometimes seeing how people parade themselves as hypocritical object. Having completely clueless about the price they are paying. That kind of lowliness erodes into the amour popre of self denial by doubting themselves to fit into a major cesspool of social conformity. The shallowness that incidentally came equivalent as a substitution of trend. Not that I'm a conservative fundamentalist myself cos I don't believe in sole God, extensive moral obligations or whatsoever but in some critical situations I might as well retreat rather than conform. I dislike the fact that we have to feign around with our acts in order to gain acceptance, I mean what is so vital about that? There are many more honest souls at this side of life. It's never a sad thing when it comes to facing disdain.

I once waited at a platform for a train home during office touchdown hour and when the long awaited train finally arrived at a step away, people converged to that tiny little shutter fretting that they would miss a fortune of life had they not being carried on board. And I was understandably couldn't be able to fit into the cabin as I'd prefer to back off and observe each and every expressions of powerless people be them the bootlickers of some conglomerates who can't afford to face fuel hike, excos who are lazy to drive, bourgeoisies who go public occasionally, new working class who much prefer to go public, blue collar workers who can't afford private transports, students who are not supposed to get highly mobilized, the jobless', hoodies, goth punk wannabe, environment conscious activists and so on. They sparked a well defined notion in my mind, CONFORMITY within the subcultures. I like the fact that I just stood still after for a while and allow the shutter to close before my eyes in some minute inches of distance. I'm not even remotely sad about the rejection itself but I'm glad that I retreat for better. When the next train finally pulled in after 2 minutes, it was all empty and I got half of the cabin all to myself. Ain't that great?

People come and go in different levels of life. Just like each unique train carrying different people with different personalities that we are fated to meet. When it reaches its destination, we alight and split into our own ways. We'll have our love ones waiting for us at the destination while those that we do not have time to bother will leave us at the stations along the way. We don't carry them along for convenience. They will have their own things to pursue after all. Maybe someday, when the awkwardness finally subsided and the hatchet is buried, we will meet again.

I'm glad that I retreat in an upright manner. I don't upset anyone for I have all the plausible reasons for what I'm doing. Guiltless and free. I don't adorn much of my words. It's all heartfelt like it or not. As I've said, I will not be afraid of rejection in any form. With all my respect, your acceptance really means nothing to me. I'm honored by how I accept myself for who I am and what I want myself not to be. You should go on move about freely with the hippest feat you possess.

Alright, it's getting cranky and compulsive here.

The train shall stop.

I'm dropping off at this station cos I know all my love ones will be there to greet my arrival.

Wish you all the best ahead.

Reunion

CJ is here in KL for a couple of days. Actually she planned to come here because we promised a reunion for SyUC Ale July'05 but then at the end most of them backed off. I can't believe Dash ffk-ed us in the gracious-est manner since she knows CJ is here for only few days. Hussen was drunk when we called him, so yea, one asshole. The rest of them I think either evaporated or etherealized from physical existence. All that was left were 4 of us : CJ, me, Danny and Hazree. 2 from S1, 1 from S2 and 1 from A1. Equal representative wtf. We couldn't club in this pathetic meagre amount of mortals so we just hanged out and chilled (like...duh). I feel so sorry for CJ cos she took bus all the way from JB and gonna fly back to Tempe in couple of weeks time but yet...disappointed. Anyways, we went Williams and Laundry at the end of the day. Still happy to catch up la and I'm going back JB again around next next week in spite of being around the realm of final exam to hang out with CJ cos it's so troublesome in KL as both of us are geographically and mobile challenged. Yes, about final, I will be having half of the August for some intensive revisions cum dwelling in library for betterment of future :D I'm so determined to masuk SBU or UB. Die die also must gain admittance to either one of these Uni's in my desire major!

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P/S : Got literally thrown into the pool by around 10 guys after ON celebration yesterday -_- and caught flu after that. I'm fine now after 12 hours of uninterrupted sleep. I hope I'm done with all events at this point and it's time to SLOG away! Post mortem on next week T.T

Assorted blahs

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OMG who would have known that the one who taught us US History was once a wrestler. This is definitely new.

Nope, I'll still love him despite the B- he gave me in HIS251 since there was only 1 in 50 of us barely got an A-.

*stifles laugh*

He's a lecturer who once threw a student's handphone out of class, habitually lock the door when lecture commences, pwnn someone if he ever heard the S and F words before him and his pro-American quality is beyond question because we are not allowed to question the sanctity of US Constitutions let alone derogatory comments on the many doubts of the tyrannic US goverment. Well, if any of you can't care less about your grades then go ahead fire him questions and come back next semester repeating the same subject. If you agree with him on US policies, your life will be easier than those who are not :p Shut up, we ain't no bootlickers!

Anyways, this is way too classic.

*****

I'm so happy that I didn't screw all my test 2 like how I did in past semesters. I critically need to boost up my CGPA in order to tell the embassy officers to just STFU and issue me the F-1, cos apparently my friend who score 3.xx faced hard times at the embassy a while ago while applying for F-1. I mean wtf, just get over it already since the uni has all the says, well at least 90% of it.

2+ more weeks to final! Heck.

My dad has urged me to apply for uni but I have no idea which to go although I've already told them my premium choice but my CGPA is seriously not enough to cover my complacent to gain admission to that particular uni said. Of cos it meets the minimum requirement but have to play safe also right? Then I need to inform my cuzzies over at the States about all my choices and shits...mafan.

AND ALSO, TOEFL which I'm totally reluctant to take! I'm really not into those language proficiency tests one lor, I'm sure no one does (duh) but it's a shame to say that my IELTS has gone wasted due to the limited validity of 2 years. Yes, it's been 2 years can you believe it? Back then I was so determined and aspired to become a lawyer or economist until I was about to join some UK degree twinning programme, and I got accepted into RMIT and UniSA for double major despite my fucked up A-level result. However, I'm not too fancy Oz so decided to give the nearest neighbour country a try without realising how bad is my A-level result haha. I actually applied for NTU and SMU which the latter even demanded for SAT I with score of >2000 qualification, heck, if I can get 2000 for SAT I I would have gotten into some Ivy Leagues already lah! It's ok, I got 1500 only. Nothing to be ashamed of and I don't care, because having to sit through the whole test statically is an total agony per se, all I hoped was to leave the damn exam hall in sonic manner after approx. 7 hours of torturous butt sticking. 10 sections were enough to put me in coffin. This is not an overstatement. Go ask around and see!

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Anyways, lotsa things to be done for ON's celebration cum members gathering.

I'm sleep deprived.

Adios amigos.

Prom night sucks, college sucks

Hi.

Today I am gonna present you my usual screw-the-test rant (point of anger 1). So I screwed BIO test 2, this time is literally screwed because 1 1/2 hours were seriously not enough to flip through the pages of questions. My lecturer damn pandai one, she curi all the questions, copy-paste from OCR Cambridge Examination board aka A-levels, tadah, what a way for patchwork plagiarizm. I don't see a reason why rules only apply to students most of the time and lecturers can just get away scot free. Anything, whatever. The crucial thing is she shrunk our test time from 2 hours to 1 1/2 hours. This is unfair and to make thing sounds worse, she had the guts to come in late for class some more! What the fuck. As a result, I was unable to finish a subquestion that cost 6 marks. Fuck the what. And various other questions that muddled over as time was tickling fast, apparently her watch seems to run faster than anyone else on this planet *roll eyes*. Luckily it is only a 15% out of total assessment. But still, I'm not that kinda person who will leave blank in questions eventhough I know shits about them. That sounds like a total loser who don't give in their best to at least pen down nonsense, yes I'm talking about the effort to write at least something out of nothing so that you'll know the probability of getting zero won't be one at the end of the day. This is not even all or nothing, odd marks do help sometimes in upgrading dreadful marginal grade. Pfffftt. Naff said. I'm still left with final exam to hope for. Not the end yet. Anyways, most gruesome one is ahead on this Friday, Stats test 2, lotsa things to recall from A2 Statistics which sad to say, my short term memory has had them all. Damn, why didn't anyone tell me that knowledge is cytocidic?

Point of anger 2 : I know next semester is gonna be short semester but why can't they just offer BIO 122 for fuck's sake? I see CHM 152, PHY 212 but none for BIO 122. College has never ever hit the wrong spot of frustration, now I'll waste away my 2nd short semester doing trashy humaninites/fine arts/social sciences instead of anything else that is productive like BIO 122 or Orgo. You might be asking why didn't I consult and whine before advisors or programme director as we had already like paid them to make use of their services, that is one hell thing to say, I've talked to them all and the most they could do was asking me to terima hakikat or take a 3 months semester break altogether until January. Go kiss my foot la! I'll prolly bite the dust and take Orgo at the States knowing that my college does not put their greatest interest on students but hard cash. Had I know that the rival college with initial "T" butt on us will get me there faster, I won't be wasting anymore of my limited salad days away over here doing things like Politics, History, Anthropology, etc. Well, oh well...too late for anything. 1 more year to hold up.

Point of anger 3 : Jason smudged cream on one of my turgid purulent zit wounds that resulted from burning midnight oil and that bugger blossomed into bigger colonial now! I can't squeeze it anymore as it is out of pus. Ew. I dislike playing with birthday cake especially the idea of smacking cream right into people face. As you know, cream = oil and they can clog up pores. But thou shalt be pardoned afterall it's your day, welcome to club 21.

**********Me and PK

Me and Qian Ning

Me and Si Xuan

Me and my boss

Table 13, I don't like this number.

Candid shot. I got accused of "pok mong" by Michelle when I accidentally tripped and my hand collide with her pelvic arch in this very photo above. Bummer.

Group shot. Our grandmaster of the play, Yat Lei got buried behind.

The venue of the ball was same as SyUC's A-levels ball I attended last time which is famous for their Yang Chow Fried Rice. Other than that, the food was pretty mediocre only la or below average. Very normal banquet dishes. Nothing to shout about. After the ball ended around 11.30 am-ish, my boss chio us to Genting, and so we went and reached there around 3 am-ish to relish the breeze. Lepak a bit then went back at 6 am-ish. Reach home at 8 am-ish! Whole night...if only my passion for revision can be that persistent also :s

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Do you have the slightest idea of who is this person?

Tee hee...

It's the protoype of my "daugther" crossbreed between the "best" traits of me and Avril Lavigne unabashedly!!! I don'tknow but I think it's beyond perfection :p

I'm gonna name her Liz Lyndon Lavigne II.

No condom no sex

Bagged home 4 complimentary condoms today courtesy of Durex and Mass Comm. Society. But then, the educational talk was kinda bored with statistics after statistics except for that part where she taught us how to wear a male condom and female condom in the right way. And I don't understand what was there to giggle when they were nothing funny to even begin with, budak kecik, obviously they need more lessons, I mean LIFE lessons. Does it ring a bell?

All in all, they are all cumbersome procedures, IMHO, just save all the hassles. Practice abstinence, don't have sex. It's so sick to see how many babies have became statistics. Thanks to their sainted devil-may-care parents who cared so much for dumping them at some filthy places be them alive or not to further decomposed into soil nutrient for those who can't withstand and in the end their presence will be statistically acknowledged. So you will be wondering, that's all for it?

NO.

To think everything coming along in future will outbid the humiliation they would have gotten otherwise. Well I say, they have been greatly humiliated the moment they have sex unprepared cos they just sinfully drown out by temporary highs. Hello, what happened to responsibility and love we've been fussing about? Do you think a person who dumped their flesh and blood deserve for reciprocal love or unconditional love from society? Shouldn't we just fire a murder charge against these people and send them up gallow for good cos they are more often than not, truly aware of their mens rea? If they can take up the pleasure why can't they face the consequence as well? Wusses! Let's just say, what about perform orally or self-stimulate if anyone of you are just so not ready to take up the burden yet?

Now, a round of applause will be appreciated. Kthx.

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Lubricated condoms and the @-@

This is not a chemitry lab report kthx

I'm obsessed with sugar cos sweet things basically jolly up fucked mood.

And the best thing is it's relatively cheap and aphrodisiac, diabetic, anti-depressant...

Aside from risking my life from diabetes, obesity, hyperactive, hypertonic, hypertension,hyperbola and whatever, you know I can't be bothered when it comes to things that to be tucked into, swallow, digest, excrete, repeat the cycle either until you died, having constipation or whatnot.

Ok ok...the point is, I tried to do caramel apple ice cream few days ago without correct ingredients but at least those that I had were not remotely far. Such as,

1. brown sugar instead of white sugar ,man, white sugar is super diabetic if you didn't already know.

2. creamer instead of whipping cream

3. fuji apples, don't use royal gala cos you will most likely ended up eating apple crumble or mashed apple which taste like teflon

4. cinnamon

5. dry gin

6. perseverance, perpetually burning passion and a functioning non stick pan to prevent your wok or lousy pan got sugarcoated like kena galvanized

So it's very simple and easy in fact like how we fry scramble eggs or cook that bowl of to-die-for Indo-mee *yums*. Anyways,

1. Pour approx. 100g of sugar into a dry non stick pan.

2. Agitate those sugars if you are impatient breed like me who refuse to stone there whilst waiting for them to melt and incinerate into caramel.

3. Once sugar melted and caramelized, immediately add creamer/whipping cream into caramel and stir as vigorous as you can, so to say, get rid of your flabby arms.

4. Whilst stirring the mixture, add in slices of apples into the pan and fry them slowly until you think it's close to burning.

5. You are more than allowed to add cinnamon and alcohol additionally, but advice is not to add dry gin (my 2nd attempt failed and the caramel apple tasted like 20% ethanol in chemistry lab!), you've been warned. It depends on your personal preference, rum, orange liquor, kahlua, bailey OR wine are most welcomed to spike 'em up.

6. Let them simmer for about 1 minute and voila, MUST eat with vanilla flavour ice cream in order to retain its authenticity.


Feedback : Mine tasted like McD's apple pie filling but not up to patisserie's standard yet. So I guess it's not so screwed la and CONFIRM edible.

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Close up. Eh don't lick your screen ok?

Chef's note : TRY AT YOUR OWN RISK.

UPDATE : Suzanne commented that the caramel apple looks like a pile of *something*. I'm hurt :(

The Day

Fucking landlord was trying to wake me up from slumber on a wonderful Saturday again. Tell me that bugger's not retarded or what to knock my door at 9 freaking a.m. YES A.M., ANTE MERIDIEM! So I decided to ignore and zonked out into lalaland again. All was great until the second time he came knocking again at 11 a.m. and this time I opened the door showing him my pasty and tulan face in order to tunjuk perasaan. So he felt something wrong with my manifesto and pleased me back to sleep. Asshole. I'm not interested in house meeting unless food is provided or what but no. Maybe I'll consider if it's after 12, ANTE MERIDIEM. Told you I'm nocturnal.

I swear if he ever fuck me up from my sleep again in future, I'll hang him upside down with his head in toilet bowl whilst flushing all our excretions into his oesophagus. Mercilessly, thank you.

Good, so I couldn't resume my sleep after that, mood was fucked up. So I prepared myself to meet up with my BFF, Stephanie for she'll be leaving for Oz in 2 weeks time :(((

I was supposed to meet her in Inti-UC at 2-3pm but my luck had got the better of me since I opted out college bus due to the incapability of waking up at 6 in the morning cos remember my initial plan was to work for i-challenge which I didn't in the end. Boarded the wrong bus (kudos to this company called Airport Liner which I don't know shit about) and voila, took a detour to KLIA and LCCT. Sainted! I swear I got the urge to kill myself on the bus when I saw lotsa hangars and runways appeared around me. Cos it was obviously so wrong for there won't be such buildings being erected from Nilai, the nearest municipal from Nilai is Sepang. Bordering side by side under different constituencies and states! So dumbfucked. It took me a good extra 2 hours. 2. Two. Dua. Er. Ni to reach Inti-UC! There's no way I could recognise all the roads in spiral to KLIA and LCCT cos I hardly go there FFS. The last time I went there was last year for DJ Tiesto rave party at F1 circuit. Cos KLIA is really built pointless for JB-ians, we prioritise Changi International Airport in any case due to the proximity. 1 hour vs. 4 hours journey away. You do the calculations la.

ANYWAYS. I reached Inti-UC eventually around 2 hours after our appointed time and managed to catch up with Steph. for 1 hour plus cos she looked weary after her sleepless day the day before and her final paper. Gossiped a little bit then bade her goodbye with hugs. Can't believe everyone's leaving and time really flies. Everything seems like yesterday where we used to hang out 24/7 kapsiao-ing in THOL, One U, house partying, clubbing and shopping together-gether every week. Le sigh. Whatever it is, take care and bon voyage darling!

Dom. just had his MRI scanning a while ago, we are all so worry about the outcome. Hopefully it's nothing pertaining to brain, spine, ortho-insert jargon* and neuro-insert jargon*. He was so rummy cos he called me to announce that he's dying. I was completely startled. Didn't know to laugh or to send him my deepest condolence (which is kinda inappropriate haha) but nonetheless I laughed all the way still and poked the fun outta him to cheer him up. So later he came and look for me with DD tagging along. So qiut! But then I spotted some rashes blossom on my chin this morning which I credit to what DD did to me last night from all his lickings!

And I'm going back home next week!!! So ridicuously happy can!!! It's been few months I never went back already. Thanks to the cropped out of ON and all. Gonna catch up with my kkl and bff Cheryll so badly. Then at the same time need to discuss some university matters with the parents as well. I've narrowed down my university choices to two which they are not only possible for my result and ability to gain admission but they are prestigious yet affordable too! Both are in the same state under same governing body. So by the end of this semester my study plan will be smooth sailing and more distinct. What a great relief since I don't need fucking physics in my curriculum. I never was a physics kinda person cos they are rigid, stiff, cold, hard, emotionless and stoic compared to Chemistry and Biology which are more fun. No offence to physics enthusiasts but I kinda think that engineering and IT major students are boring since they deal with lifeless things like machines and computers. Or at least not my forte la...ok? In case some of you already start cursing me behind for leaving this stereotyping remark.

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Steph. and me at Ruums circa 2006. I know what you gonna comment on my look so STFU.

i-Nnovation

Can your lighter play music?

Can your sharpener play music?

Can your bottle play music?

Well mine CAN cos i have i-Lighter, i-Sharpener and i-Bottle

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i-Phone!

i've got everything that you don't have, therefore i am happy!

Sorry but it's homemade cos you gotta pay more for state-of-the-art's.

Stolen MCH!

My pair of sport sneaker which I worn for too much got stolen this morning/yesterday night! Although I got it from someone else that I didn't pay for it but it's still a rare version of Nike Shox! (estimated "loss" = around RM 350-400)

:(((

So much for staying in a guarded condominium hor.

Is it another sign of driving me out of this place?

Actually it's partly my landlord's fault also if you were in my shoes (pun not intended) but he just told me to take it as a NOT COSTLY lesson in rather nonchalant tone. Well I say.......





















FUCK HIM MCH!

(MCH = ma chau hai)

p/s : time to shop for a new pair of serious sport sneaker that doesn't smell like rotten fish :)))

Orientation Nite post-post

I think these are the most I can post as of now because if I post too much photos of myself my committee members will surely sound me for makan ular (which I didn't). Haha. See the connection or not?!

Kennard's band performance which I think he overly engrossed in his own playing. Blink 182 and heavy dose of pop rock simply not my forte.

We got Inti guards to protect us leh, and spot Juliet's double chins at the corner or not?

The crowd, quite a lot of people came considering the fact that the entire student population of ICSJ is only 2K plus. A world No. 1 champion Yo-Yo player from Japan was swinging her Yo-Yo at the runway on above pic.

Yan Ming's band performance. Ma ma dei only but Samuel's drumming skill is really second to none. Spot me and my miserable look at far right corner behind the board? Haha. I'm one of the men behind the success story of ON. Low profile is the way don't you agree?

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Actually, I'm not really present in most of the photos taken that night (except for those taken accidentally, hogging actions and group photos) simply because I was extremely busy with my stuffs. Never eaten for whole day and never sat down for one whole day lo. Have to bear with the aftermath of afternoon incidence summore, remember my previous post about the unexpected storm that swept away everything?

Le sigh. A memorable night without photos to commemorate is just like body without soul, banana without skin :((

Honestly, I've noticed that I've written a lot of insensible remarks along the way of organizing this event. I swear I was so close to giving up but nonetheless I stemmed the tide. The moral of the story is jangan mudah putus asa! But being whiny a bit no harm right? You know my character la...

How MYOB people communicate these days

Yellow circle = Landlord's

Green circle = housemate's

Red circle = moi

This is how busy people communicate nowadays. Skipping the need of chancing into each other'spoker faces. The whiteboard has legitimately became a medium of forum. Anyways, what happened is, I have this couple housemates who apparently think that me and another male housemate violated the proper toilet manners in the sense that we did not take good care of the common toilet hygiene which eventually emitted displeasing smell. So she (her partner is English illiterate) decided to put down some remarks on the notice board. Well, normally I would just ignore because ignorance is bliss afterall and I'm pretty confident that I've always come in clean hands. But this time around, I felt that I should rebuke to obtain greater self-preservation.

She complains that we treated them like maids as if we do not even bother to take care of the cleanliness of the place like they do, AT ALL. Sainted cow, like they are the God of Cleanliness who don't use the toilet at all. Blame us for the smell? What? To think that their shits smell like strawberries is it? And ours smell like.....yea shit. Ma De. You just read through those words in green circle and you'll get what I mean. Then, I reverted in that stick-on note in 3 topic sentences (duh!) for there are no more spaces to write on that board, in a rather diplomatic and polite way like how I usually do (yea right).

Point no. 1 - "By doing some simple house chores don't make you sound like maid."
Point no. 2 - "Each of us do our parts to uphold cleanliness in our house. We need to put up with unpleasant things as well but more often than not, we try to close-one-eye for we are peace loving people."
Point no. 3 - "What makes you think that we've been treated you as maid since we don't pay you for that? As a matter of fact, we are merely carrying out our responsibilities as a responsible and sensitive tenants by keeping the place clean."

I posted the note quite late so I bet those persons in matter had already long gone in slumber but my landlord actually saw them. So he replied (in yellow circle) with some witty solutions,

1. We can pay other housemates to clean the toilet at discretion if we agree upon that.
2. Those who can't tolerate can rent his master bedroom that came attached with a bathroom itself.
3. Accept that renting with sharing bathroom is not bad actually as bathrooms don't smell like flowers because shit goes there but it shouldn't smell like shits. (Haha)

And he is ready to call for a tenants-landlord meeting soon to further discuss the matter. In fact, I'm crossing my fingers anticipating it. Can't wait to see how will this conference turn out to be like. Prolly an ultimate showdown for all of us? Who cares. I still love where I'm staying now. They can jolly well move their arses out for all I care if they felt vexed. Seriously, what makes them think I should be friendly?

So many cb people recently.

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*Update*

"boys must point their genitals at the bowl accurately whenever they intend to relieve themselves but girls can spill their pee everywhere because girl pee smell like lavender..." (Ely, 2008)

(This quote can only be understood after my clever embellishment cos her Engrand is too powderful.)

My solution for this whole toilet brouhaha is shown on the below photo.

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Now the toilet will smell like flowers as their wish. Everyone will be happy like bubbles. And no need to remind me of how awesome I am (cos I know I am) to sacrifice personal belonging(s) for common use not like those cb selfish species. See, I'm not even close to hostile yet, I can still be friendly.

So please STFU kthxbai.

Orientation Nite pre-post

I'm so smelly now, so I decided to blog.

It's been so long since the last I had the whole Saturday entirely to myself without thinking what to do in advance. Could be post-ON syndrome but I was supposed to sleep at least 8 hours since yesterday night I came back all thanks to my fucking landlord who did some house maintainence job of all day but this Saturday on 10 a.m. to interrupt my eonian sleep 'till I feel like I wanna wake up! I was already like ants on boiling pot when I came back due to the stupid water rationing which will never happens in my lovely hometown EVER in my past 20 years of life. Syabas or PUAS or whatever it is sure got a long way for improvement. Subang itself was worse enough, ample times in a month. Good to know that Kelana is nothing better in that sense now.

Alritey, where was I? Yea, I haven't bathed for 2 days, as yet! Niamah. I came home around 5 freaking a.m. last night and thought of having an imaginary hot bath (bah...my rented place doesn't equip with water heater) then dissolve all the weariness and frustrations into a good slumber party but NO, the fucking nozzle dispersed droplets only instead of a strong downpour! Wah piang jialat. Now I have to tell you why is it THAT jialat instead of "alritey, can't be bothered, just sleep the night over".

And so the story goes...happily (not) done with my STA 219 test although (what's done is done la, the paper fucking screwed me right up) I didn't bother to study the night before as I came home from ON's preparation quite late, decided to wake up to burn midnight oil but dengan izin tuhan I managed to wake up 2 hours after the alarm rang, 2 more hours of god gave sleeping hours, how nice! Went straight to college after that, plowed through the notes 1 hour before the test cos I spent another 1 more hour kapsiao with members at booth. So yea, I'M SO DONE WITH IT and I HATE probability, permutation and combination, you know I tend to have tendency of not getting the right answer upon first solving and I need to refer to an actual answer else I will totally burnt the whole paper, and so it was a test, so no answers provided, thus BURN 'em all!!! T.T

I need to sign in for duty immediately after done with test. Running up and down for the stage set up, equipment settings, PA, brief my helpers and so forth are some of my duty scopes. It was all sunshiny and glaring like never before 'till a sudden storm came washing away all loosely rooted things in sight including our PA + lighting control canopy (finally I know what does lull before the storm implies!) Sainted mother, below the canopy was sets of equipment worth all your mothers' lives! Heck, we risked all our mothers' lives to protect those equipments from thunder/lightning and rain water. The whole canopy practically parachuted from crosswind and we had already tried all our best to keep them under shelter, beefed up the roller (yes, that freaking canopy is portable with 4 rollers that functioned at wrong time). Le Sigh. We then requested to dry up at hostel but I didn't tag along for I still have stuffs to do like execute the back up plan immediately. It was crazy. That was like the 2nd time I encountered such massive storm in Subang, the first was even worse which happened 2 years back when I was in Sunway, I could see rain water splattered on the classroom door with the fact that SyUC has few feet elongated corridor that elevating floors up plus a further extented roof-over-head which able to isolate us afar from rain or tornadoes. Then when the class ended, all I saw was debris.

Anyways, it's kinda pointless to mention all the bitterness now since it's already a yesterday's event. But I can't be happier lor, at least I didn't mess up the whole event despite I didn't get the N77, JW Marriott dining voucher and Air Ticket to KK, yes we had lucky draw as well. I don't think there will be any audience per se given that no attractive lucky draw prizes promised beforehand. People bought tickets for charity? My ass la. All mankinds are greedy. Me = no exception.

Back to the point of the story, I couldn't care less to get changed after being drenched cats and dogs witnessing how by-stander effect was put into effect. Bravo us who braved the storm! Give us a standing ovation please. The I changed into a new club tee eventually but my bottom over garment and under garment proceeded to dry on their own 'till I got home at 5 a.m. I'm sorry if it disgusts you but I swear I was on the verge of killing myself either. A whole day of torturous endurance seriously did no good to me. Again, wouldn't you feel like skipping the need of elevator and dash out of the window (if you're staying in high rise condo like me) right away at the moment when you get only 2 miserable droplets out of the tap knowing that it's already on full blast? Roll yourself into my smelly shoes and think.

Gosh, now that the air in my room keeps permeating some unidentified smell...which I think the source is none other than *points to myself*...vroommmmmm, time to wash out and dwell the toilet for hours.

Adios.

p/s : Billion thanks to all ON commitees! You know who you are. Hope we'll retrieve our 2 MIA walkie talkies by next week or else I'll be nailed nicely. T.T

700th - Curi Ayam

Can you believe this?

ON akan menjadi nyata in 2 more days!

Can't say I'm totally smitten but heck, time really flies huh!

I swear, to organize this event is 100x stressful than having History test in Borges' class.

We just had a partial rehearsal until around 10pm back in college just now.

Expectedly, I will get from them during post mortem. Some seniors and even advisor had already warned. I don't think I will wanna go but I don't wanna be called a chicken either. Haih. But well, the event is yet to happen, I shouldn't felt defeated and all. I need to cope with it during that night cos I'll be HELLISHLY busy like bees on fire. Hopefully I'll get a bunch of efficient helpers. 'Else just die only lar.

Statistics test on this coming Friday (mayhem, clashing with ON). It's a sad case also. Damn excruciating to multitask for weeks already. Don't ask me how much have I studied cos you know the answer will surely be "n" initial. If only time can be purchased at a nearby 7-11 afterall it's a store and more -_-. Hallelujah kthxbai.

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Snippets of College Day at Inti UC

Howdy~there's a rodeo!

I apologize on behalf of our kindergardencollege for putting up an infantile banner that didn't reflect the average age group of college's population. I think they hired some retards to paint it. Le sigh.

Sumo wrestling, pay to wrestle or be wrestled. Good source of emotional outlet if you encounter some cock sucking dickheads in life of late.

Qian Ning and Ah Sim who will be leaving for Montana this fall! I think they burnt that pot of spaghetti after this shot.

Us in really chippy looking bandana. And I've totally no idea why mine looks espcecially like those of China maiden coolie who came mencari rezeki at Malaya during war times ala 河水山. Yea I know my GAP tee has been worn too many times, no $ for retail therapy, obviously.

Spiritually Voided

At times, this club really makes me feel dumb. Imagine your class finished at 12pm and you could've went home or up to another delightful event but NO, you've waited like stone for 5 hours straight only to find out that they DIDN'T really need you afterall. Really hempas tulang tak berbalas jasa mia orang. Now you tell me what's the point of having committee dance? Something's really wrong here that they've totally drifted away from what we are supposed to do. Still remember of organising event? Or you just wanna shake that bon bon? I was wandering around whole day awaiting for order from the certain someone who was supposed to assign task for me but he preferred to dance his acidic ass away and put me on hold. Fine. Insyaallah, then I waited...so in the mean time I did some odd jobs for publicity department. Finally, they came and told me I could go home if I wanted to, I was so mortified that they did not even appreciate a tiny bit of me ritually killing my revision time for donkey stuffs that were, PUNY over them? Can you see my dilemma already? When I don't stayback which I usually don't, they will start bombard me with sarcastic remarks and go around with those conspiracies. So what's the purpose of staying back and not? I'm not gonna be better off in any case. Might as well go home, go gym, talk to walls, eat sands, and spend quality time on my own? The fact is I only live once and there goes few more extra hours in my life. Please don't tell me how important I am to you all when I am not, I may be, virtually. The fact that I am important is that I consume whatever that is leftover and not needed by anybody. Does it sounds familiar? You slimes. I'm really not into those nonsense oomphs and confidence boosting, when I realised that I'm not being fully utilized for any reasons, then I am not, not up to you to tell me how you should use me that you are actually not then demand for whatever dumb made reasons when I can't produce what you expect me to do because that is how I should react. No matter how much catalyst you've dumped into a chemical reaction that is deprived of sufficient amount of reactant, the amount of product yielded is not gonna increase per se. Again, don't remind me how Important I am only when you need my help and push away all the unwanted responsibilities that are too heavy for your brittle shoulder to bear on me. I ain't unsighted, I have eyes remember? Now sorry to say that you really need to kiss my ass for this time.

On a brighter note, my BFF from Arizona buzzed me up a while ago while I was on my way home. At first I was very skeptical when I saw some unknown Johor's cellphone number but upon picking it up I heard a pair of familiar voice in Mandarin from the other end (that she usually don't) but yet I couldn't recognise at all haha, then when that voice turned into English speaking, I WAS TOTALLY OFF MY FEET! It was her! She's back 1 month earlier than the scheduled date but she wants to remain low profile in the mean time and I'm the first one she informed haha. So sweet. Can't wait to go back JB and hang around.

Speaking of going back JB, my time is effing packed now. I'm up for college day's food fair this week, test on next Monday and Friday, ON on next Friday, rehearsal on next week, sponsorship booth set up on next week, Japan GT next Sunday, i-Challenge on next next week, meet up with Stephanie on next next next week for she's going to Oz in few weeks time and lastly, prom night on next next next next week. So I'm occupied for every weekends ahead from now on and can't go back until Inti Ball's over. :(

On an irrelevant note, I wanna congratulate PK for finding her happiness once again, hope you can brave through this 3 months and make full use of it. Go ahead when you've made up your mind and don't hesitate to move on. At least you know he is not that kinda asshole shit eating twat species that you need to hate when it's all over like you-know-who. Mot pour amoureux!

I need to force myself to bed before 12 today for I have college day to attend tomorrow at Nilai! Have to be at ICSJ around 5 am prior to the departure to Inti UC. Tell me that's not too crazy to start off a wonderfully hectic Saturday, will you?

P(Becomes zombie tomorrow) = 0.998
E(X) = 0.998

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A piece of non halal scribble from yours truly.

Can see or not, the picture is pixelated! Something I really don't like about JPEG files. Pfft.

Vintage rarara...

Just when I thought I've hit the bottleneck. Fishie already separuh in limbo (1 roll film only), FZ1 recorded less than 500 shuttles already kumpul habuk and DSLR pun belum rasa hangat sudah berdingin.

Then I see light in me again, although I've been eyeing on L-CA or L-CA+ since forever but some stupid union just decided to jack up the price just like fuel and rice hikes back home for 100%. Yea can you imagine just because of some dumbass Austrians rediscovered the wonder in low quality toy cam and striked a fortune doesn't mean they can single handedly monopolize a range of products lo! L-CA is like sooooo wonderful a camera. But heck the official price is RM 1.2k compared to eBay's 50 USD. In case you don't already know, L-CA is the epitome of lomo cameras, a legendary one originated from St. Petersburg, Russia (formerly USSR). However, after the collapse of USSR or something, they discontinued it until recently they revive the production by adding a "+" called L-CA+ (Lomo-Compact Automat Plus) with the exception that the glass lens are made in China instead of Russia. Oh well, not like I care as long as I have one, whichever will do.

Alright, in order to find a temporary replacement for L-CA, I came across Lomo Smena 8M and FED 5C which I chose the latter for it is a imitation version of some Leica screw mounted camera that supposed to cost like 3000 USD. But with the much (MUCH) more lower price I paid for FED 5C I get to enjoy certain Leica's features (that yet to be discovered). So yea, this USSR made vintage camera has enlightened me and brought me a whole new chapter of fun. Although it's a little bit too chunky and heavy but it feels totally solid in hands like gold bar. No cracky loose cover, everything is well screwed in place with metal plates and steel, can't even find a tiny piece of plastic material. It feels very cold under low temperature just like the then communist governance. To make it sounds more valid, the lens of it (Industrar 61) contains Lanthanide which is a radioactive element but in very negligible amount only. This shows that USSR is indeed a powerful nuclear and radioactive material driven communist just like Democratic People's Republic of Korea today. Anyways, I don't care lah, my next target will surely be L-CA(or +) already lah. Doubtlessly.

School's out. So I went for Photography Club members gathering today instead of Intima Forum which I don't give a single damn with all their respect. There are so many prospectful programmes like workshops, Stylo shooting session, potrait shooting, garden shooting, introduction to Illustrator and yada. But the most excited event is the upcoming Japanese GT racing photo shooting session! Those seniors have got us free tickets to enter Sepang F1 circuit to shoot some serious panning shots! How wonderful is that compared to, you know, working ass off like donkey, showering ownself with condemnations and stresses, confronting misunderstandings, politics and yada. Committee members are helluva friendly summore. PC is to hell much more enjoyable lah! And if we get hired as event photographers, we get paid summore...at least some people will appreciate our skills by monetary value rather than none, zero. Nuff said. I'm gonna Zzz for good already, after all the heels over head streamer paintings. They got so engrossed and rush the hell outta us suddenly, and decided to finish it in like 1 day for 10 over streamers. Of course we were bound to OT lah...what an EVENTFUL commitment and obligation. Cibai.

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Communist camera

Single Worst Day In Life

Berikutlah kisah seorang lelaki yang paling malang di dunia :

Planned to go back home after 12pm class. Got stranded by some stuffs pertaining to you-know-what club. Turned down initially. Compromised after received a fair amount of tunjuk perasaan from certain someone. Granted. I stayed back and did the streamer painting whilst leaving all my stuffs at AUP office. Overly engrossed in painting. Forgot office touch down hour. Office closed. Bags and all trapped inside the office. Apparently no one in the college hold the key at that point of time. Panicked cos housekeys and the just received FED 5C (they couldn't deliver to me in person cos I was having class and when they called I pandai pandai told them wrong number cos the seller gave them my forum ID which I don't even know how to pronounce haha) are all inside. Fucked up everything. Called Kelvin for help. Headed to Susi house for some serious parasiting and sheltering. Susi hadn't reached home yet when I arrived. Went to NZX to wait for her. Had Donuts which was stupid enough for a person who constantly whine for not keeping up with good diet routine. Susi reached. Upon entering her house. Heavy downpour like no tomorrow. Luckily. In the end, Kelvin fetched me home from Susi's. Currently at home typing this entry. Gotta stay back for streamer painting until late evening as well for tomorrow. How about this, cibai kanasai! Ugh, so I practically carry nothing to college tomorrow for my things are already there -_-. Well, you don't have to further emphasize how far my stupidity goes cos I know I'm beyond that for all the valid reasons!

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Could be your lung tissue under light microscope.

Where is da brain?

Do we like...have a quota for stupid remarks to come out every month? I believe it is a yes and indeed exceeded the actual quota already.

First thing I heard was about how alluring the current girl school uniform (the all white translucent baju kurung where non muslims girls wear besides pinafore). It is saying that girls nowadays are inviting for statutory rapes on themselves rather than those stupid men out there who can't control their peverted high sexual drive that should either castrate themselves or masturbate more, am I right? What? No brain is it? This is really like another clever form of gender discrimination. I mean why don't just make up for a tight enforcement like hello, please debate in parliament cos that's what the legislative body's for given that backbenchers are not voiceless minority anymore. Don't just push the blame on victims and, what? Let those monster get scot free or little punishment and give them chances to go on let loose their oversecretion of testosterone? Listen, what bout this, CASTRATION up for good!

And then, few days ago when I read the newspaper, the has-been yesterday superstar Sharon Stone has been making foolish statement on China's earthquake. Apparently this pro-Tibetan concluded that what happened to China is the flow of what goes around and comes around, she believed that China has received its 'karma' due to the fact that how they are not being nice to the Tibet and Dalai Lama *roll eyes to max*. Dumbo. Hollywood is getting like kindergarden fostering adults who think like children or worse. It is no doubt that stupid statement of hers has violated the Dalai Lama's teaching of being big hearted to people no matter how they treated you and so forth. And she later realised her stupidity and berpura-pura act humble there. Seriously, we should put her on social stigma or STONE her to death at least. Fucking inhumance hypocrite. Go eat stones la.

Speaking of stones, it reminds me of rice (dunno y la...). Freaking inflation, price increased 1 fold man, and if you don't already know, those eateries around you had already passed on the burden to consumer because it is necessary, the increment is too massive! Everything also increase but income/allowance remains T.T. And then that barricade of Bandar Mahkota Cheras can officially remove now I think which is very easier for us! Imagine last time when we had to make a super detour to Kampung Batu 11 then Sungai Long a big "U" turn to BMC (6.7km) just to find my cousin sister restaurant from CP, we wanted to siam the toll at Batu 11 boh pien. Now just go straight from CP junction smooth 1.5 km after the removal of barricade, and only then I realized it is so near! Just calculate how much $ and time lost for BMC residents and those around? Grand Saga is really leech, lintah darat.

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Where to find vintage Soviet made 35mm film cameras in Malaysia? It's everywhere on e-Bay but none around the market! I'm looking for either LOMO Smena 8M or FED 5C Industar-61, zomg the latter is like soooooooooooooooooooooooooo retro-ish and doubtlessly takes good pictures. So, where got sell? T.T Found! I'm buying FED 5C from a LYN seller. Smena is overpriced yet toyish but FED 5C is using Zeiss + Leica range finder! Rare and super ohm! :D