Purely impulsive thoughts 1.5 *updated*

Finally,

Happy Winter Solstice, Merry Christmas (to sons and daughters of Christ/Maria/Your parents) and Happy New Year. Yet another year gone by but how far we've come to? Anyways, spent my festive season and last few days in hometown mostly binging on food. Can have like 3 heavy meals + a lot bitings + knickknacks in a day or less...so current weight count is at optimum of 2007's second half. Oh well, me very reluctant to go back KHell. Me miss everyone here and no one there. Me worrying parents and grandpa as well for some reasons. Apart from that, me be starting my new semester on this new year and so many new things la. See, me craving for food now already, exactly 15 minutes after a heavy dinner *burps*.

The consolation before anything is that me will no longer be a loafer anymore! Me gonna pia, cos ai pia jia eh yia.

p/s: Ayu seems to get back on track again. Dearie me, my long lost Ayu is back finally! GUILTY is quite listen-worthy IMHO especially when it comes at the right time to give my sombrous 2007 a big fat happy ending at last. Way to go!

pp/s : So many bad things happened through out 2007, lotsa unwanted fightings and childish conflicts between people around me especially those ever unrest family matters. Being the neutral party among our family, it's inevitable that we suffer the most than those who are not. How sad. That's why, fillial piety and unity are extremely important to hold the pillar of peacefulness in a big family. Well, I'm expecting some "HK jade drama" scenes coming alive in 2008's CNY like never before...just watch and see.

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孩提时总讨厌平凡，

长大后却想成为一个平凡的人。

但连应当实现的事情都变得不再那么理所当然，

就是面对平凡也受挫的时候，

我双手合十，开始领会到祈祷的力量。

当我再也寻找不到心灵寄托的管道时，迷信与否已再也不重要。

矛盾leh...

Magical Tristan

My salad days in THOL mugging in booksdoing pointless camwhores pretending I was some kinda nerdy who slogged my life away 24/7 in the library for books. In fact library was equivalent to home, maybe 2nd home. Oh well, that shows how inferior the ICSJ's library, don't even get me started off with anything to do with that.

Anyways,

A donkey year ago busy preparing A2 Tort Law's paper kononnya...I had 123627382443 civil lawsuit cases to insert into pea brain.

That's what I called the real spirit of library dweller. Ken got caught copying homework by Eunique the grandmaster of copying aka photostate machine or xerox in yankee's lingo.

Oh herroeee, ruler never tasted better with my brilliant stunt!

Alright, I got caught up, I should have done something better with the redundant free time I have like...hmm...what about getting a life? If only life can be found in the mailbox or monitor, then do you think I'd still need to stick my butt firmly here to make crappy highlights on those trivial past tensed been-there-done-that events(aka craps) that I braved through meh?

I need thorough massage

Dear Blog,

We went Fuji Ice Palace last Saturday and skated for 4 hours straight, I don't think I can identify where are my legs now. After ice skating, we walked around PS and Orchard until 9 pm-ish only to find out that no seats on MRT all the way back Kranji! So we made ourselves home in MRT, just sat on the aisle, who cares. We were OKU -_-. And we had got no time and no strength for shopping after the skating session. For me, I think I am very bloated now, so I won't buy any garments as a punishment.

Hmm...upon reaching JB at 10 pm-ish, we turned in to supper at Pasarkia for cooling drinks and fried oyster~zomg I'd die for the latter. Too bad it is not featured in The Star Guide to Malaysian Street Food, funny though! Well, I am effing tired now, will sleep for a good 24 hours ahead. Toodles.

XoXo

Tris.

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Me and Net

Oh, obscene!

偶信佛~

Then we saw Shoot 3's (有话就说 3) troop live filming at Jurong East. L to R : 郭亮，梁志强(Jack Neo)，许振荣(Dasmond Koh)，权怡凤，forgot-name social worker, forgot-name commentator and 黄双喜 the news reader!

Jack Neo scratching his back, Charles took this haha.

Candid shot at Orchard.

I kinda pity this living statue.

Best Oo Jien or Oo Lua or Fried Oyster in JB, some say Singapore.

SAB + EC. This purikura machine can send digital photos somemore! Cheaper than JB ones also.

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Photo quality is bad cos camera photos aren't with me now.

Yakusoku

Hush, baby don’t cry
Just get through this night
Overcome

Don’t think that they’ll change

They push you away

Far from home

Cuz all that you are
Is broken inside
But they’ll never know

Don’t you cry tonight
Rest your weary eyes
Cuz all that you are
Is broken inside
It’s nothing you could change
It’s nothing you could hide

Pink flowers and bows
That’s all you should know
And summer days

Cuz all that you are
Is beautiful child
But they’ll never know

So don’t you cry tonight
Rest your precious eyes
Cuz all that you are
Is beautiful child
It’s nothing they could change
It’s nothing you could hide
It’s nothing you should hide

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That's it I think I should stop day dreaming and swallow back in 'till the end of 2007. I don't anticipate new year ahead, I hate Christmas. Just face it, Santa doesn't even exist. It's such an irony to look at those Christmas tree and mistletoe sitting around at home like aliens. We are not even Christian in the first place. But then again, there are something deeper and more than those reasons that I should explain.

Suddenly it's so cold everywhere.

And I just feel like running into the rain and scream my lung out.

Regrets for this year:

-I tell more lies than ever

-I don't get the trusts I want

-I'm not fully liberated as what I've always thought so (hell ya I'm coming to 21 in 3 months time)

-I don't get parental supports that I thought they would've gave

-I backfired all my practical plans

-Failure to confess

-I couldn't finish reading the books that I've bought through out the year

-I screwed up my exercise and diet plans at one go after all the serious built up months before

-My shortsighted power increasing tremendously and astigmatism would've already revisited

-I'm getting even more berat tulang

-Unable to attend MCR's, Fall Out Boys' and James Morisson's concert

Things gained:

-fats

-dark wrinkles

-zits

-autism

-vampirism

-emoism

Yea.You can say I asked for them.

Period.

Horror-scope

Kei had just told me that when you find great disparities and inaccuracies between the readings of your horoscope and the "present" you, should refer to the "moon" side of you instead.

@.@

Cos the arrangement of the standard set of horoscopes in sequence is based on where the "sun" located when you were born better known as the Sun Signs. However, if there are anomalies then you should refer to where the "moon" located then. According to my own sense, I think I've gathered some of the both qualities of Pisces and Taurus(the "moon" side of me). That said, I'm still leaning towards Pisces in general. *The qualities in Pisces and Taurus are completely opposite sometimes, so when you find that some of them in "sun" are too exaggerated, fill in the "moon" ones instead but then again, your primary sign is still according to the Sun Sign.* All in all, you are still what you are according to what you are in real life.

"Their psychic and spiritual qualities can lead them into careers in the church or as mediums and mystics....."

Oh, does that implies I'm having some innate potential to become priest, monk, preacher or 问米婆 ala the crook style then? Very de funny lor...

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Just imagine this,

Tris = the medium
Ah Huat = taikor who yearning to get rich overnight(I don't know but Ah Huat seems like a name who often get associated with this kinda metaphysical event.)

........

Ah Huat : "Hokkee la, i want to tiok toto, 4D, 1+3D, magnum, chap ji kee, tikam, welfare...okeyy ah?"
Tris : "Sure no problem la, gimme 4 random numbers come..."
Ah Huat : "9413."
Tris : "##%#^&$*(#XxX..." (chanting and murmuring in some Pluto's language or so you may think while tossing holy water.)
Ah Huat : "......"
Tris : "Gao dim, take this amulet, go back burn into ashes and mix water drink, 9413 confirm tiok jackpot tomorrow. Proceed to the counter and pay RM XXXX."
Ah Huat : "But hor taikor, I no so much cash now la, can diskaun ah?"(as he's still penniless b4 his"dream" ever come true.)
Tris : "U know internet ah?"
Ah Huat : "Wah piang of cos la if not ma jin jia offbeat lak seh lo...puak kiu, puak kiao humpalang now all play internet no paperwork liao!" (proudly proclaims)
Tris : "Okok, liddat u go http://www.kwanyinneo.com/ print the amulet out then burn and mix water drink, pay by master/visa/diner/AE installment all can...we veli high tech oso now."
Ah Huat : "................................................." (tulan -_-)

I think I can make a great fortune out of it. But this concept does sound familiar eh?

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Your ruling planet is Neptune.
Mean Distance from the Sun(AU) 30.109

Sidereal period of orbit(years) 164.79

Equatorial Radius(km) 24764

Polar Radius(km) 24340

Body rotation period(hours) 16.11

Tilt of equator to orbit(degrees) 28.8

Number of observed satellites 8

Now this is getting no fun at all, what's with all the technical jargons there?! Do I see trigonometry next?

Haiz, so much for astrology and numerology...

p/s: my greatest condolence to Dom.

Kakilang :)

Those memories are meant to be kept.

Boring Analysis You Don't Wanna See

I am very spiritual and holy these days. Not only going temple, lighting candles, listening to religious songs, playing around with fragrance, I got obsessed to horoscope readings of late and look what I found on other website analysing my sign, Pisces. Well, it's in Chinese though and I don't think I am capable of translating them word by word thoroughly although lack of time is not a story, just bear with me.

The following extracts that are not remote to my real life personalities and encounters. Quite accurate you can say.

Pisces,双鱼座[水系]

-双鱼倾向当个受害者，被利用、被牺牲。有时你很难分辨，他们究竟是笨还是高贵？是圣人，
还是借着让他人对他们心存感激进而操控全局？也许两者皆有吧。
(Pisceses will easily fall prey to others with injurious intentions.)

-双鱼座有时又被称为「自我毁灭的星座」。他们通常具有相当的才能及梦想着自己是最幸运的
人。也正因此，他们的人生常常是失败的。
(Pisceses are better known as the "self-destructive" group because they aim things higher than their capabalities can ever be stretched. The higher they aim, the impact caused to them when they fall is reatively higher)

-对立星座——处女座
(Identical horoscope--Virgo, haha Charles is Virgo, it is no wonder why!)

-最需注意的星座——金牛座、狮子座、射手座、水瓶座
(Horoscopes that need to beware of--Gemini, Leo, Sagittarius, Aquarius. Ask yourself why then.)

-双鱼座位於黄道十二宫的最後一宫，集十一个星座的优点於一身，当然也汇集了十一种缺点，因此其复杂性和人格分裂性在十二星座中也位居第一。此外，双鱼座在所有星座中，也最容易受到外界的影响，他们生性敏感、思想脱俗但不切实际，常有逃避现实的倾向。出生图中其他行星的位置对这种与生俱有的弱点有正面或负面的影响。他们是敏感、仁慈、和善、宽厚、与世无争、温柔、多愁善感的纯情主义者，也是十二星座中最“多情”的一个。
(Pisceses are a group of romanticisms, emotionalisms, samaritans, philanthropists and known as the most helluva "sentimental" among all the horoscopes. Partly yes, but I have to doubt some of them.)

-总之这是一个充满神性、魔性、理解力，观察力强却又忧柔寡断、缺乏自信、神经质的（如果是女人则更是泪水做成的，女人中的女人）、自制力不强、又善变的像谜一般的星座。
(Pisceses are mysterious, wizard, considerate and discerning yet wishy-washy, lack in confidence and psychotic[for women] and fickle minded.)

-双鱼座的星座象徵，正是两只鱼各往相反的方向游，一只向上，一只向下；没有什麽比这幅画面，更能正确形容双鱼座的复杂性格了。
(Pisceses are having complex personality.)

-交上一个「感觉很对」的朋友，会使双鱼座的人感到「吾道不孤」而为之兴奋不已。但这并不能稍减他心中皂孤独感，仍认为人是互不相属的个体。即然孤独感存在，有其不可动摇的位置，久了，也成为一件平常事，没什麽好提的。他不热衷去解除这份孤独感，却不喜欢寂寞，因而常爱赖在一个温暖、愉悦的聚会场合，那的确使他快乐、容光焕发，他会做出让大家更开心一点的事，甚至以已娱人也在所不惜。老朋友爱他，新朋友则被他深深吸引。他不太会做出扫兴的事。当他被扫兴的时候，他不会怪你，仍然独立去完成想做的事。事後你你若问及，他还是会为你描述他的经历，口气淡淡的，但如果你表现得好奇，他可能会再补充说明一番，开始闪现出为你感到遗憾的神情。
(Pisceses get very attached/clicked to someone with similar feeling and sentiment but somehow they still feel lonely deep down and don't give much bothers to it. They don't like loneliness too. One word, PSYCHIC!)

-当一条鱼沈浸在自己的梦想之中，必可见其鳞片上闪耀着美丽的金光，而且鱼的梦，都是相当精致的。一厢情愿，是悲伤的。自我陶醉，是好笑的。自得其乐，则有益於身心，双鱼座很了解这一点。但是他的言行却仍会使人觉得他在一厢情愿或只不过是自我陶醉，这也许是和他专注於梦想又不怕别人嘲笑他梦想得太多有关。他衷心相信有外星人及存在但看不见的精灵。如果他精心挑选了一位算命师，会认真参考算命师为他算出来的一切。更不用说「超能力」和「第六感」对他的重要性了。他似乎常做出非理性的事，非理性得很感性，感性中又有一套他领悟出来的道理要跟你说。千万不要以为双鱼座是会听你布道的那种人。你得用他的规与逻辑来了解他，否则阴错阳差，在所难免。而，每一条鱼的思考方式都各有其独特、难以复制的风格。
(Pisceses often overly engrossed in doing things that seems odd and illogical to others but they may have their set of reasons in doing so which at the end of the day, seems logical .)

-幸运日礼拜五/幸运数字5,8/幸运地点海边或近水的城市)
(lucky day is Friday/lucky numbers are 5 and 8/lucky location are beaches or inshore cities. Ah 5 is so my number cos my surname meaning "5" too in Chinese. Psychic!)

-喜欢一切与水有与关的事游泳、夏天、海边、沙滩、度假村、下雨天, 酒精、白兰地、威士忌、鸡尾、葡萄酒、Pub、Coffee Shop、义大利式浓缩、美式速食、巴西、蓝山、曼特宁等等咖啡 　　金鱼缸、海底世界、花花草草、盆景、水族馆, 眼泪、汗水（运动)、喜怒哀乐、七情六欲 　　水彩、颜料、蘸水笔、香水、澡堂、叁温暖、温泉、冷泉、泰国浴、刨冰、火锅、泡面、．．．Nearly most of them, so I guess pretty justifiable!
(Basically in love with everything to do with water : swimming, summer, beach, chalet, rainy day, alcohol, brandy, whisky, cocktail, wine,pub, coffee shop, Italian chowder (Pasta e fagioli?), American fastfood, Brazil, Blue Mountain, all sorts of coffees, fish tank, alquarium, flowers, bonzai, tears, sweat, emo, watercolours, palattes, perfumes, shower hall, sauna, steambath, cold spring, shave ice, steamboat, noodles............)

-Ｂ型双鱼座的你，可说是感情重于理智的人，对所有周围的事情 都异常敏锐易感，对于别人的心思，即使是再细微之处，也能观察得 入木三分。 你很在乎别人的感情，一些细小的动作，就可让你思索很久。事实上，对方并没有特殊的含义，或许正因如此，你经常觉得容易受伤 害。 还有，你面对一件事时，可能前一刻还因害怕而显得阴沉，后一 刻却又表现出非常豁达的态度，所以，Ｂ型双鱼座的人，内心是高深 莫测的。
(Blood type B's Pisceses often being too emotional than reasonable, very sensitive towards things in surrounding in fact care to bit for a single most tiny particle in life. They very care about how people think that's why they get hurt very easily.)

-一般来说，Ｂ型双鱼座的你，比较重视精神生活，而不是物质生活的奴隶。
(B typed Pisceses prefer to a meaningful life with more mental intake than indulging in materialistic world and stuffs)

-你对美及艺术有很敏锐的感觉能力及表达能力，但对现实生活却 采取漠视的态度，是追求美与梦想的艺术家。
(Spitualism inside but hardly express them in a high profile manner in real life.)

- 你的兴趣多元化，涉猎面甚广泛，不过由于朝三暮四，喜新厌旧 的个性，使你在学习及兴趣上都无法始终如一。
(Having broad interests but good in none them cos being too fickle and get bored with something easily.)

-但是，你的缺点是无法拒绝别人的请求，有时会因此为自己增添 不少麻烦，宜小心衡量，勿使自己吃亏而不自知。
(Do not know how to turn down others.)

-对于每一回的爱情，你都非常执着，认真，堪称是个为爱情而献 身的热情之人。在恋爱的过程中，你只付出，不求回报，即使对方再任性，无理 ，你还是一本初衷地包容对方，真心对待，而且希望能时时刻刻与他 在一起一刻也不愿分离。
(Too devoted to a relationship, you give too much and more than you take even if your love one ill-treated you but you just believe in "love is blind" so much so that you swallow everything bad as well.)

-此型的你，只要一上街购物，保证你口袋空空地回来，遇到想买的东西，你一定会二话不说地买下来，也不管实不实用，需不需要。
(When the shopaholic in you triggers, you will splurge till you drop. You will buy things you like regardless of the practicality.)

Phew...my translations suck dick but you should roughly get what I mean.

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The bottomline :

Pisces is emotional and easily shattered and influenced by the dispositions of others. They like to dream impractical dreams. They let loose their love like water. Thus, there may be some distortions image of them to people that they are in fact flower hearted and promiscuous. They long for freedom and do things spontaneously, mood dependent. Artistic characters aka 艺术家个性.

Firstly, neither am I fall into the category of promiscuous nor flower hearted. Secondly, I don't dream or harbour dreams, in fact I hate dreams, cos they are illusion when you don't attempt to materialise them. Dreams are for wussers, not me. I am damn down to earth pragmatic can? I extend my capabilities to what I deem adequate to reach not beyond. Unless I work very hard, it's all up to me. I am emotional, YES I AM. Not a big deal too. Those people who seem stoic doesn't mean they are not emotional too, it's just that they are hiding their feelings to the surface. Nothing wrong to be emo. And damn! I am definitely very devoted to someone that I found similar sentiments and feelings, worst of all that can't pull myself out of it when the switch is on. I love to fathom people's mind and interpret them in my own way, thinking otherwise that that person could not have been thinking then get emo at the end of the day. I guess that's the single most apparent weakness in me. Haha?! Not funny.

Oh well, fact or fiction? Depends on how you gonna take it. I am 70% skeptical, 20% full trust, 10% consideration. I don't need psychic readings nor fortune tellings to determine what I will be in future and interrupt my decisions. Be them future well being, dispositions, personalities, relationships and yada yada, they all lie in your own hands. You are the one who determine your own life, not some other external sources to manipulate. And they will NEVER be. Make dream and don't live in it. Otherwise you could have be better off to sleep away, you dream when you sleep you see.

Alright, it's 7 am in the morning. Yet another sleepless night. I'm going out later tim! In midst of vampirising myself now. Gah!

Gao Dim~

Phewww...gao dim-ed something that has been causing strong gravity force in me. Bwee~so relieved.

I can't find my goggles :(

New life new life!

I just kena praised for gaining weight, super 666! I know I've been binging like mad of the past 1 month and still going. Nothing much can be done also since quantity matters nowadays than quality. Cis.

By the way, I'm still kinda wondering if I'm a full-fledged app. science student, I'm having only 1 pure science subject in my next semester module, CHM 152. Then the rest are electives like Socio, Psycho and US History...zomg...I will seriously die in Prof. William Borges' evil claws. I never liked him since those days in ICM. Damn arrogant can! So what's the big deal of being a white who can't seem to respect local customs? Those days he was badmouthing the rapid development of today's China, saying things like.....

"oh well ppl, this is only an illusion, China is not gonna make it big and don't believe any rumours arising as a result of how slumpy the US economy today, China will not gonna bring down the US, ever...*rattles on*"

Obviously I can't through with his brainless statement at all in my heart, stupid yankee.

Now why am I taking HIST 251 then? :(

I was supposed to take PHI 101 but it clashes with all and the time slots alloted all fall in the morning, pukul lapan pagi tepat. How sad.

Toodle.

P/S : We are going to the vegetarian restaurant owned by 谢韶光 tomorrow...he will be serving there personally for his customers! O.o

Eyes- Brain+

Kill me seriously this time,

who doesn't know it has been raining like mad,

who doesn't know the weather has been good to snuggle blanket,

who doesn't know we need to sleep when we are tired;

BUT,

my biological clock went completely cuckoo,

my sub-conciousness is high on THC,

my eyes are begging my brain to meet 周公;

I sense unrest mayhem within,

rebelling the wellness and working pattern,

kill me better off than letting me drown in agony,

the pain, the infliction,

that slowly chewing off my patience,

cajoling me to asylum...

Kill me, kill me!

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WHAT THE FUCK! It's 7 in the morning and I'm still wide awake like no one's business. I'm not even going anywhere exciting later(like Australia *winks*) that suffice to the sleeplessness. As you can see(or you don't), my dark wrinkle is deeper than panda's, eyebags are all saggy, eye-full of bloodshots, the best part is zits zits zits......my T-zone! Frying! Zits are everywhere!

Lo and behold.

I'm hereby being certified as ZOMBIE with lotsa lotsa lotsa rare zits and pimples going on loose. I'm not even like this when I have class...holy molly.
Guess I'll need to consume more babies, dogs, cats and your grannies.

Appreciation

Never did I expect my oblivious blog will actually had me 20 cents richer :D

Well, a mere 20 cents is better than nothing -_-. Way to go for 50 bucks!

Hmmm...but still my chatterbox seems like imaginary to people I wonder why.

Yesterday, I received a call from my house phone that, surprisingly,looking for me. Oddly, my friends(except for the few that I'm closely bonded) hardly reach me through fixed line these days as mobile phones are on the reign in fact and more convenient than not. Same thing if you were to ask me to lift a feather pen and start writing letter which later have to take the hassles again to post it via snail mail, I will frown at you and tell you off on the spot. Remember E-mail is only a click away at the monitor in front of you? Best thing is, free! Anyways, I was kinda surprised to receive the call from one of my primary schoolmate which we haven't been seeing each other for 8 years. Not like I'm very close to her back in those days but I was pretty amazed by her effort to reach me haha. Like so 70's. I don't even bother to make phone call to people around me sometimes, let alone calling to engage a lighthearted chatting session cos the point is, for sure that the conversation will go on rocky and awkward if any one of the party doesn't seem enthusiastic enough to chat. I don't like to beat around the bush in a phone call usually, just get straight to the point will do unless I'm exceptionally free or the one calling is someone important to me.

So, we started talking la, as usual the whereabouts, whatabouts, howabouts...yada yada. Ended up I'm the one who talked the most -_-. Cos there were some icy and silent interval as a result of awkwardness between us. I mean come on, I don't even know her by heart, I could only crap on some very puny stuffs and anecdotes which I can't be bothered also. Seriously, I'm not into crapping and shits but yet I don't like awkwardness. I'd rather remain silent in the beginning than leaving the situation runs cold like this second both were still passionately chatting about everything from heaven to hell, next on freezed with long pause and faded in ineptness. Hence, it turns out that I'm passively chatty, if there's such term. Nonetheless, I'm still highly chantable despite the fact that I hardly take initiative to approach. Now you know what to do eh?

Fyi, I lost touch with most of my primary schoolmates and classmates.

PS : I think I'm gonna do something adventurous starting next week, I don't care if I'm alone or what cos nothing's gonna hold me back once I've made up my mind. I HATE uncertainty. Just to assure that my time precious time doesn't go waste that's it. Everything's ready on the go...

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“天青色等煙雨 而我在等妳 　　　　

炊煙裊裊昇起 隔江千萬里 　　　　

在瓶底書漢隸仿前朝的飄逸 　　　　

就當我 為遇見妳伏筆 　　　　 　　　　

天青色等煙雨 而我在等妳 　　　　

月色被打撈起 暈開了結局 　　　　

如傳世的青花瓷自顧自美麗 妳眼帶笑意”

方文山《青花瓷》

Secret

It's a bit obsolete I know but I just finished watching "Secret" starring Jay Chou, Guey Lun-mei and etc. Frankly speaking, I was so wrong to judge the movie even before watching it. The stupidest thing I've ever done was telling people how stupid to pay to watch this movie directed by a run-of-the-mill amateur director, Mr. Jay Chou in particular. I was so 白目(unenlightened)! All I can say is the setting of the movie is overly beautiful and picturesque. Then the plot is a bit sci-fi-ish and surreal since they can simply wind back time by playing this sheet of music called "Secret" which she found underneath the old school grand piano. Goddess, Yu Hao's and Jay's piano skill are superb! Especially those allegro. Man, I couldn't even play the simplest Turky March in andante decently those days. Not to be left out, the ending is tears inducing (or just me only). The drawbacks are that movie is too compressed whilst ending could have elaborated further instead of muddle over only.

What's the worst? I was soooo emo after the movie. Don't know why -_-
So much so that I need to watch Simpsons and Atashinchi to rejuvenate my fucked up mood.
Ok not funny at all.

A quote from the movie :

~Return lies within hasty
keys~

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乐观 是过眼云烟的幼稚
悲观 却是乌云密布的抗命
我 既不强求乐观 也不纵容悲观
虽然我的心布满创伤
但 我依然相信
伤心最大的建设性 在于明白
明白那一颗永恒不变的心
无论春花，秋月，夏日，冬雪
始终会在老地方守候

20年的距离，
之前，之后，
如果，
我，你，
在原来的或现在的世界里，见面了，
可以打个招呼吗？
在我心里，不变，
在你心里，请给我一个微笑好吗？

伟

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PS: 才发现，眼泪是咸咸的。

3

We are back to 3 again. Charles finally got back and joined us for the holiday rottening goner. Then I went to his house to 串门 and he woke up at 3.30pm zomg -_-. So anyways, after catching up with him for a while, we went to pick up Dato Tan's daughter Frog cos she wanted to eat Nasi Lemak in Senibong but we ended up in Tebrau City instead for no reason except an early dinner at around 6.30 pm. Whatever la, to me it is very extremely early.

So after that, we went to Senai Airport cos Charles didn't know the way to there and he was gonna pick up her family who will be coming back from Macau on the following day. So pandai-pandai as usual I lead the way la, we were on North-South highway heading KL and missed the the first exit to Senai after I overlooked the signboard cos me and Frog were fighting over the egg tarts (haha). Well, it's ok, since there will be another Senai Utara exit which will also be bringing us to the airport en route. Right after the toll plaza, some lorries were blocking our sight and voila, missed the branch exit to airport again then upon this divine mistake, we were forced to go all the way to Gelang Patah and nearly reached 2nd Link liao. Of course I can't even remember how may tolls we had passed by. I think nearly 5 or 6...pwnn!

In short,

Tebrau City -> Senai -> Gelang Patah -> Nusajaya -> Perling -_- a 30 minutes journey turned out to be an hour if not because of the detour. Another wrong turn could also lead us to dead end Pontian.

And after the airport we headed back to downtown via old road. Whole journey, to and fro, burned up few hours. We will all get scolded if we tell people about that.

We were famished in the car for hours after the early dinner, so went for supper at Singgahselalu. Hell lotsa people and of cos, Singaporeans as usual. All I can say is a supper full of meats...we couldn't even finished what we ordered. Not forgetting we met Yien Meei there as well, what a coincidence but she was hanging out with her chi muis.

The night was still young, around 12 am only, so we lepak in Danga Bay again. That was hellish, Danga Bay, nice on its surface, rottening inside. This place is a centre for Mat Rempit rally and gathering. The whole seaside road is full of Rempits. They are beyond brainless which I don't wanna waste my words on them.

Parasited over Charles' place and we didn't sleep at all. So I slept a lot yesterday and in the end I am wide awake now! Thus, this entry.

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Frog posting and me ghosting.

Rumah Mersing wor...

We went for cycling at 2 in the morning. The quad-cycle looks like "tuk tuk" from Thailand.

I like the reflective effect and the backdrop.

Have a break and...

I'm so bored therefore I am going to tell about what I ate today. I feel compelled to do so out of bluemoon, a thorough review over a piece of Kit Kat which cost me Rm 6.90 from Jusco. Allow me to elaborate further with visual illustration, will you?

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Upon looking at the Japanese-y casing, can you already guessed what flavour is it ah?

The content, there arewere only 2 bars in individual packing inside, nabeh!

*Unveils*white chocolate coating wor...

The filling.

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Couldn't taste the difference from Kit Kat white chocolate walfer crunch also. A waste of money nia. Oh I suspect 和栗 is only ordinary chestnut with a japanese-y name and chestnut is nearly tasteless in my 20 cents. I never liked chestnut especially those found in rice dumplings. I will either pick them out or nibble a bit and throw them away. I guess that's the Chinese spesies of chestnut. Japanese one is entirely different thing.

I wonder why everything taste so good after being labelled as Japan made,except Nato....yucks how do Japanese manage to swallow down such awful, tasteless, gooey and arsenic oxide-liked health food. A severe torture to tastebud. Smelly beancurd and "cincalok " win my votes anytime.

PS : I should propose to Kit Kat over an authentic local flavour appreciation, namely the Sambal. That will be new to chocholate industry in spite of its uproar and trend in the mooncake industry. :D

...have a Kit Kat!

Slap me.

Forgotten

And I realised there are a list of things I've already forgotten for good in this fruitless 2007,

- how to communicate effectively
- how to sleep effectively
- how to play squash
- how to swim (!)
- how to carry out plans
- how to play bamboo flute
- how to play electone keyboard
- how to sing with full emotions
- how to travel by public in my hometown
- how to open my eyes when I need to
- how to use Skype
- how to smile
- how to search for inspiration
- how to keep in touch with people
- how to draw
- how to bottle up dispositions (good/bad)
- how to fiddle around with Photoshop CS 3
- how to write a few or more Chinese characters
- how to write hangul
- how to do elementary maths and calculus
- AS/A2 Law & Economics
- to read books I've bought prior to this holiday
- to materialise my 2007 resolutions before the end of it in a month time
- to do exercise, keep fit and stay healthy
- to buy a new watch
- where is my home?
- what is the purpose to sleep?
- myself
- what should I write next.........

Laters.

The Bottle Ups and The Brouhahas

Boozed 3/4 bottle of hard liquor.
Cracked up in hallucination.
Went paralytic, not very.
Fired off MSN harassment attempts.
Apologies.
Collapsed.
Zonked out.
Threw out in dormancy.(I didn't aware...woOt!)
Hang over. (present tense pls.)

Rang up exam office.
Fledging :)
I hope god isn't pulling my leg.
3.0 for this semester IF I'm not mistaken.
Yay!
Still, no mercy for Ms Shanta. Hmpf!

Zillion congrats, gong xi, omedetou, ju ka hae...to Mr. *AppleNate*
For making into the 1st round.
Best believe you won't make it if I didn't back off last minute. Duh!
Right, I'm kidding only.
巨星 or 明星.
Pick whichever good to hear.

Adios.

Ode to my homeland

Woke up and overheard some conversation going on between mummy and some random fellas. I was worried cos I thought my mum gone mad and decided to talk to herself instead but later only to realise that how serious the matter was!

Nope, it has nothing to do with my mum's mental well being cos she was talking to our neighbours + engaging phone call with daddy the whole morning. The thing is, apparently there were 3 Indians eyeing my house and about to pry our roof top as well as the backdoor ( atleast I thought so). Fortunately neighbours were alerted then informed my mum and then they called Rakan Cop. Nonetheless, it was all too late to do anything since they had already got away long before the cops reached. Luckily still, we had the Rukun Tetangga around but nothing much could be done too. They are just watchdog without teeth since they don't even have legitimate jurisdiction over the neighbourhood nor proper relationship with government officers.

Blimey, I was still zonked in my slumberland while everything was happening until it was over. Haha. I wasn't too shock about it la, since we have been living in this kinda dire strait for over a decade already. That was the fourth time my house got burglarised (or nearly had) that I can still recall the aftermath of the worst one ever happened, my dad invited fengshui master, consulted bomoh and some gurus of metaphysics hoping we won't fall prey again but god knows why they all backfired *chuckles*. Not that I live in a whooping 3 storeys bungalow with in-house private swimming pool few streets across. Anyways, here's another toast to our ever mesra/cepat/betul cops and the blooming of crime rates!

What else can we the innocent hoi pollois do about it then?

The answer is nothing yet, get over it and pray hard you won't be the next.

PS : Those fan cheongs are beyond stupidity cos they have only sesame sized brains, tell me who would ever invade a private residential early morning in a work-free weekend? (if there's any) Siao one.

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Have been laughing like mad on Goong (yea I know I should've done it long ago) and crying like watertap on Ghost Whisperer. Not only paranoid but I think I'm getting dotty and cuckoo soon. -_- Especially the Ghost Whisperer, it's not just horror (which it doesn't) but full of touching and tears inducing plot. Dunno la, I am so gonna buy season 3. Bye.

一种米 养 百种人

I just spoken to Meei Meei not long ago. Apparently she has been suffering from depression for her past and present college life. You know, it's like to the extent that she even comes with the notion of committing suicide. Well, as I've been-there-done-there, it just slit my tissues so hard that, yea, this is the world full of people with various faces be it for not single or multiple faces on a body. It's just like what the cast sang in The Phantom Of The Opera and the line goes like..."masquerade, paper faces on parade!"So yea, her story is revolving in friendship and apparently she feels that she has been exploited and used by her college friends for doing most of the assignments and courseworks without receiving credits that she supposed to have otherwise. They took her for granted without appreciating her efforts. To my surprise, I had similar encounter too during my past semesters which constituted to much of my depression those days. What I'd like to say is.....depression is too much to compensate for the encounter which in the other way, not worth to shed a single tears over them. We are born with different dispositions and raised in different environment. Sometimes they might feel that they are right in their point of view because they have been taught that way. Similarly, you can make firm your stand too in your own view, nobody's wrong just so we need to know how to accept the others at the same time when we insist on ours.

Most of the time we thought what we are doing might be right could be turned out wrong as well, perhaps against the "normal" course. Life is all about toleration and adaptation. Tolerate the good and the bad, learn to adapt to them knowing that those are inevitable. We have seen hypocrites all around us, in fact there's no truth in this world. We lie, we make-believe, we dwell in people's shadow, we potray what we are not, we pretend, we show off to impress, we go against our will, we live up to others' expectation and forgo ours...to be worse, we have to go on about infringing people's rights, badmouthing, jealousy, backstabbing and went all devastated. Seriously, although everyone has their right to do things within their boundaries sometimes there are just people who'd cross the line. In this case, I'm not gonna talk about Ryler v Fletcher anyhow. Duh! That's obsolete. Those who attempt to go beyond their business, they are just plain faggots! Losers who don't have the guts to do the right thing. I swear if I was 2 years younger than now I would have swear out loud in their faces but the thing is I ain't teenager anymore with the fact that I'm well-educated (kononnya). We deal in the way people of our age does.

In a broad sense, hypocrites is not just about an ancient philosopher. But it has been given an adj. characteristic to describe someone who OFTEN veil themselves up as what they are not for sakes of impressing others or to achieve certain who-the-hell-will-know motives. That is the lowest class of all creatures on earth after the roaches. However, in my view, "hypocrite" means more than that. People who doesn't appreciate, people who take things for granted, people who loves to impress people with what they are not, people who thinks they are always the right one, people who being discreetly high profile, people who failed to comprehend the genuine meaning of "friendship", people who never learn their mistakes..................the list goes on unexhausting.

Now do you realise there are plenty of mixed personalities beneath that flimsy masked layer of epidermis? That's why you can't doubt the ability of rice in Eastern society cos afterall 一种米养百种人(literally means one kind of rice is able to foster umpteen of different personalities).

I hope I don't sound like confucious or preacher here but actually I don't always practice what I preach, you know why?

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When you are confronting a hypocrite yourself, do you think patience and mercy are ever needed, just do what the hypocrite did to you cos you don't have to put yourself in his/her stinky shoes. An eye for an eye!

Sekian.

Letih banget!

Went on a date with my long lost friend in Sg.

Reached there around 11 am for that's the earliest time I could but she still half way going on her exam paper. In the meantime, I pun pergi explored the Esplanade. Took train to City Hall walked hell long to Marina Bay. Dare not jay walk cos police were everywhere roaming due to the ASEAN summit. Later kena fined SGD 50 on the spot mati pulak. Then rushed back to Orchard Rd to meet up Jessica but coincidentally we bumped into each other on the train. Apparently she sms-ed me before that asking my whereabouts and I told her I was on train heading Orchard but too bad the train arrived and landed her at my platform. I was no where on train or near Orchard yet when I sms-ed her anyways.lol. So as her wish, we sing-K again in Cineleisure for 4 hours. KBox seriously sucks, not going again( I think...). Malaysia has better karaoke chain in terms of service. RedBox and Neway definitely win hands down. Even the HK's RedBox Plus doesn't come close to Malaysia's. Anyways, dinner was in this famous eatery hiding away in Lucky Plaza, an Indonesian restaurant mainly selling Nasi Ayam Penyet ( crushed chicken cutlet with rice). Didn't expect to be so crowded and a lot rich Indonesians were dining there as well. The Penyet tasted rather er...normal haha...my taste bud is very picky one la. And sorry for the Sayur Asam, can't say that I enjoyed that bowl of sour sweet tasted soup with a lot of inedible plants inside.haha. Balik custom that time my legs already turned jelly. Hell tiring.

Did some light retail therapy as well, bought a tee from NUM and Pull & Bear cos kinda cheap despite having sales. AND I WAS EXPECTING ENORMOUS SALES GOING ON BUT NONE OF THE RETAILERS ARE PUTTING UP THE PRICE MARK DOWN SIGNS! Damn, ain't X'mas approaching already?

Probably be going Sg again tomorrow with the parents, but I doubt I won't in the meantime haha.

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Weather was gloomy, it was "kebelet" but refused to rain...luckily!

The Esplanade on Bay

The newly launched Singapore Flyer

Marina Bay and spot the Merlion statue?

X'mas tree in front of The Paragon

Aquarium at Atria's basement walkway

de-gloomi-fied

GOD

I HOPE EVERYTHING WILL BE FINE ON ME.

I HOPE I DID NOT OFFEND ANY PEOPLE, IF EVER, I DESERVE FOR ALL PUNISHMENTS.

TWAS GOD WHO SAVES ME FROM ALL THE WRECKS.

I'M BLESSED.

BUT OH WELL, WHO AM I TO DECIDE HERE.

SOMEHOW I DO SEE THE WEAK GLARE OF LIGHT SHINING UPON.

PEACE BE UPON GOD AND ME.

Back when

Once upon a time.....

Bored met Lost virtually. Lost was depressed. Bored was skeptical. Lost talked to Bored. Lost bugged Bored. Bored didn't get bored. Lost talked Bored out of whole universe. Bored listened. Bored happy and not bored anymore. But Bored still remained skeptical. Bored were no longer skeptical finally. Bored met Lost. Bored felt awkward but happy. Bored befriended Lost. Bored helped Lost. Lost wasn't pleasant and satisfy. Bored got tired and jaded. Bored never gave up. Bored still all happy with Lost deep down no matter how. Eventually Bored got bored with insensate Lost through out all attempts. Bored resort to coldness and nonchalance. Bored turned passive. Bored couldn't be bothered much on the surface. Lost knew nothing about the change supposedly. Bored totally gave up and turn its back on Lost. They became stranger to each other again and led their own lives.

Now, who says to every fairy tales there must be a ..."therefore, they live happily ever after?"

Cartoon

Watch this, damn hilarious! I mean, how often in your life you get to encounter cartoon dubbed in TAMIL!!!!!

It's damn fluent can? I mean not "fluent" but I just can't find any other better word to descbile la...they speak damn fast without pausing to catch new breath. LOL.

I real-time recorded from Vasantham Central...

PS : I'm not being racist ok? I just admire the words per minute the dubber can blabber. No offence.

Good, very good *smiles politely*

Just watched the news from Channel U...

Glad to find out that Isotretinoin USP 20mg that I've been swallowing for the past 3 months is actually a silent killer.

It kills 15 in UK and 200 in The States. How sweet eh? No it doesn't biologically kill someone with its hazardous substances but by time releasing. Day by day reducing (or increading) the releasing of certain hormones, which *takes deep breath*, bring a person down to the valley until that person lost faith in life and then felo-de-se. Bob's your uncle, end of story!

I must mention that it will eventually leads to DEPRESSION. Guess that should well explained some rare "pms" courses I've been experiencing from then 'till now. I'm just missing out from the last extreme step only. DEATH.

Well oh well...fact or fiction? Beats me.

Dermatologist claimed that this drug has been manufacturing for 50 years without problems AT ALL. Proven by FDA summore. Then again, how far can it be true? Should I trust in their verdict just because they are SPECIALISTS?

I will still continue taking it regardless of what consequences la, depression is there all the while even without the trick of drugs. No difference for me anyhow. And my damn fucking face is oiling once I stopped consuming for few days, luckily I'm still having 1 more box on reservation. Who cares.

PS : A backpacking trip is on anticipation. Hope to materialize it while I still have time to do it. Time to put
my dust covered knapsack in use!
PPS : My aunt gave me a handphone! Stainless steel made and very durable , forgot the model, it's from Nokia.

:)



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Dunno why is it so dark. Dusk with dim natural light + artificial light. See the contrast?

Sumber Inspirasi

Berikutnya sumber-sumber inspirasi ku semasa musim merajuk dan "jutek" yang tak terhingga. Dah lah mengalami gangguan emosi sejak beberapa hari dahulu. Tak yah tanya apa sebabnya, orang-orang berkenaan patutlah mengerti. Ku nih memang tak suka orang bercekak pinggang dan bermulut murai. Apa yg ku catatkan di sini bukan utk jadikan buah mulut ke benda-benda yg mudah buat salah faham eh! Ini perkara penting yg ku rasa wajib dijelaskan sebelum ku menimpa nasib malang lagi yg tidak ketahui ku!

Harap-harap dan moga-moga pihak-pihak tertentu yg membaca blog ku ni dapat menghayati apa yg ku ingin pesankan dan jgn tumbuhkan niat yg tak baik selepas membaca ok? Terima Kasih atas kerjasama anda.

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Gambar-gambar benda yg jadikan sumber inspirasi ku selama cuti setakat ini.


Koleksi lengkap "The Lost Paradise I-V" penulisan bergambar Jimmy.

Koleksi yg tidak tentu kelengkapannya penerbitan Phoenix Satelite TV ( ditulis oleh Chen LuYu dan rakan-rakan)

PS : Gosh, where have all the main medium language skills I learned in past 5 years of high school life gone?

Pretentious

It's very obvious, like VERY obvious that I'm not quite in the mood of late. They realised, but pretend to be normal. The frustrations beneath got to be more apparent. They won't ever sense if I don't go overboard. I guess I'm just another step closer to breakdown. It's so sick to think of what's happening around can be so disheartening. I don't care even if I'm forlorn but don't shit on my head for god's sake. Respect my worth and leave me alone is better than constantly knocking my door to inspect my disposition towards them. Sad to say, I can't guarantee it will be better off. I'm chilling and freezing...the world is so cold and frigid. I feel like moving to the sun, sun salutation may cure me perhaps but inside still bleeding. Tissue won't be able to fix it anyhow. I can't help but feeling damn valley sad when I came to the notion that even the ones who are close to my daily can be that pretentious also. Why must they pretend when they can see it? It's way too conspicuous for their naked eyes to SEE. I don't want them to pretend. I really not born in favour of siding hypocrisy. I can seriously tear off the mask of a hypocrite if I want. That's what I hate the most. I think no one will like it either. And now look, I'm so ordinary just like any other people out there. I'm not made of steel, I ain't a transformer.

To certain someone with initial T or F. I hope you cease reading my blog and thinking otherwise you thought I may be thinking. You can't fathom my mind, not even myself able to do that. But now, I would like to dedicate this paragraph specially for you, a message to my old pal before I turn green :

First of all, if you think those stuffs immobilized you. Buy a bigger table or throw away that pile of stuffs altogether for all I care.

Secondly, I don't know what is your problem but I got no problem at my end at all. I've been thinking of how to get those stuffs from you. If you think it's really inconvenient, pass those stuffs to our friend with initial M, I will TT the $ that I SUPPOSED to give you in exchange of those stuffs. No worry. I know it's not the $ that matters but you see the problem is I'm way more pragmatic than you think. So you can jolly well take it and kiss yourself goodbye.

Thirdly, no point telling people how well grown you are now. No more childishness and stupidity? A verbal statement ever valid and suffice to amount to a justifiable personality? You can't be kidding your life out of me. Knowing full well that you won't go any far, oh well, you think by treating me that way is gonna shatter me or what? I've seen worse my girl, been there done there, this is not even the lowest extreme of my life yet. So now tell me do you really a big girl already? I'm afraid that I'm gonna beg to differ unless you can prove to me you can get over this in a sensible and wise manner.

In any case, hereby wishing you a very happy birthday in advance in case I forgot or you might have thought that I deliberately forget...you can be very superstitious.

I really hope we can turn back time and hang out like last time. We are besties and buddies aren't we?

Should really get yourself a piece of mind before you fire off anymore statement to me ok?

PS : Alright, I've got a lot of entangled thoughts and personal problems awaiting to be resolved. This is only part of the division, if you think this is gonna bring me down drop me dead, you're so wrong. Like I said, my endurance level is sky high. But I can't succumb to it when all bad things usher in at once. By "ALL" I mean really a lot, not just a puny matter as stated above. Tristan Ng is not that weak afterall. I can't even remember when was the last time I wept, it should be years ago pertaining to the lost of a close one, my godsister.

Identity Crisis

It just hit me hard that how cruel the world actually is...

There has been a subtle change on people around me. I realized I'm getting more cold shoulders. In fact, I might have done something wrong which I have no idea about but I do not recall any except for my ignorance and nonchalance (and some unintentional faux pas sometimes...).

I know I may not be that kind of people who likes to take the initiative to start off conversation nor attempt hard to keep in touch with people but that does not directly frame my personality as what you think. In fact, I am much more in favour of reality side. That is why being a pragmatic person I am, to engage in a face to face conversation comes before phone conversation and online chatting. But then again, there will gonna be a lot of considerations if I was to choose the first one.

Another realization is, when people finally come to an end that they are not able to reap or derive any benefit they want from you anymore, they change. So sad but true, nothing can be preserved from that onwards.

I don't know if it's just part of the adulthood or my maturity outgrew my childishness but I am thankful although I hate to admit the fact that how cruel the world can be. Somehow, the line is clearer now. My stand is more apparent.

To me, at this point of my life, I dare to say that I have lost faith in humans connection albeit just a little but I can't suppress the disappointment that I'm confronting with currently. In my selfish opinion, all mankinds are equally the same : mundane, malevolent, green eyed.......the list goes on. If god ever gives me a chance to reincarnate as a human in my next life, I am seriously considering of turning down the offer. The world doesn't lack of human but humanity, the quality of being a human. How ironic it is. If you're trying to change the world, why not change yourself instead, that saves a lot of works I'd say. Humans are not sacred and not god sent, it is the things that we do which determine the degree of sanctity.

I kinda like this saying that...

When we pray for being loved, do you think god is just gonna give us the love itself? When we pray for peacefulness from god, do you think there will be such thing as "peacefulness" that gonna fall from the sky right into our hands? It is when you really been through a lot of thicks and thins that you found what god has to give from within. If not, you wouldn't cherish.

Blame no one if your wishes are not being answered.

So stop mesmerizing yourself in the virtual world. It's time to come back to reality and face it.

On an irrelevant note, I'm starting to get emo again over a lot of stuffs. It's like I'm really sick of everything around me. I really need to talk to someone whom I can trust a lot. One of these days maybe I'll knock the door of psychologist when every attempts of overcoming went completely futile.

:(

随想~

一般性的快乐往往可以言传。

真正深刻的快乐，没有可能使得他人意会。

快乐和悲伤都是寂寞。

所以说，快乐是不堪闻问的东西，

如果不相信，请问自己三遍。。。。。

我快乐吗？

PS : 假装快乐的人，永远都最不快乐。

Home-o-phobia

K I'm home, the home in Johor Bahru. The home where I'll be equally facing the walls like the one in Subang Jaya. Anyways, they are just concretes and I can't be expecting anything out of it.

My past few days just spent in Godparents house with my own parents. I did not answer any call nor online though, part of me just wanna spend time with family, part of me was I dunno, apparently friends mean nothing much in my life. How sad huh? In any case, I've already used to my kinda life, glad to say, I'm stemming the tide and growing stronger, hope so. And I just realised, parents were not actually there for me when I needed them, yes, they did come due to some softcore house moving but that only applicable for 2 hours. The rest of the days, they were expecting me to cabbage. See, I'm not really looking forward to this kinda long winded holiday. It won't be any productive in my hands. Well, maybe it might be well spent for few days but BEAR IN MIND, this freaking holiday lasts for 2 months.

I have not been talking to my parents for 2 days, it's like some kinda silent confrontation. At first I thought of staying back in KL for another 2 days cos friends were asking to run a fair and I'll be earning like 100-150 per day, why not? But then just like I said, they went MIA after I replied them, perhaps they just don't need anymore candidates. To my dismay, I came back, and so here I am crawling on my OWN bed with dusts covering all over me. Rottening.

I hate pointless hiatus. It makes me feel useless, dumb and vegetative. Like duh! My life ain't gonna be better off if I choose to stay put.

Well, I think I'm gonna sit back and rehab at home for few days and then hang out with some old friends around here and Singapore. It's been half a year since I last visited Singapore, for SAT 1 test la...-_-

My point is changing my living habit is essential. People has been pinpointing my look of late. They just thought that I look older with WRINKLES! Seriously, my conciousness was all fucked up upon hearing their comments. Top it off, even my mum noticed that. I just told them I had my forehead back-lifted cos apparently that was the masterpiece of THE stylist from Raymond Choon, not my freaking metabolism. My first plan is to cultivate a good sleeping habit, no more hogging my laptop and doing blank talk on MSN(will dependent la...). I know MSN has been bothering me a lot. I will try to cut down my sign in rate, or better yet, cease to sign in altogether. Since there is no more gym in the mean time, I'll have to jog around the neighbourhood but apparently to jog around in my neighbourhood at daybreak is like slamming your head against the wall. Wayyyyyy too dangerous, oh yea, my godparents house nearly got burglarised yesterday. I was awakened by papa's yelling around 4 am and we all rushed to the front gate to see what happened but the burglar had already escaped into darkness. That bugger just managed to hop over the fence to car porch and attempting to do his foul job (HE is a Chinese!) but kena hushed off by our nervous shock, so his plan was backfired. See, the crime rates nowadays are marvellous. As far as I know, Subang Jaya is still a lot safer. Now, I have lotsa worries whenever I go for jogging in JB, there are tonnes of precedents already, snatch thefting, kidnapping...yada yada. Sighs........hell I can't be bothered already, I AM JUST GONNA BLOAT MYSELF UP during the holiday T^T

Tell me if there will be any good thing usher in this holiday which I think there won't be any.

I have lotsa sins to repent I guess.

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Soon (the one in the 1st pic) asked me the other day : " Why you have 3 cookies and I have 2 only?"

Me : "Cos I am Cookie Monster...!"

He uttered : "But this is not your house how can you eat so much...!"

Me : ".........."

Now, that's what I called Kids Say The Darndest Things.

PS : Nah, I didn't strangle him because of that kiddo statement...

PPS : Should I be more aggresive and proactive in terms of I-KNOW-WHAT? But better if I keep with THAT in distance, since THAT-THING wanna be mean and fickle, I shall reveal you my claws and fangs once again. Seriously I'm tired of this virtual connection. Sad thing is you've done nothing to fetch it into reality. If you think the former is great, kick yourself and tell yourself in a cheerful manner with Barney's tone "I suck". I dunno la, since you've already enthroned with my shit-list status, I shan't bother much. Bye.

The Day I Eagerly Tested My New Camera

The People

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The Night Scenes

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The Architectures

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The Playground

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The Flowers

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All shots were taken at ISO 100 + a host of automatic settings only. Nothing much special to capture around KLCC park, it's so miserable to say. The 12x zoom is super powerful but some highlight area may be overexposed. Noises are not really visible under ISO 100. Phew! Edge to edge sharpness is there thanks to the high quality Leica lens. Apparently I thought by putting a "The" in front every nouns will make them sound classy. Thus, I start every category of my photos with a "The". Inspired by "The" Gardens, "The" Weld, "The" Curve, "The" Street, "The" Mall and et cetera. Ain't they classy too? Needless to say those are upmarket shopping malls around Klang Valley.

*click on photo to see the original resolution without cropping

*photos are all unphotoshopped

Weeeeee.......

I received my camera from Penang this morning around 9 something AM! God damn it, it was like the superest fastest delivery ever in less than a day! But oh well can't compare to international courier bcos the latter takes time like the US priority mail that I encountered during my last eBay's deal. But come to think of it, US priority mail is not a courier service I think. It's like normal airmail but definitely ample times expensive than our national postal service and it ships in normal interval nia. Anyways, this seller who dealt with me on lowyat.net is very trustworthy la, not like what I expected in previous entry. Go find him on LYN if you want good camera deals, his id is "vladimir".

And now I'm so redundant on camera edi, I have 3 personal cameras, 1 pointless self taking camera I bought from HK but hardly used and my cameras on phones. BUT ALL OF THEM CAN'T AMOUNT TO A FULL FLEDGED DSLR AFTERALL :( Never mind, I should be contented for what I'm having.

After my extensive research on the laman web, I found few condominiums which famous for renting like Dataran Prima, Bayu Puteri, Kelana D'Putera, Shang Villa, Kelana Mahkota, Kelana Puteri and Crimson Condo, not sure if they are complete or just a partial list around Kelana Jaya. The problem is I'm from Johor Bahru, you know the crime-prone city with only 5 policemen on duty daily, how am I suppose to know the exact location without a map? Gah!

Sick fuck, I'm soooooooooo lazy! And I'm soooooooo gonna miss out the gig by Click 5ive in Hard Rock Cafe tonight or I should say, I've already missed it since no one's going with me, if only Cheryll is here! Furthermore, this is deadly, definitely fated I tell you, I'm really on the verge of absenting from My Chemical Romance Live In Stadium Merdeka Concert! Hai lat edi, super hai lat! Again if only Cheryll is here, not sure if Danny's going or not but even he does I probably won't tag along with him. Cheryl (this Cheryl shall be distinguished from that Cheryll, JB's Cheryll is the one with double "L"s) still not sure of going cos she's in Kuantan and currently suffering from slight papa kedana. As for me, the date kinda close to my trip, be it Macau or Jakarta one and me already hutang keliling pinggang + papa kedana also, arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh fuck I dunno! I'll be so shameful to let it go slip since I'm quite a fans of MCR for years *covers face*. I shall remove my poster of them from the wall if I ever missed it which pretty much possible. Arghhhhhhhhhhhh! I don't wanna think about it. I can catch them in Sg. if I missed M'sia stop. I think I shall find more acquaintances who love MCR, CLICK 5IVE and all other bands. Anyone out there share the same sentiment please contact me T^T. I sound like a loser.


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ta-dah! the thing in wonder...with super humongous diameter of lens or maybe just the barrel, tarak tau.

What I've Been Doing So Far

As per the title, nothing much practically.

I went out with rabbit yesterday after coming back from KL, and we went KL again. Rabbit wanna hunt for food recommended by " 1 day 5 meals". So we toured around KL town. It was a pain in ass to drive around KL downtown. Jams are like mushrooms, if not, bumper to bumper. That geographically challenged fella actually had the guts to call me out to KL downtown. So it turned out that I had to lead the way. Oh, we went Chow Kit, Lorong Haji Taib 5 for Pan Mee. Rabbit said it is darn famous can die but to me, ma ma dei only, nothing to go oohahhs about. In my 20 cents, JB serves better Mi Hun Kuih. Kudos to our Soon Lee Mi Hun Kuih :D ! Traffic and weather were horrible in KL. It was so much like an expatriate city with multitudes of 3rd world country foreigners wandering around. Since my godfather used to stay around that area years ago, so I kinda familiar with that place. For once, it brings back a lot of my childhood memories. Yaohan, Amusement Park, PWTC, Puteri Pan Pacific Hotel, Kenny Hills, Bukit Tunku and all. Ah Gu and Ah Kim used to sell Char Kuay Teow around the alley those days and it was so famous that NHK Japan filming troop had to come and take their shoots. No kidding wei!

Anyways, by the time we finished our Pan Mee, the day still pretty young. So we went to One U, wanted to eat Carl Jr. burger but upon reaching before the counter, we found that it was not that impressive and appealing either. Business was horrible and laggy which was a huge contrast to the one in VivoCity Singapore. And so, we just gao dim ourselves in Sushigroove, again, the food was average only. Then, we were so bored to an extent that we actually had to compromise for movie watching in the end. Watched "30 days of night" by Josh Harnett. Movie was superb, based on novel but Josh Harnett died in the end was unexpected. It was a blend of thriller, horror and helluva love story plot. And I must mention those unknown hideous creatures in the movie, they are like bloody vampire with 10000000 times uglier looking. So much so that it caused phobia to me. Omg, those fangs, hollow slit eyes (yes, slit eyes!) and mindless screeching just driving me ugrhhh! I swore a few words through out the movie screening and those who sat around me was giving me that kinda "wtf" look haha, and I laughed like mad when I was supposed to get shocked outta my life. That's sorta my "weakpoint" whenever I hit cinema for horror movie. I just can't stand those pointlessness. I can be very random at times.

Allow me to mention that I bumped into Marion Counter and her bf I think in One U! She's darn pretty but a bit chubby in real person than on screen. Then, I saw this dirty stuff too that not really worth mentioning, Daniel Lee (M'sian Idol 1 winner), ptui! Been seeing him around for zillion times edi, he's so ordinary looking and in fact I kinda think that he looks like a TB. Fugly.

I just bought one old school looking Panasonic Lumix prosumer camera on LYN. Since this fella that supposed to sell me his Fujifilm S6500fd ffk-ed me *bloodboils*, so it left me with no choice but to carry out my plan B. I'm not very impressed with the performance of Lumix but since they trumpeted Leica DC so might as well give it a try since it is cheaper as well given that the camera itself is an older model. I paid that seller through Banking-In and he promised to courier me the next day which is tomorrow by Citylink, which he claims to be fast and efficient. Omg, I won't dare to think of any dodgy consequences that can happen...such as..........I've fallen into the beautiful trap of a century conman! *Touches wood*

Today's BodyJam class was the most crappy ever. Hell, whole class was filled with aunties, I wonder where had those regular guys gone. Ayzie was really lame, she played crappy music and forced me to dance to crappy dance step. It was soooooo embarrassing. I left halfway through cos I couldn't stand it anymore. Mood was ruined. Cis!

If I'm really getting my camera by tomorrow then I shall make a photography trip to the city. KLCC, Masjid India, Merdeka Square and those to be more precise.

PS : I think I need a single room in Dataran Prima condo or Bayu Puteri apartment in Kelana Jaya...but it's so hard to hunt for one online. Sienness.

So I Think You Can Dance

Oh I went to "lala" land Sg Wang yesterday and to my glee, I saw performance by 4 finalists of So You Think You Can Dance season 1, American version mind you! Damn super duper cun!

Anyways, pics of Eye on Malaysia though they are very much conventional but who give a shit...

Too spontaneous already so were not equipped with a full fledged camera -_-

Aftermath

Upon the completion of finals, I can finally destress kao kao!

Lazy to type that much here afterall no one will be reading,

so...

After Cal. II paper which pretty much fucked up, I was not in the mood actually but somehow, that's life and it is predestined, the only problem is to accept and get over it. So my mood fluctuated to the vertical extreme again with that Ah Q's notion.

For once or twice, I thought I might be someone lack of the nourishment of books. Thus, I went Kinokuniya to menaiktarafkan myself with fragrance of books. I can't believe I actually spent that A LOT on books alone in a month. With that i can buy 5-6 Thomas' Calculus textbooks already :D...and I'm actually overly obsessed with Chinese books thesedays rather than many of the English books back then. I'll only read English books if it's a political, sociological or literature one. Otherwise, it's too intellectual-ish to my apprehension. Oh, I've bought another book by Chen Ru Yu (Phoenix Satellite TV news reader cum TV host cum journalist on the block). Love her to bits. Anyways, I've tried Vienna bagels which I can pretty proclaim that it tasted the same as ordinary pretzels than it is not! Holyfuck.

And just yesterday I went for a haircut finally at The Gardens, this hair stylist who handled my hair actually spoke with me in British accent which I wonder why but I was more than happy to listen to Brittish accent! If only he could speak in Scottish accent or Queen's English, fulamak, I'll burn 3 incenses on the spot for apprenticeship liao! The first question he ever asked me was, "do you want something funky?" Then I told him, of cos la BUT funky yet low profile, I'm not that kinda extroverted and flamboyant person in person. So yea. He actually didn't get my point and gave me a very funky but not so low profile pattern. haiz but It was great cos inclusive of one hairspa session altogether with quite reasonable price. I was asked to dye my hair for more colour in depth but that really goes beyond absurdity already cos the price shoots up to almost 300 with my pendek mia hair. Really exorbitant. All in all, it's a pleasant experience la since it's a topnotch and upmarket salon, but i just don't like more than 2 people to attend me during the process of having the haircut. I bet their business on that day wasn't that good so they are kinda free. Oh yea, there were few reporters on spot too and they took my photos while I'm having my hair washed. But they definitely won't gonna publish it in any case cos I'm sooo underdressed.

Then I rushed the hell outta my life back to Subang after my hairdo cos Sue was waiting for me in Subang Parade! It was Leong's birthday which I shamefully forgot! So we went back and had dinner, picked up Leong in Setapak and off to KL. Supposedly, we were gonna hit Sg Wang to buy Jay Chou's new album (pre-released) but backfired cos traffic jam and couldn't make it on time. And it so happened that we passed by Lake Garden. So spontaneous, we climbed to the EYE ON MALAYSIA. We thought it was gonna be romantic, but kena potong stimmed when we actually gonna shared one gondola with strangers. It costs freaking 15 bucks per head...for 5 rotations. Wtf, 3 bucks for one round! the panoramic nightview wasn't come close to take our breath away. One side was KLCC view but the other side was totally in full contrast, dimmed residential area with boring streetlights. Right after that we went to find papa in one of the Hotel nearby lol.

Today is gonna be full of programmes too :)

Parents will be up next week Deepavali! :D

OVER!

Proudly proclaim, my 2nd sem has finally over! Although the worst part has yet to come, which is the fearful part of getting sucky result. It's pretty much expected but I hope it won't go beyond absurdity! Calculus test today was terrible, 3 hours with 10 questions still got not enough of time. It seems like endless...the questions are a lot tougher than what we usually find in the textbook, during those quizzes and tests. I wonder why did they save the "best" for the last. I don't know, I am sssssoooooo over it and totally jaded and numbed. Can't be bothered so long as I can just pass it and the story ends. I don't demand for much after the final paper, my spirit is badly dampened edi. I'm not gonna venture any further in Calculus anymore. Hey, my uni doesn't even require me to take Calculus, let alone Calculus II. I was supposed to take only Statistics and College Algebra for my major. Now it has pulled down my overall GPA, see?! Happy? And I'm on the verge of changing major again. If entry requirement for NMI (Nuclear Medicine Technology) is too high I'll opt for RRT (Respiratory Care) instead. So I can transfer earlier for the latter cos the major year starts at Junior and Senior year! Nuclear will only starts at Senior Year actually, kinda annoying and I'm really in doubt of their accreditation standard lor given that it is such a sophisticated and technical major. No hesitation or doubt, 2.5 GPA in maximum for this sem only, for THE MOST, fine go laugh!!! All shall thanks to the Calculus With Analytical Geometry II. Man, I'm really traumatized by the paper just now, freaking 3 hours butt sticking of torturing on questions that you couldn't answer even if you scratch your scalp out. If someone ever tells me to take anymore Calculus III IV V or or whatever hingga ketakterhinggaan level affixed...I'll just bite my tongue to end my life. As easy as it can be.

Sad to say, lotsa plans ahead on this holiday but not enjoyable ones to say the least. Have to hunt for house again, have to forgo gymming session for time being, have to parasite at home, have to worry about the releasing of result approx. 2 weeks later, have to worry this and worry that. Mood also don't have. Sighs. 2 months are just wayyyyyyyyyy too much for a holiday isn't it? I prefer to be as busy as a beeeeeeeeeeeeeee but I'm still too slothful enough to be busy. My body is contradicting my motivation!


sora by Yoko Kanno, veeeeeeeeeeeeeeery nice

600

I have learned silence from the talkative, tolerance from the intolerant, and kindness from the unkind; yet strangely, I am ungrateful to these teachers.

Life is all about how far you can tolerate.

Exactly my 600th post today out of more than 3 years of personal diary blogging. 599 posts of whinings and rantings, I wonder how did I live through my life sometimes. But nonetheless, I am blessed, I've lived it through and still living...

Last paper (Cal. II) tomorrow, may lucksss be upon me!

Spontaneous

Michell text-ed me yesterday, telling me that apparently there's some misunderstanding between me and Max. It's like Max is accusing me for being possessive and taking things for granted but I am SERIOUSLY not. The other day I was asking them to accomplany me to MV for haircut cos I thought Mich might be interested in getting one also as it is done by Korean/Japanese stylist. On top of that I was gonna treat them as I promised cos of the RM 30's sticker incident, apparently Max's just got me wrong and thought of other thing. I know what's going on so needless to fathom my mind as everything is within my prediction before I made any conclusion out of it. I shan't disclose that much la but my intention is not what you've been thinking of lo...it's so sad that how you actually think of me :( Of cos, I know you won't gonna drive all the way to MV la...there's always a plan B you know? Being petty is not an issue at all. I just don't know how. I was damn sleepy after my COM 110 final finished at 7pm yesterday. Had dinner with Jas and zonked out at 9pm straight until 6:30 am today.

What more to whine, COM paper as usual, gone case. My speech part really suffered from rigid time constraint. The entire speech is so verbalized and dissolved! I think most of the sentences and vocabs are soooooooooo freaking weak and problematic. I studied quite a lot before that, like half a day?haha. Supposed to study in the library but as you know, group study wasn't just all about studying. In fact, we spent 70% of time talking craps. Bah, can't give shit already since it has already done. Just pray not to get less than B-

In any case, Jas called me just now asking for a K-ing session at Neway nearby and I went, together with Sheryl as well. They were so spontaneous, I was having my lunch and they called then went to Neway had 2nd round of lunch again...and I guess my jogging session this morning in the park has gone waste again. haha! It feels so good to get up early in the morning and go to the park. Let the morning breeze and air slap into your face. I don't know if it's just me but it definitely does more than refreshing. Good way to start off a day! I know it sounds very uncle-ish as the park mostly occupied by veterans but why give damn? Indoor gym is way behind this. I can't stand it everytime they blast the aircon to full volume as if the electricity is provided free, just fucks up my respiratory system badly as in choking my breath with freezing air. Hope they can actually realise it.

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Randomness



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Stoic looking me and happy them

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Jas is officially merdeka but me hasn't, Calculus II paper on Thursday is soooooooooooooooooooooooo dead. Kill me.

And I still have no idea whether to register for English Literature next sem or not. Part of me wanna do it because the class will be fun with Ms Kalai and the old gang, part of me not because I sucks in this kinda artsy analytic subject, moreover it's ENGLISH Literature, definitely not my forte as I hardly turn on by English reading materials these days. Anyways, I'll have to find out whether it is transferrable to my uni or not since it is such an rare subject under AUP. We are kinda firing an petition to Ms Terry to start the class next sem cos usually they won't cater to student unless upon request. I'm seriously planning to raise another petition for French class. lol.