Bastardised

Holy Molly!

I had Anthropology presentation today together with English test (30 freaking %).

It was so tensed up during the presentation cos time was running up and I had to speak really fast which resulted in few of my parts being forwent. Sien. Anyways, it went smoothly or mediocre to say cos afterall nothing can offset the anxiousness for English test. I have to say this unabashedly that I haven't been doing essays for few months in ENL 101, no special reasons just purely out of laziness and bonus of not compulsory in doing so :)

INDEED, the test turned out to be harder than I expected! This time seriously got jeopardised. First section was outlining and second one was argumentative essays. I think my essay is already terpesong since I got so overwhelmed when I saw homosexuality topic and blabbered 2 page full without giving much thought of it. And later when I came back only to realise that some parts of it are a lil' bit fishy @.@". But my thesis statement, first and second topic sentences and conclusion are alright, it's just the third topic sentence a bit problematic cos I was in a hurry to rush off to conclusion when time lapsed into the last 13 minutes. Does open declaration of sexual preferences has something to do with social problems? I mean if someone keeps their identity in-closet for too long and has been stifling their emo-ness/depression for quite sometime having fear of being discriminated, it can cause mental breakdown which will soon leads to felo-de-se (aka self-annihilation aka suicide la) right?Right?RIGHT? Yea, I remember I wrote something similar in a more informal and layman wordings. I hope Ms Kalai get what I'm trying to convey in this part and also the biological factors part which consists genetic, anatomical and hormonal SDs (sounds familiar eh?). It's like telling people that open declaration of sexual preferences shouldn't be inhibited because homosexuals are just like normal people and the causes to their homosexuality are no longer revolving around environmental influences anymore but studies have been carrying out and they really give solid evidence that it is inborn biologically rather than influenced. Again, hope she get what I mean and will not demand for any evidence of data or origin of resources :S Or else, I'm not gonna just simply plan for my funeral this time but start digging my own grave. Man!

Seriously gone case la...30 out of 100% habis masuk jamban. Not kidding wei, 30% is damn a lot to determine the band of your grade!

PS : the only thing I could do is "tua buay", borrow luck from GOD. Sounds so a do-or-die loser at the edge of his demise T.T

PPS : I had the sudden urge to peek at FurongJieJie's pic just now and even after so many months, I'd say she still look gross and hideous like how she looked like in her mother's womb. And I puked my dinner out while looking over those pics...damn gao bin puay! You can never find any one with thicker skin, and it weighted around 45 kgs as proudly claimed by her in her blog, her breasts, what flower and nectar thingy...uber potong stim. Shall not bring back the trauma again and ass off to Anthro. *roll eyes*

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twilight

Embrace

You know what? I feel so thankful for having this pair of god-sent parents from time to time.

My mum has been nursing my bedridden grandpa for few consecutive months and she has to wake up off and on for every midnight to attend my grandpa's need. She hardly even sleep well from then and my dad has to send my grandpa to specialist doctor for every now and then. The medical report has yet to come out in 2 weeks time. I hope everything is ok for him. I've been helping my mum to take care of my grandpa for the past weekend. Fed him, bathed him, talked to him, handled his excrements and urines and so on. Well, I would say it's not easy to take care of him given that he is already in his 102. And the worst part is he was being totally blurred on Saturday, he couldn't even notice my existence and keep on asking my mum where am I. I got so worried but luckily things are moving towards to positive now. He is more sober at this point, at least the moment I left his house this afternoon, he could still talk to me a bit. Thank god.

I will definitely love my parents even more upon looking at their hardship. It's not because of how much they have satisfied my vanity, materialistic and spendthrift sides through financing me whenever I feel the desires but rather the love they bestowed to the closests around them. They seem to have hallow rings adrifting on them like some kinda guardian angels. God bless them and everyone who embraced by them. We shall stem the tide with one heart and pray everything will be fine.

Anyways, I managed to spend a day with Cheryll and Terence hanging around. We watched "Simpsons The Movie" which was pointlessly funny and humourous esp. when they satirised all the fellow politicians in the US. It's short though but no doubt nutcracking and laughed our ass off like mad. After movie, we just went to Meldrum Walk across the street for dinner, man, my favourite "Oo Lua" (fried oyster with eggs and starch), bak kut teh (meat in herbal soup), popiah (spring roll), Ikan Bakar (grilled stingray), "chi kong (lok bee)" (6 flavours dessert soup) one word ORGASMIC...it's sad that I can't find any place that sells "chi kong" around KL/PJ. That's weird! And it's funny to see Philosphy/Salabianca opening at CS...can't be pariah than that anymore.

Went to Danga Bay for a stroll and some drinks after that gratifying dinner and then headed home. Nothing much, not to say quality time spent but such a simple "farewell" to Cheryll was in fact too informal to say the least, sorry for the faux pas, lol! I've been seeing her from KL to JB and hopefully US next! It's more like fated and thank god for giving me a friend as such. Bon Voyage, 10 more days to go, Cheryll!Next up, will be Terence's turn.

Oh yea, I've consulted a dermatologist yesterday and he prescribed me with some exorbitant medications which require me to visit him every once in a month including a blood test to ensure I'm not having any side effect from the medications -_-. I can't believe my problem is still ADOLESCENT sebum excretion! Wtf, the word ADOLESCENT is so inappropriate since the one that comes closest to me is nothing more but MID-YEAR CRISIS. I almost blown up in front of the doctor upon hearing that word. Me no longer teenager, so I don't wish to categorise myself under some shits of puberscent or adolescent. Call me an adult instead...! *roll eyes* No kiddo dido, I'm BEING ALL SERIOUS!

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Me & Cheryll ghosting at Beach Club, Danga Bay

Terence is being literally double faced

Light

Dusk

Yours truly in the most laughable hair of the year

PS : The long lost back-packing crave is coming back again, so clueless of where to start off! I wanna conquer by railway this time...Tibet and the Trans-siberian line! India is not so bad too...

Violently happy

So, after 1 month away from JB the land of crimes you may call it but that's my home, it's the best place on earth. Drove home with my semi-able body after suffering from a long journey of bus ride, my back is aching as a result of Body Balance and remaining in static pose for nearly 5 hours. Upon reaching, topped up myself with half bottle of Chardonnay wine immediately. Haven't been so alcoholic for ages, the desire is triggering beneath. No worries, I'm a good drinker, still sober at this point.

No doubt, this trip back is specially for Cheryll *claps* and of course for my bed-ridden grandfather as well.

I was leaving in a hurry during my English class, couldn't be bothered much with my argumentative essay also, blabbered 2 pageful and passed it up. In the end, got scolded by Ms Kalai badly with reducing words that really dampened my morale. Obviously, she was pms-ing for the day already, on top of that she still had to face my bad work. Then she went like "Kok Whei....*shakes head in disbelief*...is this what I taught you all the while?","Kok Whei, you are my hope for A.....","Kok Whei...you are doing rubbish","Kok Whei, this is rubbish!" (Disclaimer : Kok Whei is not equal to the term "rubbish")

Yea I know it was rubbish but repeating it for 1367482937 times isn't gonna make it sounds any better. So I was dismissed after having myself a piece of mind. Seriously that was the 2nd essay I wrote for English class in this entire semester. I never even bothered to do her online homework instead I'm doing some other stuffs which do not even benefit me in any way. Feel so guilty for her and myself. I'm gonna redo it and send to her email by this week because my conclusion part is too short as I muddled it over but 1st topic sentence is crazily lengthy. She was damn pissed with the imbalance of my word length and error in format :(

Whatever, I'm not gonna further to ENL 102 as IUP doesn't need that. But I have 2nd thought now, fully utilising 9 credit hours is gonna be tough and fatal. 24 hours lectures per week, just imagine. Average of 5 hours lectures in a day. All the reading subjects. The only combination of 3 which doesn't have clashes is combo of US history II, Public Speaking and Philosophy or Psychology. Damn potong stim. Or else I'm gonna follow my friends for combo of Calculus II and US History II. However, 8 weeks semester for Calculus is way too risky although I have the foundation, just wanna give myself a break from calculations in the meantime I guess. Will see how then.

I've been thinking a lot for what should I majoring in, as I said, it's either MT(Medical Technology) or NMT(Nuclear Medicine Technology). Both are highly demanded jobs in US as allied-health industry is booming currently. Pay is nice. Easy to obtain Greencard afterall. For MT, full sciences are required in addition to Organic Chemistry whereas NMT, only Physics are needed as the core science subject and some lower level Chemistry plus basic Anatomy. The rest will have to be my major subjects in Junior and Senior years together with clinical training. Sounds great huh? Beats me...just wanna minimise the amount of lab-based science subjects. lol.

PS: I've no idea what kept me from doing that unceasingly for the whole sem. which in turn perished myself and smacked a whole pile of shits on my face, yea, it's a connotation if you haven't got what I mean. Indirectly got blamed at the end. The only reason I was to be blamed is being so foolish enough to let this happen, I don't think I'm benefiting you either it's just that apparently it seems that way. However, the final victim is still you who never learned a god damned thing. You've no idea how speechless I am. What a phantasmagoric dream you have! Wish you all the best in pursuing it then. *sniggers and roll eyes*

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Who says I'm dendrophobic?

N U M B E R I N G

Practically numbering the days to apocalypse

final for semester 1 is already so torturing...afterall the dropping, failing, emoing and counselling,
here I am, still standing still but not sure whether it's still and strong.

2 more divine weeks to my first paper of final!

So dead...kill me please. 18 chapters for Anthropology if not mistaken, 17 chapters for Chem I *woot*

Seriously need to think over some funeral planning for myself. *vomits blood*

PS : The govt. has officially declared war against blogger, I'm worried about a lot of famous local bloggers out there. Why isn't there freedom of speech and everything has to be concealed and sugar coated?Bummer.

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Last Chem I experiment and report

Fine arts

Next semester's subjects option is out...

I got only 5 to choose from if I was to maximise my 9 credit hours...

-Art appreciation
-Intro. to philosophy
-American history II
-General psychology
-Essential of public speaking

Still stuck in most of the 100-level subjects except for HIS 252 :(

I hope out of the 3 choices there won't be any clashes :s

I would prefer Intro. to philosophy/Essential of public speaking, Art appreciation and General psychology...but somehow Art appreciation is limited in class size, admittance and time slot :(
It's all about the learning of art theory of Renaissance, Romanesque, Gothic! and so on! No heavy drawing required. To my glee, they are all transferable with my major :)

Statistical Method with Lab (200-level subject!!!) can forget about it cos it is not required by my major and can't be transfered...:/

There will be a lot of reading, writing, speaking and memorising jobs ahead in next sem. I'm gonna be so artsy-fartsy and shall dress myself spiritually and practice Yoga -_-

Disenchanted

I've lost my heart, someone if you found it please burn it and spread the ashes into the sea

I've lost my eyes, I don't think I would ever need one since I prefer to be blindfolded

I've lost my feelings, I don't want it anymore, don't bother to look for it, let it rot

Nothing I've lost perhaps I am just dreaming,fantasizing, building castle in the air with

foolishness

Foolishness that deeply embedded in my heart to blindfold me

Foolishness that nourished the feelings of unconciousness

Stabbed me and dragged me down to the deep abyss

I'm happy, I'm glad, cos I've learned something that I've never learned in my life

Felt something that I've never felt before, it all started with an alright scene

But now

Here I am, standing at the crossroad once again

Staring into the blank sky hoping for things that I will never get

To burn the bridge or walk the crossroad

Only a matter of time

Though I lost my soul but not my mind

I am still what I am yesterday

Now will it matter if I'm gone?

Because you never learned a god damned thing...

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Of steamboat and nothingness

Yesterday was adventerous,

Mashimaro's car was in Pyramid so she didn't wanna drive cos the place was nearby only just around Dataran Mentari. Thus, we took taxi from the counter in front of Pyramid main entrance.

Alrite, Charles told that cashier which apparently having hearing impairment that we are going to Dataran Mentari, even showed her the address to the stemboat restaurant but the taxi fella with mushroom ears and fungus growing brain from no where accused us from telling him that we were heading to Mentari Court and keep on whining the hell out when we failed to locate the place we wanted to go. Whining as if I was grab holding his stinky dangly balls with full strength and didn't wanna let go. I got pissed since I wasn't in that good mood and I scolded him Chinese bad word...and he understood it actually! Me and him kinda quarrelled and I just ordered him to pull over at a bus stop nearby cos enough of his mother fucking namby pamby whining and slammed his door hard...kinda spoilt my mood on top of it has already been spoilt! Grrrr..... I hate KL's cabbies, PJ to be precise, Subang Jaya to be more precise! Cheesin fulat tong zhu dang no balls fella!

And I remembered I told him the place with lotsa steamboat restaurant, expected him as a cabbies to know, indeed he is such a ill bad rotten egg among all the cabbies...mushroom dickhead! Actually after we dropped by the bus stand, the place was just right opposite to our eyes. So no big deal and hassle also, learn that up stupid mushroom dickhead cabbie! Go burn in hell for all I care...

Saw damn a lot of JB-ians while I was there, I wonder why JB-ians love steamboat buffet so much! But Sunway's steamboat still a distance away from JB's steamboat in terms of variety, reasonability, price and yumminess! I used to hear say alot that Sunway Mentari offered one of the best steamboat buffet around the town which I beg to differ and can't agree less. Taman Cheras's ala carte steamboat can beat them down anytime. And worst is they don't provide BBQ base besides steamboat, so damn boring and dull!

Anyways, Mashimaro drove us back after that which was already 11 sumthing. Charles stayed over my place, brought him to Station One later for yumcha until 2 sumthing. Supposed to help him with his Elements of Law assignment but I couldn't tahan anymore collapsed on bed after bathed, lol. Today summore have to go Sing K with him, yea again I know!!! And Topman's having 1/2 price slashing sales...so damn tempting and I bought some with damn dirt cheap price. Planning to go MV tomorrow to shop for more Topman and Zara again! GAP is having not much price slash so they are damn kiam siap since they just ventured into Malaysian market, damn not-entrepreneur-ised, haha...we localites love SALES man, what are you thinking there?!

Was totally incapacitated after the meal, couldn't walk, couldn't breathe, couldn't laugh, couldn't talk haha, paralyzed there for few minutes to digest the stomach.

Few words a day keeps CJ and me away,

Nycotophilia - preference to darkness

Pediophobia - fear for dolls

Pedophile - bian tai ppl who have sexual fantasies about kids

Klismaphilia - individuals who are sexually aroused by enemas

Coprophagia - individuals who gain sexual satisfaction from eating feces

Pederasty - male homosexuals who enjoy having sex with children

Necrophilia - sexually aroused by viewing or having sex with corpses

Apotemnophilia - individuals feel like they should not have arms or legs

Arachibutyrophobic - fear of peanut butter sticking to the roof of the mouth

Coulrophobic - fear of Clowns

Euphobic - fear of hearing good news

Sinistrophobic - fear of the left handed

Trichopathophobia - fear of hair

Eurotophobic - fear of vagina

Francophobic - fear of the French
Novercaphobic - fear of your step-mom

Ithyphallophobic - fear of seeing or thinking of an erection

dendrophobe - has an intense and overpowering fear of trees

aviophobia - an irrational fear of flying

brontophobes - an irrational fear of thunder and lightning

for more go here http://www.indianchild.com/phobias.htm and http://www.phobia-fear-release.com/types-of-phobias.html

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Caution : Bad quality photos ahead.

Caught in the act!

Now you see it

Now you don't

Mashimaro's bonzai


A pot of latrines u can call it, one word, gross!

Kitten who invaded my room this morning! Cute as it may be but I don't like cat anyhow...

Sorry if you feel disturbed :)

Fatigue 190707

well...one word demoralizing.

Somehow I feel very tired, physically, due to overstretching from Body Balance and overbouncing from RPM. Mentally.....long gone. I'm seriously blanked out now, if migraining can be considered as something, then I'm not.

Ah fuck it, I was having serious headache for the whole day after Anthropology class, kills me I don't fucking know why also! No matter how long I napped, how much energy I pumped still pretty futile. Could be exhausted or depressing but I hope it's just the former.

Not sure whether I should just snuggle my not-so-lovely bed or what cos I surely won't get to sleep at once. A lot of introspections, thinkings, decisions, plannings will came whirling above my head and causing commotions. I blame it on my stupidity sometimes, cos I am blind, like very blind. Not in the sense that I can't see nothing but rather the perception of realising is shadowed by some senseless act of emotion.

Perhaps I'm too harsh on my words for applying stupidity on myself. Let's just say, temporary out of mind, if that sounds better. Whatever. I'm a loser.

Can't be bothered much these days. Essentially, I just want to find my worth, someone who can really appreciate it. I guess to get this done is even harder than telling a cat to lay eggs. Que sera sera.



PS : A word a day keeps CJ away haha...thx for telling me what "Party Pooper" is and I can't find any better word to describe myself after I encountered this phrase! It's so me...lol. Anyways, it simply means that someone who doesn't like to see someone else happy and having things that they like. It can also be knowned as "Spoilt Sport". Damn I'm sucks in all these lingos and slangs.



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Sunset and same goes to what's inside of me...

Hanging

Ms Terrie asked me to work my ass off during the one last month,

I have yet to see Ms Shanta for more advise which I think she will by all means ask me to drop judging on my marvellous result and courseworks.

Ms Terrie said there aren't any Statistics that match my case if I was to take it, it's either Business Statistic or a higher level statistics which I believe it's quite similar to what I've done in my Statistics 2 in A-levels but to ADP standard, it is tough *shrugs*.

And so I was not encouraged to take Statistics so soon if I'm gonna drop Calculus II now, I was asked to find out more and they need to take further contact to IUP to check with their equivalencies...topsy turvy @.@

Haiz...so in conclusion...to allow myself with wider Uni. choices and more transferrable credit. Stick to Calculus II will still be the best option since that's what everyone's doing, why can't I?

...anyhow, I'll still drop it this semester to prevent it from affecting my GPA and CGPA. As for next sem which is a short sem of 9 weeks, maximum of 9 c.h. will be alloted to each only. So if I'm retaking Calculus II next sem I can only take 2 subjects which is one 4 c.h. subject + one 3 c.h. subject = 7 c.h. means 2 more c.h. will gone waste. To hell, I've already wasted so much time already, so I'll definitely take 3 x 3 c.h. subjects to maximise it. Means no science subject for next sem nor calculation based subjects. All arts like Public Speaking, Philosophy, Religious Studies, Arts Appreciation, Music Appreciation, Psychology and Sociology...etc. So much for fine arts! Can relax and exile a bit in the mean time hehe.....and resume my Calculus II next year Spring semester cos after all, new year = new semester = new life = new resolution!

Calculus II in 2008 here I come...again! I'm gonna kill you hard and burn you in hell for good this time...hope I can still remember what I've learned about it in this semester by next year :s

I'll be seeing Ms Terrie again tomorrow about the Statistics stuffs...

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Whoa...I parasite-ed in gym for 4 hours today, 30 minutes of non-stop treadmill running, 1 hour of Body Balance and 1 hour of RPM...with some break in between la. Bones cracking now, legs turn jelly but very contented to say somehow. Destress...de-frustrate!

Body balance is the combination of Tai Chi + Yoga + Pilates ( I was the only guy in that class, man!)

RPM was very challenging in fact, it's all about endurance with 1 hour of perpetual cycling! Definitely will put you to severe exhaustion after you've done with it. Instructor is so highly motivated *hands down*



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Towards the horizon where I found my worth

3 and 5

Pisces is the stupidest zodiac among all.

Go check the interpretation shits you have on newspaper or whatever.

One stupid common factor and it happens on me.

Sad.

Period.

Reliving the old-self, that's all

Imma running out of time,

final's coming in a month...

I've made up my mind to drop Calculus II and if possible I'll take Statistics instead...IF, or else I'm still gonna retake next sem and it will be short sem of 9 weeks only.

Seriously having insufficient time, feeling tired and emo. Yea I'm such a big time hypocrite, I lied, I was emo all these while pretending like I was not. I'll burn in hell for good.

I'll be seeing Ms Terrie soon. I'm all to blame...been slacking away and wasting hell lotsa time on rubbish stuffs.

I've called my parents and feeling so bad now for wasting that few hundred bucks down the drain. Worst thing is they didn't even condemn me a word...and it's like the more love they give to me the more guilty I feel cos I'm so not worth for that. Especially during this very period where grandpa is still not feeling very well, mummy still has to take care of him on top of his own job, so as daddy. Love you all, mummy, daddy and Ling!

I'm gonna work harder till the final's come and even harder for the semesters to come. I've chosen this track and must persist to run on till the very end!

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"I DON'T STOP WHEN I FEEL TIRED, I'LL STOP ONLY WHEN I'M DONE"

Decisions

Coming to a tougher decision at this point,

should I just drop Calculus II to prevent from getting an "F" printed on my transcript or stick to the remaining miserably less hopes I have to obtain a passing grade now?

headache now, if I continue on means I can at least cover off all the chapters for Calculus II. Eve if I wanna retake, it won't be that hard as this time since I've done it before...but trade off is the letter "F".

I need to get 28 out of 40% for my coming final on Cal. II (Aug. 9th) in order to fucking pass...

I guess to secure a place in Uni. over there, retake is the only way out apparently. Haih...terimalah hakikat and work harder. :( mood runs dry already, don't feel like talking until I get over with it...probably gonna see advisor this time for good...some discussion might helps.

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Meme from Cheesie

I got shocked out of my life, one of my fav. bloggers tagged me(although she tagged all other readers as well but still....whatever lolx!).

Anyways, I'm having hard time digging some old photos of me since my hairstyle remains static from the day I born until today. The dry, frizzy, stiff, wavy...not-typical Chinese trait, according to some, Chinese with wavy hair are carrying Machurian's trait. Beats me...

I have to "shiong min" a bit and post up these previously "unreleased" photos of mine cos way too hideous to publicise laaa...scared later kena complained or what then habislah whole blog kena suspended by Blogger for containing indecent contents.

Naff said,

Post up 8 pictures of your different hairstyles (the crazier the better) :

The emo fringe *hair extensions wonder*

Iguana green fringe look *gross*


The blade cut stripes


Vege. seller Ah Sam's look with tied up "pony"tail, it was real hair ok!

The rebellious punk-rock hair inspired by Good Charlotte

The multi-coloured hair, altogether 8 of them I think. A total failure, never visit that saloon since after that incident cos I whined alot during that period and lessoned the hairstylistnicely.(I won't mind if you wanna split on this photo cos I'm very much deserved)

The creative highlighting top, those days~

Decent and nerdy look today, with jetblack hair colour. What to do, have to look like a grown-up and stop experimenting my hair anymore with chemical substances. Scared balding only...


To be honest, not much of dramatic changes to my hair so far. I'm bored of it but since the quality isn't good to style up so terima hakikat aje la, not fated to follow the vogue afterall.

For a decent near-otaku college student like me, I'd also prefer black in the meantime cos that's my original hair colour and I realised how himbo-ish and jinjang I was back in those days. Oh, you have no idea how much I detest lala-ish look and trying to distinguish my style from them time to time just to avoid being called lala(yea,was once being called lala!). So by now I expect some of you to know the taboo and what not to do when you see me.

And I guess that's all for it, I got no one to tag on and I bet they will most likely to get annoyed if I play this meme with them. So just let it ends here...on this forlorn blog of the boring-est people on earth.

Of debaucheries and weekend

Fruitful week, highly debauched myself and indulged in whatever that can stuff into my mouth. Since last week's Chillis, Shogun and all shits until this week is like neverending although gym still continues to skip. However, have to put a period to them now. After the clock striked 12 today, mouth shall shut for good and consume only less fat less energy high nutritions. gym session will resume in the name of GOD or else your babies and puppies die.

Parasite-ed over godparents place this week hoping for some homecook food but then coincidentally they were away to Penang left me and cousins at home T^T. Watched Harry Potter with Leong, what can I say, not a huge fan of HP and the storyline is not meant for a retarded brain like yourstruly. Piece of mind to parents out there, go buy DVD and let your kids watch at home, otherwise seal their mouth if you wanna bring them to cinema!

Did some light retail theraphy this week in MV with cousins as well, piggy was kinda empty but managed to fork some puny amount before I went broke(I'm broke now). Fully utilised the last single cent I had for 3 pieces of garment from MELL(Melinda Looi, a local designer), not bad eh. Muahaha, my long lost Econs knowledge has finally put into use...applications speak louder than theories, MR. SOMA! *lmao* So much for a calculative aka kiam siap seasonal shopping king! I love sales...regardless of the varieties, as long as I see SALES. Berserkkkk.

Last indulgence of the week :

Kaaaaa chiaaaaang ssssssaaaaaaa tehhhhhhhhh (Kajang satay) with Sue Ling!


Look at the thick and fat juicy meat, heavenly meant for every single small bites! *can please ignore the burnt parts and save me some face ah?*



I had beef, chicken and rabbit!



Kuah...gravy la!



Mediocre side dish lo...no onion also :(

Anyways, that place only sells Satay and it is like a huge building right beside the Kajang Stadium in the middle of the city. A landmark of Kajang town to be more precise. Not too hard a place to find. Anyone who wanna go can tell me, I'm more than willing to lead you there, insyaallah. The more the merrier...insyaallah!

The bottom line :

The only difference between Kajang satay and satays selling at the junction down the street is the former one comes in thicker cutlet of meats and much more succulent, they are using thicker skewers as well in this case. Nothing much to go huha about.

Weekend's tasks

Gonna retrieve a lot of things that I am supposed to do whole-heartedly,

1. Gym (it's been more than a week!)
2. Chem. lab report
3. Calculus chapter 11 tutorials
4. Anthropology's assignment report

2-4 are to be done by this weekend, still, hopefully.

Just received a warning letter for being absent for more than 3 classes in Calculus. Went my way to AUP center to get myself a piece of mind. Well, no one's scolded me, I was the one to be blamed for all. I should bang my head against the wall for good. I wanna relive a new life with new resolutions and new aspirations. Bring back the authentic and genuine smile that I used to hang around my face...don't wish to be a fake ass anymore. I hate hypocrites and I won't let such things happen on myself too often!

For now, I'm so tired, extremely tired. Tired of not being me. Tired of overly being me. Tired of masking. Tired of hiding. Tired of everything. Tired of YOU.

2nd last time seeing CJ

when I feel hurt...*amateur smoker*(ocasionally)

when she feel like camwhoring *fake smoker*(nah, she doesn't smoke!)

Lily Allen ala 7th month Hungry Ghost Festival :p

Gonna miss this girl like hell!

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Btw, it was the 2nd last time I'm seeing her. We went around BB to search for sarong(being a SPG she is *snorts*) for her bf-to-be but ended up buying nothing haha, kidding only.

I'll still be seeing her in JB next few weeks. And after that, bon voyage :(

Recently got tired of so many things...my morale is extremely low. Stress, tension, frustrations, something that I strictly keep to myself only...constantly driving me to grave.

I'm no longer the genuinely cheerful one, am I? I smile in front but I weep inside.

SyUC

yea Gah...today's Cal II test was totally fucked up nicely. Didn't know that 11.1 and 11.2 will came out more than the whole chapter 8! And all I did was focusing on chapter 8 only pandai-pandainya. It came out that only 1 question out of 5 was pertaining to chapter 8. Nia seng...

Test finished at 6pm and I rushed my way to Pyramid, then Cheryll asked me to go college for hang out. Aung is back from Myanmmar but didn't catch up with him much since he was rushing back just when I arrived.

As usual, stoned at Pink for few hours of good talk then proceeded to our beloved foyer...flashback flashback....the place with all my good and bad memories! We sat at a corner, having good laugh with all the joker friends, Numa Numa guy, Bagus Bagus guy and Fauzie haha! They can joke your ass of man....

Finally met up Samsul and his pretty gf...FINALLY! Talked for a short while only since people are meant for gf nowadays. Friends are in no position to demand anything. Haha...

Met Li Yin and talked for a while. Anyhow, met a lot of people la...it's been like ages never go back that place. Things changed. A-levels floor has shifted to ground floor....sucks and 3rd floor taken over by CIMP.

Came back at around 11 pm already, then went to Uncle's place to help him out on assignment...don't know what's happening also haha. I'm getting blur of late, have to admit that I'm old. There goes my salad days...

All in all, that sums up a day of my life as a typical average miserable college student. BORING!

PS : CJ will be flying off on 8th of Aug...so soon, it seems like she still struggling about to enter Uni like last time and emo-ing over all sorts of Uni issues like SMU incident, not gonna study anymore incident, and thereof. Haha. Did I mention that I used to hate her a lot during we first entered A-levels in SyUC in fact we both from JB but just didn't click at the first time. Only after our math class combined then she started to talk to me and we got so "tou kei" haha...if not I think no one can ever stand her don't-give-a-fuck look. Now I've learned that from her, I adopted that way whenever I'm seen to be alone...just wanna tell you fella I'm not good to mess around with but once you sweep my feet off, I will be very attached to you. In a friendly way...I don't bite, do I? *stares hard with evil eyes blinking* Seriously gonna miss hanging out with her...Terence will be flying off soon also. Haha, all the former SyUC July'05 A-levels students from JB seems flying one after another except for me only. Bweeeeee.....

Dusk faded sky and outline of Sunway Monash Condo Hostel taken from Elephant Walk :)

The place I spilled my blood and shed my tears for 2 years :D misss there so much!

PS : Again and again and again, I got so brainless to think of what you are up to, in fact I used to think a lot until I realised that it wasn't anything to my benefit also since I cracked my head just to sort out your pointless deeds that seems malnutrition to me. What for? Since it won't get recognised and acknowledged in any case also. Making troubles out of myself and splatter shits into my own face. Thanks for making me a fool. You are equally SUCKS!

Woebegone season

Strangely, people around me seems to be down at the same time having relationship problems, frustrations, reluctance, nostalgia, education problems and stress thereof.

I wonder why...

If I'm ever bestowed with an almighty magic wand like our fellow Potter buddy, I will prefer to use that to make everyone around me happy and cheerful ^^ in a shameless manner =.='''

Not many people will be in favour of being meddled with I guess, unfortunately I'm one of them. But still, I like to mess around with other people's business haha.

A piece of advice to Mr. Potter and company, instead of cursing over one another with wizardry and ended up doing it for nothing. Please learn from me and take my advice for good(told you I'm unabashed).

Speaking of that, Mr. Potter will hit the theatres today! No invitations from pihak-pihak berkenaan also :(

Dah lah, ticket pun belum book...surely all finished booking already like how it happened last time. However, can try out Times Square anytime, that place might give you a light of hope. I've been told to do so by people around me all the while but personally I don't quite like that place although the rooms are humongous...just don't ask why.

Cal II test is so dead now, I've been integrating numbers and equations for the whole day until wanna vomit. Nearly went cuckoo...@.@

Now I have all the reasons to be sad and emo also...you know...adaptation as a way of life(cheh!).

-_-

醉清风 弦子

月色正朦胧 与清风把酒相送

太多的适从 醉生梦死也空

和你最后缠绵你曾记得

乱了分寸的心动

怎么只有这首歌

会让你清醒后 醉清风

梦境的虚游 清唱一曲相送

还有没有汹涌 风花雪月也溶

和你最后缠绵你曾记得

乱了分寸的心动

蝴蝶去向无影踪

只为消愁一起游 无人宠

是我想得太多

犹如飞蛾扑火那么冲动

最后 还有一盏烛火 燃尽我

曲终人散 谁无过错 我看破

For those who can understand Chinese, I know this may sound 80's but I was browsing through some old songs folder and chanced upon this one that I used to love a lot in 2 years back. It's nice to listen when you're alone during midnight that you can actually feel the great sentiment inside. Of course, only if you know the meaning of the lyric. In fact, the lyric is well written in poetry form. Not too hard to comprehend also.

Sorry to all the famine victims in Africa

yea...hereby express my deepest apology if this entry annoyed you famine victims who have stumbled upon be it intentionally or not.

Please prepare yourself a tissue or something if you still insist on further scrolling down this entry.

Anyways, Sunday was nothing much but eating. Practically parasite-ed in OU lepak-ed the whole day.

Lunch @ Just Thai


Steamed banana with thick coconut milk sauce


Pineapple fried rice in pineapple -_-


Prawn rolls and tom yam kung! Devilish hot sial!

Looks very "gong fu chao" but taste like heaven, in fact best among all

My all time fav. the green curry with noodles

Break + Lepak @ one of the Traditional Chinese herbal tea shop

Been heaty of late? Have a bowl of kwai leng gou(a form of tortoise shell's powder made jelly) in the mean time to cool down

The SiaoZhaBor and SiaoTaBor...and we're not couple ok?! So don't keep asking.

Sinful dinner @ Shogun

While waiting to be seated, damn a lot of people queing!

My initial portion...there were more but the waiter didn't allow us to take any photo of their food, damn potong stim! We had lotsa tempura, sushi,sashimi, oysters, crabs, cod fish, unagi, dessert and all sorts of Japanese foods...I tell you if you ever think of going there, go on a fast for 2 days before you went! :D

Heaven looks just like this...we ate like crazy man the 4 of us! The bill came out to be nice in figures as well hehe. There is also a Shogun which just opened in Taman Pelangi JB behind Leisure Mall! Gonna check that out next time...needless to go all the way to OU anymore.

Got my eyes on Graphire 4 by Wacom...the touch sensitive pad for photo editing, retouching, drawing, illustrating, sketching and even handwriting(in graffiti form). How nice rite? I've been wanting to get rid of the polygon lasso and magnetic lasso on PS since forever cos the mouse just won't get the orientation right all the while which simply got my nerves off! And of cos there are more reasons that I want this little gadget which cost only a mere RM 359 out of yourpocket. My birthday's coming i think, around early next year.

~~~~~

PS : Haven't been going to gym for nearly a week...and at the same time stuffing up my stomach like crazy. I'm so deserve for a big slap on my flabby tummy and then send to hell to get died of famine! Gonna sustain on oat meals this week no matter how.

PPS : Met her bf finally, less friendly than I ever thought. *shakeshead*

PPPS : Grandpa still warding now. *worries*

PARTING SHOOT :

Yippie yay! Calculus test 2 on Wednesday, I am so gonna die horribly again! Yay!

Jualan Megasale now...I got so tempted when I see ppl holding all sorts of paperbags and plasticbags from fashion retailers like Topman, fcuk, ZARA, GAP(damn nice!)...and so on so forth! Too bad I'm too broke to amount to any practical actions on retail theraphy. Gonna crossfingers and endure 'till the end of semester already. T.T
SALESZILLA!!!

Standard core on weekend's getaway

Shameless poser on the block

Kwan's nasi lemak = orgasmic

Senseless shot of beauty(2 meg. can do the wonder also)

LOL. My bestest buddy in scholastic look sial! Retarded fella...

Frustration's ashtray

Yummilicious white coffee tasted 367923 times better than Starbugs and Kopibin

Dashboard

*****

It's damn crazy, I've been practically swallowing foods in an endless manner these few days whilst skipping gym. Gonna bloat up myself again I think =(

Saw Mei Ru in Sg. Wang today, still the same little petite looking, damn what am I thinking?

*****

Like a forlorn tree, left to decide on its own fate...

I've been on a journey that flew through a storm and landed back at the start...

No one's gonna torn me apart...

I will cry but I won't die...

Now you should know, a rose can blossom in desert sand...

Thanks for making me what I am today...